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hey chat, so i got a small question for you all (im gonna ramble so bear with me here):
So, a lot of Steven Universe edits started popping up on my tiktok tonight, and it got me thinking. Would Cybertonians be able to fuse like the gems do?
i know the gems can fuse because they dont actually have physical bodies that are forced to stay the same like humans and whatnot (even tho Steven can fuse with humans ig??), but hear me out.
So like, my thoughts would be the sparks of cybertronians being able to mesh kind of? not fully obvious, but like, certain parts of it and their code mesh together to create a “new” bot that would be the fusion. Since cybertonians already can transform into vehicles obviously, and we see in the 2nd bayverse movie Optimus take on Jetfires parts AND spark to make him stronger to defeat Fallen, would that mean that they could somehow mesh and fuse together? Their codes and sparks meshing slightly to create a new voice and personality, and their bodies obviously creating a new bot.
if you see this, i really want to know your thoughts and ideas about it!!
#PLEASE hear me out on this#i cant tell if im just delusional on this#or if this actually seems like a decent idea#transformers#fusion#uhhh#steven universe#i guess#???#its not exactly talked about in this post but its mentioned#and is the main cause of this post#i need yalls opinion on this#cause i feel like im going crazy
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NICKELODEON/BACKYARDIGANS OFFICIAL HIRE ME I CAN HELP YOU!!!!
#ive fixated on this show since i was a fetus do u know how surreal it is to see it go viral again over some shit like THIS#the backyardigans#backyardigans#also /pos im about to cry cause these are blowing up on twitter and i feel so validated#shumm's art#digital art#nick jr#noggin#2000s nostalgia#medibang paint pro#redesign#pablo backyardigans#tyrone backyardigans#uniqua backyardigans#tasha backyardigans#austin backyardigans#artists on tumblr#being simultaneously excited to get new content for the first time in like 14 years for it to look AI generated is crazy (im not ok)#i said it on twit but it feels like they generated a prompt. then paid an animator/artist/whatever to model and design said prompt.#it also sounds...really weird????? i cant tell if it's ai singing or real kids but. it's lowkey unsettling to me lol#anyways i snapped on everyone esp austin#HIRE ME FOR A REBOOT HIRE ME FOR A REBOOT HIRE ME FOR A REBOOT
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*WAS IT WORTH IT?
GAAAAAHH posted this on tiktok forgot to post it on tumblr
also i made a work-in-progress overview on tiktok and the sound got removed so im gonna do that for this too 😭😭 BUT AUGGGHHHH THIS THING TOOK YEARS OFF MY LIFE/pos (tbf this comic in general is taking years off my life so LEMME GIVE A LITTLE BACK TO COMMUNITY♥️♥️♥️)
its hard to describe after its all “done” (its not exactly done- but i’m calling it here cause i’m happy with it)
BUT I EXPECTED THAT! SO I RANTED ABOUT IT AS I MADE IT ON MY ART ARCHIVE SERVER!!! HAVE AT YEE
all the little ins and outs :3
since I can only post 1 video per pose ill post the works in progress’ after this- be on the look out cause I ALSO CANT JUST REBLOG THIS 😭😭 videos are weird on tumblr smh
#forgettable au#forgettable au fanart#forgettable au fan amv#forgettable au when i watch you forgettable au#wingdings stop please#im begging you stop whatever youre about to do#(seriously what are you going to do? you confuse me)#im scared#I feel personally threatened#SERIOUSLY I JUST RELIZED THE HIM FLOWEY AND PLAYER PARALLELS LIKE IM GOING CRAZY#(insane)#haaaaaaa#LIKE HE WAS LIKE IN THE LAST CHAPTER#and here I thought the job was getting boring :)#LIKE HES GONNA START DOIN SHIT CAUSE HES B O R E D#LIKE FLOWEY GOT BORED#AND YOURE BORED#ITS SO COOL 😭#I LOVE THIS COMIC#SO COOL#SOCOOLSOCOOLSOCOOL
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His heart belongs to another
And no other heart will do
#no other heart by mac demarco : D#I drew this a couple of days ago because i was feeling crazy and i just love the idea that#these two should be great together!! they should!!! but#theyre not together#theres just . theyre missing something#and thats okay!!! its not meant to be#and theyre friendship is very valuble to both of them!!#their* fuck my baka keyboard#trolls#yall are gonna be mad about this one i feel it ...#i think we all know who jds gonna end up with now right ...#i just gotta .. draw them more 💀#i actully have the perfect ruveal i just have to finish painting it#urrgg i HATE painting#trolls oc#trolls oc cory#trolls movie#trolls john dory#trolls jd#john dory#jd ex husband#oh uhh i imagine this feels like a new years thing. or something#something that happened like right after they reconnected#before floyd and cory started going out#on god one day im gonna put all my tags lore into a post#i just shy 😔 who wants to read all this in a caption#not me brother!! I'm not reblogging that shit!!!#and im not finishing this cause i dont wanna give false hope 😘#although jd dating sim ... is pretty real#i would love to do endings with all his exs
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I keep seeing fanarts of ppl's OC's being on the ship, so do you think that if there was 6st crewmember (specifically, another woman) Anya would've been more safe? Like, someone to actually call Jimmy's begaviour out, someone Anya might wanna trust? Is there a possibility something might have changed (even if a little) or it would not have mattered at all?
