#come inside my mind

[puppppppppy]

act 4 :(

@chipper-smol and i came to a realization

[fonthoura]

Hc where Garak knows Julian is a liar, but he can't, for the life of him, know what he's lying about.

Like, he has this feeling, given to him by years of training and an observant eyes, that Julian is very purposefully unauthentic, and it seems that no one else notices.

He sees how Julian talks a lot and overshares, but never really says anything, to the point where his friends would have a hard time answering any question about him, like, for fucks sake, it took reading his file to get to know his date of birth because no one knew.

Jadzia thinks he has a brother, Miles is convinced he has a sister, and Garak is fairly sure he is an only child, the problem is, Julian doesn't talk about it. He talks too much and hardly says anything.

Garak also notices how he is always tense, as if holding back, like when he lets himself be punched when he clearly sees it coming, when he let's things break even though Garak is sure he could've caught them mid air, how he seems to calculate the perfect amount of clumsy in a day (once he even bumped into Garak and pretended to be distracted) and no one notices.

But Garak does, Garak knows he is lying about something, he feels it, specially when he looses on games and arguments, like he could not think of something else but Garak sees it in his eyes that he is hiding something.

And Garak constantly gets worried, despite his best knowledge, about him.

He knows how lonely it is, to keep yourself hidden from the world, to not let anyone know you, to hold the weight of a thousand secrets on his body, and constantly he sees this weight taking it's toll on the doctor.

Julian keeps people at arms length, he gets close on condition, he larps with Miles, discuss literature with Garak and converses with Jadzia, but keeps them all compartmentalized, always distant, even his crush on Jadzia being shallow, no real depth to it.

Julian seems skin deep and Garak knows how it feels and aches for him.

So he constantly tries to scratch the surface, aways tries to get Julian out of his lie made shell like Julian does to him, and he doesn't succeed, but he keeps trying.

Specially after he finds out that Julian had been gone for a month and not even him noticed it, he knows it's because no one would, because Julian keeps so much of himself hidden that you can't distinguish him from a fake.

And then, doctor Zimmermann shows up...

[matzimintz]

🕯️✩°｡⋆ shrines ✧ purity ring ⋆｡°✩🕯️

The first time I ever heard purity ring was in 8th grade and on Vine. I’m sure some of you will remember the 6 second videos that constructed and upheld our tween days. I was following some girl named “Piper” and she had posted a 6 second video at a show with a hand full of people and fluorescent twinkling lights made up the stage. There was a feeling that gathered inside of me that I had never felt before when listening to music, it was twisting my insides and made me want to search to the ends of the earth for more of those soft , fluid, and ambient sounds. I looked at the comments and the song was OBEDEAR by purity ring.

As I’ve grown older this album has inspired me in ways that have pushed me to seek out the magic that fills the universe [Especially producing my own sounds and music.] Every time I listen to this album I can picture and create scenarios inside my mind to play as I listen. I’m going to write what each song makes me think and feel.

SHRINES

crawlersout - Immediately I think of the way each and every sound was made and how Corin is able to create sounds that I’ve only heard before in my dreams. It’s as if I’ve listened and heard these sounds in lifetimes before and after. I feel creepy yet soft as I listen to the magic that the lyrics are creating. Megan’s voice is the lullaby that I want to wake up to every morning, listen to throughout the day, and fall asleep to during the midnight hours as the moon is the only light that fills my room.

2. fineshrine - I’m jumping around my friendly fire with the rest of my friends who are and can be animals, insects, the wind, the roots below, the moon above, and everything else you only one can imagine. I wish to be surrounded by these drum kicks who are so prominent yet so warm and calming.

3. ungirthed - peach is the color that this song makes me see. It’s little sparks off a cream color that end up mixed with peach to create a sour and sweet sound literally just like sorbet. [Maybe I’m sorbet in a cup at the moment I’m listening to this song.] Listening to Megan say “the air is familiar” reminds me of the lifetimes we’ve lived throughout and how infinite we are. [OK PERKS OF BEING A WALLFLOWER -_-]

4. amenamy- the first sound makes me see rays of lights that I can only hear as I am floating under the water looking up. This is one of my all time favorite tracks on this album because I feel like I am swimming alongside all the fish as we flow under and over the trinkets that we live amongst under the sea. The reverb is a cradle to me in this song, it holds me as I’m swimming in the lyrics and notes that Corin and Megan were able to create.

5. grandloves- I see myself walking down that corridor that seems never ending in our dreams. Pale light guides me as the path is narrow and I’m trying to find my way out. Young Magic and Megan’s voice are echoing down and around as I keep walking forth. The little twinkly notes create light that help me see the path that seems never ending.

6. cartographist - such a daunting beginning, I feel like I’ve yet to come out of the dark corridor I was trying to escape. But it is as though the comfort of walking for a while has helped me push forward. Suddenly I’m no longer walking and I can see machines and gadgets working to create something, anything it seems. The soft and whimsical feeling that was created earlier has now turned into something more sinister, yet still intriguing. I’m not scared, I want to see where I’m being led. I don’t know where I’m headed, but I’m comfortable knowing change is coming. After time [that seemingly does not exist in this realm] continues to pass me by, I keep walking as I end up finding doors that lead to another eternity.

