#cantsaygoodbye

[bossladykei]

Can't Say Goodbye by Eden Finley

My current read. Hopefully be finished with this one soon! I’ve been slacking!!! Book Review: ***Spoilers here and there*** I’m a be honest I didn’t really like this one as I thought I might would. Especially with me couldn’t wait for it to come out so I can read it. It really wasn’t for me; but I’m glad I did read it in the end. Because I wanted to see how Brady found his persons. How they…

[nrhartauthor]

Goodbye. “Such an impossible word…” Poetry and Pearls II , an Autumn Season © 2015 @n.r.hart Poetry and Pearls II on sale now✨ pick up your copy today! #soulmate #twinflame #cantsaygoodbye • Poetry and Pearls I & II 🌸 paperbacks in full color 🌈 including all my original floral posters divided into the four seasons Winter Spring Summer Autumn because I feel there are seasons of the heart too. Including all your favorites! My Beauty and the Beast, Twin Flame & Soulmate poetry. These books are beautiful works of art. 🍃🍃🍃 Love Poems to No One & Beauty and her Beast 👑 beautiful rose floral hard covers in black divided into the four seasons Winter Spring Summer Autumn with all my original floral posters in black & white. These books are the perfect little size to carry with you everywhere 📚📚📚 • 👉🏻 If you have pictures of my books please tag me. I love seeing where my books end up around the world 🌎 Thank you! Love, N.R.Hart ❤️ • Signed copies now on @etsy visit @NRHartAuthor ✨ All my books are available @amazon @barnesandnoble worldwide link in bio. Thank you for sharing my words each day and buying my books. ❤️ #nrhart #poetryandpearls #poetryandpearls2 #lovepoemstonoone #beautyandherbeast #romanticpoetry #poetry (at Los Angeles, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/CTiG2D0lAwP/?utm_medium=tumblr

[a-piece-of-the-puzzle]

Writing again

I started writing last night, I was starting a letter like I used to. Everything open honesty everything spilled out, but now I have no way to reach you, but I saw it

"I loved you and you left me. You don't get to drag me up from your memory everytime you want someone to feel sorry for you. I would have married you I would have had kids with you like you said you wanted but you never gave me that chance. I loved you so fucking much and you didn't even stick around to stay freinds. So don't guilt trip me for moving on."

I saw that and theres so many things I need to say, I wish I ignored everyone and rang you, I’d rather the passion that I had than the silence, the crying, you to scream at me, anything, anything but what I’ve subjected myself to.

Do I write it regardless? I always thought you used to burn my letters but you told me you kept them. I wrote weekly for a year and you kept every one.

Would your mother see? She’d keep you away from me.

Would you cut the head from every flower if I sent them.

If I sat at the end of your road would you come, or would I make it worse like I always did, I never made a right move did I

Even now I’m making it harder, for you and for me.

Theres no one in the entire bloody world like you

No matter how fucking bad it got, from the new years you screamed how much you wanted you wanted to kill yourself, where you rang in front of the cars, you tried to run into the sea to drown, where you threw up on yourself, to the halloween party to thew so many laxatives and weightloss pills down your thoat and made yourself thow up over and over and told me how much you thought about the bleach, to the days where the black figure clouded everything you did. I fucking loved all of it, the bonfires to curb the days to rang me wanting to burn the house down sitting by the curtain flame alight, to the glass bottles I saved and stole so you could smash them all, to waking up in bed to you cutting yourself beside me, I fucking loved you through all of it, 

and I’m sorry

I’m sorry I let you down

I’m sorry I couldn’t help make you better

I’m sorry I couldnt come with you to uni

I’m sorry I got jellous when you got with someone else, 

I’m sorry I couldn’t stop you sleeping with all those ment to try and feel the void where love should be and not pain and anger

I’m sorry I pushed you away too

And I’m sorry when things got hard for me I cut the people out who mattered the most, so, that meant you

I left myself with no one back then, no one but me

and I’m sorry if you felt rejected and alone

but you fucking know every letter I wrote you, that every single fucking day I’ve thought about you since we dated back in 2013, but you never wanted me back, and you never wanted my friendship more than once a month or two, you just didnt seem to care anymore but jesus christ you never could see that I was hurting too, that I always will be, weather we speak for the rest of our lives or not.

