#chu's blog

[chu-be-chu]

Really wish I had someone to hug and cry on

[shy-lee-chu]

🙌TODAY IS YOUR DAY!!🎉🍰

well damn i expected from myself to give a text that will overwhelm you but the circumstances are not on my side so here's the appreciation in a rush: dear already big chu, with all my heart i want to congratulate you on your survival till this meaningful day. i really hope that today will bring you a lot of happiness and will not make you sigh even slightly. may your life be enriched with bright colors, so that study proceeds easier and pleasantly, and in everything else there will be harmony and hapiness. at the same time, i wish you a lot of strength to overcome any life challanges, with many of which you have already dealed like a berserker without blinking an eye. we haven't talked much but you're a very comfortable person to talk to and i always feel calm and smiley when we chat :)) may there be as many bright people like you as possible in your life, so that your sweet ass never feels lonely under any circumstances

🎈🎈🎈🎈🎈🎈🎈🎈🎈🎈🎈🎈🎈🎈🎈🎈🎈🎈 asked the big bro iida to visit you and pass from me the warmest hugs. nobody knows how the princess looks like so don't judge ✌️

STEAL KILL RAPE LIVE LONG LIFE BE YOURSELF LOVE YOURSELF STAY CHU

OH MY GOD ISN'T THIS THE SWEETEST AND THE MOST TALENTED ARTIST I HAVE EVER SEEN?

Thank you so much precious 🥺 I am really happy to hear that our feelings about eachother are mutual, I know we haven't been talking for a long time, we rather met recently but I must say you're amazing and one of the bestest online people I have ever met, your funny adorable personality and you kindness really made me fall for you as a person. KFLWKDEO you're literally so sweet idfk what to say!!! How dare you make me speechless like this >:/ I just hope I'll survive more, bc life and troubles never end but as long as I have a friend like you whom I know that supports me and loves me, than I can overcome any hardships I'll face! AND OMG YOUR BIRTHDAY GIFT VAL!!! THERE IS NO NEED FOR SUCH THINGS YOU DUMMY OMG EKDKSKDWLDM IS THAT MY NII NII. OMG HI IIDA FKWNDKSDKEOD Am so touched val. Thank you so much I'm gonna smile at it for the next 96 hours non stop 🥺🥺🥺 (It's also quite accurate thank you very much foensowsn)

*Hugs back iida*

*squeeze*

*SQUEEZE*

"NII-NII 💙"

[dailynakaharachuuya]

What..? A confession? Where?

[chu-diaries]

100 days of mental healthcare: day 100/100

Well, it's over! I genuinely can't believe it's been 100 days since I started this challenge (even more than 100, since I skipped a day or two when I couldn't post).

For those who just arrived, I started this challenge in April, the day after my birthday, when I was really in bad health. I had severe panic attacks about 4 times a day, which made me unable to do anything. I dealt with constant suicidal thoughts, I barely slept anymore and I was spending everything I had on doctors, self-knowledge courses and therapies. I found myself with two options: the first was to invest in medications that would make me dependent and drugged, but that would fix my brain. However, there was a risk that I wouldn't get the dose or medication right in time and my situation would get worse. The second option was longer and more difficult: studying how my body, my brain and my limits worked, and then adjusting day after day what wasn't going well. You know that I chose this option and that I created the 100-day mental healthcare challenge to track my progress on this.

In these 100 days I learned a lot that I want to share here. As we are all unique and different human beings, you may not agree with what I applied in my life, but I ask for respect and empathy, because all of this saved me. Also, some points have a scientific basis in research I did and books I read.

