#cw cotard's delusion

[phosphoresccent]

délire des négations - Yoglabs fic

The perfluorocarbon flowed softly through the pipes, a whole building’s respiration as the oxygenated fluid entered and exited a thousand chambers. Xephos watched his own hair flow gently in the mild current, his current face superimposed upon his master clone’s, gaunt and ghoulish, the watery blue glow of the chromatophores dusted across his face making the both of them look even less alive. 

His fingers were cold. He rested his palm against the borosilicate glass - he could feel the smooth texture but - Xephos didn’t know how long he’d been standing there, but he was just as cold as the glass itself. 

He drummed his fingers in a staccato pattern. Four quick. Three slow. Slow, quick. Quick. Slow, quick, another two slow. Slow, two short. Quick. Quick, two slow. He paused, forcefully resting his palm against the glass. Stupid. Stupid, stupid. 

His stupid fucking face was looking back at him, peaceful. The stupid fucker who’d ruined everything by being a fucking moron. He slammed his fist into the glass, again and again and again, his own blood hiding that stupid. Fucking. Face. He was holding something in his other hand. It was heavy. His palms were dry. He was so cold. 

“Xephos!” A broad hand on his shoulder pulled him back. It was warm. He couldn’t look. He didn’t want to see another face as long as he lived - another face with another pair of eyes that were watching and judging and seeing - “Xephos what are you doing -” It was Lalna. He’d stopped talking, a soft, shaky inhale stopping his tirade before it could start. One of those warm hands wrapped around his wrist, lifting it up. It was heavy. His grip was tight. 

His palms were dry. 

“Xephos - Xeph -” Those warm hands gently unwrapped his death grip on the hammer, pulling from his grasp. He was shaking now. Maybe he’d always been shaking. Maybe he’d never stop. Lalna pulled him into a crushing hug and it was better because it was warm and he didn’t have to see his own dead eyes looking back at him.

“What were you doing, gods - how long have you been down here? You must be hypothermic, fuck I’m so stupid, you didn’t come into the lab and I thought you’d taken a fucking vacation day I’m an idiot-” he couldn’t help but clutch into the loose fabric of Lalna’s white labcoat, his injured knuckles staining the crisp white fabric a rusty pink. It must have been a new one. 

It felt like he stained everything he touched. Rotten corpse-blood on crisp white cotton.

Lalna tried to guide him out of the lab, but he couldn’t follow. He was stuck, limbs stiff with rigor mortis he hadn’t earned. The other man simply scooped him up, kicking something heavy and sending it skittering across the floor. He was so warm. 

“Shit you’re light - food or sleep? Fuck -” He fished a pager out of his pocket, quickly typing out a message with a singe hand. ///// commission sec//d clone urgent rush ////hos. The letters didn’t form words. Nothing was making sense. He was dead. He should be dead. He wanted to be - 

He bit his lip to stop the horrible rasping noises he was making. He couldn’t feel it, but warm copper clung to his teeth. He rasped again, unable to stop himself. He felt dizzy. He felt cold. 

“Xeph, buddy - come on, I need something here, please no, keep breathing - Xeph!” No pager anymore, Lalna pulled Xephos’ arm to his own chest, making exaggerated motions of breath. He tried to copy, pulling useless air through an empty chest. The rasping was horrible but he felt better. He didn’t want to feel better.

“Xeph if you don’t say something I’m gonna need to take you to the med bay, you hate the med bay. Come on?” He sounded warped and thin and distant, like whalesong, like the building breathing, like the perfluorocarbon filled pipes in the walls. It was a nice noise. He rested an ear to the breast of his coat, listening to the soft thump and whistle of life as if it could fill him too. 

Lalna was running. 

Xephos wondered why.

[meeb-motes]

Cotards Syndrome/Delusion emojis

there are two different versions , one for Undead/Death/Decomp delusions and one for Not being real/Parts of you not being real delusions as both fall under cotards !

we were going to also add in one for delusions of immortality ( fun fact: that’s what we have! ) but decided that would be best to be put in a diff post !!

