#can you even blame me tbh

[featherdownmoor]

A few days ago in Cebu my family and i went on a tour. First stop was a beach where we wld swim w whale sharks. Before boarding the paddle boat tho i was glancing at a filipino boy from the group beside us. He looked to be around my age and he was with his mother and sisters and aunties, and he was wearing snorkelling equipment 🤿 over his head. He was wearing a neon pink and yellow gradient swimming trunks with fish patterns on it. I felt certain that he was looking at me too. Also when i bent down to inspect some stones and shells and pieces of coral on the beach, and show some to my sister, I saw him looking quite intently too. But the whole thing was discreet at the time so nothing came of it i guess.

Fast forward to yesterday, i was crying about my skin again. IN PUBLIC. To console me my mom was telling me that it really didnt look that bad. Then finally she was like “you know what, let me tell you something-” and then began telling me how she saw that filipino boy yesterday who kept looking and looking at me throughout the whole wait before getting on the boat. She observed that he had a tattoo on his thigh and looked about 19 or 18. She definitely looked at him more than i did. I have a bad habit of playing it cool (too cool for my own benefit) around incredibly attractive people.

Here I wanted to put the fact off as long as possible, but i must mention that he was the most good looking boy i have ever seen. Hence why i kept looking at him even though i tried not to (still didnt look at him enough for my own good). He had such soft boyish looks, with big doe eyes with long lashes, tan skin, full lips, and a strong sharp nose. I swear to g. And before i even mentioned it (too busy sobbing) my mom remarked how handsome he was and whether i had noticed or not.

She said on the beach when i was inspecting shells, he was curious to what i was doing so he kept looking and looking, and at one point even started to step towards me, but when my mom moved forwards he got spooked and stepped back. NO!!!

And now he’s gone forever i guess. Yes, i know it’s gratifying to have someone as beautiful as that boy look at you like that. But i think i as a person am prone to regret. I regret not putting aside trying to look cool and just went and talked to him. If only i had known how much he was looking, but i didnt. Fast forward to now, i have been obsessing over that one occurrence for 2 days and it probably wouldnt have been as bad if i had not heard that he was about to talk to me. Aaaaaahhhhh.

It’s a miracle, at least i think it is. I always thought of myself as a sort of beauty that is unapproachable because it often invites stares because it looks uncommon. Not the kind that people would try to talk to you or get to know you. I just thought i wasnt loveable i guess, at least not at first sight. This proves my theory wrong wrong wrong. It is a gut-wrenching fact because i can’t do anything about it. I don’t know when it will ever happen again either and that is sad sad sad.

I don’t go to school so i have no prospects, but it’s not like i had prospects in school anyway. Like please god. Prove to me that i am loveable at first sight brah. All i can do is hope like a fool that somehow that filipino boy will resurface like a real REAL miracle. I prayed to santo ninõ for it even.

Conclusion: i am so lonely.

[myokk]

“She’s tolerable, but not handsome enough to tempt me”😤😤😤

(Regency AU with Eloise and Sebastian inspired by my slow trek through Bridgerton these days & @bassicallymaestra ‘s AMAZING regency inspired art😮‍💨😇🙏)

[thewriterowl]

Din: (incredibly tired) So, if a stranger says they have an injured Lothal-kit in their ship you...

Luke: (soaking wet) Go into their ship and help!

Din: (sprays him again) No, Luke. No.

[revvethasmythh]

Some aspects of Laudna's behavior from the most recent ep have really started to stand out to me re: her backstory. We're told basically that after leaving Whitestone she roamed to different cities and was subsequently run out of many places by the townsfolk for being...well, a creepy undead witch. This is really all we know of thirty years of her life, we have nothing more detailed than that until Gelvaan, which is also not very detailed on what exactly she was doing there. And it's interesting because this backstory feels like it's meant to elicit a lot of sympathy on Laudna's behalf--i.e. she is being wrongly chased out of places for the crime of being/looking different. But something about the way she approached Imahara Joe's establishment--sending in the creepy whispers, specifically making a bunch of terrifying "rattling noises", and responding with a smile and saying "It works every time" when they heard a noise in response--really has me like. okay. Laudna, did you get chased out of places because you were terrorizing people in those places? because it sounds like you've done this before, potentially many times, and what's "fun scary" to one person can so very easily be "scary scary" to the people on the other end of the schtick.

Laudna clearly loves people, but I do have to wonder if she experiences a certain amount of dissonance about the effects that her actions cause. She very much has this Manic Demon Nightmare Girl persona thing going on, and that delighted, manic energy mixed with her penchant for the macabre, often directed at other people where she enjoys their freaked out reactions? I think, perhaps, there were reasons she kept getting run out of places that we have not, uh, unpacked as of yet.

