#can i take a breath now?
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They put the light back in his eyes :)
Cleaner shots of these two cause i liked em!
I think Hanto had been hating himself for a long time now, but he's finally starting to pick himself back up. I thought he was really cool this week!
#kamen rider gavv#kamen rider#hanto karakida#kamen rider valen#my favorite part from this week was when he head butted suga with everything he had...#and it didn't work... but he was so righteously pissed off he just went in for a second!! impactful!!!#also his breakdown in the office...#also the transition from that to calm happy sachika and grunkle dente time#ALSO the confession scene lmao!#episode 28 was my favorite moment of episode 28#I watch kamen rider gavv with teeth clenched because of hanto aaahha#i'm excited for next week as usual#can i take a breath now?#i kinda just wanna ruffle hanto's hair when it's down#reminds me of zi-o hajime a little aahaha super cute#also i told my friend i was planning on drawing jokester stuff but my emotions got outta hand ldfkajdslk#that'll be next probably waahah i have a lot of energy after all that!#EVERYONE WAS PEAK THIS WEEK!#i am now not only a hanto fan but also a yusuke hino fan aahaha nice work dude
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i'm sorry but i don't think we should call this the "autism website" when there's still posts with tons of notes mocking people who:
struggle with social skills / have anxiety around social settings
are unemployed / unable to work certain jobs
have intense or "age-inappropriate" interests
haven't had certain life experiences that are deemed universal/essential
struggle with personal hygiene
don't have any friends or dating experience
don't go outside much or at all
take things literally / don't get sarcasm/jokes
have unusual ways of speaking
generally aren't "normal"
#+ other things i'm probably forgetting rn#i know most of these apply to other disabilities too but i wanted to focus on autism bc of all the 'autism website' stuff#it's genuinely disturbing to see someone go 'lol autism website'#and then in the next breath be like 'omg look at this loser who [literal symptom of autism]'#but i guess when these people talk about autism they don't mean actual autism#but the tiktok style 'just a bit quirky but still able to assimilate into abled hegemony with ease' autism#i'm just tired of the hypocrisy#autism acceptance month is over now it's time for autism wrath month#being disabled on tumblr can be fucking awful sometimes. might take a break for a while bc i just don't have the energy to deal with it#autism#actually autistic#actuallyautistic
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Thinking about the fact that Mabel and Dipper didn't know they had two great uncles.
Yeah they are 12 and at 12 I had a shotty understanding of my family tree- But really? Nobody brought up their great uncle? Stanley? Especially since they'll be staying with his twin brother, Stanford?
Shermie never went to Stan's fake funeral, which to me means the twos relationship was strained on some level. If Shermie is older that means his view of Stan was poisoned in some way, that even as kids they weren't close. If the Shermie is younger then he never even got to meet Stan and all he knew about him was how he failed his family. Hell, people probably barely mentioned Stanley TO Shermie.
The fact that Stan had become a black stain upon the Pines family name makes me so vividly upset. Stanley faked his death and the family just- seemingly decided to strike him from the record. To pretend he didn't existed to spare themselves the sadness and shame.
Stanford and Shermie Pines. The only children worth mentioning of Filbrick and Caryn Pines.
It was never Stanford that was lost to the world. It was Stanley, ever since he had to leave New Jersy- it was always him that had to be struck from the record. Change his name, change his state, change his affiliations, destroy the remains of ghost that was Stanley Pines. Kill him so the family doesn't bring him up, doesn't ask questions, stops asking "Stanford" about his twin.
I just keep thinking about the fact that since the day he made one single mistake all the way up until Ford walks out of that machine- Stanley Pines was killed and did not exist. And Stan himself had no one to blame, he had to play the part in his own demise- He is the only one who ever knew Stanley was alive and has been for decades.
He lives in the multitudes of every personality he's ever taken, all in the hope that he himself can stop being Stanley Pines.
