#but where they do connect is SO GOOD I cannot help but meditate on it a lot too

[evilminji]

You know my Crechelings Are Possessed post?

What if it was just the one? A SI-OC or OC?

Dying and going THROUGH the Force? I will attest, is GONNA have side effects. You're gonna end up... weird. Not Normal for a Force Sensitive. Kinda like Anikin tbh. A bit TOO in tune. A bit TOO aware. Connected.

As though your brain was cracked open 5+ dimensionally, to the Whole Of Creation that IS the Force and it kinda fucked you up a bit. Cause as A Luminous Force Being? You were fine! Energy and light! But as MATTER? Well...

Matter breaks.

Can withstand only so much.

We are LIMITED by our matter, crude and flawed as it is. Beloved as it may be.

Cause make no mistake! You aren't BROKEN. But you are CHANGED. There were a series of clear, monumentous, and "life" altering events back to back here! Death, a traumatizing thing no matter HOW peaceful it may have been. And in all likelihood? It was NOT a peaceful end. It probably? Hurt. Was frightening. Abrupt. There is grief and hurt there. Fear.

Then the trauma of being separated from everyone we have ever known. Without closure. For them OR us. Our empathy would remind us of their suffering. That they do NOT know we are okay. That we have no way to TELL them we are. This too, is trauma. But? Worse?

Is the Force.

We? Are no Jedi. Not yet. We are confused. Lost and do not understand. It is FOREIGN to us. An outside will that we cannot escape. Where are our gods? The death we expected? The afterlife we assumed we would meet? It's INSIDE US. It IS US. We are IT. We don't know where we are and everything feels?

E N D L E S S .

Can force ghosts even cry? Weep, terrified and overwhelmed? Afraid? Simply BRINGING us to them would not impart understanding. And imparting understanding? Well... we know it to be not OF us? To be inflicted. An invasion. The Force is not cruel. But! Importantly! It is not and has never BEEN? Mortal.

Blue and Orange morality is at play. How do you explain to a formless, infinite, all knowing, all powerful God Force? The concept of "boundaries"? Limits? There is GOOD to be done. It's helping you! Pushing love and comfort! Surely that should work? Why is that not working? It is... confused. Not MADE for such contemplations.

This too, is Trauma. Being held in the hands of a God. Benevolent does not mean SAFE. Does not mean you will not be unharmed. Just... that they do not MEAN to harm you.

Or have very Good Reasons for why they "Must".

The Force Ghosts help. They are patient in the way only old Master's could be. Kind. They understand. Have taught. And so? Though they are quite confused, they understand you struggle to release your fear. Explaining things helps. Talking helps. And you find peace.

Not the afterlife you EXPECTED, but not terrible.

Which... of course, is when once again things change.

Birth, Life, these TOO, are Trauma. You were FREE. No more pain. No aches. No hunger, no thirst, no exhaustion. Connection deeper then this broken and flawed matter could ever hope to achieve. The world has gone SILENT. Muffled. Like solitary confinement for the SOUL.

Only in meditation, are you FREE.

Your parents can't handle you. You grieve for them. For the child they should have had. Look around the nursery, so filled with excitement and love, and feel nothing but the urge to weep. You are a stillborn, brought to life. A child stolen. They deserved better then this. Even as you can not be anything but what you ARE? What of THEIR sorrow? Their confusion and futures now impossible?

You love them. They are not yours. Will never tryely be your parents, for all they brought you into this world. But oh, Oh, you love these poor grieving souls. Wish it had not been you. That they could have had the child they were so excited to love. You... you are sorry. So, so sorry.

They take you to the Temple. You guild them to a child in need, first. Hope they will be happy.

You do not look back.

They put you in a Creche with others just as "Unusually Strong" in the Force. Is that Grogu? Hi Grogu. Who are the rest of you? The room is quite. Everyone talking loudly in the Force, instead. It would be deafening for the more delicate younglings. They don't have the shields for it yet. The children here SHOUT without meaning too, like standing at a rock concert.

Visions are a constant thing. Unusual Force gifts and manifestations. Illirrrska can see auras. Doesn't know what they MEAN, mind you, and xe sees them on EVERYTHING that lives, but still! Xey are well on xeir way to figuring it out. (Xey have a holo document cataloging the colors, you see.)

You fit right in! With your Tiny Herald Of Death To Come nature. Your Creche mates believe you. The adults? Have grown numb. Used to filtering. Tiny younglings with Too Much Force flowing through them? Are horrors. Viscerally unsettling. Unnatural.

Even to the Jedi.

But! They REFUSE to treat children with such caution and distain. Hold them at an arms length out of FEAR. So they mentally filter. "That's nice dear, horrifying concepts and brain melting secrets, mmmhmmm. Eat your pudding. Who wants to play float ball~‽ Yaaaaaay!"

No one will listen. Future in motion. But really, of course it is. You are no fool.

However... tell me, Master Jedi. Does it matter? If we die one step to the right as apposed to the left? Because you would not LISTEN when the Force spoke? The future only changes when you ACT. Not when you REFUSE too. Out of FEAR. Out of IGNORANCE. Out of ATTACHMENT.

And make no mistake, you ARE attached. Clinging so hard to your beliefs that you could not POSSIBLY be wrong. Could not POSSIBLY be fallible, be fooled by the Dark Side and lead astray, that you have turned your back on the very Tennants of the Code itself.

What is more important? Tradition or the Force? The innocent or the way things were? Tell me, what is the will of the Force... and what is Fear? Convenience? The little moral compromises that damn? Who do you serve, Master Jedi? And ARE you serving them?

Perhaps you should meditate.

Just???

This Tiny Cryptid Crecheling? That speaks like a wizened old Master? Feels like a tiny star in the Force? Not a cute lil ball of light. A FUCKING STAR. Giant ball of gas in space, a burning ball of light, THAT kind of star! But... small? Person shaped. It's like meditating next to a Force Nexus.

They just? Hand you things. Or sabotage random ships. Literally just FUCKING SHOT a knight once, for no clear reason! All they would say is "it's not like you'll actually listen. This is the only way." What? Of COURSE WE'LL LISTEN! (No. They won't. Just ask Sifo. Ask Obi-Wan. The Sith, fear, and hubris have eroded the Jedi from within.)

The full blown confidence of an adult? Combined with the creepy "oh god. They're in THE VENTS!!!" Nature of highly force sensitive Crechelings?

Magnificent~☆

They can see into your SOUL. Are holding a toddler that squirms around, wiggles up to whisper in their ear, gets a nod, only for YOU to be somberly informed that your second in command (a life long friend) has betrayed you. Avoid wearing red. You will die on a Friday. By the way, they can't reach the counter... could you hand them those snacks?

One of the other one speaks to trees.

The trees SPEAK BACK.

Prophecy. Fuckin Terrifying Prophecy EVERYWHERE.

Did YOU want to know that your grandson will grow up to kill his brother? No? Too bad! Not even married yet? ALSO TOO BAD! Have FUN with that knowledge! How about learning that there is horrific suffering planets away? No. No there ISN'T anything you can do about it. Just... here! Have some Deeply Cursed Knowledge. From a toddler. Now! They're gonna go eat grass~☆

The appear and disappear at random. Climb the walls. Fuckin FLOAT. The Force itself is their imaginary friend! They literally consult it over PUDDING CHOICES. Sometimes? They talk in perfect synchronization, like a hive mind. Stare without blinking. One moment they are perfectly normal children... the next? Like PUPPETS.

Tiny avatars. Through which SOMETHING GREATER speaks. They KNOW, not think, KNOW what they need to do. You can not convince them. Trying just makes you an obstacle to be overcome.

They are four.

Toddlers and children. Younglings. Initiates!

I just? Want there to be? A portion of Deeply Cursed/Possessed Crechelings? That are just LIKE that. Loved regardless. Nothing wrong with them. They're just too strong for their lil bitty baby brains. Once they learn to shield better? It'll balance out. Anikin would have gone there, had he been found young.

It'd be hilarious? If what saves the galaxy? Is someone finally REMEMBERING that? And thinking to themselves?

"Hey, you know what might be good for that Skywalker kid? Being exposed to more Force Sensitives that GET him. We should put him on Cursed Crechelings duty for a bit." And??

Anikin? Is in LOVE? They are all so SMOL an NORMAL? Finally! Jedi who aren't EMOTIONALLY DISTANT! Shielded? What do mean "Shielded"? No I'm not shouting all the time! This is my normal speaking voice! *Skywalker confusion as he cuddles babies*

Cause like? He too? Spoke in horrifying prophecy? Was vaguely Anti-christ-y? Did the (o.o) see into your sooooooul stare? So WHAT? That's just how babies ARE!

.....what do you MEAN "no"?

Every day, throwing open Obi-Wan's poor, slowly being destroyed, front door like "Master! Did you know I am AN OUTLIER!? And REALLY LOUD!? Other people aren't emotionally crippled psychopaths, they're just really REALLY quite compared to me!!" "Ah. Yes, Anikin, please. Maybe say that LOUDER. I don't think the ENTIRE temple quite heard you... -_- "

Just?? Anikin Skywalker! And his Hoard of Creepy Possessed Crechelings that are TOTALLY NORMAL, Guys! All kids are like this! He's a GREAT role model and baby sitting! Yeah, it's the Clone wars, and no, he has NO idea how the entire Creche got onto the ship... but hey! Enrichment! That's good for them, right?

(^-^) (o.o) (|o.o|) (o,o) (o-o) (|o,o|)

*clones look from their general, to the tiny unblinking magic jedi babies, back to their general* s-sure?

@legitimatesatanspawn @spidori @babbling-babull @hdgnj @hypewinter @leftnotright @starwarsblr

[sunkissedliterarylightofchrist]

#Tyler being more legalistic actually makes SO much sense#and the lore & related struggles tie into that#I don't know enough half alive lore to figure out exactly how romans 8 fits tho#please feel free to explain it!

EXACTLY

See, I feel like Tyler (and Josh too maybe, idk) have started to get more.... icky(?) in their music because they are thinking too much about the issues they talk about. They're giving them SO much screen time that it's suffocating them. Because while being specific with the Word is good, as soon as that crosses over into legalism it gets bad.

Whereas half•alive does indeed acknowledge all of that death and decay and darkness(in a different manner than TØP but it is certainly still there), but instead actively chooses to look beyond that and utterly trust God through it all and see the beauty in the struggle and creation. Almost all of their songs- even the ones that do have darker themes- seem lighter A) because of the backing instrumentals drawing you closer to the feeling of hope and goodness and B) almost all of their darker songs do indeed have some sort of resolution or calling back to what the point is.

Tyler and Josh have kept people from commiting suicide, that is a 100% fact. They've helped remind me of the Truth so many times and helped me wrestle my brain out of dark places by using the imagery of darkness to show how defeatable it can be, to quote @artist-issues. But like you put into this excellent post, you can't cling onto that feeling forever, even if the darkness feels comfortable because it is scary. Because self-focus blinds you to what is greater, which is God. So while Blurryface is an incredible concept and I adore how they've personified it in order to defeat it, at this point they've more so let it take over. I have loved the Clancy saga so so much, its very well written and just told with incredible mediums, but to some extent I still feel like its cozying up to the darkness so much that its forgetting that the light is there. (Which I am SORRY to say, and I don't even agree with my own statement that strongly, but I don't know how else to say it) I feel like (and this is total speculation, I don't have as firm of a basis for this as I would like) they've let their artistry 'eat them' for a lack of a better term. They've let it become their brand and now don't know how to break out of it(?)

Romans 7 is an incredible text. One of the best things Paul ever wrote. BUT- that's not the end of the story. Romans 8 is. That's where all of the hope and promise of a future of light and joy is, even in the midst of the pain and struggle.

And as for half•alive lore-- well, haha, once I figure it out you will be the first to know. I know that Conditions of a Punk especially has some with the story of reflection and regret over the relationship in it (because its a break up album), but its not as 'allegorically Christian' as their other stuff is. Just basing it on their music itself right now, especially on Now, Not Yet my beloved.

Romans 8 is the continuation of Romans 7, right? And so it is in direct conversation to and referencing the previous chapter. But Romans 7 is more focused on the dark part of the 'my flesh causes me to sin' cycle, whereas Romans 8 offers the hope to break out of that cycle, something I just wish that TØP would COME OUT AND SAY, just like half•alive has. 'Jesus Christ sits on the throne' Boom. Done. State the thesis of their music. The entire Now, Not Yet album is indeed depicting the Christian struggle, but wraps it up pointing to not just hope, but the source of hope. And their other music does too just as much, Persona utterly slaps and so do their EPs and singles btw, I just love the way they did it there the most. Seriously, there are many direct quotes from their music direct from Romans 7, you'll see. Crack open the Word and put on the tunes and its going to pop right out at you.

