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Welcome to the Restraint! (Restaurant)
Imagine Danny runs to Gotham and starts squatting in an abandoned old building in Crime Alley. Slowly putting some ecto into the place to claim it as his haunt (while recovering from the sudden loss of his old one). And he does the normal stuff to survive. Finds some odd jobs, often as a messenger, and is just surviving. Another thing he does is make his own food. It’s cheaper than takeout and he’s gotten pretty good at cooking (out of necessity instead of eating sentient hotdogs). Then he ends up accidentally taking in some street kids. Or more like they follow him home. He can’t just turn them away so he makes a meal for them and lets them stay the night then sends them on their way. And then it happens again. And again. And ok, so maybe he saved a girl from getting molested. And that older guy from getting his only good blanket stolen. And sure, maybe letting that poor pizza delivery guy rant was unnecessary but he looked like he was having a bad day ok? Pretty sure that kid with the scar is a meta too but…he needed a place to stay a few nights alright? It’s not like any of them stay permanently. Danny’s started picking up a few more odd jobs to pay for all the extra food he’s had to buy. Always keeping his place stocked. At least he doesn’t have to pay for water and a fridge, he just makes some ice (or melts it). Sure the water is cold, but it’s probbaly the cleanest water in Gotham. And then some of the people start paying. Like…actually paying in exchange for food. Not sure if it’s because of guilt or pity but Danny won’t look a gift horse in the mouth. And with all the money, he hasn’t had to take as many dangerous jobs. Soon, his little abandoned apartment became what’s essentially the closest thing to a legitimate restaurant in Crime Alley.
It didn’t look normal. The chairs and tables were more like old couches and stools pulled up to coffee tables and cabinets turned on their side. Although with the bulling becoming more like Danny’s haunt, the walls naturally started repairing themselves so at least it didn’t look like it was gonna collapse anymore. And ok…so Danny might have rescued a few feral kids who…weirdly have gold eyes. And possibly stopped a meta trafficking ring on accident. And look, these people didn’t have anywhere to go! And the apartment did have empty rooms. It was already known as a place someone could crash for the night (last winter the entire place was cramped with people. Danny had to break up multiple fights but they usually calmed down when he got there.)
One benefit from controlling a haunt is controlling the temperature inside so it was one of the only buildings with ‘heat’. But back to his…strays. So yeah…most didn’t seem like they could rejoin society…so he let them stay. And…they kind of became employees? Impromptu bodyguards? (Some of the golden eyed people almost felt like he was rangling feral ghosts again.) they came in all ages. A few kids, lots of teens, and a few adults. Same with the metas he rescued. They mostly helped deliver food to costumers. They even got a phone line working and could take orders. (Although the new…employees…also got more protective whenever a fight broke out.) With all the extra money he’s been getting he was even able to afford some medical supplies. A lot of his customers(?) came in injured and he tried his best to patch them up but now he could do more than tie some ripped clothing around the wound and use ice to numb it. He’s got bandages. And pain killers. Plus other medical stuff. He can even give someone stickers now! All that experience as an injured vigilante was paying off. Even Villains and goons start attending this place. The place was unofficially designated as one of the Alley’s ‘safe zones’ where no fighting takes place inside (the body guards make sure of it.) the metas and Talons are getting an identity for themselves, the street kids even get a job and a hideout, random people can go there for help or to pass messages, this place provides food, shelter, and medical care. No one wants it going down.
So yeah, welcome to the restaurant!
(I’m debating whether I want this to be the weirdest restaurant/safe place/truce area in the alley, or whether I want Danny to accidentally become a crime lord. Possibly both.)
Also, this place is called the Restraint because I keep misspelling Restaurant and I think Danny would do the same so the name stuck. (Or one of the kids spelled it when making a sign or passing around messages to spread the word of this safe place.)
So anyways, to add some angst, after Danny adopts a bunch of crime alley kids/villains they find out about Danny’s powers and that he’s a ghost, only they don’t know about Halfas so they think Danny is fully dead and this super kind guy who has been the only person to ever treat them like people…died. He died likely a long time ago and there’s nothing any of them can do to change that.
(And if the GIW dare to come into the alley, they better be prepared for the entire place to turn on them.)