#gravity falls#grunkle stan#stanley pines#STANLEYYYYYY#STANLEY THEY COULD NEVER MAKE ME HATE YOU STANLEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#sharky rants#Just. Imagine the fucking shame you have to live with#the shame that you can never be yourself. That anything you were is unwanted and forgotten#The shame of just BEING- Of taking space of- of /breathing-/#Imagine the world; your friend; your family; your colleagues being so ashamed of having known you#that you feel more comfortable with a persona to present.#You feel more comfortable stealing the identity of someone you care for deeply if only to help#If only to feel capable for once. To feel like you belong- Like youre doing something good for once#Imagine the shame that brings you to be comfortable not being yourself for 40 years.#ALL CASE YOU BROKE ONE FUCKING PROJECT??????? COME ON#I mean- the deeprooted shame was started from earlier. He was 'the stupid twin“; 'the troublemaker”; “the cheat and thief”#This was a long time coming#But those werent MISTAKES- The one time he genuinely made a Mistake he lost everything#Like he really mattered so little to the people around him#and he cant really blame them.#My cousin is a genius. Hes smart and academically achieved since I was a baby.#The only thing I had that he didnt was my ability to draw. to be creative. The guy for the longest time had a better social life then me too#I used to get brought to tears seeing his accomplishments- seeing people praise him. The shame lived in me any time I had to see him#The shame that I was the black sheep of the family next to the golden standard for a son- for a student- for a friend.#when I was none of those things#And Im lucky he was my cousin- cause if he was my brother that would have haunted me EVERY DAY rather then once or twice a year#Im better with it now; Im more content with who I am- But trauma dump aside-#I very very very much understand Stans shame in being the stupid one. The unachieved one in a family full of achieved people#the shame thats angry at him for being better. at the family for treating him special. and most of all at yourself that you cant be better#its a visceral feeling that I sadly understand
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another orbit around the sun finished...! here's to continuing on 🎇
#my art#not much i can say esp bc i'm still p bittersweet about so much that's happened#but... yeah...! life will keep going and i'm now taking a deep breath taking in the night air and fireworks#happy new year#2024#update: fixed the caption to be accurate bc i mixed up earth’s rotation = 1 day and earth’s orbit around the sun = 1 year LMAO
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house's little laugh as wilson openly flirts with him through an MRI microphone is Doing Things to me
#they're just. they're#idk they're sure something#house md#hilson#damn it wait i just realized why this moment is getting to me so much#there is just something so *genuine* about it#like it's the tiniest little chuckle but#no one can see house right now#wilson can't see his reaction#he can't even hear house laugh because it's soundless except for the little breath house takes before returning the banter#house is in a ton of pain from his leg and he's self destructive and generally miserable#but just for a second wilson made him happy#and as tiny a moment as it is#there's something so precious about it because it's a rare moment of complete sincerity from house#and we know it's sincere because literally nobody can see him#so yeah as i said. it is Doing Things to me#house s02e13#house season 2#videos - house#op#house 2x13
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Don't mind me I got a pink glittery pen so I'm having the fun :3
#this shit wil litterally never be useful again#it goes through my sketchbook pages#takes 30 minutes to dry#and puts glitter everywhere we can breathe#but it was worth it >:333#now I can put the babygirl bow on all my pookies#my art#sonic the hedgehog#sth#sth fanart#infinite the jackal#gadget the wolf#barry the quokka#aboba gang#tumblr quality is the worst but it's okay smile through the pain
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You've never done that when I got close to you before. Why? None of your business. Tell me, or you can't leave.
