#can’t trust anyone

[raytm]

say goodbye to the raytm blog I’m deleting

[bloosemood]

y’all remember when I defended that person on here even though everyone was against him and encouraged him to fix the things he was doing and sat with him while he cried multiple times?? I thought he’d just deleted his account but turns out hes blocked me on everything ☺️☺️☺️☺️☺️

[5ivebyfive]

[traumabxnded]

why does nobody ever stay?

why does nobody ever see my worth like I see theirs?

I’m so understanding and forgiving and supportive and all I get is trauma and abandonment

is that just what life is for me?

[jencsi]

I think the only way to be *mostly* sure that I don’t come in contact with any gastrointestinal illnesses in the next few months, is to simply not eat the food. I’ve done well avoiding any restaurants (fast food, sit down, take out, food trucks, etc) and I’ve been watching recalls for packaged stuff from the CDC, FDA etc. with the holidays coming up, best case scenario is I snack on dry foods like bread and crackers during these gatherings and avoid anything that hasn’t been properly cooked or stored. I can survive off simple things like PBJ sandwiches and canned soups, etc. in fact, I’ve found two things to be helpful- the less food in my system, the better I feel and, the more heavily processed a food item is, the less likely it is to hurt me short term. Food is fuel until food carries the bacteria that could end your life. Or change it forever.

[summer-pill]

It’s not a new realization to me that I keep everyone at arms length these days. But when a friend I haven’t spoken to much recently told me I don’t trust anyone it really hit me. If someone I never see or really talk to can notice that then it must be obvious. I know I don’t trust anyone but I thought I hid that well. I thought I hid the walls I build so high or at least disguised them. I’m also not sure if anyone in my life is deserving of my trust? I definitely don’t freely give it out anymore. I’m not even sure I really know HOW to trust anymore. Not sure I know how to let someone in. Not sure if anyone really cares enough to try to get let in. It’s really lonely but it feels safer. I wish I had someone I could feel safe enough to trust or let in. I’m not sure I ever will again.

[sendhelpls]

You know that feeling when you’re in a shoe store and you’re trying on shoes but you feel unsafe bc for some reason the first thing that comes to mind is that someone with a feet likeish (term coined by Chad Chad) might be watching you???

So I’m at Macy’s…

[iwritenarrativesandstuff]

I always have a soft spot for characters who have a protective streak for another out of gratitude for their kindness towards them, but Charles’ protectiveness towards Edwin really hits a particular way because it’s so so apparent that it’s specifically about wanting Edwin to feel as safe and as comfortable around him as Edwin made Charles feel in his dying moments. I’m going to shatter like glass.

[hiyyihrts]

“For how long have you had feelings for him?”… Lord the way they keep making Eloise this non-observant clueless friend to everyone is crazy to me… especially continuously with Pen (and now Cressida also). She never fathomed that Pen could want to participate in ton events, want to be married, want to have even the bare minimum opportunity to be entertained by a man, and yet anytime Pen goes against anything Eloise always talked about she’s so surprised?? Maybe if you talked with your friends instead of at them we wouldn’t be running into this situation continuously El…

[hilsonamore]

i don’t get people who don’t ship hilson because like- what more evidence would you want to convince you that they were in love with each other? Seriously, apart form the kiss and the canonical sex etc etc, what more is there? Love confessions? Done. Over-protectiveness? Done. Self-sacrifice? Done. Longing, loving stares? Done. Everyone else being aware of the tension between them? Done. Taking care of each other during difficult times? Done. Being silly and cute only around each other? Done. Always, even after the worst of scenarios have taken place, coming back together? Done. Literally not being able to function normally if the other is unwell/ there’s a rift in their relationship? Done. Being protective of each other when someone dares insult them? Done. Giving up their EVERYTHING just to be together? Done.

Like, WHAT MORE IS THERE?

[ladycatofwinterfell]

I cannot believe 7 of you chose the wrong answer

Poor Luwin has seen way too much of his lord and lady. I almost feel bad for him.

[hiding-in-the-vault]

What if they were all insane but also still friends or something

[hmsdoodlin]

I think we as a society need more Heart and Soul interactions. They have a lot of potential to be really interesting in BOTH fluff and angst.

Idk y’all but positive Heart and Soul dynamics are really nice. They deserve to be friends and love each other and bond.

They share the same night sky.

[laniidae-passerine]

don’t understand izzy haters don’t understand ed haters they are intertwined they are broken into pieces they love each other but even the best they can do isn’t enough they are barbed wire they are a gold chain they are wrong for each other they were born to be side by side there is not one without the other and it’s terrible now but there’s a deep-seated need to fix it, they’re going to try fix it

[rip-headphones-users]

If you recognize the the venue this bathroom is from you get a gold star sticker, you deserve it for what you’ve been through just going in here.

[ofsunshineandfoxes]

You ever think about how renee went to juvie just like andrew but because she’s so nice now, probably no one knows? Like I imagine she got hate when she joined the foxes for being a girl, but do you think anyone ever went beyond that? Stopped to dig up her past? We all know she wouldn’t be hiding it but did ‘the public’ ever stop to look?

Like canonically she’s done worse shit than andrew? But they’re treated so differently. Is it just because his is more recent? And he doesn’t smile prettily? Probably, but that’s still kinda wild.