#Dpxdc#dcxdp#Kizzer55555 ideas#I kinda like the idea of Danny also being able to cure joker venom#So like what could happen is a recent attack caused some people he knew to get infected#they came into the Restraint laughing while tears trailed down their face and they were gasping like they couldn’t breathe.#Danny can immediatly tell something’s wrong and can practically see their veins glowing green.#They had enough joker venom that it should be perminant but Danny uses his powers.#What he does is concentrate and phase shift them and ONLY them. Letting the venom fall through and splatter the ground with a hiss.#It’s the first time anyone has seen Danny use powers but everyone unanimously agrees never to mention it.#Of course. There are many people people who might then bring their loved ones to Danny. Hoping he could help.#You would be surprised how many kids are in the alley because their parents were gassed with joker venom#and the foster system wouldn’t take them. Or people who lost their jobs to pay for medical bills for loved ones.#So then an alley guy brings his gassed sister in. She had been in the hospital for 2 years now and he knows it’s a long shot.#But he has to try.#It’s harder than the fresh venom since the drug had been more absorbed into the girl. Danny has to really focus and it takes longer#But bit by bit he manages to separate the joker venom and her laughing soon turns to sobbing as her mouth stops smiling.#When he’s done the brother and sister are both crying. The girl is malnourished because it’s hard to eat while laughing but she’ll be ok.#Soon all the alley people start bringing in loved ones. It’s very subtle because there’s NO WAY they are exposing Danny’s abilities.#However people start noticing that joker victims have started to disappear from hospitals.#Danny is covered in scars from vigilantism.#He may or may not have vivisection scars.#Whether it was from phantom and he just escaped before revealing his identity or bad reveal is up to you.
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Day 7 — Birthday / Anniversary ₊˚✧ ゚
Submission for @minthe-drawings #BaxterMCWeek!
MC: Ai/Sky
#she's been wanting to do that for years#biding her time#lmfaoooo#BaxterMCWeek#baxter mc week#baxter ward#olba#ol:ba#our life beginnings and always#our life#ol baxter#baxter#mc china#iwrite art#I'M DONE#I DID IT#😭😭😭#I don't think I've ever successfully completed a prompt week#*sobs*#I'm so proud of myself#now I die
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What's this remake after uh. It's too late to count I made the other one in March figure it out
The Melia :) the mels the mewia the (I'm shot)
Old one down here
#pokemon rejuvenation#my art#melia pokemon rejuvenation#She's so cute#Starts sobbing#SHE'S JUST A KIIIIDDD.#God when I get my hands on you#Well#Past. Tens. No wait I don't think you can time travel past a world reset#Atleast it wouldn't make sense. To me. Right now#So that means....#Idk! I'm. So fucking tired it's 11 and I got school tommorow I am DONE FOR
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Ugly crying over Miraculous London special
#THE END SCENE W LADYNOIR ISTG#PLEASE#I WAS SOBBING THE WHOLE TIME BUT THAT END GOT TO ME#MY POOR BABIES HAVE TOO MUCH TRAUMA#POOR MARINETTE#WHEN ADRIEN FOUND OUT GABRIEL DIED LIKE THE SHOCK I CANT#I FUCKING HATE GABRIEL HOW DARE HE MAKE MARI LIE#IF HE DIDNT HAVE IT AS HIS DYING WISH SHE WOULDNT HAVE DONE THIS#UGHH STOP BEING A GOOD PERSOB#BUT THE END#THEY WERE AT THEIR SPOT#JUST LIKE OLD TIMES#breaks down sobbing#GGRHRHRH PLEASE#also Nathalie should be payed overtime she’s literally the mother of all the miraculous holders now#reverie’s daydreams#miraculous ladybug#miraculous london#marinette dupain cheng#adrien agreste#ladybug#chat noir#ladynoir#adriennete
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More rambling about Wild Kratts Game Lore bc I can
On today's episode of "shit about the flash games that I am probably the only person alive to care to notice," let's look at a certain pattern in the tutorials that, whilst it may seem minor, may actually reflect something about the overall website (and if you have no clue what the f*ck I'm talking about, feel free to stay, it's so much funnier that way)
Ok so let's look at the first wave of flash games made by Chocolate Liberation Font (the dev-team behind them). In the tutorials of these games, (i.e. Cheetah Racer, Ride on Remora, Caracal Leap, Draco Glide, Kickboxing Kangaroo, ect), one of the Kratt Brothers would introduce the animal and objective before activating their Creature Powers. When they do so, we see a close-up of their shirt (oddly enough without the suit or gloves??), and we see the buttons on the Creature Power Suit with the Creature Disc insignia in the same color as the suit itself.
