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i’m going to make this album my entire personality
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hook, line, sinker by cazio / @chubbydino
At least he finally knew what Daniel wouldn’t tell him: some sins left a permanent stain so dark even strangers could read their warning.
cover version under the cut
#max verstappen#f1 fanart#f1#mv1#mv33#max verstappen fanart#maxiel#f1 fic#fic rec#my art#honestly was just a random sketch i didnt know what to do with so here we are sorry it's not much but i hope u like it#i read this fic back in august and i fear i have never been the same#consider my brain chemistry: altered
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In the new film there’s a very particular look Immortan Joe gives Furiosa when she returns missing her arm - the “if you find him, he’s mine [sic]” scene after the maggots - I have searched for ages and nobody has giffed it yet. If anyone can hook me up, you’re my hero.
#its the tiniest glance down to her missing limb and that look has altered my brain chemistry so much I am considering#going to see the film again just for that look#its sort of ‘who the hell are you’ morphing into ‘actually maybe you are To Be Reckoned With’#anyway I loved that 5 seconds of footage#furiosa#mad max#furiosa a mad max saga#currently having Many Thoughts about Joe…fully aware this is extremely poor judgement 😂
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I find it so funny when people are like “send me Royai fic recs” and there’s always like three girlies in the comments like “have you heard of this little known totally underground fic called delicate by lantur :)” and then whoever made the post is like “yes of course I freaking know delicate I made this post bc I can’t find anything else that’s that good”
#fullmetal alchemist#royai#riza hawkeye#i don’t blame them delicate is that bitch for a REASON#it fundamentally altered my brain chemistry and the course of my life#It’s basically second canon to me#I consider it my favorite love story of all time actually#lantur
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ok so like we've talked about fics that changed your brain chemistry but have you ever wanted to turn a fic into a physical book so you hold it and have like all the time so it can take up even MORE of your brain cpu
#fanfic#youve heard of brain chemistry altering fics#but have you considered#turning a fic into a book#i want it to take up more space in my brain <3#books#fics
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so i got curious today and checked when the air date for S1E10 "The Green Ninja" was in my country and realized it was over eleven years ago. That was the first episode I ever watched and it activated the longest-running, most invested special interest I've ever had.
So now I'm curious. What was the first ninjago episode other people in the fandom watched? How long ago did it air? How are you, personally, contending with your own mortality because I was in elementary school when I first watched and now I'm a university student.
#ninjago#lego ninjago#i knew it had been about a decade but dang.#i think its kinda fun though like#number one the series lasted a LONG time considering its kinda still ongoing#and i also think its funny that at nine years old my brain chemistry got permanently altered by lego ninjas go#lord garmadon definitely altered the way I approach villains and complex characters bc him fighting for lloyd....#but also he's just so funny very peak garm in that episode
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i can’t believe it fellas. After nearly four years of having both a username and pfp referencing it, I finally got the chance to play kid icarus uprising (shoutouts to my bestie @hazbinhotelhellhouse lending me their old modded 3DS while they’re out on vacation for a couple weeks and letting me download whatever roms i damn well please)
I’ve already downloaded Ocarina 3D and i’m planning on getting A Link Between Worlds, maybe Kirby Planet Robobot too if i’ve got the time. This console’s library is simply too vast and excellent to be fully appreciated in such a short time, but dammit i’m gonna try.
Drop other game recs in the comments or reblogs if u want, I’m trying to sample all the goods while i’ve got the chance.
