#but truly what is being an asshole on the internet about it gonna do

[gamerwoo]

when can i stop getting le sserafim hate tiktoks on my fyp it’s getting old :)

[ryin-silverfish]

One nerd's musing about Chinese religion and "respect"

-I try to stay away from fandom discourse, but, much like how you can smell the stench from a dumpster fire without walking into said dumpster fire, I've noticed something that seemed to come up a lot in western JTTW + adjacent fandoms: "respect Chinese religion".

-Usually as a reason for why you shouldn't ship a character, because of fucking course it's shipping discourse too.

-And my first reaction is "Man, you are taking Chinese religion too darn seriously, more than people who are born and raised in China."

-My second reaction is "I mean, most of us are atheist/agnostic by default anyways, with a good number of what I'd call 'atheist/agnostics with superstitions': people who said they were not religious, yet believed in Fengshui or divinations and burnt incense at temples for good luck."

-My third reaction: "But why do I get the feeling that when you mention 'Respect', you are thinking about something completely different?"

-Then I reread an essay from Anthony C. Yu, "Religion and Literature in China: The "Obscure Way" of Journey to the West", and the metaphorical lightbulb just lit up over my head.

(Everything below applies more to Daoism + associated folk religions, but by the time most classic Chinese vernacular novels were written, the blending of the three religions had become well and truly mainstream.)

(The conception of gods differs from dynasty to dynasty. What I'm describing here is mostly based on Ming and Qing ones; if you went back to Han or pre-Qin times, most of these would not apply.)

(I am one of the "atheist/agnostic by default" people. I just have an interest in this kind of stuff. I am also just one Chinese person, and an actual Daoist/Buddhist/Religion Studies researcher would probably have a lot more valuable information and perspective to offer when it comes to contemporary practices and worship. Like any people on the internet: take my words with a grain of salt.)

-Even in the past, when society was far less secularized, Chinese gods are not omniscient, perfect beings whose worship is a solemn, humorless affair. Some's worship are Serious Business, but that has more to do with the sort of gods they are and the patronage they enjoy, not godhood in and of itself.

-And even the ones that you are supposed to "treat seriously" are still very human. To use an analogy I've used plenty of times before: you respect and fear them in the same way you'd respect and fear an emperor's official, or the emperor himself, because if you don't, you are not gonna like the consequences.

-However, unlike Jesus, the emperor & his officials were capable of being temperamental, flawed, or an outright asshole, divine or not. Ideally, they wouldn't be, and if you were one of the "serious" believers——people who actually got an official permit, became ordained clergy, and went to live in a temple, you were unlikely to think of your gods in that manner.

-But it wasn't a complete, utter impossibility. The lower you go in the pantheon, the closer you get to popular religion, the less "serious" the gods and their worship become. By that, I mean general attitude, not sincerity of faith. You still shouldn't be rude to them, but, well, they are more likely to take a joke in stride, or participate in the "vulgar" pleasures of commoners because they weren't as bound to Confucian moral standards or religious disciplines.

-To stretch the same analogy further: you should still respect your village head, they could still give your ass a good spanking for being a disrespectful brat, but you were not obligated to get on your knees and kowtow to them like you would do in front of a provincial magistrate, the emperor's minister, or the emperor himself, nor did they have the power to chop your head off just because you were rude.

-On the other hand, the emperor would never visit a random peasant just to help them fix their broken plow or treat them to a nice meal, but your village head could, and your relationship would probably be warmer and a lot more personal as a result.

-Your respect for them was more likely to stem from the things they actually did for you and the village as a whole, instead of something owed to this distant, powerful authority you might never get to see in your lifetime, but could change its course with a single stroke of a brush.

-Now exchange "village head" for your run-of-the-mill Tudis and Chenghuangs and friendly neighborhood spirits (because yes, people worshipped yaoguais for the exact same reasons), emperor + his officials for the Celestial Bureaucracy, and you'd have a basic idea of how Chinese religions worked on the ground level.

-This is far from absolute: maybe your village head was a spiteful old bastard who loved bullying his juniors, maybe your regional magistrate was an honest, upright man who could enjoy a good drink and a good laugh, maybe the emperor was a lenient one and wouldn't chop your head off for petty offenses. But their general degree of power over you and the closeness of your relationships still apply.

-Complicating the matter further, some folk gods (like Wutong) were worshipped not because they brought blessings, but because they were the divine equivalent of gangsters running a protection racket: you basically bribed them with offerings so they'd leave you alone and not wreck your shit. Famous people who died violently and were posthumously deified often fell into this category——shockingly enough, Guan Yu used to be one such god!

-Yeah, kinda like how your average guy could become an official through the imperial examinations, so could humans become gods through posthumous worship, or cultivate themselves into immortals and Enlightened beings.

-Some immortals aren't qualified for, or interested in a position in the Celestial Bureaucracy——they are the equivalent of your hermits, your cloistered Daoist priests, your common literati who kept trying and failing the exams. But some do get a job offer and gladly take it.

-Anyways, back to my original point: that's why it's so absurd when people pull the "Respect Chinese Religion1!!1!" card and immediately follow up with "Would you do X to Jesus?"

