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hey quick question, what does it mean when your incredibly cute coworker spends months lamenting the fact that he cant order new contacts because his vision script is out of date but ends up still wearing his (new) glasses to work then later shows you pics from a family gathering where hes definitely wearing contacts and you have a dawning realization that no, he really has worn his glasses exclusively around you and you think it might be because of an offhand compliment on his new frames six months ago
asking for myself. h elp
#mochi rambles#i continue to be having the most baffling gay crisis#like at this point i am absolutely certain hes been casually flirting withe for like close to a year#AT LEAST#im just fucking *dense* so i didnt pick up on it til he got VERY overt#i still cannot get a read on him though#and i cannot lose this game by asking him outright what the fuck is going on#at least not without some attempt at goading him into making a move#this is simply who i am as a person#*however*#points at him *what the fuck*#its such a stupid small thing that i do not think anyone else in the office has noticed but like#does he wear his contacts when im not in???#i *must* know#but unfortunately i am uh#not really all that close with anyone else in the office BUT him#and i suuuuuuper dont want to put our mutual whatever the fuck this is on anyone elses radar#yes we both intend to quit by the end of 2024#but i do NOT want to deal with our ancient boss starting shit because she got a wiff of an affair#screms#mochi you useless lesbian
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warrior cats au where the books are good
#art#my art#warrior cats#wc moonpaw#moonpaw#moonpaw wc#I KNOW IVE SUPPOSEDLY BROKEN UP WITH WC BUT SOMETIMES. MAN. God warrior cats would be so good if it was good#look im plural and i like themes of identity and i like weird little girl type characters (due to uh. having been one)#moonpaw theoretically should be practically made in a lab to appeal to me. Unfortunately seeing as the erins are like that#I am 99% sure hteyre just going to write ableism: the character#goddddd. i could fix these fucking booksssssss
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omgggg shipping is not arophobic in the LEAST but keep making us look like whiners with no real problems by continuing to complain about it I guess
yeah that's definitely what i said in any post ever man great job
average person who has made shipping their entire identity will see a post where someone says 'hey please don't say these specific types of things that are degrading and cruel about nonromantic relationships while enjoying your ships and maybe examine the thought processes and beliefs and prejudices that led to saying them' and be like 'oh so you're a whiner with no real problems who thinks shipping is arophobic?'
telling on yourself there bud
#gav gab#lmaoooooooo#gav answers#i feel like my brain ghosts would have a much harder time with this if i didn't already like#obsessively couch every single comment i made about shipping and arophobia and amatonormativity#with a million disclaimers about how everyone is allowed to do what they want and enjoy what they enjoy#implying this comes from a fellow aro person is like#unfortunately not hard to accept bc i have seen a Lot of aro people who love shipping#also fall down the same logic traps#of people's behaviour when shipping can Never be questioned or criticized bc shipping is sacrosanct#bc they feel like#idk particularly self conscious about engaging in arophobic behaviour when shipping#ive noticed that like people who make shipping their entire fandom identity have a VERY LOW distress tolerance#for someone even so much as not also approaching fandom that way#and watching them freak out at the mere suggestion that it's possible for someone to#ever so gently suggest maybe the way they talk about this affects other people#and 'but my ships' isn't a blanket justification to say whatever you want forever about relationships and love and feelings#and devotion and whatever else and how Friends Don't Look At Friends Like That!!11!111!!!!!#bc it's Not That Deep and It's Just A Joke Calm Down and Ship And Let Ship!!!!!!!#is like. well. skill issue. i am so uncomfortable in fandom spaces all the time lmao you couldn't survive in my shoes#imagine being so selfish and incapable of handling people having different experiences that you hear like#the mildest critique of your behaviour and go so far off the rails you send shit like This#is this take for real 'it's not possible for any shipping related behaviour to be arophobic' bc if so uh. Uh#shipping related behaviour is not immune from critque about but not limited to#misogyny homophobia racism arophobia etc etc you do actually have to care abt other people#even when youre making your barbies kiss. sorry!#i see a notification on my inbox and i get excited to see a message. maybe it's about one of my fics or smth!#no. it is this asshole.
