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IM BACK!!
I've finally returned to the world of the living as I have graduated from college to become a free artist and again be a member of the Snowbaird society!! Ć²0Ć³ Canāt believe it myself if I'm quite honest
But yes the last three months I was heavily busy with my final projects and could only occasionally post content, The capitol and District AU suffered more from it as I like to plan every artwork through with lore and details.
Thank you @burntblueberrywaffles for making me a masterlist as my now official wiki page, dear lord gods work
But one good thing came from it, the GOOSEY GRAY AU! One of the greatest things the tbosas fandom has ever witnessed donāt deny it u know itās true. The silly goose and her duckie husband will stick around! šŖæ
I have also been working on a three-chapter one shot called āØ Deep in the Meadow āØ based on the three-part artwork of Clementine and the Fireflies, getting supported and coached by my silly little author Fwiendo @spoomed there will be lots of momma Lucy Gray and clementine content and a dive into their relationship!! coryo is also allowed to be there if he behaves and eats his veggies
But before that comes to be here a handful sneak peek of what is to come! āØ
Last Important Note
I will be posting for the Snowbaird smut week in August, Iām gonna be properly tagging the content so that the people who donāt want to see it, donāt have to ^^ For everyone who is looking forward to it, I got some things cooking up! Every AU of mine (except Goosey Gray) will be included! š„š¹
Until then Seeeee yaaa!!
#tbosas#snowbaird#the ballad of songbirds and snakes#thg tbosas#lucy gray baird#coriolanus snow#the hunger games#hunger games#cant wait to show everything!!!#IM REALLY EXCITED#At some point Iām also thinking of opening my commissions#SOME POINT#also been thinking since sunrise on the reaping has been announced to being it into the AUs as well next year Ć²wĆ³#It would be interesting for LG and Haymitch to interact even when she is not his mentor#so many plans#Ć²0Ć³#alternate universe#thg
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today i learned their ship name is chefās kiss. im going to scream
#quaiids#the bear#the bear hulu#as a culinary student / line cook i really really do love this show#it genuinely means everything to me#and THEY. (points to carmy and syd) mean everything to me#chefās kiss#sydcarmy#THE SLOW BURN IS SLOW BURNING#AND IT HURTTTSSS#cant wait until season 17 when they brush handsāŗļø#the bear fanart#carmen berzatto#sydney adamu
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What if the one and only time Bill got let out of the theraprism was to say goodbye to Ford when he passed away.
#billford#book of bill spoilers#tbob#like bill is immortal right#'ive got all the time in the universe to wait'#yeah but Ford doesn't#just bill hearing that hes on his deathbed and begging to go see him#and the docxolotl agrees#so bill goes to ford to say goodbye#but realizes he cant do it#how can he show himself after everything?#so he invisibly kisses fords forehead and says goodbye#and ford senses him and smiles#whispers 'goodbye muse' or something similiar#and passes#and bill shatters completely
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yay! I drew these quite literally three years ago. dragonheart!milo and raihan! a knight on a doomed dragon hunt being lifted out of his station by a small village medicine man. together they become magic lawyers and overthrow the government
the main details in these do survive into the iterations Iāve drawn (instead of these actual designs I spent time to make el oh el): the āleafā diamond quilt/gambeson and the plaited coattail for milo, the āatypicalā weapons, long coat, and large number of scattered fake gold trims and accessories for raihan. I think I lost raihan the hat and added a cape for milo further down the line because like this their general silhouettes are too similar for my liking lol
#pokemon#swsh#applinshipping#dragonheart AU#gym leader raihan#gym leader milo#leon is the puppet king in this one (I never made a design for him lol. lmao) (its not about him!!!!) (it is just a tiny bit#sonia actually disappeared out to sea like just the year before raihan got sent off too. and the shows up where raihan and milo are later on#as usual the everything between those three are messy in a way that makes every one of them embarrassed to bring it up lmao#if u remember one of the october pieces I did last year. the applinshipping one. yeap thats from this AU too#lmao. also remembering the swordsman AU. in every AU where I bring up a king you can TELL I cant WAIT to get rid of that guy#(its usually leon)#anyways it's not about him this is about raihan and milo!!! iirc everyone in the village knows milo is Something. bc he has literally not#aged at all for four generations#he's like doing his therapy away from the dragon hierarchy out here and raihan crash lands nearby#laughs this is so hallmark movie romance I just realized. except the city girl is trying to#extract her family from the palace before stealing the declaration of independence#oh yeah the AU is named that Specifically because the 'artifact' the whole plot runs around is supposedly a 'calcified' heart of a dragon#and the magic lawyer part is so raihan will seize the right to the throne by haha. winning a living dragon's heart instead#I'm actually surprised I remember this much abt this AU lmao it's literally been three years! I don't even remember what Im#supposed to do tomorrow#it's gettign a USB stick isnt it. Im doin a canadian horror triple feature with the senpai#I gotta remember that. well I remember This so. maybe there's a chance#man there are actually a number of applinshipping things I wanna draw... theyre my Fuckin BoyS#well! there's this at least. have a good night lads! I'll have cake soon#it's time to put cinnamon in things.
