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When the villains caught wind of a new hero on the team, they’d all taken interest. When someone came back claiming he’s blind, it’d sparked a whole new debate.
Straightforward, they’d all said. He won’t even see us coming. They’d laughed at how easy it’d seemed.
The villain feels like they’ve stumbled on a pile of gold when they come across the hero. He’s running his hand along something on the fence in front of him, something that the villain will later realise is a braille description of the view ahead of him. A white cape drifts around his ankles, an equally white suit flattering against his typical heroic body, the lightest of smiles on his face as his fingers trace the patterns of dots along the railing.
The villain can’t help but grin as they slowly make their way towards the poor hero, so oblivious, so stupid. They’re barely a hair breadth away, their dagger practically unsheathing itself, when the hero spins towards them with a swish of his cape and a flick of a blade.
The villain barely reels back in time. Staying quiet doesn’t occur to them when they’re startled. The hero looks like he’s staring right through them, an arrogant smirk on his face.
“Ah,” he says brightly, “you’re one of those criminals I’m meant to be looking out for?”
The villain sidesteps, careful to keep their footing quiet, but it doesn’t matter. The hero’s head cocks towards them as they try to step out of his blade’s path.
“You’re almost silent,” the hero continues. A smirk adorns his face, intrigued. “Incredible.”
The villain is close enough to strike, the hero looking slightly too far beyond them to be right in his assumptions. The villain shifts in fast, their dagger poised. The hero dodges back and retaliates with a swing of his own.
The villain stumbles out of reach and the hero follows. The villain’s unprepared; they were expecting a hero who’s unsure who they’re looking for, where the villain is. They were expecting an easy plaything that they could stab when they got bored.
But this—the hero is nothing but brazen confidence.
The villain shoves their dagger up to meet his blade, throwing his arm out. They move in for another strike but the hero’s already recovered. His blade easily tucks under their arm and slices into their side.
Something of a strangled gasp escapes the villain before they can stop it. They stagger back, a hand touched timidly to the wound, their eyes flitting back up to the hero. He simply waits, his blade crimson and his eyes blank. How? How?
“Would you do me the honour of telling me who I’ve met?” he asks, as if this is nothing more than a casual meeting between friends of friends. The villain wants to snap him in half for the audacity.
“That’s none of your fuckin’ business.”
“Aha,” the hero says, almost a laugh, “You’re [Villain].”
The villain can only stare at him in horror. The hero seems to feel the tension in the silence, because he continues. “You’ve a bad mouth, favour in the blade, light on your feet.” A teasing smile. “And you’ve a smooth, caramel voice I haven’t heard in many like you.”
“Wh— Excuse me— You—”
The hero just smirks, the stupid smirk of someone who knows he’s untouchable in every sense of the word. “Flustered by compliments, too,” the hero finishes with a laugh. “Good to remember for next time.”
“I’m not flustered!” the villain finally manages, “and my voice isn’t caramel. That isn’t a thing. You sound stupid.”
“I’m happy to be stupid if it means I can recognise you as the villain who speaks in caramel.”
The villain’s side is beginning to really ache. They need to be somewhere that’s not here when it inevitably gets worse. “Do what you want. I’m going home.”
“May I escort you to a prison cell?”
The villain barks a laugh, their side practically splitting with the forced fakeness of it. “As if you know where the agency is from here.”
“I always know where I am, [Villain].” A smile again, softer this time. Knowing. “You underestimate me for a characteristic I think makes me as interesting to you as you are to me.”
The burn in the villain’s skin is an ode to that. “Sure.” The villain turns on their heel before a thought occurs to them. “I’m going to walk away, loudly. Do me a favour and don’t fucking shank me when I do.”
The hero’s face twists back into a smirk. “As long as I hear you moving away. Until next time, [Villain].”
A blind hero! everyone had cried. It’s almost too easy!
The villain scurries away with a gash to the side and a slam to their ego, and they know now to know better than that.