I’ve figured it out.

Twenty One Pilots and half•alive are both built on the book of Romans specifically with the theology they talk about, but TØP is zeroed in on Romans 7 while half•alive leans on Romans 8 instead.

[accio-victuuri]

cpn o’clock: tea or coffee 🍵☕️

treat this as my clowning post for episode 2 of exploring the unknown. hahahahahaha! though i have mentioned the relation about tea in my previous post, let me explain more and include the thing about coffee.

so people were panic buying the tea yibo packed during his prep for the trip— which turns out to be calming tea that helps with sleep ( he said so himself ) . which now that i think about it, he shouldn’t have any problem sleeping cause he is beyond exhausted every damn day on this show.

and i don’t wanna act like i have him on speed-dial, like everyone, i observe his habits and personality via public means. i have never seen him talk about or act like he has problems sleeping or even needing that help. we all saw summer surf shop — he was out like a light. he mentioned sleeping in planes and taking short naps. you have photos of him sleeping or probably have his eyes closed but whatever — you get the point.

now who do we know has problems sleeping?

p1 is yibo in richora event where he mentions having no trouble sleeping and one time fell asleep in seconds + he goes on deep sleep.

p2 gege saying sleeping is now more stressful.

p3 mentioned that his sleep is not stable, sometimes good and sometimes bad.

p4 when you have insomnia, it’s good to download rain sounds to help with sleep. which lowkey is the same logic as yibo saying the sound of the jungle us good for sleep.

p5 is an article that says:

When he goes to different cities, Xiao Zhan will bring the same type of pillows and quilts. I will bring anything that can help me sleep well. "He also tried aromatheeapy lamps, lavender essential oil, various medicines that will make you fall asleep when applied on your body. Spray it on your pillow to make you fall asleep, melatonin, meditation music. Later I found out that the best way for him to sleep was eye mask, earplugs (….)

CPN is XZ probably asked him to bring the tea along so WYB can sleep better. thinking that he may have a hard time since he is in a different environment. They are just too sweet!!!!!

people have also pointed out how xz packed tea in his luggage before but this was 2019/20 and the type of tea is different. the examples above are much much recent. but i guess this is fans saying that “tea” is something XZ will pack with him too.

plus we are aware of the green tea connection during untamed filming which is one of the favorite cpns out there 🍵

… now let’s move on to Coffee ☕️😋

everyone’s favorite beverage! people picked this up in episode 2 when wyb was joking around having the coffee he brought soaked so now you can drink it directly. also how he shared that he drinks coffee in the morning. look, we’ve known for some time that he likes coffee especially when he goes camping. we also had another cpn of xz bringing some coffee home etc.

if we’re gonna start with CQL, xz was the one who drinks coffee and in interviews continues to say he does. sure, wyb is free to change his preference on his own and have a new found love for coffee but as a cpf, we cannot ignore the fact that this is an “xz thing” and one of a couple of “things” they have in common. from something as mundane as this to more specific ones.

thinking about them waking up together and having their morning coffee is making me happy 😌😌😌

source

[anemoiashifts]

mental health check-in for reality shifting.

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as we all know, reality shifting is generally neural thing but tends to be glorified & romanized by a select few due to people wanting to have a better situation or a more desirable life.

that in itself is totally fine but this post is created with the intent to make sure the community has a healthy relationship with shifting & if not possible solutions.

if mental health is left unchecked it can lead to destructive behaviors & can worsen preexisting mental health concerns. for me personally, that’s not what shifting is about. you can learn about yourself & grow without even shifting. the expansion of your perspective & becoming more empathetic to yourself is something i believe is extremely important.

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♡ how often do you think about shifting ?

while it’s fun to daydream & think about your desired reality — does it consume your life or take away from other tasks that need to get done in this reality? if you’re somebody who has maladaptive daydreaming disorder (like myself!) it can exacerbate the fantasy-like aspect of thinking about shifting.

if you’re someone whose mind wanders a lot do something productive. this could be finishing some homework that you’ve been putting off for a long time or rearranging your bedroom. stuff like partaking in hobbies while listening to youtube videos in the background may help too.

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♡ why are you shifting ?

is it because you’re searching for something bigger ? maybe you’re looking for friends ? while you probably aren’t going to be able to meet your favorite characters here, you can meet lots of other people & make new connections at anytime. if it’s in person or even if it’s in an online space , i bet there are lots of people in this comment section or any shifting video who would love to be your friend.

defining why you want to shift can do wonders for uncovering more about yourself. 90% of the things people want to shift for are & can be found here & you’re more then worthy of them. just because you want something like love or a sense of belonging doesn’t mean you have to travel the multiverse for it.

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♡ “i want to k!ll myself because i can’t shift.”

while i understand frustration, extremes that result in life altering & ending choices are never good and quite frankly, frightening for a creator to see in their comment sections. most sv!c!des are committed on impulse. we go through so many emotions on the daily & process so much information a day. taking a moment alone to think & break down thought process & long term effects your actions will have is a nice way to come back down to earth.

meditation is also a great tool to calm down. you can even use shifting guided meditations without the actual intention to shift. breath work has also been helpful to me.

i understand these suggestions aren’t long term fixes but if you’re someone who has echoed these words & truly meant it then i cannot recommend therapy & possible taking a break from shifting even more to focus on yourself right here where you are. this may not be the answer you’d like to hear but it’s the one that is possibly needed.

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♡ timing.

there is no specific time frame that you have to shift. both children & adults do hold the capability to shift. if someone tells you, you can’t shift because ___ or that you’ll age out of something its simply not true. things take time & it’s okay if your journey doesn’t look like everyone else’s. there’s no need to stress yourself out. try to enjoy the journey as well as being excited for the outcome. essentially, a large part of the shifting journey is meditation & affirmations which are both beneficial to your mental & physical self. try to sprinkle in some self love affirmations or general positive thoughts too. even if you need to take a step away from shifting & pick it up at a later date, i encourage you to do so if it’s stressing you out or you’re only focusing on shifting or neglecting your life / responsibilities here.

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♡ shadow & trauma work.

answering questions that are meant to make you think & deeply reflect are tools that hi light some issues you may not even realize you’ve had. i have a tumblr post here with some, but for tiktok, ill list some on the next side. these ones are specifically for shifting but i encourage you to venture out to discover some more personal ones to expand upon your answers to these.

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i should also mention, i’m not a therapist so take what i say as non-professional advice & mere suggestions & a starting point to truly expand what shifting has done for you, negatively & positivity. im a huge advocate for therapy & if you feel comfortable enough expand upon these conversations in sessions if you feel comfortable.

i understand my audience is varied in age but i do notice a lot of you are younger then myself. it’s hurts to see people who are so young stress themselves out this much over trying to shift. i really do care about you & want to see all of you happy — with or without shifting.

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[hajihiko]

any hajime headcannons?

-this guy's got anger issues too, he's just slightly better at hiding them

-completely oblivious to the fact that everyone crushes on him it's hilarious

-His relationship with his parents is not good, not bad, just... average. They just never connected and conversation was usually just polite. It's kind of ouch to feel how your parents just don't really feel particularly strongly about you as a person beyond being their child, but he's fed and housed and schooled, so it's not like anythings wrong per se. This is partially why he was so obsessed with being extraordinary

-The only person to rival Imposter in how much imposter syndrome he has

-runs hotter than the average person (miggy gave me this one lol)

-dimples!! And sharper teeth than the average person

-interested in philosophy, art and the supernatural, post-wakeup, because it's all things that are impossible to do "right" and the supernatural hasn't been proven yet. (Cue ghost Junko)

-hes an only child and sometimes you can really tell.

-if he was a flower he'd be a 🌻... To Face Another Day and such...

-he is at risk at having a bit of an alcohol problem post-wakeup if he had access to that sort of thing. No one operates at 100% when drunk and it's the only time he can be dumb and clumsy and bad at things anymore.

-Brain empty no feelings chemicals (samesies) means he's also gotta be careful with drugs (forcibly dousing brain with Chemicals) but (thankfully??) he actually has an aversion to drugs in general, even strong painkillers.

-strong aversion to needles post-wakeup, and absolutely can't stand having his wrists held or restrained. No sexy handcuffs for this guy thankyouverymuch

-his hands are like. Flat? Wide? His fingers splay out far and the thumb is extra curved.

-he didn't inherit everything that the other kids have, that didn't come by talent but rather is individual based. Ibukis hearing, Akane's danger sense, and Fuyuhiko's pain tolerance for example.

-hes hairy but he doesn't like having a beard.

-kinda has that thing where you're really resistant to being told what to do even if you were gonna do it anyway. Like "ok well you told me to so now I won't"

-mentally checks out sometimes. Just runs on autopilot. It's hard to tell the difference and it scares him. One of the methods that help are aromatherapy and meditation

-he and Impostor have like, a very unique relationship. You couldn't tell from the outside but he can feel the difference

-sometimes the emotions just aren't there. When they're super strong though, they can overwhelm him to the point where he forgets to be the best at stuff and can make human mistakes once again. FX if he was absolutely furious he'd punch someone with normal strength instead of Ultimate Boxer form or whatever

-he is pretty good with people, he's just a guy you can trust! but they still get on his nerves often.

-if he doesn't get something he CANNOT let it go until he understands it. Thankfully people are hard to neatly pin down so being around his friends keeps him from being so bored.

[guxciestone]

— self-love. ❞

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self-love and self-acceptance is very important. i hope you can take this reading very seriously and perhaps even find this accurate and learn some things about yourself. if you need any encouragement on why you deserved to be loved, check this post out! hopefully that helps. i hope you’re having a good day ♡

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how do you see yourself?

- There’s this idea of seeing yourself as someone who cannot love others. You might be what others call a “commitaphobe”. You might struggle with intimacy or getting close to others because you believe it is too much work, or perhaps you are afraid of what comes with it and what the other person will think of you. You might think that you aren’t worth getting to know, and if anyone did then they’d be turned off . This goes from your friends to your family to even your romantic relationships. You might be the type to think that love isn’t for you, which is not true. You view yourself as someone who is only worthy of it for the short-term and nothing more. For some of you, you might be a player or you like to get around. There’s also this vibe of not respecting yourself and your own boundaries.

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why don’t you prioritize your own needs?

- You might be a huge people-pleaser. You serve to please others before yourself. You might be used to being around brash, abusive, controlling and arrogant individuals, so you are used to submitting to others. You could struggle with standing up for yourself at times too. I’m seeing a significant figure like a parent that could be an example of this in your life. There’s also attachment issues for a few of you, perhaps to this particular parent. Or even a particular partner. For some of you, you might be in a relationship where your boyfriend/girlfriend isn’t treating you with the utmost respect and could be very condescending and careless.

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how can you show yourself that you are worthy?

- You need to learn to listen to yourself. If your soul or body is telling you what you want, you give yourself what you want before you give anything to anybody else. Most importantly, you need to trust yourself and others. If you know someone is a good person and truly wants to care for you and get to know you, don’t push them away and be flighty. Listen to them and get to know them back. I’m also hearing take it slow if that is what makes you comfortable. I feel that most of you also struggle with overthinking things to the point where you self-sabotage yourself from good connections. Taking deep breaths, meditating, or even journaling can get your head in a good place before you make any serious decision.

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how can you be more authentic?

- For a certain group, you might be obsessed with materialism. You love nice things and you love feeling as though you have nice things. Who doesn’t? But you might be someone who likes to play an image of someone who has it all. I believe this is telling you to stop. You don’t need to have the nicest car, house, or clothes to be loved and admired by people. You are more than all of that. Show who you really are behind all of that. I’m sure you’re an amazing person. For others, you might struggle with truly committing to people because perhaps you have this idealized version of how intimacy and love should be. Love isn’t perfect, and you need to realize that. There’s going to be ups and downs. Stop running away at the slightest inconvenience, and you’ll be surprised how amazing love really is. Learn to be more comfortable expressing your emotions too. People around you probably think you’re nonchalant because you barely like showing how you feel. A few of you could also struggle with gambling too.

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what is something you need to let go of?

- You need to let go of your ego. That ego that stops you from experiencing true love and intimacy. You have this character of not needing love, not needing friends, not needing anyone—when in reality, we all need love. We are humans. We are social creatures. We thrive off of togetherness. You think that showing that you are capable of being on your own entirely will prove yourself to others, but it only pushes others away more and honestly it scares them. Truth is, this ego is only trying to hide fear. That fear of showing who you really are and possible being judged for it. There’s nothing to hide and prove. Just let go of that pride and let others in. Love is a gamble. When you open yourself up, you either get rejected or they’ll open themselves up to you, but I promise you it’s always worth it.

