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Things I learned while re-watching Star Plus Mahabharata (Part 22/many):
Lol. Bhim knows Dhrishtadyumna is incapable of killing Drona in a fair fight.
Ek hi marg hai. Cheating. Cheating is the marg.
No way was the Panchanjanya this big fr.
How does Sanjay know so much? Isnât he like a charioteer or something?
These formations are all very complicated and unnecessary imo.Â
Once the armies meet donât the formations break?
Who is this Susharma? Is he the dodgy fellow who had the suicide corps?
Yudhisthir isâŠI canât even bring myself to say it anymore. Heâs being a dumbass.
Oh good, it didnât take Krishna long to change his mind. This is what happens when you use dharma like a fucking weapon.
The only thing Bhishma cares about is the throne of Hastinapur. Good for him. Stay away from this toxic family, Bhishma. Theyâre not even your family!
I am amazed at Dhritarashtra. Man knows Krishna is literally God. Why did you let your sons agree to fight this battle? Surely you knew they were all going to die.
Whoâs this dick trying to stab Drupad? Oh! Itâs Ashwatthama!
Who kills Drupad?
Oh! I am sad to learn that Dronacharya kills him. Sad. I always shipped those two.
My man Drona really killed his Guru-bhai and would have killed his Guru-bhaiâs son too.
Arjun is also flying now.
Bhim just kicking people out of the way. Is my jam.
I donât think Pitamaha would actually kill any of his grandsons.
Side note - Starbharatâs classification on Disney+ Hotstar as a âdramedyâ is sending me.
Duryodhan is also flying.
Ha, Duryodhan and Bhim trash talking is my jam.
Duryodhanâs hair game is so on point. Heâs my favourite anti-hero *sings Taylor Swift*
Is there anything Yudhishtir can do?
What is this scam? Only Yudhisthir can kill Duryodhan? Isnât Bhim Yuvraj if Yudhisthir is king? Then he should be able to kill Duryodhan who is also a Yuvraj (donât open that can of worms, Pri).
Wtf why is Duryodhan bringing Shantanu into this? Let my horny on main man rest peacefully in his grave.
Like do we realise that none of the Mahabharata would have happened if not for Shantanuâs tharak?
This Dhritarashtra has the most slappable face Iâve ever seen in a mythology serial.
Arjun casually giving orders on the battlefield as if his brother-in-law isnât the commander-in-chief.
I love you Pitamaha Bhishma, but now itâs time for you to die.
#mahabharat#mahabharata#starbharat#starbharat recap#siwt#disclaimer guys: these are my own thoughts and ramblings while I watch this unhinged show#you might not agree wiith me#you probably won't#but you don't have to correct me
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"I'll show you every day that choosing to live was worth it"
some of my favourite scenes from @hijinks-n-lowjinks' fic things i would miss from the other side . this fic tore my heart out fr but like in a good way and i wanted to pay it homage the only way i know how <3
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#jjk fanart#itafushi#fushiita#yuji itadori#fushiguro megumi#megumi fushiguro#jjk spoilers#jjk manga spoilers#I LOVE PLOTTING AND ALSO SCHEMING#listen i have a lot of feelings and i needed 2 process them and i do that by making art 2 target my mutuals directly#read my about it's there it's in the fineprint if we talk You Are Not Safe smile#i just . BITING BITING BITING this fic#the domesticity the grief the casual yet unfathomably deep soulmatism.......im ruined i tell u Ruined#so naturally i dropped everything#remember how i said lefts/rights r my enemy my beloathed my nemesis. MIRRORS MADE IT SO MUCH WORSE FHGDSAJFGJS I WANTED DEATH#i was like this is incorrect. no this is correct. flips them around in my head. no im wrong again actually#purgatory tbh but we got there (watch me be wrong again tho if i am wrong again i think i will Cry)#anyway!!! i don't have much else to say except pls read the fic and show jinx some love they 1000% deserve it this fic 1000% deserves it#i could only draw so many scenes but i would draw all of it if i could#fr i ws so paranoid abt accuracy lmao cut 2 footage of me looking up rice cooker models and wtf the colour 'carnelian' was#i hope i got everything right i hope i did it justice :'>#also if any1 mentions how megumi's arm in 3 is at an awkward angle. look me in the eye and tell me youve comfortably cuddled with someone#i will call u a liar
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Contrary to popular belief etho and bdubs are not divorced and in this essay I will
#dbhc flavored because. well. look at me#do I seem normal to you#dbhc#dbhc art#art escapades#dbhc etho#dbhc bdubs#bdoubleo100#ethoslab#wild life smp#wild life smp spoilers#wlsmp#wlsmp spoilers#dbhc wlsmp#ethubs#bdubs#etho#bro theyâre freaking LAUGHING under those arguments. they obviously care so much for each other and in my Ted talk weâll be#[and then she talks for 3 hours]#they make me so happy btw. bringing joy to my household on these nights#trafficblr#traffic smp#now. 'divorce' duo folks i hear you#'well of course they're laughing--the cc's don't actually hate each other' you would be correct#but consider this: they're allowed to be whimsical and have play-fights *in character* too#im speaking to a small minority of ethubs fans btw & this is not meant to be pointed LOL im being so unserious and very silly about them ^.#etho and bdubs duo i love you. never stop being weirdos#IM NEVER DRAWING THAT DANG HORSE AGAIN BTW#this is a lie probably <3#dbhc tango
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pick your battles
#my art#my stuff#art#comic#original art#pride 2024#pride month#trans allegory..... or not even allegory. just trans .... ^_^#i technically cannot come out yet but i don't think the people who i need to not see this stalk my tumblr#i know they stalk everything else like my twitter and my instagram but this might be safe#so fuck it we yap. this is a comic about picking your battles#this is a comic about how for almost a year now everyone at home in singapore has been crying about my sore throat#my terrible fucked up voice. my you know. etc#i came out as not cis and using they/them pronouns in 2015 when i was 14#but no one ever used my pronouns. none of my classmates or friends even up until i left for college in 2020#from 2020 onwards every year i wrote an angry vulnreable essay about how much it hurts that they dont remember#and people would dm me apologizing on their hands and knees and commending my bravery#and then forget about it all over again. id ont mean 'they misgender me and then catch it and apologize and correct themselves'#i mean they dont even get that far#and so you might ask yourself: why have you kept them around all this time?#and i would have to explain that by pure bad luck i grew up in the most conservative close minded community#that all of my ex classmates that stayed in singapore are cishet and upper middle class and chinese singaporean#that i Am the trans person. that they were able to ignore me for a decade partially because there was no one else#so this is a comic about how there is dignity and grace in staying in the closet sometimes#about how not everyone deserves to see you at your happiest. about how some people can go fuck themselves#you know your truth and THATS THE ONLY THING THAT MATTERS!!! YEAH!!! i love you
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love when men cry about body hair bc "it's hygiene" and yet 15% of cis men leave the bathroom without washing their hands at all and an additional 35% only just wet their hands without using soap. that is nearly half of all men. that means statistically you have probably shaken hands with or been in direct contact with one of these people.
love when men say that women "only want money" when it turns out that even in equal-earning homes, women are actually adding caregiver burdens and housework from previous years, whereas men have been expanding leisure time and hobbies. in equal-earning households, men spend an average of 3.5 hours extra in leisure time per week, which is 182 hours per year - a little over a week of paid vacation time that the other partner does not receive. kinda sounds like he wants her money.
love that men have decided women are frail and weak and annoying when we scream in surprise but it turns out it's actually women who are more reliable in an emergency because men need to be convinced to actually take action and respond to the threat. like, actually, for-real: men experience such a strong sense of pride about their pre-supposed abilities that it gets them and their families killed. they are so used to dismissing women that it literally kills them.
love it. told my father this and he said there's lies, damned lies, and statistics. a year ago i tried to get him to evacuate the house during a flash flood. he ignored me and got injured. he has told me, laughing, that he never washes his hands. he has said in the last week that women are just happier when we're cooking or cleaning.
maybe i'm overly nostalgic. but it didn't used to feel so fucking bleak. it used to feel like at least a little shameful to consider women to be sheep. it just feels like the earth is round and we are still having conversations about it being flat - except these conversations are about the most obvious forms of patriarchy. like, we know about this stuff. we've known since well before the 50's.
recently andrew tate tried to justify cheating on his partner as being the "male prerogative." i don't know what the prerogative for the rest of us would be. just sitting at home, watching the slow erosion of our humanity.