#creative writing#writblr#writers on tumblr#writing#writing community#heroes and villains#hero x villain#im offically freeeeeeeeeeee#im so excited to reset my sleep schedule cause why am i in bed by 9pm#that being said life has been hectic recently! posts may slow down a bit while i get my shit together#theres been a lot goin on atm and i probably need a lil time to get back into the swing of things to get my creativity back#ill make a post about it for yall who dont see this so i dont just disappear off the face of the earth one day lmao#love yall either way <3
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*sips my drink* God I love being a multishipper sometimes.
#Madi's Art :>#WAaDW AU :>#cause they're all normal people. one day I will draw Blaze Hybrid Tango cause god I wanna draw fire hair But that will have to wait while#I'm still brainrotting over my own AU#also yes Bamboozler fit Jimmy! Yes the Bamboozler Floral shop has the fits! I just haven't drawn them! I need to!#there's a lot of things I need to draw but today was a Jimmy day apparently#YOU KNOW WHO I NEED TO DRAW? SCAR- DID I DRAW SCAR? NO#instead I drew Scott! and Jimmy! and Tango!#which this is my best Tango by far and I am using him as my basis for how I draw him in my au because holy shit a banger tango alert!#okay got a funny out of my system Ru will know what it is#flower husbands#team rancher#rancher duo#Flower ranchers#technically cause that is one of the ships in my AU yet I still never draw them all together! I gotta get on that!#Just drawing interactions is so hard but I think I've gotten better at it over the years!#one day I will write a flower ranchers one-shot and yes it will be a Jimmy sickfic for my au AND IT WILL BE GLORIOUS-#whenever I watch a Tango pov... Then I can write that... there's a Chance I can write that cause I have Tango's season 2 of hermitcraft on#my wheel of hermitcraft povs to watch-#if that is the one-shot to start my AU that will be the funniest thing in the world actually I might just have to-#but also like there's three different povs it could be told from and like Jimmy's pov would definitely probably have to be the one the#one the sickfic is told from but I might write out Tango's pov as a writing exercise to get his tone of voice down#anywho Guys I can't wait to actually start Writing for my au (I say as the only thing stopping me is that I gotta watch Martyn's videos)#I'll do that on friday maybe... Or I will spin my wheel and see where it lands okay okay#fanart#tangotek#jimmy solidarity#solidaritygaming#scott smajor#tangotek fanart
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i love looking at hot takes and realizing that some outsiders fans don’t realize that fandom is something fun. nothing is truly that serious at the end of the day.
#ik i am a hypocrite but like fuck y’all HATE when people have fun with ensemble characters#like let people have fun and do shit#keep your head down and don’t be an ass#i’m chill with about 99% of the fandom cause of that#but some of y’all are insane#and book fans hate musical fans for some reason and will not shut the fuck up about it#like glad you like the book that’s great!! love that and i’d love to discuss it but the musical is not the root of all evil#oh nooo they added more characters cause you need more for a musical to function#every adaptation changes things lemme hold your hand i promise it’s okay that this happens#also y’all realize some things were cut cause they needed to fit in the MUSIC. cause it’s a MUSICAL#and none of these ensemble are magically getting more lines#idk i’m tired of the fighting cause it’s notttttt that deep and y’all hate seeing musical fans have fun#also you aren’t better than me for not shipping something holy fuck#i don’t care that you don’t ship something i do#one of my best friends in the world doesn’t ship one of my main three ships and we get alone very well#that’s not my issue#my issue is people acting like they understand the story more or are immune to mischaracterizing the characters#they can be shipped and still hold true to themselves#these tags are a lot of yap but i’m tired and sad and pissed off so#y’all get this#this happens so much with cherrycola acting like it gets rid of their major character traits#the whole point is they are FRIENDS before they ever get together#they don’t get together til LATER ON#they have to heal and work out their own issues#“but cherry said blah blah to ponyboy”#consider its cause her boyfriend just threatened to kill a child. she may have been a little shaken up and not wanted#to bring more trouble and attention to him#anyway#the outsiders#the outsiders broadway
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is2g bros i have not gone so crazy over an episode of tv since the ouat season 2 episode "the outsider" aka the episode where belle lost her memories.