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I'm pleasantly surprised with how much I enjoyed first episode.
Like I know, we were so excited, but I had my doubts..
But OMG I love it.
I might have been worried, because I think First and Khaotung have the ability to outshine others on screen. Both with acting and their chemistry.
So I'm really impressed with Jong and Dunk. I can't wait to see more of them š„¹
I needed something to shut my brain, after work so I think this show is perfect for that š«”
Also what THE FUCK HAPPENED TO FIRST š„µ
Ah.. ofc I didn't forget about tattoos.. the ones on his arms are not that bad.. but that thing on his chest..
At one point it was peeling, like those temporary tattoos, that you got in a bag of chips š
#the heart killers#first kanaphan#khaotung thanawat#joong archen#dunk natachai#also love that older boys look older#i love everything about this show#fadel being suspicious and grumpy#style dancing his problems away#bison being babygirl with cute outfits#kant with his pathetic tattoos#i cant wait for next wednesday
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Subtitles below the keep reading:
Hey you, shut your mouth and look at my paw! DON'T FORGET!! [Incomprehensible sped up gibberish] This... Journey... Money... Loads of coins. [Incomprehensible sped up gibberish] What-about-her? What-about-her? ... What-about-her? 'She still like me? [Quiet but mostly incomprehensible gibberish about subtitles] O P S O P N O-1 1. Here's the spell: Love the mermaid, for sure! The mermaid is HAPPY! Okay! It's pretty normal for a fish, right? Guuuyyyssss, beeeee caaarefuuulll wiiiiith theeee GIIIIIRRRRLSSS!!! [Incomprehensible] Oh! Silly! Oh yes! Lamb chop boy! [Incomprehensible] [Very quietly, while white noise is playing over it] Goood eevening, aand weeelcome too the shoooowww... [In the background] Ohhh, mooney!
#video#elevenlabs#i generated three versions of this video and basically spliced together the best parts from each one into one thing#and also toned down the flashing of the red and white pound signs to be a lot slower#i'm honestly surprised how well everything spliced together. i was expecting it to be even a little bit noticeable but. nope apparently not#i did a few generations of meet the spy's intro and tried to splice together the best bits but theres just so much happening with the audio#there's a lot of funny portions of that audio. maybe i'll try again at it and see if i cant get the parts i like in one thing#truthfully i also don't know how much folks'll like these. as in compared to around the time the infomaniac stuff was made#so i'm not sure how much of these i'll be putting together and uploading. mostly just been fucking around and showing my friends#i'm mostly just intrigued to hear what the ai tries to say with some of these generations#since it's just trying to translate from one language to another#in this case. providing videos in english. and setting the translation from russian to english.#which seems to be the best thing so far (that i've tried) that causes more of the words being said to be off-script#like it'll usually most be like whats originally being said mostly but other times it's completely different from the source#i think this dub shows it best. between ''hey you. shut your mouth and look at my paw!'' and ''love the mermaid. the mermaid is happy!!''#i am also officially out of characters to generate more so i won't really be doing more than what i've already done for a while#i wanted to try and give it a video that plays backwards. flip that. then let it dub over it forwards.#but i'd have to wait until i get the character limit reset
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no you donāt understand. if i watch the last ep of we are, that means itās the last time tan and fang will be on my screen, and i honestly donāt think i can continue living after that
#like you really donāt understand#as an aouboom stan from the first moments of a possible ship in viceversa#like look at my icon I literally made it my everything#having to go through all these side couple characters that just didnāt hit right#to finally get tan and fang#it wasnāt just a blessing it was like the fates aligned and every single wish Iāve ever made came true#it was more perfect than I couldāve ever imagined#like aouboom just are these characters for me#and as much as I canāt wait to see them in more stuff and hope for a main role show for them#in some way it just wonāt ever match what tan and fang is#aou and boom fit these characters so perfectly they play them so well and the dynamic is both my personal favourite thing ever and also just#so perfect like I could write for days just trying to convey how every seemingly unimportant detail of this dynamic makes it pure perfection#I JUST DONT WANNA GIVE THEM UP#I CANT LET GO#give me the tanfang soap opera where I just watch every week of their life in all its mundane yet beautiful glory#I would tune in every week until the end of days#we are#tanfang#aouboom
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WARNING : guy saying there opinion about a certain subject!!! do not take these seriously!! some of the stuff I say are based on my memories and I have the memory of a 1 month goldfish!!!