Ever person I’ve ever loved I will never be over you, and you were the first, the hardest, but the one I knew the most, so that will always hurt the most.

I feel if I move on and let you go that I loose you and I loose all the good memories too and I can’t do that. I will love again but there will always be a space and a mark made by you.

Like there will always be one Bryony made

There will always be one Marta made

but we’re human we will always love again

We went through so fucking much, 

[lizziecable]

Life Support

You have been on life support since I’ve known you but technically your heart attack was yesterday morning April 24th.  I know because oddly I’ve been wearing the ring you gave me for two weeks.  And oddly I just happened to call your mom yesterday.  She was on her way to Oregon from Minnesota.  By now a lot of people know that you are at the end but I was pretty early in knowing.  I imagine it’s because you love me.  You’ve loved me a long time.  But here I sit with a yellow candle not wanting to know that Chase is deemed the one to take away the electricity from making your heart beat and your lungs breathe in and out.  Your heart is tired.  It just couldn’t keep going.  You demanded a lot from your heart.

I am realizing how disconnected from people I have been. Especially now during the age of Covid19.  At first I was glad I had Facebook.  But all the same problems with heartless conjecturing of politics and conspiracies were still alive and well and propagating at a rapid pace.  You never did like Facebook.  But it was the reason that we became friends again after so many years.  Tami got in touch with me and told me you were trying to add me as a friend.  I think I’d said no to you a couple times because I honestly didn’t remember you by your full name.

So it was going off Facebook this most recent time this past week that woke me up to my old address book.  I decided to get a new one and transfer names from one to the other in the process of leaving behind and grasping on and as I went through my book I came upon your mom’s name.  I wondered if she was still living so I gave the number a call and left a message.  This was yesterday just after your heart attack.  I just found out about some of the details of how all of this began unfolding.  Anyway, she thought I was someone from the hospital so she answered.  She was driving from Minnesota to get here to try to grasp you and keep you here Chuck.  I just happened to call her.  It was about 11 am.

No matter what I think, say or do right now nothing feels like it matters. There is an emptiness to my heart right now.  Time to put on some music. So this is our album.  

Our album: Rikki Lee Jones. Her first album. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hAvHwV_pDNo&list=PLTIb4fKCEAevye8E5UTN8boXbA4RWHcOm

You probably never knew that.  Although if you listened to the whole thing you would know why. Kids teased us when that song came on. I wish I could tell you that all this and remind you.  I wish it would matter to you but even if I told you two weeks ago it wouldn’t have made any difference.  Our time together was over even though I really tried to keep us alive together.  So much kept us a part.  And now my heart is aching in my chest.  I worry that you are going to take me with you.  When Chase unplugs your lifeline my heart will break and I will go to and then we’ll know we really were meant to be together.  I imagine you will die without me though.  

I met you when I was fourteen.  That means the year was 1981.  It was early summer.  My dad and your step dad were friends.  Bob and Bob.  Laugh out loud.  I remember that they lived together before your Lois mom married him.  Bob taught my dad how to make latkes or potato pancakes.  I should have written all this before you had your heart attack.  I know you would love to know how much I love you.  It always amazed you how much I loved you.

[fucksams-blog]

[alynnvivre]

I tried to minimize my bookcase. But really I just stacked them to the left. #booksaremylife #readmorebooks #cantsaygoodbye

[letuslieinadaydream]

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[lovedreamgraphics]

therampagefext: 100degrees 本日、店着日 皆さん是非チェックお願い致します 既に手に取って下さった方も、まだの方も、いつもありがとうございます 川村壱馬 #THERAMPAGE #100degrees #CantSayGoodbye #DREAMYELL

[bossladykei]