#brilliant minds spoilers#brilliant minds#wolfnichols#ouat#i was screaming crying sick at the tv when that shit aired ya'll#i had spoiled it accidentally actually#and had a meltdown before the episode screaming about belle forgetting rumple#i was highkey insane#bruh lemme tell you#i was throwing things at my tv tonight#i thought for sure after the interns knew there would be this emo scene with him and josh about noah#BUT NO#just angst for the vine now clearly#which ironically ouat was famous for#i just need oliver to like go over to josh and like cry about all this#but he thinks he is undeserving#which is ironic cause josh probs feels inferior now#please ya'lls i just need my gay doctors to get emo together and support eachother#gdi wolf let your boyfriend in#is2g if not going to the gala was your idea of “breaking” up with him#imma fight#anyways#season 2 renewal would be great rn
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ive started to really despise self help posts because all they do for me is illustrate just how apparently fucked i am compared to most other people
#vent#bloody hell#like gods this shit works for you??#such bullshit#i know its not good to be mad at other people for being happier than you#but fuck dude why cant i ever get a win bigger than ''fine i guess i dont wanna kill myself''#like thats great and all but im still in the exact same hole as before!#ive never even needed self help posts in the first place- all i need is to pull myself together and fix things#... no thats a lie. i havent been able to do that in years.#call it lack of energy or motivation or willpower or whatever#nowadays even when people like my brother try to help me as much as they know how#i just cant manage to try#i tried so hard for years and where did that get me? burnout 2 electric boogaloo#i can try to light the spark like i used to as much as i want#never gonna catch if theres nothing left to burn#cant even slow down#because i know that wont fix anything#ill be just as exhausted as before because my energy levels are perpetually at 0 i guess.#''just try harder'' WHY???#WHY ARE YOU TRYING IN THE FIRST PLACE??#what is giving you the motivation to keep pushing on like that??#what could possibly be so important to you that its worth ALL OF THIS!??#i dont understand#i remember i used to push on despite everything#but there was no reason. i was fighting cause what else could i do?#but as soon as i realized that i ran out of steam. not quite the same when you realize youre ruining yourself for literally no reason#because you never considered doing anything else#what a fucking joke
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E94 spoilers ahead
Very unpopular opinion, I’m sure, but Fearne doesn’t deserve Ashton.
When Ashton fucked up, her reaction was to hit him and try to break his things.
When she fucked up, they were concerned and supportive.
She owes him one hell of an apology to start. Callowmoore was my backup ship for ash if Ashrym didn’t pan out until the shard incident. Now??? Ashton deserves better.
#critical role spoilers#critical role#ashton greymoore#critrole#cr campaign 3#critical role campaign 3#cr spoilers#I’m not tagging fearne cause her Stan’s don’t need my negativity#but i said what i said#and I know some will think I’m being bitter because of Ashrym#I’m not#I love Ashton more than Ashrym and they deserve better#she needs to get her shit together and be worthy of him
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Honestly, even without Art’s attempts at manipulation and sabotage, I don’t think Patrick and Tashi’s relationship would’ve survived anyway. Before they started dating, Patrick was criticizing her career plans and Tashi was never interested in entertaining his massive ego at her expense. Passion and chemistry are important to relationships, but if that’s the only foundation, it’s gonna crumble quickly.
The only difference between Patrick/Tashi vs Art/Tashi is that the relationship would’ve ending with a bang instead of a whimper.