KISEKI: DEAR TO ME Ep. 10
#kiseki: dear to me#kisekiedit#kdtm#kiseki dear to me#ai di x chen yi#chen yi x ai di#nat chen#chen bowen#louis chiang#chiang tien#jiang dian#uservid#userspring#userrain#pdribs#userspicy#userjjessi#*cajedit#*gif#every time i color this scene i get stronger. anyway there were so many expressions i just couldnt leave out. the deep breath ai di takes#steeling himself before admitting it. & the way chen yi absorbs it the way he blinks away & his mouth opens before focusing on ai di again#thinking about it. thinking about four years of attacks ai di had to withstand. understanding the way he is now but hating how its happened#and also the guilt hes gotta feel from that! & yet thats overcome in this moment by a need to not let ai di put a wall between them#which is what ai di keeps trying to do. he admits a vulnerable thing and then deflects FOUR TIMES in this scene. first when sleeping#& choking chen yi when woken(& avoiding when questioned abt it). second by dropping his guard & worrying when he finds chen yi injured#& twice more shown in this set. he has to shake it off he has to put his wall back up but his instincts are strongest & chen yi SEES them.#you can see the way ai di wants to relax into that hug. the way he just wants to BREATHE but instead uses those breaths to defend himself#he chooses to flirt hoping it'll make chen yi back off. hoping he'll stop asking him to be vulnerable. but chen yi knows his tricks now.#and hes not going to let ai di continue believing he doesnt CARE about him. its poetic the way he gives him a taste of his own medicine#like it's *strategic*. he watches and learns. he knows his own influence over ai di he knows that HE is ai di's weakness. it's..chef's kiss
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I think Gege's final letter about Jujutsu Kaisen solidified my belief that the time constraints of weekly releases make really talented creators into really uninspired ones. At the speed mangakas have to go, they simply don't have the time to be thoughtful or careful in constructing their stories. That's why so many beloved mangas begin to tank in later chapters -- everyone is simply burnt out.
#I'm really glad he gets to take a breath now that everything is said and done#you can NOT create nonstop for seven years without repercussions#and I can't even imagine the pressure of having THEE manga all on your shoulders#no wonder he crashed out before the finale
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@hancfubuki // Pirate!Caleb x Sea God!Rafayel, served
"At this rate, the children might be targeted next."
Deep sighs echo through the giant room, walls with a shiny blue sheen glowing under the light of the fake sun, shining brightly in contrast to the gloomy expressions on the faces of everyone present. "We've warned them not to go past the barrier, and most are smart enough not to disobey when they've seen what happened to our people." They shake their heads, some with arms crossed and their brows the arched with concern and fury, thinking back on the brave souls who had made it home, away from the insistent attacks from those... Pirates-- that's what those humans had called themselves.
"Konche still hasn't returned. He might be-..."
One figure turns, expression blank as he silently tries to walk out of the hall. But he's stopped with a heavy 'wait right there', and he gives a defeated roll of his shoulders, turning back to the elders of his kin.
"You don't know what humans will do if we attack them," the old man starts grimly. They are weaker by nature but stronger in numbers, they have always spoken this truth and he... lifts his head, eyes cold amethyst and pink, stopping any more words from the elder. He knew better than anyone here what they could do to them, the Lemurians. Because they knew this, knew of his failure, the pity in some and the understanding in others, he is able to walk out without another word. It is the rule of the Deep Sea. It is a survival of the fittest. If one doesn't attack first, they will become prey to bigger fish.
Luckily for them, in their seas, they had the advantage.
"Rafayel!"
A bluenette runs towards him from the direction of Whalefall city, stopping before him. Algie, her beautiful braid coming loose, looks up at him with the same look of hope and determination, fiery rage in her eyes just as bright as she steps up towards him. "Are you going up there? I'll come with you, help you distract them if you need! Those greedy humans, they deserve to be capsized and eaten by the sharks for taking my little brother!" Rafayel lets out a silent huff through his nose, much preferring this over the dull atmosphere within the hall. "No, I'll make a better distraction," he starts with a wave of his hand, watching as the woman looks ready to fight him in protest. "I need you to take Konche back safely while I deal with them." Since they don't know what state he is in.