this discusses Keiko Yukimura and how cool she is and how she and Kuwabara should get more attention and how cool and epic they are
THESE CONTAIN SPOILERS (season 4, Makai Tournament and 3 Chapter Blackspecifically) GO WATCH YU YU HAKUSHO IF U HAVENT!!!! GO!! GO!!!!
why keiko and kuwabara r cool n awesome under cut v!!!
keiko deserve better and to beat yusuke stinky ass im so frustrated about the epilogue even til today im so mad Keiko literally deserved better she shouldāve gotten what she wantedĀ
i will FOREVER be upset with how Keiko was handled in the epilogue and in general because all she is/was written as was someone who should endearingly yell āoh yusuke!!ā and fall into his arms and swoon for him (which happened countless times in the shows 4 seasons) but sheās SO much more and I wanna talk about it.Ā
Keiko generally cares for yusuke and theyāve been friends literally since they were kids, sheās the only one that actually looks deep into yusuke and see that he DOES care and he isnāt a douchebag and he just acts like a little stinker, sheās the only one that actually bothers to ātake careā of him and look out for his well being in the anime because nobody else will (yusukeās mom is more prominent figure in the manga especially in the dark tournament arc). She was HAULING ASS in season 1 because she was the only one that was willing to run into a BURNING building Ā to save Yusuke, and Kuwabara was also the only one to run after Keiko inside the house to save her and Yusuke, and she called EVERYONE out on itā she took matters into her own hands and sheās a queen 4 that ā¤ļøā¤ļø
Kuwabara was also the only one that was determined enough to actually befriend Yusuke too, Kuwabara said himself that āit was never about winningā he just wanted Yusuke to stop being a lone wolf and join the pack.Ā
Keiko literally wanted Yusuke to stop being a uraMESS and get his life together, Kuwabara and Keiko are literally his cheerleaders trying to actually get him on the right track and do something instead of being laid back, (Thatās why those two weāre able to get into a good highschool, Shizuru even said that Kuwabara needed to work hard if he wanted to go to a good highschool, Kuwabara maybe be clumsy and silly but heās a smart cookie too.) Kuwabara wanted Yusuke to actually defeat Toguro so he faked his death, Keiko was literally graying during the whole tournament too because she was so worried he was going to die.Ā
And then Chapter Black and the Makai Tournament Ā happen.Ā
These Ā two RUINED me, i will never recover from them especially when Kuwabara was having a meltdown during the Yusuke and Sensui fight.Ā
keep in mind:Ā
Kuwabara and Keiko were two out of Yusukeās mom and that principal that were genuinely distraught over Yusuke death, crying and screaming Keiko fell to her KNEES and sobbed.
And they were also the only two that were actually PISSED OFF about Yusuke leaving, especially Kuwabara because Yusuke DIED right in front of Kuwabara and all of a sudden now heās alive but then heās leaving?? For 3 YEARS to go to demon world?? Kuwabara had every right to be upset and so did Keiko.
You can tell at this point Keiko was exhausted, Kuwabara was fuming and both were sick of Yusuke shenanigans Keiko was drained at this point, it was emotionally draining her and you can tell when she said āYusukeā¦I donāt think my new boyfriendā¦will like that,ā (i forgot but I think thatās how it went)Ā
And then now theyāre both told to WAIT 3 YEARS??? (keiko specifically)Ā
this is where the writing didnāt make sense to me but made the scene where everyone was at the beach so impactful because you can tell Keiko has reached her limit and finally had enough when she yells, all her anger, her exhaustion, ļæ½ļæ½ļæ½Itās time to get what I wantāĀ
but then suddenly Yusuke comes back and it turns into a romantic moment???
