#can feel my pulse in my back

[sinnabee]

someone please send moon to my home to knock me the fuck out, my back pain (the thing i’m out of work for) kicked into overdrive the moment i laid down in bed. i need someone to take my consciousness from me please

moondrop fnaf if you’re out there-

[devildom-moss]

I'm alive (light-heartedly). Thank y'all for being so patient with me. I have been having some trouble writing requests for a bit, and I've been a little worn out.

I'm going to just focus on the poll fic for this weekend and try to get other stuff done next month. It's been hard for me to actually get started, but I'm enjoying the process with this one, so hopefully you all will like the NSFW Beel x Diavolo x MC content I'll have for you, some time on the 31st (I hope).

[mantegato]

does anyone else get like way too anxious when they hear their heartbeat too much. i like Hate knowing i have organs in there

[mmmthornton]

i don't hate gay people, i am a gay person and i.love gay people. i didn't smear her, i rightfully called her out on her transphobia, because people need to know she (and you) align yourself with those who smear people like me as pedophiles and rapists.

For context: https://www.tumblr.com/butch-reidentified/719311495708753921/pajrc1234-blocked-me-before-even-commenting-that I'm not sure why you sent this anon; i thought at first that maybe @pajrc1234 is a side blog but its the one you replied on? In any case, since my message to YOU was off anon and you used "I" to address yourself, for transparency I'm keeping your information here.

Hey, i'm really angry about this but I'm holding myself back from being mean and sarcastic to make a point.

The whataboutism? Stops fucking here. There ARE issues in the gay community. There ARE issues with lesbophobia, misogyny, there is petty drama, there is stupid bullshit, there is every conceivable kind of human flaw and foible to be found in human beings under the LGBT umbrella. Do you know why that is? Its because we're human beings, with all the variety that that entails.

That means that, for a community to still be able to come together, we need to recognize we'll bruise some elbows and even come across Genuine Bad Actors in all areas of life. We deserve to look out for OTHERS in our community by calling out behavior - BEHAVIOR - itself that is harmful.

What that does NOT MEAN. Is that you start a witch hunt, targeting almost EXCLUSIVELY same-sex attracted woman. for THINKING or ASSOCIATING with the "wrong" ideas or people.

Do you notice what I did there? Do you recognize theres a difference between "BEHAVIOR" and "THINKING"? or even "CRITIQUING"? Because I don't know that you do! And i don't know if a lot of the loudest voices in "queer activism" these days knows that either. Because it seems to me its pretty clear the people who are actually COMMITING the hate crimes that target gay people (uhhhh including trans women, because thats the only demographic anyone wants to talk about when they go into a lesbians inbox), are NOT people IN the community sharing tragic and traumatic events from their own lives.

Lesbians are members of the LGBT Community. Lesbians have a RIGHT to to be here, and we have a RIGHT to discus the things that are hurting us, same as anyone else.

What you DON'T have a right to do, is police the lived experiences of lesbians on the internet or otherwise, to play out your own victim complex. If YOU BELIEVE that eeeeveryone is out to get you, and that SOMEHOW the worst participants are lesbians on tumblr, I need you to know that is pathetic of you.

Women to start with - Cis women even, if you want to be specific - have the lowest possible numbers for violence. Cis women have the lowest numbers for supporting conservative ideas - by voting records! We have that data. Add on top of that, lesbians are a TINY minority of all cis women. So, a minority of a population that is more frequently targeted for violence is SO SCARY to you, that you HAVE to defensively smear their name before they can get you?

Grow the fuck up. I don't actually believe you're "afraid" of violence from lesbian women. I think you just found a way to be a bully and have your victim cake too. Women aren't required to be extra special niceys to you, the only thing we have to do is survive amidst the other factors that make that difficult, and honestly if you have to turn any attempt at LGBT healing into "But what if you maybe someday possibly align yourself with my actual enemies?!" I think you're a wuss. If you actually cared about chasing out bad actors and right wing extremists, you wouldn't go after the demographic that is the LEAST likely to vote republican.

You don't go after the real enemies, because you KNOW that men are more likely to be violent and abusive and harass you and do all the things that you accuse "TERF"s of doing. You're more afraid of them than you are willing to face the problem, and women are an easy target to you because of that. That is the definition of a coward. Hell, that's probably what got you so mad! @butch-reidentified was in a horrifying situation and survived, WHILE helping someone else, and it triggered you so badly you just dug deep into your ugly woman-hating soul to immediately slander her name and make it about YOU.