With an understanding nod, they swim out towards the edge of the barrier where the usual sea creatures standing guard let them pass without a knock back behind the gates, rushing up to the top. Algie looks around, on high alert and scrunching her nose in distaste as thunder crashes on the surface of the raging sea. A perfect setting, and he signs, directing Algie to the side of the ship while he floats up, emerging through the waves and standing still on the surface as the waves by his feet go still under his power. The ship is already unstable, swaying from side to side as tall waves crash on its side, water filling the deck as it slowly sinks, and sinks. The sea knows, there is fury burning under his skin.
"There's something out there!"
Finally, he's seen. Tilting his head up with a languid toss to the side, he raises his hand and pulls a flute out from his sash. The sharp melody pierces through the storm, his eyes giving the shortest of glances towards Algie who climbs the side of the ship and onto deck, covered in a thick cloak as she blends in, hidden from the pirates running to stare at his show as she finds her brother. It is easy, to play a daring tune that weaves itself through the air, into the water which heeds his calls.
One by one, tendrils of water crash into men.
As soon as they are within the sea, no level of swimming prowess could save them from the water entering their lungs, pressure pulling them downwards as if the water was sentient and was punishing those who wronged its children. If only that were the truth.
The water calms as the sound of his flute ceases, the loud splash of water catching his attention and he sees the vibrant glow of scales as Konche is plunged into the sea with Algie's arms wrapped tightly around him. The ship now sways, eerily quiet in the night as pelts of rain continue to drip. Rafayel takes a languid stroll towards the ship, hand reaching up to touch the engravings on the side, another step as he stares at the anchor the size of a whale's child. Then he hears it, a spurting sound followed by coughs. A survivor, one that he looks down at and blinks slowly. Hmm... it wouldn't hurt to bring someone in for questioning.
It doesn't matter if he dies, or lives. If left here to fend for himself, he would easily be eaten up by the waves in seconds before the fish even got to him. But out of curiosity and the lingering anger running through his veins, he crouches down, feet balanced on the surface of the water as he reaches out, tilting the man's face up by the chin like one would to a pet. He was a bit ugly, but not as much as the others he saw knocked off the ship.
"Do you want to live?"
No matter his answer, Rafayel simply shrugs and picks him up by the arm, tossing him into the Deep Sea.
#{v. 愛の為に生きる}#Since I wanted to set up the scene#it got quiiiiiiiite long. But who cares right I always cough up multiparas like I cannot breathe without them AHGSIOAHIOSD#I was listening to the song in the link up there as I wrote bc I can I will I think it's very pirate sea god theme HAHAHA also Caleb#is our miracle survival baby Rafayel said nah death to them all. Except this ugly one bc fate let him live let's see what happens#Okay so listen here. There is a timeline when Lemurians are being caught to be bonded to people so they can take their scales#their blood(eternal life) and tears (which people believe become pearls) so I was thinking the pirates caught a Lemurian for those#Once bonded Lemurians cannot disobey the one they are bonded to as well. That's why they are cautious about bonding with humans#you feel free how Caleb fit into this if he knows and helped or he didn't and is finding out now through their consequences
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perry with some words of wisdom in superman: lex 2000 ("just because this country is about to go to hell in a handbasket doesn't mean this newspaper does, too!") (and we are all the newspaper, really.)
#rereading superman: lex 2000 to cope tbh lmao#but like. deep breaths. the justin mcelroy tweet. im gonna keep doing what good i can and nobody can change that.#i will take today to wallow and be deeply dismayed and disheartened and take comfort in my friends.#and we will all keep trying to work towards a better future no matter what. bc i have to believe it's possible#but. enough of that soapbox im just going to read superman comics and sleep and then maybe play video game or write and call my besties#i can be a real person again later. for now. save me lois lane#rimi talks#clark#lois#jimmy#perry
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Fanon Leo gives off a certain Vibe and I don’t like it.