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what is something you need to acknowledge?

- You cannot avoid disasters. You cannot reverse troubles, problems, and hick-ups in your relationships. Again, love isn’t perfect. We aren’t perfect. Additionally, you definitely cannot have the good without the bad and vice versa. It’s okay if your friend or siblings talk to you about how you need to open up to them more. They just want to communicate with you so that your relationship with them can thrive. It doesn’t mean they hate your guts and don’t like you. Please stop climbing into your little hole when someone tries to communicate with you about an issue. I promise you the bad parts are always worth it for the good parts.

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a message from your spirit guides/higher self

- It’s time for you to step into a new chapter in your life where you are aware of the challenges, know what is out there for you in regards to connections, and be your authentic self. I feel you’ve always known all of this, you just struggled with taking that first leap into the unexpected. Again, life and love is a gamble. You’ll never know what you get, but the bad is always worth it for the good.

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how do you see yourself?

- You could see yourself as someone who is vulnerable. You might believe that you are a pushover and it’s easy for others to take advantage of you, which leads you to feeling pretty worthless and insecure. At the same time, you can be guarded. You are someone who is stubborn and always seem to have a chip on your shoulder towards people. You could struggle with letting go of the past or forgiving people. There’s this energy of feeling as though the world is against you or is out to get you. You are defensive about who you let see your natural self out of a fear of being taken advantage of or judged. There might be times where you are aware of how vulnerable you are and you try to stand up for yourself but it only comes out as extreme aggression. It feels like you are just trying to survive in the world where everyone is against you.

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why don’t you prioritize your own needs?

- For a group of you, you may have dealt with relationships in which you were always cheated, taken advantage of, betrayed, or embarrassed by someone. There’s a possibility of a toxic friendship or an abusive/tyrannical romantic partner. You are so used to this feeling of worthiness and having to stay in the shadow of the people you love, you aren’t comfortable with lifting yourself up and giving you what you want or need. You also seem to refuse to move on from these connections, and you have this belief that everyone you deal with will be this way with you. You’re stuck in the past which allows you to keep repeating these destructive patterns of depriving yourself of your needs.

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how can you show yourself you are worthy?

- Firstly, there needs to be a realization—you need to move on. You need to move on by forgiving the people who hurt you. Not for them, but for you to carry on with your life. It’s going to be difficult. It’s going to take some uncomfortable moments and a reconciliation with your past, but it’ll be worth it. You need to accept that this is your past. It’s not going to determine your future and the people you meet at all. I also feel you need to cry. There’s so much built-up emotion from the pain you’ve consumed. All of this sadness and betrayal turned into anger towards anyone and everyone you know, and you need to release it. Signing into therapy, journaling, or self-soothing meditations could help.

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how can you be more authentic?

- You are familiar with thinking of the past, but it is more important to think of the present and future. Think of who you are now after moving on, and think about who you want to become in the future. All the way up to now, you’ve been lacking in personal development and progress due to focusing on what already happened. It’s time to set goals for yourself in regards to your self-love, career, and true connections to see what life holds for you. It’s time to stop pitying and find what truly makes you happy and satisfied.

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what is something you need to let go?

- You need to let go of your personal ideologies you’ve made about people over time. Not everyone is a bad person, and not everyone is someone that is to not be trusted. It is time to let new people have a chance to see into your world. I’m also hearing that if there is someone or some people in your life right now who are trying to becoming your friends, you should let them. They’ll introduce you to a spontaneous world you’ve never been in before. You might go to parties, bars, and be more social often.

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what is something you need to acknowledge?

- You need to acknowledge that your life turns in the favor of your thoughts. If you believe in the positive and abundant, then that is what it’ll be. You are not a burden or a curse to this world. You deserve happiness, peace, and love just like anyone else. You’ll soon see that your outer world will change according to your self-image. Good people are going to start coming into your life.

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messages from your spirit guides/higher self

- There’s one distinct person who you need to cut off from your life completely. It could be someone you refuse to let go of, and you might know you need to do so. There’s this promise that if you do, your life will improve much more. This could be a masculine figure—a father figure, friend, or someone you are romantically involved with. They seem like someone who serves no purpose in your life and are just dead weight. They could also place unnecessary burdens on you.

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how do you see yourself?

- You could see yourself as someone who needs to be saved or need to be swept off of their own feet. You have this victim mentality occurring. You could feel that you aren’t as fortunate as most people. Perhaps you are in the working class or a part of a minority. There’s this feeling of having the burden of struggling and waiting for someone to come help you. You also kind of feel left out in the cold. This perception of yourself could make you someone who is incredibly hardworking but yet has this pitiful mentality of “I’ve been through the worst and I’m used to the worst.”

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why don’t you prioritize your own needs?

- You don’t prioritize your own needs because you are too in your head about things. When you are overthinking, you subtly discourage yourself from taking care of yourself because you feel it’s not worth it due to your status or whatever societal construct you feel is holding you back. For some of you, there could be some underlying insecurities regarding your race, gender, or social class. You are also someone who take things very seriously. You are someone who is always on the defense and ready to attack anyone who you feel threatened by.

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how can you show yourself that you are worthy?

- There’s this utter bitterness I feel coming from you—bitterness towards the people who you feel have an advantage over you. I would love to tell you right now that you cannot fight hate with hate, it only makes the situation worse. I’m hearing “balance” and “fairness”. You need to respect others, at least the people who haven’t shown any source of animosity towards you. You also get a bit unmotivated when you are looking at others prosper. You should learn to encourage others in order to encourage yourself. Lifting up others makes you feel ten times better about yourself. Looking at others, especially the people you love, prosper will encourage you to do better. There’s also no need to be defensive at times. I’m getting that being less defensive and accepting will bring in new people in your life who will give you opportunities to go after your goals.

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how can you be more authentic?

- You have this strong desire to “go against the grain” all the time. I’m here to tell you that you don’t have to do that anymore. It is okay if you happen to want to do something that others happen to criticize others for, that’s you. Striving to oppose everyone just to stand out or prove a point gets stressful after a while. Do what you want without your socially constructed ego getting in the way of it.

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what is something you need to let go of?

- There might be particular goal you have in mind that you truly don’t want to follow through with. Your ego is what is making you go after this goal. You need to let go of that goal because that isn’t what you really desire. If this is a particular career that was forced upon you by your parents or society, most definitely drop it. Follow your true passions. I’m also feeling that you need to quit your current job for some reason.

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what is something you need to acknowledge?

- You need to acknowledge that the world isn’t fair at times. Sometimes you won’t get what you exactly want because society has made it to where not everything is made for us. However, create with what you have. Make the best out of what you have, and you are guaranteed success and happiness.

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messages from spirit guides/higher self

- It is important to stop putting yourself down. You’re much more than what people say you are. I’m hearing that you know yourself better than anyone, and you know you are more. Take the time to cry. But don’t cry for long, because I feel you might have a tendency to fall deeper into the pit when you sulk too much in your emotions.

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how do you see yourself?

- There’s a sense of confusion in how you view yourself. Perhaps that most of you struggle with your identity and knowing who you are as a person. There could be the possibility that a lot of you use other’s perceptions of you to define who you are, which isn’t healthy. You could be the type of person who receives judgment from others and takes it to heart. You don’t take criticism easily, you’re very sensitive too (there is nothing wrong with that, by the way. please don’t bash yourself for having feelings) You don’t have a clear sense of self-identity, hence you don’t have a clear sense of self-worth. You could be someone who is also a bit selfless too, but in a detrimental way. You could be used to others having the attention and appreciation. You might be the type to avoid being in the spotlight due to the fear of being judged or being perceived as selfish. You are an incredibly humble person though, but it’s okay to shine once in a while. You could also see yourself as someone who is a bit chaotic and all-over-the-place. Your might be confused about a lot of things about yourself—like what you want, what are your goals, etc.

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why don’t you prioritize your own needs?

- You do not prioritize your own needs because there is a fear of feeling selfish. You believe that putting yourself over others means you are careless and reckless, which is not true. It is okay to look after yourself. You’re here to survive and live the best life possible for yourself, of course you’re in the center of your own world. You could be easy to control and manipulated into doing the opposite of what you should. Perhaps you have friends who persuade you to help them with their problems instead of the other way around for example. I’m also getting the vibe of someone in this pile being in a relationship or connection with someone where they are being handled like they cannot make decisions for themselves. It seems to me you need to take back control of your life in some way, in some area of your life. For some of you, it could be a career; for the other group of you, your identity and ability to make your own choices.

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how can you show yourself that you are worthy?

- You can show yourself that you are worthy by appreciating yourself more, and letting others appreciate you more. It is okay for the attention or spotlight to be on you. If there is something you feel there is worth congratulating for, then best believe it is. Let everyone see you for a minute, let yourself see you for a minute and clap for yourself. This will also help with self-confidence. I’m also feeling you should try to invest in new hobbies. Find what makes you happy. I feel you are so used to dealing with others, you don’t spend time to learn more about yourself. This is the time. Go out to the park, buy a new pet, or start creating art. Have fun and get to know yourself more through your interests.

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how can you be more authentic?

- You can be more authentic by taking more risks and truly going after what you want unapologetically. You might have certain goals you’ve always wanted to accomplish but self-sabotage or insecure thinking may gotten in your way. Most of the things you want to do have been halted due to your unsure mindset. In order to truly know what it is you want to do, you need to stop thinking, go for it, and take that risk instead. I’m also getting that some of you want to travel or start a business venture. I suggest you go for it and don’t think twice.

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what is something you need to let go of?

- You need to let go of this constant need of serving others. I understand you’re humble and giving, which is great. However, sometimes it can be a bit exhausting considering the fact that you are going to need to serve yourself at the same time too. Once again, it is okay to focus on and provide for yourself once in a while. There’s no need to feel shame for that whatsoever. You are not meant to serve others like a maid or slave, you’re a human being who deserves comfort and security just as much as anyone else. Believe it.

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what is something you need to acknowledge?

- You need to acknowledge that you are not inherently “better” than others just because you are selfless and giving towards others. You might have a tendency of looking at people who have a good sense of self as individuals who don’t care about others when in reality you are too invested in others to know that you should be caring for yourself as well. You need to acknowledge that there is nothing wrong with focusing on yourself just as much as there is nothing wrong with caring for others. There can be a balance. It seems to me that you feel this way about these types of people because you are rather envious of the fact that they can shamelessly check up in themselves while you can’t, and also the feeling that being selfless is the “right” thing to be. Both sides can good or bad in their way.

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messages from your spirit guides/higher selves

- There seems to be financial or mental hardships in your life right now. Your guides or higher self is calling for you to pay attention to this. This matters the most right now. It’s time for you to take the attention away from others and focus on getting what is tearing down built back up again. Some of you could have lost a job or could be going through a depressive season right now. It is okay to seek a financial advisor or a therapist too. It is okay to talk to others about your issues. Make sure it is people you can trust and confide in, people who won’t take advantage of your insecurities.

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[verosvault]

🚨SPOILERS FOR FANTASY HIGH JUNIOR YEAR EPISODE 7🚨

Dimension20 "Fantasy High Junior Year"

Episode 7 "Stress Tested"

Timestamp: 00:53:31

Video Length: 4min. & 57sec.

Kristen talks to Yolanda about her Academics, Cassandra, and the Mysterious Voice she heard (Pt. 1 | ‣Pt. 2)

Yolanda: *shrugs* "That's my advice. It's the best I can do."

Kristen: "Okay."

Ally: "I start taking a bunch of notes. Maybe I can kinda combine this with my campaign."

Emily, Zac, and Siobhan just laughing! 😭✋

Lou just laughing with his head in his hands 😭💀🤣

Ally: "Just something really public. I mean, like, if I do a miracle that's gonna help the campaign."

Emily: "I kinda think the shrimp jump was a miracle."

Ally: "I think you're right. Can I ask her if the shrimp jump counts as my miracle?"

Yolanda: "It's been very good talking to you Miss Applebees. Thank you so much. Good day."

Kristen: "The tarter sauce was on fire!"

Brennan: *click*[Yolanda's door closing on Kristen]

Ally: "Was there any way for her to help me find out if Cassandra's alive? After I talk to her, can I find some quiet space in one of the Cleric rooms and try to convene with...?"

Brennan: "Yeah. Yeah, let's make this first check here. So this is gonna be for sort of like your religion essentially."

Ally: "Yes."

Brennan: "Go ahead and gimme a Religion check."

