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i dont usually post random snippets like this but everyone PLS listen to chii she is adorable đ„șđ
#my video lol#openutau#choubi chii#gekiyaku#kazehiki#cause they're here too. IG. đ#i might delete this later idk. i do this a lot with my sillies i just listen to them sing random files i have saved lol đ#and yes this is the same ust i used for genbu's conchita cover lmao. funny joke about goldfish being opportunistic feeders idk#i had downloaded chii months earlier but only just properly installed her recently lmao. AND UEEE FISH GIRL đ„șđ#i literally never see anyone talk abt her and like fair sure cause kuzutokaze's other utaus are more famous and she only came out in 2020#i might be biased bc i love aquatic creature theme but SHES CUTEE cmon pls i wish more people noticed her...#i do wanna do stuff w/ her at some point but problem is i have no ideas lmao :') i need to keep testing#also this is what some stuff sounds like with absolutely 0 mixing or proper rendering stuff (in this case the shitty default resampler LOL)#not good tbh. but good enough to give me serotonin when i am depresseddd. sing for me little goobers#the default resampler doesnt do her complete justice im sure and one day maybe ill do smthn better w/ her (to the best of my ability)
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Having thoughts⊠about doing the evil art style challenge⊠can you guys tell me what my art style traits are? Pretty pleaseee đđ
#cause I have no idea tbh I need stuff to be pointed out to me đ#and the challenge seems like funnnn hehehehe#thirsty thoughts
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Yall. I had one heck of a week.
#espy talks#tldr im replacing my carpet#but i spent all week moving things outta my room#lotta clutter and a lot of stuff im gonna have to sort through#but for now point is its out of the way#by brother and i spent today cleaning trash and stuff that was left on the floor and moving my bed out#then he ripped up the carpet#i also did the dishes in between this#and fixed the wheels on the dishwasher#and when my dad came home they did the very last bit that we can do#before we can go get the flooring tomorrow#we been working up to do this for years#its a shame my moms not here to see this#but shed be so proud were finally getting rid of the old ruined carpet#also my desk gave out so we need to get a new one which sucks cause that desk was perfect#so untill we can afford to do that im on mobile only#which isnt a huge deal but it sucks i cant draw for a while#i think my dad and brother could fix it tbh but theyre insisting on a new one#i don't want a new one???? but inkinda dont have a choice when theyre set on rhier ideas#oh its bothering me so much that I can't fix these typos
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even if itâs a false god â e.m.
part two; we'd still worship this love
pairing: modern!college!fboy eddie x fem!reader
warnings: smut!!!!!!, 18+, MINORS DNI or ill bite u. p in v, cr*ampie, kinda br*eding kink, unprotected s*x (wrap it up irl angels, this is fiction.), angst angst angst, ASSHOLE FBOY EDDIE!!!, drinking, degrading, swearing, praises, nicknames, vv slight ch*king kink if u squint, some rough stuff.
summary: in which you are friends with benefits with modern!fuckboy!eddie (wc:4.1k)
a/n: i was def thinking of a pt.2 for this while writing it tbh. mr asshole munson needs to repair some hearts!!! also i made the pic in the middle bc i couldn't find a fitting picture w this lyric lmaooo!! did not proof-read!! ignore any mistakes AND PLSS send me ur thoughts ily xo, em
âIt was fun babysitting you, sweetheart, but I have to dip,â Steve whispered in your ear with a sympathetic smile, his hand pointing toward the blonde who was impatiently waiting for him.Â
âWhat?â You asked, baffled. âSteve, you fucking promised!â You groaned.Â
âJesus Christ, do you not have any ounce of self-control?â He asked, and you gave him an intense look.
âObviously not!â You huffed, arms crossing against your chest, causing Steve to chuckle.Â
âRobin will come back eventually! And in the mean time, just stay the fuck away from him,â He warned.Â
âNow, I gotta get laid.â He winked. You tried to open your mouth, but he interrupted. âI swear to god, Y/N, I donât wanna hear another word from you, youâve cockblocked me enough this week.â He said, annoyed.
You rolled your eyes, huffing as you stood straight, âFine! Have fun.â You exclaimed, and Steve grinned, âI will, sweetheart. And you, just... hide from him or something.â He shrugged as he guided the blonde girl out of the door.Â
Jesus fucking Christ.
You were pathetic, asking for Steve and Robin to babysit you, so that you wouldnât end up under Eddie again, so that you could at least save some of the self-respect that you were sure probably didnât exist at this point.Â
They knew each time you said you were done with him, it was a lie. They knew youâd go back for more, but now it had been two weeksâtwo whole weeksâwhere you managed to stay away from him, blocking him for good.Â
And you could feel yourself cracking; you wantedâneededâhim with every fiber of your being, and it was driving you crazy.Â
He drew you in with whatever he did, like a magnet always pulling you toward him, making you need to be around him, at all times.
You missed the way his hands grazed your thighs, the way he fucked you so rough and senselessly, but also so gently. The way his pretty mouth framed compliments so fucking sweetly, but turned dirty the moment he was pounding into you, praising you but degrading you at the same time.Â
He was so good at fucking, but was shit at everything else.
Just like you.
So the idea of being friends with benefits sounded like heaven when you first suggested it. No feelings attached, no exclusivity, just fucking each other's brains out while also having someone to chat with afterward.
It was supposed to be simpleâso fucking simple.Â
But the moment feelings got involved, it turned out for the worst. Jealousy was a bitter monster that gnawed at the insides of the two of you, and it had turned into something so incredibly toxic that you knew you had to end it. Your friendship was long gone now, turning into a bitter competition where you either fucked or argued.
Exclusivity was not something the two of you ever discussed, you knew you were bad at relationships, and Eddie knew he wasnât good at feelings, so it was a topic you always danced around. Arguments ensued the moment one of you fucked someone else, and bitterness was present in your veins like it had always been there.Â
When Eddie decided to fuck another girl two weeks ago, you decided you were done. This wasnât good for the both of you, and you needed to stop it as fast as you could.Â
You knew the emptiness you felt right after you fucked was not worth it, no matter how good Eddie was. Â
You were tired of sobbing into Steveâs chest drunkenly, confused about what you even felt for Eddie when he was out there fucking another girl.Â
It was starting to leave a bad taste in your mouth, and you didnât want to hate Eddieânot more than you already did at the moment.Â
But there stood Eddie, curly hair laid messily on his forehead as a guitar pick adorned his neck, his infamous leather jacket paired with those black pants were your nightmareâdreamâcombo, he was sprawled on the couch, thick thighs spread apart, you wished you could part them further with your hands, rub him through his pants as you got down on your knees for him, giving his delicious pink-tip kitten licks as you tasted his salty pre-cumâ
What the fuck was wrong with you? You shook your head as you turned around immediately, gazing into your empty cup as you hurried off to the kitchen.Â
Your cheeks grew hot from embarrassment, you seriously had no fucking self-control or respect.Â
âYou need any help?â Eddieâs voice rang in your ear.
ââM fine,â You muttered, voice barely audible.Â
âYou know Iâve been lookinâ for you.â
âWhy? Did you finally run out of girls to fuck on campus?â You said snarkily, a smirk tugging on your lips.Â
âDonât act so fuckinâ innocent now, sweetheart.â He tssked, causing you to throw him a quizzed look.
âDidnât you go home with Mr. Jock last week?â He was being possessive again, and you hated how it picked up your heart rate, you were stupid.
âSo?â You quirked a brow, teasing him, and he gave you a slight chuckle.
That smug asshole, why did he have to always look so good?
âSoâŠhow was it?â He asked, and you could feel his jaw tensing as he took a step closer to you, trapping you between the drink stand and his body.
âYouâre disgusting.â You groaned as you pushed him away from your face. You were not going to give in.
âThat bad, huh?â He mocked, scrunching his nose.
You rolled your eyes. âNo.â You lied.
It was bad, really fucking bad; the guy lasted 30 seconds and left you with nothing. That greedy bastard.
But you werenât going to let Eddie know that.
âHe was really good, actually.â You were lying through your teeth, and thankfully, Eddie didnât seem to notice. An intense rage flashed through his eyes.
âYou sayinâ that punk is better than me?â He slurred into your ear, his breath ragged and hot as it fanned against your neck. He smelled so fucking addictingâa mix of sandalwood and nicotine, earthy and making you crave him at the same time.Â
You donât even know how he even came to that conclusion, but it was funny, seeing him like this, nostrils flaring as rage filled his veins, like he was in torture hearing about the guys you fucked, he deserved that.
But your silence at his question meant everything to him; he didnât need an answer. You knew he was better, and he knew that you were crawling closer to his palm now.
He grew more confident because of the way you stuck to him. âI've seen him in the locker room, sweetheart. Heâs not that fuckinâ impressive.â You didnât mean to gasp, but it slipped past your lips quickly.
âMunson!â You warned, a smile tugged on your lips, and you realized how pathetic you were being again, but it was too late now.Â
âDonât think he can make you smile like I do, either.â He grinned smugly, his calloused hands quick to pull the strand of hair on your face, to see the way your eyes crinkled when you smiled, so fucking promising.
âYou're a jerk,â You spat, groaning as you turned around, trying to avoid him, but it was no use; the damage was done, and you were putty in his hands again. Â
He had a tight hold on your arm, possessive again, and you were sick for enjoying his rough side. He spun you around to meet him, eyes dark, before he held you in place. âA jerk who makes you feel good,â Eddie purred in your ear, fingers tracing toward your exposed skin, one touch from him, and you whimpered, all that anger fading away so quickly.
He chuckled darkly. âMissed those sweet lilâ whimpers,â He whispered in your ear again, fingers quick to find their way toward your panties.Â
He drew slow circles with his thumb while you tried to remain tight-lipped, but it was impossible.Â
âJesusâfuck, Eddie somâsomeone could see...â You didnât mean to throw your head back against the wall. Your eyes fluttered shut, and Eddie shrugged.Â
âDonât care, sweetheart.âÂ
âWell, I do.â You didnât; Eddie could fuck you right here, right now, and youâd be fine with it, but you werenât ready to admit this to yourself, and you didnât want to take the chance of Robin seeing you like this.Â
He groaned as he dragged you into the nearest room. You wouldâve cried at the loss of contact if he didnât have a tight hold on your body, calloused hands gripping at your curves, and your thighs rubbed together at his touch.Â
Eddie was quick to pin you against the door, his hand curling around the back of your neck. He smashed his lips against yours without hesitating, kissing you the same way he made you feel; explosive, hard, and dizzying.Â
He pulled back to look at you.Â
Sweet Jesus.
His gaze was intense, and it made you feel so fucking exposed that it startled a gasp out of your lips.Â
You fisted his shirt when you had enough, yanking him closer to you so that you could feel his body pressed into yours. Everything you felt was pure hunger, craving him deeply. Â
Your heart was pounding in your chest when you felt his rock hard bulge grinding against you, calloused hands gripped your ass as you whimpered; you were at his mercy now.Â
âWhat were you sayinâ last time? That this would never happen again?â He mocked, whispering against your face, his gaze never leaving you.Â
Your eyes narrowed, but it was impossible to keep up your act when his fingers started ghosting over your thighs again. âFuck. You.â You spat.Â
âYou donât have to ask me twice, baby.â He grinned, chuckling when you whimpered under his touch.
âGod, I love those sweet noises you make for meâŠâ He murmured, you rubbed your thighs again at his words. âI bet if I flipped that little skirt of yours⊠Iâd find you gushing for me.â He groaned.Â
And you remained tight-lipped. God, you didnât want to feed into his huge fucking ego, and you wanted to wipe that smug smirk off his face.Â
But he was so right. Your thighs were dampened by how aroused you were.Â
He was quick to slip his fingers past your panties, a grunt escaping his lips once he pushed past your folds, your slick covering his fingers. He chuckled darkly. âYouâre soaking my fingers, honey.â
âIâFuckâI hate you.â You squeezed your eyes shut, and Eddie reveled in it, his fingers pushing inside of you while his thumb stayed on your clit.Â
âAlways sayinâ shit you donât mean, baby.â He mocked. âGonna make you beg for my cock, if you keepâ talkin like that.âÂ
You were panting and head dizzy as he pushed his fingers in and out of you. You were going to lose it, and he had barely started.
When he finally undressed both of you, you were out of it, while his hands were still on your clit as he groaned at the sight in front of him.Â
You were perfect.Â
His breath was ragged when he traced your chest, eyes bulging when he realized you had no bra on, pleasure ignited in you more and more when he cupped your breasts, teeth tugging your nipple as his fingers still toyed with your clit.
âPerfect tits, just made for me, huh?â He growled, making you mewl; you were putty in his hands, and with each movement, you were getting closer and closer to beg him for more.Â
The more you whimpered, the rougher he got with you, curling his finger inside your cunt as he hit that one spot, eliciting a moan from you as you threw your head back.
âPâplease.â You whimpered, and Eddie tutted.Â
âIâve seen you do much better than that.â He hummed. This arrogant asshole was going to be the death of you.Â
âPâplease, Eds, please.â You begged, and your moans died down your throat, before he slowly dragged his fingers out and shoved them back in.Â
Your head cocked to the side in pleasure, and he was quick to take advantage of it, licking a path from your neck to your ear, grinning.Â
âMhmm⊠not good enough, baby.â He purred in your ear as you whined, âJesus fucking Christââ Your cursing was interrupted when he yanked his hands away.Â
No. No. No. No!
âShitshitshitâPlease, Fuck, Eds...â You murmured, eyes shooting wide open, âNeed your cock insideâa me.â You mewled again.Â
His dark chuckle reverberated through you, âSee, that wasnât that hard, was it?â He mocked, causing your eyes to narrow.Â
âYou asshoââ He didnât let you finish as he wrapped his hands around your throat, just enough to punish you but just enough for pleasure to course through your veins. And it felt so fucking good.Â
You shut your mouth quickly, âWhat were you saying, baby?â He purred.Â
God, that egotistic prick was pushing you to your last fucking limit; you could do it, you could hold it off. But on the other hand, you could feel yourself pulsing with need; if he didnât pound into you soon, you knew you wouldâve been a pathetic blabbering mess.
âPlease, please, Fuck me,â You grunted. âI need you, Eddie.â He didnât respond as he tapped your thighs, signaling for you to wrap your legs around his chest, and you were quick to oblige.Â
Mind spinning before you got a chance to process what happened, he slammed into you with a vicious thrust, he was so fucking thick that it made you let out a guttural scream, tears welled at your eyes as you tried to adjust to his size.Â
It wasnât long before your loud noises turned into incoherent babbles and squeals as he kept his pace.
âHoly shit, baby,â He groaned, watching his cock sliding into you, âSuch a warm fuckinâ pussy, and so fucking tight⊠JesusâŠâ
You trembled beneath him, tits bouncing up and down as your mouth hung open each time he slid further into your cunt, and Eddie wanted that image etched into his brain forever.Â
He tilted you upward, hitting spots you werenât even aware of. You were quick to wrap your hands around his frame, your nails digging into his back, roughly.
He was the only one who knew you like that; both emotionally and physically, and the same went for you, thatâs why the two of you never could truly let each go, clinging to each other like a child did to their favorite toy.
You know no one else could fuck you like he did, and that smug bastard knew it, too.
The way he was pounding into you while uttering curses at your ear, furiously slapping into your body as if you were nothing but his personal fucktoy, truly his.
And you realized how sick you were for liking it, truly enjoying being this way with him.Â
âYou look so fuckinâ pretty when you take my cock, such a tight fuckinâ pussy and all mine, yea?â He panted causing you to nod, you were barely able hold his gaze, and he groaned before his hands roughly grabbed your cheeks, forcing your head in his direction.Â
âLook at me babyâŠâ He purred, âLook, how well your cunt is squeezinâ me. You feel that, peach?â He sheathed himself further into you, and you could feel your walls clench around him, a contented groan leaving both of your lips.Â
It was fucking perfect. Everything was rough and messy, there was nothing emotional about the way you fucked. You were both using each other to cum as much as you wanted to, not stopping until you were both sweaty bodies.