#writeblr#warm up#ps edited so it is more clear where âhalfâ of men is coming from:#15% literally don't even touch water#an ADDITIONAL 35% ''wash'' by just running their hands under water WITHOUT SOAP#15+35 =50%#like that is not washing ur hands. go back and use soap#btw the numbers for women are 4% never washing and 15% ''just water''#which is still gross but like. sooo much better yikes#ps i know we're all gay on this site but watching ppl ''correct'' my math on this has been wild#i have a learning disability im genuinely bad at math so i check EVERY time someone corrects me#but no they're just confidently wrong.....#182 hours is a week babes. 182/24 (number of hours in a day) is ~7.6#that's where i got that number from. also from rent we know there's 168 hours in a week.#ALSO btw if u read this and ur response is ''men are also struggling rn tho'' like babe you missed the point of it tho#this doesn't even make fun of men it's legit just pointing out that bigotry against women isn't founded#in anything men actually CARE about . like they don't actually CARE about ''being clean'' when they make fun of armpit hair#or they would be WASHING THEIR HANDS.#men pretend to be rollin' in cash and Apex Predators and instead they are trained to be lazy and unwilling to act in emergencies#i have never and will never make fun of men for asking for more support on important topics like DV and mental health.#this is so clearly not about men; it's about how common just being plainly misogynistic has become.#like they don't try to hide it anymore.
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Okay, this is my third time trying to put this into words. I am very upset, hurt, and honestly terrified. Iâm about to share a lot about myself, my family, and a very scary situation happening right now, so for my own safety, I wonât provide too many details.
I live in a secondary city in a South American country. The Jewish community here is very smallâaround 5,000 people total out of over 50 million. In my city, which has over 3 million people, there are only about 300 Jews. Weâre literally on the other side of the world from Israel.
We own a family business, a small clothing factory where we make knitted garments. It was founded by my grandmother 48 years ago. My father is the current manager, and both my sister and I work there. We employ around 80 people. We pay fair and legal wages (not the industry standard in my country), and although times are really hard, weâve never missed a payment, not once in our 48 years in business. My father paused his own salary and hasnât received a cent since January, and my sister and I both stopped getting paid for three months. But the people who work with us have always received their salaries as they should.
Now, today, September 30th, (just a couple of days before the start of our high holidays and exactly one week before the first anniversary of October 7th) the biggest and most important public university in my city, in conjunction with the syndicate council, invited the Palestinian ambassador to give a conference about the current situation and the war. Well, apparently, it derailed into open antisemitism and ended up as a conference about how Jews are all thieves and scammers. Because, I kid you not, back in the '90s, a huge group of my countryâs biggest companies went bankrupt and couldnât pay their employees what they owed. One out of about 30 of those companies was owned by Jewish people. So, of course, "we Jews are all liars, scammers, and thieves, just like the Israelisâalways trying to take what doesnât belong to us"
So, what conclusion did they reach at this conference about Palestine and the current war happening on the other side of the world? Well, naturally, they decided to target Jewish-owned businesses in my city (which means our factory and two other small businesses in our area) to protest and vandalize, because weâre all thieves and scammers, and Israel is bad and horrible, and everyone in my city needs to be made aware of that. When are they planning to come? October 7th, of course, when else?
The only reason I even know about this is that one of my Jewish friends decided to attend the conference to hear from the Palestinian ambassador and, risking their own safety, stayed to hear the names of the businesses that are going to be targeted.
I'm hurt and scared and I've been trying not to cry since I found out. These are the people on the left, these we were supposed to be my people, I've marched with them, I've worked and voted with them. I don't know what to do? Please, please tell me how are they different from actual Nazis? How is this situation different from any other jew living in Europe in the 1930's? I guess shannah fucking tovah to me, as if last year wasn't a wake up call. I am fucking awake.
#if you had asked me yesterday i'd said that my city was not very antisemitic#i stand fucking corrected#we don't get to mourn in peace#and we don't get to celebrate our high holidays in peace#i am at a loss#i truly dont know what to do#i have a week to figure it out i guess#nice of them to give us time#this is my last straw by the way#not on the left anymore i guess i've officially been kicked out because im a dirty dirty jew#antisemitism#jumblr#jewblr#jewish#judaism#rosh hashanah#israel#palestine#october 7#october 7th
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Oh I have so many thoughts on aroace Curly, I think it brings so much on the table when analyzing the game's story.
Amanormativity ties in with the reoccurring mentions of the nuclear family, from Wrong Organ making 1950s mock advert posters, to Swansea talking about how getting a wife and kids didn't bring him any fulfillment in life.
In the cake cutting nightmare sequence, where Jimmy talks with Dream Curly about the mediocre cake, Dream Curly begins to talk about how sometimes you can only get the subpar stuff in live. Sometimes he'll get promoted, buy a house, fall in love. But other times he'll just have some awful fucking cake with his friend.
I think there is that subtle implication that Jimmy does buy into Amanormativity, with him projecting his beliefs on Dream Curly that a platonic relationship is lesser then a romantic one. But we never see Curly suggesting that he wants such a thing in the pre-crash.
With Jimmy thinking that Curly has everything in life, except for the desire (although I think Jimmy would view it as Curly not having the skills for it) to get a romantic partner, he would heavily lean into getting the one thing that Curly couldn't get in life to one up him.
THATS EXACTLY WHAT IM THINKING!!! AMATONORMATIVITY BE DAMNED!!!!
Looking at Mouthwashing through an aroace lens is interesting
"Jimmy thinking that Curly has everything in life, except for the desire", well said, well said! And references to the nuclear family fit in very cleanly thematically for Mouthwashing.
Jimmy leaning into amatonormativity is a smart observation. Jim internalizes all the social norms and standards on what you have to do to have a normal and desirable life, who sees everything Curly has and what Jimmy wishes he had, and is offended that Curly isn't satisfied, that he has the "audacity" to be unhappy. Curly meanwhile only wishes for his life to be something he doesn't have to run from, because by all means, he has already reached a point where he should feel accomplished, but isn't. Curly doesn't want to be a freighter captain his whole life, he doesn't want to settle with his sustainable position, he just wants to be happy. Like Swansea who has reached the "ideal" outcome of his life, having a wife, kids and a good career, it will never feel as good as embracing all what society deems undesirable yet right for you.
Jimmy does imply to seeing himself as lesser as a friend, "fall in love" being a goal and a "cake with a friend" being something he "has to settle for", it's all in the subtleties with underlying themes of "what you're "supposed to want" by society's expectations" against "what feels right for you". Jimmy is frustrated that Curly is going to "leave the dirt behind him", when in actuality, letting the crew and him go is the last thing Curly wants. Curly wants to be with his friends, he deeply cares about his crew, and about his close friend.
Mouthwashing as a whole reads to me as platonic through and through. Swansea and Daisuke having such a meaningful familial bond, Curly and Anya being sweet, playful and caring without romance, Anya and Daisuke having something of a siblings dynamic are dear to me. Also it's really rare to get to see representations of "toxic friendship" in media. Its always toxic romance this, toxic yaoi that, toxic family there, however in reality, friendships aren't excluded from being as rotten and abusive as the others, yet they're often overlooked. Jim and Curly are especially unique in this way. It's very impressive how they managed to showcase Jimmy's mistreatment of Curly in such a platonic way (at least that how I read it). Jim too, like Curly, in general avoids hints at romance and attraction explicitly related to him during his gameplay, not with Curly, nor with Anya (dear god thanks for that at least). It's all spite, annoyance and parasitizing off of these two. (That man's dry and lowkey hates everyone and everything) No attraction attached, no desires except hoping it hurts.
Curly to me is very much aroace, or at least on the spectrum. Like, the trivia fact that one of Curly's fondest memories is that of his friends putting in effort to make a shitty awful cake, tells us all we need to know on how dear his friends are to him. Platonic relationships mean so much to Curly, even when it's Jimmy fucking Mouthwashing, the worst friend ever imaginable.
#apologies I'm gonna rant a bit too#amatonormativity runs rampant within this fandom as well it seems tho#looking at you jimcurlers who think#âthere's no way Curly and Jimmy were âJUSTâ friends there has to be something âMOREâ to their relationshipâ#âbecause obviously two guys can't be close and toxic and NOT be having say gex with each otherâ#on the other side there's people who undermine or dismiss their friendship entirely#on this note I wanna say that as long as the ship isn't romanticizing abuse and consent is present it's not that much of a crime#and harassment of real people is worse than questionable fictional saygex#i just think it's heavyy mischaracterization of at least one of them#like swinging and missing the mark#I'm saying this to curlya enjoyers too despite me being one#they care for each other they're playful they're teasing#but they don't have to be in a romantic relationship to be just as friendly or doomed#but i don't get to judge on which is the correct way to enjoy characters#I love these characters#hooollyy yapp#would you guys also hear me out on demiromantic demisexual anya#mouthwashing#curly mouthwashing#jimmy mouthwashing#asks
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Man I just love dressing crazy. Star-shaped eyeliner, jacket covered in bottle caps with smiley faces, bright pink glasses, piercings in my face. I thrive in the weird looks from strangers. I love being that person little kids think is a fairy and remember for years. I love giggling at myself while I make faces in the mirror.