-Violet(wrote the post), Vee and Canine(drew the emojis)

[dogdenhoarde]

Any other dead bodies feel like mourning themselves... both as, I wish I'd gotten a fuller life, I wish it was more than this, I feel sorry for myself, but also as in - I want to give myself a proper funeral. I want to make myself comfortable so I can rest easy. I want my loved ones to tell me how important I was to their lives. I want to sleep... I want to be laid to rest... why am I being dragged around like this

[evilmagician430]

comic about cotard delusion (among other things)

[acerlking]

Sorry I haven't been posting much, I received brain damage from physician-prescribed biperiden superdosage. On the bright side, here's the fun aspects of my brief vacations in the demented nine circles of hell headspace:

I didn't have any spider issues but! I had the conviction the air was made of cockroaches and as a bonus I had the cotardpilled insight that my bowels were lined with roach eggs. Also my mom was committing illegal identity theft by impersonating Marie Kondo and *only* speaking fluent Japanese with me the whole time I was on my prescription (she does not speak Japanese). My f*ther was also rambling to me about a TF2 fan-fiction he wrote in a racist "Engrish ranguage" accent the whole time (he has no idea what either TF2 nor fan-fiction are). My house was also populated with small blobs of flesh with loudspeakers for mouths screaming antisemitic insults at me at a frenetic pace. Famous Japanese manga artist Iida Pochi also came by my house to threaten (in fluent Brazilian Portuguese) to rat me to the authorities for my federal crime of filling every single computer in my entire 100-million-person country with infohazards by various means (none of this happened)

Eventually I was sent to the hospital because I was in labour -- I was pregnant with myself and I needed to have a caesarian childbirth (I am a cis male), which they did give me, but cleanly bisecting my entire body from top to bottom, which I don't think is how a childbirth incision is supposed to happen but it made sense at the time (none of this happened). They eventually sent me to the psych ward, which was only a few hallways into the hospital, but for me I reached there by a nerve-wracking situation where I had to pilot a Boeing aircraft that was the victim of a controversy of counterfeit jet fuel -- however, I was able to choose the correct fuel since I could rely on my mom's advice which she taught me ever since I was a child on how to spot adulterated jet fuel from the real thing (she never taught me that).

Eventually reaching the airport, I was barred since the immigration control caught on that a significant portion of the passengers in the flight were imaginary friends, which made the number of people in the database go into the complex plane (which was a severe stack overflow problem) and so my exponential complex number of imaginary friends and I were subjected to a protracted inspection which took place in a long winding tower built on top of an enormous tree that was in the center of the world (none of this happened) which in my mind was the true face of the psychiatric ward where I was staying.

[evilyn-is-gay]

Shitass hallucination vent art

CW: BUGS INSIDE SKIN, THEMES OF COTARDS DELUSION, THEMES OF DYING, DELUSIONAL PARASITOSIS

Why am I a Will wood reference sometimes 💔

[po-1-yb-1-us]

idk what 2 tag my art so that ppl actually see ii Erm anyway cotards solution babey!

[lovedove-valk]

uhm

not going on the art blog yet.

[an-au-blog]

I wondered if I should post this for the longest time but...

The whole plot of One Piece but they're all in an asylum (with zosan and a bit frobin bc i love them)

(Disclaimer: consider all the CW that could come with a mental institution (e.g. self harm, mental illnesses, death, violence etc.))

Listen, listen I have it all planned out!

They call the wing they're in "East Blue" because it's the most east part of the facility and it's painted in blue. They keep the patients in small groups at first so that they don't act out or feel threatened. They call this group "the straw hats" after they let one of the patients propose it (the patients all agreed on it).

Luffy is taken in because he can't discern the difference between reality and fiction and thinks there's a pirate treasure he needs to find. It started after his second adopted brother's death - his brain refuses to believe it, so it creates an alternative reality in which his death was heroic and grand.

Both Nami and Sanji are taken in for self-harm and suicidal tendencies (they both failed to commit suicide, main difference was Nami did it during a depressive episode, while Sanji had tried multiple times but stopped himself every time until he almost succeed but was found by his boss- Zeff).

Zoro is highly delusional, has violent tendencies and has paranoia - he thinks anyone who looks strong is challenging him to a fight.

Brook has cotard delusion (also known as corpse syndrome), where he thinks that his body is dead/dying or doesn't exist.

Usopp is a pathological liar with severe depression. He admitted himself with the encouragement of his girlfriend, who had tried helping him after his mother's death.