Some image examples as Exhibit A.
You get the picture.
Now let's move on to the games that were added to the website in 2012 by Pixelpusher; Flower Flier, (R.I.P.) Croc Hatch, Frogfish Feast, Aardvark Town, and Web-tastic!; The Wild Kratts Creature Math Suite that collectively made up a quintilogy game, Creature Roundup. These games features new animals and new Creature Powers, 3/5 of which were featured in Season 2 of Wild Kratts which had recently premiered on PBS Kids at the time. Like before, the Kratt Brothers introduce the creature, the objective and Activate Creature Powers. However, here is one difference;
When the screen zooms in on the Creature Power Suit post-activation, we can see the physical Creature Power Disc itself over where the PowerSuit button/creature insignia would be. Regardless of the disc's color, it would show up. As shown below in Exhibit B.
Quite the difference eh?
But wait, it gets even more fun.
In 2013, two games, Dolphin Dive, and Slither Run, also done by Pixelpusher, are released. They're not affiliated with the Math Suite, but are in the same league as them. In the tutorials where the brothers activate their Creature Power Suits, you realize that, just like in the games developed by Chocolate Liberation Font, the close-ups of the buttons don't have any overlays of the disc (using Slither Run here because Dolphin Dive wasn't a good enough example)
Put a pin in this, because this becomes relevant later.
Let's redirect ourselves to the habitats. You probably remember exploring the habitats, finding and learning about different animals, unlocking photos, and adventuring with the Creature Powers earned from the games. The site was updated to include some new habitats and Creature Powers, but let's exactly look into the details of that, shall we?
Here are the available Creature Powers to use in the habitats to unlock the photos for your adventure journal in the character creator page, Your Room. Rattlesnake Power, Draco Lizard Power, Cheetah Power, Kangaroo Power, Caracal Power, Squirrel Power, Firefly Power, Dolphin Power, and Remora Power.
Now, you may notice that the Creature Power Suits from the Math Suites (Hummingbird Power, Crocodile Power, Frogfish Power, Aardvark Power, and Spider Power) are missing here. In fact, they're not in any way able to use in the habitats. They (along with Dolphin Power and Rattlesnake Power) are also absent amonst the assortment of Creature Powers to use in the supergame, Habitat Rescue Game.
This is where I pull stuff out of my ass cause I'm fcking crazy everything comes together.
Notice how the only Creature Powers that aren't available to use in the habitats are Creature Powers that the brothers use in the games where the physical discs are displayed on the buttons. The only ones available to play are ones where the button is visible when the brothers activate that particular Creature Power.
Conversely, none of the Creature Power Suits from games developed by Chocolate Liberation Font have PowerSuit photos that the user can take with a camera once they complete Level 5. Only the games added by Pixelpusher (this includes the Math Suite, Dolphin Dive, and Slither Run) are, and 5/7 of those games are where the physical disc is placed over the button. Slither Run and Dolphin Dive are anomalies from this pattern, but the majority rules (especially since they were added in post after the Math Suite).
But wait. It gets even deeper.
You know how I said in the assortment of games where the physical discs are present in the tutorials, Dolphin Dive, and Slither Run are anomalies in terms of games that had unlockable photos in levels? You know what pattern they aren't anomalies of?
Yeah, the Habitat Rescue Game at the beginning of this post wasn't just bc the game is fucking peak (based on a show that's fucking peak). None of the 7 Creature Powers from Pixelpusher's update to the website appear in the supergame Habitat Rescue. Not a single. One. And none of the Creature Powers available in Habitat Rescue are from games where you can unlock a photo in the site from directly finishing Level 5.
In case this has been way too complex, let me break it down *Activates Lawe's Parotia Power*
Creature Power Discs earned from games where the physical disc is not shown on the Power Suits after the activation in the tutorial are available in Your Room and the habitats.
Creature Power Discs earned from games in which the physical disc is visible over the Power Suit button in the tutorials are available in Your Room, but NOT in the habitats or Habitat Rescue Game.
Creature Power Discs earned from games in which you must complete Level 5 to earn the PowerSuit Photo and Badge, regardless if they physically appear on the Creature Power Suit in the tutorial, do not appear in the supergame.
None of the games that show the physical button of the suit have collectible photos from directly playing Level 5, BUT all of them that do are available to access in Your Room, the habitats, and Habitat Rescue Game.