To me, this is what it is to be punk. To make weird, messy art. To sing your crooked voice as loud as you can. To be the most beautiful ugly. To be that creature 8 year old you wrote stories about in their school notebooks. To be the greatest you you can be.
There is nobody on this Earth who can do you like you. So why not go out and be the best you the world's ever seen?
#plus i have an umbrella with a duck head that i added gitd stars to the inside of and i think that just adds to it#i think on my next one i wanna use gitd paint to add a firework on the inside#punk#punk culture#self love#beauty in the eye of the beholder#ugly is beautiful#wait until you hear about my (correct) opinion that literally anybody can make music#dance for hours a day#crust punk#baby punk#battle jacket#punk diy#be weird#just ask me and i will give you hours on why the world is beautiful#don't tolerate intolerance#punk fashion
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luke "all the facts i give in the show are fucking true" manning vs. alexander "consistently loses the plot" jeremy is truly an unstoppable force meets an immovable object
like sam bullshits his way through facts, so tom and luke can take joy in correcting his mistakes. but correcting aj only brings the others suffering because most of the time, aj himself doesn't necessarily believe anything that comes from his mouth. the man is just saying words recreationally. which also happens to establish the reality of the world the other three exist in.
#sfth#shoot from the hip#shoot impro#luke manning#alexander jeremy#sam russell#tom mayo#but like it Works bc sometimes the other 3 are hesitant to establish the Facts of the story if they don't 100% know the correct answer#and the 3 of them don't want to be wrong. but fear not for here comes aj 'have you read the bible? bc i havent.' to save the day#ik theres only maybe like 50 ppl on this hellsite posting abt these guys but u will listen to me yap nonetheless
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Okay so I've been wanting to tell you that you're literally my favourite twst artist đđ©·
So my question is, how do you manage to come up with these funny comics? CUZ I LOVE THEM SO MUCH
(P.s: Lovin' the art style âš)
oh geeze, thanks! đđđ I'm really glad people enjoy my stupid sense of humor; mostly I just draw things to make myself laugh, and if it makes other people laugh too, then bonus points! usually it's just one joke or mental image that gets stuck in my head (every time I saw Fellow spin his cane, all I could think about was him go-go-gadgeting away on it...) and in my quest to justify it, it picks up other jokes and bits along the way and usually doesn't even end up as the main focus anymore. entire narrative arcs have spun out just so I could use a single bad pun in a throwaway line. this is a terrible way to explain it but I'm not sure how else to put it into words!
and sometimes it's just "weird things my sister has said that I make fun of her for"
#twisted wonderland#reposting old art but i will never not make fun of her for her incredibly pretentious opinions about the local mall's architectural design#yuu listening to malleus be weird about buildings is supposed to be relateable right#that said this is also the only place i get to talk about twst so it is also just...a lot of my thoughts spilling out everywhere#(sorry other fandoms)#(i have spaces where i can debate the various merits of himeno/rita versus morfonia/rita)#(the correct answer is that rita has two hands but i digress)#but where else can i talk at length about these anime disney dipshits who have flawless eyeliner and zero emotional intelligence#me at the top of my lungs: you don't understand that's his DAD#the group dm: w...what are you talking about#there's gonna be a few posts today sorry#gotta get some stuff out before the update tonight/tomorrow morning/whatever happens and becomes all i think about for the next week
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Mine: Refer to me however you want!
Mike: Yeah, for me too. I think I use all pronouns too.
[They high-five and fist-bump each other]
Mine:
[via @barbmine]
#Mine#Barbmine#Mikethelink#Mike#I LOVE THEMMMMMMMMMMM THEY'RE SO FUNNY#Mine funniest person alive fr#also YOOOO LETS GO??????#I didn't know Mike was ok with any pronouns#and Mine too??? that's awesome!#Also for those who don't know: Mine is Mike's wife!#They're both bi#They're so cool I wanna have a silly sweet partnership like this someday *clenches fist and stares off into the sunset*#As per usual: not a native Portuguese speaker so can't translate the full thing#please feel free to hop in with translations and/or corrections!#Though I'm pretty confident about these. Wouldn't post it if I wasn't#I'll be real idk how to translate viado LMAO#It's like. Not what google translate will tell you it means#idk imo I think ''homo'' sounds right but ONCE AGAIN: I'm not a Portuguese speaker#Poor Mine I laughed when she first posted this image ages ago and I replied to her saying it gave me a good laugh and she was like#''WAIT I PROMISE IT DOESN'T MEAN WHAT GOOGLE TRANSLATE SAYS IT MEANS''#it's all good Mine I'm bi too I am not phased lmao#I don't personally use that word but I do not care when other queer folks use it
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winter holidays at the mystery shack (party billiam edition)
Stan celebrates what he calls "Cash-mas", which is just slapping a cheap felt santa hat and a 300% Christmas special markup on anything- and several things he can't- get away with in the gift shop
more sincerely, the Pines do a fairly low-key Hanukkah. if the twins are visiting, they do a much showier double christmas/hanukkah celebration
And Bill... well...
No one is entirely sure if it's a Euclidean thing or just a... Bill thing. But he's SO enthusiastic!
HAPPY WINTER FUNTIME BOYS & GIRLS!
#gravity falls#party billiam au#billford#obligatory holiday special#it is a nightmare realm thing#but since Bill was in charge for so long#that doesn't actually clear anything up#christmas#hanukkah#cashmas#HAPPY WINTER FUNTIME#REJOICE#and lean to one side!#olives for EVERYONE!#big furry hats and big furry boots are traditional attire#bill says that hypoten-moose fur is classier but squar-rel will do#...neither of those exist in this dimension#he had to improvise#stan be nice to your weird brother-in-law#the adults get to booze up that olive juice later#you don't have to suffer for long#bill was totally down for adding more holidays to his personal calendar#festival of lights? sign me UP#ecological destruction and free stuff? yes please#if ANYONE actually knows this reference I will draw any gravity falls gift art request for the first correct answer#within reason#lore dump#non euclidean geometry au#idk if i'm drawing them celebrating too but it is also canon to them lol#my art
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ᥣđ© đđđ đ . . . the french are glad to die for love
after a night performing, you meet with the duke, but he's not anything like you'd been expecting.
đđĄđđ©đđđ« đđšđ§đđđ§đđŹ. ft. sanji ! f!reader, moulin rouge au, alcohol, smoking, romance, prostitution, burlesque/cabaret dancers, humor, very very brief mention of suicidal ideation, suggestive content. 8.7k words.
đ°đąđđĄ đ„đšđŻđ, i'm very nervous to post this so pls be kind to me âȘâȘâ€ïžâŹ if you aren't familiar with moulin rouge, the writing's a bit silly / eccentric at times, which is a little outside my comfort zone. so if you hate it... say nothing lol ><
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Paris was the city of lovers, as they said. Romantic and doused in shades of red, painted with hearts for stars and a dazzling galaxy complete of past romances.Â
Red, yes, was the color of Paris. But it came from not from dalliances, but from blood and tears, the scarlet hues mixed in shades of pain and misfortune. Nothing you had expected when youâd first stepped foot in the city with a half-developed mind, just off the boat from your own country. Youâd had a suitcase filled with your finest clothes, which truly werenât much, and a few necessities. But youâd been leaving from nothing, and youâd go on to have nothing, finding yourself in yet another desperate situation.Â
In the wake of revolutions, Paris was supposed to be a place of rebirth, to start fresh and finally live out your dream as an actress. But things never turned out the way they were planned â such had been the case since the beginning of time.Â
Instead of finding your way into the Palais Garnier, on the stage in beautiful velvet gowns, laced with glittering diamonds and rubies, you found yourself on the streets, singing for anyone who would listen. Then, you were acquired by a man who promised you a life of luxury and an opportunity to be a star.Â
And who were you to refuse such an offer?Â
Thus concluding the simple, albeit melancholy tale of how you found yourself at the Moulin Rouge, part-time singer, part-time dancer, and full-time actor. A cliché story of ambition and lost dreams, of aspirations that had never come to fruition.