-Um, there are a lot of things you can do with Chinese gods that I'm pretty sure you can't do with Jesus. Like worshipping him side by side with Buddha and Confucius (Lao Tzu). Or inviting him to possess you and drink copious amount of alcohol (Tang-ki mediums in SEA). Or genderbend him into a woman over the course of several centuries because folks just like that version of Jesus better (Guan Yin/Avalokitesvara).

-But most importantly, Chinese religions are kinda a "free market" where you could pick and choose between gods, based on their vicinity to you and how efficient they were at answering prayers. You respect them because they'll help you out, you aren't an asshole and know your manners, and pissing them off is a bad idea in general, not because they are some omnipotent, perfect beings who demand exclusive and total reverence.

-A lot of the worship was also, well, very "practical" and almost transactional in nature: leave offerings to Great Immortal Hu, and he doesn't steal your imperial seal while you aren't looking. Perform the rites right and meditate on a Thunder General's visage, and you can temporarily channel said deity's power. Get this talisman for your kids at Bixia Yuanjun's temple, and they'll be protected from smallpox.

-"Faith alone" or "Scripture alone" is seldom the reason people worship popular deities. Even the obsession with afterlife wasn't about the eternal destination of your soul, and more about reducing the potential duration of the prison sentence for you and your loved ones so you can move on faster and reincarnate into a better life.

-Also, there isn't a single "canon" of scriptures. Many popular gods don't show up in Daoist literature until much later. Daoist scriptures often came up with their own gigantic pantheons, full of gods no one had heard of prior to said book, or enjoyed no worship in temples whatsoever.

-In the same way famous dead people could become gods via worship, famous fictional characters could, too, become gods of folk religion——FSYY's pantheon was very influential on popular worship, but that doesn't mean you should take the novels as actual scriptures.

-Like, God-Demon novels are to orthodox Daoism/Buddhism what the Divine Comedy is to medieval Christian doctrines, except no priests had actually built a Church of Saint Beatrice, while Daoists did put FSYY characters into their temples. By their very nature, the worship that stemmed from these books is not on the same level of "seriousness" as, say, the Tiantai school of Buddhism and their veneration of the Lotus Sutra.

-At the risk of being guilty of the same insertion of Christianity where it doesn't belong: You don't cite Dante's Inferno in a theological debate, nor would any self-respecting pastor preach it to churchgoers on a Sunday.

-Similarly, you don't use JTTW or FSYY as your sole evidence for why something is "disrespectful to Chinese religion/tradition" when many practitioners of said religions won't treat them as anything more than fantasy novels.

-In fact, let's use Tripitaka as an example. The historical Xuanzang was an extraordinarily talented, faithful, and determined monk. In JTTW, he was a caricature of a Confucian scholar in a Buddhist kasaya and served the same narrative function as Princess Peach in a Mario game.

-Does the presence of satire alone make JTTW anti-Buddhist, or its religious allegories less poignant? I'd say no. Should you take it as seriously as actual Buddhist sutras, when the book didn't even take itself 100% seriously? Also no.

-To expand further on the idea of "seriousness": even outside of vernacular novels, practitioners are not beholden to a universal set of strict religious laws and taboos.

-Both Daoism and Buddhism had what we called "cloistered" and "non-cloistered" adherents; only the former needed to follow their religious laws and (usually) took a vow of celibacy.

-Certain paths of Daoist cultivation allow for alcohol and sexual activities (thanks @ruibaozha for the info), and some immortals, like Lv Dongbin, had a well-established "playboy" reputation in folklore.

-Though it was rarer for Buddhism and very misunderstood, esoteric variants of it did utilize sexual imageries and sex. And, again, most of the above would not apply if you weren't among the cloistered and ordained clergy.

-Furthermore, not even the worship of gods is mandatory! You could just be a Daoist who was really into internal alchemy, cultivating your body and mind in order to prolong your lifespan and, ideally, attain immortality.

-This idea of "respect" as…for a lack of better words, No Fun & R18 Stuff Allowed, you must treat all divinity with fearful reverence and put yourself completely at their mercy, is NOT the norm in Chinese religious traditions.

-There are different degrees and types of respect, and not every god is supposed to be treated like the Supreme Heavenly Emperor himself during an imperial ceremony; the gods are capable of cracking a joke, and so are we!

TL;DR: Religions are complicated, and you aren't respecting Chinese religions by acting like a stereotypical Puritan over popular Chinese deities and their fictional portrayals.

[porcelain-gal]

NOT-SO-SMALL RANT ABOUT THE SHIFTING COMMUNITY this has been pissing me off for some time now so i'm going to yap about it and if you don't agree w/ me, feel free to block me! also please note that this is just a general rant and isn't targeted at any specific individual(s) because i've been seeing this on here and in other shifting communities.

this is going to be the laaaast time i talk about this because i don't want to be know for complaining all the time anymore LMAOAO! anyways allow me to start by saying this. if what someone's doing in regards to shifting isn't harmful, bigoted, racially insensitive, or truly problematic and it doesn't affect you, stop being an annoying piece of shit and judging people for what they do with the realities they shift to ESPECIALLY if you can't handle/don't like it being done to you. you do not get to judge and dictate what people do in their lives, who they shift for, why they shift, what wording they use in terms of shifting, nothing.