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I feel like the game would make it part of the commentary on where she would believe and help Anya but still be sort of dismissive? Like the whole “don’t waste time crying and being scared keep going and move on, don’t let him win”. It’s supposed to be positive and reinforcing but sometimes it does more damage in those times of mourning and grief, it feels patronizing, like you don’t understand what you’re going through but they do. Even if they did call out his behavior it’s still on Curly to act and while another voice would help, it’s still 4 against 2 on guys that don’t get it until they have to vs women who always have to.
I don’t mind mouthwashing OCs but I do get a bit bored as they tend to be borderline saviors or like Jimmy aligned. They are either more complicit than Curly or just Jimmy haters for no reason, outside of what the creators know about what he did to Anya. I am never irked by OCs but in a story like mouthwashing you really need to think about what your character adds to the commentary, especially if they are there during the crash. It’s nice to have like characters on Anya’s side more whole heartedly and interesting to see characters who placate Jimmy but sometimes it’s one note.
I can’t and don’t want to police peoples OCs it’s never my intention when I comment on trends I notice, but I do feel like the way people make their OCs interact with these two characters and especially Curly, really show a grave misunderstanding of the narrative and these characters as people vs roles in the story. Still, I know people just make up characters for fun and that’s fine. Great even, but I guys I’m focusing more on OCs that are supposed to have those serious dynamics. My favs tend to be pretty-Tulpar or post-Tulpar au OCs.
The inevitably of the crash is on Jimmy. He did that not because he wasn’t stopped but because all his means to kill Anya were taken. The gun, the axe. Even if Curly did strip him of his co-pilot privileges and try to keep him contained there’s only so many people. An extra body helps but they have jobs they have to do, he’s the only one steering the whole ship and Jimmy would likely have an out: food, bathroom, etc. He’s not new and if he couldn’t crash the ship directly, who’s to say he wouldn’t sabotage something else? A clunker like the Tulpar wouldn’t take much. An extra person helps but it’s just another thing that prolongs what a person like Jimmy is willing to do to shirk responsibility.
It’s more than just needing someone to stand up to him and think that’s what is missing when it comes to inserting a character into the mouthwashing setting.
#like again most people treat Jimmy like a misanthrope and he’s not and the way he’s just evil/rude to everyone all the time just isn’t real#like he’s snarky and rude but it can’t be 100% of the time like hes not going out his way to instigate#he’s the type to say shit and hope it stirs the pot like Daisuke likes him at first#thinks he’s a bit of a jerk but he likes him like unless you specifically make a character he’s dislike he’s not just gonna be#readily antagonistic to strangers or at the get go#not to mention it’s not just about Anya needing a friend but someone with the power to do something#a point in why she confides in Curly is he’s the captain she’s not just gonna tell the only other woman just because it’s still personal#not every girl tells their friend or another woman especially if they are new and they don’t know how they react not all girls are#girls girls some can be just as toxic as the men they are being confided in about#the nuance of the situation is not solved by having more people who actively hate jimmmy if anything it would make him escalate further as#clearly has issues with how people perceive him and being liked like another woman who hates him that’s gonna do something crazy in his mind#I think it’s interesting when OCs explore another side of the pre established dynamics as Jimmy uses each remaining crew member to fill a#something Curly provided for him and represent his dynamic with Anya and being an abuser I just feel like a lot is being missed out on#and it’s mainly cause people don’t want to make OCs that aren’t great people like it’s okay to have a grey mediocre OCs in situations like#this its realistic and helps you write more grounded characters like idk i like the ocs but eh im not like a super fan#I really should make an analysis on Jimmy cause people hate discussing him and his character is being really misunderstood#like not saying she’s innocent or an excuse but just not getting how he is supposed to work like he’s no dick fucking dasteredly#he’s a shitty guy who gets shittier like he ain’t start out an avengers level threat#mouthwashing#💀 anon#mouthwashing game#ask#anya mouthwashing#curly mouthwashing#jimmy mouthwashing#mouthwashing oc#now I gotta make an oc just to prove myself but I can’t draw#so maybe not cuz what’s the point if I can’t explain the fly drip
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I can't believe people give advice that's basically "be less stressed". How can I explain to you that I've been scared of walking down the stairs since I learned to walk and I get an intrusive thought every time I cross a road. And then I have a lot more, actually real and important stuff to be anxious about!!
