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Screening Tests Every Woman Needs at 50

As women reach the milestone of 50, prioritizing health becomes more important than ever. Regular screening tests help detect potential health issues early, ensuring timely treatment and a healthier life. A full body check-up at this stage can identify underlying medical conditions and prevent complications. Here are the essential screening tests every woman should undergo at 50.
1. Mammogram (Breast Cancer Screening)
Breast cancer risk increases with age, making mammograms a crucial test for women at 50. Experts recommend getting a mammogram every one to two years to detect any abnormalities early. A health checkup should always include a breast examination by a healthcare provider to rule out any concerns.
2. Pap Smear and HPV Test (Cervical Cancer Screening)
A Pap smear detects precancerous cells in the cervix, while an HPV test identifies high-risk strains of the human papillomavirus. Women should continue these screenings every three to five years, even post-menopause. Including these in your full body check ensures overall reproductive health.
3. Bone Density Test (Osteoporosis Screening)
Osteoporosis is common among women after menopause. A bone density test, also known as a DEXA scan, measures bone strength and assesses fracture risk. This test is essential for maintaining mobility and preventing fractures, making it a key part of an entire body check-up for women over 50.
4. Colonoscopy (Colorectal Cancer Screening)
Colon cancer is one of the leading causes of cancer-related deaths. A colonoscopy at 50 can help detect polyps or signs of colorectal cancer early. If the initial results are normal, the test is recommended every ten years. This preventive measure should be a priority in any whole body check.
5. Blood Pressure and Cholesterol Test (Heart Health Screening)
Heart disease remains a leading cause of death among women. Regular monitoring of blood pressure and cholesterol levels can help prevent cardiovascular diseases. These tests should be included in a complete body check to assess overall heart health and reduce risks associated with high cholesterol and hypertension.
6. Blood Sugar Test (Diabetes Screening)
Women at 50 are at an increased risk of developing Type 2 diabetes. A fasting blood sugar test or an A1C test helps detect diabetes early. If you have a family history of diabetes or other risk factors, ensure this test is part of your full body checkup near me to manage sugar levels effectively.
7. Thyroid Function Test
Thyroid disorders, including hypothyroidism and hyperthyroidism, are common in women over 50. A thyroid function test measures TSH, T3, and T4 levels to diagnose any imbalances. These tests help in regulating metabolism and overall energy levels and should be a part of your whole body checkup near me.
8. Liver and Kidney Function Tests
Liver and kidney function tests assess how well these organs are working. Factors like medication usage, lifestyle habits, and underlying conditions can impact their function. Regular complete body checkup near me should include these tests to ensure proper detoxification and metabolic processes.
9. Eye and Hearing Tests
Aging affects vision and hearing. Women at 50 should have regular eye exams to check for cataracts, glaucoma, and macular degeneration. Hearing tests help in early detection of any hearing loss. Including these in a whole body check ensures overall sensory health.
10. Skin Cancer Screening
Skin cancer risk increases with prolonged sun exposure. A dermatologist should examine any new moles, freckles, or skin changes. Women with a history of sun exposure or fair skin should prioritize skin checks as part of their entire body check-up.
11. Dental Check-Up
Oral health plays a crucial role in overall well-being. Women should visit a dentist for a thorough dental check-up, including screening for gum disease, cavities, and oral cancer. Regular cleanings and examinations are essential in any full body check-up routine.
12. Vitamin and Mineral Deficiency Tests
Deficiencies in Vitamin D, B12, iron, and calcium are common in women over 50. Regular blood tests help detect any deficiencies that may impact bone health, energy levels, and immunity. These should be included in a full body checkup for optimal health.
13. Immunizations
Women at 50 should ensure they are up to date on vaccinations, including flu shots, pneumonia vaccines, and tetanus boosters. Immunization is a preventive measure that can be part of your complete body check.
Why You Should Get a Full Body Check-Up Near Me
Finding a full body checkup near me ensures you get all the necessary screenings conveniently. Many healthcare centers offer comprehensive packages that include multiple tests in one visit, making it easier to monitor your health.
Where to Get a Complete Body Checkup Near Me
Diagnostic centers, hospitals, and specialized health clinics provide complete body checkup near me services. Look for centers with experienced medical professionals, advanced diagnostic tools, and personalized health recommendations.