Yusuke put Keiko through hell and back and you can see that she wasnāt starting to brush it off her shoulder, it was WEIGHING her down especially if it was getting into her own life and what she wanted to do.Ā
yusuke goes through character development to become less iof a delinquent bad boy guy throughout the series yes but I feel like itād be more impactful if Keiko actually broke it off with Yusuke because it would give him the realization of that his action affect other people emotionally/mentally and not just himself physically.Ā
anyways i think they should beat yusuke with hammersĀ
#WAIT šļø#this isnāt saying you cant ship kuwameshi or murameshi (whatever keiko x yusuke is)#im super up in arms about shipping as long as itās not weird (example: incest is a no no and if you like that stuff DNI)#i just genuinely think keiko couldāve been written a teensy bit better especially given dialogue and other things throughout the season#that showed how she wanted to move on n everything but my little peanut brain probably got thinks mixed up so dont take these 2 heart!!!!!#i had to get this off my chest#idk if I should tag this#uhm#keiko yukimura#yyh keiko#yu yu hakusho#yyh#also shoutout to the va kuwabara and keikos va carried the entire show
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rehyperfixating on a childrenās game that came out in 2015, is one of the least popular entries in its series, and has minimal content, the vast majority of which iāve seen before. the series has been dead for nearly 10 years, nothing has happened recently that would warrant anyoneās returning interest in it, very few of my friends give a shit about this specific game, and those few who played and liked it in the past have no reason to give a shit about it at all right now. i have been coasting through on a playthrough iāve been doing with a friend whoād never seen the game before and who was kind enough to let me show it to them, but we just beat the game, and after we play the epilogue we will have nothing left to do, and on top of that they really have just been humoring me as they have their own very strong current hyperfixation they would much rather be thinking about. also i am depressed enough right now that literally nothing else except for waiting to play this game with them and playing this game with them and watching them enjoy it at least a little has been able to briefly quiet the constant cacophony in my head screaming how much of a worthless, lazy, constantly-failing miserable excuse for a living person i am and how much better everything would be, especially for myself, if i stopped existing lately. would anyone like to volunteer to šØš„āļøKill Me With HammersšØš„āļø because i would really like for someone to šØš„āļøKill Me With HammersšØš„āļø right now
#me.txt#delete ltr#and i like hearing my friends talk about and show me their interests but it isnt enoughhhh its not enough right now to make my head SHUT UP#right now the only thing that can give me energy is a hyperfixation like this#but with enough content and engagement from others to keep subsisting me without hitting a wall#SOMETHING THAT IS EXTREMELY DIFFICULT TO DO WHEN YOU CANNOT DRAW OR WRITEā¼ļøā¼ļøā¼ļøā¼ļøā¼ļøā¼ļøā¼ļø#BECAUSE WHEN NOBODY IS MAKING ANYTHING!!!!! AND YOU CANT MAKE ANYTHING FOR YOURSELF!!!!!!!!! ALL YOU CAN DO IS CURL UP AND STARVEā¼ļøā¼ļøā¼ļøā¼ļøā¼ļøā¼#immmm so sick of the only thing that makes being alive feel worth it being hyperfixations theres nothing REAL tying me down i cant stand it#because i am!! too broken!!!! to ever achieve any of the things that WOULD give me a real solid tangible reason to keep living!!!!!!#like a stable job!!!! a place of my own!!! a partner whos dedicated to me above everyone else and me to them in return!!!!!!!#a LIFE that isnt just constantly failing over and over and waiting for the shoe to drop and to lose everything all over again!!!!!!!!!!!!#i dont have that!!! and i cant have that!!!!! because im too broken to be able to cultivate and maintain it!!!!!#and the only way. to fix myself enough to be able to do so.#would be to HAVE ENOUGH STABILITY THAT ID HAVE THE TIME AND ENERGY TO PUT INTO FIXING MYSELF AND HEALING#i cant fix myself without stability and freedom. and i cant get stability and freedom unless iām fixed#so it is. literally impossible!!!!!!!#impossible to create my own concrete solid reason to be here.#impossible for me to even create anything to feed the fixations that are my backup reasons.#theres nothing!! nothing!!! i have nothing new to leap to and ive been dwindling for too long and i think i am about to drown#im just waiting for time to tick out. for me to fuck up too badly to come back from one last time and get found out and punished.#and then? theres nothing left. theres literally nothing else left for me
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āShe had no magic to wield, save for the keen eyes of the goddess at her shoulder and an uncanny ability to remain unnoticed, to play into expectations.ā