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ugh this is so pathetic and embarrassing but. it might be helpful to me if people would tag horror movie content with 'horror' or 'horror movie' or 'horror film' or something. because unfortunately seeing a still image of a horror movie monster or body horror scene, or a gif of the guy from saw swinging a bloody hand down to implicitly cut off his offscreen leg or whatever even though onscreen he's just swinging his arm, or even just an overly zippy horror movie poster or overly descriptive sentence about the content of a horror movie, does in fact often cause me to get so stressed out and compulsively miserable that i cry
[ETA: sufficiently non-explicit/non-tone-preserving joke content, like the Thursday the 12th meme that has a picture of jason in the store, is fine. my line is weird and hard to articulate but "does this preserve the tone of the horror movie or is it ridiculous/an obvious joke" is a reasonable way to delineate things i might benefit from tagging vs things that won't bother me.
also like. i made it sound very bad but it's not actually such a huge deal for things that aren't "this is literally a gif of a horror movie" so if you would like to make the question you ask yourself "is this literally a gif of a horror movie" you will already be solving most of my problems]
#text is usually fine UNLESS IT IS ABOUT A HORROR MOVIE. no i don't know why it works this way either#hand drawn art also almost always fine. i just get unwell from. knowing. about film.#ik this is massively inconvenient and i think asking people to tag things for you is a basically useless ritual usually#and i do think it's mostly on me to uh. block the source blogs people are reblogging the gifs from etc.#but unfortunately i am..... worse.... than other people. and now admitting to it in public.#i would like to know what my problem is also. this is a really over the top situation. but it is. the one i have#im also excruciatingly sensitive to other gross-out/bodily fluids/body horror visuals but people i follow don't like those as much.#i used to have intense stress flashbacks about the three-second tumblr ads of the american horror story clown#i could just about manage the first season of hannibal. you may recall i had to stop criminal minds because it gave me intense nightmares#it may not be possible for anyone else to conceptualize how much i suck on this axis
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So Noah is openly being a zionist online... AGAIN. I'm seeing a lot of people wanting to leave the fandom- which I support, if you can drop this then you should. But if you're like me and it's not that simple, here are a couple rough tips that might help;
Pro-tip; instead of paying for Netflix and helping support genocide and the zionists in the cast/crew, cancel your subscription and send that money to charities that are bringing aid and resources into Gaza!
Pro-tip 2; buy fan content and nothing liscenced! Fan works are often better quality than the show- from drawings, to writing, to pins... it's worth the money and you aren't sending money to people openly supporting genocide and the murder of children!
Pro-tip 3; if you are going to continue taking part in fandom, like myself, do not do so in silence. Palestinians are being murdered and we can't pretend that it isn't happening simply because we have hyperfixations that we can't get rid of.
Pro-tip 4; join boycotts! Not only the monetary boycott of Netflix and Stranger Things, but- at least- the three main boycotts; McDonalds, Disney+ and Starbucks! There are many others, from Puma to Barclays to Booking.com to Pizza Hut to Burger King... None of these things are necessities and you can easily go without! Other options are probably cheaper and better quality too! It's a win-win!
Pro-tip 5; Go to protests if you can! Make your voice heard not only online but in person too! We have strength in numbers and we cannot lose the momentum we've barely started to build! Take direct action!
P.S. biggest fuck you to Noah Schnapp but also; Ross Duffer, Shawn Levy and Brett Gelman can suck the shit right out my ass <3
#stranger things#side not that I've lit never paid for netflix#unfortunately I've already paid for travel for that fucking stage show and I'm not willing to waste that money so :/#catch me taking photos of whatever merch I like and finding fan dupes though lmao#but again; fuck zionists. fuck them straight to the depths of whatever hell there is#and I'm going to sleep right after posting this so the potential fallout to this will be... uh... something#but I am kind of curious to see if anyone attacks me for continuing the way I am like I wasn't one of those who called noah out before this#but noah spreading isreali lies and zionist propaganda wasnt that big of deal until now I guess 👀#anyways free palestine and pirate stranger things 🏴☠️🖖 goodnight
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陳情令 the untamed ー episode 4
#shrimp gifs#lan xichen#jin guangyao#xiyao#and this is where i lament my tagging practices because my main tag is md/zs but this is QUITE OBVIOUSLY not mdzs. so. uh oh!#long post#this gifset is. fairly boring unfortunately#i'm thinking now that i should have made it brighter? hm#but. i can't be arsed to save the psd files anymore so i'd have to remake the entire gifset from scratch and I Am Not Doing That#lxc's smile in the last gif is soooo cute and warm#don't ask me about the coloring btw :)
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Books of 2025: ADRIFT IN CURRENTS CLEAN AND CLEAR by Seanan McGuire.