My current read. Hopefully be finished with this one soon! I’ve been slacking!!! #bookstagram #readingnook #nookbooks #nookreader #nookreadersofinstagram #ebooks #epubbooks #cantsaygoodbye #edenfinleyauthor #edenfinley #mmromance #gayromance #playbooks #googleplaybooks #shenanigans #kindle #kindleunlimited #sportsagent #books #sealmen #navyseals #kindleapp https://www.instagram.com/p/CoYBuKeuIPN/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[joyffree]

CAN'T SAY GOODBYE by Eden Finley Release Date: January 25, 2023 Cover Design: Natasha Snow Designs Photo: Wander Aguiar Photography Models: Jacob, Patrick & Scott Genre: MMM Romance Trope: Military romance, pining, long distance

BRADY

Our quick hellos are followed by drawn out goodbyes.

What started out as one fun night turned into a regular thing none of us ever planned for.

I can’t walk away from Kit and Prescott. Kit is the stern nurturer I need. He’s the caretaker, the solid presence. Prescott enables my wild ways. He’s someone I can have fun with. They couldn’t be more perfect for me.

But come graduation, I have to move across the country, and geography isn’t our only obstacle. Being in a relationship with two men isn’t good for my public image, my brother’s NFL career, or the media frenzy that surrounds my famously queer family.

We have a plan to meet up once a year, but with every reunion, every brief visit, we fall deeper.

There has to be a breaking point, something that will end it for us, or soon it will be impossible to say goodbye at all.

[nrhartauthor]

A shout out to @wordables birthing these amazing quotes from my poems✨ Thank you! @n.r.hart #nrhart #nrhartquotes #nrhartpoetry #beautifulthings #lovequote #lovepoetry #romanticpoetry #romanceisnotdead #soulmate #twinflame #poets #instapoet #poetsofig #poetry #art #românce #souls #soullove #inked #quotesofig #cantsaygoodbye

[jilliannbeck-bryant]

Fresh Friday! Last week or so to go to Truffle Hunter before it closes! 😭😭😭 They use fresh ingredients, have best recipes/menu/cook on the planet and very friendly service. Super busy right now since announcing closing but worth every min of waiting time! We actually got pretty quick service tonight... pleasantly surprised. Any way we could all petition to keep it open? Start a GoFundMe and buy it? Lol Thanks for date night, nana! Btw, anyone know where this place originated? Is it considered French cuisine? German? Russian? American? English? #closing #sad #oneofourfirstdates #wayback #gofundme #petition #keepitopen #begging #praying #yummy #ingredients #foodie #wherediditcomefrom #original #owners #fam #datenight #nanaisthebest #gresham #downtown #historic #shouldbeamonument #almostcried #cantsaygoodbye #good #homestyle #cooking #restaurant #startafoodtruck #memories (at Truffle Hunter) https://www.instagram.com/p/B0Hw_8GlX5Y/?igshid=674g0vorhaey

[lordblade]

#Congratulations to the Big Boss Dog @SnoopDogg .. Finally the well deserved Star on #WalkOfFame .. #CantSayGoodBye .. #Legendary

#Congratulations to the Big Boss Dog @SnoopDogg .. Finally the well deserved Star on #WalkOfFame .. #CantSayGoodBye .. #Legendary

— Lord Blade (@LordBlade) June 23, 2017

from Twitter https://twitter.com/LordBlade June 23, 2017 at 03:28PM via IFTTT

[oaksided-blog]

I try to say goodbye and I choke, Try to walk away and I stumble, Though I try to hide it it's clear, My world crumbles when you are not here

Macy Gray (I Try)

[princesiitaa]

#carhartt #carharttwip #store #workinprogress #weilicheuchvermissenwerde #goodbye #cantsaygoodbye #potd #lovethem #crewlove #ottos #poser #köln #germany #kingwirdzerquetscht #foto #yesterday #allmytroublesseemedsofaraway (em Cologne, Germany)

[nrhartauthor]

hello goodbye ❤️ no matter how hard I try #nrhart #nrhartpoetry #nrhartquotes🌼🍃 #cantsaygoodbye