#challengers#challengers spoilers#patrick and tashi need art between them#his willingness to submit even when done so with manipulative intentions does let tashi and patrick to indulge in their desire for control#the movie makes a point of saying that patrick is constantly shooting himself in the foot because he’s unwilling to humble himself#art let patrick get away with a LOT but tashi does and would not#but even tho patrick does get to the point where he can humble himself it’s still necessary for patrick to go off script and stir shit up#the way the film ends makes it abundantly clear that all three of them need each other to function#and that each person brings something different to the trio that each person needs#so i don’t buy that patrick and tashi could’ve worked things out on their own#tashi so clearly likes art’s dependence and loyalty to her#while also getting a lot from patrick’s passion and pushback#would also like to say that i personally love when art’s a mean little bitch#not only cause it’s fun but because it really seems born out of a fear of being left alone/behind#spreading my ‘art’s a greedy pillow princess that actually needs TWO tops to handle him’ agenda#and wrt the injury…sorry no one’s actually at fault for that#not only could no one could ever engineer something like that#it could’ve happened at any time because that’s life#in the film it’s meant to underscore the danger of disharmony between all three of them#and snap the tenuous thread holding all three of them together#and placing blame kind of misses the overall point the film is going for wrt the relationship between all three#hey is it just me or has this film broken my brain
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#back in my piarles feels thinking about how for some reason i just... never managed to really get into the tumblr end of things#and follow the big piarles blogs. like i have my gewis mutuals i have my lolex mutuals loscar mutuals pierresteban mutuals#geoscar norrussell galex even chalex here and there. no piarles for how big of a ship it is and for how many people its their main ship#anyway the answer is that i will never interact with most of them cause a lot of them hate esteban and i obviously do not#its also not the fact that they dislike esteban. its the fact that several post untagged hate is what really gets me#would not be surprised if several of them had me blocked. fair game and all yk but still... idk. i think its cause ive been rereading#the comments on cycling au again. so many writers whose stuff i adore and some of them even wrote the fics that got me into f1 rpf#but i will never meaningfully interact with because of drivers that i enjoy#idk... sorta stupid but i really feel like an outsider to that end of teh community for how much i care about piarles :///#((the fact that it also feels very clique-y probably does not help. cc et all#anyway i need to get my shit together. should stop caring but when have i ever won the idgaf war#delete later
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some bobbles (+ two unfinished things)
#bonk.png#undescribed#exocolonist#i was a teenage exocolonist#iwatec#iwatex#anyway first thing bc its the shortest i dont think sol would actually id as anything n prefer to be unlabeled#bc of like. the timeloop stuff n every life kind of blending together BUT i think it'd be funny as hell if they were aro#n just never became aware of this bc their self reflection skills in regards to shit unrelated to the loop are That Bad#also im aro n like when characters are aro + love it when characters are kind of deranged about their friends#speaking of which madoka au! forever ago i drew the 🤝 meme with sol n homura n now im coming back to that#its not a 1 to 1 au straight up the commonalities begin n end at ''tammy & sol are kind of like madoka/homura''#stuff i got down for it in a sleep deprived haze were that sol nemmie n tangent were the only magical girls#n tammy hasnt been offered to become one nemmie n tangent arent aware that sol is a magical girl for a while#friendgroup at school is nemmie cal tammy n sol (tangent goes to a different school n is separate until she teams up with nemmie)#nemmie n tang team up bc somehow witch attacks keep being diverted from certain locations n grief seeds are disappearing#which is actually sol's doing theyre moving witches away from areas tammy will be n the grief seeds are to 1. discourage nem n tang from#fighting witches n 2. so sol can stockpile them basically bc they use timetravel a lot n need to keep their gem clean#the timeloop has progress (to an extent) its not a singular month looping its kind of like. video game save mechanics#like reloading the save u have before a bossfight n then if ur not adequately prepared reloading a save u have farther back#n then continuing on until u get stuck on a specific fight again yknow#theres more but moving on to the two unfinished things those are meant to be like a utdr au (specifically dr)#in a similar manner to the previous au of same premise n setting but different story bc theyre different characters#there's a lot less set for this au its entirely just playing in the sand n has nothing beyond vague role assignments#the first one that's like lineart in different colors is entirely scrapped bc i didnt like how it was turning out (meant to be darkworld fit#second one i struggled BADLY with marz oh my god this au is literally primarily for having fun with character designs but oh my god.#as it says there shes meant to be a modern art styled metal monster (got the metal idea from her dads' names n the modern art bc shesrefined#n sleek) but i had no actual idea how to convey that n i was trying to tackle it from a pixel art angle this time n i could notfigure it out#n then nomi nomi was super easy literally didnt even sketch them theyre a tiny pixie im sorry marz T-T#probably not gonna touch on this stuff again cause i was fixing on exo to avoid thinking about my bday but its happened so im fine now 👍
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🍷💔🐺
🍷 Jake's family causes the hangster break up
“It’s no problem,” Mav cuts in, shooting his husband a look before turning back to give Jake a small, but extremely awkward, smile. “I’m sure one day you’ll give us, uh, the full story. But for now you’re more than welcome in our home, Hangman.”