Ah, yes, my favorite January tradition: heartbreak in tiny series installment form :)
This one is about a turtle-obsessed disabled Russian girl who gets adopted by an American family and fitted for a prosthetic she doesn't ask for, want, or need, and then she splashes through her Door.
I love Russian language and culture things (shout out to accidentally double minoring in college), so I was excited for a Russian protag and a Russian-coded Door world! Excellent enrichment in my enclosure. Neat cultural expansion on the Wayward Children universe (multiverse? cosmos?? insert appropriately scaled setting word here).
I also liked the aquatic nature of Belyyreka--terrifying giant frogs and delightful giant turtles and delightful talking foxes on the riverbanks were all lovely, and the worldbuilding about different weights of water was neat! Very mind-bendy kind of setting, I dig it.
This installment felt very slim (146 pages in my copy), and Our World Heavy--the first 46 pages were in Colorado, and the last 100 were in Belyyreka, but it felt like we did More Frequent and Larger Time Skips in Belyyreka compared to Earth? Kind of speedrun mode, sans Quests, really (this one was a lot more oriented toward Finding/Building Your Family, which was signposted pretty clearly upon our arrival in Belyyreka). Mostly a quieter installment up until the, y'know, Typical Impending Tragedy of Return at the end. (Did I almost put it down at 1AM last night with 30 pages left so everyone could Be Happy? perHAPS,)
Overall: I had a good time! But, ow, my heart (once again and forever).
#books#books of 2025#adrift in currents clean and clear#seanan mcguire#book photos#wayward children#i cannot begin to describe how much editing i had to do to get these colors to look right#given the shitty lighting conditions in which i took the picture lol#anyway i have uh. mixed feelings. about how the russian was handled#(i always have mixed feelings about how russian is handled)#but like. do you transliterate it AND italicize it? do you just drop the cyrillic letters in there? Who Is The Book For lol#i also unfortunately am unsure how i feel about the twin prosthetic instances in this book?#but it's not really my lane so i won't go into it#if anyone who shares her disability has talked about this please let me know because i'm curious though#....okay i do also have a quibble about this kid's name#licherally within the first two words of the book i was like. Uh Oh.#because she's 'Nadya Sokolov'. in a russian orphanage.#seanan. ma'am. where did u put her final 'a'. it's a hugely gendered language she should be Sokolova#(bardugo did this too and it drove me nuts lol)#IF YOU'RE GONNA BE SLAVIC WITH YOUR WORLDBUILDING GO ALL THE WAY#so admittedly i was on High Russian Alert because of this#and i don't love italicizing the ~foreign~ words#especially not if they're transliterated.....#it was particularly the 'be sure' that got me actually. because 1. if the kid is russian and you're basically translating all her other--#--thoughts into english. why is 'be sure' spelled out in transliterated russian. why not either show us the shape of the letters or save--#--the 'oh it's in russian' revelation for AFTER#i just. have a lot of thoughts. about how things are handled in translation/transliteration lol.#(i spent a very long time pondering this for my own writing projects. i would just write it in cyrillic and figure it out when typing)#ANYWAY MANY THOUGHTS MOST OF THEM NICHE. i think i had fun overall though. not my fave installment but i'm still here for the ride
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Her music isnt bad. But largely unremarkable in a way that makes me believe chappel roan was manufactured in a pharmaceutical lab specifically for straight women who wanted to have a ‘but I listen to X!’ card for when they get a liiiittle too homophobic.