Conclusion
Turning 50 is a significant milestone, and maintaining good health should be a top priority. Regular screenings help detect diseases early, allowing for timely intervention and better health outcomes. Scheduling a whole body checkup near me ensures that all vital tests are done conveniently, helping you stay healthy and active. Don’t wait—book your entire body check-up today and take charge of your health!
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Basically, my philosophy around disability fakers is: I would rather a thousand people fake a disability than have one disabled person suffer without care, aids, compassion, or any help.
#disability#disability advocacy#and there's a difference not many people seem to recognize between faking and realizing you don't have [x] problem...#...such as realizing you don't have [x] disorder because it is instead [y] disorder...#...or you haven't completely understood your care needs/your symptoms/what helps you...#...and some people see ANY change in your understanding of your disability as proof of maliciously faking...#...when i suppose in my personal experience people don't *maliciously* fake disability...#...i'm not saying it could never happen but that i don't think it's the *only* thing motivating people called fakers#i just think (like most everything) this is complex and nuanced because it's a *human* experience#like for me personally i /know/ i still have a lot to learn about my disabilities...#...like... i realized recently that my hands shouldn't be in AGONY when warm water is ran over them when it's SLIGHTLY cold inside or out...#...and i realized that i likely have a Noticable limb difference that needs checking out. does this sound like i'm faking...#...or that maybe i just didn't really explore my own needs and body because of a variety of factors?#i can assure you it is because i haven't really thought before about how i deserved to understand how to best help myself
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Shen Yuan getting transported into pidw isn't "the system punishing him for being a lazy internet hater," but instead representative of "step 1 of the creative process: getting so mad at something you decide to go write your own fucking book" in this essay I will
#svsss#scum villian self saving system#shen qingqiu#shen yuan#the fact that people think scum villain#-a series that examines and criticizes common tropes in fiction-#is somehow against criticism or being a little hater is wild to me#especially since shen qingqiu never gets punished for being a hater#heck- he's still a little hater by the end of the series#he mostly gets punished for treating life like a play and like he and the people around him are characters#(or in other words- he suffers for denying his own wants and emotions and his own sense of empathy)#I think some of y'all underestimate how much writing/art is inspired by creaters being little haters#like example off the top of my head-#the author of Iron Widow has been pretty vocal about the book being inspired by their hatred of Darling in the Franxx#I think my interpretation of Shen Yuan's transmigration is also supported by the fact that this series is an examines writing processes#side note- though i understand why people say Shen Yuan is lazy and think its a valid take it still doesnt sit right with me#i am probably biased because my own experiences with chronic pain and depression and isolation#but ya- i dont think Shen Yuan is lazy so much as he is deeply lonely and feels purposeless after denying parts of himself for 20ish years#like yall remember the online fandom boom from covid right?#being stuck completely alone in bed while feeling like shit for 20 days straight does shit to your brain#the fact that no one came to check on him + he wasn't exactly upset about leaving anyone behind supports the isolation interpretation too#+in the skinner demon arc he describes his life of being a faker/inability to stop being a faker now that he's Shen Qingqiu#as “so bland he's tempted to throw salt on himself” and “all he could do is lay around and wait for death” (<-paraphrasing)#bro wants to be doing stuff but is stuck in paralysis from repeatedly following scrips made by other people#another point on “Shen Yuan isn’t lazy” is just the sheer amount of studying that man does#also he did graduate college- how lazy can he really be#he doesnt know what hes doing but he at least tries to actively train his students#and he actually works on improving his own cultivation + spends quite a bit of time preping the mushroom body thing#+he's experiencing bouts of debilitating chronic pain throughout all this#but ya tldr: Shen Yuan's transmigration is an encouragement to write and not a punishment and also i dont think its fair to call him lazy
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Oh man. Guys, I'm obsessed with 'I Became A God In A Horror Game.' I'm so into it that I'm having trouble catching up to the translation, because I'm so tense with the stakes and afraid for it to be over. Honestly, I opened it expecting some mindless power leveling fun, and instead it's just STUFFED with layers and memorable imagery, all with a protagonist with such a fun personality to fit into one of these infinite flow plots. And an INCREDIBLY aesthetic love interest, my god.
