#care to join the circle?

[iriemorning]

rayos de sol

solar eclipse glasses are being sold out everywhere last month for people who wanted to witness the biannual meeting of the moon and the sun. it was always marketed for extra eye protection, yes, but for a celestial tryst that only lasts for a few fleeting seconds, why don't we watch the scene in its raw form? as post-modern humans with daily screen times ranging from a quarter to half a day, what are we so afraid of?

...if only people mustered the courage to face the sun from time to time. ever since i pledged myself at the start of the year to embrace my inner solar power, i managed to become more conscious of the sunshine wherever i go, whatever i do.

it was there to give me a thumbs up just before the skies are setting to dusk when i was moving in between dorms, clutching piles of my stuff in a tricycle. i've been hustling and preparing nonstop that week because changing accommodations was a leap of faith to my part, and a big struggle since the academic year had already started. as soon as i saw how beautiful the sunset was, i let out a big, relieved sigh.

it was also there, happily shining on the highways of my neighborhood in its most yellow, dazzling fashion. i took a one-hour joyride in a motorcycle from north to south of the metro to visit my family and i slowly witnessed how the gloomy roads from where i came from transitioned to bright, saturated streets as i got closer to my destination.

it was there to greet me warmly when i got out of the judgment cave at the mountains. i almost got stuck inside because my candle flickered out and i panicked and broke down in tears. but because i'm the first in line, i cannot turn back to the entrance (it's too late and would only cause traffic) and i have to lead the rest of the crew to the way out. i reached my lowest in that dark, narrow tunnel, but i managed to pull through and the first eye contact i did when i got out was with the sun.

it was also there to say hello to me, beaming its proud rays on my glasses and the rest of my face through the big, transparent windows of the train. what a beautiful coincidence back then, being conveniently seated on the side of the train facing the direction where the sun is setting. right at that moment, My Songs Know What You Did in the Dark by Fall Out Boy played on shuffle in my earbuds. every lyric was hitting, while i was having peripheral glimpses of the sun peeking amongst buildings. it's like a scene from a movie.

finally, it was also there to tell me that i'm doing well, shining right on top of me, when i first opened my eyes as i finally managed to float my body on the swimming pool on my own. my friend was kind enough to teach me the basics, but the most important part of floating is just trusting and surrendering yourself to the waters. which was hard, since i almost drowned when i was young. and so i stayed away from big bodies of water since then, sticking to my comfort zone: mountains, where i cant drown. but in that moment, i finally let go of overthinking. it was the calmest i've ever felt, and seeing the sun smiling at me like that, was as close as levitating to the heavens.

it really is the most beautiful and intimate company one can ever have. because everywhere i go, the sun follows. i always acknowledge it whenever i can to let it know that i appreciate it for doing so, even if it burns layers of my retina for the long term. after all, what does simply looking away and wearing sunglasses gonna do to my eyes if it's already damaged from post-modern technological inventions?

alas, isn't love like that as well? to express your affections foolishly even if it chips away some parts of yourself, to devote yourself into the light even if it splits you into two.

[automatonknight]

here's the prick i was talking about^ i have so many thoughts and notes about him but they're mostly incomprehensible so when i organize maybe them i'll post them who knows

[necrotic-nephilim]

How do you think bruce would react to a Robin pile situation?

oooh this is a fun thought. i think it depends *entirely* if you're working with a morally stable Bruce or a Bruce who's a little fucked up and dead dove-ish. somehow, i think it's actually more fun if it's a completely stable Bruce bc that adds so much more drama and issues if Bruce is deeply unsettled by the idea. if it was maybe just Jason and Dick or Jason and Tim dating that's sort of understandable. Bruce knows that while he may see them all as his sons (except Steph bc do know Robin pile will *always* include Steph for me and tbh Cass too as an honorary member. they're all going in the pile.) but he understands that doesn't mean they see each other as brothers. he respects the nuanced and complicated relationships scattered across all of the Batfam.