He could make you come apart in seconds if he wanted to, knowing your body better than anyone else. And you could make the scary freak Eddie putty in your hands if you wanted to; it was a fucked up game of control that had the two of you going at it for hours.Â
Was it fucked up? Yes.
Did it feel good? Absolutely.Â
âWould that asshole be able to make you come apart like this?â He asked, fingers digging into your hips, sure to leave a bruise.
This wasnât the first time Eddie had been possessive; it was a sick, twisted game that you also participated in, almost as if both of you knew that you could never be with anyone else.
You nodded mindlessly, you werenât going to give into him that easily, again, he grunted at your lack of reaction.Â
âTell me, baby.â He growled, his pounding slowing down to make sure your orgasm was out of reach for you, torturing you until he had you begging under him.
You werenât sure if you wanted to give up this fast. âBeg me, honey.â His movements picked up, and his hands were quick to toy with your clit, a sharp burst of euphoria rang through your body, leaving you speechless.Â
You clenched around himâa big fucking mistakeâand he grinned smuggly again. âI know, baby, I know youâre close.â He panted. âI can make you cum, angel.â He promised, âJust say the word.âÂ
âAsshole,â You groaned between his forceful thrusts, and he chuckled darkly. You rolled your hips against his when his movements faltered, seeking the warmth and the friction when he thrusted into you fully, filling you to the brim.
And that prick was thoroughly enjoying your torture. âTell me itâs all mine, that youâre all mine.â He purred against your ear.Â
You couldnât. You shouldnât.
But the way his thumb circled around your clit, so agonizingly slow, and the way his cock was prodding into you so slowly was torture. God, if he just picked up his pace.
Donât.Â
You try to convince yourself, but it's to no avail, you are clenching down on nothing, and it hurts. Your hole is pulsing now, and you need him more than ever.Â
âPâplease,â You mewled, causing Eddie to give you a slight smirk. âPlease what, baby? Use your words.âÂ
âIâm all yours,â You murmured, âHe could never fuck me like you could.â You added, humming contently, when Eddie started to pound into you relentlessly again.Â
âPleaseâI need toâJesus, Eds.â Your words slurred into a moan as he increased his speed, his finger circling your clit roughly.Â
âOh fuck, fuck, baby. Feels so good.â He panted. âPleaseâplease make me cum, sir.â You sobbed, unable to hold it back anymore.Â
And that was all Eddie needed to hear. âCum for me, honey.â He pleaded, and you gave him low whimpers as he started fucking you faster again, watching the way his cock disappeared into your gushing cunt.
âWanna feel you cum on my cock, baby.â He breathed.Â
âShit, feels so good, Eds.âÂ
âJesusâPlease⊠Iâm going toââ You bit down on your lower lip, unable to stifle the moans leaving your lips as his assault on your clit was enough to bring you over the edge,Â
âIâm gonnaâIâmâŠHoly shit, oh god!â You sobbed, whole body convulsing in pleasure as you came around his cock, your vision blurred and mind foggy as you didnât realize how your orgasm was triggering his.Â
Eddie was whimpering for you now, âSo fucking good, holy shit.â He panted, movements getting sloppier.
âIâm gonna cum, fuck, baby. My perfect fucking girl, yea?â He heaved a breath.Â
âIâm gonna fuck thisâGonna fuck my load into you, peach.â
âGonna fill you with my cumâFuuuck.â He growled, animalistic noises escaping him as he exploded inside of you, thick ropes of his warm cum painting your walls.Â
He groaned when he slipped out, mouth-watering as he enjoyed the sight of you fucked out of your mind, and his load dripping down your thighs.Â
The relief you had was short-lived as that sinking feeling came to you again, the emptiness, the loneliness.
Was all of it worth it?
The two of you dressed in silence; the weight of what you did was hitting you all at once. You did it again. You had sex with him again. You let him use you againâit didnât matter if you used him too, it meant something different for you than it did for him.
All those thoughts you had about feeling good faded out quicker than you thought they would.
You were so fucking pathetic.
Jesus Christ.
You felt sick, what the fuck did you just do?
As soon as Eddie got dressed, he gave your cheek a sloppy kiss. He was going to leave you all alone again.
You should be fine with this, this is what always happens.
Donâtâdonât say anything, just take your last bit of self-respect that is possibly non-existent and leave without another wordâ
âYouâreâŠleaving?â You exhale, your mind racing with ideas.
Shit. Just shut the fuck up.
âDonât act so coy now, sweetheart.â He gave you a slight smile, but all you wanted to do was slap it out of him.
âWe both know what this was.â He muttered, that conceited dickhead still had that smile on his face.
âAnd what exactly was âthisâ?â You pointed to the space between the two of you.
âFucking, no strings attached?â He added, shrugging. The fact that he had no clue about anything was pissing you off.
âUnbelievable.â You gave him a dry chuckle.
âWhat?â He asked, baffled.
âIs that all I am to you, just a warm body?â You said, face crinkling with disgust.
âIâm confused.â Eddie said. âYouâyou were the one who fucking suggested this.â He breathed.
âWell, Iâm un-suggesting it!â You exclaimed angrily.
âYouâyou are so fucking confusing!â He spat. âI told youâI told you we could be more... told you we could try... us.â He stuttered. âYou were the one who refused!â
âYou were drunk! You can barely fucking say it now!â You spat back.
âWhat... what do you even want, Y/N?â He asked, holding his gaze.
âDo you want a relationship? Do you want something meaningful?â He pondered, a sarcastic chuckle escaping his lips.
âIs it so wrong for me to want that? To want something real?â Your voice carried so much emotion, and thatâs what killed him.
He couldnât have a relationship with you even if he wanted to; he recognized his own turmoil, and he feared he would drag you right down with him. No matter how similar you seemed to be, he was sure heâd ruin you, completely and utterly. And not in a good way.
He swallowed physically; the lump in his throat wasnât going to go away.
He couldnât let you have hope; he couldnât let you down againâhe had done that enough.
''A relationship with you is the last thing I see myself doing.'' He almost whispered, but you heard it loud and clear.
Your brows were quick to furrow, and your jaw was was set in a tense manner. The lust in your gaze was long gone by now, containing only rage while you glared at the source of your pain.
âFuck. You.â You spat, tears threatening to spill but you didnât want to give him that satisfaction
âYou are a sadistic fucking asshole, Munson.âÂ
âJesus⊠I think we should stopâwhatever the hell, this is.â He exclaimed.
âFine by me!â You exclaimed back cheeks heating up from anger.
âI really am done with you, this time.â Despite the intensity of your gaze, he could sense the subtle vulnerability in your eyes. The subtle pain that was fueling your anger
âOh, Iâm sure you are.â He chuckled smugly. This was something you two had joked about before, but it wasnât funny now.
He saw you in the palm of his hand because you always came back to him, he was right⊠until now.
The fact that he laughed in your face at the thought of being in a relationship with you was too much, even for your low self-esteem.Â
âI donât care what you think.â You didnât even hold the rage you held before; only disgust was visible in your tone.
âYouâre dead to me.â You replied curtly, your voice distant and chilling.
And Eddie knew how much he fucked up, truly.
There was nothing he could do now.
âI didnât mean it likeââ He regretted what he said immediately, but you dismissed his protests, gathering your jacket in your hand as you slammed the door behind you.
Tears blurred your vision as soon as you left, the lively sound of the party clouded your mind as you silently sobbed, trying to find Robin.
You knew how unattainable he was, and how much he truly hurt you, and as fucked up as it was, that's exactly why you loved him; led by blind faith that it would be different.
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Snippets. đșđ DA:TV spoilers under cut.
When the Community Council played the game, in the working version they played, it sounds like when the 'no dying' mode was turned on, when the player's health gets low the screen turns red (but you don't then die, of course) [source]
Caitie of Ghildirthalen shared that everyone that she talked to from the Community Council really liked the gameplay. "They were all into it, none of us had any complaints about how they were doing the gameplay, we all thought it was solid" [source]
The Lighthouse isn't literally an actual lighthouse by the sea. It's in the Crossroads. It's "like a bubble in the Crossroads, kind of like what Morrigan brings you to" in DA:I. "It's its own little bubble, it's not actually the Crossroads, it's like its own little bubble of reality." "It's not really in the Fade, but it kinda is, but it's kinda not". "It's so cool, I loved it so much [...] it's very comfy". It used to belong to Solas and "as you walk around there, you will see, like, stuff, that kinda shows what Solas has been up to for the past couple years" [source]
"They say in the [Game Informer cover] article that [The Lighthouse] like looks gaudy, and stuff, and like it does, in like an ancient elven way, but it's not like going to grandma's house which has that 2005 Tuscan kitchen feel." It sounds like there are a lot of frescos made by Solas in there. "It's kind of like, sad, too, 'cause it's a little bit like, ancient elven bachelor pad that he's been too busy to really keep up with it". "I think it's the coolest hub [in a DA game] by far" [source]
After the gameplay reveal video, Solas essentially gets trapped in the new prison he was trying to build for Ghil and Elgar'nan. "I don't think they explain it well in the [GI cover] article what happens, like, lore-wise, like how this connection between Solas and Rook one, works, and then two, like, how it's done. [...] From that [Community Council participation and talking to devs], I have a better understanding of this link, and I do think the explanation given [in-game] is good, and is satisfying to me. They're just not explaining it well in the article, I do think they give a better reason in the game"[source]
Caitie shared that she doesn't know why marketing for the game keeps saying/trying to say that Rook isn't a Chosen One as a talking point. "Maybe [Rook] wasn't chosen, [they] just happened to be there, but now there is a connection there, like [they] can't just leave, [they] have that strange Solas connection that nobody else has". "In this game Rook was just at the wrong place at the wrong time, or right place right time, depending on how you look at it, and it could have been anyone in that scene, that's kind've what they're trying to say" [source]
Photomode is something the devs expressed to Community Council that they want to include in the game [source]
User: "many of us would love to see cosplay kits again of the new companions. Just thought to throw that out into the ether" Trick: "Agreed! Definitely bring that up to official BioWare accounts. I think it's a great idea." [source]
John: "at this point my brain is about 70% DATV and 30% everything else" [source]
User: "I keep looking at that horn [Taash's blue one], thinking: 1. What -is- it made of?" Karin Weekes-West: "If only we knew!" [source] User: "If this turns out to be some high-value gemstone or crafting mat, I can't promise I'll be able to suppress certain... larcenous urges." Karin: "How very Lords of Fortune of you! :D <3 It really is SO PRETTY, isnât it? Our art team is so good. :)" [source]
User: "I need to know if Rook gets their own room CAN WE DECORATE" Carly: ":^)" [source]
User: "anyway they [Neve and Harding] are both in this concept art. next to each other even. this has to mean they are both alive after the prologue. right? right???" Carly: ":^)" [source]
Kala: "the overall UI is very nice" [source]
Kala: "I remember the sliders [in CC] having pretty good range tbh, so probably pretty tall and pretty short" [source]
Kala: "I can't wait to learn who the VAs for Rook are! I know one and I know people will be really excited for this person to join the Dragon Age family đ€«" [source]
#dragon age: the veilguard#dragon age the veilguard spoilers#dragon age: dreadwolf#dragon age 4#the dread wolf rises#da4#dragon age#bioware#video games#solas#morrigan#queen of my heart#long post#longpost
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- GHOST PERI AU -
(AKA Petrified!Peri because that name is cool as FUCK.)
REFERENCES ALSO AVAILABLE HERE!
REGULAR COLORS / HIS BODY [NOT GHOST]
GHOST COLORS / HIM AS A GHOST
SO. You may be asking, "what happened to him?" And I am here to EXPLAIN! :]
This AU is still a fairly [pun unintended] big WIP, so some details are still all over the place/undecided, and some may change over time; constructive criticism, opinions/thoughts, questions, are all appreciated!
The general idea is, well... divergent from the finale. What if, after the chip is grabbed and Hazel, Wanda, [and maybe Cosmo? I don't recall if he goes with them/ends up somewhere else] go to fix the wand, Peri explodes. And it gets undone when Hazel wishes to fix Fairy World. Buuuttt... not quite!
It wasn't her 1 Millionth Wish that she used up on Fairy Worldâ which is why it Doesn't Quite Fix Him Going Kaboomey. But I imagine that having 1Mil Wishes had a mild influence on What Happened and why exploding DID get fixed... sort of. [I need to brainstorm specifics on this.]
ANYWAY.
Peri looks GENERALLY normal most of the time, except for, well, *gestures at reference.* Outside of THAT [cracked wand, cracked crown [crack hidden by the glow], slightly off color pallete], there's some other stuff that's just a Hint of Wrong.
Like coughing up confetti and/or rainbows [without any other sign of magical backup [which he can't experience anymore because he did technically already die via backup.]] And sometimes the funny silly wacky expressions that happened during buildup [big ol' eyes/pupils, star shaped pupils, funny faces [like when he was talking to Dev.]
Throwing this in here. Sometimes he just stares like the TBH Creature. It's kinda silly kinda funny. I need to make a Petrified!Peri TBH emote because that fits well.
I was ALSO thinking about the idea that sometimes limbs can detach [the ghost fairy in that one ep is what gave me this thought], mostly for expressive purposes/fun silly purposes. It can be seen in this image here! Still DEBATING on this, though.
ANYWAY.
ANYWAY.
Cosmo and Wanda Don't Know He Died [because of not being right there] But something Is Off. Peri probably doesn't at first either until they [themself] put it together through context clues, and then they're like, "ooohh no, mom and dad probably don't know I exploded!" And he gets REALLY nervous about them finding out because that'd be A Lot and he doesn't want to Worry Them [because... he fucking died.]
So. There's a lot of him just trying not to Act Suspicious. Which only makes them both concerned! I have so many silly funny interactions between them that I imagine, actually!
Like...
Peri: *Talking. Suddenly... star pupils!*
Wanda: Um. Sweetie?
Peri: Hey do you see that?
Cosmo: Oooh, see what?
Peri: Over there! *Points.*
Cosmo + Wanda: *Looks over.*
Peri: *Disappears.*
WHICH. YEAH. SO. GHOST FORM. They're completely hidden when they're actually a GHOST, and has no wand/wings when they're a ghost, either [they do have wings normally, I just forgot to include them in the reference.] And I imagine whenever they poof into their ghost form that they leave a tiny bit of confetti behind!
ALSO.
He reassigns himself to Dev on his own [who didn't forget after the finale.] And his magic is kind of fucked up. Cause he's DEAD and look at his fucking WAND. So wishes kinda get fucked up when granted a bit sometimes ehehehaha...
ANYWAY.
I am also dumping my Peri headcanons onto him. They're transmasc nonbinary and use he/they pronouns and they're also aroace! :3
PLEASE. PLEASE send me any asks if you have any questions! You don't have to ask to draw them, eitherâ just tag me in any art if you ever make any, please! :]
#fairly oddparents a new wish#fairly oddparents#fop#fop a new wish#fopanw#fop:anw#fop: a new wish#fairly oddparents: a new wish#fop au#periwinkle fairly oddparents#perwinkle fairywinkle cosma#peri fop#peri fairly oddparents#fop poof#alternate universe#fop spoilers#petrified!peri au
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So I need a more adult persons take on this. Is it wrong to ask people to tag gory/graphic images from gaza? I'm not trying to bury my head in the sand. I don't want to block mention of palastine but god these images are triggering the shit out of me and it isn't making me more aware or more empathetic, I'm already angry and heartbroken and praying and donating what I can.