Now, the question of how to pitch this book without spoiling it is something I've been wrestling with, without a good answer. The plot is essentially that Bai Liu is a laid off horror video game developer, and when he stops caring about life or death as a result, he enters the game world, where competitors enter horror video game scenarios and fight to win, or just survive. Bai Liu's job gives him an edge, and his calculating, risk tolerant personality gives him more! The love interest makes an appearance in the first of these scenarios, a game that's almost a cross between shadow over innsmouth and the weeping angels, and at first I worried he would be... an accessory to the plot, not really linked to the STORY. I was extremely wrong! But it's hard to say more, and around 140 chapters in, I started losing my MIND for reasons I definitely won't spoil.
But BOY is it fun to draw art for him. I thought about finishing the rose arc to see if there were any more references I could fit in, but I think that would be pushing it with teeny details in the low light, hahaha. I've got to have that pieta, that's very obvious, and the siren king is here. The state of their bodies could be more of a focus in a different piece of art, but I'm still adapting to procreate, and I already had a concept here. The doll was a must, I realized that the scattered pages were PERFECT to fill the water below, and the last little detail that occurred to me was to fit a hint of fire into their reflections below. This was very fun! If this is what entices me to draw again, oh boy, expect to see more of it. And read this book, it's so, so good!!
#i became a god in a horror game#xie ta#tawil#fanart#body horror/#mildly#unsure if that skellington arm is worth warning for but hey#just learned while fact checking this post that the book is less completely translated than i thought oh nooooo
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Still thinking abt @crystaltoa 's narrative and destiny in bionicle essay and at some point it struck me that oh shit is this why Lesovikk never achieves anything?
Because his destiny was to die, basically, he's technically been retired from the narrative before even entering it. He should by all accounts be the equivalent of a name in the flavor text of a Skyrim history book, just there to give additional context to the culture or language or history of the Matoran Universe. He could leave! He could sit back and watch it all unfold from the safety of his "narratively dead" status. But he doesn't know that, and so he wallows in grief and misery for 90 thousand years as he runs in circles desperately trying to insert himself back into a story that just doesn't respond to his presence. He can't save his team because Destiny says so, he can't return to his Matoran because he technically shouldn't exist anymore, he can't kill Karzhani because he's an actual character with a role to play and he can't just be decommissioned by flavor text.
Even in The Powers That Be, where the influence of the narrative is waning and retired characters are being brought back into the story through the Red Star, his only victory is undone (Idris and Sarda notably do not appear even in mentions in the serial despite them having formed/regained a bond with him previously, implying they have since returned to the Mahri/Voya communities while Lesovikk hasn't for whatever reason) and he remains unable to pursue his goals, at best becoming Velika's scapegoat.
He's like a vengeful yet ineffectual ghost stuck in a house that has moved on without him, repeating old motions in the hopes that he will somehow solve his unfinished business soon.
The Myths and Legacy version's conclusion for him (while I still don't enjoy it personally) does fit this reading. He shows up so suddenly on the Red Star but is it strange? Does it even matter? That's where he should have been to begin with, of course the story would twist and bend itself to accomodate that. While Velika is horrendously cruel about it, revealing Lesovikk's purpose in the narrative exorcises that guilt he's been dragging around for nearly a thousand centuries and gives him solace: he fully detaches himself from Kopaka and Pohatu to join the living dead he has so much more in common with, and finally he realizes that little plot point that he'd been stuck on for so long and is finally at peace. By tearing himself to shreds and blowing up a spaceship but at peace nonetheless.