Ally: *rolls* "That is an 11."

Brennan: "Okay. Sitting in the quiet meditation room, the one where you saw Cassandra and saw Kalina before."

Ally: *has hand out to ask for a stress token* "I gotta do better than that."

Brennan: *evilly smiling* "Kristen digs deep in a way that I think Kristen sometimes hasn't in the past."

The awesome caption team: (ominous music)

Ally: *rolls" "Cassandra. Okay, a lot better. A lot better. That is a 22."

Brennan: *gasps* "Incredible. With that, as you begin your fall semester in the same meditation chamber where you saw Cassandra when she brought Kalina back, you feel yourself drifting, becoming distracted. And suddenly, feel eyes on you." *growls* "Shadow. Something ferocious moving nearby. Feel yourself becoming distracted, and suddenly you remember the symbol from the Forest of the Nightmare King. Whenever you're in the dark, I'm here holding your hand and you're not afraid of the dark. Cassandra is beyond your reach, but definitively is not dead. She cannot grant you spells, but is so removed from this place that you are not sure how to contact her. But these handful of shards of the divine essence you're holding onto, there's some tether or connection here. It's just- the line hasn't been cut but it doesn't have a current right now. Right? On that 22, can Kristen think of a time or moment that doubt or mystery has actually made her life better? A moment where there was some small miracle that was provided, some benefit to life made by mystery or doubt?"

Ally: "I think she spent so much time trapped and feeling, like, super wrong that doubt and mystery actually feel like a really beautiful escape, and more true."

Brennan: "The concept of escape hits you. And for a moment you hear." *clicking* "And all of the locks on the windows and all of the locks on the doors in this room just open slightly. A little bit of divine magic flows through you. You couldn't control it like your old spellcasting, but when you thought of escape, you thought of, yeah, embracing the unknown gives you the strength to leave a bad situation. Escape."

Ally: "If there's some way for me to kind of divinely put something together, I don't know, like pine needles from outside, something forest-like and kind of- not really cast a spell, but just do something kind of in ceremony to send to Cassandra that says, 'I'm sorry,' I would love to do something like that."

Brennan: "Beautiful. Anyone who wants to, after one of the Lo-Fi study nights out in the twilight, there's a beautiful ceremony. And on that 22, you do not lose Craig to Wolfsong. You see Craig shows up and goes,"

Craig: "Hey, sorry I've been a little outta touch. Work's been crazy."

Kristen: "Where do you work, Craig?"

Craig: "Oh, I work at Armor, Zombie and Lich."

Kristen: "Oh, that's why you're..."

Fabian: "Still?"

Kristen: "You smell so good. When you walked into the group, I could just smell the cologne."

Craig: "No, it's great. I know they blast it on you. They blast it on you."

Kristen: "Yeah. Okay."

Craig: "All right. Let's go, Cassandra."

Brennan's Laughter 😂👏

Ally: "Okay."

Brennan: "And there's a small ritual here. And I think for you to know on that 22, what came about was, like, an actual belief that Cassandra's presence in the world does good for people. And to the degree that you remembered escape and were like, 'Yeah, I have benefited from mystery and doubt. Like, really, concretely...' That made magic come back. And I think any instance that Kristen sees for doubt to do that will strengthen that connection. Awesome. 22. Huge success. And you took your first stress token."

[five-rivers]

Life's Great Lie 12

AO3

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Loki was shaking.  He was furious.  He was excited.  That boy had been so powerful.  Unheard of for a human.  By Loki’s estimate he was about the same age as his boy.  Amassing something like that in less than two decades was…  astounding.  And the way he used it!  Truly, Loki had rarely met a more kindred spirit. 

It complicated everything immensely, especially when coupled with the disappearance of Barton.  After all, no Barton meant no materials.  And they needed those materials, or, at least, the energy source.  Everything else was being labored over by Dr. Selvig and the assistants Loki had procured for him. 

On the other hand, the fight in Amity Park might have been enough to get Earth’s defenders to really hate him.    

No, that wasn’t what he’d been trying to do.  He was trying to divide them.  Divide and conquer, as they said, and Loki would conquer them.  They were divided.  They…  The boy, the pharaoh, he would be against Iron Man, if nothing else.  His boy’s other young friends didn’t seem terribly enamored of the heroes, either.  Likely, they would spend as much time getting SHIELD’s way as Loki’s in an attempt to get their other friend back. 

Not as good as crashing their ridiculous airship, but not terrible, all things considered. 

“That was stupid,” said the boy.  “That whole thing was stupid.  If you’d just waited—”

“It doesn’t matter,” said Loki.  “We still have the original plan.”

“Which was terrible.  Maybe…”  The boy glanced at where Selvig was working and licked his lips.  “What if we spliced into the power cable in the ocean?  Keep everything out of New York?  If the army you’re bringing can deal with space they can deal with water, right?”

“They can do many things,” said Loki, vaguely.  “But we cannot breathe underwater.”

“I don’t need to breathe.”

“And the rest of us?”

“We can steal a boat.”

Loki raised an eyebrow.  “I must commend your dedication to…” he trailed off.  Thanos’s herald was plucking at the strings of his mind.  He closed his eyes and pinched the bridge of his nose.  When was the last time he’d slept?  He’d have to meditate and see what the irritating and impatient creature wanted. 

He wanted- He needed—

Ice, invigorating and incongruous, washed over him, sweeping away the pull on his mind.  He breathed in through his teeth and rounded on the boy. 

“What did you do?”

“I helped you.  Mind control is unfriendly.”

Loki snarled.  “Boy, do you have any idea what you’ve done?”

“Yes.  But my name is Danny.”  He tilted his head.  “I’m pretty sure I’ve told you that before.”

“That is my contact with my army!”

“It isn’t really yours, though, is it?”

Loki raised his hand, intending to strike the boy for his impudence, but…  He dropped it.  There was no point to it.  Loki would merely have to find some way to instruct him not to interrupt the connection again without subverting his other, more important orders. 

Later, later.  Unless he was contacted again, it wasn’t a priority. 

“We could try to contact Jazz again.  I’d bet they took the equipment I asked for with them.”

“We are not talking to your sister.  We do not need any of that so-called equipment, regardless.”

“Yeah, sure, and do you really need an army from somewhere else?  I don’t want to tell you how to do your job, but look at everything you’ve already done all by yourself!”  He spread his hands to either side.  “Why not just keep doing this?  I’m sure that by the time whoever is really in charge of that army gets here, you’ll have gotten Earth to the point where it can more than match them.”

“Stop,” said Loki.  That was all irrelevant.  It was meaningless.  He could not—No.  Fighting Thanos was impossible.  All he could do was this.  All he could do… 

But the boy’s suggestion had merit.  Somewhat.  He had—He could—

His skin felt like it was crawling off.  Memories of—

He had made a mistake, and it would be—

There was much a god could endure—

Falling—

Danny put his hand on Loki’s arm and ice pricked at his skin.  It was like holding the Casket of Ancient Winters.  It was like touching a blizzard.  It was like the chill in his own blood. 

He put a hand on the boy’s shoulder, gently.  “Danny,” he said, voice soft, “this is the only way.  This is the only choice.  Everything else… is worse.”

“Sometimes, the right choice only seems worse.  Sometimes, the worse choice is the only one you can live with making.  The only one that won’t haunt you forever.”

“Then you understand me perfectly.”  He patted Danny on the shoulder, then turned away.  “We are going to Stark Tower.”

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“Like some kind of prisoner exchange?” asked Jazz. 

“No,” said Tucker.  “Because of the whole HYDRA thing, they don’t want the really awesome people who are partially famous for being nazi haters to be here.  But they need a place to deal with the alien problem.”

Well, they weren’t the only ones.  Jazz would even say that the alien problem was her top priority right now, right after not bleeding out or crashing.  She looked back at Barton. 

“And you’re sure arrow boy isn’t a nazi?”

“I’m not sure,” said Tucker.  “But based on what I’ve seen behind the curtain, I doubt it.  Unless he’s one of these codename guys.  There’s… a lot of double, triple security on everything and some of it is in languages I don’t speak.  They didn’t put sensitive stuff where the GIW could get it easily.  I guess the GIW were sort of the idiot cousins in all this.  Too loyal and know too much to completely brush off or take out when they have so few people comparatively, but too incompetent to put on anything they thought was real or important.”

“And no one believes in ghosts,” said Jazz. 

“You’d think that people would be more credulous, considering the whole super-soldier thing was decades ago and Thor is, you know, around.  Existing.  All those aliens.  Oh, and they’re not even—” He broke off.  “Okay, yeah, I know you don’t want me to talk about it, but who do you think was the first person I showed when I hacked you?  Get off my back.  There are so many other aliens.  There are even shape shifting aliens, just living here.  Like a Men in Black situation.”  Something in the background of Tucker’s call got very loud and annoyed looking. 

“And you’re sure none of these people are nazis?”

“Pretty sure.  The one woman is Russian, though.  Maybe.  Her accent is really good.  And Thor’s…  He’s not actually Scandinavian.  It’s whatever.  Look, I’ve only met, like, Stark.  And the Russian.  So, you aren’t exactly getting a personal vetting, here.”

Jazz sighed.  A personal vetting probably wouldn’t be all that useful, anyway, given the circumstances.  These were spies that could fool other spies.  Not people who would have trouble fooling Tucker. 

“But they’re all those heroes, right?” asked Sam.  “Not people that are coming out of nowhere.”

“Except the Russian.  And I’m not sure Dr. Banner really counts as a hero.  Except in, like, the pioneer in the field of science sense.”

“I don’t know,” said Sam, “there were some things on the internet way back.”

“Yeah,” said Tucker.  “I think we can at least be sure Captain America isn’t some kind of sleeper agent.  Or Mr. Stark.  I mean, whatever plan would involve making a really awesome weapons dealer billionaire in their pocket dump the weapons part and give eighty percent of his income to charity and spend his spare time tracking down terrorists and curing malaria would have to be really convoluted.”

“The malaria thing wasn’t actually me—”

“And, like.  Thor’s an alien.  So maybe he’s whatever the space equivalent of nazis is, but at least he’s not an Earth nazi, and—”

“Okay,” said Jazz.  “Tucker, you’re rambling.”

“Right, I don’t think these particular guys are HYDRA.”

“Great,” said Jazz.  “So, what do they actually want?”

“Like I said, they don’t want the, uh, the Avengers to be around the potential nazis.  Probable nazis.  HYDRA agents.  Whatever you want to call them.  But they still need a place to work.  They want that place to be the Ops Center.”

Jazz bit her lip.  She wasn’t enthusiastic about letting a bunch of heavily armed strangers who were buddies with the guy who had shot her into their space.  But while they could use the ops center to track Danny if he was using his powers and capture him with the onboard equipment and shields, if Loki had more people like arrow boy and the weaponry to back them up…  Jazz didn’t think the ops center would do all that well against, say, a grenade launcher.  It wasn’t built with that kind of weaponry in mind. 

For that matter, it wouldn’t do all that well against the GIW if they decided to attack.  They didn’t have Danny to drive them off this time. 

(And Loki had held his ground against Tucker while he was in the full grip of Duulaman.  Danny had trouble with Duulaman.  His power couldn’t be dismissed.)

“How many of them are there again?”

“Five,” said Tucker.  “Not counting arrow guy.  Barton.”

Then they’d outnumber her, Sam and Tucker by two to one.  And three of them were soldiers trained to fight, another could pull a Cujo if he got even the least bit annoyed, one was armed to the teeth, and one was at least the inspiration for a god. 

“Oh!  And Valerie is here.  Not sure why, but.  You know.”

“Well that’s something,” said Jazz.  She wasn’t thrilled about Valerie being involved, and she didn’t know what side she’d come down on in a fight, but…  Yeah.  It was something. 

“She knows.  Actually, all of these guys do.  About Danny.”

Jazz closed her eyes.  She’d known that, but getting it confirmed had a different effect.

There was a way to even those odds, at least a little bit.  She didn’t like it. 

“Where do they want to meet?” she asked. 

Tucker rattled off a set of coordinates.  Jazz started shaking her head before he was done.

“No,” she said.  “Tell them to meet us at Lake Eerie.”

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“Are you thinking it’s a trap?” asked Sam. 

“No,” said Jazz, “but the GAV still has to follow roads.  Mostly.”

“Oh, no,” said Sam. 

Jazz shrugged.  “We don’t have a lot of options.  Mom and Dad…  I don’t even know what they know.  They’re working for SHIELD somehow, too, so they probably know.”

“They might still be okay with—” She looked at arrow boy.  Barton.  Annoying guy.  Whatever.  “With the whole molecule by molecule thing.  More than okay with it.  We don’t know.  We can’t bring them into this situation.”