CONCLUSION: Whilst there are many anomalies and errors in the structures or patterns of the original flash version of the online Wild Kratts website (I'm sure many of you noticed the duplicate Martins in the Aardvark Town tutorial Jesus Christ), some of these inconsistencies have consistencies in their inconsistencies, even if it wasn't the developers' intention. With this, you could logistify several appearances or absences of certain Power Discs in certain games or pages. And to those of you, who like me, grew up with the flash games and were confused as to why you couldn't access all 14 Creature Powers in the habitats or in Habitat Rescue, hopefully this observation could provide good enough answers and closer after a decade.
Thank you for coming to my TedTalk.
#wild kratts#pbs kids#kratt brothers#martin kratt#chris kratt#pbs kids go#2d kratt brothers#2d martin kratt#2d chris kratt#wild kratts games#wild kratts flash games#adobe flash#adobe flash player#adobe flash games#Tumblr's image count can suck my dick and ass I actually got this done (if the physical post doesn't finish all the way through I'm cooked)#I was mostly in the mood to post this bc of Athena P's upcoming WK lore video coming out this week#I am 169% positive that she is not going to cover any of the flash games and I'm 103% content with that#But it won't stop me from mentioning what I love and killing the part of me that cringes!#Between this and the timeline masterpost I have WAY too much free time on my hands#Gushing about the lore of these games (well not lore just sh*t I notice that's miniscule in the eyes of an average player)#... really makes me happy and distracts myself from the 2 flash games that are lost media#*sobs in a corner*#I am MANIFESTING that they come back and when they do expect me to be there or expect me to be dead /hyp /lhj#Anyways hope you enjoyed my rambling!#goodnight!
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giggling kicking my feet drawing hearts around a picture of her in a notebook
#she's SOOOOO CUTE sorry guys I'm just thinking about how much I fucking love her#she's so sweet and she's adorable and she's so kind and loving and she tries to come off as a hardass but she really isn't#and she also gives really good hugs oh my god every time I see clips of her hugging someone I'm like goddamn. I need that#just. UGHHHHH. VIIIIIIIIII THE WORLD💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖#and cait fumbled her ass. I need cait begging sobbing on her knees to get vi back#arcane#she's never done a thing wrong except for that well intentioned but objectively bad decision to briefly become a cop#which was just her uhauling instincts acting up we can all forgive her for that
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my sweet little baby man is no longer with us
#he had his bloodwork done yesterday and the vet said it was fine but he doesnt have much time left#and my bestie is a vet tech who wanted to see the lab results bc she always does and she looked at them#and asked me if she can shiw them to her boss today and i was like sure and immediately knew something was up#today keekki was being himself#then i went to run some errands and when i came back he was laying in front of the front door with his tiny baby head against it#and i was like ''oh ok one of his seizures?''#and theyre like. keekki will drool and not move and they usually last for like 20 minutes (several vets have no idea whats up with those#but it was probably either a kidney or a blood pressure thing)#anyways. it did not pass in 20 minutes so i Knew#i laid on the floor next to him#then my bff sent me a message asking me if i have the time to talk about keekki and its not good news#at this point i was about to call the vet anyways#and she was like ''ok i showed these to my boss (a vet) and she got super angry that ur vet even let you leave the clinic''#bc apparently keekkis bloodwork was so bad he should have been put down then and there but my vet was like a fresh half graduate#so i dont hold it against her. anyways i got an euthanasia appointment for this evening and spent the time before it laying on the couch#crying with keekki in my arms#i had to carry him bc he couldnt really walk without stumbling and falling down#when i had to get up to get his carrier and stuff ready he was taking a nap on the couch where i left him and i took this pic#anyways worst vet visit of my life i could hardly even do anything but nod half the time bc speaking results in me sobbing#anyways. this fucking sucks#i dont know how ill be able to sleep tonight#its been years since i last slept at home without having a little guy plop into my arms#i spent a long time with him in the vet room when he was gone#it feels surreal ive given him his last ever forehead kisses#as i left the room i told him bye the exact same way ive been saying bye to him for the last very many years ive had him#its always moikka keekki before i go to work or the store or literally anything#and that was my last moikka keekki#i hope he felt how loved he was#my dad is sending me older pics of me and keekki and he looks so happy in them. hes always right next to me#idk man im going to stop rambling now
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ARCANE EPISODE 7!!!!