#granted I thought this about Billie eilish but I’m starting to like her unfortunately#also she came out of nowhere like so many newer artists and the way I learn about them is people being like#lol is this about peecie oflava? on my posts and I go look peecie up and she sounds like Ezra uh#what’s her name#furman. I like Ezra furman#I like chappel roan too#but it’s true#like. riverdale music Yknow. I like riverdale too#I think in part it’s bc I don’t beleive her look or lyrics or sound#do you know what I mean it’s like I just am not buying it sorry
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November 2023
#song is boom boom mancini by warren zevon bc unfortunately i am now invested in combat sports#so this features combat sports (mma via bellator's final card)#also alcohol and food and uh. idk what else is a trigger.#oh! flashing lights!#anyway thank you filmnoirsbian. doing these has made my life better#my video diaries
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To remedy the unlucky, meet a honkai star rail oc!
#unfortunately when it comes to lore accurate ocs#I am. uh. getting an f in the class#but she’s fun and pretty so I forgive myself#specks ocs#oc: bujiu#speck art#my art#hsr oc#she’s totally not based off of Tripitaka whaaaaa. youre crazy hahah
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i'm just dropping my ko-fi link here and doing a runner.
#pfh personal#god this is awkward but uh#basically my universal credit hasn't come in because of some fuckery and unfortunately i have bills to pay#my housemate bee has paid what she can but she has her own bills to pay as well#and basically if every single one of my followers was to chuck £1 or £2 in my tip jar that would go a long way to helping pay the bills#while i look for work still#because i am looking for work
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What's a delta au btw? I've been scrolling through tvdint fics and i see it pop up sometimes
The Delta AU is one of the many semi-canon AU's for the series! (Semi-canon in the sense that tvdint's mangaka Bonnoki was the one who came up with it, rather than just some fans) It's one of the most popular AU's and one of the most developed ones, aside from Uso
Basically, the gist of it is that every character (with a couple of exceptions) is shifted one role to the left, IE:
The vampires are all Vampire Control Division
The Vampire Control Division are all vampire hunters
The vampire hunters are all vampires
Draluc is the captain of the VCD and is a dhampir in this AU. He has a wicked good ability to sense vampires, except using his ability gives him terrible migraines. He and the rest of the VCD are investigating a sudden invasion of superior vampires (Ronaldo and the rest of the former hunter characters) in Shin Yoko, and Draluc is eventually tasked with monitoring Ronaldo. He's very overworked and very tired, but is still his usual hedonistic self (and still has John).
Ronaldo is a vampire who is stupidly powerful, and it seems as though absolutely nothing can kill him: not garlic, not crosses, not silver, not sunlight. He is actively looking for a way to die, so that he can resurrect himself and become more "vampire-like" like his brother. He seems a lot more enthusiastic and puppy dog-like in this AU, so far not showing any sort of violent tendencies towards Draluc and actually seems to kind of respect him to an extent
And it basically plays out as a "what if Ronaldo was the one who barged into Draluc's quiet lil life and mooched off him instead?" theoretical. Fanon likes to depict this AU as kind of like a silly slice-of-life office AU, in a sense, but in general a lot of people view Delta as a slightly-to-greatly darker/more serious storyline than the canon tvdint, given Ronaldo's obsession with wanting to die and Draluc's mortality as a dhampir, among other aspects.
There are two 4 page comics about Delta in the official kyuushi fanbooks as well as a handful of little lore droplings from Bonnoki on his twitter and in a couple of his radios on youtube.
A compilation of most of the information about Delta can be found here!
#admittedly this isn't one of my /favorites/ of all the semi-canon AUs out there#i like it but i don't think i enjoy it quite as much as most people do#it's still a lot of fun tho!!#and the art and doujins people make for it are phenomenal#but I am unfortunately a Fiend and i like it the most as a darker story when the characters are a lil more uh... morally corrupt ;;#the vampire dies in no time#kyuuketsuki sugu shinu#Delta AU#anonymous#ask
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For the past three days I have been under the thrall of a terrible curse. A pie hating curse. I've been so close to getting a pie twice now only to be scuppered by egregious circumstances (one time they were out of gf pies second time the tread came off our back left tire in one long strip so we couldn't make it to the pie shop) now we wait til Monday for the tyre shop to open so we can try and achieve the pie glory we once sought and can only hope we are not scuppered again by the cruel whims of fate.