YOU DON'T GET A SAY IN THE HARMLESS SHIT SOMEONE ELSE DOES IN THEIR LIFE JUST BECAUSE YOU DON'T LIKE IT.

and yes i get that there's certain stuff that's just based off of morality and culture and history, i'm not talking about that because i too am personally very sensitive about that stuff for reasons of my own. i'm talking about some of you who judge shifters for wanting to shift to have consensual sex with legal adults as a legal adult in that reality. or some of you who judge people for having multiple partners because you just can't seem to wrap your head around it or simply choose to be ignorant. or some of you who even judge people because they script that they get attention and that they're smart and pretty. because think about it.

what does any of that have to do with you?

you act like YOU'RE gonna be the one living their life when you're not. many of you judge people for shit and you don't even know how they perceive it yet you're too close-minded to even think outside of your own head and consider their thought process. many of you seem to forget that you are shaming someone's entire lives for miniscule shit. like these are their LIVES. and not to mention, many of you claim that "don't mean to judge" but just because you say that you're not judging doesn't mean that you're not being judgmental. the shit you say can still be offensive or demotivating or just straight up bigoted/prejudice to the people you're talking about when you could've just kept it to yourself.

imagine if a straight person came online and said that they didn't like when queer people spoke about their queer experiences/partners/whatever because it made them uncomfortable and they couldn't relate but "they aren't judging, they just don't agree with it?" you see how fucked that sounds? well you probably don't because you're doing the exact same thing just in a different community about different shit, all of which ain't got nothing to do with you.

how would you feel if someone on this app started bashing you for who you shift for and saying that shifting for this person was so stupid and going into detail about how fucking lame you are? you wouldn't like it right? because that's your partner and you love them, right? so why the fuck do you think you can do that to other people? seriously, it's starting to get very fucking ridiculous.

please just think before you start judging people for harmless shit because they might turn around and do the same shit to you or call you out for not minding your own business and now you're all offended and getting flamed for being an asshole. and if you truly just need to talk shit about someone's life, maybe get some friends who share your values and talk privately instead of putting everything on the internet. now go shift! <3

SINCERELY, A Serial Yapper with A Lot To Say

[doodler16]

3 things to say:

1- "being gay is when a married man cheat on wife with another man"- vivziepop's logic (her lgbtq representation is very conservative if you think about it)

2- I feel like fans know that vivziepop's writing is bullshit and full of pilot holes but they Don't care about it as long there's characters to fuck *cough* loona *cough*,people underestimate the power of horny lol and to this day I still don't understand the hype and praise for loona but this is how Internet works I guess

3- I usually don't care about ships and strange kinks as long it stays fictional and no real person is involved in it BUT i hate it when a creator push it in their "morality teaching shows" it's where I draw the line like you either make serious show about taking abuse seriously to spread awareness or a weird fever dream kink show made for gooners to enjoy, you can't have it both,vivziepop made hypersexuals look like bunch of freaks and stigmatised them even more. "Please guys have sympathy for this character for getting sexually harassed but please don't blame him for sexually harassing others cause trauma made him hypersexual and you have to deal with it, he's just coping!" Like wtf are you serious? There's different ways to coping with trauma including drawing fetishes and kinks and i see no problem with it but harassing others is not coping you are just being peirce of shit, her morality is so flawed what is she even trying to tell audience? Victims of SA become assholes and have free card to harassing others? Wtf? And Yes I am a proshipper and I hate HH/HB because I hate it when a show tell you it's ok to cheat and it's ok to sexually harassing others why? because you said that this show is meant to represent victims but you only made victims feel embarrassed even more about themselves and you backstabbed them like don't you realise when you say your shows is about victims your victims watch the show to feel comfortable and feel being understood only for them seeing angel dust being asshole and sir.pentious getting SA'd as a joke? where's the SA awareness? Like yes we know victims who read SA fanfic as coping exist but not all of them cope the same way and we thought you would tell us how terrible SA can be and how it effects victims horribly ,not using trauma to excuse their shitty behaviours? I hate seeing people getting hurt and I don't want to be near someone telling me that them being asshole is ok because "HB is like bojack horseman and told me it's ok because X And Y" like stfu if you truly know anything about bojack horseman you wouldn't even think of comparing the two also you're an adult and if a dumb cartoon made you harassing others then you weren't good person in the first place you bastard maybe talk to therapy instead because creating trauma to others will never help you also not to mention half of fanbase of HH/HB are minors thanks to lazyass parents and society gaslighting everyone with "if it's cartoon then it's for kids" but the audience is out of vivziepop's control do i am not gonna blame her for this one but all i know is that unlike adults who are aware and responsible for their actions minors brain is not fully developed and they can be misguided most of times so i am worried about them growing up with vivziepop's 'morality' so i don't know the solution of who is watching cartoon and i think we should normalizing shaming lazy parents like don't be a parent if you would just let internet babysitting your child instead of you doing it yourself parenting is called parenting for a reason you're called "parent" not "birth giver", why am I proshipper? Because I don't care about others ships but I don't like the She-ra's "lesbians can't be abusive! You must feel bad for your abuser and you owe them everything and you should forgive them" Message and vivziepop's "if you're in straight marriage and you find out you're gay just cheat oh and if you have trauma it's ok to be asshole" Message (I hope you understand what I am trying to say and I hope you understand we have same goals before you tell me I am terrible as abusers just because i don't care about others ships and believing that fictional things doesn't matter as long it's fictional)

