#but. let a girl have her projections
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i rarely derive character headcanons from my own life but here's one (which @kinomiya told me to post. dunno how seriously. but i did it)
whenever max is outside japan, so like for the first 10+ years of his life at least, he has to deal with nobody knowing how to spell or pronounce his surname. all day long. every day. when he gets a bit older he becomes extremely self-conscious about it because "mizuhara" is so long and sits so poorly in any non-japanese-speaker's mouth, plus it feels like just the name alone plastered anywhere is like automatically revealing something private about him to anyone who sees it because it immediately reveals he's not just your regular white american. but he's very white-passing which adds an extra layer of confusion for people who see it in connection to his face and he feels like he always has to explain himself, which he doesn't want to do because it's a pretty humiliating experience in the first place to feel like you have to somehow explain your existence to other people all the time.
so he usually opts out to introduce himself as just max. like when he meets someone new who shakes his hand and introduces themselves by full name. he's like "i'm …..max :)" or if he does end up saying his surname too, it always seems to carry too much weight, and he pronounces it too carefully because somehow he wants it to sound authentically japanese instead of like an english-speaker saying a japanese name half-assedly because idek. (i mean, hdek. he doesn't even know)
when he attends school in the states, he gets idiotic comments on the name from other students. stuff like HOW CAN THERE BE THAT MANY SYLLABLES IN A NAME LOLOLOL. only teachers can actually tell it's japanese. generally people ignore it though, maybe to avoid making awkward generalisations
in the era of snail mail still being a thing, he's received mail with all sorts of variations. the most "interesting" ones are letters from his american relatives that feature some abomination of the name and he has to wonder how even his cousins can't be bothered to check it. or ask. he suspects the relatives too are a bit embarrassed about not knowing how to spell it. (as for how they would actually misspell it, i don't really have ideas ready because, i'm not an english speaker so i can't actually put it together in my brain how a native might spell mizuhara by ear. do share your ideas)
but it's a pain in the ass for even himself to spell sometimes. every time he makes a typo while typing it, he feels a special kind of shame for it because it's like, even i can't write my own fucking name, and what if someone saw that just now. it's much faster in japanese of course, just two kanji. but, and this is another headcanon, max isn't as accustomed to writing japanese so especially after not using it in a long time, it takes a couple of very embarrassing seconds to switch the alphabet gear in his brain.
and. well this one max may take better than i personally do. the knowledge that there very likely isn't anyone else in the world with the same name. being unique is cool and all but there comes a point when you just feel too singled out. also, fitting in one culture/community with your first name, and a different one with your surname, but never both at the same time. it's simultaneously cool and mentally and socially crippling.
that's it. that's the headcanon
#bey things#max isn't a socially anxious loser like me though so maybe he wouldn't be as bothered by most of these things#but. let a girl have her projections
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Some idiot #sketches on Ramattra and D-va bc I like them 😊 (both as silly friends and/or like a ship💜) Before some people start moaning: I love to see our great ommiac in good company and be happy ! 😚
#Overwatch#Fanart#Hana Song#D-Va#First time I draw her ^^"#Ramattra#dvattra#video game#my headcanon#just in timelaps where they're friends#or just an AU XP#Anyway#FR I like a lot ships Ramattra and just a simple interaction with him make me so happy 😚#Same when someone draws the King from Dead Cells (even if it's not my version of that idiot)#By the way#I'll let you guess the music Rama is singing#Every time I hear it - I imagine an animatic where Rama sings it#And is hated by all the OW girls who end up chasing him (and whom he “runs away from” in a stupidly cartoonish way)#I'll have to find someone with 3D animation skills to make it (and pay them - obviously !)#But now I've I have other projects - one of which will be arriving shortly !#But shhh ! It's always a secret !#I forget one tag ! Help !#artist on tumblr
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In the universe of the film, there is ABSOLUTELY a contingent of fans that fervently ship Argylle/Wyatt and have the dominant ship on AO3 and trade elaborate fan theories about their hidden relationship and are convinced they’re meant to be endgame but the publishers won’t allow it. Of course, they go totally BALLISTIC when they learn they’re based on the author and her boyfriend.