Still, you had your moments of stepping into the role of the glittering ruby, the dazzling diamond. There were even times when you felt that, maybe, you were shaping up to be the prima donna youâd dreamed of becoming. That you had already taken that role on and made it your own, not in a golden opera house, but on a stage of darker colors, crafted for those that crept in the shadows, rather than the heavens.Â
But what being an actor at the Moulin Rouge meant was forgetting what it was to be yourself. Each evening, you put on a mask of beauty that you didnât feel to your core, shrouded in cheap jewels that had become meaningless in the face of giving up your real dream. No matter how many times you told yourself this was right, a stepping stone to the path of greatness, it still felt like a lie.
But the years carried on, and the pain subsided. You got used to the sharpened eyes of hungry men, of people that would never want you for any longer than an evening. They were charming, sure, and they paid a pretty penny for a night â if you were willing to give it to them.Â
It was enough. It had to be.Â
Things werenât so bad, you supposed. Youâd left your home like youâd always planned to, even while this shapeless existence was hardly any better.
Still, returning to your house of cards, of rags and dirtied floors, seemed like an even bigger failure. Perhaps not to your family, who wouldâve deemed your life as a courtesan the greatest shame of them all. To you, though, the greatest shame would have been to admit that you were wrong.Â
Your fifth year of working at the Moulin Rouge set into motion the beginning of the end. There was nothing different about the evening that tipped the first domino⊠Not that you could recall, at least.Â
As always, an array of stars glittered over Montmartre, a beautiful Parisian night, lit up with red. From the streets, the Moulin Rouge glowed like a beacon, combating even the loveliest parts of the French skyline, outlandishly bright, but mystical all the same. It wasnât often that you saw the outside of the cabaret, not the way your patrons did. Sometimes, you wondered what it was like for them, to walk in for the first time and see the beautiful stars, dancing just for them on the candlelit stage.Â
The very stage you were soon to find yourself on.
A necklace of rubies â undoubtably fake â hung heavy on your chest, weighing you down just like a cough in your lungs did. From beyond your four walls, you could hear the crowd that had formed in the intimate hall, already wet with anticipation of the dancers. And while some, perhaps, were doubtful, here for the first time, you knew they would leave with an itch to return, if only to see the star of the Moulin Rouge.
You.
Staring into the mirror, you listened to the heels of your friends click across the stage, getting into position for their first number. It was comforting, almost, how the simple sound was there for your every night, alerting you of just how much time you had before your final act.Â
You smeared rouge across your cheeks, sporting a grim smile, and made sure the color was bright enough to combat the lights that would illuminate you.Â
Then, you inhaled, and stood from your chair, to get dressed before your number began.Â
Unfortunately, you didnât get far, already crowded by the chest of your keeper, the flashy owner of the Moulin Rouge. Buggy.Â
He was dressed as he always was â to the nines, and impeccably lively. Much livelier than you would ever be outside of the glittering nightclub. Sometimes, you wondered just how much of his persona was an act, and how much of it was every bit the extravagance heâd been born with.
âThereâs my star,â Buggy said, dragging a finger across your cheek, eyes lit up by his pale makeup. âIâve been looking for you.â Your name left his lips cheerfully, and you smiled, thinly plastering on enthusiasm.Â
âWell,â you answered, batting your eyelashes heavily. âHere I am. Where Iâve been for the past five years, every night, at this very time.â
He threw an arm over your shoulder as he always did, like the two of you were old friends, and the air of professionalism you tried to keep between you was needless. âYes, yes,â he responded, waving off the slight bit of sarcasm. âListen. I have a manner of business to discuss.âÂ
Your smile quickly fell. You knew what that meant. âBuggy,â you said, unreeling yourself from his embrace, his hot palm dropping from your shoulders. âItâs hardly been a day since the last one. You promised me I wouldnât have to take on any more.âÂ
Not that youâd believed him when heâd said that, but⊠There were only so many men you were willing to seduce, especially when the other dancers would have gladly accepted the work. You werenât the only courtesan at the club, and just because you were the star, didn't mean you would put the others out of a job.Â
âI did, I did, and Iâll keep that promise⊠After this last time.â Buggyâs words were on the edge of charisma, but they werenât able to reach that delivery. Full of a dramatic flair, sure, but nothing further. His smile was thin, desperate, and though you wanted to ask his true intentions about this particular meeting, you wouldnât. You already knew the answer.
You held his gaze sharply, eyes narrowing before you relented, a heavy sigh leaving your lungs.Â
There had been talk about the finances, only recently, and just through the grapevine. Claims that the Moulin Rouge was going bankrupt, and there was only one person with enough beauty and charm to save it.
A heavy burden to bear, indeed.
And while you were hopeful, devastatingly so, that the claims werenât true, you werenât blind to the dwindling waitstaff, the decreasingly lavish decorations. One of your dancers had even left in the last week, a young girl who didnât bring much to the table, but didnât deserve to be tossed back onto the streets either.Â
Youâd be a fool not to notice that there was trouble⊠Trouble Buggy had convinced you not to worry about, but that concerned you all the same.Â
With a frown, you bowed your gaze, then perked back up with a smile. As if holding a tiara high on your head, you straightened, erasing the depressing dimness from your eyes, hoping you shone as brightly as he wanted you to. âAlright,â you hummed, softening your voice, âWhat do I need to do?âÂ
Buggy grinned, face revealing perfect showmanship, and pinched your cheek. âThereâs my star.âÂ
The man you were to seduce on the stage tonight was a duke.Â
He wasnât from Paris, wasnât from France at all, but instead, from some intriguing land further East, hailing a vast amount of wealth and a large wallet that could easily bankroll the entire nightclub. Salaries, performances, food and so on. That alone told you all you needed to know.Â
Just one night. That would be enough to convince him that you were a dazzling diamond, and you deserved a place on the stage. A different stage. It would be enough to get him to put his money on the table, entranced enough by the energy of the evening to invest in the Moulin Rouge. Enough to intrigue him, even if he was a difficult man to please.Â
One night might not turn out be just one, you knew that. But youâd do anything, anything it took to achieve you dreams. Not just for yourself, not for Buggy⊠but for all of the others that you called your friends. You deserved an opportunity to be a real actress, and they deserved a place to live, a place to work.Â
Besides, you were getting older, already closer to thirty than your early teenage years, and those of the underworld did not want an aged woman, so much as they sought the delicate features of a barely turned adult. It was a disgusting, filthy world you lived in, but it kept you alive, and sometimes, that was all you could ask for.Â
âRemember,â Buggyâs words echoed in your ears, sharp and desperate to be heard, even over the drowning noises of the orchestra. âHeâll be in the back booth. Thereâs a group of men with him, theyâll all have drinks. Just catch his eye, sometime during the dance. But donât worry too much about that, otherwise youâll lose your focus.âÂ
What you got from that was: You should try extra hard to catch the eye of an impressive man, but you should not seem like you were trying at all.Â
A somewhat daunting task, but it would be simple enough. There hadn't been a man yet at the Moulin Rouge who hadnât stumbled over himself when you gave him your brilliant smile.
You breathed, a deep inhale that cleared out the anxiety lingering in your chest. Then, you blew it out, and the curtain rose, blinding you with overwhelming yellows and reds from the lights, ones that ignited the jewels on your neck, outlining your chest, drawing everyoneâs attention to you.
It was hard to see anything at all, but you could feel all their eyes on you â a hundred or so pairs that scoured you like a piece of meat.
And when you got to the floor, close enough that you could feel the hot breaths of your favorite clients, they threw bills at you until you could no longer hold them in the tight lines of your bodice.Â
You smiled at every individual like youâd never smile at anyone again, patted their cheeks until they passed out with red, swooning faces. Then you left them, still reeling from your touch, eyes glued to you with the focus of a tortured scholar.
Performing had always been a rush to you, left you lively and with an energy that youâd never found in anything else. But sometimes, performing like this, exploiting no one but yourself and your magnetic charm, left you empty at the end of the day. You left the stage cold, drained of every ounce of warmth that had been dragged into you from the spotlight.Â
It was invigorating to be wanted, but it could never compete with the crushing loneliness that came with being used.
And that warmth you got from the stage, the rush of devotion and adrenaline that came with incessant adoration? Well, youâd never felt anything like that, never been able to replicate it either, until a set of eyes landed on you from a distant booth, where the Duke was said to be sitting.Â
You felt the heat before you saw him, the candy-red color of desire bleeding into you. It dragged across your back, digging into your shoulder-blades like a needle, piercing, but only lightly. There was something soft around the harsh edges of want, and when you turned to meet that stark desire, you almost faltered in surprise.Â
He wasnât what youâd been expecting.
