#crow mary

[rivetingrosie4]

"Do you trust me, Mary?" he said. "I want you to trust me."

I heard the need in his voice, and I rose up on my elbow and leaned over to kiss him. "I trust you," I said, before pushing the covers back and trailing my fingers across his shoulders and down his bare chest. It was a full moon, and I liked to see the pleasure on his face. "Old Woman watches," I teased.

"Old Woman?" he asked. "You mean the moon?"

"Yes," I whispered as my hand continued to journey. "She is giver of life."

-Kathleen Grissom, Crow Mary

My very favorite passage from the book I just finished.

₊˚.⋆☾⋆⁺₊ got a New Badge to commemorate₊˚.⋆☾⋆⁺₊

[weaponizedducks]

'but girl she killed people!' so. she deserved to what do you want me to do about it

[thunderstruck9]

Mary Fedden (British, 1915-2012), Crow, 1990. Gouache, 5½ x 7½ in.

[mournfulroses]

Mary Oliver, from a poem titled "The Crows," featured in New & Selected Poems of Mary Oliver

[paperhandsexe]

hhhh my cogs.....

speedpaint under there 👇 forgot to record the initial sketches <:(

[tomatette]

The Crow - Original Motion Picture Soundtrack Songs combined with the scenes they're from. 'It Can't Rain All The Time' is from the end credits, so I put it in the album cover. "It Can't Rain All the Time" Jane Siberry "Big Empty" Stone Temple Pilots "Slip Slide Melting" For Love Not Lisa "Dead Souls" Nine Inch Nails "Burn" The Cure "Time Baby III" Medicine "Snakedriver" The Jesus and Mary Chain "Color Me Once" Violent Femmes "Ghostrider" Rollins Band "Golgotha Tenement Blues" Machines of Loving Grace "Milktoast" Helmet "The Badge" Pantera "Darkness" Rage Against the Machine "After the Flesh" My Life with the Thrill Kill Kult

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[corporatedespair]

cute little pixel cogs so small so delicate gone in the wind

[nerdlingmerchling]

Jesper and Dima : a Wesper Essay

I feel like we, as a Fandom, don't speak enough about that scene. Perhaps, it's because we know that Wesper is end-game and we can't see Jesper with anyone else than Wylan. Also, we might think that the purpose of that scene is only to establish Jesper as a queer character, and as a "player" who lives in the moment and has a string of anonymous hookups. HOWEVER, I'll argue that this scene has, in fact, everything to do with Wesper and reveals a lot more about Jesper as a character, about his aspirations, than we might give it credit for.

First of all, for what's supposed to be the aftermath of a "meaningless" quickie between strangers, this scene is incredibly tender. Jesper is being so earnest and gentle; in the way he speaks ; the way he kisses Dima goodbye, the way he touches his face, like he wants to imprint it in his memory. There's real emotion there ; real care, however fleeting.

But the true impact of that scene is in the way Jesper looks at Dima (props to Kit's acting there. We love you, Kit). There is so much longing in Jesper's eyes: it's plain to see, and almost painful to watch. He's probably not longing for Dima himself ; they haven't known each other long enough, but he's longing for a meaningful connection, something of lasting substance ; for companionship...for love. Jesper knows and understands that this wasn't meant to be (he says so himself). And yet, there's grief in the way he watches Dima leave. Why? BECAUSE IT'S NOT THE FIRST TIME THIS HAPPENS TO HIM.

It's not the first time Jesper has a lover walk out on him. For him, watching Dima go is exactly like waking up alone after his first night with Wylan : it's the rejection and the sudden severing of a bond that barely had time to form. I'm going to quote my friend Ras :"Jesper is having war flashbacks" and yes, that's exactly what this is. Maybe he's not specifically thinking about Wylan in that instant, but that kind of hurt and disappointment is still a familiar feeling to him.

Yes, of course, Jesper is a flirt. Yes, of course he loves sex. And there's something enjoyable, exciting, and thrilling for him when he engages in impromptu sexual encounters with strangers, but Jesper is also someone who's deeply insecure and in constant need of validation. When his lovers walk out on him, he can't help but feel unlovable: good enough for a shag, but not good enough to keep around. What he truly wants is for someone to care about him: truly, deeply, meaningfully. But it's easier for his self-esteem to jump from one hook up to the next, because at the end of the day, he can tell himself he chose this lifestyle. When Wylan reminds him of his "reputation", saying "I thought someone like you wouldn't want anything more ", Jesper doesn't contradict him, but he's still stung by those words. Jesper is a player who doesn't really want to be one. At his core, this is not him. It's just a self-defense mechanism.