It is never wrong to ask someone to tag something for any reason. I've asked people to tag animals that I have a phobia of, and mentions of Laika (the first animal in space), because Laika was a good girl and she didn't deserve what happened to her. It was cruel and horrible and it upsets me in a way that I recognize is out of scope for the death of a single dog seventy years ago. That person may decline to tag things for whatever reason, and if that's the case, it isn't wrong for you to unfollow them, block them, add their username to a filter list, whatever you need to do in order to curate your online experience. Without talking directly about the topic you brought up, 'cause it's something I don't do, as I've said about ninety squintillion times -- I used to reblog/post pretty disturbing images of human bodies out of a misguided sense of justice. I have been online for a really long time, and a lot of the stuff that was posted as 'necessary education' Back In The Olden Times were images of police and/or mob brutality visited on Black & brown bodies. Out of a sense of white guilt and a feeling that I should be 'bearing witness' rather than turning away, I perpetuated some of those images, until -- very kindly and gently, I think, for the scope of what was happening -- it was pointed out to me that:
it is unkind to subject the people who have been or might be subject to that sort of racialized terror to images of bodies broken by it, and
it is almost invariably the exact opposite of what the families of those people want, and
it does nothing to actually make me a better person or to advance any sort of real justice, and instead
it simply acts as a grotesque sort of terror tourism or war porn for people who can simply turn off their computer or phone screen and go about their lives.
I am really grateful to the person who took the time to gently shake me. They didn't owe me that, and I'm glad they thought I was a worthwhile investment of time and energy.
Whoever is posting images of bodies or gory images of victims from any injustice like that, especially without appropriately tagging the images so that people don't have to engage with that? They may be motivated by the best of intentions, but as long as they are engaging in that sort of casual, continual terror tourism, they're ... not helping.
There was a great article about this back during Ferguson that really flipped a switch in my head about the subject, where it basically said this is just another way that dominant cultures, Americans especially, seem to treat the bodies of people they view as Other as theirs to consume. There are ways to talk about whatever is going on which do not require people to utilize the bodies and blood of the dead as tools of persuasion (or emotional bludgeoning, tbh), as symbols to show how Righteous we are by "not looking away," and at the cost of those who have been or are more directly affected by the images.
Doing that sort of thing isn't a good idea in the first place, and you're not wrong to ask anybody to tag anything, or to disengage from those people if they find themselves unwilling or unable to tag that content so that you can care for your own mental health.
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-an unconventional date night w/ jongseob-
A/N: inspired by @soulseobie and their Soul one shot, also @kisseobie made the og prompt. This is my first time posting my writing to tumblr so please be nice!! Constructive criticism is welcomed!
Warnings: mentions of wandering hands but entirely sfw, pet names (baby, babe, beautiful, sweetheart), like two-ish kisses but no details, shirtless jongseob but no description
It doesn't matter if you have experience or not with hair, Jongseob trusts you implicitly.
He has so much confidence that even if you have no clue what you're doing it'll turn out okay, and if not then-
âit's just hair baby, it'll grow out eventually!â
Seobie is pretty laid back about the color, obviously he has opinions but yours are more important to him.
Definitely wants to go with you to get supplies, and he's attached to your hip the whole time. It's fun honestly, how involved he wants to be.
"what about this one babe? think I could pull off neon green?"
"oooo, they have rainbow bowls! we have to get some!"
"do you think we'll need a hair treatment for after?"
Very insistent on paying, saying that it's his hair you're doing and it's the least he can do. Tbh, hair stuff can be pretty expensive so you really aren't complaining.
Once you have all the supplies and your space is set up (covered in paper and plastic wrap as to not stain anything) Jongseob is practically bouncing in excitement.
He's gotten his hair done before, obviously, but it's his baby who's doing it this time, ofc he's excited!
Jongseob is dressed in some random old band tee of his, and forced you to wear one as well. It doesn't matter if you were wearing stuff you didn't mind getting dye on, he insists on his shirt.
"no, this is not just bc I like how you look in my clothes, I just don't want you to get dye on your pretty outfit!"
[It definitely is, and he is absolutely pouting when you accuse him of it]
Assuming his hair is already blonde (it is at the time of writing this) you guys start with color right away. He wants to be surprised, so he doesn't even look while you're mixing the color or applying it.
He's very chatty the whole time, still feeling excited and energetic. Which was cute and sweet at first, but he kept moving his head, causing you to mess up in certain areas and get dye places it really shouldn't be.
"babe, you gotta stop moving, I got dye on your neck again!"
"I'm sorry! I'll try not to."
He tries his best not to move too much, but as you finish up the back and move to the front, the moving becomes touching.
Seobie is normally pretty touchy with you, but as nice as his hands feel running up and down your thigh, it's also really distracting.
His hands don't wander too much, he really doesn't want to disturb you! But it's an unconscious thing, his hands just gravitate to your skin whenever they have a chance.
If you point it out he'll get kinda sheepish-
"oh, I didn't realize. your skin is just so soft and warm!"
When you're applying near the roots of his hair, towards his scalp, he gets shivers from the cool temperature. No matter how many times you get your hair dyed, it's always a weird feeling to have goopy dye on your scalp
As you get to his bangs and move in front of him, he gets an idea.
It's pretty obvious, at least to you, when Jongseob has a plan to do something, but being so immersed in applying the dye you didn't notice.
Just as you finish painting a stripe of dye, he pulls you fully onto his lap. Hands gripping your hips making sure you can't squirm out of his reach.
"JONGSEOB!"
"what? I want you here with me, isn't it easier than trying to stand?"
"you could have given me some warning, and what if I'd gotten dye on you? and I don't think that-"
*kiss*
"I want you here, please."
Not being able to say no to his pleas, and feeling quite comfortable in his lap, you stay seated.
Finishing up the front was easy. Using your gloved hand you massage any left over dye into his hair, making sure every strand is coated.
With your hands in his hair Jongseob relaxes even more, leaning into your touch and letting out a whine when you stop-
"felt good, keep going?"
Ofc you indulge him for a while longer, he's so sweet when he asks so it's only natural.
After finally pulling your hands out of his hair and removing your gloves, you hand him the neon orange shower cap he'd insisted on at the beauty store.
Seobie smiles when you turn around, the neon shower cap stretched over his head. He reaches for you again, grabbing you by the waist and pulling you between his legs.
"wanna play switch while this sets?"
After about 30 minutes the timer you'd set rings, signalling that it was time to wash out the hair dye.
You both got settled in the bathroom. Jongseob on the floor, upper body resting against the bathtub, neck stretched so his head was over the tub.
You tucked a rolled towel under his neck, hoping it would help lessen the uncomfortable feeling. Seobie gave you a thumbs up-
"thanks beautiful, feels fine don't worry."
You both thanked the universe that the shower head was detachable, and began the rinsing process.
Jongseob relaxed as your hands entered his hair again. He'd always had a soft spot for you playing with his hair, something you used to your advantage whenever you could.
As you worked to rinse his hair water splashed around, landing everywhere. No matter how hard you tried to minimize it, the water had a mind of its own.
By the time you were halfway done the floor outside the bathtub was damp and so was Jongseob, mostly his shirt. Which he promptly took off as soon as you gave him a break to sit up.
Seobie balled up the tshirt and tossed it up to the counter, turning to you shamelessly.
Ofc you'd seen him like this before, but it still left your face hot and needing to look away.
"what's got you so shy sweetheart, nothing you haven't seen before."
This boy... He's just... Cocky isn't the right word, but it was more than confidence. Maybe comfortable is a good word for it. He knew he was safe with you, so being shirtless didn't leave him feeling "exposed"
Once you got ahold of yourself it was time to continue rinsing.
It took quite a bit before the water ran clear, during which you took advantage of your position to occasionally glance at the shirtless boy under you. No matter how many times you'd seen him, it was still a very pretty sight.
When the dye had been fully rinsed out you pulled Seobie to sit up, plopping a dry towel over his head and drying his hair gently.
Neither of you felt like using a hair dryer, so once his hair was mostly dry, tho still slightly damp, you helped him stand.
"ready to show me babe?"
Covering his eyes you walked him in front of the mirror-
"3,2,1!"
Jongseob looked at his new hair with a wide smile, turning his head side to side, admiring it.
After a thorough appreciation of your hard work, he turned to you and gently held your face-
"it looks absolutely perfect baby, knew you could do it!"
His words left your face hot again, making him giggle at your sudden shyness. In turn, he peppered your face with kisses, light pecks scattered everywhere, ending with a sweet kiss to your lips.
An overall enjoyable experience, with a fun outcome. Seobie would definitely ask you to do it again next time he wanted a change.
Thanks for reading!! I hope this was enjoyable, the plot and idea kinda got away from me at times, but I had fun writing it!
Also, in my head the colour would be like a pinky orange, bc I love Seob's orange hair (let's be real, I love all his hair colors) and my favorite hair color on me is pink, so therefore: pinky orange lol
#piwon#p1harmony#p1h#p1h x reader#fluff#p1harmony fluff#jongseob#p1h jongseob#jongseob fluff#jongseong x reader#kpop#p1harmony drabbles#p1harmony headcanons#p1harmony scenarios#kpop writers
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EXPERIMENTAL - Konig Fic Pt 3
Summary: Konig helps Researcher!Reader with a new technology theyâve been developing.
Warnings: Sexual Content, NSFW, bondage, DOM!Konig, size kink, light spanking, unprotected sex, possessive!konig, praise kink, the mask stays on đ, Reader x Konig, injury, needle torture, PTSD, talk of standard war stuff, Non-con Voyeurism. No use of y/n,
Reader gender/sex is incomprehensible cause I do it for the girls, the gays, and the theys
Word Count: 10,2k
(tbh you probably donât need to read the first two parts so if you just wanna read this slutty chapter it should be fine lol but if you do iâll link them)
AO3
PART ONE
PART TWO
NSFW under the cut
Youâre praying that heâs getting this.
Thereâs a million things that could go wrong - Konig not being near his device and youâre just streaming into an empty room. Or Ghostâs device wasnât the one that was synced with Konigâs, maybe one of the matching copies or an earlier prototype. Or worse - Konig found out about the video and leaves you to your demise as he rightfully should.
You swallow as you watch Mohawk put the his phone away in his pocket, hoping his screen wasnât exposed to the feedâs camera, âThanks for making me have that on my phone, by the way. Do you know how many times I was forced to watch this?â
Stop talking about it!
âWhat else do you want to know?â Youâre more willing to give out top-secret government intel than let Konig find about that fucking video.
Ghost senses youâve been holding back on him, and he tilts his head down to look at you from above the projection, âWhatâs it do?â
âEverything.â You answer, âAnything I tell it to. Itâs like VR.â Thereâs a bit of a slur to your words. Youâre still aware enough to manage the long-con, but your eyelids are getting heavier. Just have to hold out awhile longer, juggle a few things at the same time. Donât let Konig find out about how you ended up here, but make sure he knows youâre here. Donât let skull boy and stupid-haircut find about the transmission, but donât let them lose enough interest to turn the device off. Donât give away too many government secrets, but donât give out too little to keep the soldiers from doing anymore permanent damage to your brain.
And manage all of that while coping with the current level of brain damage you have.
They look at each other, trying to figure out if theyâre satisfied with your answer.
Thatâs good. Just keep stalling.
Everything was threatening to crash down around you, but thereâs a glimmer of hope so minuscule, you think you could actually pull it off if all the pieces fall together.
Youâre no longer giving up.
We can fix this. Fix all of it. Fix your mess.
Youâre going to give it a fair shot, you decide, and youâll leave it up to the universe.
Ghost cocks his head, those intimidating eyes boring into you, âAnd what things do you tell it to do?â You can tell heâs irritated with the meaningless answer. You steer in the opposite direction.
You give a drawn out hum, âIdentify the bad guys. Heat map, heart beats ân all that.â Youâre trying to keep your thoughts together, but thereâs too many to keep up with, and the concussion still has you in its hazy clutches.
Another idea, a back up plan, youâll call it. You canât tell if itâs a stupid idea or not, but youâre slipping and fast, âCan I get a smoke? Iâm feening.â You give a smile, the residual of the painkillers making it easy to appear unassuming.
âNo. What else does it do?â Ghost is straight to the point, and it reminds you of Konig, and you wish Ghost would stop doing that because youâre trying to do something here.
Another drunken hum, âWhatâdâya want it to do? I can do it.â You wave your hand at him, casually flashing your restraints so Konig would get a clear view.
Ghost steps towards you and grabs the front of your gown, yanking your face inches from his, âWhat does it fucking do?â
A proud smile crosses your face, âNot your mom, âcause I got that covered myself.â
Mohawk puts a hand of warning on Ghostâs shoulder, reminding him not to get too violent with you.
Ghost ignores the warning, his fist connecting with your temple before you had a chance to brace yourself.
Skull boy packs quite a punch.
Youâre reset for a moment, blinded by a bright white and the ring in your ears makes a blaring encore.
You can tell by the warm and wet feeling under your bandages that the gash from Ghostâs gun had split open.
You donât know how long it takes you to get your bearings, but once you do youâre almost thankful Ghost had rocked you.
Youâre hoping Konig can see the urgency of the situation and your injured brain being rattled around your skull gives you an excuse to lie motionless, hindering interrogation. They know youâre not useful to them when you incapable of coherency. Itâs why Stupid-Haircut is trying so hard to keep Ghost from injuring you to bad. Itâs why they went through the trouble of nursing an enemy back to health. If Ghost turns your brain to soup like youâre so clearly provoking him to do, you wonât be able to tell them what they want to know.
Okay, painful change of plans.
Instead of forcing yourself to stay clear enough to manage all the details through the fog of the concussion, youâre going to force yourself into ignorance by weaponizing Ghostâs temperament against him. Itâs in their best interest to keep you cognizant, and itâs in your best interest to get Ghost irritated enough to torture you until youâre unable to speak.
Itâs going to be brutal, but youâve been feeling nothing but pain at the hands of him, and you donât think youâre far off from the cozy clutches of unconsciousness as it is - that it wonât be long until youâre unable to feel anything.
Always the masochist.
You canât help but smile, even though it all. A genuine one, toothy and face-wrinkling, one that wasnât for anyone else in the room, but didnât care if they saw. It wasnât a desperate attempt to relieve your discomfort. Not a waste of your precious energy lulling strangers into their sense of comfort. Not a weak effort to influence the opinion of you belonging to whoever happens to be in your vicinity.
You feel like youâre watching yourself descend into madness, powerless against the euphoric feeling that floods through you. Warmth coasting through your veins. You could tell it wasnât the drugs, the concussion and the growing list of other injuries, or even the idea Konig may be rushing to your rescue any minute now.
It was because in this moment, despite everything that has happened, you canât help but be enamored with yourself.
You?
Of course. Of course it took these conditions to pull it out of you.
Itâs always the hard way with you, wasnât it?
âIf you canât restrain yourself maybe you should let me handle it.â
âBack down, Johnny.â Ghost warns in that low, cautionary tone that canât help leave the receiver wondering just what horrible punishment would occur if they pushed. He doesnât even have to look at Johnny to hammer the intimidation into him. Itâs only accompanied by a low extend of arm vaguely in his direction.
Neither you or Ghost noticed the way Johnnyâs eye twitched or lip snarled, but he heeds Ghostâs warning.
Ghostâs eyes lock on you, and you think everyone in the room has caught on to the predicament theyâre in.
Johnny, whoâs been up to speed since the start, walking the tightrope of being respectful to his superior without letting him damage the value of his informant.