#bionicle#lesovikk#random talks#mind you i still HATE that ending for him. saddest man in the universe lives miserably and then dies. thats just fuckin mean man#but i will admit it is coherent and fitting with this interpretation of his whole thing#THAT SAID (pulls out fanfic plot im never going to write) YOU KNOW WHAT ELSE WOULD BE NARRATIVELY FITTING#lesovikk interacting with LEWA and the JUNGLE AGORI's part of the powers that be. listen to me#lesovikk stumbles upon these poor guys who are going to get turbostomped by kabrua and his vorox in a hot second likely#velika mind controls lewa (bc ofc) to check on something and takes the opportunity to drop the destiny of death bomb on lesovikk#who responds by driving him out of lewa by TRYING TO KILL HIM. and then (with an agori weapon bc velika stole his fucking sword)--#he and lewa fight tooth and nail to protect the agori#and THIS is the moment lesovikk is completely detached from the Bionicle narrative and inserted in these jungle agori's narrative#he is THEIR hero. part of THEIR legend. lewa has other people to return to and cant stay to protect them but lesovikk doesnt have anything.#hes dead to his native narrative but to this one hes just come alive. he has a chance to enter a new story as a proper character.#and he does. he gives lewa his goodbyes and a message to his last friends. leaves that failed narrative behind. and disappears completely.#metempsychosis is possible only when a soul is at rest but that doesnt mean the body holding it needs to be dead!
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Ohiwe
After Oh is split into two, their power is halved/divided. But! Other traits are not necessarily divided evenly. So she holds all the romantic love (unrequited) for Ymber. She also has the rhythm/ability to dance while the other half cannot keep a beat for the life of him.
#my characters#also just because im fascinated by the fire deity as a duo and how they think#ymber (water deity) is renowned and worshipped for knowledge and he is incredibly skilled and smart and logical#oh (and then ohime and ohiwe after the punishment) is famed for fortitude#but also holy moly the lil fire freaks are obsessed with the scientific method of trial and error#like while ymber would prefer to observe and gather data first before coming to any conclusions or even consider what to test#ohime and ohiwe just go YOLO! and speed run science#like after ymber gives deacon a very hefty blessing and the word reaches the fire duo ohime just jumps to travel#and waltzes into ymbers city and is like hi hello good to see you i need to borrow your boyfriend#and then gives a playful nudge and oh my the ward flared how fascinating#and begins to circle the poor guy and just gently getting too close vs a decent distance and seeing how the ward reacts#and hes like OKAY SO IN CONCLUSION to the wonderful question of can ohiwe and i buff the boyfriend#the answer is no because you completely dominated the poor guys body like look at him hes unable to drown now#and hes so sad that ohiwe and him cannot in fact make deacon fire proof#but then he continues with yeah cause obviously we would recruit fulj so she could bless him with lightning#then you could have a water proof boyfriend who also cannot be melted inside or out#and deacon is just like wait i cant drown anymore? what?#ohiwe and ohime just visiting the other deities in rotation since they have the ability to leave one in charge of the fire city#and let the other wander to check on their buddies and sometimes just playing host in the fire city#for fulj if she wants to visit because she deserves an honorary home there after her own punishment#also idk if it matters to anyone else but it matters to me but the city of fire has so many snakes#because the fire deity are closely tied to serpents in association#so they have two in their temple (though they can leave!) and then snakes all around the city#like in the street or slithering into someone's house ya know as snakes do
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Please (for the love of GOD) read Godaigo Daigo!!!! {A Spoiler Free Review} [I think?]
So I just read all 19 available chapters (that I've found free online) of Godaigo Daigo and I just have one major thing to say.
ITS. FLIPPING. ADORABLE!!!!!! I'm dead serious, there were several moments where I caught myself audibly squealing over something in the story.
To compare it to Kaiju Number Eight would be a disservice just on the grounds that they're both stories about a Middle Aged Man fighting in a government position dedicated to fighting the weekly? onslaught of Kaiju disturbances, but I can admit they do have similar themes surrounding their respective main characters.
Kafka Hibino and Godaigo Daigo (Yes the series is named after it's main character. Though now that I think about it, so is kn8 technically... in a sense?...) Are both types of classified as old by their piers (they're both around 30. That was wrong, I don't know where I got the idea that Godaigo is 30, he's actually 50 but still -> everyone else is a rude bastard) And their main personality strength lies in their ability to bring hope to the hopeless and can immediately change the outcome of a situation just by showing up. They're both jolly, caring, smart, and are often looked down upon due to their appearances. What separates Kafka from Godaigo is mainly how they're presented visually. Kafka is a little taller than average height compared to his fellow Defense Force members. Godaigo is a giant... literally.