Just as Buggy had said, the corner-most booth held a man, surrounded by many others. The table was littered with glasses â both empty and full of alcohol, and a cloud of smoke hovered around them. All of the men leaned over the table, eyeing you with awe-struck eyes, as you sparingly gave them your sweetest smile.Â
But it was the innermost man that you honed in on, one being jostled around by the wealthy others in his booth. Blonde, blue eyes alight with a conflicted sort of desire, wearing a suit tailored to fit him perfectly.Â
The Duke.Â
Allegedly.Â
From what youâd been told, there were enough clues to convince you that this dazzled man was the one you were looking for. Surrounding him were older patrons, ones that were familiar with Buggy, and nearly all of the dancers. Rich men that would have gladly accompanied a foreign noble, shown him the beauty of Montmartre before the sun rose and they were back to respectable conversation.Â
Yet, he seemedâŠÂ
Well, he didnât seem very lordly.Â
That, though, was not a question you wanted to linger on for too long. Your mind would spin into uncertainties, and you would fuck this up before you could fuck him.Â
Instead, you sharpened your smile, lowered your eyes seductively, and continued your performance, painting more attention onto that side of the room.Â
Which raised another red flag that you were all too happy to ignore. Far opposite of what Buggy had sad, the duke did not seem like a difficult man to please. Rather, all you could think was that he would be an easy catch, with the way his cigarette dangled from his lips, parted in awe. His irises might as well have shaped into hearts as he watched you, tracing your every movement without so much as blinking.Â
You brightened. For some reason, his adoration gave you much greater satisfaction than you would have liked to admit.Â
Riding on the elation that your prey, the source of your future, was in the palm of your hand, you wrapped up the rest of your performance perfectly, tying it up with a beautiful scarlet ribbon. Buggy was standing on the edge of the stage as you made your way down, bowing dramatically, knowing that you had succeeded in every goal heâd set for you.Â
âDo you think I lured him in?â you asked softly, accepting the robe given to you by one of the stage-hands, a man just on the cusp of his twenties.Â
Buggy smiled, his red-painted lips spreading across crooked teeth. âI donât call you the diamond for nothing, do I, my dear?â he said, pinching your cheek.Â
The rouge came off between his fingers, and your eyebrows crinkled, before releasing, as you remembered all the ways you could keep yourself from looking older. You swatted your friend-not-friendâs hand away before wrapping yourself tighter in the robe, feeling so much smaller and younger than you truly were.Â
Despite all the men youâd taken to bed, all the nights youâd shared in throes of passion (theirâs, of course, never your own), you still felt the scared, hardly-adult youâd been when you first set foot in Paris.Â
Buggy noticed the change in your demeanor, as you tried to gear yourself up for an encounter with the Duke. The charming, blonde noble seemed kind enough, softer around the edges than many of the men youâd seduced over the years. Perhaps it wouldnât be so bad.Â
Never, though, would it be something that you wanted to do.
âWhatâs the matter, my gem?â Buggy asked, not quite in a way that was kind, but enough to show concern. His eyes were gentler than the rest of his appearance, and you werenât sure you were grateful for it.
You curled away from his hands, sniffing back the onslaught of doubt and self-loathing that always came upon you when you used your body in such a way. It was something that youâd been taught to feel disgusted by, even though it kept a roof over your head, and the heads of the people that youâd come to call your family.Â
âItâs nothing,â you said, because it was the truth. It was nothing new. The same blur of feelings that had haunted you since the first day youâd sold yourself to another still lingered. Youâd always thought it would get easier⊠but it hadnât. It still ended with you wanting to tear your skin from your body, but never following through with a slide of poison down your throat.Â
Because that was the easy way, wasnât it? A quick way to end your torment, without knowing if youâd ever see the other side. And, perhaps you werenât as brave as you wanted to believe, but you wanted to see if there was another side. If there was a brighter end, a brighter future, where you could shine on the stage of the Palais Garnier as a real actress, and not just in the glittering scarlet lights of the Moulin Rouge.Â
Buggy eyed you skeptically, any kindness in his irises now gone as his lips turned into a thin line. âIt better be nothing,â he said, guiding you across the stage, before reaching a doorway that would send you up into the Elephant Room.
Which was the most private area of the Moulin Rouge, one saved for the most illicit affairs. It was your room, and only those patrons that were willing to pay the highest price were allowed entry.Â
âRemember, Iâll send him up to you, and all you have to do is give him a night he wonât forget, alright?â Buggy stood in front of you, gripping your shoulders in a warning. âNow, show me that dazzling smile, diamond.â
Reluctantly, but with all the passion you had gathered in your chest, you smiled, knowing that it was real enough to set something alight in his own. The reaction â just a small quirk of his lips in return â was enough to let you know he was satisfied with the show youâd put on.
âThere she is. Weâll have a new investor soon enough.âÂ
You were certain of that. You had to be certain of that, or your livelihood would be down the drain, and a future of shimmering lights and diamond-encrusted gowns would be out of the question.Â
On the walk up the stairs, you spoke soft words in your head, hummed the same tune you did for every show. It reminded you of who you were â at least, who you were to them. The ones who would have sold an arm and leg for a chance to win your heart, even though, after all the years that passed, you didnât think you had one to give anymore.Â
The stage was all the love you had to offer. Perhaps, the only type of love you believed in, anymore.Â
You made your way up the spiraling staircase to the Elephant Room, and opened the door with a sigh, letting your weight rest against the doorknob. For a moment, you deflated in the threshold like a woman in a Shakespearian tragedy, exhaling the tension that had wrought in your shoulders.Â
Until you felt eyes slide across to you, unexpectedly, and you found you werenât alone in the Elephant Room.Â
Without pretense, the Duke was waiting for you, his eyes dancing along the interior, taking a moment to gaze at every corner of the room. There was interest in his irises, as he searched for other secrets of your life through your belongings
Then, the door slammed shut behind you, and the spell was broken. The Duke turned to face you, eyes widening with alarm, as your back went straight as a wire.
He wasnât supposed to be there already.
A second slipped by, and you gawked at each other, your own mouth dry with the confusion and surprise of his ill-timed appearance. Surely Buggy hadnât sent him to the Elephant Room already? Youâd only just parted.
Well, you supposed it didnât matter now anyway. La vie continue.
Smoothly, you recovered, raising your shoulders to release an air of confidence, and smiled brightly. You twisted your hair across your collarbone, hoping it would highlight the smooth planes of your chest, where the ruby necklace had already been removed. âAh, my apologies, monsieur. I wasnât aware you were waiting for me.â
The Duke blinked as you strutted past him, taking the two quick steps to your vanity. Just enough to brush against him, feel the desire rolling off of him in waves.Â
Pointedly, he tried hard not to let his eyes drift lower, tracing just along your hips before snapping back up to to the back of your head. âHow would you have known?â His words came out thick, as if something was lodged deep in his chest. âI havenât even introduced myself.â
âOh, thereâs no need,â you said over your shoulder, lowering your voice huskily. âIâve heard so much about you. I trust your visit to the Moulin Rouge has been pleasant?âÂ
He met your gaze through the mirror, seemingly enraptured, and cleared his throat as he calculated a response. âTrĂšs agrĂ©able, mademoiselle.âÂ
You smiled, humming through an affirmative, before continuing. âWonderful. Iâll be ready in just one moment.â Imperceptibly, you sprayed perfume, hoping it would mask the sweat that had gathered from your performance. Then, you made your way over to a cart, sifting through expensive bottles of alcohol. âDrink?â you said, speaking softly to yourself. âI have champagne orâŠâ You shook each of the bottles, realizing they were all empty. Not a drop left. âWell. I have champagne.âÂ
âIâm alright, madame. Merci.â
You began to pour your own glass, which you would certainly be needing, when it dawned upon you that his accent was rather Parisian, and absolutely not as foreign as Buggy would have had you believe. Your champagne slipped, nearly spilling over the edges of the cup, before you turned to eye the blonde with what you hoped with a sultry grin.Â
âAh. Your French is very beautiful,â you said, smiling over the edge of your glass as you sipped at it, wondering if your eyes were as alluring as you believed. âYouâre a quick learner.â
He stared at you, lines creasing his features as his lips parted, obvious skepticism weaved within his posture. Then, without another word, he ignited the cigarette he had slipped between his lips, the end glowing before he inhaled. A long drag was taken from it, settling in his lungs. âJe suis dĂ©solĂ©, mademoiselle. Iâm not sure how to answer that,â he said, exhale releasing a cloud of smoke into the air.Â
You laughed, a high-pitched giggle that turned you back to face him, his free hand stuffed in his pocket like he wasnât sure what to do with it. âUsually people answer compliments with another thank you, but itâs no matter.â You forced another small sound up out of you, suddenly unsure exactly what to do next.Â
He wasïżœïżœ not what youâd been expecting, and the usual turn of events wasnât progressing as it should have been. The Duke was supposed to be an intimidating man, one who knew what he wanted and would take it without question. That's what you'd heard, anyway. You were starting to wonder if what Buggy had told you were nothing but rumors.Â
Waving the comment off, you made your way back to the vanity, checking that your scarlet lipstick had not smeared. His lingering gaze still traced against every curve of your body, and you stuck your hips out further, leaning towards the mirror with a small grin. âI apologize I didnât have time to change. I wasnât expecting you here so soon.â
The Duke nodded, only slowly processing your words before tapping on the cigarette. âOh, thereâs⊠no need.â Then, he shook his head, blinking, as if cringing internally. âUnless youâre uncomfortable. In that case, Iâll um⊠turn around.âÂ
You laughed, hiccuping as the quick gulps of champagne came bubbling up inside of you. âWell, itâs no matter, really. Iâm sure theyâll come off soon enough.â The comment was meant to be a simple segue into the rather normal routine of your work, low and seductive.Â
Instead, his eyes went wide, cheeks flushed as he looked, quite pointedly, anywhere but you. âNo,â his voice rang at a higher pitch as you stalked towards him, your glass of champagne drained and discarded. âNo, Iâd really rather you keep them on, actually.â
You blinked, a bit puzzled by that. But it wasnât the strangest request youâd ever gotten, and you were determined to please him, just as Buggy had requested. âAlright. Whatever you want, amour.âÂ
Like a cat, you crept up to the Duke, splaying your hands across his chest. A small sound left his throat, cheeks turning a darker shade as he took a step back, grasping for words. Your hand fisted his tie, satisfied by his reaction as you followed his stumbling lead back towards the bed.Â
âHow would you prefer to start?â you whispered, as his knees hit the edge of the heart-shaped mattress, legs buckling until he was flat on his back, gawking up at you from the bed. âI admit you are a hard one to read. Just say the word, I can be whatever you want.â
You scrambled on top of his thighs, dress hiked up to reveal the smoothness of your own legs, which quickly caught his attention.