#like 90% of my intrusive thoughts are about me being harmed instead of the other way around#which i guess can be better than the alternative cause i question my morality less and stuff#like i went through the harmful yo others intrusive thoughts most of my childhood and it's kind of switched at some point#but now i am. unimaginably stressed by. everything#like sometimes i feel like im actually going crazy because how many times can you#live out your own death or have thoughts of great harm being donw to you. its just an insane feeling#whatever i was just thinking about a talk i had with one doctor#who asked me if i have a lot of stress in my life and when i said yes#she said “well you should become less stressed”#thanks girlie#ok sorry for using this post to vent about my intrusive thoughts but they suck ass and i can#never talk to anyone about them#god if i ever said more than a sentence about them I would feel so crazy
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getting design ideas for the wwww boys... i might take a crack at them soon
#where we went wrong#raph will probably look the closest to canon cause i cant think of any reason he'd look different?#like with mikey he's a lot more rough and tumble so im gonna give him a bunch of sparkly shaped bandaids... cause it feels like him#and the twins are gonna have some crazy stuff going on lmao i have some really vivid ideas#if im giving donnie the tinted glasses i should give some to leo too because itd be funny. maybe theyre heart-shaped because he's Homosexua#frEAK!!!! /aff#anyways we'll see what jives
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A "dtiys" is a "draw this in your style" challenge! I think I'd pick a panel or a few panels for it.
Or, I could just make it a fanart contest, where you could draw/write/create anything!
I've seen other comic artists do this, but what do you think?
Also, if you have prize suggestions/interests, do please let me know! I've got some ideas but there's no better way to offer what people would want other than to ask!
#i always feel bad even thinking about things like this idk#but it always looks fun...#for prizes I could offer books#merch#or a drawing#not sure what else though haha#been doin crazy bad mentally recently though.#not cause of med stuff#just life#it happens#but yeah so it's got me thinking abojt things#and made me realize...#i really want fanart!!! LOL#no im joking#i mean im not but these are unrelated#but no i was thinking about return#and how webtoon absolutely will NOT advertise me#and so i want to do something to entice people to help me advertise it#cause i know return is going to feel very lonely#and it's making me postpone it#but a contest or event around it would really give me something to look forward to!#so#anyways
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my brother really made me spend my new years doin this cause he wanted the moon knight skin. he doesnt even care about my pookie. he doesnt even know thats my pookie (even though the version of him in this game sucks i hate it)
kidnapping me to feed your cosmetic hoarding is evil :[ at least he'll get the skin now and leave me alone (you just have to reach gold rank)
#god. ranked in this game. nightmare. nightmare. took me 65 games to get to GOLD........ worst dps players i have ever seen#what you see here is me locking tf in with luna snow. OP character.#its the only way i could carry hard enough#mantis is better if your other healer is competent cause you can go crazy on the dps like zen in OW#but usually theyre not. so luna is better in most cases#just heal bot and pray i am better than the enemy flankers cause the only person looking out for me is my brother on tank#worked pretty well#but holy shit. back when i played OW ranked i was gold-plat without any real issue#i dont like to sweat. this game. Damn it makes you sweat#youre sweating in bronze cause EVERYONE starts at the same rank. bad system.#silver III was the worst though. we were stuck there for days. silver II-gold III went smooth when i started insta locking luna#im not a particularly good player its just that i can aim slightly better than flankers expect lol get frozen idiot#i was trying to heal bot as cloak and dagger but the dps are just soo ass i switched to mantis to get to silver#then mantis wasnt enough healing and i went luna#i hate playing tank in this game. really boring.#which is sad cause in OW i only played tank/heal but i feel like i can only play 3 chars in this game#that being luna mantis and rocket (and hes not great. but the rez is good and enemies at these ranks struggle to aim at him)#adam is the closest to my OW main (zen) but its too dangerous to play him unless your dps actually have brains#anyway. goodnight
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me when Rayman
#angelo txt#hea au#captain laserhawk#help help help#I feel like im making this too public#but i dont care#im going wild#feral even#gnashing my teeth#hes such an asshole#but with a cause#a relatable purpose and drive behind his asshole-ness#im going crazy#still havent watchedf the show#but the clips and edits... theyre enough to feed me
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ON AVERAGE HOW LONG DOES IT TAKE TO DRAW / RENDER YOUR ART BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE YOU PRODUCE MASTERPIECES LIKE HOTCAKES AND I HAVE SO MUCH RESPECT FOR YOU
ermmmmm it depends !!!! maybe like an hour or two from start to finish if its just a simple drawin' but if it's something fully rendered or im making multiple drawings/a character doodle page maybeeeeee like five-six hours.... idk ....