Ghost, whoâs long lost his respect for you before he even laid eyes on you, and since meeting you has only been sinking deeper into his hatred of you. Heâs used to getting information from soldiers. Out of powerful individuals that could handle a hit and that stay conscious during an interrogation session. The ones smart enough not to antagonize and beg for the brutality. Ones that grit their teeth an at least try and suck it up to maintain a scrap of dignity. Not you. He knows he needs your brain but heâd be happy to put an end to all of it, right now. Pull the plug on your project the manual way. If they canât have it, no one can. Maybe heâd get what he wants along the way if youâre coherent enough to squeak it out, but thatâd just be a bonus in his eyes.
And you. Wonderfully brilliant, even if occasionally misguided, and as much as you hate to believe it sometimes, incredibly lovable, even if Ghost is looking at you like he wants to put your head on a stick. But you donât care about that dummy. No, youâre not even looking at him or his Johnny. Even if he takes your life from you right now, you think you could accept that. Not for any necessarily suicidal reasons, even though the concussion has definitely knocked some dark feelings loose.
You close your eyes, and the smile still hasnât left your face, even if your sore muscles were pulling on the edges of your headache.
âToo much morphine.â Ghost says, to no one in particular, not hesitating as he forcefully grabs your forearm and digs his thumb into the skin encasing your IV needle.
You immediately hiss through gritted teeth, but he doesnât hesitate as he takes the beginning of the needle with his other hand, roughly poking around in your arm.
You try to pull away but heâs got a grip tight enough to force your arm extended. Youâre sure his fingertips will leave bruises.
He removes the needle entirely before puncturing you in a different spot on your inner elbow, shaking the needle violently beneath your flesh. You gasp, pulling against his iron grip with what little strength you have.
âWhereâd your smile go?â Ghost asks in a neutral tone, his eyes dead of emotion as he removes the needle before stabbing another hole in your arm.
You let out a yelp, eyes screwed shut as your other hand jerks against the restraints. Youâre too focused on the sickening feeling of skewered veins to make up a good comeback.
He does it again, and your fists clench and a high grunt escapes through gritted teeth.
âIâve always wanted to learn how to set an IV.â Ghost says dryly, his eyes cold behind the mask as he thrashes the needle.
âKeep practicing.â You hiss, pitch warbling through the pain.
And he does.
Itâs brutal, Ghost flaying the crease of your arm repeatedly. Itâs been less than a minute but youâre sure the torture started a lifetime ago. You just have to take it, itâs all you can do. Your verbal stalling wasnât cutting it, so youâre just going to have to opt for this instead and hope you can piss him off enough to get just a little too violent with you.
When heâs done, he jams the needle back where it was, managing to lay it back in your vein. âThere we go.â
You study each other for a brief moment, before he leans in close, so close his projection becomes obscured through your head. Youâre eye to eye now, nothing between you two but the mask your nose is almost brushing up against.
He grabs your face, his gloved fingers digging into your jaw with the same force he had held your forearm. He holds your head still and all you can do is look at him, brows pinched in fury as your nails dig into your palms, fists fight the restraints.
His eyes twitch as they flicker between each of yours.
âI am going to ruin you.â
You shake your head in an attempt to free your jaw from his clutches, but his grip is strong and he makes a point of forcing your head still, looking down his mask at you.
âYou can give me all the information you like. Iâm not stopping until itâs finished.â
Ghost finally lets you go with a rough shove. He takes the device from his ear and his wrist, discarding them both over his shoulder. Johnny catches the ear piece with a slight fumble, and the wrist remote hits the ground with a ting, rattling obnoxiously as it rolls to a stop. Johnnyâs got his hands full as he yells but you you donât bother listening to what heâs saying.
Youâre too busy relaxing into the attack as you let Ghost carry you to deathâs door.
âââââââââââââââââââ-
Even wincing is painful.
You're finally stirred awake by the feeling of a gloved hand on the back of your neck.
Itâs hard to open your eyes, and when you finally do you see him, from the chest up, he looks just like a just a blurry figure. Two of them, actually, doubled vision multiplying the lone man that stood before you.
Even with your damaged vision you can tell itâs Konig, making out the telling shapes of his gear and those biceps youâve studied so close you could pick them out of a lineup.
The hood that always intimidated you, but now fills you with a comfort like no other. You can see the light of your projection shielding his eyes.
A blinding bright light surrounds him, haloing your vision and it hurts, but you can help but keep your weary gaze fixed on him inbetween slow blinks.
Youâre sure youâre dead. That youâre passing over and this is your brain manifesting some hallucination to comfort you as you transition.
You reach out to touch his hood, just to see if you can. You wanted to see if you could feel him, the researcher in you testing the potentials of your delusions. The restraints cut you short for a final time, before Konig quickly cuts your hands free with a knife. He takes your weak extended hand in his and you can feel it.
It engulfs yours, the scratchy feel of his glove wrapped around your hand, and he feels real.
His other hand retracts from your neck and reaches up to turn his projection off to get a clearer look at you. His hand comes back from under his hood and moves carefully to the side of your face, his thumb tracing a bruise on your cheek. His canât believe what heâs seeing, his eyes darting around to the various injuries plastered on you.
âMeine liebeâŠâ
He says, and youâre not sure if heâs speaking a different language or if your Ghost gave you dyphasia.
âWho did this?â He asks, horrified as he realizes thereâs anyone out there cruel enough to do this to you.
You thought his stares were scary before, but the way his eyes glaze and turn cold as they follow the swells and bruises marking your face appears animalistic. It shoots a feeling in your gut so unnerving it confirms that youâre definitely not experiencing some euphoric deathbed hallucination.
When you donât answer, your eyes just flicking around his features as you adjust, he asks again.
âWho did this?!â
His voice strikes an urgent and menacing tone the second time. On your recording he had been able to see Ghostâs point of view, but not Ghost. A front row seat to watch you get brutally attacked but not being able to identify the aggressor himself.
Always determined.
You reach up with your other hand to your saving grace, and place it on his upper arm, âDonât leave.â
He hears how delicate your voice is, how you barely have the power to speak. How your hand quivered as you reached out to him, how you had squeezed his arm with what little might you had to encourage him to stay, to join you in a world where your aggressors and injuries didnât matter, none of it mattered.
And how can he say no to you?
His eyes soften again and you canât help but smile at the man behind the hood. Youâre smile immediately turns to a wince as it forces an uncomfortable tug on your fresh injuries.
âCome here.â He says softly and he picks you out of the hospital bed with little effort. Heâs got one arm secured around your back and the other is under the crease of your knees like heâs carrying you from the alter. He tilts you gently so your head can rest on his chest while he carries you to safety.
Youâre wondering if you really are dead after all. Itâs too good to be true, your plan working and Konig carrying you from the danger like heâs a fireman rescuing you from a burning building. You can discern the capabilities of his muscles as he holds you tight. Youâre not even slowing him down, heâs still able to hurry through the hallways, guided to the exit by your device without fault.
The jostling hurts, but heâs doing his best to hold you steady, and being in his arms, resting the less injured side of your forehead against him, makes the pain all worth it.
You can hear the sounds of gunshots in the distance, not even your impaired hearing could muffle the loud pops. They must have had a full team come out to do an extraction. You thought it was a lot of to-do for little olâ you.
Konig gets you to nearest exit, carefully managing the door as he opens it to ensure it didnât hit you, and carries you out to the getaway vehicle, setting you down across the backseat like youâre made of glass.
âLiebe, they need me.â He looks back to the building, âCan you stay here?â
You give a weak nod, and he gives your hand a squeeze.
âIâll be back, I promise.â
And you have his word.
He rushes back into the building while you try and rest in the backseat.
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The safe house was incredibly depressing. A rundown little two-room shack in the country, decorated with outdated appliances and furniture. The wall paper is peeling from the ceiling and youâre not sure if it was originally a drab yellow or if it had been stained from years of abuse. You can tell no oneâs been around to take care of the water damage, judging from the large brown stains spotting the ceiling. Thereâs a kitchenette in the corner with an oven, a fridge that hums too loudly, and a microwave that appears never to have been cleaned. A worn beige couch outfitted with two dusty orange cushions that sag with age. A few generic paintings on the wall that hardly comfort you. No internet and no cell service, but there is a small box-shaped TV that youâre sure is from the 50s, the picture warped and cloudy.
Base placed you here temporarily until you relocate, your apartment now too dangerous to live in as your address was in enemy hands.
Judging by the way your supervisor spoke to you when discussing the transition, they must be in the dark on what caused the breach.
Your secret is safe for now, but thereâs no telling when itâs going to get discovered. Waiting for the truth to come out has left a weight in your chest that sticks around from the moment you wake up to the moment you fall asleep.
They had assigned you a counselor to visit you and help process the trauma of the event, but you donât trust them enough to give them the full truth. You just tell them about the violence Ghost inflicted, walking through the nightmares that result from it. You havenât gotten a goodnightâs rest since it all went down, often waking up in the middle of the night kicking and screaming at the vivid night terrors of Ghost at the side of your bed.
Other than your counselor, the base associate that brings grocery to restock the noisy fridge on Thursdays, and the occasional check-up from your supervisor, youâve been totally isolated from the outside world.
You donât care about most.
Just Konig.
He had held you in his arms and carried you to safety at the risk of his own life. You knew you didnât deserve it after what you did, but you canât help but daydream.
Thinking about the way it felt to have your head on his chest, the cotton of his mask brushing your bruised cheek, his arms grasping you tight - protecting you - it definitely helps distract from the uncomfortable feeling lingering by your heart.
You wondered if he knew, if he had seen himself on Johnnyâs copy of the recording, but still was kind enough to do such a favor for you.
Then you really wouldnât deserve him.
You spend all your time thinking about Konig, bouncing between the depth of your guilt and the highs of the fantasy, just as you have been since you met him.
When he visits for the first time, it nearly triggered a panic attack. You had not been expecting visitors, and you were still haunted by the precious unexpected visitors you had. Youâre delightfully surprised when you peek out the window and see Konig, looking nervously at the landscape behind him when you donât answer right away. Your eyebrows spring up in shock and you let out a verbal exclamation at the sight.
You quickly run your fingers through your hair as a last ditch effort to appear somewhat put together before opening the door, forced to tilt your head back to look at him. His eyes widen at the sight of you, and he moves, almost like heâs about to step closer but stops himself.
You force yourself to contain your excitement at his visit, âKonig, Itâs good to see you.â You look down at your clothes, still donned in loungewear, âSorry about the jammies. Come in.â You open the door for him so he can step in before shutting the door behind him. He takes a few steps into the room before stilling, taking a moment to look around.
âSorry for stopping by unannounced.â He says, followed by a clearing his throat. His eyes linger on the old beige couch before meeting your eyes again. âIâve been worried about you.â
You knew you were unreachable, he couldnât have gotten in contact any other way, âDonât apologize, you really have no idea how good it is to see you. Iâve been thinking about how to say thank you, for what you did, but Iâm not sure thereâs enough words between our languages to cover it.â You put your hand to back of your neck, looking to the floor for a moment before meeting his gaze again. You give a nervous laugh, âSo I guess I owe you a bottle of wine, huh?â
You can tell he smiles under the mask by the way his eyes crinkle, âJust doing my job.â
You glance down at the arms that had held you so tight and wished they were wrapped around you again.
âThank you, Konig. Really. I owe you my life.â
âIt was my pleasure.â He says as he gives his head a little shake. His gaze shifts a bit higher, âYouâre healing nicely.â
You touch a hand to the gash Ghost had left from his gun. You were most likely going to have a scar, but it had closed and the swelling had gone down significantly, the previous inflamed red now a medium pink. âAh, well thanks for noticing. You know I made those skin cells myself?â
Huh?!
He tilts his head, âThatâs good, I hear store-bought isnât what it used to be.â
You giggle and roll on your heels a bit, not necessarily at the joke but at the fact that such a normally rigid and imitating man is now being cheeky with you, and it feels so nice to break the tension a bit.
âHow are you holding up?â He says, and it reminds of the way your therapist inquires, with that gentle tone that clearly eludes to the incident without directly referring to the incident.
âUh,â You trail off a bit, touching the nasty bruise on your inner arm, large from the spread of the internal bleeding, but now faded to a healing yellow. âYâknow? Itâs actually been,â You let out another nervous laugh, âawful, actually. But thatâs alright. Uhm, I think itâll get easier with time.â
He nods and his eyes dart down to the bruise youâve been mindlessly tracing with your finger. Something dark flickers behind his eyes but quickly subsides.
âIf itâs worth anything, it does.â
You give him a weak smile and you have no way to confirm but you think he does the same.
A silence falls on you both for awhile, both of you picking a random point in the room to unfocus your vision on. The silence doesnât feel awkward, more like you both were grieving for a minute - or maybe just lost in thought. Even if neither knew what to say to the other, you were still bonding over your traumatic experiences in your own quiet way.
Youâre the one who breaks the silence, your voice a bit cracked from your dry throat, âWhat do you do about the nightmares?â
His eyes leave you for a moment as he considers it. âI leave a book by my nightstand. For some itâs TV, others crossword puzzles. Thereâs no stopping it. You just have to find what calms you down after.â
You give a nod. You knew there wouldnât be a magic cure but you still have to take a moment to process that youâll have to be dealing with it for the foreseeable future.
Thereâs a long pause before he speaks again, âYou dream of him?â
You swallow again, trying to make it easier for you to speak but bail, instead slowly nodding your head.
Another silence falls over you both. A longer, more drawn out one. You both get lost in thought for awhile.
When you interrupt the silence again, the words spill out of you fast, coming out in a jumble and before you can stop yourself. He had that effect on you, making you feel so vulnerable and exposed, ready to spill your guts. Deep down you knew that itâs time to rip the bandaid off. Free yourself from the guilt and the constant fear your world is going to come crashing down around you.
âDo you know what I did?â
He studies you, tilting his head, âWhat do you mean? About your SOS?â
His response tells you that he truly doesnât know. If he knew what you did, heâd have known exactly what youâd meant. Regardless, you still make a futile attempt to jog his memory, hoping you wonât have to explain yourself, âHow I ended up there? What caused the breach?â
His eyes squint in confusion, âI was told we didnât know how they received your information.â
Your head tilts down in shame, and you have to look away from him.
You take a deep breath and rest your palms flat on your thighs.
âOkay, look, Iâve done something horrible. I have not been very good to you, and⊠that sucks! Because I really thought we could have been,â You hesitate for a moment, âfriends.â You close your eyes and take another breath, âAt first I thought I could keep it a secret from you, even if I believe you have every right to know, but the truth is I just canât handle the guilt anymore. Iâm exhausted waiting for the other shoe to drop, okay?â
Konigâs whole body is tense now, standing at attention as he waits for your words. Youâre worrying him.
âThe day we met,â Youâre choking up now, the adrenaline coursing through you, causing you to shake and perspire, mouth dry, âAfter our day in the shoot house, I forgot to disconnect your feed.â
Your tone shifts from serious to a bit desperate, âIt was an accident, I swear, Konig.â You look at him, pleading eyes begging him to believe you, âAnd I should have just disconnected the feed when I found it, I know,â Youâre getting exasperated, âBut Iâm sick and curious and to be honest I just couldnât help myself when I saw you.â
He shifts uncomfortably in his spot, and swallows hard. He knows what you mean, but he has to confirm it with you to believe it, âWhat did you see?â
You look away from him and to the floor. It takes you a moment to work up the courage, âI saw you getting off.â You say it so quietly, ashamed to admit it.
âI shouldnât have watched Konig, I shouldnât have. It was wrong and I know it doesnât mean anything now but I truly am sorry. But I did watch and I heard my name and Iâve been wracked with guilt ever since.â
He stands still, his breathing escalating slightly. He doesnât say anything and the silence drapes over you both for awhile.
This silence was definitely awkward.
His eyes tell you nothing and his expression is masked by the hood.
You swallow, knowing you owe him the full truth as you force yourself to continue. If heâs already disgusted with you under that hood, this will really put you over the edge.