Alright I am done,scream at me I guess

The fans would also fill in the holes regarding Helluva Boss and doesn’t help that Vivziepop would like tweets about it. Don’t like tweets of your fans defending your show. Put and write it into your dialogue not on Twitter 😭

Yeah, Vivziepop has a huge problem of wanting her cake and eating it. Like what you mentioned Anon, the sexual assault jokes then another moment taking it seriously. Rinse and repeat. The moral compass in Hazbin Hotel and Helluva Boss is so wish-washy.

Successfully killed straight married couple. Cool. Oh no, Blitzø doesn’t have the guts to kill a gay couple. Woahh apparently it’s character development (despite Blitzø fighting over a parking lot like an Anon in my last ask mentioned, happily participating in a Wrath competition in Millie’s hometown, killing lumberjacks, happily will screw over the cherubs, etc etc).

Most of the characters especially if a character is Vivziepop’s favorite, don’t get held accountable and when they do have a chance to be called out, it’s usually downgraded in some way or there is some excuse in said action.

Its funny you bring up the children in Hazbin Hotel/Helluva Boss because there was literally a situation where like what a 9-10 year old was at a Hazbin convention asking Blake Roman an inappropriate question regarding Angel Dust. It is so mind boggling to watch. Hazbin and Helluva are supposed to be for adults (+18) but the both shows don’t seem adult despite covering big topics like rape, kinks, etc. It feels like 2 kids in a trench coat attempting to sneak into a R rated movie.

At the day it’s the parent’s responsibility and they should be called out. It also doesn’t help that a few voice actors like Amir encourage kids and parents to watch Hazbin Hotel, despite Vivziepop expressing multiple times it’s for adults. I don’t know if he changed his mind about kids accessing Hazbin Hotel but I hope he does.

Vivziepop could potentially age gate Helluva Boss (I’m not talking about the warning sequence from Helluva Boss that flashes for 5-10 seconds every episode). But like manually do this:

But Vivziepop would lose some more views if that happened. Otherwise there isn’t much she can do.

[violottie]

I cant stress enough how much bi lesbians and bi lesbian discourse flared up my SO-ocd, I was fine for a few months and then I returned to this side of tumblr and I get reminded of them. One of my worst fears is that I am somehow a “bi lesbian” or if after all these years of questioning and finally coming to the conclusion that I’m a lesbian I’ll turn out to be straight in the end. Idk if I should have stayed on the art side of tumblr but where else do I find other lesbians??? I wish I could go back to when I didn’t know “bi lesbians” existed it was easier back then. Apparently the only thing to make intrusive thoughts subside is to be like “so what if I’m not a lesbian, who cares” but I cant do that. I wanna go back to when I didn’t know there were people who deliberately fake being gay because that’s also one of my fears,, even though when I realized I was a lesbian it felt like I REALIZED it rather than chose it

(this is gonna be long but it's very important to talk about so just a heads up on that)

i am so so sorry to hear this, and im infuriated that these fucking creeps in the "community" have caused not only so much blatant lesbophobia to spread but also have caused so much harm to lesbians.

i am right with you because ive been through, and still go through sometimes, what you're experiencing. its terrifying that all this bullshit can snowball and make any doubts we lesbians already have from living in this heterosexual patriarchal society double and multiply even more viciously.

my internalised lesbophobia has worsened also. i doubt myself alot and more often thanks to all this bs. its... i dont even have words to express how damaging lesbophobia, especially from within the "community", is.

it causes harm and trauma and pain and suffering for lesbians, but all these stupid juvenile shits just think it doesnt matter because "uwu theyre so kweer and cool now"

it sucks... but i need you to know it is not your fault that you feel this way.

no matter what anyone inside or outside the community says, and no matter what your spiralling thoughts might make you believe as a result of lesbophobia inside and outside the community, you are not straight, you are not a "bi lesbian", you are not bisexual. you are a lesbian.

i know it is so so hard to just say but i promise you, nothing they say will ever ever change the reality of your lesbianism. i promise you.

it hurts, and its beyond infuriating to have to share space with these disrespectful bastards who coopt our lived experience for a moment of attempted self-actualisation, and that pain deserves to be acknowledged and soothed, not pushed away.

i wish i could give you a hug rn honestly because this shit just fucking sucks. i too wish i could go back to the time when these idiots werent even a concept in my mind or memory, but if there is any advice i can give you to help ease the torment of this constant barrage, it is this:

❤️🧡🤍🩷💖

1) know, for a fact, that nothing anyone, and i mean ANYONE says and no matter how loud they say it, will ever change the lived and exact reality of your innate sexuality.

nothing will ever magic away your lesbianism. it is wired into you, it IS you, a very central part of your personhood. that is not something that any words, especially words shat out of the asshole of a dickhead child on the internet, can ever change.

im not disregarding the hurt, im just reminding you that who you are, who you truly are, cannot change because of the words that hurt. especially because you know deep down that those words are not true.

because being a lesbian is who you are. it is not a quota to reach, or what you do, it is who we are. innately. you know where your natural attactions lie, what genders draw your attraction exclusively and without effort. you know that deep down. we are literally born this way. words cannot change that.