âI-Iâm not sure that weâre on the same page here,â he said, swallowing, though watching every one of your movements with rapt attention.Â
You plucked the cigarette from his lips, and took a long drag, smiling down at him.Â
The smoke filled your lungs, calming your nerves marginally. They were cheap cigarettes â not those usually desired by the nobility, but who were you to judge for odd preferences? Heâd found his way here to you, after all.Â
âNo?â you answered softly, taking one more long inhale of the cigarette before you leaned forward, placing it into the ashtray, still burning. There was a long streak of red from your lipstick, staining the thin cylinder of white. âThen what is it that youâre here for?â Â
He exhaled, fingers reaching up along your thighs, the touch so featherlight that you almost werenât sure it was even there. For a moment, he seemed to have forgotten the question entirely, jaw slackened as he stared at you above him, before he swallowed, and sat up on his forearms.Â
The movement brought your faces even closer together, his nose just centimeters from brushing your own. It was then you realized just how blue his eyes were, the color illuminated by the dim candlelight, deep hues of turquoise and navy swirling together to create a stormy sea. His thick, blonde eyelashes fluttered closed as he blinked at you, and the movement alone brought you out of your stupor, his voice raspy upon each syllable. Â
âIâm here for the playâŠ?âÂ
You drew back, needing a moment to breathe as you squinted your eyes to study him. It was rare for you to get a client like him, wealthy, but so uncertain, a charm about him that you couldnât quite pin. They were never as handsome either, most far older than you, willing to throw cash at a younger, beautiful woman.Â
Questions raised at the back of your mind, desperate to be asked, but you ignored them, beaming as you angled your head. âAh. Of course. The play.â Your voice was saccharine, octaves higher than your usual volume. âWhat is my role, then?â you asked, tugging off his tie as you leaned into him, your lips just barely brushing his own. His breath was hot against your mouth, a hint of cheap alcohol still lingering on his breath. âIâm far too used to being the seductress, but I can be the damsel in distress, if youâd prefer that.âÂ
âYour roleâŠâ It was said more to himself than anything, not stopping you as your fingers began to unbutton his starched white shirt. You tilted your head forward, noses brushing together as you rested your forehead against his.Â
The air grew warm between you, and for a moment, a beautiful, fleeting second, you lost yourself. Your grip on his top grew slack, fingertips caressing the warm expanse of his chest. He breathed into your mouth, and your eyes fell shut, letting him connect his lips to your own, the moment exploding in a rush of beautiful, ruby fireworks.Â
And you were keen, then, to let him do whatever he would have wanted, his touch so featherlight and gentle, you wondered if you could have fallen in love with him. How quickly your heart, coated in steel and another layer of iron, betrayed you, dropping from your own chest right into the palms of the man that you needed as a savior.
But the moment did not last so long, and your vulnerability evaporated as quickly as the layer of dew beyond la Seine. As if coming back to himself, he choked, pulled away from your lips and pushed you back by the shoulders, staring at you with wide eyes and warm, tinted cheeks.Â
You paused, watching as he rushed to his feet like he couldnât get up fast enough. How easily the mood had soured, even as he muttered one apology after another, unable to meet your gaze.Â
The Dukeâs hands were shaky as he held the cigarette to his mouth, eyes fixated on the ceiling. He had plucked the same one back up from the ashtray, the streak of your bold, crimson lipstick imprinted on the end of it.
âWhatâs wrong?â you asked, hoping the worry wasnât obvious in your words. If there was a problem, you were desperate to fix it. You couldnât afford to ruin this, not when so many things were at stake.
He hesitated, another cloud of smoke leaving his mouth as he waved his hand around, ash falling from the cigarette. âIâm sorry â Iâm sorry. I canât focus when youâre,â he swallowed, cheeks burning, despite the hardness very obvious in his pants, âlooking at me like that.âÂ
âFocus?â you said in gentle confusion, eyebrows pinched tighter, as the beginnings of a dreadful realization dawned upon on you.Â
Feeling discarded on the bed, you sat and watched as he pulled a sheet of paper from his pocket, straightening like it was an important doctrine, before clearing his throat, and reciting a beautifully composed poem.Â
The words were horrifically romantic, each line strung into another as if they had been pieced together by his very own heartstrings. And though you had not processed a single word, it had still struck a cord down deep in your weathered heart, and you continued to stare, sick with your own shame.Â
It was beautiful â hauntingly so â a poem of love that could rival even the greatest of French writers. But, all you could think about was the pounding in the back of your mind, the panic steadily rising up within you. Â
âYouâre here for a play. An actual play,â you said stupidly, gaping back at him, your entire body going rigid with embarrassment. âYouâre serious.â No longer was your tone beautifully high-pitched, innocent despite your sensuality. It had lowered in horror, your eyes going wide as you realized that all of this was a terrible, terrible misunderstanding.
Which seemed a lackluster reaction to whatever he was looking for, and he frowned, tilted his head back before heavily inhaling another puff of smoke. âWell, I suppose I would prefer that sort of reaction to hearing that my writing is awful. The play wasnât my idea, just for the record.âÂ
âWriter?â you screeched, scrambling to your feet. âYouâre not a Duke? Not the Duke?âÂ
His eyebrows lifted, searching your face for any hint of a joke, and when he found none, he laughed, face splitting beautifully with a smile. He gestured to himself like he was amazed you would even think so, his suit hardly of the latest fashions, the cufflinks a dulling silver.Â
Which, in hindsight, was truly a marvelous mistake.Â
âNo, I am not a duke.â His forehead wrinkled, and he, finally, stamped the cigarette out on the ashtray, subtly putting the stub back into his pocket. âIs that why you thought I couldnât speak French? Je viens de Paris. I thought that was obvious.â Once more, he laughed, smiling in a manner that was far too out of place for the situation. Then, just as dramatically, his face fell, eyes going wide with concern. âHold on. Did you not know that I would be here?âÂ
âNo!â you exclaimed, putting your finger to his chest as you shot forward, glaring with the heat of a thousand suns. Your features morphed into something horrible, though you doubted it was as intimidating as you hoped. âNo, I have been waiting on a Duke, not some amateur, impoverished writer from this dreadful city I regret ever stepping foot in. And if you tell me that youâre another one of Luffyâs tragic bohemian protĂ©gĂ©sââ
He smiled sheepishly, tilting his head before you could even finish your sentence. âWell. First of all, I wouldnât say Iâm an amateur.â
Your hands flew to your mouth, a sound leaving your throat in dismay as another voice â the exact voice you were hoping not to hear â called out from the window.Â
âSanji!â Luffy said, a headful of black hair falling over the side, grinning at both of you. âHowâs it going? Have you convinced her yet?âÂ
âNo!â you shouted, already rushing towards the window, shooing Luffy away. Over and over you repeated the word, Luffy merely swinging back and forth from whatever rope heâd tied himself to, more amused than anything âGet out of here, Luffy! I shouldâve known it was you that put him up to this.âÂ
For years, Luffy had been trying to recruit you, hoping you'd be an actress in one of his performances, and that the Moulin Rouge would be the place that funded it.