MY GOD I WASNT READY FOR ANY OF THIS!!! WHAT WAS THAT!!!
Also ekko wallpaper I got with my fries lmao
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#OH MY GOOOD!!!!!! POWDER AND EKKO!!! AND BENZOOOOOO#ITS LITERALLY WHAT COULD HAVE BEEN OMGG!!!!! POWDER LOOKS SO CUTE 😭😭😭😭 IM CRYING ALREADYYYY#VANDER WITH A BUN!! AND EVERYTHING IS SO FULL OF LIGHT!!! HER EYES!!! MYLO LOOKS SO RIDICULOUS AKDJSK THIS GIRLAAA#“where would you be without her” WELL BUDDY IF YOU KNEW HOW HE IS WITH HER!!! VI IS DEAD????? OR SHE WAS TAKEN FOR THE INCIDENT!!!#LOOK AT WHAT YOU DID JAYCE!!! MY GOD!!! THE GEMS KILLED VI SO THEY JUST COMPLETELY PROHIBITED THEM!!! JAYCE IS IN JAIL PROBABLY!!#the fact we are seeing exactly why jayce should be sorry about what he has done.... and we are seeing him suffer because of it... cinema 🚬#also mel fading into viktor.... also has he realised how she manipulated him in the beggining??? there is so much stuff...#jayce eating contaminated animals and his wound being infected with the arcane too..... is that what will push him....#omg.... ekko likes powder so much... he apologised by painting actual adult vi portraits where the fallen are in his universe 😭😭😭#“she looks so badass” if you knew... is he gonna ask her to help him make hextech.... that is so sick and twisted....#also jayce hurting his leg loke viktor and having to use a cane and brace.... damn and you know whats worse..... that ekko could be like#this with the jinx of his universe IF ISHA HADNT DIED!!! AND IT IS BEACUSE OF JAYCE!! AGAIN!!!!! THIS MAN!!!!!#the drawing with the anomaly and the two men and the inifite symbol... we get it... jayce and viktor forever intertwined by fate....#powder is sensing something is off.... omg time travel..... THE LIMIT IS FOUR SECONDS AFTER HEIMERDINGER EPXLODED ALDHAKSHSKSJSOJSOSLS#i dont want a time travel ending.... if its done for plot to an extent is okay but idk about solving it all.... it makes it feel worhtless#claggor looks so fine its not even funny..... i cant wait to see what everyone thinks. WHERE IS THE LITTLE LADY bc hes called little man 😭#and vander with arm tattoos.... why did they hipster fied him.... he looks younger somehow ajdhakj he went from taking care of 4 kids to 3!#SILCO!!!! AND HE DID TRY TO KILL HIM!! ALSJAKSKAK Ekko just laighing at it.... girl i would be pissed STROMAE??? OMG POWDER!!!!#I JUST REALIZED THE PINK IN HER HAIR IS FOR VI!! AND HER JACKET!! AND A DRESS LIKE HER MOTHER'S!! CRYING!!! FULL BODY CHILLS!!!#CAN WE JUST PRETEND LIKE ITS THE FIRST TIME!!! I GAVE UP ON YOU!!! WHAT HAPPENED BACK THEN I NEED TO KNOW!!! IM SOBBING!!! EKKO!!!!#NOOOOOOO THE ANOMALY NOOOOO!!!! HEIMERDINGER NOOOOO!!!! AND THATS JAYCE!!! IS THAT MAGE VIKTOR???? the monkeys......#the vi toy with the out love song machine.... my god i wasnt expecting any of this i need to breathe i am stil tearing up my god#what a fucking punch in the stomach christ i cant breathe right akdhsksso#the credits saying the deries has benefited from a spanish tax rebate in the canary islands??? you're welcome i guess lmao#animation production carried out there and has ben collaboration with the Spanish gov... alright another win for perro sanxe#talking tag#watching arcane#watching arcane season 2#watching this i dont think im ready for caitvi sex.... after reconciliation even like what will be of me.... now im scared#i am still scared bc idk what happened to jinx and vi and cait still... thats what worried me and boom!! ekko powder with the steel chair..