#this mf literally finished downloading at 5am#and i had work at 9#but i was still genuinely considering staying awake to play it until i had to get ready for my shift#haven’t even started yet and it’s altering my brain chemistry#who am i kidding the first longplay i watched did that years ago-#Nintendo#roms#nintendo 3ds#3ds#3DS modding#kid icarus#kid icarus uprising#kid icarus: uprising#loz#the legend of zelda#ocarina of time#a link between worlds#kirby#kirby planet robobot#thoughts from the pit
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guess who spontaneously started learning the good omens opening theme on piano today at 2 am instead of sleeping :)
#i did go to sleep eventually to be fair#my fingers ache a bit now ive been practicing on and off with breaks today#i dont have the whole thing down just yet tho#but a servicable chunk :3#also ive decided to try and read sheet music for this#something i have always despised#normally i would just pull up a synthesia video and use that#a huge thanks to my music teachers from my music school era#who traumatized me into hating reading sheet music instead of helping me learn it or something idk#dont get me wrong music school wasnt all bad#but parts of it altered my brain chemistry let me tell ya#esp since i was like 12 to 16 when i attended#i did have piano as a secondary instrument but very little of it#so i do consider myself to be mostly self-taught#im not very good but its so much more fun without ppl hanging over you and getting mad when you fuck up#personal#misc
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most personally essential Megs state of being: tearing up over a nonfiction book published by an academic press on a Friday night
#WHY am i LIKE THIS#but also i swear to fucking god read the infinite playground NOW#i know i personally describe books as life-changing a lot but like. this one? GENERALLY life-changing#look many of the books that instantly just altered my brain chemistry i know are still niche recs HOWEVER#read this fucking book#i literally already considered sending someone a copy tonight#NOBODY TALK TO ME#megs is reading
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what if your house, newly built and ready to be loved and cherished and store all the new memories it will make, began to drive you insane, to rot, to drain the life from your body because you never gave it anything it was promised. because you only ever punched it, cursed it, screamed in it until the echoes were enough to deafen the misery you created. because even though people make a house a home, you made it a living hell.
Love it when horror is like what if your house hated you personally
#this thought crosses my mind often#was by myself a lot as a kid and the house is younger than me so i considered it a sibling in a weird way#not really a sibling actually or a parent but a secret third thing#seeing it slowly fall apart over the years has altered my brain chemistry#horror#home#aaannndd back to rewatch the jacob geller video on the legacy of the haunted house#love that video#resonated with me so much
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I was in this tech for social justice student program in college where we used technology to support social justice projects, like I helped my professors and classmates create a website to make tech education / curriculum more accessible and I helped do this art and technology workshop for children who had incarcerated family members.
But anyways I remember the big question we were always coming back to in our classes was “is technology inherently evil or can we use it for good?”
And our program was a lot more optimistic about the tech industry than I am personally loll. But I remember we quoted some essay about tech being this neutral tool in one of our papers and one of our professors said “I don’t really agree with that” and she didn’t elaborate but I’ve been thinking about that again lately.
Now I’m in grad school and I keep arguing that children and teens should have access to to the internet and that restricting it isn’t going to protect them it’ll just put marginalized youth in more danger bc they’re able to find support and resources online that they wouldn’t otherwise have access to, particularly queer and trans kids.
But now also there’s this big conversation happening around the Congo about tech being inherently exploitative. Like we wouldn’t have the tech we do in the west if it weren’t for the exploitation of the global south and the working class.
So I don’t think tech can be morally neutral or liberatory in the ways I was taught to believe. Like I was skeptical then, but now I’m aware of what a privileged conversation it really is to debate whether tech is moral or if kids should have access to technology and social media.
When there are bigger issues at hand, like the children that are being exploited for us to have any kind of access to tech.
#maybe I have been watching too much xfiles bc the scene where Mulder gets chased by an AI robot bc he didn’t tip it for making a meal#he didn’t enjoy altered my brain chemistry in the worst way loll#anyways there are so many ways I would alter the cirriculum and structure of that program#bc as much as they claim it’s diverse and non-hierarchical they still treat people terribly and fail to consider a lot of other issues#like the mining industry etc. that make technology so morally complicated#personal
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Thinking about the lifespans of Dungeon Meshi elves... The fact that they're completely unnatural alters my brain chemistry, because you can tell just how haphazardly the demon implemented their wish. They live five times the length of tall-men, so they age at a fifth of their rate. It's simple maths and the implications are terrifying. No wonder their birth rate and population are declining - their early development is so slow that at the age of two, they're still unable to stand.