HE STAYS THAT SIZE! ITS A RECURRING AND CONSISTENTLY SOLVED PROBLEM. And they even address different aspects and problems of having to take care of something of that size!
I might be getting a little ahead of myself, but that's pretty much where the similarities end. Kaiju Number Eight focuses on the struggles of being in stressful situations and what people take on as their weight of different types of expectations. Its vibe is still on the hopeful side, while still in a whitewash layer of a darker tone helped by its not-shying-away of blood and guts. Godaigo is more so about what it means to care about others throughout different situations. Both characters are emotionally validating to others and do double duty as therapists unintentionally as they are needed. Kaiju Number Eight shines more in the mental health care as one is going through a traumatising situation together while Godaigo is more so about a man who has gone around the block in his job description so many times for so long to the point now where anyone he meets now benefits from talking to him or taking advice on how they should continue through life. To be more specific, his advice is more so catered to other fellow giant hero people he works with, but I'm sure given the chance, he seems like he could give out some stellar generic life advice.
Kaiju Number Eight focuses on basic Shonen tropes like fighting and leveling up in power as well as showcasing through more fights how they've leveled up since the last fight with world building information being handed out on an as-needed basis or being explained as an afterthought in side stories. The world building in Godaigo Daigo is practically tied into the story it almost can't continue without a small exposition of lore. Thankfully, this aspect does not detract from the story telling in the slightest. As one of those people that kinda got a little upset when KN8 sorta stopped giving out lore bits with the story and decided to shove most of it into side stories, reading a small little lore tidbit with almost every chapter is a wonderful feeling! It doesn't hold back the story at all and the writer has done a masterful job so far as letting the fights and the lore stagger off of each other in the name of setting a good reading pace.
Between the world building, the casual and consistent dropping of secrets that eventually get satisfyingly explained as they are needed, the overall lack of overly tense situations due to having (mostly) no blood or gore, and the visual concepts of giant people being heroes to smaller people and seeing how they (literally) handle them gives the story and overall adorable and mostly stress free feeling! Yes, there are dark secrets that have and will probably be revealed down the line, and they have shown that they will get serious about a situation should they feel like it, but at this point the author is in no hurry to get to that point any time soon. I could actually do an entire separate commentary about how the first arc perfectly sets up what I believe the main feel of the whole story is going to look like, but that's getting into major spoiler territory and I think I'll save that when more people have heard of Godaigo Daigo.
For now I'm going to leave you with a picture of Pro Wrestler Godaigo that, had Kafka not already altered my brain chemistry, I probably wouldn't be drooling over this as much as I do when I see it.

(Whatta man, whatta man, whatta man, whatta mighty good man - Amen Salt-n-Pepa)
#spoiler free#spoiler free review#godaigo daigo#kaiju no. 8#kn8#kafka hibino#Yes these two would absolutely be the best of friends.#total drinking buddies#the crossover fics are already brewing mwahahha...#soft body brawler daddies have completely changed my view on thirstable men#weren't even on my radar untill Kafka#also my monster f*cker neurons are kicking into overdrive for no reason.#*side-eyes at his hands* no reason at alllllll....#anyway#shout out to @brain-of-rain for dropping art of those two together#and to @sonicasura for checking it out beforehand and recommending it even more.
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it happens every now and then but it's always such a pleasant surprise when i realize i'm actually rly happy with my art and where i am skill-wise
#hina.txt#i think i mentioned in passing that doing art fr this au has reinvented my art process and completely shifted my style#and i honestly couldnt be happier w it :'>#it reflects in my output too like. i have not skipped a day of drawing since *checks calendar* may 28#which is insane and will never not be insane 2 say out loud#i love u creative high i love u recognizing progress and personal growth#poses and angles that wld have put up a fight a month ago r coming so much easier#same with visual storytelling n body language#knock on wood but i think im starting to Get it ?? my expressions n concepts r slowly getting more and more dynamic and i am. :'D !!!#kinda crazy what a muse can do#like dont get me wrong i never Disliked creating art fr jjk canon#but something abt this au has flipped a switch and i dont feel Stuck like i sometimes wld creating fr canon
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helloooo gay people in my phone 🐶
tip the puppy | watch the fun
#speak!#best in show!#hehehehehehe here take this#its the middle of the night im feelin HOT#christ on a bike i wish i had top surgery then this would be complete#but still even without it im SO HOT AND TICKLEABLE AND FUCKABLE AND GRABABLE AND#check out this body hair dude#fucking COVERED in it its so euphoric#need to feel gender euphoria rn so im taking and posting this to go ‘wow ur so masculine :3’#why am i like. shy lmao
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I got so scared earlier like omg I'm getting all these notes on my posts about my crush because I've made everyone believe he looks like alex but what if I'm wrong and he only looks like alex to me and if anyone else were to see him they'd be like yeah I don't know what you're talking about. and then I looked at pics of him and I was like noooooooo he doesn't look like him at all I'm a fraud. but then I saw the shaved head alex pics and genuinely got jumpscared for a second. so I don't know.