but if all of them are *dating*? or at the very least sleeping together? that raises a lot of logistical red flags. the most obvious one is the age gap of it all- at the biggest gap you have Damian and Dick who are an easy fifteen years apart, meeting when Damian is a kid. not to mention how many of them have tried to kill each other at some point. it shouldn't work and Bruce doesn't like that it does. Bruce has a history of wanting to control the relationships of the Batkids when he disapproves. and so he'd absolutely try to break them up. at first, he paints it purely as a logistical issue. saying it's smartest not to bring feelings into work and that this is dangerous. i think it's especially fun if this happens at a time when Bruce doesn't approve of Steph or Jason so that *also* plays into it, he doesn't want either of them near the ones he currently considers to be his family. he says he wants to protect them and wants to keep them safe. he tries to appeal to who he thinks would be more logical and listen to him the most. first Dick, and then when that doesn't work, Tim. and when neither of them listen, i *do* think Bruce would stoop to the low of trying to break them up by fabricating internal conflict between them, hoping to divide and conquer the weird polycule it's become.

while i don't think Bruce would be jealous in the sense he wants to be included, i *do* think he's wildly dislike the Robins having this close bond that makes them trust each other implicitly more than they trust Bruce. they will defer to each other before him and clearly keep things from him. he'd despise that. it's an inner circle he's not let in on and it makes him lose aspects of control over some of them, especially Damian who's the youngest and his son, who Bruce deserves the most control over. he would drive himself mad about it. at first for genuine reasons over the perceived fucked up nature of the relationship (even when each of them have confirmed that it is entirely consensual and they're happy) and to protect them. but he becomes so bitter over being ignored. they openly prioritize each other over him when the truth comes out because they see no point in hiding it. and i could definitely see Jason gloating about how he's back in the family whether Bruce likes it or not. Bruce would be beyond pissed about it. he's just never recovering. trying to stop them gets nowhere, even if he manages to cause some internal conflict.

eventually, Bruce would be forced to accept it for fear he would lose all of them. but he's *not* going to be happy about it and he keeps making side comments, hoping to get through to one of them eventually. it doesn't work, but he's definitely not going to stop trying. i also think on some level it would just disgust him a little bit in a visceral way, since they're his kids to him and he doesn't like to picture them in that way. esp when Jason or Steph lean heavily into PDA just to fuck with him. ass grabs, cuddling, sloppy kisses, the whole nine yards. Bruce will not have a moment of peace.

[no-psi-nan]

Clipping my fingernails is my version of putting on my baseball cap on backwards when it comes to writing fanfiction.

[omgserafinablog]

Goodbye forever, my friend.

Lucian & Valentine

When he stands over his former dead friend, once a former brother-in-arms, he thinks he should be happy. Only sadness pierced his heart. He knew, he had long since come to terms with the fact that his friend had died a long time ago, and now there was a monster lying in front of him that was supposed to die. That monster would have killed him and certainly wouldn't have mourned him. But looking at Valentine now, he hardly hates him or rejoices at his death.

Luke kneels down next to Valentin and cannot take his eyes off his pale face, which has lost its rigidity, eternal tension. Now he sees before him again the boy he fell in love with at school and whom he kept in his heart. Even before the creation of the Circle, before the deaths of Oscar Morgenstern and Seraphina. Valentin was the best in the academy, a popular boy from a wealthy family, but he never bragged about it and was not arrogant, which set him apart from other elite students who joked and offended losers like Lucian. Valentin became friends with him. He helped him with his studies. If it wasn't for Valentine…

Lucian hated to remember the times of the Circle, tried to forget about it, but never forgot about the time spent with his friend. Their joint training, numerous adventures, gatherings around the campfire, their jokes and dreams. He remembered their ceremony and how their bond warmed him when he was sick; he remembered how they hunted together as if they were a single organism, and how the parabatai rune burned. Sometimes he missed those feelings, that power, that sacred connection. Lucian remembered how comfortable and peaceful he felt next to Valentine, whom he loved.

Luke sighed, extending his hand to Valentine.

«Is it my fault?» - He whispered.

His friend, whom he fell in love with, was always so cheerful, good-natured, ready to lend a helping hand to anyone who needed it. He was always so confident and strong. He took special care of those he loved. And most of all, he was afraid of losing those he loved.

When his parents died, Lucian had no idea that this loss would break Valentine so much. He was sure that his friend would cope, withstand this blow. In fact, he had no idea that Valentine was so dependent on his father. Valentin himself did not say a word against Oscar. But there were various rumors about his father's cruelty, how harshly he treated him and controlled him. Sometimes Lucian noticed uneven scars on his friend's back, strange wounds and bruises, but Valentine only waved away all questions. Valentin rarely talked about his family at all. Only once, at Oscar's grave, did he mention that he dreamed of becoming the perfect soldier-the way Oscar Morgenstern wanted him to be. How much he wanted his father to be proud of him. He longed for that praise, for his father's pride, but he never got it. His father had turned to dust. And Valentine-his Valentine, a kind and bright boy, died with Oscar. Instead, something hateful and evil appeared, something alien.