💔 icemav break up / icedad
“Some days it doesn’t feel real. What all went down,” Tom finally answers. “But then I wake up and roll over and he’s not there. His bike pieces aren’t scattered around the house. And it hits me like a F-14 to the chest because I remember all of a sudden.”
🐺 shifter au - hangster
“Honey, don't you understand that you’re mine? That you’re it for me? I don’t get a happy ending in my life, if you aren’t there with me. If you are there next to me,” Jake states, voice cracking from how thick it is. How laced with hurt and love and need for Bradley to finally understand what Jake is telling him.
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#nixie answers#make nixie write#phisworld14#hangster#sereshaw#seresin family ruins sereshaw#it's gonna be awkward as hell for jake#once he and bradley get back together#because icamav are gonna be LIKE THAT. mostly cause they also don't know the full story. just that jake hurt baby goose.#but they'll chill out when someone finally clues them in on what all actually went down#icedad#ICE IS NOT OKAY#I REPEAT#ICE IS NOT DOING OKAY RIGHT NOW#and he might not ever#I really don't know how this one is gonna go y'all#like I know I'm gonna end it on a soft note#because I"M a little baby and need my happy endings#but I don't know how happy ice is gonna be when I end it#shifter au#jake is going to flip his shit soon#if bradley doesn't finally start understanding that when he says things to him like this. he FULLY means it.#that bradley is his happy ending and jake needs him to understand it
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impaled
#nathan being impaled on that tetanus inducing loose steel pipe. tho tetanus is the least of his worries on account of. well u know 🕳#nathan can be a body horror fans best friend if u let him into ur heart. living human crash dummy#i really cant believe he gets impaled. twice.#hole moment!#love turning nathans immortality round in my head. but healing factor....?#thinkin today about how the video game guy tim threatens to cut one of them in half with a chainsaw and simon is like:#[😐nathan u obviously have to volunteer]#but what woulda actually happened if that followed through [probably why it didnt lol]#would the others have had to drag each severed bit of him back to the community centre and let his guts re fuse#fucking hold him together with gaffer tape and plasters. cause i doubt he coulda regrown a whole half#his 'healing factor' only comes into play when he dies. fresh canvas etch a sketch reboot and all that. hes not fuckin wolverine#all the deaths r: impaled on fence. impaled on pipe. beaten to death. blows his own brains out. falls and snaps his neck#but chainsaw... ? one can ponder. fingers to head i can imagine anything image#readin his wiki rn 'his body will never get sick. rot. age. or truly grow old'#may not get sick but he can still shit his guts out. hashtag oblivious lactose intolerant king hashtag milk drinker#forever the worlds most annoying twenty yr old#and then the wiki goes 'the user does not need to eat drink or breathe' ....hello#ive rotated him not aging any further cause it lines up with the whole stuck in his ways. never changing [kelly voice: its just who u are]#but eatin and drinking and breathing??? we know he still experiences hunger [<-kebab]#and he dunks his head in a bucket of water when hes testin for powers with simon. gaspin for air afterwards right#firm believer in the. he suffocated to death several times in the coffin before they dug him up#oh waaait. is it stating this like. he doesnt need foodwaterair. cause it doesnt matter if he dies.. ohhhhhh..... Oh..😃#staring at nathan sleeping in the community centre surviving on bags of crisps from the vendies so hard i burn holes through my monitor#this got away from me. uh. living crash dummy. oil pastel guts and water colour jumpsuit yessir#having fun doin art. expect more hole art. sorryfor putting this in the misfits tag hehe. not really#gore#blood#misfits#my art#chewtoy
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I should probably at least try to take care of myself huh