#snap chats#it varies severely#i severely underestimate how long it takes me to draw things so when i think of it im like 'surely not...' so who knows vjEALKJEALJ#like if its just one figure and no crazy bg then maybe an hour or two for a rendered thing#but this doesnt factor in the fact im very fickle and i have no idea what im doing 90% of the time so im always making changes jLAEKVJAKL#so yeah on average... probably five-six hours......#i honestly feel like i dont post all that much so pleasantly surprised to hear that- thank you my friend !!!#i do wanna try spending more time on pieces tho... i dont think the stuff i make is bad nono i like the stuff i make#but i feel like i can make it better if i let myself spend more time on it#i always have it in my head i have to finish something in one sitting or ill never finish it/go back to it#im very impatient i fear ... BUT im trying to break that !!!! i wanna improve cause sometimes i feel stagnant..#im sure i could make better stuff if i allow myself to spend more time on things even if it takes multiple days#i should bethinkin a sleepin tho ... oops !!!!! three hours of sleep HERE I COME
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Ngl I don’t care if this is gonna be 2 years old this year I’m about to write all dis as enstars fanfics deadass😭
#g/t writing#g/t#actually so fucking excited for this#these stories aboutta be amazing trust#my breakup has inspired me to go back to pursuing things for myself#also cause work has been driving me crazy my coworker has been on my ass for no reason#but i love enstars characters hate the company not the characters#doing this too because i feel like many would appreciate this after the AKATSUKI story#im very disappointed with it#i hope these fanfics can make some people happy
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Since writing the affirmations and starting manifestation again, I've actually been in a much better headspace. It's crazy how things align, and you end up where you need to be, especially through pain
#txt#have been reading the affirmations every day twice a day sometimes#doing my intentions and manifesting what i wsnt#which is mainly independence#also a good relationship with my ex from here#mainly stuff for me tho#and the full moon on Wednesday which is in scorpio which is his sun sign#will be a big release and maybe i can let go a bit or a lot lol#i need to move on and focus on myself and what i want in life and doing it all on my own#with support obviously but ive never been fully independent and im so ready for the blessings and the open doors#i dont know if ill truly ever be over him but i have to try for my own sanity at this point#i dont want to manifest anything selfish like him coming back to me because it probably wont happen anyway lmao#i hope i dont sound crazy lmao but coming back into my spiritual journey is definitely what i need#connecting with myself and my purpose feels like the only thing i can do rn#have a driving lesson tomorrow but in all honesty i could just go do the test and pass cause ive been driving forever and im good at it#just need to practice certain things but im nearly there! so close i can feel it and see it#anyway i hope i can keep this energy up and continue to head in a positive direction because it feels really good#if i need to cry about him and the loss then i will but im not going to dwell on it too much#i just need to take it as a lesson and let it go :)#cause at the end of the day i really did lead myself here whether it was his choice to end it or not#blah
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i took a sick day and took myself out to breakfast and baby waved me. life feels good again.