With his endless confidence, Luffy was certain that one day, he would create the best production in the history of Paris. But you were certainly skeptical of his ideas ever taking off, Buggy even more-so, and he refused to put even a single franc towards funding any of Luffy's productions.
Despite the rejection, you continued to get pestered, Luffy somehow convinced that he could help you become an established actress quicker than your current occupation could.
Luffy laughed, still with the audacity to ask if you liked Sanjiâs writing, and you pushed his head back out the window, muttering profanities to yourself.Â
âWhoâs with you? Usopp? Zoro? Iâm going to kill all three of you!âÂ
You yelled that last bit louder, just to be sure the two men you knew were up on the roof could hear you as well. And, just as expected, a muttered string of words escaped Zoro, and a much louder, panicked sound came from Usopp.Â
They peeked their heads into the window with Luffy.Â
âI tried to stop him,â Usopp said, wailing as Zoro hushed him, his dark eyes clouded with regret. âI knew it was a horrible plan, Iâm so sorry.âÂ
Your lips drew into a thin line, unconvinced, despite all the theatrics. âI want you all out! Get back up there beforeââÂ
Footsteps started up the stairs, and your eyes went wide, panicked as the voices of Buggy and the Duke, the real duke, started up the stairs.Â
âLeave!â you hissed, shoving Luffy and Usopp back out the window, before turning to face Sanji, who was rather uselessly standing in the middle of the floor. Groaning, you gripped him by the arm, pulling him across the room as you scanned for a good hiding spot. âHide. I need you to hide. He canât see you.â Â
âWhatâs going on?â Sanji asked. âLuffy told meââ
You released a sharp laugh, rolling your eyes. âOh, Iâm certain Luffy told you a lot of things,â you huffed, letting your hand slip down into his own as you dragged him into a corner of the room. âUnfortunately, Luffyâs plans are sometimes too grand, and he needs someone to bring him down to Earth. Which you, clearly, did not do and nowââ
Your name was called out from behind the door, and you cursed, pushing Sanji into the corner of the room, near the vanity. âStay there. Just⊠hide under something!âÂ
âWhere?âÂ
But the door was already opening, and you scrambled into a chair, running your fingers across your hair to make sure you seemed somewhat presentable. You brought your legs up under you, lowering your gaze to bat your eyelashes as the Duke and Buggy entered the room, both staring at you with intrigue.Â
âHere she is,â Buggy said, gesturing towards you with a curious look in his eye, a dark smile forming on his painted face. There was a warning there, one that you were not foolish enough to ignore. âMy beautiful diamond. Hopefully just as lovely as she was up on the stage tonight.âÂ
The Dukeâs regard for you was hardly passionate, though you could see a sliver of desire under all the layers of intimidation. He was a tall man, dark hair falling to his shoulders in thick strands. A long scar ran across his cheekbones, over the bridge of his nose, and he looked down at you, studying every piece of you like you were nothing more than a decoration to admire.Â
You waited for him to say something, but it was clear he was waiting for the same, and you stood, perhaps too rapidly, and made your way over to him.Â
âMonsieur, what a pleasure it is to meet you,â you smiled, if only to ease the anxiety strung through your body. Dipping your head, you looked back up at him with siren eyes, âThank you for taking time out of your busy schedule to visit.â
The Duke paused for another moment, studying you before taking your hand, and kissing it softly. It was a soothing gesture, despite the intensity of his eyes. Tension seeped gradually from your shoulders.Â
âThe pleasure is mine, my dear,â he said, his voice deep, raspy. âAnd thereâs no need for such pleasantries when weâll be acquainted soon enough.â His thumb ran across your cheek, before his hand fell back to his side. âIâd prefer Crocodile.â
Buggy, just feet behind the Duke, began to back away, exhaling in relief. âWell, I will leave you to it, then. Andââ
That was all he could get out, as the scene shattered.Â
Before Buggy could make his escape, a sound came from the window, a yelp, then an echoing shout, as Luffy, Usopp and Zoro fell down from the window, swinging into the room from the dangling rope. They landed in a somersaulting heap, just inches from where Sanji had been hiding, and your jaw slackened, before your entire body stiffened once more.Â
Not a word rang through the room as you stared at the three of them, Crocodile sliding his gaze over to you for an explanation. The silence was tangible, heavy with uncertainty.Â
A nervous laugh left Buggy, but it was quickly cut off as Usopp pulled both Zoro and Luffy up by their coats, and exclaimed, âAre you ready for rehearsal?âÂ
âRehearsalâŠâ you muttered, and at the same time, Crocodile posed the words as a question, his eyes narrowed, unamused.
âI wasnât aware that there were other things going on this evening,â he said.
âAh,â you continued, keeping yourself composed as you moved to stand in front of him. âNon, thereâs nothing going on we justâŠâ Internally you cursed, over and over, glancing at Buggy, who was near to shouting at Luffy, the two of them locked in a stand-off. There would be no help from any of them it seemed, as they waited for your reaction.
You placed a gentle hand on the shoulder of Crocodile, softening your expression into one of expectation. âWell, I know this isnât what you had in mind, monsieur, but we thought now would be a good time to introduce you to our new production⊠Right, Buggy? While weâre all here together, of course. A once in a while opportunity.âÂ
You smiled, eyes narrowing exaggeratedly at Buggy, before the obvious question became clear to him.Â
âOh,â he nodded slowly, before bursting into the same smile he always used for your shows. âRight. Of course. Our new showââ
âWhich, we have written specifically for you, Sir, if you would be so keen on investing.â You took Crocodileâs arm gently, leading him past the chair where Sanji was hiding, hopeful he would reacquaint himself with the rest of the troupe. And, as if reading your mind, Sanji scrambled to his feet, standing alongside Zoro and Usopp like heâd been there all along.
You exhaled softly, continuing to the Duke, âIt was going to be a surprise, but we supposed it would be best for you to see it now, before we started any production. You are so wise with your investments, we didnât want to be presumptuous.âÂ
Crocodile gave you an odd look, and for a moment, you werenât sure he believed you. Then, you flashed him a hopeful smile, naive under all the great bravado, and he relented, amused by your earnestness.Â
âWell, I am not usually interested in investing in such small ordeals, butâŠâ He waved a hand, before running the other down the breadth of your spine, a touch that was near possessive. âIf it stars our lovely diamond, it is sure to be a hit, no?âÂ
You relaxed, making a show of leaning into his advances.Â
âOf course,â Buggy proclaimed, far too intense for your liking, as he tried to ease the Duke back out of the Elephant Room. âWould you like to get started on paperwork? How about we work out the details, and weâll find another evening for you andââ
Crocodile raised a hand, the room swiftly silenced. âI need to know the story first, before we handle business. Not even the most beautiful of stars can carry a dying universe, Iâm afraid.â He turned to you, his eyes so intense it was hard to muster up the courage to speak.
âStory?â You blinked, your smile falling. âYes. Right. The story. Well, thatâs an excellent question, and you would be certain to ask that, of courseâŠâ You looked to Buggy, then Usopp, who seemed all too happy to blend in with the shadows. Then to Zoro, who stood stiffly, and shrugged. Finally, your eyes landed on Luffy, who was grinning wildly and pushing Sanji forward, far too excited that this was all taking place.