They don't reach adulthood until their eighties. What does the infant mortality look like? How many elves succumb to illness or injury before they're fully mature? It only takes one accident to lose the child you've been raising for decades - and could you bring yourself to care for another? Add to that the implication elf culture has no idea how to process grief... just look at the way the Canaries treat Rin after the death of her parents. They're callous and insensitive and detached - part of that's racism, but there's also an element of pure cold ignorance. They don't even recognise the emotion on her face.
And that's just scratching the surface... does elven memory accommodate their extended lifespan? Once you reach two hundred or so, do the years start blurring together? Kabru mentions that their temporal awareness is remarkably poor.
Two years feel like a few months. Their lives are longer but not fuller. They're older but not wiser than the short-lived races, and most refuse to understand this. Those that do grasp it are interesting - namely Otta, who's ostracised for pursuing half-foot women.
A 30-year old elf is a young child; a 30-year old half-foot has entered middle age. Otta is in the equivalent of her late twenties. She knows that her elven lifespan makes her no more mature than a half-foot - but she also acknowledges that it creates a rift between herself and her partners, and not just in the eyes of society. 'She dumps them as soon as they pass 30', but probably not for the reasons Lycion assumes. For this to be a pattern, decades must have passed - it's possible Otta doesn't want to watch them die as she herself barely ages. No doubt some of her previous lovers have already passed away. In the end, all living 400 years accomplishes is leaving them out of sync with the rest of humanity.
Marcille's perhaps the best example. As a half-elf, she's got 95% of her life ahead and the thought terrifies her. She's going to lose everyone she loves, over and over and over again, and this cycle has barely even started. She runs at a different pace. This context adds so much to her dynamic with Falin in earlier chapters.
Marcille loves her! She's scared for her! Maybe even of her! She's grown attached to a short-lived girl who she met as a kid when Marcille was a teaching assistant! Biologically and developmentally, they're the same age, but chronologically she's twice as old as Falin! Considering what happened to her mother, is history repeating itself? Her feelings towards Falin are tangled and messy and fascinating. They're also more than a little homoerotic, which makes Marcille's infantilization of her friend all the more interesting. It feels like her way of resolving their power imbalance, of remaining a responsible (former!) authority figure... but it's also a coping mechanism. She's frightened by the ways Falin is maturing and changing - aging - and keeping her mental image of her friend as young as possible is her way of denying the march of time that's destined to sever their bond.
Marcille's dream of lifespan extension would remove the need for this obfuscation, render them equal... only, they already are! This desire is imposed onto Falin, but it's primarily for Marcille's benefit. Watching her fight for a world nobody wants, for reasons both selfish and altruistic... it's as tragic as it is understandable. I love this manga.
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my favorite book ever is one i cant talk abt w any1 else bc no one else i know has read it and its hell
#i read it way too young considering its contents and it permanently altered my brain chemistry#white oleander u will always be famous ( i struggle to find people talkimg abt it)
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✎ᝰ. mon's ateez fic recommendations (part 1)!
mdni!
│hi there! i haven't read much lately so the first part came across as a bit shorter than i expected but the next ones will surely be longer!
— as a writer myself, i just wanted to take a moment to thank all the authors for sharing such incredible writing, your hard work is truly appreciated! thank you for sharing your writing with us! ♡
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⤷ kim hongjoong x reader
♡┆ugh, as if by @ennysbookstore; the whole mini-series is just amazing and i enjoyed each part a lot! once i started i couldn't stop reading! loved how well hongjoong was written! the build-up of the first part was top-notch! and the character development... i should thank the author on my knees for writing this masterpiece. one of the best authors out there! definitely will read again!