Franky is a volunteer, who the patients absolutely love. He helps with renovations as well, since his day job is in construction.

Robin and Chopper are doctors. Robin started working at the institution because she used to struggle with suicidal thoughts and self worth and wishes to help those like her. Chopper is a man with dwarfism and has a nice short beard, so some of the patients with a rich imagination think he's a raccoon dog or baby rairdeer.

Jinbe is the owner of the establishment. Everyone loves him and he does his best to provide his patients with what they need. His favorite food is fish and he often orders or takes it from home to eat in his lunch break, so the other employees call him a fish man or First Son of the Sea. he thinks it's funny.

In group sessions, they all share their experiences and progress. It starts off with just Luffy telling stories of him fighting bad guys and monsters in the sea. His stories slowly started including the rest of the east wing. First it was Koby who was an intern nurse and then it was Zoro - he's selectively mute but nodded in agreement on a couple of the stories that he told.

Then he started including Nami, to which she objected at first but slowly stopped, it was nice to feel included. Usopp joined in with his own overexaggerated stories. Then it was Sanji, Luffy called him the cook of his crew, which was oddly fitting but still ironic. Yes, he was a cook before coming in but he also had a severe eating disorder. He didn't tell anyone about it. Until one day he told Luffy, Zoro, Usopp, and Nami. Luffy made it into a grand heroic story about him surviving starvation on a big rock. Sanji liked it more than having an eating disorder so he accepted it - even added his own spark to it, saying it was Zeff who helped him. (He knew it wasn't true, but he wanted to pretend that he knew Zeff long enough for him to have become the healthy father figure he was deprived of as a child.)

While on the subject of Sanji - he refused to eat. Most times he wouldn't even sit at the table. In the beginning it was so bad that the nurses had to hold him down and force feed him. Slowly he started obeying. It was mainly because they called in either Zeff or Reiju (though he got scared that she would tell the rest of the family where he was, she didn't). The doctors figured he needed a support system but he didn't trust anyone in a white coat and they couldn't ask other patients. Luffy had a thing for freedom and anyone choosing whether or not they did anything... do he was no help. Although on a couple of occasions they would see Zoro taking Sanji's plate and sitting in the corner with him. He would take two bites and feed Sanji one. He refused at first but Zoro told him that "If you don't eat, I won't either." which was one of the few times anyone had heard him talk. Though they had heard him laugh once with Luffy and he responded a few times when Usopp kept asking him questions.

Eventually, Robin came back from her honeymoon with Franky and started bonding with the patients. She became a part of Luffy's "crew" as well. Not long after Franky was welcomed as well.

When Brook came in, he was so skinny that he looked like a skeleton, so when he told Luffy he was, he believed him immediately. Brook is the only one who is allowed to use the musical instruments since he's the only one who can play. Musical therapy turns out to be quite effective, if not for anything else, for calming the patients.

There were a few "incidents" in the courtyard - first with Arlong a few other guards that got moved to another wing, then with some of the other patients. Luffy seemed aggressive on visitation day as well, not recognizing his parent after he went through top surgery, he just called him Crocodile and made up a story about Nami's visitor - her girlfriend Vivi. He would talk about how if she looked pretty like a princess, she must be one and how she was fighting for her country and he would help her.

One of the bigger fights was when he fought Enel - a patient who thought he was a god and had tried starting a cult.

Every once in a while, he'd start a fight and Zoro (and sometimes Sanji) joined in to help their friend. It happened a couple more times until one of the upper-ranked doctors (Dr Kuma) decided to separate them for a while to see if their attitude changed. It was only a few months but it seemed like they got worse. Luffy and Zoro would get all silent and non-responsive for hours sometimes days. Sanji would lose all the progress he made with his eating disorder and would try to find sharp objects to self-harm again. Nami and Usopp's emotional state would worsen as well, having full-blown panic attacks, Usopp developed paranoia and an eating disorder (but he started handling it little before getting released back with the rest of the east wing).