#it's like he looks like him but he also doesn't. he looks like him but he has completely different eyes and nose and cheekbones and#face shape and ears and mouth and forehead and eyebrows etc etc.#one day linda is gonna check the pics I sent on discord and say what the hell are you talking about. he looks so incredibly different#and then everyone will get so so so mad at me for the rest of my life#just kidding. I know it's not that deep. I did get a little scared though. fuck qualia#hope you guys love me regardless. hope you guys love me for more than his body. his. resemblance to alex that may or may not be there
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#i never talk about my own life on here anymore which is ironic bc it’s my own blog but anyway#new job is stressing me the fuck out i feel completely incompetent and the people training me seem to think i can handle a lot of shit on#my own that i feel sooooo not confident about#not sleeping well at all because my body cannot handle ‘normal’ circadian rhythms so i’m starting to unravel emotionally#on top of all this shit i’m in the middle of apartment hunting/trying to move so that’s a whole other pile of stress#and the looming sense of dread that i’m not going to be able to take care of myself and be completely on my own because of my own mental#health issues is scaring me#AND ON TOP OF THAT i have health issues that are starting to get Actually Concerning that i’ve been putting off getting checked out#anyway…….live laugh love (i want to ***)
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starting to think maybe waking up with an anxiety stomachache every single morning and then needing to spend the entire day trying to get rid of said anxiety just to maybe have a few minutes in the evening of feeling relaxed before going to bed is perhaps not normal
#the first thing i do when i become conscious is check my phone to make sure nothing terrible happened to anyone i love while i slept#i never ever ever have plans and if anyone Else has plans i feel sick with anxiety until they’re back from them#if i have smth planned that week i feel completely tense and on edge until it happens#i didn’t used to be like this i hate hate hate it#i used to feel safe in my little house in the forest where i knew everyone in town and knew my way around with my eyes shut#it’s still the only place in the world i feel safe. that’s so unfair#my separation anxiety is ridiculous. if my mom goes to the store and doesn’t answer a text right away i start panicking#if my sister goes to a class or smth idk what to do with myself until she gets back#if i’m in the shower or have the fan on or headphones in suddenly i’ll think i hear someone shouting and i’ll have to quickly turn it off#ever since i moved here it’s been getting worse. i don’t feel safe here to begin with i feel so out of place it’s unreal#but then covid and trauma with my mother’s health and my uncle dying and multiple relatives getting sick and things happening to my friends#i know i have ptsd from very specific things that happened and i live on a hospital path so every day i hear sirens#and every time i do it fully triggers an anxiety attack in me for at least an hour. and my mom too#since being here my hometown burned and friends i thought would never grow apart did and my brother moved out#i know a lot of that is just Being In Your Low Twenties but also some of my worst trauma has happened in the last handful of years and now#now i’m just always scared. always uneasy. always worried. never fully relaxed. never feel fully safe. & idk how to be myself through that#i’m always paranoid and i never trust people irl anymore. ppl my mom or sister meet. i am so suspicious of them constantly.#if anything small changes at all i can’t handle it. my ability to deal with change has gone so downhill#in the last 5 years of being here i realised i was autistic which led to me unmasking a bit and that. comes with pros & cons doesn’t it#my own health has declined. my body changed a lot in ways i wasn’t prepared for and i had to get rid of most of my comfort clothes#sometimes i just wanna sit on the ground and cry about it and not have to also be the one that picks myself back up. y’know???#but at the very least i’d love to just wake up One Day w/o feeling sick with anxiety already. just one day i want to wake up feeling rested#i want to be myself again but can i start with not being scared? not being tired? i don’t know what to do anymore#i just watch my comfort videos and read my comfort fics and stay in my daydream world
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It's Easter time, and here in the town I'm currently living is the most important festive period of the year. This very city is known for its Christian culture. There's a massive amount of churches and a fuckton of tourists walking through several masses and religious-themed shows.