❤️🧡🤍🩷💖

2) the best thing to do whenever you accidentally glimpse said bullshit is to block them and focus on uplifting the actual lesbian community.

lesbians community is such an integral lifeline, i cannot emphasise the sheer importance of enough.

these idiots are, after all, idiots and do not deserve your energy, your time or your pain. they will never matter, and the truth is, they only exist on the internet among weirdos who have no sense of self so seek it by stealing bits and pieces from other peoples personal experience and identity.

they are and always will be inauthentic, unlike you.

❤️🧡🤍🩷💖

3) find and focus on the joy of your lesbianism individually and in lesbian community with other lesbians.

We lesbians are blessed to experience the best kind of human life possible: lesbianism.

our sexuality is bold and strong and proud and beautiful and brilliant and effervescent. it is perfect and brave and worthy of honor and praise and celebration and respect.

our community of lesbians is just as exquisite as we are individually. we are diverse and divine. every butch, femme, stud, stone, masc and feminine lesbian; every trans woman, transmasc, transfem and nonbinary lesbian; every black and brown and lesbian of color; every aromantic, asexual, aroace, non-partnering and polyamourous lesbian; every lesbian of every age and race is so overflown with wisdom and joy and love and brilliance. there is nothing more empowering as a lesbian and nothing that strengthens lesbian pride more than being in a community of lesbians and finding joy in ourselves through each other.

and im not just saying this to be mushy. i mean it. lesbians are divine, and thus, you are also divine.

you are perfect as a lesbian because you ARE a lesbian. you are incredible and intelligent and brilliant and brave.

nothing will change the brilliance of who you are, and in everything you are as a lesbian, you have a universe of lesbians who have been, who are and who will be, all of whom have not only been through the same and similar demeaning bs from the same kind of lesbophobic idiots, but they fought it back and survived and lived and thrived as lesbians.

you are just as strong as every lesbian who has been and is. and you are not alone. i promise you.

i am slowly rebuilding the community of lesbians on this blog that i had on my old one, but i promise you, on my blog you are safe. i swear, i will always always put lesbians first here, and that includes you. i will always defend and support and celebrate lesbians first here, and here you will find many other lesbians who will do the same.

❤️🧡🤍🩷💖

i know this was long, im sorry about that but i just need you to know that i see and feel your pain with you, and i need you to know that you arent going through it alone, and you are not alone.

we lesbians have always stuck together to defend and fight for one another, we have always survived, we have always been here, and we always will be.

i hope this reassures you in some way, and know you're always welcome and safe here ❤️🧡🤍🩷💖

[miguel-manbemel]

I've been in the Thomas Sanders fandom for almost nine years now. That means I was there way before Sanders Sides, and that at this point I'll remain following him way after Sanders Sides is over. That doesn't make me better or worse than anyone else, but I think that that gives me a little bit of right to speak my opinion, and I'm gonna do it, because I've been holding it back for far too long when I've seen so much bullshit all around, especially on Tumblr, and I can't help it anymore. I need to speak and I'm gonna speak, no matter who likes what I say and no matter who's bothered by what I say.

Sanders Sides started in October 2016, but it didn't get truly big until 2017. And 2017 was "Fander year", it was the year Thomas was most prolific and released the highest amount of work: the bulk of season 1 and a big chunk of season 2 of Sanders Sides, and to that we have to add the first episode of Cartoon Therapy, the last few Vines before it was shut down and a production of shorts comparable of his big years on Vine, and to that we add the vlogs, the music, his big projects like Bizardvaark, etc. And back then at the beginning it was Thomas alone, Joan and Talyn joined around February, March, and it was only the three of them the rest of the year and part of 2018. They worked their asses off for these months, to the point that all the three of them with no exception ended up getting sick. Joan even had to go through hospital and Talyn was eventually forced to retire altogether because of the complications stress caused in his Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome. Not to mention that Thomas and the others spent literal sleepless nights editing Sanders Sides, the record being 36 consecutive hours of editing without sleep so that he could release a Sanders Sides episode faster (I think it was Why Do We Get Out of Bed in the Morning). I don't know if some people here know it, but Thomas has confessed to be a little bit workaholic, and we all know he's a perfectionist in his work, he will only release what he considers is the best for him when it's ready, nothing more nothing less.