#im very lucky to get paid sick days (which is fucked that people don’t get paid days to begin with) but they don’t carry over#and work has been so stupidly busy and it will only get busier#and im changing roles at work which is nice (i guess) but its just a job and more responsibility#and im trying to always not treat my job like it’s my life or something that defines me or the only place where i give value#cause that’s not true but that’s what the corporate world WANTS YOU TO DO#and feel guilty when you take time for yourself cause if you aren’t around things will fall apart#but all of this to say: if you get paid sick days please take them. even if you aren’t sick or just need a break.#it’s so needed. life is so crazy busy and weekends are enough time to do everything#so taking a day to do the things you need to do or (like something I need to learn how to do) do nothing at all and just chill#my dream sick day is having the house to myself and i can take a bath and then go back in bed and read fic all day#and eat pasta#but one thing at a time
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thought abt solas as eurydice again
#goodbye im off to rewatch a 2 hour subbed and multi angled greek slime tutorial real quick#i think tghe worst fucking part of the whole thing is the leitmotif parallel. i literally feel like i have scarlet rot each time i think ab#orpheus and eurydice having the 'la lalala la' thing. solas and the inquisitor having the hallelujah cadence. that is insane. that is insan#''its a sad song / its a tragedy / but we're gonna sing it anyway'' thinking abt those lyric and solavellan to die instantly btw.#like im so desensitized to their romance after so long but truly if i went into this game completely blind again and you told me#that there was an RO who would never sleep with you but would instead harmonize with you to the melody of an old leonard cohen song#i cant even FINISH this joke bc the thought makes me too crazy. even 7 years later it really does inspire shrimp emotions within me#solas nation go watch hadestown if you havent already. you will regret it but do it anyway#''it's a sad song / but we sing it anyway / cause here's the thing / to know how it ends / and still begin to sing it again#as if it might turn out this time'' BYE
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this is a test
#i’m bored i just wanna see how many words i can put in the tags like will it just keep going on forever or will they stop me like i know th#the tag limit is 30 ok so the iindividual tag limit is 140 characters that’s actually so rude i wanted to keep going forever and see how lo#g this could be but i guess we can do this 30 times ok what the flip should i talk about hm i was playing the guitar today but i rage quit#ause the song was hard and hurting my fingers! ermmmmm it was sunny ok this is boring let’s think of more exciting things to type hmmm acco#ding to all known laws of aviation- jk i’m not doing the bee movie script but can you imagine i think that would be funny hmmmmm words i lo#e podcasts so bad that’s a fact no one has ever know before my blog definitely isn’t all about audio dramas the people are definitely not a#ready aware of this jesus christ this is only the seventh one of these this is actually quite a lot of space i underestimated how much i ha#e to type btw there’s probably spelling mistakes in here somewhere or autocorrect has been annoying but i cba to retype anything so i don’t#care lolllllllllllll how do you feel about oscar malevolent i feel a normal amount actually (lie) yk what i really miss sam and colin alrea#y like i’m actually not okay i really hope we hear from sam again in s2 and also colin ngl i hope ur in the computers soz or not dead miss#im like a bastard my paranoid it king ok erm im running out of things to say um heartstopper s3 was crazy good i cried lmao i love gay peop#e so much it’s crazy i hope it gets renewed for s4 i need to reread the comics lowkey and the books they’re all so talented for being so yo#ng it scares me ngl !!!!!! the tmagp hiatus is getting to me slightly like february in reality is soon and not that far away for how podcas#ts go but seriously how am i supposed to live until then without knowing what happened. please colin be alive. ive only just realised i can#use fills stops. sorry that’s made everything a bit messy. i should’ve been doing this before. whoops. anyways. hi mutuals i love you all s#much i hope you enjoy my rambles and shitposts cause i enjoy yours very much! never think you’re being annoying i literally don’t care be a#annoying as you want posts as much as you want i am ur biggest fan <3 im getting a bit fatigued from typing like my mind is blank basically#now it’s just turned into a. stream of consciousness but i don’t really have any thoughts to put here idk if we’re halfway ermmmm omg it’s#lmost halloween how crazy is that time is flying by i kinda forgot it was october lmao. it’s wild how it’s basically almost christmas. like#what. that’s illegal. how is it wintertime again. what the flip. i miss summer already take me backkkkkkk. i hope my phone doesn’t crash or#smth cause i’ve not saved this as a draft and i cba to do any of this again. maybe i should save it. ok i will when i reach the next tag bc#ok it stopped me but i’ve saved it and holy jesus it’s a lot of text im just sat here giggling there’s really no point to any of this other#than me being bored sooooooooooooooooo (imagine if i just did the letter o for every character wouldn’t that be crazy) so wait there’s 140#haracters and 30 tags so what’s 30 x 140. someone hurry. i haven’t done maths lessons in two and a half years i’ve forgotten everything wai#let me get the calculator app ok im back it said 4100 characters so. i dont know how many words that roughly is but its. a decent amount. o#what the flip why am i wasting tag space with maths. i hate maths. my screen time has been actually soooooooooo bad recently like damn some#one put my phone in a block of ice please joshua gillespie style. my mind is running out of things to say. do i talk about myself. im james#im 18 which is weird cause wdym im an adult go away. ive run out of facts. i love podcasts and procedural dramas that stupid firefighter sh#w is my life unfortunately. i think chappell roan should be the queen of england instead of king charles. i dont like having a king cause#ho needs men in power not me. ok um this is the last tag equal rights for all. yolo. the time will pass anyways! thank u boredom ok bye gn:
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