#Chapter 23#Kingdom of Ash#Sarah J. Maas#Lorcan Salvaterre#Elide Lochan#Elorcan#no spoilers please first read to read along with me#more notes quotes annotations & reacts in the tags spoilers for the chapter & book in post & tags of course pt 2 of 4 perspectives#Lorcan had never felt the weight of the hours so heavily upon him-I FEEL IT 2poor Rowan must feel this 247HURRY whereās Elide?hold on Aelin!#And to send Elide into Maeve's clutches--it had taken all of his will to let her walk away.š#If Elide was captured if she was found out he wouldn't hear of it know of it. ā youād know cause sheās your mate idiot (I love you idiot#without proving their worth they could still visit--briefly. ā ugh Maeve why does everything about you suck so much#If she emerged. ā COME ON ELIDE ā I CANT HANDLE ANOTHER CAIRN-NAPPING#the Prince of the North and the Lion the protector and the ever impatient in love idiot we all love Lorcan#He knew some of them. Had commanded them. Were they now his enemy? ā they are all having some inner morality battles#What manner of birds? Raptors mostly ā none from the House of Whitethorn ā they fought for him on the other bordersā¦ for herš„¹šthem#why so many guards if no Aelin hmm???? SHES HERE GUYS#though Gavriel kept glancing to the tattoos inked on his hands. How many more lives would he need to add before they were through?#Aelin had been trained to endure torture. Elide... He could see those scars on her from the shackles. ā how about we save them both?šš¤#She had endured too much suffering and terror already. He couldn't allow her to face another heartbeat of it--#Rowan and his random hatchet nowš
š itās giving my wife is gone unhinged in the woods with the bros might become a horror movie vibes#But then a two-note whistle echoed and Lorcan's legs wobbled so violently he sat back onto the rock where he'd been perched-OH MY ELORCANšš¤#also Lorcanā¦ perched??? isnāt that bird boy Rowanās thing?š
šš¤£#her cheeks rosy in the cool night air. ā cheeks pink in the twinkling lights tell me bout the first time you saw me (shipping in insanity)#She was fine. She was unhurt. There was no enemy on her tail. Elide's eyes met his. Wary and uncertain. I met someone.#THANK GOD ā but also wait WHAT-when?WHO?HOW?#also this quote posted is like one of the reasons I love Elide#another grand Maasverse enterance is on its way?#the fact the opening line shows that being sold out to Maeve is the same as death ā OH GET TO AELIN ALREADY PLEASE#no more tattoos guys ā whatās with Maeveās wolves ā isnāt dark haired beauty what Elide called the girl in the caravan so maybe itās her
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Coming in October - a Frightfully Exciting Shop Update š»š
Here's a little preview to all the treats š
#cg draws#autumn shop update#shop update#shop update preview#I am very excited for this update i cant wait to get my grubby lil hands on everything to show u all
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unnormal vivilly dweller thoughts in my head
#āI'm right next to youā are we about to kiss. are you trying to kiss me right neow#i hate the chase sequence part (corny and unoriginal) but everything else is so perfect#hEeEeLP MEeEeEE#i fuckign love vivilly anyway but i think the vivilly dweller is what Really did it fr me#SERIOUSLY THOUGJ WHAT THE FUCK#i would make a palpers dweller but i dont think my computer can with how shit it is rn#like i definitely will at some point (unless someone beats me to it) but i just can't rn š#i csnt wait for august viv face reveal guys!!!! YAY!!!! idc what he looks like he will always be so splinkoid#plus whatever characteristics he has i can kinda just add on to my design to him behind his mask#i color his skin as dark grey just for his mc skin but seeing his snapchat n stuff makes me wanna show him off as rhe eyeblinding man he is#or not! who knows . i have a tendency to do whatever#okay speakijg of his face reveal#i have something i want to explain to the wall#a part of me is hoping he isnt generic conventionally attractive guy 38495839488#the rest of me is neutral because idrc#the reason why is most likely because i would feel a deeper connection to him if we shared similar facial features#it's a good reason i think? but still weird to have because i shouldnt really care what he looks like at all#idk what to expect really but i guess i should be open minded abt it#I JUST. a lot of how i perceive him is through his mc character#that played a big part in how i grew to like him so much#but he ISN'T emo hoodie minecraft shyguy!!!#however i can still enjoy the 'persona' he has online. chill sarcastic insane funny blocky shyguy who does a little (A LOT OF) trolling#anyway back to what i was saying#hope bro isn't majestic as fuck irl#IF IT'S ANYTHING LIKE DREAM I'M GOING TO CRY#DREAM IS MAJESTIC AS FUCK I CANT EVEN WITH THAT MAN#i will be supportive anyway ofc because 1) i dont care even though i just proved that i do 2) i can separate persona from irl person 3)...U#IM SO NORMAL#also we're not goijg toctalkcabou t the dream thing. if youre my irl yoy didnt aee this (PLEASE DONT UNFRIEND ME OELASE#DONT LEAVE JUST FORGER IćŖćÆoops didnt mean to type thatSAID THAT OKAY