There's people that, sure, have praised Thomas beyond what is considered healthy and that have been assholes with other people who had constructive criticisms (and not all criticism has been constructive), but certainly, specially on Tumblr, there's people who don't know the meaning of the word "fair judgment" and vent all their personal frustrations onto Thomas like he was responsible of all evils in the world. If excessive positivity is toxic, excessive negativity is toxic too, and also damaging, not to mention potencially a crime of libel if they go too far and start damaging his reputation and good name with lies. I'm still seeing people talking about the animator thing like they know first person what happened, saying happily that Thomas "didn't pay the animators", like it was something true and a fact. The animators did not even get to a unified unique conclusion about anything. Some of the animators got mad and left the fandom immediately, others stayed to literally bitch around and criticize (and some caused more harm in the process than anything they were accusing Thomas and team of doing)... while other animators remain in good terms with Thomas and still follow him with the same passion, and also there are animators that called out other animators for their toxicity while the work was in progress. It's time to set things clear: the animators were paid what they signed in their contracts, they said that and they recognized that without exception. It was their own responsibility to read such contracts and investigate the internet and what is considered a good amount of payment, they should have done that beforehand and not sign if they didn't agree, because once they signed, they're bound and they have no right to complain because they agreed to that salary and it looked okay for them before signing, otherwise they wouldn't have, that's something even some animators said. So please, stop using that to spread hatred on Thomas. Not even the whole bunch of the animators supports you on this, and clearly if you weren't there you have no word to say. Officially, a portion of the animators spoke to the team, and ammended things privately, that was what was published and that is where it should have ended five years ago. So the rest of the world should just shut up about it. This is not and should not be treated as a reality show because it has nothing public at all. This is something private between the animators and the team, and third persons should not use it as an excuse to spread hoaxes and hatred against the team. Stop it already and mind your own business.

That was one thing I wanted to let out, but the other thing is about the people complaining, and complaining, and complaining about how they don't get the content THEY want faster. I'm talking about those who think Thomas should do Sanders Sides and nothing else, because "it's what Patrons pay for", "it's his biggest source of income", "blah, blah, blah"... I am a Patron, and I know what I signed for when I joined Patron: "more content, more frequently", nowhere in that sentence it is mentioned it would be Sanders Sides only, or even mainly and if anyone read that it's something they assumed on their own, not the reality and certainly not binding. We've gone through a drought of content because there was a pandemic, in case anyone didn't notice. But he's releasing more content now, in all platforms, so he's commiting to his promise about Patreon. My money is well spent and I won't let anyone say otherwise. Please, kindly refrain to speak in my name as a Patron, thank you. If any other feels differently and is on Patreon, he's always free to unsubscribe when he wants, but don't repeat the lie that you "subscribed because he promised more Sanders Sides more frequently", because that's literally a falsehood. And speaking about Patreon and the "writer's tier", I don't know what you think the writer's room is about. The team only gives the writer light suggestions about what jokes could work well or things that could be featured specifically as ideas for the script, they don't get any power of decission in the plot and they don't even get to know the plot at all because the questions are vague. Don't give so much importance to the writer's room, because i's nothing of the other world, despite some people trying to make it a bigger issue than it is, usually people who are not even in the writer's room and therefore don't know what they're talking about, as usual. About the "Sanders Sides being his biggest source of income and therefore, he should stick to that"... well, sorry to break it to you, but have you been around his TikTok recently? He has recently released a Storytime short and a Misleading Compliment short, and the audience went literally crazy, and the new sketch videos are working like charm. Sanders Sides might be a huge success of his, but his short videos (the 10 seconds long and the 4 minutes long) are, and will always be, his biggest source of fame, they've always been since Vine. Remember, he has 10 million followers on TikTok, almost triple his YouTube follower count. And from these 10 million followers, not so many even know what Sanders Sides is because they didn't follow him on YouTube. You have to deal with the fact that Thomas could cancel Sanders Sides today, and he'd still have a very decent lifelihood thanks to the short videos. He makes Sanders Sides because he wants to and because it's a personal project of his. It's you who's in desperate need of Sanders Sides, not him, stop projecting.

Where am I going with this? It is okay to dislike Thomas, no one forces you to like him, and it's okay if his type of humor is not for you anymore. But you are not the center of the universe. There are still millions of people who enjoy what he makes whatever it is, and Thomas is not there to give you the content you want all the time like a video-making-machine. He's not going back to 2017-2018 when he literally destroyed his health with too much work. I know a lot of Fanders joined the fandom at that time, got used to that rythm of releases and miss it, but that time is not coming back, because above else, Thomas and his team are human beings, not slaves at your service and their mental an physical health is more important than your need for entertainment. If you can't accept that, you should seriously consider moving forward to other forms of entertainment that are more of your liking. And moving forward means moving forward completely, not going back and forth publishing insulting or condescending posts against Thomas and his team that are not gonna help you get content faster. Just because you are an "addict" to Sanders Sides (if you were just "invested", you wouldn't get to some extents I've seen some people get to) and didn't get served your daily dose of hyperfixation, that gives you no right to bitch around against the creators. It's your responsiblity to look for your own sources of entertainment wherever you can find them, but you have no right to demand anyone to make anything for you, because this is internet, not an a la carte restaurant. You have plenty of content created by hundreds of content creators anywhere, just choose it and consume it. But don't forget it's content creators who decide what, where and when they create anything, not the audience. The right of the audience is to like whatever or not, to follow whoever or not. It's not your business how he runs his business or his working schedules, because that's private. You only have a right to consume the final product, not to control every step of the production, and it's time some people start remembering this and pump the brakes with their attitude.