Your fist clenches, âIn a moment of pure stupidity, I kept the video.â You break eye contact for a brief moment before returning your gaze to him. âI sent it to myself.â
âOkay?â You spit, angry at yourself, âI kept it and Iâve watched it so many times because I am just addicted to the way you moan my name, Konig. Iâm sorry. I heard it and I needed more. It made me feel so good, and so so terrible at the same time.â
Youâre on a roll now, rambling like youâre talking about your research.
âAnd I have not been able to stop thinking about you!â You laugh a bit, âAnd I understand how serious this is. So if you want to go straight to head of command and have me discharged, I wonât hold it against you. In fact, if you donât even feel like filing the report, Iâll pack up my things and leave now, and you wonât hear from me ever again.â
You pause, and he doesnât fill the silence, so you keep going, the words coming out like vomit, âBut thereâs something else you deserve to know. When I sent the video to my phone - for personal reasons only, okay?! I was not planning on showing anyone, if that helps. When I sent the video, it opened a vulnerable point of entry for TF-141 to hack in. They⊠have your video. Iâm so sorry, it was a major lapse of judgement, and I overlooked so many protocols, and I put our intel at risk. I put your private moment at risk. I put us all at risk. I-â
You cut yourself off, tears starting to well in your eyes. It was relieving to get it off your chest, but you knew what was about to happen. You knew you were lighting a fuse with one hand and holding dynamite with another.
âIâm so sorry, Konig.â
The tears start flowing and youâre powerless to stop them. You hoped it wasnât coming off as a desperate attempt to gain sympathy.
For awhile you stand there, eyes fixed at the floor as you wait for his response.
Konig hasnât moved, hasnât said anything, just stands in his spot, staring.
When you finally look at him, eyes full of heartbreak, he maintains eye contact for a few moments, expression unreadable.
After a moments to process, he uncrosses his arms to dig into his pocket, pulling out the device you had given him on that very first day. His boots slowly cross the linoleum floor and he gently sets your device on the dinky table behind you before removing the wristband and setting it down next to the earpiece without making a sound.
He doesnât even look back at you before he turns his back and walking out the safe house door, shutting it with a soft click.
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Itâs been three days since Konig left you alone in the safe house.
Youâre wondering if you should cut your losses and leave. Change your name & get started with a new life.
Youâve already preemptively packed up your things to make it less painful on yourself when your supervisor comes to kick you to the curb.
Even as your life is dissolved and scattered to the wind, you actually feel a lot better than you have in months. Almost like the worrying was worse than the actual consequences. At least now you can live honestly.
Nonetheless, it was still pretty painful. Your latest infatuation finding out how you so deeply betrayed them. Watching him walk out on you had left you sobbing face down in the dusty orange couch pillows to muffle your cries.
Itâs late at night on that third day, and you had managed to find some respite with a surprisingly warm shower and losing yourself in blurry reruns of a game show when you hear the light ting of metals.
At first you think itâs the ringing in your ears returning, it had been on and off ever since Ghost concussed you, but you quickly realized by the uneven rattles it had been coming from within the safe house.
Your eyes scan the room after switching the TV off, first starting with the fridge that hums too loud, but quickly dart your attention over to the movement of the safe houseâs doorknob jiggling.
Not again.
You try and suppress the flashbacks enough to find somewhere to hide, but the safe house is one big open room with a small obscured bedroom that was more bed than room, and you donât think the bed is high enough off the floor to crawl under.
So instead you freeze on the dingy couch, your heartbeat deafening in your ears as you watch your doorknob wiggle in its loose hold.
Thereâs a distinct click and then a long pause. You donât even see the doorknob rotate because the door gets flung open with such speed and force it slams against the wall and bounces back.
âKonig?â You fear melds with confusion as you make sense of the figure rushing in.
Heâs already closed most of the gap between you when you manage to squeak out a more alarmed, âKonig!â
Itâs scary to have such a large man charge you, especially one youâre so used to being docile around you, one that usually stands hesitantly by the door until invited closer.
You donât have a lot of time to think about it. Konig grabs you by the crest of the back of your neck with one hand, his other hand lifting up his mask to kiss you without room for arguing.
You let out a surprised gasp that was muffled by the kiss, and he takes that opportunity to have his tongue greet yours. His grip is tight on the back of your neck, his fingers digging in slightly to stake his claim. The stubble on his chin brushes roughly against your skin as he takes whatâs his.
Once you catch up, you close your eyes and try to match his intensity but itâs difficult to keep up.
He finally pulls away, out of breath and letting his hood fall back over his mouth, his now free hand moving to the side of your face, âIâm sorry I left you, mein schatz.â He pulls away from your face slightly with a breath, âI needed to think.â
Your wide eyes flicker between his, mouth slightly parted as you nod. âYeah,â your voice is breathy, the shock of the kiss having knocked the wind out you, âThatâs uh, understandable.â
He brings his face closer to you. His eyes shift, and you see that dark flicker again.
âYou have to understand, liebe, your deed will not go unpunished.â
Your brows retract as you swallow at the threat, looking up at him with concern in your eyes and your thighs pressed together.
Youâve been nervous around Konig before, maybe even scared, but youâve never feared for your safety. Quite the opposite, actually. Such a large, strong soldier on your team gives you a shield of comfort - he made you feel safe.
But the way his voice had lowered and his eyes tinted with something primal shoots a tingle down your spine and raises the hairs on your neck. Youâre not sure what he means, but your brain is coming up with ideas faster than you can sink your teeth into the details.
Youâre almost ashamed at the warm feeling of arousal that sinks to your lower abdomen.
He kisses you again, this time closed and softer. When he pulls away his face stays dangerously close to yours, âYouâve done a very bad thing, liebe. You understand?â
His voice is low and husked but holds incredible authority. You canât help but feel like a child being scolded in the principalâs office. You nod slowly, lips pursed and eyes still rounded in suspense.
He brings his finger up to your chin, his face close enough your noses are brushing, âI canât hear a nod.â
The knot in your stomach doubles and your breath hitches a bit, shaking as you speak, âYes, Konig, I understand.â
His thumb strokes your cheek, but it doesnât soothe the mixture of fear and arousal flushing your skin.
âWould you like to right your wrong?â
You take a deep breath. Youâre not sure what youâre agreeing to, but youâve been desperate to fix what youâve done since the moment you committed it. âYes, Konig.â You nod your head, âIâd do anything.â
A pleased hum comes from him, and you're close enough to feel the vibration. You swallow nervously, gaze hesitantly watching his animalistic eyes stare down at you like youâre his prey.
âStay.â He orders, pulling away from you and letting his hand linger on your face for an extra moment before turning away from you.
You obey, both fear of consequence and desperation to please not allowing an ounce of will to defy him. Your eyes are still locked on him as he steps to the dinky little table he had set the device on three days ago.
You had left it untouched, making it easier to swallow by still thinking of the device as his. As if Konig had just left it behind by mistake instead of intentionally returning your property to you.
He took both carefully in his hand before returning to you, boots asserting themselves as they slowly and confidently traverse the linoleum. He holds the devices out for you to take. âFeed on. Projection off.â
And you follow his instructions, what choice do you have? When his voice is strict and heâs standing over you, intimidating stature making you feel so small and defenseless. The shake of your hands causes your fingers to fumble as you struggle with the remote, his hand held out impatiently as you stumble with fluster.
When you finally get it, you place both devices in his palm, staring up with your eyes begging for his approval.
He gives you nothing, as usual, placing the earpiece under his hood and setting the wrist piece down simultaneously.
âYou stepped out of line, liebe.â Konig takes closer to small gap between you you, âYou humiliated me.â
His eyes are half-lidded now, boring into you with menace.
âAnd now Iâm going to humiliate you.â
He touches your face with his thumb again. You canât help but flinch at the gentle touch, on edge from unease and excitement.
He gives another light huff, reveling in his ability to intimidate you.
âOn your knees.â He commands, finger pointing at the floor as he slides back to make room for you.
He huffs in satisfaction at the dumbfounded look on your face. Your mouth slightly agape and stuttering - itâs dawning on you now; exactly what you have to do to right your wrongs.
He squints at you, voice leaving no room for error, âDid I stutter, Schatz?â
That sinister glint in his eye returns again, and just the sight is enough to get you to slide quickly to the floor, assuming your position on both knees, neck slowly tilting back to take him in as he towers over you.
He leans in to to cup your face again, giving it a soft yet firm pat, âGood.â
Your heart flutters at the praise, even if simply articulated.
Thatâs all you want to hear. That youâre good. You want to be so good for him.
Youâre dripping now, Konig already having you ache for his touch.
His strong hands slide down your face, four fingers cupping your jaw as his thumb brushes your bottom lip gently. When your lips part he slides his thumb in your mouth and you oblige, obediently sucking and showing him what you can do with your tongue.
He gives a low pleased hum before removing his thumb and reaching for his belt, the buckle jingling as he unlatches it and removes it from his waist in one swift pull.
Your stare follows the belt as he folds it in half, and he muses at your worried look. He likes the way your mind wanders, always running with the possibilities. Itâs what drew you to him in the first place.
He doesnât hit you, though, just taps it against the bottom of your chin to get you to fix your gaze back on him. Once heâs got your attention, he discards the belt and reaches down to pop the button on his pants, yanking each end to get the zipper down in one smooth move.
He slides his thumbs behind both waistbands, pulling them down just enough to expose his cock. Itâs rock hard and practically springs from his pants, and you canât help but let out a small squeak and just how big it is.
Youâve seen it before, studied it endlessly, imagined it so many times.
It did nothing to prepare you for kneeling before it. Just like the rest of him, his cock intimidated you, at full attention and already leaking precum.
âWrap your hands around it, schatz.â
You follow his orders, softly gripping his cock. Youâve studied the video of him jerking off so many times, you know exactly how to please him. You start with a loose grip, your hand sliding from base to tip at a slow pace, as your other hand cups his balls.
At first he watches, enjoying how your hands looked so small around him. He canât help but close his eyes and tilt his head back as he lets out a soft moan.
It sounds so much better in person, and your pace picks up, desperate to elicit more from him.
He tilts his head forward to get a better view of you.
âSuck.â He commands, and you hesitate for a brief moment, worried about the logistics, before ditching your fears and giving it your best shot.
You keep your hand steady on his shaft as you guide the tip to your tongue, a slow lick clearing the bead of pre-cum that had formed.
He lets out another low moan that makes you quiver.
You press your lips to him, slowing working the tip into your mouth as you tease with your tongue.
As you work steadily down his shaft, you have to fully unhinge your jaw to fit him in to avoid teeth, and even then itâs a close call. Youâre continue carefully and he seems willing to be patient with you as you get used to his size.
You manage to somewhat comfortably fit half of him in your mouth, using your free hand to squeeze the base of his shaft. You start to move back and forth, pressing your tongue against him.
He watches in awe as you take him in, not holding back in his pleaded hums and groans.
âSo good, Schatz.â
Warmth pools in your chest at the praise.
You look at him with a doe eyes and a full mouth, bobbing on his cock as you slick it up.
He moans at the sight, placing a hand on the back of your head. He follows it up with another order.
âDeeper. I want to see you choke on it.â
Youâre not in a position to argue, so you oblige, letting his cock slide as deep as you can, but heâs not pleased with your attempt. He tightens his grip on the back of your head, fingers laced between strands of hair, and slowly forces his cock in until youâre squeaking out noises involuntarily, eyes welling with tears.
He starts to fuck your mouth, slowly at first, but picks up the pace. He doesnât wait for you to get your bearings or catch your breath, savoring the lengths youâll go to please him.
âThere you go, schatz, so good for me.â
The tears are steaming now as he triggers your gag reflex, and your underwear is stained with your arousal in response to being praised and used.
He pulls out of your mouth, his cock still wet with your spit, and takes a step back to admire you. Your breath quickening to catch up, the flushed look of your face, the disheveled hair. He relished in the mess he was making of the intelligent professional he had come to know.
He gives a pleased hum at how you wait so patiently for his next order.
âUp. Clothes off.â
Your breath hitched, cheeks flushing a shade deeper. You wipe the spit from your mouth and slowly stand, hands shaking with nerves.
Your fingers dig into the hem of your shirt, desperate to grip onto something, and you hesitate at his command, nervous to let him see you even more exposed.
You ignore your nerves, too willing to please Konig, and pull your shirt over your disheveled hair and discard it on the couch. Your fingers fumble with the waistband on your lounge pants, sheepishly pulling them down your thighs and stepping carefully out of them.
You stand before him in your underwear, and you canât help but cross one arm over yourself. The way heâs staring at you, not shy about his gaze mapping your newly uncovered features. He steps forward again, close enough his hard cock brushes against your warm skin.
He gives a low hum of approval and steps closer, his hands gently running along your sides until they find your waist, staking their claim with a firm grip. He leans in and you feel the drape of his hood caress your shoulder as he brushes his head against yours, lips in your ear.
âYouâre so beautiful, meine schatz.â
You close your eyes as he plants a kiss though his hood on your neck, and you can feel his breath through the soft cotton.
Itâs not fair that youâre naked while heâs still fully covered. You feel so vulnerable and exposed.
You quickly understand thatâs exactly what you had done to him and let out a soft whimper at the realization that this is intentional, that heâs issuing this power play as part of your punishment. Youâve had your time to admire his body, now itâs his turn.
âBedroom, now.â The softness leaves his voice with the demand and he pulls away from you once again to get a better view of you.
The knot is your lower abdomen doubles as you turn and head to the bedroom, giving him a good long look at the back of you.
You stand at the narrow space between the end of the bed and the wall, looking up at him when he enters, waiting for his next order. You canât help but notice the jingle of his belt as he carried it with him. He sets it on the bed and takes his time committing your image to memory.
âOn your back, liebe.â The pet name doesnât soften the domineering tone, warning you not to dare rebel against him.
You follow his order, getting up on the bed and laying down for him, your upper half propped up by your elbows.
Konig follows, crawling over top of you slowly, his massive frame engulfing you beneath him as you lean into the bed. He appears even more menacing over top of you, strong arms and legs trapping you beneath him. You canât help the nervous expression on your face as you stare up at those hungry eyes.
He brings a hand up to touch your face, leaning forward to plant another kiss on your lips, lifting up his mask as he does so. It annoys you that whenever he pulls away the hood falls, and you canât even get a peek at what you assume is a strong jaw.
The hand on your face slides down your neck, fingers traversing the bumps of your collarbones before he shifts down to your chest, stopping for a moment to tease your nipples to attention. You suck in a breath and arch into the touch.
He hums again, low and devious.
Your hands reach up to touch his arms, but he doesnât let you, removing his hands from your chest and grabbing your wrists firmly. He passes one off so he can hold both of your arms in one strong grip, and youâre amazed heâs able to subdue both of your wrists with just one of his massive hands. He leans back and uses his free hand to reach for the belt at the foot of the bed, before wrapping it around your wrists and fastening the buckle tightly.
He leans in close to your face as he places your restrained hands back above your head. He takes in the way your breath quickens through parted lips, eyes wide and cheeks flush with excitement and worry. He likes making you falter, likes watching you breakdown underneath his power.
âYouâre all mine.â He reminds you, one hand keeping your bound wrists firmly above your head.
You nod, and when you speak your voice comes out quiet and broken, âAll yours, Konig.â
It gratifies him, judging by his self-assured laugh and the way his cock twitches against your stomach. âThatâs it, liebe.â
He removes his grip on your forearm with a firm squeeze to remind you to stay, and he scoots himself back so that either leg is straddling your thighs instead of your waist. His gaze shifts down, soaking in every inch as he cups you over your underwear, his careful touch taking advantage of your sensitivity.
You canât help but grind your hips into his teasing, already leaking for him.
