#murl murmurs

[murmurmurl]

Oh my cod I started decorating my house in one style and then got a new bed as a reward and it's so pretty????? But completely different from what I was going for so now I'm contemplating completely redecorating,,

[flionp]

I have grown weak. before, I could run on two hours of sleep a day for a week straight and be fine.. now anything lese than 5-6 hours of sleep makes me a walking corpse.. fucked up

[murmurmurl]

Damn I will never know peace. Anyway so my ocs,

[murmurmurl]

Absolutely love people who talk a lot because I don't talk much most of the time so it saves me from panicking and trying to come up with normal ways to continue the conversation. Also what they say is usually fun to listen to. Like, yes, please yap more, in fact, i am forever indebted to you.

[murmurmurl]

"He would not fucking say that" but its me reassuring myself that my friends wouldn't be mean to me when I catch myself overthinking

[murmurmurl]

Oh how I love fish. Having fish thoughts. Beautiful fish.

[murmurmurl]

tumblr stop throwing vent posts at me, I'm trying to do better over here. smh

[murmurmurl]

I think everyone should draw their characters biting each other. Turns out it's very healing for the soul

[murmurmurl]

I like drawing silly little gay people. it brings me joy. however, I DON'T like drawing bushes and trees. it brings me despair.

[murmurmurl]

oh, i am so fucking angry and upset right now. showed my mother nimona. everything was good, she liked it, we both sobbed, UNTIL. in the end i asked her what she thinks and one of the things she said was "the thing i don't like about this message of extending understanding and a hand of help is that the people of israel tried to do that with Gazans and look what it cost them after october 7th... no matter how many hands of help you give, for some people it's not enough...", honest to god, she didn't even try to put it on hamas or anything like that. hey i really fucking hate living in this damn household even more now. i genuinely can't understand how it's still possible for so many people to view israel in a good light. what weird distorted information do you have to consume or how much you have to ignore EVERYTHING else to think that.

[murmurmurl]

forget everything I said yesterday wtf was I on about. did I take my meds.

[murmurmurl]

have you ever thought that. frog.

[murmurmurl]

SHAKING. I want to draw but I don't know what I want to draw. My brain wants to draw something specific but it's not telling me. It's not ocs. What is it. Is it the gay old men. It's the gay old men isn't it. Oh god

[murmurmurl]

Paper machete is so fun. Or however it's spelled

[murmurmurl]

"you just haven't found the right person yet" no, I just haven't found the right rock to smash into your thick skull yet.

[murmurmurl]

today I drank some moldy juice, talked way too much about the loud polish man and my ankle gave up on me. what a wonderful day!