#ive been in a phase of not giving a shit about how i look for ???? idk a long time#cause if i DO care then i have breakdowns over how bad i look. so. thats the lesser of two evils for ne#but also i wanna do fun stuff with my appearance again which is a good sign#hhhh i NEED to grow my hair out so baddd#also as soon as i get back to poland im finding all of my favorite skirts and putting a fun outfit together#huh. what if i buy myself a new skirt actually#i havent bought any skirts ever in my life. they were all either for school or hand me downs#i should get myself a new skirt. as a treat#murl murmurs#delete later maybe? idk
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in their recent track, bb had to juggle and resolve three different parties’ issues in the mtc track their issues were caused by three different parties in the fp all of them had to confront their secret that’s shaped their identities so maybe with the mtr track where we know hifumi is about share the trauma that shaped him we will similarly get jakurai and doppo’s raison d’etre out in the open—
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#vee queued to fill the void#*claps hands together* pls let me be right about doppo pls let my hc about doppo be true pls let doppo be a surprise this track PLS—#PLS KR IT WOULD REALLY MAKE ME HAPPY IF I WAS RIGHT THAT DOPPO HAS BEEN WORKING TO DEATH FOR A IZANAMI FAMILY RELATED REASON#DOPPO AND HIFUMI ARE CHILDHOOD FRIENDS WHATEVER HAPPENED BETWEEN HONOBONO HIFUMI AND DOPPO CAUSED THE IZANAMIS TO BREAK APART#BUT I DOUBT DOPPO WOULD TAKE THAT HES THE BTCH THAT DONT PLAY ABOUT HIS HUSBAND BRO LOOK AT ALL THAT ANGER HE HAS TOWARDS HONOBONO#PLS LET DOPPO BE GETTING SHIT DONE BEHIND THE SCENES#THAT BRO HE MENTIONED ONCE WHO WAS FAILING HIS CLASSES AND DOPPO WAS BLAMING HIMSELF FOR??????#LITTLE KANNONZAKA NEEDS TO GET GOOD BUT ITS BC HES HELPING DOPPO KEEP TABS ON IZAMAMA AND SIS#JUTO AND DOPPOS RELATIONSHIP THAT WAS ALSO MENTIONED ONCE?????#ITS DOPPO KEEPING SURVEILLANCE HE ON THE LOOKOUT BUT ALSO TRYING TO KEEP THE IZANAMIS SAFE AND AWAY FROM FURTHER HARM#JUTO WAS THE ONE THAT HELPED HIM SET IT UP#THAT BURNER PHONE THAT WAS MENTIONED HE HAS I THINK IN A RADIO???????#COMMUNICATION OFF THE GRID MEANT TO BE UNTRACEABLE ITS WHAT THE ANALOG BEATS LIKE DOPPOS KAOMOJIS AND THE RETRO GAME SOUND IN PML ARE FOR#LET ME BE RIGHT KR PLS#or you can say i’m wrong and let me cook with my kuukou stuff i’m not picky lmao
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head hurty
#was up so fucking late last night stressed out of my mind#cause it turns out all the stress and sacrifices i made for the foundational course i took??#all for fucking nothing#''the waitlist hasn't moved.'' yeah cause y'all brought in way more foundations students#than u actually had the diploma course space for#and like. theres nothing else i can fucking do.#if i try to get into a university i'd have to do something like a foundations course all over again#and have to do a bunch of shit i have no interest/talent in in order to get to the stuff i DO have interest/talent in#which is just fucking stupid. why the fuck is it set up like that.#if i'm trying to get into a uni creative writing course why the FUCK do i need to take SCIENCE#and i can't do online courses that are just writing. cause i can't fucking FOCUS in an online course#and any other course i might be interested in are in schools that are too damn far away and that i cant afford#so basically. i can do fucking nothing.#but once i tell my parents that the waitlist hasn't moved and that im definitely not gonna make it in#they're going to start HOUNDING me. even more than they already constantly do#im gonna have to sit through 3 hours of them yelling at me to ''stop pretending to be an idiot'#and to ''pull my life together''#and that ''everyone has to do stuff they don't like sometimes''#(yeah well my brain doesn't work like that. if i dont like the subject of the course i literally CAN'T LEARN)#(i will just straight up not retain any of the information and just be annoyed and stressed and upset the whole time)#and my parents will tell me im gonna end up living under a bridge for the thousandth time#and then they'll threaten to kick me out of the house/take away my internet for the millionth time#and then this will happen every day until i get into SOMETHING
