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sleepysloth99 · 1 year ago

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Sweet Home Cast React To You Being Monsterized Pt 1: "Special Memories Before the Fall of Mankind."

This is a long overdue request from @tapwater-made-everyone-gay . Thank you for your patience, and I am sorry for it being years late. So much has happened in my life, and I needed to step away. To compensate, I decided to make my first ever published fanfiction just for you. It has a mix of horror, angst, and fluff. I started taking up in horror writing and simply wanted to experiment. I hope you enjoy it. Also, a spoiler is mentioned. It is a character death. Keep that in mind.

Hyuk, the one guy that was the unofficial leader of the survival group. Known for pushing people's buttons, geeking out over his hobbies, and being aloof and logical all around, you'd think he'd be indifferent to your infection. I mean, it's not the first time he saw someone become monsterized. Plus, he kept Hyun around due to the benefits of having a half monster around. Surely, he would shrug it off.

Except... he didn't.

It all started when Dusik had finally gotten the elevator going. Things seemed to be turning up for Green Roof's survivors. Then Eun noticed the elevator tik...tik...tik... down to maximum capacity. She stared at the screen as her breath hitched. You went up to her and asked her what was wrong. You asked her why she looked so pale as she continued to stare with those... glassy eyes, sweat dripping down her face, and then You followed her eyes and saw it too...

Maxiumum capacity.

Everyone was cheerful until the elevator finally opened up, and there was no longer any weight but rather the security guy. His eyes were dull, and his skin was wrinkled and had stretch marks everywhere. But these were no ordinary stretch marks. They looked so... deep. As if someone grabbed the flesh off his bones and stretched it to their liking. The room fell silent until one of the people went up to talk to him and then the quiet room filled with that deafening echo of a weed whacker and that stomach churning crunch of the resident's bones followed by the sickening thud of his body being slammed against the tiled floor.

By now, everyone was screaming while Hyuk and the others prepared to fight. You paced yourself, preparing your body and mind for a fight when suddenly... the room turned red.... and all the screams muffled. The reverberations of the horrific ambiance melted away when your inner voice cried out:

T̷͙̕͝h̵͍̓a̶͉͘ṱ̵̇'̴͖̰̐̚l̵̨̉ḽ̴̢͗͝ ̷̱̱̀b̷͇͝ẹ̵̫̽ ̴͇̭̒͝ẙ̸̤̱ò̷̬̘͋u̸͓̓͝ ̶̘̫̇ḛ̷̰̈́̃v̸̭͐̉ë̷̝́͗n̸̟͚̈́͠t̴̢̳̎ŭ̸̬̚ä̴̧͙́l̸̻͘l̶̻̏͝ͅẏ̵͇̊͜,̵̨̤͛́ ̴̳̲̾̐y̴̹̑o̴̲̰͗̍u̵̗̅ ̷̗̽̕k̵̩̄ń̵̖o̷͓̍ŵ̶͖͇.̴̪͐̋.̶̤̆̀.̸̞̾

(That'll be you eventually, you know...)

Your eyes shifted between the monster before you and your team. Between each shift, you caught glimpses of certain members noticing your odd behaviors. How You groaned in pain when no one hit You, how You stumbled back, down to how you grabbed your head with your hands so tightly that blood seeped into the bedding of your nails from their digging. You tried to shake away the feeling and fight, but the pain was too strong. You went to run for cover to at least be out of the way when Hyuk asked You what was wrong.

You couldn't possibly tell him. You couldn't do it. Not right now, at least. So you just looked at him, mouth agape as the words poured out.

"It... hurts..."

He pulled your arm over his shoulder and lowered you into the corner of the room. Your vision was distorted, but even then, you saw the way his eyebrows were upturned. There was a plea in his eyes, a prayer to the unknown. A cry for a sliver of hope that maybe, just maybe, it wasn't what he thought it was.

Was Hyuk the emotional type? Never. At least, never in young adulthood. He was emotional as a child until his world changed when his father died. Then suddenly... he grew up. That emotional sensitivity that a child usually has seemed to have died with his father because there was no use to cry. He had every reason to cry, but in his mind, he never had the time or the place to do so. So to him, there was no need for tears, and therefore no need for emotions. But of course, there were exceptions. There was the occasional tragic event that could crack even the coldest persona a person could hold, his little sister, and.... You.