[pontifexscourt12]

So i just watched Scott Pilgrim Takes Off!

and what better time to make my first big boy tumblr post then now. Cause i got big boy feelings over it and the general reception to scott pilgrim ive seen online.

Scott isnt that bad of a guy, the internet seems to think he is truly horrible and the new show seems to only cement that as a poor look on his character

I think everyone in the comic hurts people and act like an asshole to others needlessly, Scott being no different.

but what i think is different is that scott is a fucking oblivious idiot, and truly thats said with love, but he is the most obtuse man written.

All the horrible stuff he is accused of comes from people looking at his treatment of Ramona and Knives, and ill get to the ramona stuff in a second but lets get into knives.

So them "dating" is gross and weird, even if its really just knives obsessing with him and scott enjoying the attention. still not great man but scott obsesses over ramona instantly and thats not great either.

With the knives stuff it seems like people think that he never breaks it off, which he does, knives just reacts poorly since to her, its him being stolen rather then him being a dick.

Now i love ramona, truly the comic and movie version are great but they pale in comparison to her in the show since she becomes the protagonist.

And its awesome and fulfilling to watch he be the obsessive one to scott, a guy she new for one date and made out with a bit, then suddenly devotes all of her time looking for him

truly scotts game must be mythical in nature to do that to a woman like her, but on a bigger point the show also focuses more on her toxic traits and explicitly points out scotts more positive traits, her tendency to run from love and his unwillingness to give up on it.

I completely get why old scott went insane, going through all the comic stuff we see him go through just to have her run from him too, thats crushing. Maybe not crushing to the " invent time travel and then became a akuma-esque villain" extent ,but crushing nonetheless. When ramona ask if maybe he was right i was feeling really down , i thought they werent gonna end up together and it might end sweet but not the way i had hoped. but then

the savior

even older ramona

The best scene of any show ive seen recently, Both ramonas realizing that

1.They love both scotts, even if ones naive idiot and the other is batshit fucking insane(love works mysteriously )

and

2. You gotta stop running from what you love

AND THEY KISS,THEY BREAK THE ANTI KISS BARRIER AND SHE SAYS HES HER TRUE LOVE.

lordy lou hallelujah my heart grew 3 sizes that moment, im a sucker for true love

they both confront the inherent shittiness of each other and come out the other side, with better world and relationship.

God what good show

fucking sparks baby

Im sorry for anyone who had the horrible idea to read this long incoherent post about my love for these two assholes and this phenomenal franchise and show.

but its done now get outta here

[phantomram-b00]

Okay so I’m joining solitary of the strike curtesy to Bisan from 21st to 28th for Palestine as they are actively in need of our help, i advice all to do the same. But I see an alerting thing that I need to address rn. To spread awareness and to make sure my mutuals/followers don’t fall victim into this.

So there even donation scams going around this app, such as:

I’ve saw two more of these, one of me was posing as a Palestinian Mother with two kids whilst the other claimed to need money for their lungs. Now I wish I had these screenshots to prove my claims but at the time I wasn’t sure if I was going crazy or was the only one having this gut feeling. But today, I realize this has been an alarming thing. This just happen to me, and I’m finding out, this is how they’ll get you:

Typically, they’re use your AMA to ask for donation, whether it on their animal, children, etc that require their donation usually by PayPal. Another is that, they’ll randomly follow you and immediately use the AMA to try to get you to either donate to them or signal boost their donation. Usually their story will be a copy paste as it more than just one. This situation is truly worse than p*rnbots. And frankly it absolutely disgusting.

If you want more proof other than the proof I just showed above, go search on Donation Scam and you’ll see many of these scammers. Here are one I can provide as there more than one incident where this happen:

Now to try to prevent this from happening I will link also a blog that goes in depth on how to prevent something like this from happen to you ghost pals or your mutuals or followers so they don’t fall victim into this:

What can I tell you, my mutuals and followers is that, please report them and block them is this does happen to you.

“But what if they’re being truthful”

I wish I can tell you, but the sad truth, it can be tricky because it the internet, as much as it a place to connect, it can also be a place to deceive you. So the best advice as I can tell you is be on your P’s and Q’s. Because years ago I was scammed and hacked for trusting a source I thought was factual. So I don’t want that to happen to you Ghostly Pals. And for my mutuals/friends, please be careful. 🩶 but I do have an advice, save their photo and run it by a photo finder I personally use TinEye and see if the image have been posted anyway, but if you have another you prefer even better:

Originally I was gonna make a post about boundary regarding the AMA but now that I see this have been a new scam running rampant on tumblr, I can’t keep my mouth shut about this and I need to let this be known. But I will still say, please only use my AMA for asking questions or telling me things whether it’s Good omens related or whatever. Please don’t use it to ask for donations like what these scammers are doing. I hope this doesn’t make me sound like an asshole but I just want to be safe. Until then please spread this around, make this known. Please.

I will like to thank the people whom I’ve linked as if it weren’t for them, I wouldn’t have known that this was an ongoing problem so I advice you look at the links and listen to them as your speading awareness.

[enniewritesathing]

🗣️discussion post 🗣️

let's talk about what happened :D

underneath the read more bc of spoilers for the update (obviously) and length, me rambling, some behind the scenes things...