#argylle#argylle spoilers#my only real complaint with argylle is that we were robbed of a henry cavill/john cena kiss#there’s so much fun to be had with the universe of this film especially in regards to the book fandom#i like to believe aidan stirs up ship drama on fandom forums and social media#the minute rachel’s spy past gets declassified it’s OVER for her in fandom lol#i can appreciate not everyone being into the film’s bait and switch#but i can’t help but love a spy film that lets the female lead be a whole women struggling to define herself#while also kicking ass and having a sweet goofy guy be head over heels for her#this really is the kind of movie that fandom could have soooo much fun with#don’t even get me started on elly/rachel projecting all of her badass spy escapades on a super manly fit dude#like if he’s done everything she’s done…girl memory-holed her own bisexuality lol
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fortiche studios please make her a canon dyke please and thank u
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#seeing her shipped with men disgusts me on another level#sorry not sorry this is a DYKE#first. eughhhh#saw her w s*lco#ew#and then someone was talking sbout viktor#EUWGH#get those scrawny rats away from her#the straights have mels mom#sevika is for the girls#‘but it’s harmless!! let people have fun!!’#no❤️#I am mentally unwell about this woman!! it DOES harm me seeing her w a man 👎#im gonna manifest#🕯🕯🕯🕯👩❤️💋👩Lesbian Sevika👩❤️💋👩🕯🕯🕯🕯#and before any whiny bitches get defensive#no i do not see her as a lesbian because she’s muscular#i see her as a lesbian because i really really love her and i like to self project onto my fav characters#sorry to rant but christ ik someone out there feels the same 😭#sevika#arcane#I need shimmer sev so bad omfg like#just look at her#meowwwwwwwww#meowmeowmeow
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i like when people treat xavier's constant need for sleep as a disability/illness. because it is. you should treat it with the same gravity as insomnia babygirl
#will never forget when a professor (PSYCHOLOGY PROFESSOR) made fun of me because my eyes were heavy in class and he kept telling me#“you're gonna fall asleep” and i kept having to deny it like dude if you don't want to teach your own course find a hobby don't argue with#a girl who can't even process what you're saying correctly but is embarrassed as hell and is fighting for her life to stay awake#ANYWAYS#LET ME PROJECT *SHAKES XAVIER LIKE MEPHISTO*#xavier#love and deepspace#xavierposting
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it's so painful that i can't romance vivienne with an inquisitor who is genuinely head over heels, absolutely heartstruck by her. because now all i can do is imagine mescha sitting on her balcony late at night as she spins the ring vivienne gave to her around her finger again and again and again as she stares at the stars and wonders if it any of it means anything at all. if any of the 'darling's and 'my dear's and 'sweet thing's vivienne has so casually sent her way meant anything more than just passive endearment.
#dai#dragon age#dragon age inquisition#vivienne#vivienne de fer#mescha cadash#cadash#inquisitor cadash#mescha's feelings on vivienne are sooo complex. comphet is so strong with mescha. she was a noble hunter and had kids with a noble man.#she then left and joined the carta where she got into a relationship with the dasher because she felt like it was expected of her and#it was how she was raised to gather favor. and then she joins the inquisiton and she doesnt have to be around the dasher anymore#and she has her daughters safe with the inquisiton. and suddenly she has room to breathe#suddenly she has room to think. to fantasize. to get tangled up in her own feelings of affection and attraction and#the dreading overwhelming fear that she is just like bastien. just like the dasher. just like the father of her first two children. because#she is in a position of power over vivienne and is petrified of that sort of power. she doesnt want to be like them. she lives in fear of#being like them.#projection is so so strong with mescha please girl take a nap. take a break. let yourself love
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colored something from a little while ago
#ocs#moxie#thalia#having thoughts abt them#i feel like i view their situationship from thalia's pov when looking at it because i tend to project on her more and this makes me like.#portray her as being the more unfortunate one in it But you know what IT TAKES TWO she's aware it isn't that good for her#but she likes it too much so even if she's so latched onto moxie despite not having the need for commitment reciprocated towards her#she's still actively making the choice to continue this instead of moving on#moxie is essentially leading her on but thalia is letting herself be lead on she's letting moxie use her#my sweet tree flesh girl
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I wanna know more about you
#fear and hunger#fear and hunger termina#samarie#marina#samarina#art#i love samarie so much.. instant art block cure.. jusy an interestjng critter#kind of projecting ish. more samarie lore please soon#thought of the school days design for samarie and was going for. catholic school girl they never let cut her hair due to superstitions#but shes still kind of neurotic u kno. thats just how she is#id like to think shes always cut her bangs (otherwise her style is just pulling all her hair out the face#and she thinks the bangs looks cool i suppose. and when she grows up she cuts rhe hair where rhe ponytail was#just very unserious content . oooo don't take it seriously ooo . i have never had faith in my characterizations
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Fantastic news everybody: Zuko/Sokka is only about 600 fics away from overtaking Zutara as the most popular ATLA ship tag on AO3. Finally, nature is healing.