âHereâs our writer,â Luffy proclaimed, patting Sanji on the back before taking a step away and crossing his arms. âGo on and tell them.âÂ
Which was a way to say the play hasnât been written yet, and weâre making this all up as we go, in less obvious words.Â
You wanted to melt into the floor, curl away from the hot palm that still rested on the small of your back, as you stared at Sanji helplessly, begging him to come up with an answer.Â
And while the time seem to pass far too slowly for your liking, he didnât even fumble for words as he nodded to you, dragging his eyes across the audience that was watching him expectantly.Â
âItâs about love,â he said smoothly, confidence seemingly regained now that you werenât the only person in the room. âItâs about love overcoming all obstacles.â
His eyes met yours once again, so deeply blue and beautiful. Against your better judgment, your heart surged out of your chest.Â
âYes! And itâs set in Switzerland!â Luffy exclaimed, laughing with delight.Â
âNo, no,â Sanji snapped, before recovering his story, mind working rapidly as he thought up a tale that would be imaginative enough to spark the interest of the Duke. âItâs set on the seas!â Then he lowered his overexcited voice, the words softening with adoration. âAnd thereâs a courtesan. The most beautiful courtesan in the world.âÂ
Sanji's gaze fixed on you, and you blinked away, hating that awful feeling that bloomed in your heart. Still, a small smile tugged at your lips, one that you hid from everyone else.Â
âBut,â he said, tearing his attention away from you. âHer cityâs been invaded by an evil pirate Warlord. Now, in order to save her kingdom, she has to seduce the evil Warlord. But, on the night of her seduction, she mistakes a penniless⊠A pennilessâŠâ He looked around helplessly, licking his lips. âA penniless cook, and she falls in love with him. He wasnât trying to trick her, but he was dressed as a prince because⊠well⊠he was trying to infiltrate the Warlordâs headquarters.âÂ
âAnd I will play the captain of the crew that the cook works on!â Usopp interjected, taking a step in front of Sanji, his arms raised high with excitement, far too proud of himself.Â
You coughed down a laugh as Crocodile regarded him with an impatient look. âAlright... What happens next?â
Sanji spared a quick scowl to Usopp, before regaining the attention of everyone in the room, weaving each word with precision. âWell, the cook and the courtesan, they are to hide their love from the evil Warlordââ
âWith the help of their actual Captain, who has magical powers where heâs made out of rubber!â Luffy, this time, decided to add his own artistic storytelling, which silenced the entire room from skepticism.
Sanji blinked, hesitant. âYes, well, that partâs still in the works,â he promised Crocodile, waving his hand dismissively. âThereâll be a crew, with a swordsman and a navigator⊠and of course the Warlord will have his own set of pirates working for him. Itâs a grand production, the embodiment of the Bohemian idealsâŠâÂ
Sanji continued the story, crafting a plot of truth, beauty, freedom and love. But you were focused only on him, the passion with which he spun the tale, softening at the tragic romance that would take place between the courtesan and the cook. Every so often, your eyes would meet, and you would smile, if only slightly, with encouragement, enough to keep up his unwavering confidence until the end.Â
"The finale hasn't been written yet,â he admitted, wrapping up his summary of the unfinished play, as the rest of you huddled around Crocodile for a reaction, his face dreadfully unreadable. âButââ
âWe would love to get you involved artistically,â Buggy interrupted, excited by the prospects of the thrilling production and an investor. âIf you have any suggestions.âÂ
A tense ten seconds passed, as Crocodile regarded each one of you, thoughtful. âThe story could use some work,â he mused. âBut, generally I like it.âÂ
An eruption of cheers burst out from each of you, and you smiled, giggling as you leaned into the Duke, hopeful that your gratitude was evident. Across the room, Sanji relaxed, lighting up another cigarette, and Buggy gestured forward, talking at such a rapid speed you were certain his words were slurring together.Â
âCome, come with me,â he said, ushering Crocodile out of the room. âWeâll talk business.âÂ
Crocodile followed, but spared one last moment for you, as you followed the two men to the door, guiding him out.Â
âI apologize that our evening together was different than anticipated,â you said, as genuinely as you could, tracing a hand down his chest. âPerhaps another night would be best for us to talk.âÂ
âPerhaps.â He hummed, tucking a strand of hair behind your ear, his smile widening crookedly. âI still need to get acquainted with our star. Fame will suit you, my dear.âÂ
You smiled, a surge of pride overcoming you, one so strong that you couldnât even wallow in the discomfort of his touch. âI look forward to it.âÂ
The two of you parted, the moment evaporating as Crocodile followed Buggy out the door. And, when it finally slammed shut behind the two of them, you exhaled, all of the anxiety leaving your body in a flush.Â
The four other men went silent as you whirled on them, expressions dour as they waited for you to be the first to speak. Sanjiâs jaw was tight as he looked away from the door, back to you, regarding you with an unreadable expression.
But, you were still reeling on your success, too excited to care about the anger youâd felt earlier. You broke into a cheerful grin, rushing to throw your arms around the young ring-leader. âLuffy,â you said, close to weeping. Things werenât over yet, but there was a parting in the clouds, a sun shining through, as the hope of a future, a better one, became real. âThank you. For the first time, one of your ridiculous plans actually worked. Iâm very grateful.âÂ
He smiled like it was nothing, and your laughter became infectious, bubbling out of you in an effort to keep down your tears. You turned to the other two, both watching you curiously.Â
âUsopp, thank you for that wonderful recovery. Iâm not sure what we would have done if youâd not planned an emergency rehearsal.âÂ
He grinned wide, puffing his chest out. âAh, well, I knew someone had to act fast.âÂ
Lastly, you turned to the green-haired man, and his name sooner died on your lips, when you realized he had contributed very little. âZoro. You were useless actually.âÂ
Sanji snorted, and though Zoroâs face twitched, he didnât bother saying anything to the writer. âYou looked like you had it handled.â He shrugged, crossing his arms over his chest.Â
âWell. I suppose we did.â You rolled your eyes, your mood suddenly deflating. The high of panic and elation had worn on you, leaving you with an ache in the back of your head, your hands still jittery. âAnyway, Iâve just about had all the fun I can handle for one nightââ
âUh-huh,â Zoro scoffed, a jab at your rather unconventional occupation.
You ignored him, pushing them all towards the door. ââI am very grateful for your help in getting our new investor, but weâve got a busy week ahead, and I would like some rest. So, leave.âÂ
They all held their hands up in surrender, and while Sanji hadnât been a part of the group youâd been addressing, he slowly followed when Luffy called out to him. There was talk of throwing a party across the street, at the dingy apartment complex that all the Bohemians lived in, despite it being late already.
The four of them made to leave, waving enthusiastically as they rushed down the stairs, far too worked up to be quiet. Sanji lagged behind them, giving you a kind smile before making his exit, a soft bonne nuit, escaping his lips.
âSanjiâŠâ You called out, just before he closed the door behind him, his hand resting on the frame. Sanji turned, glancing over his shoulder, bright eyes pinning you right where you stood. âIâm sorry. So very sorry for the misunderstanding.â You waved your hand, drawing your fingers across your face to rest on your cheeks, already warm with shame. âI feel horrible.â
He paused, before a a grin split his face, irises burning with soft intensity. âDonât,â he said, exhaling a laugh. âI enjoyed it, actually.âÂ
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hobi x lys in osaka for @taehyunghobi [ cr: namuspromised ]
#btsedit#btsgif#dailybts#usersky#userpat#userines#userdimple#usersevn#raplineuser#uservans#annietrack#underbetelgeuse#rjshope#usermaggie#usermizuoka#*mine#hobi#tw flashing#if you saw me repost this yes i had to fix one of the gifs#and of course it's not showing up in the tags because when does this site ever work#i don't have the energy to correct it though it is what it is#i digress hi ashley i just wanted to make a little something for you#i hope you love it đ
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Whenever people who are entrenched in diet culture talk about how terrible chemicals are, I just want to whip out this:
#diet culture#diet culture tw#described images#image description in alt#'it's got CHEMICALS in it' and so do you! and me too! IT'S ALL CHEMICALS ALL THE WAY DOWN#instead of running from this world we must learn to embrace it#i'm not particularly angry at people who say this because it makes me think that they're incredibly invested in diet culture...#...i just don't want the whole 'food = bad' or 'bodies = bad' to go unchallenged...#...part of the reason why diet culture seems just as prevalent now (if not moreso) is partially because it isn't really...#...challenged or questioned without provocation. it's just assumed to be correct because it makes you 'feel in control'#when chemicals are bad you can control what chemicals you consume. it's individualistic and places the blame onto you for 'being good'#it places responsibility onto the person in such a way that it becomes impossible to fulfill#it isn't that i'm upset that people want to treat their bodies in a way they think is responsible...#...moreso that the *way* they go about it ensures that they're stuck in a cycle of self-blame and even self-hatred#because the METHOD is ineffective. not the desire to treat your body well#also the state of ohio looks stupid and i do Not respect it#it looks like a ball that is simultaneously deflated and over-inflated#also their state flag looks silly to me#it looks like the person who was making it fell asleep making it#i'm just clowning on ohio at this point. have never been to ohio but. are you guys okay
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I think that Dr. Christina "I was an excellent soldier" Raynor needs to deal with some personal things before she's anyone's therapist, because she strong-armed more of Bucky's autonomy away from him than Zemo did within the series.
#yeah man make amends for the shit that happened when you didn't even have control over your own thoughts#so she was giving him a way to âfix thingsâ but that wasn't on him to do so#all she did was doubly reinforce what he already thinks - which is a justified but false and guilt-laden perception - about the situation#idk much about therapy but i don't think that they're sposed to do that. correct me if i'm wrong and then i'll go fight all therapists#bucky barnes#tfaws#alpine#my art
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