1. mental health and nutrition

This was one of the first things I learned. I realized that when I was hungry, my body didn't give me clear signals. Probably due to my autism and ADHD, I was always disconnected from my body's needs and didn't know how to identify hunger (which I expected to be something like a growling in my stomach, but it never was that way). What actually happened was that, instead of hunger, I had a critical increase in my intrusive and suicidal thoughts, which made mealtimes much worse than they should have been. Our mind is more vulnerable when the body is not properly fed and hydrated, and many of us neurodivergent people will not feel hunger like neurotypicals do. Our body wants us to move to find food, so it sends us successive stimuli through our brains to fight for our lives and, well, eat. Some of these stimuli can be very negative and, instead of propelling us forward, they drain our energy and make us even more depressed, which also doesn't happen to the same extent with neurotypicals, who deal with this type of thing much better. To avoid this, I started eating every 3 hours, and not because a doctor told me to, but because I realized that my crises happened with this frequency. By eating regularly and preventively, my body stopped depending on this resource to nourish itself and I became more mentally stable.

2. mental healthcare and intestinal system

The gut is not our second brain for nothing. The health of our mind is completely connected to the health of our gut. You have certainly heard the phrase “you are what you eat” and it is true. What surprised me most in my studies was discovering that neurotypical and completely mentally healthy people develop mental disorders if their gut microbiota is altered. In other words, we must nourish our gut to maintain our mental health. The more diverse our microbiota is, the better our mental health will be. This means eating various foods per week, as colorful and natural as possible, because food industrialization is also partially responsible for the number of mental disorders that exist today.

3. mental healthcare and eating meat

This is a difficult topic, since I was a vegetarian for many years, but I want to share what I learned with you. The incidence of mental disorders is directly associated with the levels of omega 3, taurine and tryptophan. Omega 3 is a good fat and essential not only for maintaining memory, but for all of our cognitive functioning and, although it can be supplemented in a vegan way, it is not as accessible to everyone in the appropriate dosage as fish. Similarly, meat has high levels of taurine and tryptophan, which regulate anxiety and depression and improve sleep. For many years I did not eat meat, supplementing protein with vegetables and whey, and for all those years I suffered from anxiety and depression. I never imagined that my blood type would also suffer more from this lack of protein: blood type O struggles more to maintain mental health and ideal mood levels with vegetable proteins. It is a blood type that needs animal protein. Going back to eating meat was not an easy decision, but I decided to test it out: even though I ate a small amount of animal protein per day, my cognitive function improved a lot in these past 100 days. I became more mentally stable and stronger, my mood improved, my gut responded positively and suddenly the things that haunted me were no longer so big. I never thought that mental health and animal protein had any connection, but I was very surprised to discover that eating meat (or not) influences our mind.

4. mental healthcare and intrusive thoughts

Well, I studied psychology, but it was a theory that didn't deal with intrusive thoughts. In these 100 days I discovered this term and delved deep enough to understand that we all have intrusive thoughts. Neurotypicals deal with them better, while neurodivergents deal with them much worse. Unfortunately, I suffered a lot with these thoughts and suffered even more trying to understand why this was happening in my head. If you suffer from intrusive thoughts, start by understanding that they are not real and that they do not come from you consciously. An intrusive thought is something that crosses your mind and is similar to a scary radio station that you accidentally connected to. It does not belong to you. I learned to think (and I like this theory) that this is a way for the brain to prepare itself for various possibilities, even the most absurd and impossible ones. We are animals and our body wants to survive, so I understand that the brain explores various probabilities to always be prepared, no matter what happens. Of course, for anxious and depressed people this has the opposite effect and makes us want to die. Over time, you learn that you can’t control when these thoughts appear, but you can control how much power you give them. I deal with obsessive intrusive thoughts every day, but each day I’m becoming more and more able to not get emotionally involved with them. “It’s just a glitch in my brain,” I think, taking a deep breath.