Lucian was his parabatai, he was closest to Valentine, but what did he do to help him cope with this change, with this pain? He did not try to lead him away from the edge of the abyss. It took Lucian a moment to realize that he had lost him forever, and when he did, it was too late. Valentine is gone forever. And he hated him for it. He hated him for becoming the one he wanted to rid the world of. A monstrous monster. Completely different. Unrecognizable.

«Yes, my friend, it's my fault. I had too much faith in your powers. I thought people like you didn't break down. I was sure you could handle it. But I was wrong and didn't help.»

Lucian looks into the frozen black eyes, in which there has been no life for a long time, but it seems to him that they are glowing now. He sees his reflection in those eyes.

«I couldn't save you. Did you know that Jocelyn asked me to do this? To protect you from hate. I didn't understand her right away. I thought your hatred was just, and I didn't understand when you overstepped all bounds in your retaliation. I was your parabatai, and I failed. Forgive me and goodbye».

He put a warm palm on the cold, frozen face, which, with its extraordinary softness, reminded him so much of the kind boy from his distant past, and closed his dead eyes.

«Ave atque vale, Shadowhunter»

[gravedigg]

I wanted to assign songs from Angel's Playlist to each year of his timeline, so here's part 1/3

Killing For Love / José González

Demolition Lovers / My Chemical Romance

Lefty / Title Fight

Dig / Nothing

[victoryrifle]

new tumblr scam just dropped

[curi0uscreature]

* All of them are besties btw. To me

[diltonsstrangescience]

I want to cosplay Dilton SO badly, but in order to do that I’d need to have:

A: A friend with me who’s cosplaying Jughead, so that (by virtue of the iconic hat) onlookers might possibly recognize what fandom I’m supposed to be from by association.

(Because really, without context, Dilt is just some random kid with glasses.)

B: Ideally multiple other friends cosplaying other Archie characters, because it wouldn’t really make sense to have a tritagonist like Dilly hanging out with Jug, but not The Actual Archie. (And really the whole theme works best with a big group, I’m sure.)

C: An actual place to cosplay at, like, I don’t know, a comic con or something. I have never been to one, and have no plans to go to one, so that’s a bit of a moot point right now. And a comic con is sort of the only place with enough of a payoff for this particular cosplay theme.

Because if I’m not recognized as Dilton, then I’m basically just wearing normal, slightly dated clothes at a time when I could have been wearing something awesome, like a medieval gown or superhero armor or a pirate outfit.

Half the fun of becoming a character is getting to be that character for other people as well. As much as I want to cosplay just for myself, if I’m not recognized at all, it sort of doesn’t feel worth it…

Unfortunately my interests skew towards the obscure.

[tenteetwo]

New OEC teaser

this is probably gonna be superrrr nonsensical but I really love loona lore so i’m just gonna waffle about it here.

Someone else has already pointed it out but the new OEC colours are similar to the CMY colour model.

OEC were previously based on the primary colours - with Kim Lip as Red, Jinsoul as Blue and Hyunjin as Yellow. Hyunjin was originally going to be part of OEC but gave up her colour, so Jinsoul and Kim Lip make Choerry (Red + Blue = Purple) to replace her. However, in the new teaser their colours have changed to Kim Lip being pink, Jinsoul is now yellow and Choerry is cyan. Just like a CYM model.

The colours aren’t exactly spot on but Loonaverse lore never really is on the nose so whatever. Kim Lip being pink rather than magenta could be explained as pink can considered a shade of magenta. Both Jinsoul and Kim Lip’s colours are paler than as seen on a CMY colour model. I think this could be due to the fact that they seem to be without their powers, which was theorised during earlier teasers. Unlike the other two, Choerry’s colour is more spot on.

I also want to add that with this new colour wheel Choerry is no longer a mixture of Kim lip and Jinsoul, but instead a primary.

With this considered, it could point towards Choerry becoming stronger and growing into her role as a member of OEC.

Choerry is also the only member holding a diamond and covering her odd eye. The diamond may possibly be reference to Haseul, who had a common diamond motif in Let me in. This isn’t too far fetched to believe as Haseul has signed with Modhaus, so it would make sense to include her in the lore. (Choerry also wears diamond earrings in LCM so there is already a link between the two, this isn’t just a one off). Other than that im not too sure as to what the diamond could symbolise.