âMm, I can tell youâre enjoying this. Such a dirty little pervert you are.â
You close your eyes and let out a whine at the teasing, both verbal and physical.
âDonât worry, liebe, Iâm getting impatient as well.â
He slips his fingers into the waistband of your underwear, sliding his fingers along your hips to tease you a bit before sliding them down, having to readjust himself as he takes them off. He repositions himself between your legs this time, letting either of your ankles at his sides.
His hands slide up your quivering thighs, spreading you open and getting a good look at you. You try and fight the embarrassment under the heat of his stare, resisting the urge to bring your bound wrists down to cover yourself.
He takes his time slicking himself up with lube - he came prepared, you noticed. Premeditated passion. Guess he has to when heâs got such a large cock.
Youâre worried about the logistics, but you get the feeling Konig wouldnât dare hurt you in this way.
Once heâs nice and slicked, he lines the tip against your aching warmth, and leans down close to you.
âAre you ready, meine liebe?â
âPlease, Konig.â You whine, rutting your hips to grind against him.
He closes his eyes as he slowly works himself into you. Your suspicions are confirmed as he stops just after the tip, opening his eyes again to confirm the level of comfort displayed on your features.
Your teeth are grit, but you nod your head in approval.
Heâs continues, pace so careful as he pushes himself further into you. Itâs been so long since youâve got any action, especially action from someone so well endowed, youâre incredibly tight around him. Heâs studying you, searching for signs of being pushed over the limit as he takes his time stretching you out.
You canât help let out a soft moan when heâs halfway in, just at the feeling of being filled. Your eyes flutter shut, giving yourself the ability to concentrate on the cock working into you.
It takes awhile, it does. Youâre so small and heâs so big, but he doesnât seem to mind, enjoying using you as his cockwarmer, walls so cozy and tight around him. He thinks itâs so goddamn arousing that heâs so huge you have to push yourself to take him. He likes that heâs a challenge for you. He wants to train you and shape you in every sense of the word.
But for now, he allows you take the lead from underneath him, letting yourself grind your hips down on to him at your own pace as he lets low moans escape him.
When youâre finally at the point of desperately rutting your hips against him, you give him all he needs to hear.
âFuck me, Konig, please fuck me.â
He obliges, unable to say no to your eager and breathy tone. His fingers grip onto your outer thighs as he thrusts into you. His pace is quick, but heâs still cautious not to force himself too deep inside you. Heâs a disciplined man, after all.
Even without being all the way inside you, heâs still deep enough to hit the spot, forcing moans to escape from parted lips.
âLook at me, liebe.â
You oblige, and his cock twitches inside of you at the sight of your half-lidded eyes glazed in pleasure. He grunts, his pace picking up as he ventures deeper inside of you.
You canât help the mutters and moans spilling from you. Your hands mindlessly move from above your head to his chest, tugging on the fabric of his shirt.
âYou feel so good. So good for me, schatz.â
You moan in response, and he decides heâs worked you open enough to push all the way in.
Youâre cockdrunk now. Breathy moans escaping without thought, eyes unfocused and body limp to his desires.
When he suddenly pulls out you whine. âKoni- please.â
âOn your front.â He commands as he sits back on his knees, towering over you.
Youâre flush and out of breath as you do as he says, positioning yourself the best you can with your hands bound. On all fours, head down towards the pillows as you arch your back.
The bed shifts under him as he scoots close before giving your ass a firm smack, the gasp leaving your mouth more out of surprise than pain. He gives you a few more, alternating between your cheeks. Just enough to leave handprints behind, marking you as his own.
He lines up with you again, pressing into you without hesitation.
You both let out moans at the return of warmth. Heâs less gentle now, pounding into you hard enough the sound of flesh crashing together fills the room. The creaky bed is slamming against the dingy walls and your thighs are rippling on impact. You canât help but quiver as the pleasure washes through you.
Heâs got such a rhythmic pace, slamming into you while he grips your hips tight to keep you still.
âAll mine.â He growls between breathy groans.
You can't even respond, practically drooling into the pillows as Konig fucks you senseless. A string of broken praises fall from your lips, mostly nonsense. Konig leans in and leaves little kisses down your back, without breaking his pace.
âKoni, Iâm gonâna- fuck, Konig.â
âCome for me, meine liebe.â
Your eyes pinch shut and a broken moan leaves your lips as you ride the waves of intense pleasure washing through you. Itâs enough to make your entire body clench, your walls gripping onto Konig.
He doesnât let up, forcing your thighs open as he mercilessly pounds you through orgasm.
He gives your ass another firm smack, and your fingers are clawing desperately at the pillows, searching for any sort of stability but youâre powerless to Konig and his forceful cock.
Youâre on cloud nine, feeling so far away from your body as youâre washed up on the shores of pleasure. Konigâs strength is the only thing holding you steady.
âIâm going to come, schatz.â He warns, moaning your name just like he did on the video before he fills you up and stakes his claim deep inside you.
His fingers dig into your thighs as his muscles tense under his clothes, his thrusts and moans becoming uneven as he loses himself to the euphoric gratification.
He pauses for a few moments after he slows to a stop, taking a moment to catch his breath as he lets his cock warm inside you.
He pulls out of you with a low grunt, watching the come that spills out of you. When he releases his grip on you, youâre too weak to support yourself, sliding limp on your front and basking in the afterglow of your orgasm.
He takes pleasure in knowing he marked you, completely broke you down and disheveled you. Made you feel so good you have to collect yourself afterwards.
He steps out for a moment before quickly returning with something to clean you both up with.
Heâs gentle with the clean-up, wiping away the mixture of lube and come from you while minding your sensitivity, not wanting to disturb your bliss. He removes the belt from your wrists as well.
âKonig? Cuddle.â You mutter, arm stretching across the bedspread.
You donât see the smile underneath his hood, but after he wipes himself off he joins you back on the bed, the mattress creaking for a final time as he pulls you in a spoon. You feel so safe and small, pressed into him like this. His strong arms wrapped around you. His chest on your back. You let out a pleased hum.
âThatâs going to make a nice video.â He says, removing his earpiece and turning it off as he sets it on the bed.
âYou can have the real thing anytime.â You say, eyes closed with a warm smile on your face.
He hums low in your ear and gives you a kiss on the cheek, âYouâre forgiven, Schatz.â
âThank you Koni.â
You both drift off, tired out from your intense finishes.
You stay close throughout the night, but having him pressed into you unfortunately didnât stop the nightmares. When you wake up in a panic, kicking and screaming at the latest renditioning of your mindâs unresolved trauma, Konigâs there to press his hand to your heart, telling you that everythingâs okay, it was just a nightmare.
Your breath is still rapid and your heart is still pounding as you steady yourself, transitioning yourself back to reality after the night terror.
He hugs you so tight, reminding you about how heâll always be there to protect you, that no one will ever hurt you again, he will not let anything happen to you.
You steady yourself, and he knows well enough how hard it is to calm yourself after such an immersive terrifying experience.
âI brought something for that, Schatz.â
When he leaves the room you think heâs going to bring you a book, a puzzle, something to do to distract yourself.
What he brings back makes you tense, your eyes widening at the gift. He sets it down for you, getting back into the bed and resuming his position wrapped around you, protecting you. But your eyes are glued to the gift, the full implications sinking in.
Konig had set down Ghostâs mask.
âNo one will find out about your secret. I took care of it.â
You donât need him to explain further. You know Ghost will never have the opportunity to hurt you again.
âThank you, Konig.â
He kisses your shoulder through his hood, âMy pleasure, meine liebe. Sleep tight.â
And you do.
âââââââââââââââââââââââ-
More by uhohdad:
The Girl Who Conquered The Mountain: [Hunger Games AU] Konig & Reader are selected to fight in a twenty-four tribute fight to the death.
Meine Perle: Reader is tasked with feeding enemy prisoner Octo!Konig
HIS: Konig has an unhealthy obsession with you.
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I was just writing a post about the Carmy/Faks scene & how it's really just Carmy talking to himself. For this scene the two Faks represent his inner voices/subconscious (which might only apply to this scene idk), but then I decided to see what all these scenes looked like together and wow am I glad I did!! Seeing these 4 scenes side by side is very interesting.
The first two scenes in 3x05 & 3x07 mirror each other, the last two scenes in 3x09 mirror each other and all 4 of them tell their own story together. The first scene is Carmy's talking to himself but shouting & aiming it at anyone who's listening. The 2nd is Syd talking to herself but mostly mumbling so only she can hear. In the Faks scene Carmy's having an "imaginary" conversation out loud with two people, just like Syd's doing in the last scene rehearsing what she might say to both Adam Shapiro and Carmy.
And if you rearrange these scenes & put the first 2 after the Faks scene, if we saw/heard those sarcastic "that makes sense" comments after we saw the "Claire is peace" scene in that exact same location, it would've been a lot easier to figure out what they're really referring to!
There are lots of layers to unpack here but I'm gonna talk about the main things that jump out at me. This is probably gonna be a bit chaotic with different ideas and breakdowns of what things could mean so I hope it's not too confusing. Anyone else feel free to jump in with your thoughts.
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Notice how in all these scenes, except one, Carmy and Syd are alone talking out loud to themselves, vocalizing their inner thoughts. Mute the video and just read the subtitles if you need to. The scene with the Faks reads like a conversation with imaginary friends or like the two funny inner voices of a character in a comedy movie. All these scenes are like they're from a comedy movie tbh.
In the first two scenes Carmy & Syd act the same way they both deal with their problems (Carmy shouting about it to anyone who'll listen and Syd pissed but mostly keeping it quiet/to herself). They're the only ones actually inside the dumpster in all the scenes which makes me think it represents their minds and the boxes are the mental chaos & thoughts they're trying to sort through. The Faks are technically outside Carmy's mind/the dumpster so they don't speak from the mind or for the mind but they're close to it, communicating with it & "helping" sort through the chaos. Maybe the dumpster represents the conscious mind and the Faks are Carmy's subconscious. It sounds like The Faks are encouraging Carmy to fall back into his base programming, which people often tend to do when they're lost and don't know what to do. They're trying to convince him to call Claire bc Carmy's base programming from his family is "Claire is good". That's what safe to him bc it's a "truth" he's always known & believed. Idk there's many possibilities. It's also Interesting how later this episode The Faks go to Claire and speak directly for Carmy like they know for sure what he's thinking & feeling.
Lets get into the dialogue of the first two scenes:
"[Carmy] That makes sense. [box clatters] Boxes full of bullshit. Put it on the f*cking list. Oh, it's good. I'll do it. I got it. I got it."
Just a side note: The next line in the script is "I don't know wha-what I'm supposed to do with all this stuff" from Marcus in the next scene where he's clearing out all his mum's stuff with Syd.
"[Syd] 'Cause why would you do it? I mean, you're supposed to do it. This is-- This is fine. This is good. This makes sense. This is f*cking⊠F*ck. F*ck. [pants] [muttering] F*ck. [growls] fcking-- Where are the fcking Faks? F*ck!"
I don't even know where to start, there's so many ways to read this!
Carmy said one specific thing in the Faks scene that very clearly "didn't make sense"...Claire is peace. He knows that's not true but I think the point is he's been avoiding thinking about who his peace actually is all S3*. Carmy & Syd are both sarcastically saying "that makes sense" like it's subtly referring to that scene later in the same place. Was the panic attack scene by the same dumpsters? Idk someone let me know please.
*Carmy said in 3x07 he tries to avoid thinking about legacy. The only legacy we know of is the one he's trying to build with Syd both professionally and personally. His realization that Syd's brings him peace in the panic attack in 2x09 is the reality of his legacy that he's been trying to avoid all S3. He's working to get her his star and creating dishes inspired by her so Syd's cearly on his mind but the one thing he should be thinking about and talking to her about, he's avoiding.
There are many different layers of possible meaning and/or foreshadowing in this dialogue, but one layer it can be read is how they're both thinking/feeling about the Claire situation bc even tho Syd didn't mention it all season it's still there between them. Maybe none of this is about Claire, but if it was:
Carmy: "[sarcastically] that makes sense"...claire is "peace". "Boxes full of bullsh*t"...he's full of bullshit that Claire's his peace?!! Or maybe Claire is in the boxes of bullshit aka his baggage and past trauma he needs to sort through? "Put it on the "f*cking list"...put Claire on the list of his stress & baggage? And a very sarcastic "Oh it's good. I'll do it. I got it. I got it." He'll do what he's "supposed to do" with Claire & call her/apologize/maybe even be with her even tho it clearly sounds like he doesn't want to..?? He's "got it"...even though he clearly doesn't. "It's good" but she's clearly not The Good Thingâą.
Syd: "Cause why wouldn't you do it? I mean you're supposed to do it"...why won't carmy just sort himself out? why wont he just call claire/be with claire since Syd thinks that's what he wants & she acts in front of him like "it's not her place to be [beside him on a personal level]" almost direct quote from her in 3x09. She's probabaly confused why Carm just wont be with Claire. From Syd's perspective he changed his mind about her and chose Claire in S2, so the next logical step is he'd be with Claire. "This is fine. This is good. This makes sense."...carmy saying claire is peace & also probably how she'll react out loud if carmy/claire get back together. "This is f*cking⊠F*ck. F*ck. [pants] [muttering] F*ck. [growls] fcking--"...this is how she really feels about the whole Claire situation & Carmy just ditching her & "changing shit" (that came up a lot this season), which ultimately led to him not treating her like a partner in their professional relationship. "Where are the fcking Faks? F*ck!"...a direct lead in to Carmy's scene in the exact same place 2 episodes later.
Sydney's dialogue in 3x07 scene also reads like a run-on of Carmy's dialogue in 3x05, continuing his thoughts trying to convince himself of what he should do with Claire but he's panicking so he calls for the Fak's, his imaginary friends/inner voices, who are there with him the next time we see him in that spot. From the dialogue it makes sense but idk if we've ever seen the show do that with Syd before so idk. Sydney is clearly definied as her own character but she is definied as a mirror of Carmy too so it's a possibility.
Of course this is all interpretation, some or none of this could be directly about Claire but idk. The location (esp if it's in the same place he had the 2x09 panic attack), all the "coincidental" dialogue, the way all these scenes tie together...and with the panic attack scene and the opposing realizations Carmy comes to about Syd & Claire in 2x09 & 3x09. It wasn't a "realization" about Claire in 3x09, he didn't even look like he believed what he was saying tbh. It looked like he just made it up on the spot.
It's also interesting that these scenes by the dumpsters are the quivalent of S1 & 2's walk in scenes where both Syd & Carmy go for a moment of peace to clear their thoughts and "cool off". We don't see those this season but we do get these which is more like them sorting out all the chaotic thoughts & feelings inside them, separating the "trash" from the good stuff, "the bad from the good" like Carmy said he wanted/needed to do to achieve his legacy in 3x07.
In the Faks scene listen to all the "we" and "us" talk;
"If we did it when it was scheduled. We do though. We do it, Carm. All we do is break down boxes. We break 'em down and we have to do it again. Who would wanna haunt us? Who's pissed at us? Sammy's pissed at us."
Until Claire is mentioned (a sobering thought for Carmy) and it's suddenly "Not us. Just you. Not us." Reality hit for a moment and the imaginary friends want to separate themselves from him because they're not "real" & they didn't upset Claire so she can't be mad at them. I think Carmy is the only "real" one in this scene. The Faks are the imaginary friends/inner voices that seem like they're helping the main character but they're really just causing more chaos and leading him down the wrong path because they're misunderstanding what he wants based on what he's forcing himself to think about; Claire. (I lowkey think Carmy's forcing memories of Claire to stop himself from thinking about Sydney.)