Long before the world went up in flames, you moved into Green Roof for your own reasons. You settled in and were on your way to the convenience store for enough food to get you through the rest of the night when a guy bumped into you. That guy happened to be Hyuk. What started off as an awkward run-in led to a friendship that lasted even into the apocalypse. You would visit him often, and he would visit when he could. More often than not, however, it was you who came to him because he had to stay with his sister.

Hyuk seemed alright with You, if not a little awkward. Sometimes, he would say something like, "Only if it's You." And then follow up with "uh... that sounded weird." There would be times where he would be caught sneaking glances at You, or putting an arm around You, ultimately, it never led to anything. He wanted to tell You. He really, really wanted to tell You. But whenever he opened his mouth... nothing came out. Until now, all he could say were the words; "See you later."

But now he was struck with fear. Even in the swift moments of a fight, Hyuk couldn't help but wonder if this would be his last "See you later." The idea of You leaving him was painful enough let alone monsterization. Plus... and most likely the most painful part of it all... was that he never got to tell You how he felt. Despite all of that, he had to push his feelings aside. In his mind, as he witnesses the horrors of his reality that the world is ending and so is the love of his life, he has to bottle it up and keep acting like the Hyuk everyone knew. Someone who was blunt, cold, indifferent, and simply sees people as chest pieces. That's what he had to be right now. The Hyuk he is now. The Hyuk that everyone sees. But even when humans bottle up their feelings, they always bubble up to the surface and overflow. Even in the midst of the fight, his feelings of fear, paranoia, worry, and above all, profound sorrow persisted. But his unfazed front persisted more.

As Hyuk fights both his physical and internal battles, You leaned back against the wall and watched the fight unfold. With every blink, your vision grew more and more faded. It was by that point that You didn't notice Jay being murdered, or Eun hurt herself, or... even... Hyuk ran to Eun, and his face became deprived of any color as he saw the blood run down your nose.

The cold Hyuk had finally thawed in that moment. It was subtle, but sometimes it's the most subtle changes that speak the loudest. At first, everyone brushed it off as the typical reaction to a monster. But even days after the fight, Wook noticed Hyuk staring off a lot. Jisu noticed how Hyuk seemed more restless. Eun saw her big brother become a little more irritable over the tiniest things. Then there was Hyun... who noticed Hyuk's changes in private. He saw the way Hyuk scratched away at a sheet of paper frantically, how he started chewing his nails, he could tell something was wrong.

Finally, Hyuk came to see You in private. Which was a bit uncomfortable, given the fact that lately, the two of you had some sort of tension. Every word he said to You was laced with an undertone of concern. Every conversation up to now always ended with the feeling that something might be lurking beneath that easy-going smile of his.

When he came to see You, he wasn't smiling anymore. He simply looked you in the eyes and said, "You're infected." You nodded, and he looked away. He stared out the window and said, "So... we would have to vote you out as to whether or not we should throw you out."

Your blood ran cold. You couldn't help but think, "How the hell could he do this? At least, how can he be so cold about it?" You spoke up, "I understand why you are saying this, but how can you be so cold about all of this?"

Hyuk didn't face You. But You could tell from the jolt his shoulders gave and the buckle of his knees that he was very much upset. He stayed silent before replying with, "I'm not being cold, I'm just saying it as it is."

You retorted, "Stating the facts would also include acknowledging our past together, you know that, right?" He tensed up again. You continued, "Unless it meant nothing to you."

By now, Hyuk finally turned around and said, "It....It did. I'm just focusing on our team." You chuckled a little hearing that and said, "Yeah, like how our team focuses on you? All they ever do is rely on you. Jisu, Wook, Hyun, Eun, Yuri, and Dusik are one of the few people who actually help instead of complaining that the world is ending. You even kept Hyun around for his monsterization. You went as far as manipulating the votes in your favor and did so because you saw something in this stranger yet--" Hyuk interrupted saying, "Yes I did, because Hyun had--" You interrupted him saying, "I'm not finished talking yet. Don't interrupt me. You aren't willing to throw out some guy you just met, calling it 'murder', yet you're so quick to throw me out? After years together? Are you fucking kidding me, Hyuk?"