#a lot of authors remove everything about him that make him Leo.#like they just make him “anxiety”#that’s his only trait#oh and don’t forget suicidal. NEVER FORGET SUICIDAL.#Christ- I’m just so over it atp.#I don’t think Leo wants to die.#Leo sacrificed himself for his family. Not because he saw a window of opportunity#but because he knew it was the only way out of the apocalypse.#he also didn’t suddenly lose his jokey nature the minute he came out of the prison dimension?#like I get that trauma hits hard. but I really don’t think he’d have panic attacks everytime he took a breath. he’d still atleast try#to keep up appearances.#I feel like a lot of authors don’t take Leo’s actual personality into account when writing him and it shows.#now I’m not well versed in writing Leo. Not at alllll#but fanon him isn’t even CLOSE to his personality. I actually feel like it more closely resembles raph? Not that Raph is fanon Leo ofc#some people actually get him right!! They manage to merge his very real trauma into his already established character!#ain’t much that’s dumber is a great example. But most of the fanon Leo’s I’ve seen just aren’t Leo at all. Like it’s a completely different#character. but I’m being redundant atp#whatever!! not much I can do about it. people will play with their dolls ig#rottmnt#Leo rottmnt#rise leo#rottmnt leo#leonardo hamato#tmnt leonardo#bagelhour
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A chibi..... It's been 800 years...
#I'm not the best wordsmith out there to say the least. but if you see this please take it as a moment to breathe#Drawing this helped me release some of the tension and I hope if you stay with me here a second you can do the same#Things are pretty rough right now but I love you and I'm hugging you#Consider this a checkpoint if you will#And we'll find a way to get through :)#My art#Tim Drake#God I missed drawing chibis. Gotta get back into the swing of em
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i wish i was a good artist. i would draw merlin so androgynous. in a dress. long hair. mmmmmm. kiss boys. arthur. kiss arthur. sigh
#all i can do is write or post my incomprehensible thoughts on tumblr dot com#and its so much easier to do this than open a google doc#bbc merlin#arthur pendragon#merthur#merlin emrys#ive been plagued by visions of merlin being raised by druids and being his iconic genderfluid self#or nonbinary#whatever#thats none of my business#GOD FUCK i wish i could draw it bc it would take yalls breath away#i can see him now#so pretty#so stunning#so handsome#so cute#i love him#hes my lil guy
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Broke (2016): BBC Sherlock is a phenomenal piece of media and anything that seems like a flaw just hasn't been fully explored yet
Woke (2020): BBC Sherlock is an incredibly flawed series run by an egotistical writer, it never deserved the hype and is actively bad on so many fronts (especially representation)
Bespoke (2024): BBC Sherlock is flawed and bogged down by increasingly poor writing, which many fans refused to see while it was airing, leading to hugely misplaced expectations (particularly for the final series), AND it has the seeds of some compelling characterizations and portrayals, some genuinely solid performances, and touches--albeit imperfectly--on complexities that are still being discussed today (particularly as it relates to the relationship between Sherlock and John). The huge cultural impact of the show has created a massive pendulum effect in its public perception, leading to most people today remembering a caricature of the show (whether positive or negative) rather than appreciating its nuanced merits and failings...that being said Season 4 sucked
#these just sum up my personal takes at the years in question and also what i'm seeing on tumblr/other social media#bbc sherlock#sherlock holmes#and i actually have a lot more thoughts to share on this series#specifically relating to the cultural impact#there is SO much about the show that goes unappreciated in hindsight because of how public perception of it has soured#and i totally fell into this as well--i still regularly rewatch hbomberguy's video absolutely dismantling the series and he isn't wrong!!#but what i'm saying is that i think it's easy for us to look at a piece of media (especially one so massively popular) like sherlock...