“Yeah,” said Jazz, “but they’ll defend us.  We’re the ones who’re here, and to help others you have to take care of yourself.  We can cross any other bridges when we get to them.”

Sam wasn’t so sure about that.  In fact, she was the opposite of sure about that.  “I don’t want them to be in a situation where shooting at Danny while knowing he’s Danny is something they have to do.  I don’t want them…”  She trailed off. 

“I get what you’re saying.  I do.  He’s my brother.  They’re my parents.  But… I don’t think they will.  Not like that.”

“If I can put my two cents in,” called Barton from across the room.

“No,” snapped Sam. 

“I did meet the Fentons.”

“Great,” said Sam, “so have I.  You’re not special.”

“Yes, but I have a bit of an outside perspective.  You know how that goes.  I’ve met Danny, too.”

“Did you shoot him, too?”

“Sam…”

“No, that’s a good point.  But no.  I met them, and the only thing they talked about more than their work was their kids.  Maybe not the best thing to do when you’re being hired by spies, but…”  He shrugged, the motion cut short by the handcuffs.  “They care.”

“That was never in doubt,” said Jazz, as cold as Sam ever heard her. 

“Hey, we’re on the same side, now, right?  I’m just trying to be helpful.  The more comfortable you are, the better.” 

“The better to ambush us, you mean?”

“Still not helpful,” said Jazz.

Sam crossed her arms and tapped her foot.  She was just trying to look at all the perspectives.  Danny loved his parents.  But there were reasons that, despite everything, he hadn’t trusted them.  And anyone who worked with SHIELD could by HYDRA.  Anyone. 

If it were just up to Sam, she wouldn’t work with any of them.  Danny had allies in the Ghost Zone.  If nothing else, his enemies wouldn’t like him being occupied.  They were awfully territorial over him sometimes.  They just had to, you know, make a portal…  travel through the Zone…  hope the portal opened somewhere useful… find the necessary ghosts… convince them to come back… make another portal to a useful place… the porta-portal and Fenton Bazooka portals didn’t last that long, after all. 

Yeah, that was totally doable. 

Absolutely workable despite Jazz’s arrow wound, the assassin/hostage, Sam’s relative inexperience with the technology they had on hand, and the lack of Zone-ready transportation. 

Yeah, right. 

She couldn’t even say all that stuff in her own head without it sounding sarcastic. 

Even if they could do all of that and got an army of ghosts, Loki could bring his army over first.  There was no guarantee that an army of ghosts could beat an army of aliens.  They didn’t even knew how big Loki’s army was, except that he expected it to be able to conquer the planet with it.  They needed backup, regardless.

“Okay.  Fine.  Call them.  We’ll meet up with the superpowered boy band, too.  But you know what people who are used to being in charge are like.  This is going to go wrong, and it’s going to go wrong fast.”

“And then you’ll say I told you so?”

“And then I’ll say I told you so.”

[ancientgoddessofegypt]

Saturns Karma

Saturn in our charts shows how we curate karma.

First thing I will say is karma is neither good or bad. its just what it is. Your actions is what brings a certain type of karma to you. So let that sink in.

So Saturn during transit will show us how our karma comes to us. What have you been doing while saturn is transiting a specific house? Are you doing the work? focused on the craft? Healing? Nothing?

I ask this because when Saturn comes into play we all think we 'deserve' something and while that may be true, saturn shows us that nothing comes to us without putting in the work in some way.

Saturns energy is about discipline, commitment, stability, being grounded and order.

Are you remaining disciplined into receiving what it is you desire? Staying down with something long enough until the outcome you want is in fruition?

Saturn teaches us to be grounded and realistic in our approach, because with out that we have a mess on our shoulders. When it comes to focusing on discipline, commitment, stability etc. the best way for you to get the best out of saturn is finding out what house and sign it is in.

I'll give a few short examples on this. I'll start with Saturn in the 12th.

Saturn in the 12th karma is inside the subconscious and the ethereal realms. This one is interesting because it is the type of karma you cannot 'see' however its deeply felt.

The best way to heal the wounds of karma placed from this Saturn placement is during prayer, meditation and focusing on a spiritual practice and sticking to it. You might need to connect to some sort of religion (If thats your thing) to help with that discipline. Because in religion it teaches you those 5 approaches of saturn that I mentioned earlier. With this , you will began to notices subtle changes in your life because saturn blesses you here. Saturn only blesses you when you commit to something and stay down with it long enough to UNDERSTAND the 5 elements of the planet.

7th House Saturns learn their karma through others. I didnt say anything about discernment here for Saturn but this is a big one for 7th house Saturns. Your karma comes from your lack of discipline, stability, and being grounded when choosing to stay down and commitment to partnerships that do not work for you. When you take charge and notice this issue and choose WISELY then karma becomes better for you.

When learning to be a master of the 5 elements of saturn, staying with the right partners will benefit you in the long run. Most partners aren't suppose to be in your life forever so sticking with them because of long-standing relationships being 'good' for you is not going to help you if you dont see that some people are here for a season.

This is why Saturn 'Blocks' you because he's teaching you! if you dont understand where your going then thats when chaos makes it way through the door. Only trying to protect you at the end of the day.

will post more about this soon :)

[eruhamster]

actually going on w the lil post i made yesterday, i genuinely think theres a lot of random misconceptions about hua cheng

like he's not a stalker. he never was a stalker. you cannot be a stalker when the person wants you around. even as a little kid, xie lian wanted him around to take care of him. when they met again after the first battle with the yong'an, xie lian thought he was cool as fuck and tried to get mu qing and feng xin to look for him - they tossed him out of the military (or, mu qing likely did, probably out of extreme jealousy and fear of replacement), and xie lian was delighted to find him again months later. but then Things Happened and he just became too busy. xie lian was actively looking for that little snot, and hua cheng kept his distance or was forcibly separated from him.

he spent 800 years not stalking, but actively looking for his god that he knew needed his help. and once they meet again he never does anything 'stalker' like. he doesn't hide around corners. as soon as xie lian shows up he finds some excuse to insert himself into xie lian's life, but when he says he's got to go, he legitimately leaves, and when xie lian says he's got something to do, hua cheng doesn't follow him, he stays put unless told otherwise.

he's got an insane cave in mt tonglu, but 1. it was practice to perfect his sculpting for the sake of his god, 2. it is heavily implied hua cheng had photographic memory even as a mortal and that's how he knew the details of all those outfits, 3. the guy was doing nothing but eating ghosts for ten years straight on that mountain and was likely going nuts, especially after nearly dying, 4. xie lian is a god and spending 10 years in a cave worshiping his god and cultivating his skills is something that happens in the genre, meditative seclusion is an eastern religious thing

his obsession is also like... not violent. like i've seen people go 'ohh, people don't make hua cheng violent enough. he'd go home and destroy furniture over things, he'd level towns' and like... you can headcanon that but that's never been shown in canon. he's got no problem killing or harming people who stand in his way or insult xie lian, but he's not just wantonly destructive. he's never been shown destroying things for no reason other than when he's going beserk from the call of mt tonglu. he certainly wouldn't destroy paradise manor, given that he crafted it with the full intention of that being his and xie lian's home together; it would be destroying xie lian's things, and he would never destroy xie lian's things.

his obsession is more just the lack of anything else. literally everything he's interested in outside of gambling is connected to xie lian in some way. he legitimately does not have any other thoughts. he paints so he can paint xie lian. he sculpts so he can sculpt xie lian. he made a whole city so he can take in and organize the ghosts because xie lian had no answer to the cultivator who asks where else he's meant to sell the ghost lanterns xie lian saved. he wields a saber because xie lian told him to. he went on existing for 800 years for the pure intention of being there for xie lian. he has spies so he can look out for xie lian. he has cooks so he can feed xie lian. he learnt carpentry so he can make anything xie lian may want. he learnt an entire language and likely more just so he can try and get information on xie lian's whereabouts. he's obsessed with looking good so he can look good for xie lian. his entire existence is xie lian and the obsession has kept him from dissipating.

he's not a stalker, and while he doesn't care about anyone or anything but xie lian, his violence doesn't get pointed around for no reason; he just kills those who deserve it. but he's just obsessive in the sense that any thought or interest he has revolves around one person, even when he went 800 years without seeing that person, because that person was the one singular person to have any thoughts for or interest in him.

like that's where his weirdness actually lies. if you crack open hua cheng's brain, i do not think you'll go more than 30 seconds without him thinking of xie lian.

[a-sentient-penrose-triangle]

On the topic of Apophis (and Neheb-kau)

Part 1: Unpacking My Worship

Go ahead, scold me for using Apep's name. The reason gods are evil and vengeful and hateful and all the other nasty things that the gods have done to each other and to man (Zeus, Loki, Medusa, Persephone, the entire rivalry of Set and Horus), but in the end like all stories it has a moral. It has morality, a reasoning, a balance in the end. I use the name of the "accursed primeval force" because, unlike many, everything deserves love as long as they 1) do not hurt others and 2) do not force things of self/themself upon those unwilling.

The Christian God, Yahweh, and His many counters are one such example. You think you know God? If you've been in an abusive Christian house you probably know Him for his rage and hate, and I'm sorry for that, but it was never God, but whoever forced this view upon you. Negativity clumps together like Grey Goo, I know because my Mom would invite all kinds of nasty shit in unintentionally, and I'm traumatized by pictures talking and constant nightmares. God is as stated in the Bible, Existing. Exhilarating, right? Well yes, when you look at the entire universe you start to realize how odd our existence is. At the edge of a mild galaxy, we sit and fester with our evil, just like all the ancient texts state humans have done for, well, ever. We are a petri dish, an experiment like all the gods after Him. That's why we see fuck ups in all these texts. Mistakes were made, and now, do you ever see a god just chilling on the street?

Morality is the reason we're here, its the reason things have right and wrong, because God saw that like all the deities he created below him to help with delegation, that Him and them would make mistakes and fuck up. (That's why the bible drops off so far, and is hard to find actual historical evidence of as well. It was wiped for a clean slate, without the gods and God interacting. The Flood is the biggest example.)

Now, what does this have to do with Apophis and Neheb-kau? A whole lot. Snake invocation was always two sided, one wrong move and you could be envenomed, but also its how we harvest the antidote. Neheb-kau, for as little as i can find, is (a form of) Apophis. The biggest point I use is not only their similar primeval nature, but also their energy. I work with Neheb-kau and a good chunk of the gods, and God (all in all I'm universally Polytheistic, believe in nearly everything). I work with God under the simple pretense of one of the Ten Commandments: "Thou shall not worship another before me." Never really states you cant worship, like, Apollo or Hades as long as you understand "Hey, thanks for creating all the others who can interact with us as you sit observing the fish tank of Creation."

Neheb-kau (Who i shall call Neheb for brevity) has actively given me permission to use both Apophis and Seta/Sata (A deification of becoming one with the snake, mentioned in The Book of the Dead of Ani, and i believe others) as names or acknowledgement. Neheb has shared over dreams, meditation, and other methods about his past and where he sits on the totem pole, which happens to be a layer or two below God.

Why I believe this is from experience as a Christian. God's love is as strong as his wrath, and i believe this is from the fact that He simply cannot, and will not interact with man again until we learn to all get along, even with the deities we victimize, villanize or put upon a pedistal. Neheb gives me very God vibes (like Ra) both very primal entities, and thusly are very raw and hard to connect to.

I wish I had a better outlet to rant this all too, because as you can see theres a lot of things going on that even I struggle to keep track of. I feel as though there is justifacation in cultures demonizing or hating, but it gets to a point that it feels as though a medical or scientific process created an entity for no reason. Apophis is fine to be around, and i do not worship any gods as of yet. I am a student under them, using their energy to work myself. Whatever opinion you have, please share. I'd be more of a Thoth devotee if it wernt for the fact that he simply hasnt called.

I am by no means done, but i can only let anger fuel me for so long before i realize im forcing my opinion down others throats. Also will admnit, lost a couple of thoughts writing this, its a rant after all.(hopefully the #tw covers those with triggers)

[anonymousewrites]

Logos and Pathos (Book 2) Chapter Fourteen

Spock x Empath! Reader

Chapter Fourteen: Fog of Emotion

Summary: Murder and mayhem abound, and (Y/N) is determined to discover the truth so that Scotty isn't sent to prison.

            “Depending on your wife’s empathic abilities is all very well, Prefect, but there’s one way we can find out what it is Mr. Scott cannot remember,” said Kirk as Jaris escorted them to an elegant living room in his home. “But there’s one way we can find out what it is Mr. Scott cannot remember. Since you find it impossible to let us go back up to our ship, I can beam down a technician with a psycho-tricorder.”