I feel like his brief time with Dima was sort of a tipping point for Jesper. He had no choice but to acknowledge the longing and the need for something more.

And then there's Wylan. To be able to reconnect with a past lover was an unexpected second chance for Jesper ; a wink from Lady Luck. He wasn't going to give up so easily this time.

In other words, Jesper/Dima walked so Jesper/Wylan could run. So I'm grateful for that scene in season one, which might seem inconsequential and gratuitous at first glance, but truly isn't.

Thanks for your attention.

[mst3kgifs]

Sure do. Good night, Pearl.

[edelweiss313]

Don't you just love it when your dead uncle's naked corpse suddenly drops by the house via the ceiling to visit for the holidays and further ruins the innocence of your already traumatized children

[ineffablelvrs]

BECAUSE FOUND FAMILIES SEPERATING KILLED MY GRANDMA OKAY !!!!

[lilisouless]

Leigh has this thing of pairing people with similar struggles

Inej-Kaz: PTSD that caused them issues with touching other people

Nina-Matthias: Being raised in a militarized emviroment

Jesper-Wylan: Learning disabilities combined with daddy issues

Zoya-Nikolai: Being too pretty (and there is the hidden vulnerability too but whatever)

Alina-Mal: Self steem and belonging issues

Marie-Sergei: the struggle of being the worst characters on the grishaverse and having the fandom deny it just because they are both death

[dissentersbedamned]

i was gonna do this thing were I would draw all the mgrs for pride but I got like tired of drawing 8/26 characters in so this is all you're getting sorry

art commissions

[ourladyofomega]

The Cure: “Burn”

Machines Of Loving Grace: “Golgotha Tenement Blues”

Stone Temple Pilots: “Big Empty”

Nine Inch Nails: “Dead Souls”

Rage Against The Machine: “Darkness”

Violent Femmes: “Color Me Once”

Rollins Band: “Ghostrider”

Helmet: “Milktoast”

Pantera: “The Badge”

For Love Not Lisa: “Slip Slide Melting”

My Life With The Thrill Kill Kult: “After The Flesh (Nervous Xtians)”

The Jesus And Mary Chain: “Snakedriver”

Medicine: “Time Baby III”

Jane Siberry: “It Can't Rain All The Time”

[pxme-granate]

[seekmemystar]

absolutely obsessed with the desi marauders hc! do you have any specific hcs? I'd love to hear them :]

Hii thank you so much haha

I was really only having fun with it I don't hc all of them as desi just James

But if they were, a few hcs I have are:

James is Punjabi and a typical one so anytime anyone stereotypes him he can't protest because it's almost always true but he speaks up for other desis getting stereotyped or if someone gets particularly mean

Sirius is the 'can't stick to a career' rich boy whose favourite directors are Imtiaz Ali and Karan Johar (yes both) and sirius' favourite movies are "Rockstar" and "Tamasha". He is definitely one of the people who is in the 'you won't understand Tamasha' club

Remus is from Lucknow and while he is not of the religion he fucks people up who disrespect Islam in any way. His favourite director is Satyajit Ray and his favourite place to visit in Delhi was the Faqirchand bookstore but hates it now because it became 'trendy'

Peter is from Indore, he definitely has the Indori accent and uses jeeravan (a common Indori spice) to spice up everything. He goes to 'Litchawk' and 'Jatra' every time they take place.

Lily is a South Delhi girl through and through and a regular visitor of the Faqirchand bookstore. She is a big fan of the poems of Rahimdas and Tulsidas and her favourite movie is Hema Malini's "Meera"

Marlene is a mumbaikar and has a love-hate relationship with Mumbai but in her mind she knows she'll never leave. I definitely think she has slept on the Marine Drive just to fuck with the police

Mary is a Malayalee and very very proud of her culture and follows it to the book. She gets up at 3 in the morning, prays, makes rangoli in front of her house, applies tailum to her hair and all the works. She knows Hindi but refuses to speak it and will deck you if you come to her house and ask for 'idli/dosa/sambhar'

Feel free to add to these if you like!