♡┆swapped by @daisykihannie; the prompt is just so fun and interesting, one of the most creative ones i stumbled across! i haven't read something like this before. enjoyed it very very much!
♡┆punching bag by @mulloey; i must admit it was so just so undeniably hot, angry hongjoong and also so well-written! you will find me re-reading it an unholy amount of times.
♡┆clumsy hearts, steady love by @edenesth; WHAT IF I TELL YOU I CRIED? i already commented on this one on my main but im going to repeat myself! incredibly written, hongjoong suits the concept so well, my heart hurt a bit while reading but it's hongjoong, of course, i forgive him. somehow still very cute.
⤷ jeong yunho x reader
♡┆active recovery by @k-hotchoisan; y'all so i was always so shy about commenting on smut but tbh don't we all read it? author killed it yet again! got me hot, bothered and i am starting to consider a gym subscription!
♡┆the drill by @byuntrash101; look i know this one was posted last year, and i am so mad for not reading it sooner😭 i loved the storyline, wooyoung as a side character was just so funny, yunho without rizz altered my brain chemistry. i can't lie i was thinking about this fic for days after i read it! it's the perfect blend of fun and smut.
♡┆private lessons by @bombuni; i must admit i love professor yunho and it is always a pleasure finding and reading such fics, especially when it's as good as this one! (would love to see a part two one day)
♡┆muffled by @desirehorizon; the plot!!! the writing!!! the smut!!! and it was funny too!!! what more can i want? perfect!! imma say it once again but i enjoyed every word of this fic!!! can't wait to read more from the author!
⤷ song mingi x reader
♡┆still your biggest fan by @byuntrash101; good god it was just so incredibly hot, we need to appreciate the idea because it surely is creative! who doesn't just love teasing mingi? let's agree that we all do.
♡┆sour candy by @0097linersb; loved the idea🙂↕️ needy mingi is my favorite mingi, it was very very hot. you better find the time and read it!
⤷ choi jongho x reader
♡┆minor nuisance by @everyonewooeverywhere; i tell you they are in love love! trust me, you definitely need to read this one! jongho was just so sweet, a great fluff/smut combo and now i need jongho in my life even more :(
♡┆freestyle lap by @bro-atz; we all should know by now that bro is just simply one of the best when it comes to smut and they never, never disappoint. i definitely needed to read this one after i saw that pool jongho pics. if you haven't read it yet, what are you even doing?
♡┆falling and sleeping by @seonghwaddict; it was posted earlier this year but i just had to include it :( it was just utterly cute, jongho is adorable. well-written, and melted my poor heart.
multiple members:
⤷ choi jongho x kang yeosang x reader
♡┆the post show high by @bombuni; i must shamelessly admit while reading it i felt like the author somehow got into my brain and just picked one of my fantasies, hope it's not tmi. so saying i loved it it's an understatement! one of my favorite authors for real!
pairings:
⤷ kim hongjoong x jeong yunho (hohong)
ao3 ♡┆darling, you will bury me (before i bury you) by SunshineAndRayne; cute cute cute! i loved every letter of it, yunho is so whipped and i am living for it!
ao3 ♡┆waiting for you by marspacz; i absolutely loved this one so much! my heart needed this, had me smiling the entire time i was reading! and then the shotgun scene—damn, that was hot!
#mon's recommendations ᡣ𐭩#ateez fic recs#ateez x reader#ateez fics recs#ateez au recs#ateez smut#hongjoong x reader#yunho x reader#mingi x reader#jongho x reader
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hi lovely!! i just had the most amazing 7 hrs of my life just scrolling through your page and reading all of your marauders work!! i never even thought about poly!marauders being a possibility until i found your page and i think you’ve altered my brain chemistry forever???