5. mental healthcare and joy (which is worth more than solving problems)

I've always had a very fast-paced mind, cluttered with things and addicted to solving problems. In recent years I thought I should focus more on relaxing and opening up spaces in my mind, but I discovered that an empty mind can be treacherous for neurodivergent people. Our mind is, in fact, addicted to solving problems. That's how our species evolved and prospered. Our mind has an organizational structure that seeks, through connections and associations, to process past and future events, resolve pending issues and find solutions for what was left behind. We do this with everything, even with things that are not in our control. I spent a lot of my life trying to solve what was going on in my head and I was unsuccessful because I wasn't the one who created this situation. Although solving problems is a pattern of the mind, it is a sweet illusion. Many things are not actually solved, we only think they are. I discovered that the time I invested trying to solve mental problems that I did not create could be used to create happier foundations to strengthen myself. I learned that it is actually joy that heals, not obsessively thinking about the problem until it is solved. Every time I focused my energy on doing something good, laughing or contemplating nature, I became a little stronger and remembered who I am. I won't deny that I felt guilty - the cognitive rigidity of autism screamed at me that I was ignoring my problems and that I was creating a silly fantasy world. Even so, I fought to break out of this pattern. It is still difficult. But today I believe that I’m meant to be happy and that cultivating moments of joy makes life worthwhile.

6. mental healthcare and feeling useful

Feeling useful is essential for mental health. We all want to be part of something and be recognized as necessary. In these 100 days, I decided to resume some volunteer work within my community and I also opened a new company, with handmade products, so that I would also have the opportunity to produce something that was not only in the intellectual field (handicrafts are very good for those who suffer from anxiety). Having a dynamic routine in which you have an important role is great for mental health and your sense of self-authority. Also, getting in touch with other people's personal stories helps to decentralize our gaze from ourselves, which is very useful if you suffer from OCD. As tiring as it may be, the more diverse activities we do, the better our cognitive function becomes.

7. mental healthcare and moving the body

It's interesting that to take care of your mind, you need to get out of your head and move your body. Many of the tensions accumulated in our minds can be released by running, walking or playing some sport. It doesn't matter what it is, but move your body. We were not designed to stay still, but to do various strength, balance and endurance exercises. Our ancestors walked for days in search of shelter and food, and that's how our bodies evolved. Especially for those who suffer from anxiety, high-impact exercises not only help regulate your mood and release neurotransmitters, but also generate a stress spike that will do your body good for the rest of the day. When we trigger these spikes, our body answer quickly and creates new pathways to respond to stress, which helps us better deal with anxiety, depression, instructive thoughts, etc. Our sleep also improves, as we use our stored energy and tend to think less before going to sleep.

8. mental healthcare and sleep hygiene

I have always tried to force myself to be silent. I forced myself to meditate for many years, without much success, but after the panic attacks returned, meditating and being silent were torture. It was as if I made room for all my inner demons to dance in my mind and I always felt worse. I recently discovered that neurodivergent people struggle more with silence and that it does them a lot of good to distract their minds with sounds, images and other stimuli that allow them to emotionally engage with something real and outside of themselves. I see that it is a controversial topic, but I no longer believe in sleep hygiene without screens and complex content. My best nights of sleep were those in which I distracted myself with something until I fell asleep or listened to someone talking until I fell asleep. So if you want to test what works best for you, know your limits and do not blindly obey the orders that someone has set. Maybe you work better at dawn, maybe you only need 6 hours of sleep, maybe you are different from the average. Your life's work is to discover yourself and be true to it.

9. mental healthcare and developing self-authority

This was very important to me. I have always had low self-esteem and I have always believed in others more than in myself. I sought answers and cures for what I suffered from various doctors and therapists, but all of this only made my situation worse. I became dependent on diagnoses, consultations and sessions that never really helped me. At a certain point I decided that I would educate myself on the subjects that bothered me. I studied, and studied a lot, about psychology, neurology, neuroscience, nutrition and about the functioning of the body as a whole. Today I no longer accept any diagnosis about myself because I have developed my own authority. I am the authority when it comes to myself, you know? I don't need others to tell me what I am feeling because now I know what it is and where it comes from. I also know, fortunately, how to solve it. When I go to a doctor or have an exam, I know what I am investigating and what I need to achieve. It is very sad that today medicine is just a search for money and that you only get good care if you pay a lot for it, so it is important to get educated about yourself so you won’t fall into standardized speeches that will lead you to the ever-increasing consumption of pharmaceuticals and drugs without, in fact, looking at the cause of the problem.