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oh there's something particularly painful about my mister in that dong hoon tells ji an that as long as no one knows, it's no big deal, and there's something particularly painful about how ji an tells dong hoon that sometimes, i want [my secret] to play out on big screens for everyone to see, and there's something particularly painful about how the second dong hoon meets the loan shark tormenting ji an, he starts screaming and yelling about how she's just a kid, how could you do that to a kid, and there's something particularly painful about how dong hoon doesn't even let ji an know he did that, but ji an knows. she knows because she was listening in the entire time and she just starts crying because someone actually knows this ugly, sad part of her and still took her side, and something particularly painful about how my mister started with as long as no one knows, it's no big deal but really concludes with there is so much risk in having someone know who you are but there's also so much comfort and peace to be found in that, too and maybe you shouldn't isolate yourself and maybe you should reach for that kind of comfort in being known and loved anyways
#caroline talks#my mister#if this is incoherent. it should be#rewatched the first 2.5 episodes of my mister last night#felt like crying my eyes out the entire time tbh!!#every time i watch this show there's just something about it that hurts me more and more and there's something that makes the messages#in this show feel more and more relevant#idk. thinking a lot about when ji an talks about how sometimes she wishes. sometimes she wishes#that everyone knew what she'd done and what had been done to her.#something about how ji an can't ever bring herself to connect truly with another person because of how much she hates#the feeling of people realizing what her past looks like#and not wanting to withstand the pity and also horror. like. okay.#something about ji an sobbing by the bridge when she listens to dong hoon pummeling that loan shark guy#and how i used to always cry at that scene but now i tear up just thinking about it#because you know! there's that shock (that firstly: someone knows your miserable secret. and secondly: they're still on your side)#and then absolute heartache because you don't know what to do with that information. you didn't expect it.#you're sobbing at a bridge because someone knows who you are and someone knows the scars of your past and still gets angry and sad for you.#and you still feel like you don't deserve it because you know deep down you are not a very good person (or so you tell yourself).#and. oughough. lee ji an holds such a place in my miserable little heart
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am i suffering with my first piercings as an adult (my second hole on my ear) bc i literally cant figure out how to get these stupid flat back piercings off? yes. am i still daydreaming about getting a medusa piercing bc i think my lips are perfect for that? also yes
#DO NOT GIVE ME ADVICE ON HOW TO GET THEM OFF BTW#THIS ISNT A “I DONT KNOW HOW” ISSUE ITS A “I LITERALLY CANT GRIP THIS IN MY HANDS BC MYHANDS ARE WONKY” ISSUE#im going to the shop to ask them to help me get them out soonish tho.... i need to get the jewlery i WANT first#and i gotta stop trying to do it myself cause i keep tugging so hard i get little cuts ):#also imagine how hard that would fuck given the way my hair looks#(speaking of. desperately need to cut my hair. not even a want a need atp. i wish i knew how to taper my sides at home for winter SOBS)#(im just not good at doing it on myself. ive done it on my wife's hair a few times but she's got much nicer hair to work with imo)#(also like cutting ur own hair is just HArd)
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hey guys
#noland got a 6* upgrade this month . godspeed lucy maybe next time#even noland has the trainer files alt too :sob:#SHES BEEN DONE SO DIRTY ITS SO FUNNY#talk tag
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oh yeah throwback to one of the kids birthdays where I was always the oldest and was less a guest and more like. A helper to set up things but also a scapegoat in case anything went wrong
#og#one kid said I hit her once which. I did NOT#I DIDNT FUCKING TOUCH HER BECAUSE I KNOW SHED SAY THAZ THE SECOND I CAME WITHIN 3 FEET OF HER#FUCK YOU ANNA#anyways she said I hit her and I literally got interrogated until I was sobbing about whether I’d done it#which I vehemently denied because yknow. I didn’t do it#until the damn brat was like well I forgive you AND THEN IT WAS GOOD#LIKE ME CRYING AND SAYING THAT I WASNT EVEN ANYWHERE CLOSE TO HER AT THE TIME WASNT ENOUGH TO CONVINCE THEM#BUT HER SAYING IT WAS OK NOW WAS ENOUGH TO DROP THE TOPIC??#I am still so unbelievably mad about that#I didn’t do anything#tearing up while typing this#I was in like third grade why did they hate me so much
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just finished the Broken Earth trilogy and ngl I’m never gonna be the same
#shhh sharkie#i’m crying in a burger king rn#like literally i need to go pick up my stupid fabric order and the stupid joann’s is a half hour walk from the bus stop#but is also across the street from burger king and I was so hungry#anyway I just finished The Stone Sky and need to figure out how to be normal#edit: adding on that i’m fairly sure this old lady in the burger king was prolonging her stay to watch my face journey#i caught her looking at me a few times and while i was trying not to sob i looked up and saw her staring very intently at me#she was very clearly done with her food and only got up to leave when I was clearly done with what i was doing#you go lady i support old peoples rights to be weirdos about whatever they want
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So I may have been slightly obsessing over “To sir with love”, as one does, and a thing that has been circling in my head for the last few days is the way Tian's confrontation with his mother at the start of episode 13 and his talk with Yang at the end of the same episode echo and oppose each other.