that being said, i would absolutely be so grateful if you could write a gn!reader with poly!marauders at the start of their relationship, where reader’s a much shorter than average person and the boys (who would be so, so tall) have to learn how to walk slower to make sure they don’t leave them behind. i’m so much shorter than my friends and what i do most of the times is run forward in advance and be in front of the group so i don’t get left behind. i’m totally used to it by now, but it’d be nice to have ppl recognize not everyone can go at the same pace, you know? that was so long, so sorry!! and no worries at all if you don’t wanna write it, totally understand! love u so much 🫶🏽🫶🏽
Hi love!! Omg, 7 hours??? Were your eyes okay after that? Sorry it took me so long to get to this, but thanks a ton for requesting and I hope you like it <3
poly!marauders x gn!reader ♡ 644 words
It’s mainly James and Sirius that are the problem. Remus has learned to hold your hand to temper his own long-legged pace, but much like with talking, when James and Sirius get together they start moving at double the speed.
“Should we call them?” he asks.
You consider it. “Let’s see how far they get before they notice.”
A couple more minutes go by, and Remus can barely see the tops of their heads through the crowded sidewalk.
“Still no idea?” He searches for notes of dejection in your tone, but finds only amusement.
“None.”
“Let’s hide.”
He blinks. “What? No, love…” He sighs reluctantly, but lets you tug him into a nearby coffee shop.
You buy them each a hot chocolate, and it’s five more minutes before Sirius and James go by in the shop’s window, appearing slightly bemused but otherwise unconcerned. You make to go outside, but this time it’s Remus who holds you back.
“No, let them stew a minute.”
The next time they come by, the pair looks noticeably more troubled. Remus knocks on the window, and you both wave when they turn to you, gawping.
The bell jingles as they come inside.
“Hey, we’ve been looking for you.” James rubs his hands together, blowing warmth into them. Remus feels a tiny bit guilty and takes them between his. He pretends not to see the toothy grin James shoots him.
“Oh?” Remus makes his tone casual, and you sip at your hot chocolate to hide your smile. “For how long?”
“Like, five minutes. You just disappeared,” Sirius complains, scooching into your chair so that you have to share it with him. He peers at your hot chocolate, then Remus’. “Oi, you didn’t get any for us?”
“Interesting,” Remus goes on, ignoring the question, “because we’ve been in here for nearly fifteen.”
Sirius blinks, and James cocks his head. “Really?” James asks.
You nudge Remus’ leg playfully under the table. “No,” you tell them, rolling your eyes. “We just wanted to see how long it would take you guys to notice we weren’t behind you.”
“You could stand to be a little more considerate,” Remus says primly, sipping his hot chocolate.
“Aw, baby.” Sirius nestles his freezing nose into your cheek, grinning when you squirm away. “Did those little legs of yours separate us?”
You roll your eyes, but once again Remus comes to your defense. “Their legs aren’t the problem, yours are. Until you two can learn to be considerate of the less…height privileged” —he pretends not to see the aghast look you send him, and goes on with faux dispassion— “there will be no hot chocolate for either of you.”
Sirius scoffs, but James is nodding slowly, seeming to mull things over. “Sounds fair,” he says. “However, have you considered that we could simply purchase our own hot chocolate?”
“Not,” says Remus, “on ethical grounds.”
James pulls his hands kindly from Remus’ grasp, giving him an almost consoling pat on the shoulder. “C’mon, Pads, let’s go order.” Sirius hops up, and James stops by your chair on his way past to drop a kiss on your head. “We’ll try to keep to your speed from now on, lovie. Sorry.”
“It’s okay,” you say, having forgiven them long before they even knew they wanted to be forgiven.
“Honestly, who should you really be mad at?” Sirius gives you a conspiratorial look. “Your knight in shining armor over there just called you ‘the less height privileged.’”
“Don’t let him turn us against each other,” Remus says, reaching across the table to clasp your hand firmly. “It’s how he gets his way.”
“I know,” you stage-whisper back. Then to Sirius, “Go get your hot chocolate, and I’ll decide who I’m mad at depending on whether there’s a slice of pumpkin bread with you when you come back.”
He scurries towards the counter.
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