7. belispeak - I’m running. Maybe because of the song title, I feel like something is chasing me and wants to eat me, not due to hunger, but for longing to fill a type of void. But each and every time it thinks it has me, I am able to avoid it, it’s like something is taking care of me. Something that I can’t see but I can feel all around me. It’s like although I keep on running and running, I know I’ll be able to get away each and every time. Am I the one running away? Am I the one chasing?

8. saltkin - It’s an awakening. There is no fear, I am strong. I am magical, I am powerful. Everything around me and inside of me, is what I have created. There’s no where to go, I’ve been everywhere. I am the creator and I am the creation. I was then, I am now and I am forever. The power this song holds is for you to find here, there, in the next, forever. OUR BODIES WILL RETURN.

9. obedear - I feel safe within this song. It’s a reminder of the past memories and the paths that have led me to find this type of feeling that hides within lyrics and music. I can see and feel the little notes that make the song and I hear and see the lyrics that Megan has wrote. The colors in the sky are green, which would implicate something wrong, yet theres nothing to be afraid of. The universe unfolds within the sky and surrenders, there is nothing to fear as we live alongside what we cannot see.

10. lofticries - This is my favorite song on the album. I am fascinated by the sounds and noises. OVER AND OVER AGAIN, I listen to this song and I picture the spells and ingredients used to create this type of magic. I am filled with envy and sadness as I wish I could experience this song for the first time again, every time. [explains why I see green and blue when listening.]

This song is me floating in the middle of the sea and as I look up all I can see is the green thunder and the dark gray clouds that overturn any sense of light. I can feel the water drop on my face as the clouds cry tears of black back into the void of sea. Although the world around me is loud and dark, I am at peace. I am serene with the fact that there’s darkness that extends to the farthest realms of the earth. I am okay with the world being scary and dark. I accept it and choose to be the light.

11. shuck - Transcending from light. All in that one moment where I can see the sparks pop out of the fire, is this song. It’s the moment of looking up at the moon and realizing you exist amongst magic and are created by it. It’s the wind that kisses your cheek and reminds you that you are never alone.

In conclusion, this entire album is a story to me. It may not be a story to you. Everything I explained might make you think I’m schizophrenic or batshit crazy, but there’s certain things that music has always made me feel and see inside the pits of my brain that I’ll never be able to truly explain in words to the extent in which I wish could. This album is made of magic, all kinds.

c u next time -

matzi ✦⋆𓆩✧𓆪⋆✦

[solarpunkani]

Hot 4am take but I feel like if we want to get people more interested in making their yards a more habitable space for wildlife like insects, we have to acknowledge that ‘Don’t want bugs in your house’ is still a 100% fair and valid point of view. ‘Loves nature’ and ‘doesn’t want roaches spiders and mosquitoes in the house’ aren’t opposites.

And with that in mind, when we propose to people that spraying pesticides around houses is Not A Good Idea, Actually, I feel like we need to give an alternative asides from ‘deal with it.’

[olasketches]

two sides of the same coin

[canisalbus]

uh hi hello!! first i wanted to say i am deeply in love with your art (god those shapes, these lines, texture, anatomy, expression, EVERYTHING) and your latest drawing just moved something in me i cant quite grasp it, been thinking about it for a couple days. sooo i felt inspired and made myself a smol little machete out of uh wild clay so i could kiss him on the forehead before going to sleep, i hope you're ok with that? (also sorry he's kinda wonky, me and acrylics hate each other haha)

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[recent-rose]

hey i dont go here but jayce's speech about viktor in s2e9 isn't him saying 'u should never have tried to heal yourself, you were perfect the way u were x3' it was him saying that viktor's physical health never made him any less beautiful, never made him any less important, never made him any LESS, period. he wasn't saying viktor didn't need to pursue a cure for his ills like come on his motivation to invent hextech was to help people. to cure disease. viktor's first and foremost among them.

he said what he said because it was the thing viktor craved to hear most in his life, and that is why those were the words that punched through his defences even as the machine herald: jayce loved him wholly and unconditionally, healthy or ill, good or bad, human or inhuman. he would always be loved just the same.

[heycallmeplease]

I love you, so much and so truly darling, I love looking at you, I love whispering all my secrets to you, I love kissing you good night, I love letting you know how much I do, I do, I do, baby I love you, can't you see ?

@skyrigel

[otrtbs]

me when i confront etsy sellers for selling my fanfic sometimes...

[endead-art]

Hello Traffic people, I come with an offering

[dukeofthomas]

Do you see my vision

[puppppppppy]

my attempt at making a fursona

[freckled-aksel]

Aksel LOVES when we rake the yard. He enjoys waiting until we gather the leaves into a perfect pile before jumping in🍂 Sometimes he even lets you pile the leaves on top of him😆

[soupforsoup]

Miguel and his trio of bright-eyed freaks:

[i-like-forcefem]

Sometimes all a guy needs is to become my cute little barbie doll

[numberonetacostan]

Taco would sit by Mepad's body until it was moved away. At first, she'd find it and stay there still, in shock. And then she'd cry for a while. And by a while, I mean hours. This isn't a friend she's lost because she hurt them, this is a friend who is dead, for good. I don't think she could bring herself to leave him after that. He stayed with her, out in the woods, because she still needed his help. She still needs him. She can't just leave him lying out in a field. She has to keep bugs from crawling on his screen. Surely, that must be uncomfortable for him.

She'd only move once Test Tube is ready to try and repair him. Even then, she checks in as often as she can. She can't give up on him after all he did for her.