I like it here, it's a small town but it also has some kind of cosmopolitan life. I've met people from the most distinct places around the world, and I really love the quality of life here - and the cool weather as well.
But I do miss my hometown. A lot. I miss my long time friends and my tiny family (my sister and my cat). Holidays are always difficult once you have your beloved ones away from you. I also miss those details from home that you only give its value once you lose it: the smell of the sea, or the smell of that very specific street food, the sound of people chatting in an accent just like your own, etc.
The good thing is that now I have a job that requires working on holidays (it's in a hotel) and it is indeed a very useful distraction having to deal with clients and guests and hotel problems.
I like it here. It's beautiful, and still meaningful - the view of the city is still breathtaking. But, damn, I miss my homeland.

#homesick#i'm useless lesbian so ofc my mug is screaming in gayness#the other good thing is that I can have unhealthy amounts of coffee#and cake!#the hotel is completely full and there was still people calling on the phone asking for a reservation for tonight#ma'am the only possibility of you getting a room is if I MURDER some of the guests and hide the body so you can check-in
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#sorry my body doesn’t really differentiate the jersey color if its mints doing well tbh#tho thats prob bc i’ve been trying not to think about it#as in im rationing my exposure of him in a leafs jersey bc otherwise it restarts my cycle of grief but#him being a little more reserved for this goal tho…. i see you mints…#esp since he lowkey had a terrible two periods aoefheowuagheuagehfouawf#which may be why hes so reserved but like… u had a good breakaway and better poke checks again this period#even tho this is him like#this kinda completes the transition in a way#big milestone games tho#so funny how these teams just start playing crazier when it doesn’t matter#NO BC WTF 7 GOALS FOR THE BRUINS????? WTFFFFFF#anyway im watching two games at once like a crazy person this coffee doing wonders for my attention span rn
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Having some Complicated Feelings tonight that my brain is too mush to tease apart, love that for me
#pedanticblah#basically my d&d group almost blew up today#and i immediately jumped in to try to work it out reasonably#managed pretty well i think#but it feels really gross too?#like. it's not bad that my first instinct was to help probably?#but being the one to jump in and manage emotions is. fraught#i don't even really think that's what i did here overall#i more. checked in? after? and made sure everyone was ok?#and reached out to the other dm to coordinate better?#like. it was an in game thing from a couple weeks ago#that someone let fester until it boiled over completely#they talked it out with the other person involved and are fine#and the other dm and i are making changes to keep it from happening again#i just feel like i was trying to manage their emotions for them#which i have to do with my dad when he throws tantrums#and that's NOT what happened here AT ALL#but the feeling is the same as when that happens#anyway. i feel really weird. and complicated.#and i know it worked out and everything is fine#but i also feel like i ruined everything#and i should have tried harder and also not tried at all#and mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.#unsafe. unsafe in my body. in my skull.#everything is FINE but my brain is sending ALARM SIGNALS
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so. here we are again
#holy shit I am so sorry#I am back on tumblr! (I know. TOOK ME LONG ENOUGH)#spent the last few months fixing a lot of self-care habits so I'm a lot healthier now in both body & mind#just a shame it took the realization I was basically on the fast track to a pine box to actually make me get better!#crisis averted but. agh#I'm still kinda testing the waters but so far I'm having none of the problems I used to with tumblr so? Ya boy is coming back#also COMPLETELY failed to ever check in on that writing-focused discord so uhhh That's On Me™ my bad#I really hope y'all are doing well ❤ I'll be hitting replies & owed starters here before too long if all goes well!#hopefully this time I can be more consistent jfsgfdsg I hate letting everyone down the way I have been
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