#with very black-and-white lenses. it wouldn't have become so popular if there wasn't something inherent in it that resonated with people#and that's being buried (and i totally forgot it) because 'sherlock is cringe and problematic. can't believe i liked that'#which again it IS full of issues and those are well-documented as they should be. future portrayals should not repeat those mistakes#BUT being able to impact so many people is a merit in itself. and that's only possible because of other genuinely good things about the show#yes the way they handled the relationship between john and sherlock was riddled with problems YES it was often queerbaiting#AND the way they portrayed that relationship had a deep effect on me. i saw a lot of myself in sherlock and the complex way he loved john#the nuanced feelings he had about john's marriage to mary. the part (in s4!) where john calls him inhuman for not feeling romantic love#there was genuine intention and care put into some parts of this show and it comes through in scenes like those. they impact people.#and because of this realization i'm going to (eventually) do a rewatch of the show. i'm much older and i want to see how i'll view it now#but i want to go into it--and i want everyone who engages with it still--to have an open mind and evaluate it for what it is#not what we expected it to be (secret episode anyone?) or what the cultural drift has turned it into (the tiktok of sherlock's mind palace)#but the messy problematic somewhat-heartfelt massively significant and ultimately meaningful piece of media it actually was#anyway that's my thoughts would love to hear y'all's perspectives#funny how after all this time making a sherlock post still feels like i'm poking a bees' nest lol please be kind!#kay can i just catch my breath for a second#kay has a party in the tags
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Fuck it, I need to stop drawing my favourite characters as if they were eyefucking the viewer.
FIRST ARNO.
NOW JACOB.
I NEED TO STOP DOING THIS TO MYSELF.
I CANNOT FOCUS PROPERLY.
Like.
We know you are one hell of a sensual gremlin, Jacob.
No freaking need to make it a point WHILE I AM DRAWING YOU.
#Nemo babbles#listen#*takes a long drag from a non-existent cigarette*#I was out at dinner#I was chitchatting with my husband and my daughter#and they gave me an idea#sort of crossover#so OF COURSE#the first thing I do as soon as I come back home is turning on my tablet and start sketching like a freaking fury#AND I WASN'T PLANNING TO MAKE HIM ALL SEXY AND EYEFUCKING#BUT IT HAPPENED#AND NOW I CANNOT FREAKING FOCUS FOR MORE THEN FIVE MINUTES BEFORE STARTING GIGGLING LIKE THE BUFFOON THAT I AM#*takes deep breath*#I am less flustered when I draw smluff#like#no reaction#complete poker face#then I draw a close up of Jacob's face#AND I AM GIGGLING LIKE A FREAKING IDIOT#fml I need to do this well so that I can actually print this as well and hang it#Jacob Frye#my most beloved of blorbos
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shout out to those who put themselves through severance s2 finale and sunrise on the reaping this week - we are gods strongest soldiers I guess
#IM WAILING SO HARD RN IVE NEVER CRIED SO MUCH#and WITHIN 24HOURS OF EACHOTHER#I definitely DONT RECOMMEND AT ALL#still mourning gemma and mark and if I see another edit w them im going to walk into oncoming traffic#actually edits from both fandoms I can’t take it anymore#I HATE IT HERE#HAYMITCH HAS ALWAYS BEEN MY FAVE AND I FEEL LIKE IVE JUST BEEN SHOT#sobbing so hard like this my MY FRANCHISE when I was younger and now I feel so happy we have this but also want to put a gun in my mouth!#I don’t think I’m gonna be happy ever again actually#I was like oh well he wins the games obvi how bad can it be THEN I WAS SHOT 57 TIMES#I wouldn’t force anyone to read chapter 27 not even my worst enemy#I was fully gasping for air in the epilogue too GOD JUST LET ME BREATHE#I’m gonna have to do a rewatch of thg just for haymitch pov#haymitch I see why you are the way you are now and I see why you Katniss is basically your daughter#so glad this came out after the main three bc woah the lore drops was insaneee I was sitting alone in my room like OH OF COURSE (X) HAPPENS#severance#severance spoilers#sunrise on the reaping#sotr spoilers#the hunger games#haymitch abernathy#paige talks
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