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Watching the Percy Jackson series and pointing to the screen every time something I remember from the books happens or any time foreshadowing for a future scene happens. I love finally having a book accurate Percy Jackson adaptation
#my one criticism of the show so far is that it feels a bit too corporate/major studio. like it doesnt yet quite feel like it has that magic#it feels like a bit like some marvel movies where like its good overall but something feels like its missing#hoping it'll be better in the future episodes though bc overall i enjoyed this a lot#i cant wait for everything else! im so excited for the hotel and the tunnel and medusa and percy fighting ares#and everything#this is making me feel like a kid again aaaaaaugh#percy jackson series#percy jackson#percy jackson and the olympians
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i love having the ability to write anything i want and the only one in my campaign who plays genshin because im making my guy's backstory so kavetham coded it's crazy
#guess which one he is as a wee teenager#i've got it all#he's a warlock so naturally he's got a patron (mehrak)#he's got the dead father#the prestigious school#guy he gets weirdly and quickly attached to#they bond over an initial group project pairing#they start doing everything together n share a dorm#said guy is more book-sciency smart#while main guy works really really hard#he realizes maybe he'd been working too hard#other guy starts getting too invested in his work#they end up fighting (breaking up) over a big final project#cant wait for my dm to read my doc and have my guy's ex bf show up later (its never gonna happen)#anyway i am so sleepy and my shoulder hurtss#dnd#d&d#dnd oc#genshin impact#kavetham#haikaveh#im so normal about them#you can trust me with two characters who have severe weird bonds to each other that are tainted#so sleepy posting#sleepy posting
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i swear i have plans.. i have plans that i cannot share with u right now because the haters will sabotage me..
#/reference#donāt forget about me guys i promise itll be so great and amazing and i cant wait to show all my oomfs#i just. need to catch up with everything else going on in my life#finish some gifts for friends#and then i think ill be able toā¦.#guhhh
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byeeee
#me literally thia afternoon discarding anime and posting about how i wish i had never gotten into it and how no one should watch anime but#really it was just about me slipping on seperating the fictional horrors from my actual horrors so watchong yuji claw at the ground#wasnt a āoff gege ur horribleā it wS more of a#āi cant breathe im going to die i cant handle this life this is too much there is too much pain i wish i never put this visual in my mindā#and āgenuinely i cant stop sobbing im so fucked up by this i remember reality now this is not good for me im going to fucking breakā#but then i went back to ādamn rhere are some good paralells i can make from thisā and then saving the parallels in my to do list#so#shoutout mental illness#but really shoutout the terrifying ordeal of exostence and feelings i cant wait for my brain to get back to the usual compartmentalizing#and by compartmentalizing i mean detaching from reality bc i wont lie its great and it works and it does get better you just#have to get better at actively disociating. like fr practice stepping away from your feelings and accepting that nothing matter except what#u want to matter. and only let things that dont hurt matter.#once u get good at that its smooth sailing#ā¤ļø#mind over matter and manifest away ur mental illness#a.k.a. dont think just blank out the present until a treat shows up and then when that treat is done exit back into the blankness#fr im still alive bc of this srs theres nothing wrong with erasing the bad stuff#repression gets a bad hype bc ppl always confuse it with shit that will ācome back to get u later lol thats only if ur not good enough at it#ive had minimal problems bc of this so far i rarely get triggered like that yuji thing came and went#forget everything until you want to absorb things that u want to absorb. repress if it keeps u alive. actually repress is a bad word for it#i feel ādelete itā works better bc u shouldnt push it down#just delete it#teru mikami style#proof that light yagami did nothing wrong#gremlin hours#no. motivation quotes and life advice hours
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