The transition of Carmy talking to himself with The Fak's representing two parts of his mind aka "two minds" going straight into Syd talking to herself & voicing out loud what she'd say to both Shapiro and Carmy like she's having a mental conversation with two different people and that she's in "two minds". "I wanted to start off by saying I'm grateful" sounds formal and directed at Adam Shapiro. "Ok so I wanted to talk to you..." sounds more personal and directed at Carmy. It's a similar concept of being in two minds used in a slightly different context but in this show and the writing specifically, context is all over the place anyway.
Also the transition into the Syd scene is to drive home the point that Carmy was just having a conversation with himself, trying to convince himself that Claire is peace, she's "good" etc. For this scene (and possibly this scene only) Theodore is the stubborn part of Carmy that doesn't like to be pushed around who thinks stuff like "Yeah but I'd see his ass" about Sammy Fak. And you know there's a part of Carmy that would have that attitude but the conscious part of him is smarter than that. Neil is the more sweet, anxious side of Carmy that is kind of "away with the fairies" a little bit, in his own head a lot. Carmy is the regular, conscious, "real" Carmy trying to figure out the mental mess he's in.
I think transitioning into that Syd scene was also to callback to the only other times Syd or Carmy spoke aloud to themselves. I might be forgetting something but I think all these scenes are the only times we see either of them have full conversations with themselves out loud in S3..? Someone let me know if that's wrong please.
Side note- From one perscpective: Carmy's reaction to Theodore calling Claire "a piece of ass" was so...unaffected??! Could you imagine if someone said that about Syd?? He bit Richie's head off for calling her "sweetheart" in 1x01 and physically put himself between them so I can't imagine he'd take it that lightly if it was about Syd...From another perpective, if this scene is all about Carmy's inner thoughts, is he asking himself if that's how he sees Claire? I don't think he does intentionally but it's a valid question considering the show seems to use physical intimacy as a substitute for any real connection between them. If Claire & Carmy never kissed or had sex, would anyone see that relationship as a romance?? I really don't think so tbh, the physical initmacy is the only thing about their scenes that confirms it's supposed to be seen as a romance. Meanwhile SydCarmy are drowning in real connection before any physical intimacy.
Anyone please feel free to jump in and add your thoughts, I'd love to know your perspectives on seeing all these scenes together @thoughtfulchaos773 @sydcarmyfan @yannaryartside @currymanganese @vacationship @afrofairysblog @greekyogurttragedy @tvfantic87 @moodyeucalyptus @gingergofastboatsmojito @ambeauty @whenmemorydies @brokenwinebox and anyone else who wants to jump in is welcome to.
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I haven't seen any hate or negative comments directly, I've only seen people discuss the negativity and this is not meant to come across defensive but I wanted to write out some of my thoughts cause why not lol
some things that stood out to me about the travel show include confirmation again about the thing I keep saying is that jikook make the effort to understand and care for each other (and as a side note I find it so hilarious that people are so determined to misunderstand them) for example when jimin said he knew it had to be him to make the travel show happen. what this means (I think) is that he pushed the idea forward so that it actually became a reality (with the implication that it would not have been jungkook to do that). it's so funny that people wanna say this means that jungkook doesn't care about jimin when that is not true at all and such a wild thing to imply (if it was true, jimin would know by now and he would not try. also jungkook would keep rejecting jimin's ideas). if you look at it from jungkook's perspective it undoubtedly feels really nice to have someone care this much about you. they know each other well and they care for each other a ton which is just so obvious. jimin had no problem pushing to make it happen and he actually /did/ which says a lot. they know what they need to do for each other and they actually do it which is a massive deal to be quite honest.
I do not agree at all that jungkook was 'off' and the whole thing about people always claiming that he's off around jimin makes me lowkey uncomfortable at this point tbh. for whatever reason people really struggle accepting that jungkook is human and that he doesn't mask his emotions 24/7 and that his emotions fluctuate throughout the day like everyone else's. when he's around jimin people expect him to have one flat emotion (happy) for some reason and also expect that nothing else outside of jimin would affect his emotions somehow. like that's wild to me. and funny in a way cause once again this show has shown that jimin reads jungkook's emotions well and when jungkook gets mad or upset about things like falling off that bleeding kayak he responds in a way that will help jk get over it. you have to be pretty close to someone to be able to do that, js. if he's upset about something and he happens to be around jimin, it's not jimin he's upset with but that is literally what people are saying and that's so beyond ridiculous. again to be around someone you don't have to put up a front for and can say whatever you want and tease each other knowing you won't offend each other fr shows closeness jfc.
personally in the car in episode 1 at the start I see jungkook holding himself back a little but he probably would've preferred to talk more with jimin when they're not being filmed, then they got distracted when they did stuff so he seemed more relaxed after a while. but I think them talking about what happened when they weren't seeing each other etc., I think jungkook would've preferred to discuss that off camera, like talking about missing each other and stuff like that, that he probably wanted to say off cam. even if I completely disregard that opinion, they did not seem awkward to me at all at any point. I think I've been off twitter for so long and have not seen the fandom chatter for so long that it doesn't affect me any longer which feels great but sometimes I really wonder how much people think for themselves vs think based on what they read about other people's perception. and that's funny to say given I just wrote down my own perceptions but really I think people online state and word things as if they were facts and I'm sure that affects a lot of people subconsciously. so all of this is just my opinion but if you actually try to put yourself in jikook's shoes without any preconceived ideas, knowing them to be the friends that they are, it's pretty easy to see how much they care about each other.
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The new arcâs first blurb came, and seems to be about Tawnypelt, Leafstar, and some random apprentice molly named Moonpaw btw. Canât wait to see how awful that turns out.
I'm going to go in with low expectations this time around. Admittedly, I'm not fond of the idea of following cats who I feel have massively overstayed their welcome. Leafstar should have been dead a long time ago, and Tawnypelt has been active for 20 years of arcs plus a novella.
When I say "I'd like characters from previous arcs to continue their stories" I don't mean that I want popular old cats to get forced into the spotlight constantly. I mean that I want interesting background characters like Icewing, Fringewhisker, or Breezepelt to get expanded upon with full POVs. It's a bummer that the Erins seem so bad at building up new characters that they're still relying on cats from Arc 1.
But, hey, maybe this will surprise me.
Moonpaw though... Moonpaw I've got my eye on. I'm listening. I'm paying attention. TBC and ASC had a "formula" for the three POV characters; Boy/Girl/The Horrors. It's not lost on me that Changing Skies seems to have dropped the Boy and the Girl, but kept The Horrors. I hope this signals that they listened to the positive feedback on Shadowsight and Frostpaw.
Other assorted thoughts;
I'm not even going to pretend to be kind to this; ANOTHER construction plot is just bad.
They're boring. I do not want another whingefest about how it's wrong and bad and mean to hurt humans for some reason.
Bone "Speckletail's Bulldozer" Fall: these darn cats better attack a bulldozer or I'm out
And goddddd why are we having ANOTHER "StarClan's really gonna be gone this time!" Plot. This is the third in a row.
I was already on board with it the first time. Burn the heavens down or shut up at this point.
Plus... it seems like a lot of this arc is going to be based around Tawnypelt trying to argue with people to get the plot to happen, Moonpaw warning everyone the plot is going to happen while they don't listen to her, and Leafstar acting in whatever way will be most annoying for the plot to not happen.
I cannot stress enough how much I dread this. I am so sick of buying books to hear about characters doing everything in their power to accomplish as little as possible. I can call my congressman for FREE.
Moonpaw though. I love her name. I hope that she has a strong personality to help her stand out from Frost and Shadow.
I'm hoping that she's more on the rough side than the sensitive side, tbh. Something I enjoy about Nightheart is that he CAUSES shit to happen because he's impulsive.
My ideal scenario for this arc is Leafstar trying to keep Tawnypelt and Moonpaw on two leashes and absolutely failing. PLEASE let my girls break stuff.
I hope that Leafstar dies in this arc. I'll be kinda sad if she's the first leader voted out, but she NEEDS to stop leading. So I hope it's a good death.
And God please I hope they keep the stupidity pills away from her. She has been at her worst in ASC.
IN A NUTSHELL; On paper, this seems like a middling idea for an arc at best. My expectations are low, but I'm hoping they surprise me.
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hiiiyaaa! just found your blog, and im already obsessed đ€ the theme is so cute too like wtf đđ anyways i was wondering how the obey me brothers would react to an mc whoâs very very good at giving massages! idk what it is but im very good at giving them so i wonder how theyâd react to that đ again, super obsessed with ur blog and ur work <3
Obey me! Mc giving good massages to the brother's
note : thank u omg i just love pink tbh and i couldn't find any soft pink theme but im so glad you love my theme now đ. AND THANK U AGAIN for suggesting this cause i need more idea juices for them [lipbite].... Gn!mc.
Warning : oiled up (not all), Might be ooc, if there's a misspelling/typo's I'm sorry, but mostly fluff cause idk if u wanted smut or not so enjoy
Lucifer
He will definitely resist it at first- the avatar if pride? The eldest?? A massage??? Do you think he's tired and overworked ?? [Yes]
But eventually gives in and lays down on the bed, i think he'd prefers clothes on or maybe just a t-shirt so that when you're done giving him the massage he can get back to work again
He's wrong đ. Five minutes into the massage Lucifer's eye was starting to get droopy and heavy but he tried not to sleep
I think his back has alot of knots especially around his shoulder
If you knead/massage that part he'd probably slip out some groans or at least a satisfied noises
"i have no time for that, it'll only waste my time and i need to finish a few more-" before Lucifer could finish you tug his arm trying to drag him to the bed. He looks at you before sighing "fine, but i don't need this." Proceeds to lay down on his chest while he buried his face into the pillow.
You gently pressed your palms against his juicy broad shoulders before putting pressure on the tight knots "haaah.." he accidentally let out a satisfied sigh "oh? Seems like you're enjoying this after all!" Hearing you say that Lucifer went silent but still enjoys it, slowly drifting to sleep.
When you're done he's already too relaxed and knocked out at this point "hello? Earth to Lucifer! Were done here.. much better right?". No response at all from the mighty prideful demon below you, slowly with struggle you move him so he's laying on his back to find a peaceful look on his face as it was evident that he's definitely tired.
Mammon
Probs after you massage him once he'd want more some other time
Barges into your room after a 'tiring' day of having complaints and being chased for his debt just to ask for a massage
If you say no he'd look at you with puppy eyes while whining and pestering you about how shitty his day was
You (ofcourse) give in and he starts to take his jacket off leaving him in his white shirt smiling sheepishly at you before his back faces you
Mammon sighs in content as he immediately melts and relax into your touch, leaning more and more as he's starting to get a little too greedy for your touch. You pulled away only for him to gasp and turn over dramatically "hey why'd you do that? I thought the massage was-" you quickly cut him off "oh hush and let me do it properly and stop leaning all your weight towards me or lay down!" You spoke as he pouted and lay down on your bed.
He talks and talk about his day while you apply pressure on his muscles
Slowly he yawns and at the end of the session he sits up and thanked you before his eyes closes... now you have a sleepy eepy mammon
Leviathan
You cant tell me that he's not playing his video games most of the times or watching stuff to the point where his posture is BAD
And him sleeping in a bathtub doesn't help at all
He secretly has been wanting to ask for a massage from your for quite awhile but never really got the courage to ask even if you're close!
If you suggested it tho he wouldn't decline at all and just let you do your thing
You should probably tease him to take his hoodie off and just go shirtless to see how red he can be
"are you sure about the.. shirtless part?" He's still unsure but does it anyway since you're more experienced. What he didn't expect was a massage oil dripped onto his back from his shoulders all the way to his hip as you softly rubs it, making him jolts out of shock. "Wait wait wait w-what even was that?!" He looks at you "it's just an oil, relax."
He struggled to relax as he kept moving and wriggling slightly made you a little bit annoyed before gripping his waist and sits on his ass area so he doesn't move.
Levi's eye fluttered as your hand works magic on him, from his neck slowly moving down his shoulders and so on.
After you're done his face was less flushed as he thanked you and asked if he could ask for more in the future
Satan
He would probably droop himself over your shoulder fully dropping his whole weight onto your back
Nuzzling Into your neck before finally asking if you can massage him as his back was hurting from reading
If you accepted he'd happily lay down next to his cats (the one where he totally didn't sneak in)
He dimmed the light in the room and lays back down while he impatiently waits for you to begin
"just for a couple of minutes.. my back is killing me already" he said as he lays on his chest while slowly stroking the sleeping cat next to him "fine fine" after you spoke, you started to do your massage.
Satan couldn't help but melts and groans at the pleasure as the pressure on his back was slightly going away from your delicate but precise hands
Let's say 20 minutes has passed and you pull away thinking that satan is asleep and that you can stop, but as you do that his arms pulled you in again wanting for more "just ten more minutes- it feels so good.." well ten more minutes it is! (I cant say no to him)
Asmodeus
He's the one who sets up all these heart candles with flowery smell and assorted massage oil for you to choose
Asmo lured asked nicely for you to give him your perfect and heavenly massages
He'll even ask to give you a massage in return (it'll turn into more)
Loves the way your hand roams around and all over his body
Oh and asmo probably will go butt naked only with a towel to cover his ass
You gave in to him since he made the efforts of already setting the mood with pretty scented heart candles and bought the massage oil
When you start to carefully massage his neck, he's going to be loud and wouldn't mind if anyone outside his room hear him, slowly working down to his back Asmo is amazed of how good you are "where did you learn this? It feels so good~" he nuzzle back to his pillow after talking.
After you're finish, he'll insist to give you a massage in return so if you accept that then don't be suprised if his hands roam around places on your body slightly squeezing it (he'll ask tho) and perhaps more than just a massage
Beelzebub
You'd give him massages a few hours after his workout sessions
Loves the way your hands move all over his muscular body and would be a happy boy if you provided small snacks after
This is just a guess of mine but i think it'll be kinda hard? Like you'd need to put more pressure on him than the other's cause his muscles are hard
Aside from the back side, feel free to give him arm massage as well
Beel will stare at you when you're kneading his sore arm muscle, a small smile was shown on the corner of his lips and he leans back.
"you brought snacks..right?" He looked around the room and on the bed to find anything he van chew on "I'll give it to you after the massage so be patient." Beel actually did what you said and waited til the end of the massage
Gently rub his arms with a warm towel after pls he likes it.
After that he'd probably embrace you while he's eating the snacks and just enjoy how fuzzy n relaxed he feels and glad that you accepted his cuddles
Belphegor
He wouldn't ask for it in words, belphie would just tug your shirt and pat his back signaling he wants you to start massaging him
Loves LOVES when you give him scalp massages and gives his face kisses afterwards
Eventually will fall asleep but who's suprised atp lmfao
You better give him snuggles and cuddles when you're done cause i like to think he's abit clingy
Belphie pats his back as you guys were watching a movie "you want a massage like- right now?" You said while only getting a nod from the demon next to you, quickly gets in between your body and lays on your stomach as he waits for you to start "...hurry" belphie kept nuzzling his head on your hands as you sigh and starts to gently massage his head
Working your way across his scalp to cover all areas. Trying to massage his scalp using your fingertips for at least 5 minutes before small snores are starting to come out of belphie's lips, he would say it from time to time about how good of a massage you give and how much he enjoys it.
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Hello. I absolutely love your Fairy Tail head-canons, especially about demon slayer Gray. Feel free to take or leave these little ideas. Always love when you post <3
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Imagine Team Natsu has to rent a vehicle or something and they require actual legal paperwork like a birth certificate and address or something like that (more than just âguild business! Gonna need this!â). Lucy doesnât want to rent it because there is no way sheâs going to be responsible for the inevitable damage. Erza, being the leader and a good friend volunteers. A few minutes later she comes back out, puzzled.
Erza: âwhy would they need a birth certificate? Shouldnât me being present be proof enough of my existence?â
Gray starts snickering in the background. Natsu goes in next but comes out even earlier than Erza, cause at least Erza had a probably legal address at Fairy Hills, Natsu on the other hand lives in a house in the woods.