He stood there, a little stunned now as the realization hit him that this was the first fight you two had in a while. In fact, come to think of it, it was the first fight you guys had ever. A lot of times, the confrontations would defuse as one of the parties would descalate the situation. But right now, Hyuk was unintentionally instigating, and you were being aggressive, which caught him off guard. Of course, he always knew that there was some side to You that can only be shown when pushed far enough. Everyone has a breaking point, after all. He just never imagined himself being the person to push You there. In all honesty, the whole ordeal hurt a lot on both sides. On one hand, You felt as though Hyuk had essentially disregarded your shared pasts, and on the other hand, Hyuk wanted to tell you the truth but he wasn't too sure if now was a good time or not.

Then again... is there ever a good time to confess your love in everyday life? Let alone an apocalypse with your infected lover? There isn't. There is only a better time and a worse time. While the moment was one of the worst times, in a world such as this, you must take whatever time you have because it can easily be the last moment within a few minutes.

With that in mind, he answered.

"I'm sorry. I didn't mean it like that. I kept Hyun around because I figured we could benefit from him. But even then, I don't really enjoy having someone who could become a full-fledged monster any moment. I...never wanted to throw you out."

You glared at him and said, "Well you sure as hell act like you do."

Hyuk was now looking away. His hands tightly grasped the fabric of his pants, and you could see a faint tear streaming down his face. Hyuk was still silent. He wanted to pick and choose his words carefully. He had already made things bad enough. He wanted to tell you the truth, but try his best not to escalate the situation. He took a deep breath and said,

"From when we first met, until now. Our time meant everything to me. It really did. I'm not good with people or emotional stuff, so I'll try my best to explain. Please listen. When I saw your nose bleed, I felt scared. It wasn't the idea of another monster in the room that scared me. It was the idea that you would leave me."

Hyuk glanced up at you and saw that even in the tension filled silence, your face seemed to change a little. It was as if you gave him a silent nod to continue. So he did.

"I don't want to throw you out. I never did. I try to put up this front, and I can't keep doing it, especially when it comes to you. I try to be the logical leader, but it is really hard sometimes, especially in a world such as this and especially when someone you...really, really care for is at stake. You've always mattered to me. You and Eun both. When I told you that we would have to throw you out, that would be if I enforced it. And I wouldn't. I'm in this position where I have to prevent them from taking you away while also trying to show no bias in the group. I know this is a really bad time to say this, but I've always... liked you. I wish I had told you sooner. Maybe then we could have had some special memories before the apocalypse came. Clearly, I'm too late. Seeing your nose bleed reminded me that things can happen fast. So I figured, I should tell you that I love you now. Because in a matter of minutes one of us could go."

You stared at him. You didn't know what to say. You always had feelings for Hyuk. From his nerdy hobbies, to the way he cared for his sister, you loved him a lot but never said anything because you didn't want to risk ruining things or inconveniencing him since he already had work, school, and a little sister to care for. That barrier between fantasy and reality was there and higher than ever. The fantasy of telling him and living happily-ever-after versus the reality of work, school, rent, and so forth was always what kept you from saying it. But now, Hyuk was saying it. So maybe it's time you say something too.

"I always felt that way about you too, Hyuk. I just never said anything since you always carried so much that I didn't want to be a burden."

He laughed a little now, saying, "Nah. The apocalypse is a bigger burden than you telling me how you feel. I mean, not that you're a burden, just... y'know..."

Finally, the tension seeped out of the room, and You smiled, saying, "Yeah. I know. And now that it's the apocalypse, we have nothing to lose!"

Hyuk's smile fell as he replied, "Except each other and Eun." Your smile fell too as You replied, "Yeah, except each other and Eun."

The silence returned. But you couldn't let things end there. You held his hand and said, "Is it okay if I kiss you before I turn?" Hyuk grinned, but You can see the tears creeping around the corner of his eyes as he said, "Yes."

You cupped his cheeks, bringing his lips to yours. You couldn't help but blink away the tears as you thought, "If only this happened sooner..." While You can't wish away the inevitable apocalypse, You did wish the confession came sooner. As Hyuk said, maybe then you guys could have shared some special memories before the fall of mankind. But, it's better late than never, right?

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