#atla#zuko#sokka#it's not that i hate zutara it's just that i hate zutara#it's always done SO badly. they're always written really OOC#zuko's personality is always erased into either Cute Awkward Boy or just generic Sexy Bad Boy#and katara either becomes generic Good Girl or her personality is completely erased to turn into a blank slate for readers to project onto#and lets be real here: the main appeal to shipping them is just because they're the most attractive members of the main cast#bet you anything if aang wasn't designed to look like the baby faced 12 year old that he is kataang would be way more popular#also real talk the zutara 'chemistry' ppl reference? is usually them genuinely hating each other#or it's just them having normal friendly interactions#or worse it's that arc of katara being actively hostile while zuko passively accepts her abuse
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as a little treat i am sharing with you little Aya doodles I've done over the last few days to unwind ww just little expressions based on lines in-game because those are always fun to draw. nothing too special just biscuit
it's Aya because upon doing bizarrely throughout playthroughs of the game for still unspecified project purposes I've gained a soft spot for her she's my daughter now my mental tier list on my favorite characters is so confusing right now
#re:kinder#fanart#aya re:kinder#aya hibino#i state shes my daughter NOW because before i didnt pay too big of a mind to her#but honestly in each different playthrough of this game i gain new appreciation for each character#because fun fact ryou was my favorite character at first just because he seemed nice and was a healer and was nice#second playthrough brought in rei and shunsuke in my mind because they ate it up wirh their roles in the story#meanwhile as time passed yuuichi started to grow on me as i realized he was a little too relatable BASICALLY THINGS LIKE THAT#and spoilers for the unspecified project mentioned in the text just because i feel like it#i also did this because having a transcript of every line just spurred me on becquse of how easy it made things#its much more fun to start doing these kind of line based doodles when you dont have to manually go througj hours of gameplay to find stuff#so just being ablr to ctrl f through a document made me very glad HEUEHEHEBEHR#im still working on it it needs proofreading and polishing on some sides but overall it should be here soon i hope#if anyones interested in it do let me know HUEHEHEBRB i will post it regardless but it would be nice to know if anyone is interested#ANYWAY#as to why Aya seems to have a purse when her sprite doesnt its because her equipment mentions her carrying a yellow pouch#its meant to be that!!!#she looks very goofy with it on made me giggle ngl#(as in. amusement)#it adds more interest to her visual design so its nice to have it there im glad its there#OH YEAH SOME COMMENTARY ON ONE OF HER LINES HERE THAT REALLY PIQUED MY INTEREST#if sayaka dies and shes there to see it (thus. you chose to bring her with you) she has this line#where it implies that shes afraid of dying which makes things sad when she's suicidal#she already states i think her desire is more to disappear than to die exactly but even then it's quite sad#like even if she wants to disappear with how gloomy she's feeling and all the things going around with her parents#shes just a little girl who doesn't want to die😭😭#it really adds a sense of realism to how depression is tackled in game at least for me#that when one is depressed and suicidal a lot of the time it's the wish for this state of suffering to end rather than to actually die#SUCH A GOOD CHARACTER ITS ONE OF THE THINGS THAT UPPED MY APPRECIATION FOR HER
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thinkin about how rarely I draw elyss and june together anymore
#felix: no no she's not wrong#meanwhile in felix's canon limerick's already banging on the door like HELLOOO LET ME IN--#the thing is melliwyk needs it less than elyss tbqh :')#melliwyk in the beyond-4th-wall liminal blorbo waiting room like 'so do you have an actual girlfriend yet or what'#not even looking up from her little projects#while my beloved girl REALLY needs and deserves tenderness and support and keeses but au with june was all she had :')#the thing about elyss and june is that 1) it's still Very Extremely Good don't get me wrong#and 2) I am perfectly capable of holding more than one canon in my brain at the same time-- they don't overlap or intersect#it's just that it feels kind of rude to actually draw them together too much now that june's legit dating someone else's PC lmao#my art#my OCs#elyss#melliwyk#elyss and june#felix and mel#look at my gnomes boy
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good morning. thinking again of juve and her dog
