#cw for like everything

[starlight-starbright-council]

Vent, you know the drill. CW for, like, everything. By the way, I have a few asks for mutual aid but I feel like I can't dedicate the proper emotional energy right this second, but I will get to them.

I don't know what's wrong with me, but my emotional pain is much worse than usual. Like- I feel like I need attention now, but not just anyone's attention will do, or in the right way. I need the right attention...

Like. I've considered whether or not I should go seek people who want to hurt and manipulate someone just to bat my eyes and tell them I'm fine with being lied to and manipulated as long as they'll provide everything for me- not just food and shelter, but will tell me what to do, act, wear, think, like, dislike... I'll happily be someone's little doll. Happily. And then when someone realizes how unhealthy it is, they'll rescue me and treat me even better because something bad happened and I deserve it. And then they'll provide all of those things for me because they think they're helping me be independent, but then actually maybe they'll just do that for me forever because I'm a little thing that can't take care of myself and can't be trusted with being independent.

Or, like, if I got sick or injured and got put into the hospital and people would see me as so frail and in need of protection, so they give me all of their care and protection and love. That would be ideal. I just want to get really hurt and sick, not for self-harm reasons, but so I'll be taken care of and showered with love and care forever.

And then other times I feel weird because I feel better than the people around me and consider dropping them just because they don't give me enough attention/don't practically worship me.

I just... can't tell if I'm a horrible person or if there's something deeply wrong with me. I just get so jealous when other people are given attention, when other people are sicker than me- when is it my turn for people to look at me and understand that I'm deserving of all of this? When do I get to be the best at something? The most talented? The prettiest? The sickest? Anything! Because bad things happened to me, and I deserve to be allowed to live how I want.

[teaboot]

You know the last decade or so has been pretty shit but it is nice to make it to 2023 and see NFTs crash, Trump get taken to court, Musk fuck himself eight different ways, AirBnB eat shit, every major industry start unionizing and striking, and billionairs no longer able to squeeze blood from a stone finally begin cannibalizing each other for nutrients

[geomimetry]

woe be upon ye

[otterlyart]

How do you want to do this?

[lazylittledragon]

mombin pt 6 and look who showed up

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[wh0r3zzz]

I'm so tired of feeling like this.

[neramint]

I am back with some Arti art

[stil-lindigo]

the fox god.

a comic about a trickster.

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[lordtardigrade]

I love the idea of John hearing that you want a divorce and just deciding you're clearly not in your right mind and can't be trusted to make decisions for yourself anymore.

When you try to leave him, it’s during a big argument…. A big argument. Things were getting heated, the argument reaching its peak and turning into a screaming match that ended up with the police being called.

He’d seen a chance, and he’d taken it.

He could almost convince himself that what he’d done had been out of genuine concern for you… He knew better, but he couldn’t admit it, not when he’d then proceeded to do far worse with even less justification.

Oh, how you’d glared when he told the officer that he was worried about you- that your behavior was “irrational”.

And it was… at least in his mind. He just didn’t mention specifics, lest the good officers definition of irrationality differ from his own.

Just like how when he’d told the officer about your self harm and suicidal thoughts, he didn’t mention how long ago that had been, nor did he mention the treatment you’d received since then.

And that’s really all it took. From the moment the officer gave John that sympathetic glance, he’d known he’d won. When the man takes John to the side, quietly asking him if he thought you needed to be brought to a facility, John turned, giving you an apologetic look as you glared at him, fists clenched in anger as you silently fumed.

“Yes… I think that would be for the best.” He says softly, faking guilt and internal conflict over the decision.

Seeing the betrayal and confusion in your eyes had almost made him regret it.

Almost.

But he knew this was for the best. You weren’t in your right mind- how else could you say you wanted to leave him?

And the more he repeated those words, the more he came to believe them.

Of course, the involuntary hold would only last 72 hours, and John knew you’d be livid once you got out. He had to make sure he was ready for you to come home. All it had really given him was time.

The emergency conservatorship is surprisingly easy to acquire. Your admittance to the mental hospital combined with you not being able to appear in court and defend yourself made it a relatively easy win.

Getting a proper conservatorship set up would be a bit more difficult of a process, but John had already contacted Nikolai and asked him for assistance with finding a doctor willing to… fudge the truth a bit for the papers. The man’s contacts would also come in hand when it came to getting his hands on some of the medications he’d be keeping on hand until you settled down a bit… just for when you got yourself a bit too worked up.

It’s a rough couple months, because christ- you’re beyond livid with him. Once you finally wear yourself out with all your crying and screaming, John’s left with a sobbing wife who looks up at him with her eyes heart broken from betrayal.

It breaks his heart when you look at him like that, but he has to remind himself, this is all for your sake. You’ll understand that one day.

John takes to his new task of caring for his wife with a steady but firm hand, allowing you to pout and mope for a few weeks as you adjust to what is- admittedly- a big change. It’s only when you turn that anger towards him or bring up wanting to leave that he has to correct you.

When he hands you a cup of water and a little blue pill, you know he’s not asking.

The Midazolam usually does the trick, but occasionally John has to be a bit harsher in his corrections.

He has faith you’ll come around. He doesn’t even hold your behavior against you, his poor wife is dealing with a lot, and if stepping up to take care of you is what he needs to do to keep you with him safe, then that’s what he’ll do.

And when you do finally accept your new life? He couldn’t be happier. He’s so glad you were finally able to move past what he’d done- what had to be done to protect you.

[solargeist]

she tastes like the real thing

[srfiv]

and whenever they couldn't speak they looked at eachother

[starlingfawn]

[glitchdollmemoria]

please can we stop describing bigots as delusional. please. im so fucking tired. someone being sucked into a hate group surrounded by others who believe minorities should be oppressed and encouraging them to believe in conspiracy theories that the rest of the group believes, is fundamentally different from someone having a mental illness that causes delusions.

delusions, by definition, cannot be explained by things like cultural background - such as having a belief constantly reinforced by intentional attempts to rationalize it for the sake of maintaining power over minorities. yes, someone can be both delusional and a bigot, and yes conspiracy theories can feed into delusions, but the two are not fucking synonymous.

i did not spend my teen years convinced that i was being stalked by demons just to hear so many of you people equate my disability with incel behavior and genocidal propaganda. stop reinforcing harmful connotations about mental health struggles.

[mrsmp28]

Are you man enough to take the blame for this

A really fun thing, I love the dante stab!! Anatomy and bg are kinda off tho, might redraw later

[puppetmaster13u]

Prompt 261

“So is no one going to talk about the eldritch space child or…” 

“I mean, do you want to get between a child and Batman? I think the only one who could even get close right now is Superman…” 

“No you’re right, I think- oh my god the eldritch space child is playing with batman’s bat-ears and he’s not doing anything about it what the fuck I thought only Robins could get away with that-” 

[jupiter-letters]

I saw this scene the other day and I can't stop imagining Viktor doing this. This video contains some nudity!