[meeb-motes]

Cw: blood

Delusions of being immortal emojis

these were kinda a conglomerate of a bunch of ours ideas so if it looks ant cluttered we apologize !!

also these are based off our experiences with delusions of being immortal , so they may not be representative of alls experiences

-Saint and Vee

[canesugarinmytea]

Shoto Todoroki x Reader: Headcanons

Reader who has Cotard’s Syndrome

(This is just to buy time so I can work on my big WIP, mentioned in previous posts)

CW + TW: Topics of mental health, specifically depression, disassociation, depersonalization, and psychotic symptoms; mentions of unreality and bad coping mechanisms; mentions of death and being dead; mentions of decomposition and the afterlife; implications of past trauma on Reader’s part; Reader really does love Shoto and is trying their best; gender neutral reader

Divider by @bronzewasp

I wanted to split this up into three sections, kind of going through three different types of delusions within Cotard’s: the delusional belief that one is dead, the belief that one does not exist, and the belief that one is missing their blood or internal organs. I’ve gone through all three, even though I’m not diagnosed with Cotard’s Syndrome, only OCD with Psychotic features.

Prelude:

-Not to pull the “he’s so mature for his age” card, but he really is helpful, and he really tries to understand

-Depending on how these thoughts started- you started experiencing them during the relationship, or they started long before- he might have varying reactions

-If your symptoms and loss of touch with reality begins during your relationship, I think he’d notice very early on, once you start exhibiting depressive symptoms and habits

-I think he’d be torn between wanting to let you rest and stay “comfy”, and trying to get you up and reinvigorated, and he’d become quieter during this time, trying to be a good listener and decide what you need

-If you start exhibiting symptoms of hypochondria (or an obsession with your health and the potential for sickness, in layman’s terms) he’s going to be supportive to a fault. You want the bathroom cleaned? Done. You need the kitchen sink scrubbed down? Done. New water filters? Done and done.

-But I think he’d start to become hesitant when it gets to the point of isolating yourself to avoid getting sick, or if you about any sort of physical contact with him and others

-Regardless of how he acts, he WOULD notice early on regardless, even if he doesn’t say anything immediately

-Now, if your symptoms start before your relationship begins, I don’t think he’d be as quick to notice

-I think that initially he’d write off your spacey demeanor and obsession with being healthy as personality traits, but he’d start to would catch on very quickly as you got closer

-BUT he’d be more hesitant to help then, since he doesn’t want to stress you out more or be overbearing. However, he really, really does care

-He would continue being carefully supportive and encouraging, and I think that as those symptoms of the “germination phase” persist, he’d grow used to it, even accepting it as the “new normal”

-But I think that when the hallmark delusions of the disorder begin, he’d finally feel a little more unsure and tentative

1. Reader believes they are dead/have died

-This delusion, I think, he wouldn’t notice as quickly as believing you’re missing your blood and/or internal organs

-But once he does notice, it sticks to the front of his mind like gum

-Your newly spacey demeanor worries him, especially when/if you start foregoing functions like eating, drinking, or hygiene

-He might be a little unsure, even distant at first, trying to decipher if this is something new or if your depression is just worsening

-But once you start going between extremes of apathy and dissociation to near-inconsolable distress, then he’ll definitely jump into action

-He’ll try to reason with you at first, out of instinct, trying to use logic before he realizes logic is useless with delusions

-He might become more physically affectionate as a way to ground you, unless you show discomfort at it

-He’ll always assure when you ask that No, you aren’t dead, Yes, you are alive, No, this isn’t Hell or Purgatory or anything else of the sort

-He’ll help with staying hygienic as much as he can maintain, or as much as you’ll allow

-He’ll definitely become a small bit obsessed with finding grounding/coping techniques, and possible treatments, but he’ll always (for better or worse) shy away from things like inpatient care or invasive forms of therapy

-He understands that you do still love him, and he still loves you, even though things are complicated for an indefinite amount of time

2. Reader believes they don’t exist/have never existed

-This is another one he’d be slow to notice, I believe, but just like the former area, when he notices, it doesn’t leave his mind

-Again, he’d be hesitant to approach it since it can be hard to tell at first whether it’s just the depression getting worse or an actual, new delusion

-But- again- just like the former, when he figures out what the issue is, or if you can communicate it, he’ll really work his best at helping you through out, no matter how far the end might be from sight

-Like a lot of other, much more talented writers have said before me, when he’s in a relationship, he is there to stay, and he’s not afraid to put in work and care

-I think it’d be really similar to the former category in a lot of ways, so you can take much of whats there and apply it here