#while no one is really to blame#i am unfortunately casting aspersions on the very funny commenter#who said i hope you dont get the ao3 authors curse#thus damning me to its consequences#who says that to people???? who says that#i hope you dont get cursed#uh THATS A TOTALLY NORMAL THING TO SAY#now I have been pieless twice#pray that i find solace in the crusty warmth of pies savoury embrace on my third attempt
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noise canceling headphones are a gift to mankind. the world is so quiet. misophonia begone.
#first pair of nice noise canceling headphones ive ever had#can’t hear my roommate eating right next to me even when I’m not playing music on them#and i can still hear them talking which means i can still participate in conversations#unfortunately they give me a bit of a headache and uh. hurt.#but I am no longer in physical and emotional agony so. win.#misophonia
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Happy wip wednesday number one 🥳
Here are the lines that finally wrapped up section four out of six on this fic and pushed the damn thing to 11k 😎
The sound of laughter covers Obi-Wan’s hushed whisper next to Cody’s ear. “I thought I’d lost you.”
“Not like that,” is Cody’s reply. When next Obi-Wan looks, he’s wearing a smile.
Happy new year!!!! May your fields (wips) flourish and your children (completed works) be exactly as bountiful as you want them to be <3
#we’re still only at two kiss prompts so that’s uh#5.5k words per kiss prompt. if anyone wanted to do the math. on that.#yes this is about#pinch points#but I don’t feel like tagging the blog bc 1) it’s so small and 2) they’re unfortunately aware of it already and 3) I feel like they’re as#sick of this wip as I am starting to get#so. whoops#anyways!!#dani writes#codywan#star wars#half kidding btw I think they’re probably getting sick of hearing me talk abt it but I am still having fun#just me in my corner with my personality-rich hot wheels
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seriously debated whether or not i was gonna say anything about this but i use this blog like a diary anyways so. whatever
chat i think i may be hyperfixated on rocky horror picture show. okay let me provide some background because that might seem kinda out of nowhere
for those of you who may not be aware: i am a theater kid. yes i know i can hear you booing through the screen. my college's theater group does a rhps shadow cast every year, and i am on the makeup crew for it this year. id seen the movie once years ago and liked it but also found it deeply uncomfortable (because i was in like eighth grade or something and people were all but fucking and sucking on screen).
i was front center in the audience last night and HOLY SHIT yeah that was cool (guy who played frank sat on my lap, i completed the herculean task of not passing out crying because a hot guy sat on my lap and was also yknow doing frank n furter things DIRECTLY IN FRONT ME like a for a big part of the show MAKING DIRECT EYE CONTACT its a miracle im not dead this guy almost killed me he looked back at me a few times while he was sitting on my lap and i was making the biggest dumbest nervous smile ever and im 99% he could feel me shaking we made eye contact at some point guys please send an ambulance)
guys please i know rhps is. deeply deeply questionable. but the movie is so stupid and the music is good i love it so much. also shadow casts are so epic THE CALLOUTS HELP. i have the callouts rattling around in my brain theyre all so funny.
im coming out as a faggot, a pathetic faggot, a rhps fan, AND a theater kid in the same post. i think one of you just needs to kill me
#mick just yaps#im making a tag for posts like this because they are becoming increasingly common#does anyone ever read these. do any of you look at these#also if any of the people who know me in real life see this and also happened to be at the show and i just missed you. um#you didnt see this#i was never there i lied im not gay youre gay whats gay i dont know what that is#or if youre going tonight and you see me#because i am going again#because A. im doing makeup B. unfortunate hyperfixation and C. um. uh. normal reasons#i will not be able to be in the front row again because the is the virgin section (aka people whove never seen the show before) BUT#i can be anywhere else there arent reserved seats#so maybe the sides if the people im going with (my friend whos also on the makeup crew + her boyfriend) are cool with it#and they arent all reserved again
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