#cant take anymore

[battling-my-demons]

It's 4 in the morning and I'm just torn up. I realize just how alone I am. I know my dad is headed for another hospital stay. He literally just got home from one like a month ago. I can't keep doing this. My mom can't keep going through this. We are literally the only ones taking care of everything. My brother doesn't help. He doesn't care. He visits like maybe once and my mom and I practically live in the hospital with my dad. It doesn't matter when we're home or I'm the hospital because we never get a got damn break! No one thinks we deserve it! The universe just spins,people just walk on by, and I'm just stuck. Sitting here. We have no one to help. No shoulder to cry on. No one to talk to. I don't know how much more I can take. I feel like I can't breathe. I feel like I carry all the weight. The pain. The guilt. The anger. The stress. The hurt. I feel like I'm heading for a break down. Where do I go. I am so all over the place. I want to run away from it all, but I literally just can't. Who is here to help us?! I can't keep being the strong one. I need a BREAK! I AM SO EXHAUSTED FROM ALWAYS WORRYING. FROM ALWAYS CHECKING ON MY PARENTS! NO ONE IS CHECKING ON ME! I'M SO TIRED!!!!!!!!!!

[tenyrasims]

If I decide to look up and download the last piece of clothes that makes the outfit perfect. My boys after that:

[ithappensoffstage]

I am genuinely so worried for all the young horny dykes going into adulthood thinking there's something "problematic" / "wrong" with them for being horny because fucking tiktok lesbians think any horny dyke content is "male gaze fetishistic"

[everwalldigan]

My favourite thing ever is when Jason is drawn to resemble Bruce because I KNOWW his ass would HATE it😭😭

Dick: hey Jason you haven’t forgotten our meet u— oh my god are you ok?? What happened?

Jason *rocking back and forth on the floor with a traumatised look in his eyes, whispering in horror* someone mistook me for Bruce in the grocery store today.

Random kid at a charity event pointing at Jason standing grumpily in a corner: who’s that?

Bruce (smiling fondly): that’s my son Jason!

Random kid: he looks like you! :D

Jason: *leaves the room*

Bruce (running after him): jason, Jason they didn’t mean anything by it, Jason, you’re going to jump off a balcony just because of a child’s observation Jason?

[fairuzfan]

[lotus-pear]

he's so crazy we can't take him anywhere 😭🤣

[futilemp3]

steve cobs anvil redraw, except i made it larger.

[loganspr1ncess]

everyday without shame

[skullz4supper]

bro forgot his contact lenses

[rapidhighway]

shadow regularly fucks up his circadian rhythm to hang out with Rouge

[deathflare]

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[escaping-peril12]

[snapscube]

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[letsventstuff]

This feeling of nothingness is gnawing at my bones again.

[broresteia]

exploring canaan house

[ithinkimnormal]

Sorry but It's actually so annoying how much people downplay the crucial role piltover's corrupt council games played in derailing jayce/viktor's work and pretty much putting shackles around their lives. The council is directly responsible for and directly FUNDING so much of the misery that happens in this show, before the story has even started. Before Powder ever finds the gemstone. They single-handedly doom half of the region to death.

Just during the show: Jayce wanted to create magic to aid and uplift the common people, the council wanted trade route instant teleportators to make themselves richer.

Jayce & Viktor wanted to work on technology to help miners and steelworkers and artisans who are trying to survive in the industrial hellscape of piltover and zaun; the council wants it shelved for another 20 years. (yes, heimer is part of the corrupt council - no matter how much his image is laundered by the fandom.)

They are inept and self-serving leaders, elected by themselves and their blood inheritances, utterly obsessed with ultimate profit. You can really see how parasitic their relationship is to the people at the beggining of act 1. Jayce is a token nameless life, so disposable to them that they were going to burn down all of his research and throw out all of his titles, making him not just a lower-house vassal but an EXILE, and the only reason why that doesn't happen is because they realize how much money they can suck out of his work.

This applies to Viktor too. See the way that Heimerdinger tells him over and over again that no other paths can be taken, he has 'fulfilled his purpose' and he should be content to die. See how Mel looks at Viktor like a bug she wants to squash under her palm when he rejects the idea of making weapons for council. See how they speak over him and only address Jayce, as if he's worth less than nothing.

You are only as valuable as the profit you're willing to create. You are a problem that has to be dealt with as soon as you refuse their orders. They have the power to ruin your life, and if they find an excuse, they will. This is a direct threat pointed at Jayce & Viktor during ACT2, when Jayce is pressured into becoming one of them to protect 'the bottom line profit' and, personally speaking, to avoid that ire being redirected towards Viktor. He's pushed into compliance and told a target has been painted on his back.

Arcane jayvik are doomed in big part not for wanting to do harm, but being forced to exist under the beck and call of billionaire leeches. They are both immigrants. They are both struggling to get a degree and keep themselves afloat and they want to help people so goddamn much but they have to keep postponing their dreams to serve uncaring masters. I really wish there was more fan content focused on these very real bonds of understanding and solidarity between them.

When Viktor says 'Jayce will understand' that's not a fluke; he's lived in this environment for years. He knows Jayce is being pushed down the same way that he is and that deep down they've been kept captive by the exact same people. When Jayce agrees that Viktor should do whatever he needs to do to keep himself alive, he means that from the heart.