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got rejected from a job i was actually desperate to get like not even in a i need money way in an i want to work there way after a job interview i thought went well and put so much time and effort into even bought new clothes for it (fancy place) (i even swallowed my pride and asked my sisters for help with clothes and hair and makeup) and got a call first thing in the morning thought it was a good sign nope two sentences i say oh ok etc etc and hang up feels so shit man i hate finding a job really tests ur sense of self worth ugh it’s been two days and im still getting anxiety about it and it’s 4am and i kinda wanna cry again like whyyyy the whole situation is so embarrassing i hate being openly excited about something and getting shot down it’s like getting a bad grade on something you worked super hard on ugh
#vent post#personal vent#will probably delete this later when i wake up and feel humiliated AGAIN about my word vomit#moth speaks#personal#other#job hunting fucking sucks it’s so bad#and then i get the job interview and they ask oh you haven’t been staying very long at ur positions and i have to say yeah cause they keep#closing down or i have to leave for some big reason and have to basically confess no im desperate for a job#i didn’t say that#but i guess it lowkey came across like that#it’s just humiliated i feel humiliated in a special way that only job searching can make you feel#and i NEED money#i haven’t had a consistent income in a year it’s not good guys#thank god my parents don’t make me pay bills and shit#but it’s humiliating and i hate it everyone i know has their shit together
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My new hobby is skimming through seasons of Ninj//ago to induce a fever dream like state in my psychese
#I've always had kinda like....petty beef with ninj//ago just cause like. EVERYONE compares it to monkie kid#When they r just not comparable beyond the surface level observation that its legos#Like ninj//ago contributes to the idea of an Asian monolith and uh. It's annoying to me.#It's also so thematically empty and they just reset shit whenever and it barely has characters. It's not good#Which makes me feel crazy when lmk is SO good. Like so so so good#Let it be known I've seen all that's out of drag//on rising#the first 3 seasons of the og show. And I skimmed through possession seabound and both crystal king parts#Gotta say. Sea Nya slaps like what the hell#Ninj//ago isn't good but that was legitimately like. Awesome#So there are officially 1 and a half episodes that I find thematically banging#I'm always a sucker for there being no good choice but still having to choose. Like I am. What decision can you live with#But Nya losing herself to the Sea? Losing her own breath and inhaling the sea to remove the water out of Jay's lungs?#The fact that she only became the water ninja because her friends needed her which eventually pushed her into this fate#Making it so she couldn't remember who she was or what her loved ones meant to her?#Her convo with nyad was like#duuddeeeeeeeeeee. brooooooo#Like she became eternal and endless. A force of nature but there was still a small part of her that remembered what ''good'' is#The part of her that would save a sailor who had gone overboard even if it went against the natural course of the ocean#Because there is no right or wrong there. Except in the small drop of Nya that was left#Like what the FUCK that's CRAZYYY BRO#Like she literally had to pull herself out of herself (the sea) to keep ''Nya'' together like. oh my god. How the cookie crumbles I guess#ninjago critical#anyways I've been losing my mind about Sea Nya and how nothing else in ninja//go is like it I needed to get it off my chest#sea nya
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