            Bones nodded. “Prefect, it will give us a detailed account of everything that’s happened to Mr. Scott in the last twenty-four hours.”

            “I’d advise against it, Prefect,” said Hengist. “This is purely an Argelian matter.”

            (Y/N) furrowed their brow. They understood that diplomacy was necessary when dealing with a planet’s jurisdiction, but surely they understood that this would help everyone. (Y/N) sighed. Bureaucracy.

            “My wife must meditate for a time before she is ready,” said Jaris. “I see no reason why we should not use that time to good advantage.”

            (Y/N) smiled. At least someone here has sense.

            Kirk nodded and radioed to the Enterprise to send down a technician with a psycho-tricorder.

            “Prefect, the psycho-tricorder will require privacy in order to be effective,” said Spock.

            “There is a small chamber below this room.” Jaris motioned to a small corridor. “Perhaps that will suffice.” He glanced at Kirk. “Captain, news of this frightful murder is spreading among my people. They’re greatly disturbed. I have heard talk of closing Argelius to space vehicles.”

            “Well, that would be most unfortunate. Argelian hospitality is well-known,” said Kirk. “As well as its strategic importance as a space port.”

            “Yes, I believe it’s the only one in the quadrant,” said Jaris.

            Hengist cleared his throat. “There are other people we should question. Perhaps I should go to expedite their arrival here?”

            “Yes, please do so, Mr. Hengist,” said Jaris, nodding. “Anyone with any connection with this murder should be present at the ceremony.”

            Hengist smiled, nodded, and left to follow orders. He paused when a woman beamed into the room, the technician with the psycho-tricorder. She gave him a polite nod which he returned before continuing on.

            “Lieutenant Karen Tracy reporting as ordered, Captain,” said Tracy.

            “Lieutenant, we require a twenty-four hour regressive memory check on Mr. Scott,” said Spock.

            “Yes, sir. Where shall I set up?” asked Tracy.

            “Down this hall, Lieutenant,” said (Y/N), smiling and gesturing to the hall. Scotty swallowed hard before following Tracy down to the room where they’d get their answers.

            Bones frowned. “Under normal circumstances, Scotty could never have done such a thing.”

            Kirk nodded grimly. “But that blow to the head—it could put all his previous behavior patterns into the junk heap.”

            “Of course, there’s another possibility,” said Bones.

            “What?” asked (Y/N).

            “Hysterical amnesia,” said Bones. “When a man feels guilty about something, something too terrible to remember, he blots it out of his conscious memory.”

            “We shall find out soon,” said Spock gravely.

            “Ah, Sybo,” said Jaris happily as his wife appeared in the room’s doorway. “Are you ready?”

            “I am ready,” said Sybo, her voice smooth and clear. “May I have the knife, please?”

            “Certainly,” said Jaris. He looked to the Enterprise officers. “Among other gifts, Sybo has the ability to receive impressions from inanimate objects. With Lieutenant (L/N)’s more powerful empathic abilities, we shall discover the truths this weapon hides. Do you have it, Captain?”

            “The knife?” Kirk frowned. “No.”

            Jaris furrowed his brow as he examined the ring of sitting pillows, small table, and fire. “I put it right here when we arrived. It’s gone.”

            As if on cue, a woman’s scream pierced the silence, as blood-curdling as that of Kara’s as she was murdered. (Y/N) gasped as a flash of powerful fear hit them. The woman was close enough to feel her emotions as her terror overcame her.

            (Y/N) stumbled, and Spock was by their side in a moment to steady them while Jaris, Kirk, and Bones ran to the corridor where Scotty and Tracy had disappeared not five minutes before. (Y/N) straightened, touching Spock’s arm briefly in thanks, before running down as well.

            In the private room, Scotty was slumped over in his chair while Tracy was sprawled on the ground with stab wounds in her back.

            “She’s dead, Jim,” said Bones in a hushed voice. “Just like Kara. Stabbed over and over again.”

            And Scotty’s at the scene of the crime again, thought (Y/N).

            “We must complete the ceremony,” said Jaris gravely. “We must discover the truth before more die.”

            Kirk nodded shortly and with Bones’s help, he hauled Scotty to his feet and escorted him upstairs, still prone and nearly unconscious. Sybo prepared by the fire and circle of pillows as Jaris poured a drink to rejuvenate Scotty.

            “An Argelian stimulant, Doctor,” said Jaris. “Quite effective and quite harmless.”

            Bones nodded. “Go ahead, Scotty.” The Scotsman took the drink and downed it in a moment.

            “Lieutenant,” called Sybo, her eyes closed as she entered a calm, meditative state. “Join me. I find calming oneself is beneficial for the ceremony.”

            “Alright,” said (Y/N), taking a step towards Sybo.

            Spock caught their wrist for a moment. “If the ceremony causes any discomfort or pain, please protect your mind.”

            (Y/N) smiled. “Don’t worry, Spock. I’ll be careful.”

            Spock nodded sharply. “Good.”

            Hengist reentered the room. “Uh, Prefect, both of these men were at the café the night of the murder.”

            “Where have they been during the past few minutes?” asked Kirk sharply.

            “Captain, if you don’t mind, please—” Undoubtedly, Hengist was going to ask for protocol and Argelian traditions and all that.

            “There’s been another murder, Hengist,” interrupted Kirk. “One of my crew.”

            “The same as Kara,” said Jaris.

            “Why that…that’s terrible,” said Hengist. Once again, no real emotions followed the cold bureaucrat. He turned and pointed at one of the men. “You. My men picked you up near here. What were you doing?”

            The man scoffed. “Please, I know nothing about it. I didn’t kill anyone.”

            Hengist frowned. “Well, how was the girl killed?”

            (Y/N)’s eyes narrowed for a moment. Something was off about his statement, but (Y/N) couldn’t place it. Maybe the wording? Seeing him eyeing them suspiciously, (Y/N) turned away.

            “Stabbed,” responded Kirk. “And there’s no sign of the weapon.”

            Hengist sighed and shook his head sadly. “If only I had the facilities.”

            (Y/N) scowled and muttered under their breath, “If you don’t really feel sympathetic because you’ve been doing this job for so long, don’t try to act all sorry. It doesn’t come off right.” Spock raised an eyebrow as he heard them.

            Kirk approached the other man. “I know you…You were a musician at the café. You played for Kara.”

            The older man nodded. “Since she was a little girl, she danced for me.” His voice was sorrowful and soft. “She was my daughter.”

            “Now that’s true emotion,” murmured (Y/N). Sad emotions, but true.

            “Prefect, how could a thing like this have happened here?” asked Kara’s father. “The man who did it must be found. He must be punished.”

            “And you,” said Kirk, approaching the younger man. “You left the café before Scotty and Kara.”

            “Is this true?” questioned Jaris. “Who are you?”

            “Morla of Cantaba Street, Prefect,” said the man. “I was there. I have nothing to hide.”

            “Did you know Kara?” asked Spock.

            “‘Course he knew her,” said Kara’s father. “They were to be married.”

            (Y/N) blinked. Yikes, that makes Scotty and Kara flirting a little awkward.

            “But he behaved disgracefully. Unheard of. He was jealous of her,” said Kara’s father.

            Oh, good, they weren’t together anymore, then, thought (Y/N).

            “That is very disquieting,” said Jaris.

            It was strange in Argelian culture to be jealous since everyone involved themselves in various forms of pleasure. They were fairly hedonistic, after all. It might have been strange for the Starfleet crew, but their culture was not the Argelian’s.

            “I know it was wrong, Prefect,” said Morla. “But I just couldn’t help myself. I loved her. And when she danced with others and went over to the table with these officers, I could not stand to watch so I left. I went home.”

            “Jealousy has often been a motive for murder,” said Kirk.

            Jaris nodded. “Yes, I know. That is why the emotion is so strongly disapproved of here.”

            “Prefect, I didn’t kill anyone, I couldn’t,” said Morla, his voice and emotions a desperate storm.

            “We shall see, Morla,” said Jaris gravely.

            Bones reentered the room from where he’d been checking the other door of the room where Tracy had been killed. “Sorry, Jim, the lock may or may not have been picked. Be hard to tell, even with the tricorder.”

            Kirk frowned. That didn’t help Scotty’s case. Turning to Morla, he said, “Can you prove you went directly home?”

            “Captain, may I continue with the questions, please?” interrupted Hengist, full of strict protocol and presumption.

            “Well, get on with it, man!” said Kirk sharply. “Just don’t stand there.”

            “Captain, Captain, you’re behaving very much like a man who is desperately trying anything to save his friend,” said Jaris evenly. “Would you be so desperate to save Argelius as a space port for your Starfleet?”

            “Prefect, not just as officers of Starfleet but as people, we’re trying to find justice for Kara and Tracy,” said (Y/N) resolutely. “We want to help and find the truth. No matter what it is.”

            “Even if its Mr. Scott? Need I remind you that in both cases, your friend Scott was discovered over the body and later claimed to remember nothing,” pointed out Hengist, who was really starting to get on (Y/N)’s nerves.

            “I am ready, Jaris,” said Sybo’s soft voice. She took a seat by the fire.

            “Gentlemen, sit down, please,” said Jaris, gesturing to the circle of pillows.

            “On one condition, Prefect,” said Kirk. “That the room be sealed so that no one can leave or enter while the ceremony is going on.”

            Jaris nodded and pulled a switch, closing the doors. “The room is sealed.”

            “Captain, are you sure about this?” asked Scotty.

            “Scotty, this won’t seal your case,” said (Y/N). “It will just indicate bits of the truth or clues to it.” They smiled slightly. “It can’t hurt.”

            Scotty nodded. “Alright, if you insist.”

            “And afterwards, we can return to the Enterprise for a more scientifically detailed investigation,” said Spock. He knew (Y/N)’s abilities could help alleviate some suspicion from Scotty and didn’t doubt their observations since they never overreached and assumed what couldn’t be determined with mere empathy, so he would go with the ceremony because he trusted (Y/N) not to twist any facts.

            Kirk nodded. “We do this their way, and then we do it our way. Let’s take our seats.”

            (Y/N) sat beside Sybo and took her hand. Spock was on their other side, but they merely took his wrist to avoid his hands. As usual, Spock marveled and was honored by the care they took not to cross any of his boundaries. Kirk was on his other side, but Spock was the first to just move so his wrist was touched and not his hand. Yes, Kirk wasn’t going to disrespect his culture, but there was still a difference in the care (Y/N) put in. It made Spock feel special to them. And that was one emotion he didn’t mind at all.

            (Y/N) took a deep breath as they felt Sybo’s psychic energy join with their own to grow and strengthen hers. It was a pleasant feeling—(Y/N) hadn’t been connected with another psychic in a while, and as a Celian they were used to physical and psychic connections growing up—but it was still strange to engage with someone so foreign to them. Thankfully, the feeling of Spock’s firm arm beneath their hand grounded them.

            “Let us begin,” said Sybo. “Let the circle be not broken. Concentrate upon the flame which burns upon the altar of truth.” Everyone’s eyes closed.

            Spock could feel (Y/N)’s psychic aura touch his own. For a moment, he was worried they’d search his emotions and reveal how deep his own really ran, but then he remembered who it was. It was (Y/N). They merely sensed him with their psychic abilities. They were not going to breach his trust. In fact, he didn’t even mind the feeling of their mind. It was warm, like the sunshine in a meadow. Odd. It conjured such dreamy images in his head. Odd, but not unwanted.

            (Y/N) furrowed their brow as they felt a psychic presence other than their own and Sybo’s in the circle. As they were all connected and their energies amplified through Sybo, they could feel each other. First, they thought of Spock, but this energy…it was too dark to be Spock. Spock’s aura made (Y/N) feel safe, like they were at home and surrounded by comfort. This energy made (Y/N)’s skin crawl with its aggression.

            “Yes, there is something here…” murmured Sybo, sensing the same as (Y/N). “…Something terrible. I feel its presence.”

            (Y/N)’s grip on Spock’s wrist tightened. The emotions invading their senses were unbearably strong and malevolent. “There’s so much fear, so much anger, hatred. I can feel it.” Their brow furrowed uncomfortably. “Like needles digging into my skin.”

            “Anger feeds the flame,” said Sybo. “Oh…Oh, there is evil here.”

            (Y/N)’s head throbbed as the presence nearly attacked their mind. Their own fear grew as barbs of anger dug into their skin from the presence. They were not as eloquent as Sybo, but they felt it too. “It’s monstrous. There’s so much hate that it hurts.” They struggled to keep their countenance.