Madame Li comes to Tian when he is in love, hopeful, begging for a chance at happiness, and how does she respond? She crushes it, with the revelation about Jiu and Mr. Ma yes, but mostly with everything else. You will never know love, she says, except mine. That stifling love who wants him to be someone else, that chips at who he is again and again and again.
Then Yang finds his brother (heart)broken, and Tian holds him back to confess his love, again, now in despair and shame and self loathing. And Yang response to that is as it has always been, that his brother is wonderful just as he is. You deserve love he promises, and I love you I love you I love you. A love with no reservation and for all that Tian is, a love always there.
And they both love Tian, they are both afraid and worried for him, both are going to great lengths to protect him, at this point both believe that Jiu has lied to Tian and played him. And. Yet. His mother again puts the blame on him, on who he is, makes him guilty of his own betrayal. His brother reminds him that it's not true, that the betrayer is to blame, and that the fault never laid with him.
And so it's no surprise that Tian pushes away his mother and the prison her love has built around him, but seeks the comfort of his brother's love who has always celebrated who he is.
#the contrast between the ways Madame Li and Yang love Tian was fascinating to me during the whole series#the way his mother keeps pushing him down into shame and his brother keeps lifting him up and celebrating all of who he is#also I was already pretty weepy halfway through the discussion at the temple#but when Mme Li said 'no one will ever love someone like you' I straight up sobbed#the violence of those words??? mein gott I had to stop the video a moment#and after seeing him smile like that at being loved?? believing he's being deceived is NOT an excuse putain#(anyway there is a lots of shared blame for the way Tian views himself (hi Mr Song) but she's done a big part of the work ngl)#on the other hand Yang get the Best Brother Award - leaving the rest of the competition far far behind#and don't get me started on Tian's crying face#it got to me every fucking time like excellent job here but also I ended up on the verge of dehydration too many times#Khun Chai#To sir with love#thai drama#lakorn#asianlgbtqdrama#Tian x Jiu#TianJiu#One31#thai bl#mine#gifs#ragongif
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#tw cancer#currently sobbing bc#my former high school classmates and i graduated back in 2015 and still have a whatsapp group together#our form teacher is in too and by now she's already retired… and so has my former english teacher#she gave us his email address last year but i never got to write to him or forgot… i also heard he battled cancer and it hurt sm to think#about bc i loved him sm as my prof#and now i was typing out the email after all this time and ended up thanking him for all his influence bc boyyy he just#he's done so much more for him than he'll ever know. he's the reason i grew to love the english language#and why i had the confidence to write in it and speak it and enjoy it… back then he supported me so much#and gawd im crying so much thinking about the things the english class did for me a decade ago… time fucking passes like this huh#just… teachers honestly never know the influence they have on the kids. can be good or bad but gosh if it's good then it lasts forever#and i guess that is true for everyone.. good people have an effect on you forever. i strive to be kind to have that effect too :') and#appreciate those who did just that for me#i hope he writes back to me.. and i hope he's been well#gawd. tears. yeah anyway just wanted to let this out somewhere#sigh
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other than the immediate hilarity of 'we should just totally summon zodiark', I can't help think what would have happened if the events of eden had unfolded after ew. like the wol was consistently making every primal they remembered Worse and melding them together. so what I'm saying is we would have had to fight amon/fandaniel/hermes again but he would have been 1000x more annoying and had tentacles
#the writing in eden was just so good and so funny#additional hilarity that she's saying this in front of lohgrif though no one knows that yet#'preferably defeated' like yeah we could use something that wiped the floor with you as a plan B#ffxivmp#ffxiv#mp#they would have made the platform spin even worse somehow#yes I've done zodiark ex no I had no clue what was going on the whole time and just followed the dorrito while sobbing#this would be about the same#add in curtain call and quadruple or something#unskippable mid-fight cs where he just monologues
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