You. Are. Pathetic. Get better or shut up.

[ialwaysknewyouwerepunk]

i've been turning more and more inward about how i'm enjoying harry and how i'm processing the end of tour, but it feels good, for now at least. i celebrated seeing him live so thoroughly that my last time seeing him felt like the end of tour in some way. i don't want to feel like i'm missing out when i'm out with friends, like i will be during his last show, bc in a world without streams i also wouldn't see that show. i've basically been training myself to slow down and appreciate (old) content more, and bask in a show and its content for longer. or be at peace not seeing content from a particular show. bc sometimes i feel nervous about missing something, or i feel myself having fomo for a thing i could not possibly be at. and most especially, i am not missing out, bc i had so many glorious opportunities to see the tour. i'm literally having a diary moment here just analysing my behavior and my feelings about being on tumblr and in the fandom during tour bc it's been a lot but i've loved all of it. i'm so fucking happy (and relieved) i can find ways to enjoy it all in my own pace. this space has changed a lot in the last few years but the way their content hits me personally hasn't changed, unless i let it all overwhelm me and i lose sight of what really matters to me about following them. i think it'll feel great to have a break from harry on tour, and let all of it hit me. to revisit little things that happened. to go through my own photos and videos. to go back to his mvs and dive a little deeper into them, at last. maybe i'm just a little overstimulated and ready for harry to stop bombarding me with content fshdf but the way his music makes me feel and the way his goofy face makes me smile and the way his creativity and presence inspire me every day will clearly always remain, after staying strong through all of this, after all these years. thank you, dear diary, for listening. harry styles forever

[stirdrawsandreblaws]

said i'd swear off job searching for a week bc all it does is make me sick with anxiety but i started doing it again today and guess who's sick with anxiety

[sysig]

Tainted batch (Patreon)

[msfcatlover]

For the record, in my writing the subtle distinction in attitude between RH!Jason & RH!Steph is the same distinction in attitude between “Watch Me” & “You Were Wrong”. No, I cannot put this into words. No, I am not taking any side or trying to imply anything about either character. That’s just where I personally draw the line.

[truckstoptigers]

stomach has pulsing pain

something is wrong in there

breathing hurts moving hurts sitting up hurts

why can't anyone tell me what's wrong

[invinciblerodent]

i am never fucking moving to an apartment that's not on the top floor of a building again

[orcelito]

I think pain nights should not be. A thing.

[higherhell]

The hats I ordered that said they were out for delivery a month ago and then never showed up and I thought had been consumed by the void mysteriously reappeared at the post office and I was able to pick them up today we're so back

[firefly-fez]

you know what if you ever feel like you’re not happy with where you are in life and the old version of you would be disappointed to see what you became…maybe just wind the clock back a little bit further. sure maybe 18 year old me has some regrets about things she didn’t accomoplish. But 5 year old me is looking up at me with bambi eyes and she has one (1) priority: if she and her best friend are still best friends. and you know, what kid? yes. yes we are still best friends. and guess what? we don’t have to ask for permission to go on playdates anymore. everything is okay, actually

[wholemleko]

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[milo-is-rambling]

Ignoring my emotions and going to try to sleep. If that doesn’t work I will write poetry about my shitty fucking feelings and then try to go to sleep. If that doesn’t work I’ll take my sleepy time cough meds and try to sleep if that doesn’t work I will simply be miserable until morning

[rosaacicularis]

so sorry if someone’s already asked this but where do you get inspiration and ideas from :0?

i don’t even know at this point 😭😭 one time i was at work and i saw salt and pepper shakers and thought ‘omg au where grian and scar are salt and pepper shakers that are different tables in a restaurant and have to find their way back to each other 😌😌’ like????

i think it’s the neurodivergence but my brain can latch onto an object or concept and then go through like the evolutions and become a full fledged idea. like the plane au one was from a tiktok that was like ‘my flight got delayed :/‘ and my mind went a mile a minute or like i saw a post on instagram of someone getting married and went ‘oh scar and grian would do that for money’

so in short, i get inspiration from literally everything, i let it fester in my subconscious until the idea becomes coherent enough that i can make a tumblr post about it <3