10. mental healthcare and time

There are things that only time can heal. There is nothing like letting time pass. A few months ago, all I could think about was how I wanted to end my life and it was tormenting to think about living for even one more day. Waiting for time to pass was difficult, but I was rewarded. Time has a way of overcoming some things if you allow yourself to create new memories, new connections and new laughs. If you are suffering a lot, wait a few more hours. Live one more day. Let time pass and life bring you better things.

See you guys again on my next challenge (maybe a productivity one?). Thanks to everyone who liked and reblogged my previous posts! 💕

[ask-misconduct]

One chance MISCONDUCT... That's all I ask for.

when i tell you my jaw DROPPED

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[szuszanapapryka]

A co gdyby, nie ed?

[lilac-hecox]

Ianthony Week Celebration! (June 20th-27th)

Can you believe it's been a year since our two favorite childhood best friends reunited and bought back their company? Welcome to Ianthony Week: A celebration of friendship!

First off: This was heavily inspired by @baflegacy and their amazing Smosh Girlies Week! And was run with permission from the lovely folks at @mywaybacktoyou who is running an Ianthony week currently and has produced some amazing content so far! Also huge thanks to @xxmoonch1ldxx who made the beautiful banner image and gave guidance and @sheisaquarius-blog and @chu-tea for being the best hype wives ever!

This event is not exclusive to writing or art, but can be a celebration including photos, gif-sets, sharing of favorite moments, anything you want as creative as you want to be! It is just meant to celebrate our favorite pair of soulmates!

This is split into a more general prompt day and some RPF prompts, but both are open-ended and you can produce anything for any set of days and be shippy or otherwise as fits your tastes!

Ianthony Week: A celebration of friendship 2024!

General:

June 20: Friendship Always Wins! ☀️🔍 (A day to highlight the friendship, reunion, and bond of our favorite set of best friends/soulmates)

June 21: Favorite classic Ianthony moment! (Highlighting your favorite classic Ianthony moment! Pre-divorce! If you don’t have a classic moment today is a good day to check some classic Smosh out!)

June 22: Favorite Modern Ianthony moment! ( It’s been a wild year for our boys! Nows your chance to talk about your favorite current post-reunion Ianthony moment!)

June 23: Smosh Dads (Today is the day to give some love for your favorite Smosh dads! Do you have a moment they were particularly dad-like to the cast and crew? Share it!)

RPF:

June 24: Parallel Or Past Versus Present! (Want to compare the classic lunchtime with Smosh with the new? Compare how Ian and Anthony used to hug and high five versus now? Do you have a connection between an old and current sketch? Show us!)

2. June 25: Heart Eyes Padilla (Have you seen the way Anthony looks at Ian? Of course you have! Share your favorite heart eyes from Anthony to Ian!)

June 26: Heart Eyes Hecox (Have you seen the way Ian looks at Anthony? It’s rare, but it’s there! Share your favorite moment with us!)

June 27: Free Day! (Celebrate Ianthony any way you see fit!)

Any reblogs are appreciated!

[jonquilyst]

322. Epilogue, Episode 14

THE END!!!

Thank you, everyone, SO SO MUCH for reading The Runaway. Words cannot express how much your love and support for this story and my characters has meant to me over the last 2 years. Whether you've been following since the beginning, or you hopped on while the drama was going down in Chapter 10, your support means the absolute world to me. I'm so happy that I got to share this story with you all and I really hope it left some sort of impact on you 💖

Now, go ahead and read it from the beginning!

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Transcript:

(Pink text = Megyn)

Megyn (narrating): I'm happy with the life I've made for myself.

Megyn (narrating): But even though I've made my life my own, I couldn't have done it without my friends.

Megyn (narrating): I'm so happy I met Eva at the gym all those years ago.

Megyn (narrating): I'm so happy she introduced me to her friends: Jayden and Wyatt

Megyn (narrating): But most importantly, I'm so happy I decided to reject the life I was living as a kid so I could pursue a better one in the end.