To go deeper with this, Laudna is a character who rarely feels like she's in charge of her own destiny. Some of this is intentional, like the repeated puppet imagery re: Delilah. But I wonder if, perhaps, Laudna is someone who has had so many things--bad things, terrible things--happen to her that she had learned to erase her own role in her life. There was nothing she could do when the Briarwoods took over Whitestone, there was nothing she could do when she was murdered by Delilah, and there was nothing she could do when she was resurrected as the undead creachure that she is today. But there are thing she could have done in the intervening thirty years to change her situation. She could have pursued threads about getting rid of Delilah for thirty years, long before meeting Imogen. She could have (somewhat) altered her behavior so she wasn't freaking people out wherever she went and maybe she could have stayed somewhere. She could have been proactive in making changes and pursuing things in her life and I just wonder if she has forgotten that she can do that for herself and that the things she does do have consequences. In ep 49, she told Imogen, "The gods have never kept us from our ability to have a choice." But she only says this to Imogen. When does Laudna finally make an active choice? When does she realized that her behavior and the consequences of the behavior are in her control? When does Laudna decide that it's time to stop being a spectator in her own story, a person that things happen to? Soon, I hope. She should be the main character of her own story, and right now she simply isn't

[anchorandrope]

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[solar-halos]

amazon has plan b???

[randomnameless]

Sorry for this ask being a little out-of-nowhere, but in regards to Ryoma being jealous of Corrin's leadership skills, i do think there's more evidence in favor of Corrin being decently old when they were kidnapped than against; the afterlife section at the end of Conquest confirms that Corrin and Ryoma used to have full-on sparring matches together, meaning that Corrin was being constantly trained in how to fight while living in Hoshido, which would very likely only happen when they were in their early-to-mid-teens at the youngest, given how there's no implication anywhere in the game that Hoshidan soldiers start their training at a very young age.

The only thing that implies they do is Hinoka stating in her support with Camilla that she was 6 years old when she first started training to rescue Corrin (meaning the latter would also have to be 6 at the oldest due to being younger than her), but that line is a mistranslation; JP!Hinoka just states that she's been training to rescue Corrin for a long time.

No worries!

I know I ranted about FE16's lolcalisation, but FE14 takes the cake though - every single piece of intel seems to have been lolcalised.

With FE16 you can safely assume anything regarding Supreme Leader/Rhea was lolcalised to make one worse than she should to prop the other, but with FE14? Why the fuck did they need to lolcalise Corrin's age, which in turn creates this weird line from lolcalised!Ryoma ?

Corrin being older than what the loc implied would make more sense regarding the events that happened - granted, afair, FE14 doesn't reveal character ages or something?

[skitskatdacat63]

Sometimes reading reviews of shows/movies with complicated/controversial characters makes me concerned at other people's lack of empathy. Or maybe I'm too empathetic 🤔

[des-fangirl]

Hey guys could you please tell me that if i have bad vision it's not like, the end of the world AND I CAN STILL LIVE LATER AND EVERYTHING im kinda panicking about my eyes again and my ophthalmologist appointment is pretty soon :'] i feel like my vision has gotten worse this year so i really don't know how to calm down (

[rawliverandgoronspice]

tbh what I really think is that guilt-trips and pressure over genuine disgust or refusal to engage with the system after its repeated abject failures and current genocide (and worldwide genocide denial) is definitively not the way to go.

if certain elections go... any given way (or any elections honestly, counting the coming french ones where I absolutely intend to vote blank on what I assume the second turn will look like --unless a miracle happens-- and no force on this fair earth can make me do it a third time, I already massively regret having been coaxed into doing it a second time if you must know), it will absolutely not be the fault of the people who refused to engage with a completely broken system that repeatedly failed everybody, but will entirely be the fault of those who profited from said broken system to enable their own power at the literal cost of the powerless dying by the thousands

no matter what everybody ends up doing and what sort of internal peace anyone manages to find within themselves in a truly grueling historical moment, and I genuinely extend my sympathy here, in the name of everything precious let's not get it twisted over who ends up getting blamed in the end.

let's not lose the plot here.

[wheelercore]

Constantly thinking abour karen wheeler btw but in a way that makes everyone here super madsies

[if-mirrormine]

Ok so I totally get it if it is presumptuous of me to ask, but could you add the 'sanity meter' thing back? I get it if it's too much work or you think it takes away from the story, though.

But anyways i read the latest chapter, and I think it's pretty good, and I like this alex fellow already! Although for some reason it's so funny to me that the cat's name is also the poly ship name 😄

i actually didn't realise i took away the mental stat with the others until now lol so yeah i can add it back.

[cuteniaarts]

More art of @silima’s OCs, this time featuring Kali, aka the love of my life, + a small infodump of almost everything I know about her. Can’t believe it took me this long to get around to drawing her, considering she’s been living in my head rent free for like a year lol

Bonus version without all my incessant rambles in case you don’t want to look at my shabby handwriting:

[puppys-rhythm-heaven]

i am being so fucking autistic about a video game i've only played an hour and a half of and have absorbed like 99% of my information about through osmosis from my bestie(s. it's complicated) and fanfiction. catastrophic levels of autism. i can't stress this in words i don't think y'all understand. or care honestly sdflkjfdskdfsjsfdkj-

[deus-ex-mona]

kawareeeeeeeeeee~~~~~~~~~

[livvyofthelake]

also. movie that takes place in virginiaaaaa <3 ok it only takes place in va because it was based on a true story but still. that's my state :)