            “A hatred of all that lives,” said Sybo. “A hunger that never dies. It is strong, overpowering. An ancient power. It has a name—Beratis Kesla Redjac. Devouring all life, all light—” Sybo’s ancient priestess powers now flew beyond empathy as her mind gripped onto the enemy’s presence. “—a hunger that will never die! Redjac! Redjac!”

            The room went dark. (Y/N) cried out. Sybo screamed.

            (Y/N) slumped over as the shock of feeling someone’s—Sybo’s—death flash through them. The emotions of pure terror and being so entwined with her mind was nearly unbearable. Spock caught them and pulled them protectively closer for fear that Redjac would attack them as well.

            The lights switched on, and the group’s eyes widened as they saw Scotty standing right behind Sybo, who fell over, eyes blank and unseeing, with a knife in her back. Blood stained Scotty’s hands.

            “We…We need to move her body,” said Bones quietly.

            “Yes…So we may bury her soon,” murmured Jaris sadly. “My beloved Sybo…oh, my beloved.”

            Kirk and Bones exchanged looks and carefully carried Sybo to a nearby couch so she may rest in peace. Scotty sat in a chair, staring blankly, horrified with himself. Kirk glanced at Spock and saw him supporting (Y/N). He still refused to let go of them.

            “Spock, is (L/N)…?” Kirk didn’t want to say it.

            Spock shook his head. He wasn’t sure what he’d do if they were. “Their mind was still connected with Sybo’s when she was killed. (Y/N) is merely in a state of shock induced by psychic injury.”

            “And they’ll be alright?” asked Kirk worriedly.

            Bones nodded. “Yes. They’ll just be a little fragile for now.”

            “I’ll watch over them,” said Spock, not even bothering to justify his behavior with logic. When it came to (Y/N), what mattered was them, not his image.

            Kirk nodded and then addressed the main issue. “Three murders, and Scotty the only possible answer each time.”

            “I don’t care what the circumstances indicate, Jim. Scotty simply could not have done it,” said Bones forcefully.

            “Normally, no. But that blow to his head could—” said Kirk grimly.

            “No, Captain,” croaked Scotty.

            “Scotty, I’m sorry,” said Kirk. “You don’t even remember whether you did it or not.”

            “I agree with you, Captain,” said Hengist. “I am perfectly satisfied Mr. Scott is guilty.”

            “But not responsible,” said Kirk sharply.

            “That is unproven, sir,” said Hengist.

            “We can prove it, if he’s insane,” insisted Kirk.

            “Gentlemen!” said Jaris. “Please. How could any man do such monstrous things?”

            “That’s what we hope to find out, sir,” said Kirk.

            “Mr. Scott…” Jaris gazed at Scotty.

            “Sir, I swear to you I did not kill your wife or the other women,” cried Scotty.

            “By your own admission you don’t know whether you did or didn’t!” said Hengist. “Your so-called failing memory—”

            “Mr. Hengist,” said Kirk. “On the Enterprise, we can make a recording of the registrations of Mr. Scott’s conscious and subconscious mind. And they will tell us what happened to him in the recent past.”

            “There would be no room for doubt,” said Bones. “We would know. And, after all, that’s what we’re after, isn’t it, Prefect? To know?”

            “You, sir, claim to remember nothing about the murders,” said Jaris gravely.

            “Aye,” replied Scotty.

            “If this is so, you may have killed without knowing it,” said Jaris. “Will your machines tell us this?”

            “No doubt will remain,” promised Kirk.

            “Very well. We will go to your ship. And he who is guilty will face the ancient penalties, barbaric and horrible though they may be,” said Jaris. “The ancient penalty for murder was death by slow torture. That law has never been changed.” He looked at Kirk. “Make the preparations.”

            Kirk nodded and pulled out his communicator to speak with the Bridge to prepare the Transporter. In Spock’s arms, (Y/N)’s mind finally became “present” again.

            “Spock?” they asked hesitantly, trying to sit up.

            Spock guided their movements. “Your mind was shocked by Sybo’s emotions,” he said, assessing that they needed to know what had happened to ground themself. “You are alright; your mind is just strengthening its barriers once more.”

            “Yeah…I can feel it,” said (Y/N), wincing. “What’s happened while I was out?”

            “We are preparing to beam aboard the Enterprise to properly determine Mr. Scott’s guilt. The Prefect has decided it will be allowed,” explained Spock.

            (Y/N) nodded. “Good. We need the truth. I couldn’t…I don’t know who it is, but someone here is so angry. I know they’re planning to hurt more people. Their anger burned and felt like needles in my skin.” They shivered at the phantom sensation. “It hurt, Spock.”

            Spock furrowed his brow at the knowledge that they were in pain. He hated it. He wanted the one he loved to be safe. So Spock would do the only thing he could: he’d ensure that the evil affecting them was caught. He’d protect them.

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[shatteredkaleidoscope]

Astral Travel Beginners Class

Ok so to start off this is teaching from experience Wich means entirely based on who you are and what's going on it may or may not work for you.

That being said, here's what I do to astral project and how I know I did. As well as the foundations of my practice

Blue words will have explanations or sources on how to accomplish the task or what it even is, some times both. If you want to just skip what I have to say and use the sources to build your own form be my guest!

Basic fundamental beliefs for this to work

Everything has energy

Energy cannot be destroyed or created only repurposed (law of conservation of energy)

There is something bigger guiding us ie universe, gods, etc; some one something out there exists

The meridian lines exist as to energy points in the body

You can astral travel

Belife in basic science

So step one is to body scan, Wich is basically to me...you sit down and do some breathwork listen to your gut/intuition/inner guidance and see with your minds eye what you're feeling, where, and why?

Let's start with

Breathwork

I use an app called breathe hold breathe or listen to YouTube videos personally I find this helps me move forward with my eyes shut as I listen to audio cues to breathe or hold.

Warning! Start from the beginning do not jump into breathe of fire you could seriously injure yourself if you don't have strong enough lungs or the right guidance ie triggering panic attacks or asthma

Getting in touch with gut/inner guidance

How I do this myself is usually eft, yoga, sound bowls (beforehand prep) or I spend more time with my spiritual family by making offerings, writing letters, or using divination to chat. (As well as studying them and researching the Grek Pantheon, I feel closer to them that way, so try to do what makes you feel more connected to your spiritual team or your higher self/ inner self)

Seeing with the minds eye.

Something I'll usually always reference for beginners is practicing the apple test for Aphantasia. Practicing visualization methods and working your mental muscles is a great way to begin prep for astral travel.

and remember it doesn't take more than a couple minutes so you can do a warm up before even sitting down for the body scan.

The Body Scan

After youre finished with your prep wether you feel it or not, press on to the next step, the body scan.

You could be stuck in a rut that the body scan will free you from once you find the source of your stress and or restrictions.

Short list of questions I'll ask during a body scan.

Where do I feel this? (Pinpointing the location of where the energy stems from)

What am I feeling? (Light, tingly, heavy, hurting, happy, sad, all possible descriptors, an emotion or a sense)

Why do I feel this (this one's harder to if you get stuck on it, try EFT (emotional freedome technique) or Yoga before continuing. This is to open the meridian lines in your body and get energy flowing)

Usually after all the prep I'm ready to go so...

Once you do the body scan and all the pre requisites, you ley or sit down in a safe comfortable place and imo you should follow a guided meditation like this one to start!

Then move on to wordless meditation music (pace yourself and start with 5 not 10 minutes if need be, that's where I began) using things like sound bowls or Shamanic drums if you want something more intense.

(Warning that drumming can be very effective but not really for beginners, still it doesn't take long once you learn the basics so shoot your shot if you feel pulled to it)

You also want to keep in mind that having a spiritual team prior to doing this is a good idea for protection against whatever is out there. Though if course you can ward yourself. You at least want some energetic line or connection be it elemental or divine or something else! Just be sure it's spiritual in nature because for this to work you combine spiritual, physical, and mental worlds before crossing them.

Now this meathod is also based in science so I have a lot more confidence going in, that's kinda the point of it is that you have the confidence to believe it. And if you don't have the confidence to believe anything anymore or maybe you confidently believe in nothing, I'd suggest a philosophy class, that's what I did to get out of my spiritual rut and what I am doing now (thanks to Lord Zeus and My Beloved @discountprophet )

If you want to verify that what you did or saw was real, then study. Study by researching what's around you by looking up your questions by double checking sources, I'm giving you some today to look into so you can launch off on your own here and now.

You have to find what YOU believe or none of it will work because you'll be doubting it the entire time. Or maybe you'll visualize, maybe you'll travel but you'll do so lopsided and constantly questioning every step of the way. Take it from me that's not fun. Or you go lopsided in the other direction and never leave the first layer ie you never leave your headspace because you're too focused on what your minds eye is seeing when your minds eye should be treated as a tool not a crutch.

You can also use divination such as scrying, tarot or bone tossing, etc. To clear up information and get more reassurance after you've done the work.

Blue Text Check In

Body scan

Breathwork

Minds eye

Inner guidance

Energy Points

Eft

Aphantasia

Body scan:

Breathwork:

Minds eye: essentially your ability to visualize

So visualization:

Inner guidance is something strengthened by balancing your Chakras/Energy points in my experience.

So Energy Points and how to connect with them:

You want to focus on root, third eye, and crown for astral travel but all should be balanced before setting out to ensure safe meaningful travels.

Eft:

Aphantasia:

[kaddyssammlung]

Spirituality in Sleep Token lyrics - Part 1

I see this topic mostly on their album "Take me Back To Eden" which is why I will focus on this album. And also, I feel like I need to say this again: this is my way of looking at this. Which means it's my personal experience with this topic. I never say that Vessel means any of this.

Chokehold

"When we were made It was no accident"

It was meant to be. There is something that give everything a direction or an impulse. A higher consciousness or however you want to call it. I used to have the problem of “modern day nihilism” = everything is meaningless, we’re all gonna die, why bother doing anything, I don’t believe in anything. But at the same time I had a strange feeling of not belonging on this planet or in other words of missing home and I had no idea what it was that I was missing. But no, it was no accident when I was made and I’m meant to be here but it took me years of suffering to see this through.

"A sacred guardian" I believe in guardian angels or in angels in general and in others beings, too.

"So you keep me sharp and test my worth in blood" Initiations are something quite common. You can see everything that happens in your life as an invitation to finally go beyond suffering. I feel like I keep being tested every now and then but it’s not that frequent anymore.

"Beneath the stormy seas Above the mountain peaks" As above so below as within so without. I guess he is hinting on the hermetic principles (if you want to know more then here is a link to a YouTube video). Everything that we see in our outside world is just a reflection of what’s going on inside of us.

"I've seen my days unfold Done the impossible I'd turn my walls to gold To bring you home again" Yes, Vessel. Me too. One example. I had a spontaneous remission of a condition that was going on with my tooth. It felt weird and good at the same time. As if something was stepping in and finally healing it for me after having struggled with it for almost a year. I do energy work with golden light so gold reminds me of that. Bringing you home here means bringing me home at least for me. For me home just means a higher frequency. I’m bringing “home” hear, so to speak. You probably don’t care how I do this so I won’t bother explaining.

"So show me that which I cannot see"

Reminds me simply of spiritual teachings. Their goal should be to remind of what you already know and what you already have inside of you. No one should try to convince you of something btw. If someone says that they are a guru and you should do as they say then…idk…I would run away from them. That’s not what this is about.

"Even if it hurts me Even if I can't sleep"

Just makes me think of all the BS that I can remember now that was done to me. It hurts but it wants to be seen and acknowledged. Oh, and though we act out of our holy duty to be constantly awake That’s why I’m here Vessel and what I’m doing. Constantly spiritually awake. It’s a process and no one can reverse it or stop it.

The Summoning

"The sky above, the Earth below" The hermetic principles again.

"Raise me up again Take me past the edge I want to see the other side" Some meditations really feel like that. Turning everything off. That stupid voice in your head that just narrates everything. Turning everything off and being able to see things for what they are and don’t have your brain judge everything, that means acting from a higher frequency. What you do is, you raise yourself up. When you have a spiritual teacher or a teacher that uses energy work they can help raise you up. They can give you a feeling of being held by a that higher consciousness and you can just relax into this. A good meditation….can’t describe this. And sometimes I do see strange things, have visions or I even had an experience where my hands started to glow.