Megyn (narrating): Whatever the future holds, I'm ready for it, because this is only a chapter in my story.

Megyn (narrating): And this is just the beginning of the difference I'll make in the world.

*FIN*

[its-ezraaa]

2ha vol 1 illustration!

I haven't seen anyone post it yet... It's so pretty ;w;

[slodkie-skrzydla]

🦋Hej motylki🦋

Spalone: 650kcal

Bilans: 453kcal

Dzisiejszy dzień nie był zły, chociaż szczerze mógł by być lepszy. Nienawidzę siebie za to ile dzisiaj zjadłam, nienawidzę siebie za to ,że nie wytrzymałam i zjadłam tego cukierka… ale bede nad tym pracować, obiecuje.

Jedyne co uważam za udane dzisiaj to spalone kalorie.

🦋Powodzona motylki, do jutra🦋

[chuluoyi]

jjk is ending in 5 chapters WHAT 😭 WHAT AM I GOING TO DO NOW

miao i logged back to tumblr just now after running around all day and this is the first thing i read :’)

tbh… i feel like it’s finally the time to end it :’) i think even i’ll be more relieved than saddened to see how it finally ends bc omg sukuna kaisen has been going on for too long already (and not to mention, the fandom itself is so rancid lately) so i’m actually… looking forward to it?🥹 but ofc i’ll be sad too bc 😭 this is the first animanga i followed the serialization weekly!! this is the first anime i hyperfixated enough that i write fics about it :’) i wouldn’t have started a writing blog if it weren’t for jjk🥲

oh and yeah i won’t stop writing for jjk anytime soon 🥹 sobs i still have some brainrots i haven’t completed :’) and if it’s me then surely i’ll change their fates mywahhaha 😗

[chu-be-chu]

E benim çilekli sütüm bitti, ben nasıl ders çalışıcam?

[thelovelycircusau]

"Peep?"

Forgot her tiara, pls ignore that //

[frunkus-framkus]

🗡🍵🔮Chu Yao (Taiyi) Stimboard🔮🍵🗡

🗡🍵🔮

[chu-diaries]

100 days of mental healthcare: day 67/100

It was a lovely day. I woke up early and had a slow breakfast, then I cooked lunch and did laundry. After lunch I cleaned my kitchen, did dishes and cleaned my oven. I still had some time until the sunset so I planned a picnic! I went to a farm near my house and bought some Camembert, cinnamon bread and kombucha. It was really nice to walk around the olive trees. I felt relaxed and happy.

I’ve been thinking a lot about my self knowledge as something that is part of my mental health. As a people-pleaser I realized I’ve been wearing a lot of masks to keep myself socially safe. I really want to remember who I really am so I asked ChatGPT to come up with 40 questions about myself for me to answer in the remaining days of this challenge.

💥: day 14/28 (ovulation day!)

💧: 1 L

🏋🏻‍♀️: 🚫

🏃🏻‍♀️: 🚫

📝: 🚫

🎧: coroa de marabô - aldeia de caboclos

🎮: 🚫

📺: one piece ep. 404-415

📚: hp and the half blood prince

🛑: 8 days pick-free

💊: 🚫

[bl-bam-beyond]

Mandatory Military Service Completed. PARK SEO HAM is back in circulation.

In honor of that a Semantic Error APPRECIATION POST

The First Official Meeting of Jae Young & Sang Woo

Semantic Error (2022, SOUTH KOREA)

Chu Sang Woo (PARK JAE CHAN) is an emotionless take no prisoners college student forced to do the work of a group project all alone. The other group members in his phone as FREELOADERS.

One of those freeloaders is Jang Jae Young (PARK SEO HAM) labeled as FREELOADER # 3 and because Sang Woo removing the names of the members of the group project Jae Young has been denied graduation and he wants revenge. Sang Woo avoids him successfully until Sang Woo sets himself up to meet Freeloader # 3 as a designer for his game.

@pose4photoml @lutawolf @kingofthereblog-boysloveed