-One difference, I think, is he’d work harder to ground you and work through your depersonalization, in an attempt to make any positive impact at all

-I think he’d be very timid about the whole thing, frankly, even as he tries to be helpful, and he’ll never be one to really pressure you to do anything but get through it, or at least another day, if you want to set small goals

-He might even be a bit of an enabler if you aren’t actively committing any acts of self harm, or don’t exhibit any active suicidal ideation

-BUT I think that with this delusion, he’d try to encourage you to do small things like go for a walk, or sit outside for a bit, just as an attempt to ground you and bring you back to your place in the world

-Like I said before, he’s in it for the long run

3. Reader believes they are missing their blood and/or internal organs

-This, surprisingly, is the delusion he would notice the quickest

-Maybe it’s because your obsessive compulsive behavior because your hypochondria might’ve gotten worse, or because you begin to outright panic over the perceived possibility

-I think he’d “humor” you the first or second time you insist on going to a doctor to ensure what you think you lost is still there, but I think that he’d get more serious about it pretty quickly

-He would be happy to check your pulse or temperature if needed, though, if you insist, and if he knows it comforts you

-He definitely keeps a closer eye on you, since (from my personal experience) you might become more erratic or obsessive with your body

-I don’t think that he’d encourage or permit restrictive eating or overeating with any of the delusions, but especially not this one

-He’s there to constantly assure you that everything is where it should be, and it’s working properly

-He tries to keep your mind busy with other things, even though that can only be mildly affective with intense delusions like these

Epilogue:

-All in all, I think that his love doesn’t weaken over the course of it

-I think he’d secretly feel selfish for feeling relieved or happy between episodes/when it ends

-But the way he’s so hesitant to commit you to impatient care (for obvious reasons) might make the road bumpier

-He’ll try to allot you all the independence you can, but he’s (not-so) secretly terrified by the thought of you ending up completely disconnected from him

-He’s definitely not the type to leave when things get hard, but he might overwhelm himself by not taking time to breathe and process his emotions

———————————————————————

Okay WOAH that actually wasnt as difficult to write as the other one shots I’ve done. I might actually make this a series- writing headcanons for demonized disorders or conditions- while we’re waiting for the first chapter of my WIP. If you’ve gone through any of this stuff, just know that I love you, and I understand it. I know that sometimes it’s impossible to do things on your own, even if you’re really doing beyond your best.

But that’s it for now, so Good Night!!!

[guroholic]

♥️ Mason

♥️Adult

♥️They/He + neos

♥️ taken by my beloved @samaels-body 🪦♥️

♥️No DNI, I block freely

♥️ CW: talks of cotards delusion , venting, BPD posting

♥️ I encourage mental health questions!

♥️ blog will contain: jiraikei, yandere themes, mlm, nblm , positivity, navigating through life , etc

[galactic-phobetor]

useless thing…

…. Phobetor. Team Galactic member. Personal blog… mind the rotting.

.. bye then.

☀️daylight/toaster at it again, you know how it is

cw/tw for this blog - dead dove do not eat

walking corpse/cotards syndrome, delusions, derealisation/dissociation, disturbing descriptions/imagery of body horror or decay, depictions and mentions of mental illness, death and possibly gore

Phobetor is 11/12, be decent.

On Hand

— Dusk (Dusclops)

— Dawn (Froslass)

— Schnups (Shuppet)

~ Muse will deliver mail rarely but if she ever does, it will be indicated as Dusclops Mail.

~ Anon hate while encouraged is advised to be limited to being related to her being a member of Team Galactic, hate outside of this will only be permitted if I choose to let it be.

~ Phobetor may post drawings at times, please note that these may be disturbing and indicated with the tag ‘Shuppet Markings’

~ She will have a fairly nihilistic view on things going on, however most of this will stem from her cotard’s syndrome and primarily emphasise her belief on herself being dead and rotting away.

More info TBA sorry chat I’m a little busy

[locksnek]

CW nihilistic delusions

I've spent most of the year experiencing delusions of my own non-existence, I wouldn't say it's Cotard's Delusion but it's pretty close (I think I could have gotten there if I weren't aware that I'm delusional). I know I've been acting really weird, I'm not all there lately and it's quite a lot to deal with. Thanks for bearing with me. I hope I can get back to something resembling normalcy, or whatever passes for that in late stage capitalism, but it's going to take a long time.