#oreste garifalle save me. save me oreste garifalle (he cannot even save himself)#i just.. man its so over. by the time they encounter each other juve is the worst shes ever been & oreste doesnt yet know he could be better#so. sure. juve needs to gather the pieces of herself back up and double down on her coping mechanisms but not thinking at all about whats#happened to her/how she was affected by it and by instead fixating on someone elses problems. she needs to offer drive and direction to#another in order to feel more in control of herself#and luckily for her unluckily for himself. by the time she finds him. oreste is only Just stumbling out of a gothic pseudoincest nightmare#in which all of his own wants and desires have been very deliberately placed on a shelf higher than he can reach and hes all too eager#to accidentally replicate previous dynamics (dog) with someone new#so. tldr. juve needs to control/'fix' someone and oreste as of yet only knows how to be controlled/molded in anothers image#which would already be so bad except to top it off. juve is steadily fucking losing it. due to the repression crimes#and even as she tries to distance herself from the emotional aftermath of what she went through. it bleeds into the way she treats oreste#instead. like.#her base level dehumanization of him would already be bad but. as is. in the way it finds her.#juve completely lacks the finesse or grace or awareness to approach it as she normally would#so she instead traps them both in this horrible codependent situation where her 'fixing' oreste mostly involves her going oh! i know!#your problem is that youre not in touch with your anger right? you should be angry about what those guys did to you but youre not rigjt??#so!! easy fix!! lets just get you angry!!!#<- girl who is not entirely wrong but has also never processed any of her own anger a day in her life and Will be projecting#<- girl who will treat you both as a metaphor/extension of herself but Also as a recreation of the previous dynamic she was in with an#excessively angry individual#<- girl who decides the best way to put you in touch with your anger again is by. repeatedly triggering you until you protest#essentially bending your finger back and waiting to see which will come first. you letting it break or begging her to stop#and oreste is always too deeply traumatized and overwhelmed to do anything but let it break. so.#notnow#juve mizani#oreste garifalle#one of my favorite scenes i have planned for them is her making oreste relay what his abuser (kai) looked like. in detail.#as a skinshifter herself.#you see where this is going.#you should send me asks about them btw. if you want. also if you dont
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I was rewatching The Stone Forest and I really like to think that Hilda had to pass by the Bell Keeper’s outpost on her way out of the city limits. I like to think that idiot looked at what was happening, shrugged, and said ‘eh, she’s the scariest thing out there’
#“‘the scariest thing out there’?”the girl sends him a look that isn't quite a glare for once; it still conveys her opinion just as clearly#Edmund shrugs. Hilda is still within sight of his binoculars. he watches her run and can’t be sure whether she’s running *towards* or *from#*.He doesn’t think she knows either.#'I mean. it’s not like trolls can harm her at this time of the day.#Don’t tell me you believe in fairies kid.'#And there it is at last: the glare. Meiri looks up from her art project - her new therapist had reccomended it as a way to express herself#and since he'd been helping so much so far she'd decided to grudgingly give it a shot -#“*No*” she states pointedly; to anyone who knew her it was an affirmation. And Edmund knew her better than she cared for#'What I believe in is wolves and recluse spiders and ticks and nettle. And I believe that someone with the spine#to sabotage the Patrol wouldn't have the self control to not lick a pretty mushroom'#“Hey!” Edmund protested putting down his binoculars. “I sabotaged the Patrol! For *you* I might add!”#Meiri's smile turned mean; it was a regular expression for her yet it never conveyed any malice. Just the thrill of a game that never tired#her. “And would you?” she lifted one thick eyebrow; signaling to her dad that it was his move now#The dad in question was unfortunately thinking back to a time in his young teenage years when he figured he could eat anything animals bit#and gave himself a poisoning that had him taken to the ER. But she didn't need to know that. *ever* in fact.#“Obviously I would. Like I'd let a mushroom ruin my perfect sandwich diet”#Meiri groaned loudly. Some games were worth playing. But some wars she'd already accepted she'd never win#“Anyway” he turned back to staring at the outside of the wall as if it was of any interest to him (it wasn't)#“kid'll be fine is my point. And even if she isn't ya know what's the best think about this situation?”#They looked at each other with matching smirks. “none of our flipping business” he said at the same time as she echoed#“None of our fucking business”#He gasped immediatelly. “*Meiri!*”#The chastening was useless. She just shrugged innocently.#He'd really have to limit her library visits#the bell keeper hilda#meirdom#hilda the series#hilda netflix