"Nothing to say and nowhere to go" Just be and linger and observe. No thoughts, a deep connection with everything and feeling of wholeness. Words can’t express it sometimes. (I do “fall” hard though. I’m not able to hold these states for a long time but I have an idea of what’s possible)

Granite

"I was more than just a body in your passenger seat And you were more than just somebody I was destined to meet"

I still have not reached a state of where I can just see some things for what they are. I mean without the emotional charge. I still look at so much that happened in this life with anger. But that does not help. Of course it was all meant to be but….idk….at the moment I don’t really feel that. I see you go half-blind when you're looking at me I said this before. I have this connected to aura seeing for some reason. Some humans radiant something. I perceive them as almost see-through.

"But I am" The big “I am”. I want to write more about that. But not right now. It really is something big and yet it’s not much. Just “I am”. It deserves to be treated in an extra post.

Vore

"My life is torn, my bones, they bleed" I feel this. It had to be like that. Reaching rock-bottom and staying there for years. Torturing myself before I was able to let something new in. Or in other words I had reached a point where I was not afraid to change anymore and stop doing what I was doing. Addictions are exhausting but they whisper things into your ear and you believe that. They become a pattern, a habit and then they have you. And you can’t see past them anymore. "Will we remain stuck in the throat of gods?" It depends what you mean with gods. Since I just brought up addiction you can see that these were my gods. They kept my busy and I did everything to please them. Will the pain stop if we go deeper? Yes, it does. First it hurt even more because I started to realize more and more what I had been running away from. All that unresolved trauma. But I got better in being able to let go of that and I’m still learning. "Go deep" in a spiritual sense means to go deeper into the present moment. To not listen to what your brain is saying but to just become still. When you don’t think about your problems then they are gone. Right?! Not quite but something changes. The heaviness that surrounds them stops. "I want to go where nobody else will ever go" You can send your ethereal body to other places. But that’s where it starts to get a bit complicated here because I don’t want to explain all that. "We step into my suffering" Reminds me of the latest energy work course that I did because it’s what we did in that course. Fully step into the suffering that came from shame.

Maybe you think that when you face your suffering or you shine a light on it then becomes more or stronger. But that's not true. In my experience it is hard to face at first but then it becomes more light.

[wingedarchivist]

Hello! I've been questioning an angelic kintype and I kind of need help, just a little.

I just wanna know if it'd possible to be angelic but not spiritual or Christian in any sense? And I'm struggling to understand how divinity works compared to my mortal body because angels are divine but I am mortal and therefore, cannot be an angel- or some weird mental gymnastics like that

It's just a really hard kintype to question because of the ethereality angels have as other worldly beings

Even more, what is an angel? What does being angelic mean? And where can I learn more about angels other than the book of enoch or the bible?

You don't need to answer this of course! No pressure and I'm thankful regardless weather you answer or not!

Hi!

In response to your first question, yes, it is very much possible! Angelkins on here span the whole spectrum of origin, and psychological (and other non-spiritual origins) angels are just as possible!

Same goes for any connection to Christianity, like me, for example, I don't have any.

I get your struggle with divinity, but please remember, that divinity can take on so many forms. We often may not even know if and how it is present in our life or souls. There is no need for a predefined sense of divinity to be angelkin

You could ask the question 'what is an angel' to a hundred angels and each could give you a different answer, but I will try to say what an angel is in my eyes.

For me, an angel is a divine servant and/or messenger and/or worshipper. They are connected in some way to something greater, like a god, some other entity or concept. Being angelic would be embracing that nature, at least for me. For me that is, for example, adhering to My God's domain, doing what She would approve of and praying.

For a non-spiritual angel it could be wholly different, though, and there is no need to take on a faith/religion just to please your kintype. Remember, that a kintype is what your soul or mind is, what you identify as. I personally don't believe you have to be irl like it!

Truly I do not know any good sources for learning about angels, as I have stopped looking into it when I found what I needed. However it can be said that generally looking into mythology and theology can be helpful. Even entities not explicitly called angels can be ones depending on your definition!

Once someone sent me a link to a pdf called A Dictionary Of The Angels, where many (I think Christian-aligned, unfortunately) angels and fallen angels were named and shorty described with their domain. They author also shortly described their investigations into different kinds of angels. If you want it, you can DM me! If you wish for anonymity, you can do so, for example, from a burner sideblog :)

I hope your journey is fulfilling! I know it may sound like a typical advice on this site, but meditating and journaling your feelings really helps! I have found that especially listening to music that I associate with my kintype makes me feel more in tune.

[renon4224]

FIND THE WORD WIP TAG GAME

Rules:

Tag a couple people, give them some words, and have them find everywhere that word appears in their WIP(s)

Thanks @fakegingerrights for the tag!

They gave me: Blood, Hold, and Sigh.

WIP 1: Love Letters

However, we do request a sure sign that your daughter has not been corrupted by her father, King Consort Azazel’s blood, if you cannot provide us with said proof, then we will cut ties with Fairbeach and all of its territories.

As you required, my daughter will be given to Bahamut’s priestesses and be held in meditation in his temple, she will not be seen until her eighteenth birthday, on which we will be holding a ball if you wish to see for yourself the purity of my daughter you will come to the ball and see that no evil has ever touched her heart or blood.

Good tidings to you and your, I am so sorry to see that you still hold my mother in a negative light for freeing our kind from the unfair oppression against them.

Egarron has chosen Alliana but would my aunt and uncle hold Grandmother’s beliefs higher than Mother's?

WIP 2: Fire On Fire

I could feel the blood, a metallic taste in my mouth, but he was right.

I could feel the blood rush, and I was swaying.

“Akemi.” Kioko wasn’t looking at me or Katsuki, she was looking at the ground, trying to hold back tears, “Please.”

“Just hold on, give her some bread to try and help with that, Katsuki should be home soon.”

“Hold on a second,” I put my hand to cover the mic on my phone and turned to Bakugou, “Hey, I’m gonna change real quick, don’t…..think I vanished or anything, kay?” I didn’t wait for a response, choosing to just go to Kemi’s room where I already had a change of clothes.

“So…Zez is gonna stay with us?” Kioko had finally met up with us, “Hold on Mom,” She faced us, “Ooh, is this your girlfriend? Cute, Mom wants me to tell you that I’m walking alone today,” She turned to Uraraka, “Have fun with your boy-toy.” She left, continuing her conversation with Mom.

WIP 8: Maybe In Another Life

“No, you won’t. You need fresh meat, a new body in your bed every night, someone who isn’t looking for long-term or connection or something real.” I sigh and my voice quivers, “ You haven’t wanted me for days, I’m left wondering if you even care while you’re off getting kinky with high schoolers!”

WIP 9: Angel Wings

Everyone took a step back, Bakugou had punched Mineta, not all that hard, but…he hit him, he leaned down to Mineta, “If you ever claim that what you try isn’t creepy again, I will make sure blood spills.”

Everyone let out a chuckle, I felt the blood rise to my cheeks, that was what she remembered?

“Did I do this?” I touched Bakugou’s arm, it had dried blood covering his forearm.

Second, there was a part of him-- And I didn’t know how potent that part might be -- that thirsted for my blood. (THIS IS NOT MY LINE, IT WAS AN EXCERPT FROM TWILIGHT)

I could feel the blood rising to my cheeks, when he’s around it feels like it’s just the two of us, “I don’t know how to te-”

"I-I don't really know, but your hands are warm, it makes me feel better." I felt the blood rush to my face, she…used my hands as stress relief?

 It surprised me how small she was, just looking at her you would think she would be fine, but she was raised on barely anything, I’m surprised she can even hold herself up…

“I can’t hold her back much longer, everyone evacuate.”

“Hold on, what were you gonna say?" He was looking at me, hoping I would say something? "Akari?"

“You did just tell her to widen her friend circle, so it could be confusing to have you…..around as much as you have been,” A sigh, “If she is worth your time, she’ll come to her senses, you letting her have alone time could guide her to more friends.”

WIP 10: A Look At My Past

I hope I get a say, I know I’m only 13 but, that is MY blood cousin, NO ONE gets to take him away from his mom without facts.

WIP 12: Darkness

Blood, Dream, Time, Guide, Thought, Nature, or Technology.

WIP 17: Blood Is Fun

“Sure, she just sent her guard dog to threaten me into not spilling her secret.” If I had a mirror I would’ve drawn blood and gore on my face instead.

 I heard a sigh and she rolled over, “How much did you hear?”

WIP 18: Fallen

Roya was right in front of me, on the ground, blood seeping out from where she fell, her beautiful eyes were covered with black soot, she was coughing up smoke.

I was walking towards the center of town, limping and covered in blood, sweat, and tears.

Hold on, why is MY room the only thing that didn’t go up in smoke?

WIP 19: Snow Queen

“ So tell me  how am I supposed to come into the world without being tormented or laughed at?” he said with a sigh.

"I can’t do things as I used to when I was young.” he said with a sigh.

WIP 25

“Are you calling me one of those demonic bloodsuckers?” I scoffed, “It might be a bit of blood I couldn’t quite scrape away.” 

WIP 26: Spies Can't Fall In Love

After she was gone they decided that in order to make the new prototype better, it needed parents, real blood and a body.

They asked WISE for the top agent, Twilight and then they found the Thorn Princess, and blackmailed her into giving the blood.

 Just a replaceable agent, WISE forced Twilight to go away so he'd never know that the 'little drops of blood' turned into a real person.

She made his blood boil, so much grossness wrapped in a carelessly perfect shell.

"So…you're the reason WISE took my blood?" Twilight never thought that his blood would be used to make an enhanced human, or that she would be the girl he had cared for.

"A bruise that covers the break, disguising it as a smaller wound." I sighed, this man was the father I never knew, "A wound that could grow fatal." I whispered the last part, I wanted him to accept me as blood, if not at least a friend.

"I made friends with him in two weeks, and Anya couldn't play nice for ten years." I was arguing why I should matter to him, he was my blood, and I did his daughter's job in a fraction of the time.

Another god awful day without the politician's spilt blood.

WIP 27

 They took my blood every day, and they would not let me leave the hospital.

WIP 28: Midnight

Mates have become rare, and one of the only tribes to still believe in mates, is the Blood Moon Pack.

I've been waiting for us to visit the Blood Moon pack for almost a year now.

When I arrived at the clearing, Deirdre's body was ravaged, her once pure white hair, soaked in blood.

Tears poured down my face, mixing with the blood of my children.

I awoke to the faces of my Father and our Luna, Ninurta, the smell of blood suffocating.

No one looked at me, they just looked at the lump of blood and gore next to me, the scent matched Azrail's.

She pulled me up to sitting and sat next to me, a slight glare in her eyes, she forced her lips on me and pushed me down, shock and panic coursed through me when I heard a pained snarl from the Blood Moon pack house.

The Luna of the Blood Moon pack wrapped Keahi in a hunting cloak, the color of dirt with fresh bloodstains.

"They are here," The girl straightened to her full height, her scent pure revulsion, "The Blood Moon pack puts the mate bond far above that of a little fling."

I pinned her against a tree, "I am the next Alpha of the Blood Moon pack, I do not tend to the scratches of an unmated Alpha."

When we got to the Blood Moon clearing, Balthazar and Keahi were already there.

I sigh and tell them the truth, Shane laughs and Gavin told me to just ask questions, not listen to rumors. 

WIP 30: I'm Fine

He coughed, and blood came up. "Not a runt, half-blood." He rolled onto his knees and swayed, no one tried to catch him.

WIP 35: Heaven and Hell

“I didn't, I just wanted to talk to my….friend.” I hold Issac closer.

I sigh, “Call me Raza.” Might as well go all out, right?

WIP 37: Please, Not Again

Tears stained my cheeks, mixing with blood and dripping until they hit the ground.

WIP 38

I could feel the blood, a metallic taste in my mouth, but he was right. I could beat them, with one blast.

WIP 40: When Stars Fall

“No, come on, let’s wash the blood off your hands.” He doesn’t wait for an answer before dragging me to the bathroom.

He waits outside while I wash my hands, so much blood, it’s everywhere, on my hands, on my clothes, I can’t see past all the blood.

“Okay, okay, hold your horses, I’m coming!” One of the nurses opened the door, and I ran.

 I walk the crowded halls and hold my head high, I can do this, I am NOT insane, I just need something to shut off the voices, like sleep, wait, no that makes it worse, I don’t want to do drugs or alcohol, but, no I will NOT give in.

I pull her into my arms and hold her there, she’s not alone, she doesn’t need to push me away.

WIP 41

“I am needed. And when the baby is born, I will come back, we will raise him or her. Together.” I hold his hands and try to comfort him.

“The main thing we hold against the goblins is what?” Noa asked, leaving the question open for us to answer.

FINALLY DONE. Thank you for the hard work @fakegingerrights

I'm tagging @conquerius37

Your words are: Bend, And, Jack