[t0rschlusspan1k]

Today, the condition is sometimes referred to as 'Walking Corpse Syndrome'. Although rare, people are still diagnosed as suffering from nihilistic delusional beliefs that they are dead and no longer exist. Occasionally, the condition is characterized by a belief that one is missing essential body parts or organs, as in the a case of a 28-year-old pregnant woman who thought her liver was 'putrefying' and that her heart was 'altogether missing.'

In 2013, New Scientist interviewed a man named Graham Harrison, who had attempted suicide 9 years earlier by taking an electrical appliance with him into the bath, and awoke in the hospital believing he was dead. He said:

“When I was in hospital I kept on telling them that the tablets weren't going to do me any good 'cause my brain was dead. I lost my sense of smell and taste. I didn't need to eat, or speak, or do anything. I ended up spending time in the graveyard because that was the closest I could get to death.”

It was his brain which had died. He had fried it, or so he thought. Doctors tried to rationalize with him, but to no avail. Eventually, Graham was referred to Dr Adam Zeman, a neurologist at the University of Exeter, and Dr Steven Laureys, a neurologist at University of Liège. They used positron emission tomography (PET) to monitor his metabolism. What they found was unsettling.

'Graham's brain function resembles that of someone during anaesthesia or sleep. Seeing this pattern in someone who is awake is quite unique to my knowledge', Dr Laureys told New Scientist. 'I've been analysing PET scans for 15 years and I've never seen anyone who was on his feet, who was interacting with people, with such an abnormal scan result'. [...]

Graham is the only patient with Cotard's Delusion to have undergone a PET scan, and therefore scientists can draw few conclusions about the results since they have no basis for comparison.

The condition has been tentatively linked to bipolar disorder in young people, as well as severe depression and schizophrenia in older patients. Treatment of the condition is varied. Typically, those suffering from it are put on a combination of anti-depressants and anti-psychotic drugs, although electroconvulsive therapy has also been known to be successful.For Graham, psychotherapy and drug treatment has helped ebbed the symptoms of Cotard's Delusion, though it's been a long, hard journey. Over the past decade, he could often be found sitting in local graveyards in an attempt to get closer to death. 'The police would come and get me, though, and take me home', he said.3

Graham is one of the lucky ones. Many who have suffered from the condition in the past have died from starvation, and some have even resorted to pouring acid on themselves in an effort to stop being one of the 'walking dead'. 

Lindsey Fitzharris for Business Insider: People With ‘Walking Corpse Syndrome’ Think They Are Truly Dead

[relatable-psychosis]

One of my friends brought up that I had pretty obvious Cotard's, and now I'm feeling kinda invalidated, which sucks because they didn't intend it that way, but like... I was trying to figure out what to do for the anniversary of my death that's coming up in like two weeks, and apparently the entire thing is fake??? What the fuck do I do.

I think I understand what you mean by feeling invalidated in a way. I’ve felt that way before when someone told me outright I was having a delusional thought process, and part of me felt relieved someone was interested in and cared about me while another part was upset they had said it like that and frustrated they didn’t understand. I ended up arguing with them that it wasn’t delusional and we had a stalemate debate over it.

It can be rough being suddenly yanked out of such a thing, whether it’s like your situation, or someone believing their world is unreal and a punishment created for them so they’re structuring their life around uncovering clues as to how to ascend it, or someone being certain their voices are special messages to guide them, and other similar themes. It’s something important to us that we’ve invested energy into, and all at once someone else is tearing it down.

In the end, it’s better to come out of a delusion. I’ve talked before about how most delusions appear objectively negative due to immediate potential and likely negatives or problems that will occur later on if it’s kept up. But others should be gentle about it and try to figure out what methods of helping would best click with each of us individually.

There’s an ask answered in the past about Cotard’s which you can read here, if you like ^^ I’m not sure what else to suggest ‘cause I’m not sure what would be good for you. Perhaps talking to this person more, listening to calming sounds and doing introspection, grounding to keep yourself in the present while bringing down your stress, writing in a journal or elsewhere to vent, reading scientific articles about what you’re going through, playing a game, contacting a professional if you have one, etc. Take care!- Mod Alex