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had a fellow f1 fan at the camp and i will try to never talk about f1 with her again
#the side eye she gave me when i told her essere ferrari + oscar#she was MAD because i like oscar more than lando#like sorry girl for having my faves#'so how are we feeling about 2025' did she expect me to burst out in tears or what? lewis at ferrari is going to be bomb (i hope so)#then she proceeded to list of all of her faves and didn't let me speak#i still think she believes that i'm upset about the C2 breakup 😭#she's a yapper /neg#my god and don't get me started about the project i had to do with her#god really gave me an insane amount of patience when creating me because how the fuck did i survive this#anne talks: about random things#anne talks: about f1
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For those saying this chapter doesn’t rly move the plot forward, little reminder that Ruby’s the crow girl have canonically met before!!!! I’m interested af to see her reaction to her if she remembers, and if she doesn’t either way it gives interesting points to the extent of her power so overall LETSGOOO
#if y’all have seen me be real quiet since 126 it’s cause I’m still recovering 😭#this could end up leading to Ruby actually questioning Aqua’s motives now tho#given that she hasn’t up to this point cause of denial and stuff yknow#it’s understandable why she would tho#her arc isn’t entirely done until she can let go of Gorou and actually see Aqua#and finally stop projecting who she wants him to be on him#SO BASICALLY THIS IS MOVING TO THAT!#Aqua intervention when pls even crow girl is saying he’s fucked up#oshi no ko#aqua hoshino#onk#ruby hoshino#oshi no ko spoilers#eiko won’t stfu
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2 hour rough drawing of Ehuang, my precious Green Opal child who I don’t draw nearly enough <3
#my art#artists on tumblr#the legend of korra#Kat and Nia and their multiverse of madness#original character#ehuang beifong#<— finally. a new OC with a proper tag#tbh it is much easier to tag characters who have last names#and we’ve never discussed it but I do think Ehuang carries the Beifong last name. whether or not she uses it is a different matter#I feel like she’s a Beifong officially she never puts much emphasis on it. she prefers the other side of her family anyway#okay moving on from that#next gens for next gens. quite a deep niche in reaching here#but I don’t care. I love Ehuang as a representation of everything good and pure in the world too much to object to her existence#baby girl. sweet girl#and yeah I’ve drawn her with Midori Opal and Suiren before so I thought I’d try something else#and while Kuvira isn’t actually shown here. just know that she’s absolutely tearing up off screen#you can pull the idea of Kuvira absolutely adoring her little niece out of my cold dead hands#wait omg I never posted my earlier art of Ehuang on here have I#okay once I’m done with my current projects I’ll refine and post those#the world deserves to see more of Ehuang#I feel like this particular scenario also hits some spot in Kuvira bc she knows who Ehuang’s bio dad is#and Ehuang looks just enough like him. despite being very similar to Midori. that imagining her with a beauty mark under her eye…#it brings Certain Ideas to mind. very fleeting and eliciting a ‘imagine that. I love this girl to bits but I’m sure glad I’m not her mom’#kind of response. but overall no one really lingers on that fact. I feel. her parents are Midori and Opal#Bataar’s just the donor. no one calls him her bio dad. he doesn’t see her as his daughter. probs Suyin is the only one who puts up a fuss#like not letting up about Ehuang being his kid even though he’s told her countless times that his involvement is irrelevant#he doesn’t wish to be ehuang’s dad. that wasn’t why he helped create her.#he did so because he loves his sister and SIL. because he knew they wanted a baby. not because he wanted a child himself#he’s quite content being her uncle thank you very much. and idk why I just went on this ramble lmao#maybe I should try to write something Ehuang related. explore all these relationships and whatever. we’ll see
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