She’s also wearing a mobius strip earring. Flip that seemed to be leading towards the girl’s escaping the loop but maybe flipping the strip didn’t free them at all?

From here onwards I’m just gonna be completely waffling

Moving on I also want to point out that it seems like Modhaus is following the lore where Flip that left off, due to the use of inverted colours.

We know from Flip that’s intro that the colours have been inverted.

Using this we can see that OEC’s colours should be something similar to this:

These colours appeared in the teaser video so it’s safe to assume Modhaus isn’t abandoning the inverted/flipped colours.

Cyan and yellow are in this palette, but green is present instead of magenta. Additionally, Kim Lip is the one who should be cyan, not Choerry. So the inverted colours are still present (minus green), but just mismatched.

The closest we get to magenta with the inverted colours are Gowon and Haseul.

For now I’m just going to assume Kim lip is taking on Haseul’s colour. I’ve also seen a couple theories circulating about how the two parallel each other so this would make sense. (Heejin and Gowon’s colours are like perfect inverts of eachother so I think if #that man may be saving Heejin’s colour lore for if he ever gets Gowon to sign.)

There’s also been theories about Jinsoul stealing Hyunjin’s colour in order to take on yellow but I don’t think that’s the case. I actually think Choerry is stealing Hyunjin’s colour. If you look back at the image above Hyunjin’s original colour inverts into blue (it’s not cyan but do i gaf). Choerry may be adopting her role as Hyunjin’s ‘replacement’ completely, which would make sense as she’s become a primary now.

Ok I’m done now I can’t really think of anything else to ramble about. I mean there’s Jinsoul’s image but she already said on Fab that the mist means nothing she just thought it looked cool 😭

In conclusion Choerry is gonna play a more major role, Haseul plays an important role and has ties with OEC, the colours are fucked up and they might not be free from the loop..? Or im wrong about everything but wtv writing this was fun.

[carnivalls]

congratulations on graduating!

ah thank you!! feels like i just blinked and then 4 years passed and i was on a stage

[jikigo]

you ever just see a post and just

. 😭

.⬅️🫀⬅️

[bouillefriend]

Love asking a friend if they wanna go to an event, getting told theyre too tired, so i dont go, then seeing them post about how the event was. In a discord group i invited them to.

[icelogged]

something that will always get me about humans is our relationship to the past. many of the earliest surviving works lament the, “olden days” “the good ol’ days” “yesteryears past” “when” “when it was different”… it’s all so beautiful in its tragedy

[marshmellowtea]

not to hop back on the discourse train for a bit with a related topic but another good reason to give up on punishment based justice and start focus your efforts on helping those affected is that like……the way the world is set up now, a lot of bad people are just not going to be punished or suffer the way you think they should for their actions, because they’re just too powerful and disconnected from the rest of us. a lot of them are also never going to be sorry for the harm they caused. i’m thinking especially billionaires and celebrities here, but even quote-unquote “run of the mill” abusers can be very good at tricking people into being on their side, that’s part of what makes abuse so insidious and often hard to catch, after all.

and it sucks! it really sucks that people who hurt people, even people who hurt loads and loads of people, will probably never face justice for it. if you focus too hard on that, of course you’re going to get burnt out and angry and hopeless, because there isn’t much, if anything at all, you can do about it. but that’s why it’s better to focus on the things you can do, and try to approach activism and justice with compassion in mind. i know people hate it when people say this—and that’s for good reason, a lot of times people say this to shut down justified rage, which isn’t fair at all—but i do think there’s some truth to the idea that you can’t fight hate with hate. at the very least, you can’t fight hate with just hate. you have to care about the people who are suffering too, otherwise you’re gonna to majorly miss the damn point of it all.

[j00stkl31n]

Oooh I feel sorry for you that you had to go through that nobody deserves that shit from anybody:(

It def sucked but it was a good learning experience at the very least. I’ve left it valuing myself much more and knowing what I need and want/require in a romantic partner. And it’s not like everything was bad. There was a lot of good. It’s just all that stuck out is the bad and I literally refused to acknowledge until a month and a half ago. And I’m just now seeing how shitty things fully were. I still had my fun tho and don’t fully regret being with them. I just regret not dumping them sooner honestly :/

Hate to admit it but mom was right, they didn’t treat me well and I deserve much better than what I had