By the time Wendy goes in the receptionist is exasperated. âYes I understand you are with Fairy Tail but that isnât until page three of the paper work. None of you have made it past the first page.â
Gray finds this all very amusing.
Lucy: âSince you find it so amusing why donât you go register, Gray!?â
Gray: mutters something
Natsu: âWhat do you mean youâre legally dead?!â
Cause you know, Ur just found a kid (the only survivor) and just decided to keep him. Oh, no official rescue crews didnât show up until two days later? My kid now :)
The search and rescue teams never found any survivors in Grayâs old town so everyone was pronounced dead. The magic council or whoever is in charge of that stuff is also disorganized enough that no one realized that Gray Fullbuster is both a famous wizard and supposedly dead. So, just, Gray technically being considered legally dead the entire time he was at Fairy Tail.
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Also, the slayers all going out on a job together(the dragon slayers had to drag Gray). The job turns out to be a trap (surprise!) and the floor just opens up revealing a giant vehicle.
Dark mage: âHa-ha! I have bested the dragon slayer! The most powerful mages-âspots Gray just chilling, perfectly fine and not motion sick. âwhat are you doing?â Cause the guy was planning to capture dragon slayer, not whatever a demon slayer was (the dark mage didnât even know demon slayers were a thing). Gray defeats the dark mage but holds it over Natsuâs head for a week.
After that anytime a large group of dragon slayers takes a job together they take Gray along for âextra security during transportationâ or just extra security in general.
I also head-canon that each type of slayer magic has its own unique weakness. Dragon slayers get severely motion sick. God slayers are claustrophobic. Demon slayers cannot handle sweets. If Gray gets even a whiff of cake or any other dessert his gag reflex acts up and he gets really nauseous and other stuff like that. He of course hid it at first (he was afraid Erza would disown him) but eventually everyone learned about the weakness of demon slayers. Natsu teases him about it but never pushes it too far to the point of accidentally making Gray really sick.
Anyways, sorry for the long ask. Feel free to expand on anything. Always love some good slayer bonding head-canons and just Fairy Tail head-canons in general. <3
This was so much fun to make tbh so domt apologize, i love long asks <3 and thank for for what you said ant my posts! theyre fun to make so im glad ppl enjoy them
Oh, you have no idea how often ive though about Gray being legally dead, my personal favorite scenario is him trying to fix it and prove himself alive but cant
âHow the fuck would i know my social security number??? i was eight years old! i had no reason to know!!!â
There was no dna or finger-print records of him or his family so he couldnât prove it that way either. Apparently, declaring someone born or dead is easier than someone âresurrectedâ. To the law Gray of Isvan is dead and although Gray of Fiore bares similarities, they are two different people.
But ALSO to the law Gray of Fiore doesnt exist bc he has no birth certificate. And while hes adamant, he has no real proof beyond his word he is Gray Fullbuster of Isvan.
So basically, According to the law, Both Gray Fullbuster of Isvan and Fiore are dead and never existed, respectively.
tbh this sounds like an identity crisis waiting to happen, but what else is new with him
Erza probably tried to fix it after she was told bc she legally didnt exist for a minute either (never was filed as a real person, she was able to file for a late birth certificate on account that she wasnt claiming to be a âseparateâ person and also Makarov did it for her) (dont ask why he didnt for Gray, i like plot holes). But quickly realized their situations were very different, him waiting over a decade to check in as a survivor with the proper authorities definitely weakened his case considering he was running around free before he decided he needed a birth certificate.
But hey, as long as he doesnât need to rent something, or get a license or id, or work somewhere beyond Fairy Tail, or get married, or, god forbid, die again, he should be fine!
i wonder if he would be considered a âjohn doeâ if he actually died again since they have ânoâ birth records
This also makes games like âtwo truths and a lieâ amazing
âalright so, im legally dead, i legally dont exist, and ive never physically died beforeâ âGray what the hell do you meanâ âGuess the right one and ill tell youâ âWHAT THE HELL DOES THIS MEAN THOUGH??â
i love everything to do with the âdragon slayers + grayâ dynamic
âExtra securityâ just turns into Gray babysitting a bunch of rambunctious dragons for hours. seriously, get this guy a reward for how he hasnt killed or maimed any of them yet.
Imagine them trying to convince Gray to walk to their destination instead of taking the train
âIts not that far!!â âits fucking 5 hours by train, How long do you think itll take to walk? Why would even you pick this job if you knew how long the ride would be??â ⊠ânobody looked..â âare you actually serious.â ⊠âoh my fucking godâ
and thats the story of how one Demon slayer ended up having to babysit 4 very pitiful looking Fairy Tail Dragon slayers on a train. Dude had to drag them off it once it stopped too.
His side career of âDragon Slayer Babysitterâ only gets harder when they realize holy shit! cold compresses can help nausea! and what do they have? a walking cold compress.
Taking a train trip with them just means second hand nausea AND embarrassment, and absolutely no personal space. A dream come true.
At least he gets to hold it over their heads
Tbh i like the irony of Dragon Slayers being motion sick because, yk, dragons can fly, so my hc for side effects for God Slayers and Demon Slayers were along the same lines
God Slayers being wide open space or flying since Gods are like the epitome of freedom? all knowing and have complete reign over everything, But claustrophobia works so much better for that same reason. It would cause extreme panic and rash decisions
And Demon Slayers was the dark because demons are supposed to be these evil creatures who thrive in the dark n stuff? basically it would send a Demon Slayer into a paranoid spiral.
But sweets being a weakness instead is such a silly thing that im gonna take it and run
Gray never cared for sweets in the first place, gave him a stomachache, but now he has to walk away from Erza mid conversation if she decides to indulge, which is almost everyday. She was absolutely heartbroken and devastated when the weakness was revealed, it was such a dramatic reaction one wouod think she was the one with the new weakness
When Gray pokes fun at Natsus motion sickness heâll go on about how Gray is gonna have the lamest parties since he cant handle even the smell of sweets, especially cake.
A terrible realization for everyone involved with him, on par with when Gray realized he wouldnt be able to have ice cream comfortably again, thats like a staple for ice mages
heart wrenching, truly
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People hating evil characters is weird to me. I guess the only characters I actually hate are annoying ones cause usually thatâs not a point of their character in the story, they just happen to be infuriating. Like Slade being a bad guy is cause heâs a bad guy, thatâs like his whole point as a character. Yeah he can be nuanced and worse at times but he exists to be an antagonist. It completely makes sense to me that the Tara thing makes people uncomfortable but heâs still a fictional antagonist, itâs not really a moral failing on the part of the creators.
Tbh if you've experienced these characters in any way (read TJC or watched the more recent animated movie or read Deathstroke 2016 or watched Teen Titans 2003, or whatever else features their interaction) and you don't like Slade, that's fair enough.
Loving and hating characters (and every other emotion) happens all the time and it's part of the experience. HOWEVER, I do take issues when it's people who do not know the character, who have barely ever seen them and just heard "stuff" from other fandom people, who go on crusades against said character because "they did bad stuff".
You see it in people who hate Tarantula "because she raped Dick" and they have not read one single comic in which she appears - they have no idea what she even looks like or what's her real name, but they "hate her" because they read a post in which the sexual assault was mentioned and since she "did a bad thing" they "hate her now". This has to be the most shallow fucking thing, but it's convenient because if you hate on the "bad guy" it must mean you're morally pure and upstanding and you're one of the good ones.
Back to your point, hating on a character without any kind of reasoning or nuance only because they did "bad things" is the death of critical thinking. But people out there act like characters who do shit that's even vaguely considered unethical or morally reprehensible irl need to be hated, and like their existence is some sort of moral failing from the writer's part, and it's so fucking annoying and childish.
Which leads me to my second point which is a tad more controversial, but hey I'm a bitch with insufferable opinions so here we go I guess.
I'm bothered by people who pick a character and use them as their scapegoat, and I mean collectively as a fandom. It kind of is the case with Slade but he isn't the perfect example, however the principle is the same: hating on the villain, especially when the villain is very human and makes very human mistakes, using them as the only person who is capable of doing evil and therefore acquitting every other character of anything they ever did.
With Slade it becomes that Slade is the only bad guy of his story, who hurt Grant and hurt Adeline and hurt Joseph and raped Tara and killed and maimed and tortured, and therefore Grant has no blame in what he did to himself, and Adeline is just a poor innocent woman who was hurt by her unfaithful husband, and Joey did nothing wrong and everything that happened to him is solely Slade's fault, and Tara wasn't already a mercenary hitwoman for hire who lied and cheated and killed - rather she was just a poor innocent girl who was manipulated and corrupted by the Big Bad Guy.
I don't know if you see what I mean with this, but it's very much a thing in a lot of fandoms, especially when it comes to horror media where there is a cast of controversial, "imperfect" characters. One example of this is Mouthwashing, in which (spoilers ahead of course) there is a cast composed of people who range from being downright horrible to having very human but very noticeable flaws - every single one of them is "guilty" of something, and the protagonist in particular is also the one with the most prominent antisocial behaviors. But he's not benefiting from them - Jimmy isn't someone whose life is made better by his piece of shit behavior, rather this is a person with issues and who struggles with mental health (he's suicidal and has very strong delusions), giving him a very hard time keeping his life in order. Which of course doesn't make any of the horrible shit he does less horrible, but I think it's interesting how he's (mostly) not acting out of convenience, rather he's acting out his own demons. And what the fandom did was deciding that this guy is the only one to blame, and that his shitty behavior absolves everyone else of their sins. He's effectively the scapegoat and everyone else - it doesn't matter if they act selfishly, childishly, violently, cowardly or anything really - is guileless and has never done anything wrong in their lives. Jimmy is the only one who's to blame, and the rest of the cast is made of pure perfect angels.
I've seen this happen in many many cases. And it sort of turns into a mob of people whose only fandom personality is to hate on this one guy and gather Upstanding Morality Points, and of course the natural consequence of this is bothering or even outright harassing people who instead are fans of such flawed characters.
I hate it. I'm not saying anyone should have to like a character in particular, but the way people hate on the "easy to hate" guy instead of trying to understand them, especially when it's a complex character whose action make them suffer as much as the people they're hurting, distances me from fandom spaces. People will see a feral beast of a character with their leg caught in a bear trap hissing and growling while in the process of chewing their own limb off, and will toss stones at them and call them disgusting and weird. It's so unkind and I hate it so much.
#sorry for the wall of text#I'm probably gonna get people in my ask inbox going like YOU CAN'T TELL PEOPLE THEY CAN'T HATE X CHARACTER#because this is the reading comprehension level on the pissing on the poor website#but anyway#my asks
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Hi forgive me if this has been addressed before! I'm a little new to your fem!stan stuff (I saw your ask reblogged by Boston and snuck out of the back of their foodtruck to send this) but I love the idea and was wondering does stan pretend to be Stanford when he falls in the portal? (If that is the route that's taken in the au at least) because it would be really interesting to see if constance would enjoy the freedom that comes with being a man but at the same time I think it would drive (incel) ford up the wall if he came back and saw his sister running a successful business out of his house. There would be this extra layer of tension as ford has to grapple with his own learned misogyny. Though I also imagine exploring the multiverse and seeing the way gender is explored or even ignored in other worlds would probably force him to have some realizations before hand but whether or not hed really allow himself to internalize those realizations is another story. Bros got an easy excuse to not analyze his own sexism since hes trying to hunt down bill
And then when he comes back and sees his sister is doing just fine would probably wound his pride a little bit. All those fantasies and unfair expectations of their roles hes built in his mind are forced to come crashing down once again
I'm also just kind of obsessed with the idea of constance finally learning how to be /stan/ in gravity falls because she never had the freedom and safety to do so before. I'm sure a large part of rejection of any femininity whatsoever came from not having the option to do so in the past. But then she watches the kids over the summer and sees mabel embracing makeovers and grappling hooks hand in hand. Dipper is insistent on being a "man" but never once tries to tell mabel she needs to be a "woman"
This ask is all over the place sorry I think i had a point to the start of this and now I'm just rambling about your own au to you lmfao
Anyway love the concept (and your art!!)
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Hello! Thank you for passing by and sending me such a nice message, sharing your own ideas with me! and many thanks for the compliments too, of course †That said, I'm afraid my answer will be a tad disappointing. Because, the fem!Stan I enjoy to imagine is cis, and I can't imagine a cis woman being able to consistently pretend to be a man for thirty years, without losing their mind (in the same way it's detrimental for most trans people to supress their true identity for a lifetime, non?). Especially, in the same way canon Stan is very masculine (with a sprinkle of femininity, despite his shame about it), I like to imagine Constance as a lady who is very proud and comfortable in her womanhood- despite her loud voice and direct and somehow brash manners. Even in her younger years, when she was classified as a tomboy by most, she loved girly things- dresses, make up, gossip magazines, etc. without issues. I think of Stan in her 60s wearing tacky jewelry, lipstick, and hair-curlers at night, tbh. That's why, in this AU, my mind skirts around the part were Ford gets stuck into the portal.
For example, I sometimes imagine 30s Ford simply having a change of heart and dismantling the portal, and (now former) Drifter!Constance living with him from that point on (and, of course, I elaborated this one up until Stan and Mabel get into the picture, but for the sake of brevity I'll stop here). Or, I bend canon a little, making up that the people of Gravity Falls only heard of some researcher who was gonna build and live in a shack in the forest, but they never actually got to see them, let alone find out if it was a man or a woman. It's a version were the chaos Ford caused in town while posses by Bill either never happened or he did it without getting caught by police or getting seen. And, about the name on documents and stuff-- Constance was a marinated and resourceful conwoman at that point, she simply found a way to make things work. Hell, they have the same last name- maybe this time she registered Ford as deceased, passed herself as his wife, and inherited the Shack and the rest of Ford's possessions. I know many, reading this, would think it's heartless of Stan, but to me this trick is fucking hilarious. Especially, I'm grinning like a maniac imagining how mad and appalled Ford would look as he realizes the trick Constance pulled- not only because what a fucking ASSHOLE she's been, to use his "death" to appropriate his stuff- but also!! secretly!! because WHAT the FUCK- he often fantasized about Stan being his wife, but this is the most cruel and ironic monkey paw situation EVER!! To reconnect back to your speculations about sexist!Ford being humiliated and mad about Constance running a business independently: I like it! it's fun to read! But, I have to go deeper. I usually think of Ford's sexism toward Constance to be the outside layer, so to speak. I think deep down Ford always knew Stan had the potential to be strong, resourceful and independent, despite what their ma, pa, teachers and other people said. Ford grew next to her, he knows what this girl is capable of, how determined she is. And that's the point...What he really dreads, what he really hates, is the idea she doesn't need him, at all. That's what would make Ford actually upset about Stan running a business: knowing that, hadn't she brought him back, she would had been fine, without him. Sexism would be the mental shield Ford uses to protect himself from this painful acknowledgment: He's just mad because his fraud of a sister thinks she's being successful, but all she accomplished was using her physical appearance and womanly ways to seduce and manipulate. That's all, really. I roll my eyes at him, here, which is a good indicator I got him in character, if I can say so myself. The last scene you shared, with Stan realizing her nephew and niece aren't as oppressed by gender roles as she herself used to be- and bypassing them, even- is SO sweet đ„ș I have absolutely no doubt in my mind: one thing that does NOT change in either the canon universe and the genderbend one, is that Stan would love and adore Dipper and Mabel- and learn a lot from them †PS: is the puppy icon your anon signature? it's so cute! đ¶ look at this fine boy. Great choice.
#stancest#fem!Stan#I have sketches of 60s Constance that I will eventually share#it's nothing groundbreaking tbh BUT I have to spam y'all you must be subjected to my visions
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