First off -- this is took so long for me to work on. It was what, a 4 month gap? Usually it's not more than a month but... Things happened and my brain being generally an asshole. We're working on that. What really spurned me to get make the update? I got new internet and holy shit, everything's so fast. Went from DSL to 5G internet (which me being in the sticks, being surrounded by 3 towers = all the speed). Which is great because I added gifs and I need that upload speed or else it would've taken forever.

I didn't get the idea of making gifs until about halfway through the update when @pink-chevalier suggested I make some/experiment with them. I can also combine 2 or more pics for transitions/actions so I'd have room for shots. Also making use of Photomosh Pro...

anyway let's get on with what happened (in no order):

Hey. Charles? He may be unhinged. Just a little bit.

Daniel's very interesting that he's trying to divorce himself from everything, much less the trial and Charles was right to call him out. Real pot = kettle energy. If you think about it, he's damn near the level of responsible that Charles has with handling needles/syringes, he's way less unhinged about it. It's more of a reluctant participant but not really.

I mean, he punched The Werewolf with one when he attacked Jordan.

Speaking of needles, for some reason I looked up how to do an injection and turns out there are different ways! In this case, the needle has to get into muscle (and the heart being a muscle itself), Daniel has to angle it 90 degrees. In the Incident, it was at a weird angle (and at the time I didn't know how to put accessories in stigmata.)

And ofc, it had to go down to the stopping point. Why no, that's not anything.

I made so many swatches of the vitals. There's like 50. They do look nice on the bigger screen. Truly enhances everything way better. Like I said previously, I did what I could with what I had.

The Werewolf dropping the fact that John was the one in control and not him during this segment of the trial. John's the one getting tortured.

The door is actually The Werewolf's door! This is the first time he's done it. To this day, he doesn't quite have a handle on summoning doors. It makes sense that it's simple, but because he wasn't in control per se, the knob was useless.

John's expression on seeing The Werewolf glaring down at him? The Werewolf's glare??

Mark's absence because he won Rock Paper Scissors. We'll get to him later.

John freaked out by the amount of blood in the lab. He's got a stronger stomach than I thought but I think it's because he's a bit used to blood when he fights. Not that much, but, an amount. It happens.

That said... you think The Werewolf might be holding back on that? Do you think it's actually messier than that?

First the hospital bed surrounded by flowers, and now the exam table (?)... what's with that?

And what's up with John...? Does he remember more than he lets on? Or is he hiding under the guise of medicinal amnesia? It's like he could be in denial or something. 🤔🤔🤔

The Werewolf says he'll talk about that later. I have a feeling that's not gonna be pretty.

The Werewolf admitting that everything was against him, that there was a chance of him dying. He didn't know if whatever he had in mind was going to work.

The shots during Charles' and Daniel's conversation?? Getting it together and working on it took like a month bc it's a Biggie/Important story post. That said, as much as I hate Charles, I enjoyed writing his dialogue and perhaps, in general. He's just really fascinating!

I actually have no idea what he sounds like. I think I've said it's reedy, but idk?

This mfer really did 🫵.

I love how John's hair has been touched twice in this update. It is pretty soft.

I would like to give a shoutout to the music genre Witch House.

The file name I gave John during the conversation was "go king, give us nothing.blend".

This isn't quite mentioned but ever since The Werewolf made his promise, it was made sure that he wouldn't move a millimeter. It's also why his healing ability has started to erode over time, it's that strong. His senses are shut out -- as well as not being able to see, he can't hear (mostly) and he can't smell so he can't sus out who's who.

...that and I thought the visual was neat when I put it together. Very experiment-y.

I would never fault John for being terrified of needles.

I wasn't able to do this visually right last time because I didn't have the CC for it (or the ceiling update), but I love how the shots of The Werewolf being in The Void came out. Lot of shots of him being far off and tiny... only used a few though. It really drives home what is isolation to him.

He was going to have his wrists chained (or chained in general) but I thought eh, that's a bit too much and it didn't really work with what I had in mind. (And I was lazy.)

I made the decision of changing John's/The Werewolf's eyes from 'blank' to white... they both do hit, but white's more of pointing out true unconsciousness, if you get my meaning. It's also more spookier... he'll go back and forth with it.

The gifs with John getting to the door, I messed around with in Photomosh. Specifically, it's Smear and I adjusted it to where it looks like he's breathing fast.

This is probably one of my fav shots in the story (so far). It's foreboding. Sinister even. I could go on.

Oh! Getting into the lab door was a bit of a pain in making it. I don't know how to uh edit objects, so what I had to do was have The Werewolf in the open pose while John walked in/out and I had to capture before the doors closed.

You may notice that there was a huge button on the side of it. The Werewolf wasn't exactly aware of it at the time. Not like he would've been able to get out. That shit is super secure, trouble getting in OR out.

questions? comments? concerns? speculation? anything?

if you made it all the way though, congrats! here's a WIP:

I'm sure nothing bad is happening there.

:)

[1moreoffkeyanthem]

I want to quit a03 and just delete all my current fanfictions, i haven’t updated any of them in months. I’m tired lol. The main reason why is I haven’t been getting a lot of interactions on my recent stuff and Ik that’s not the point of writing fanfics but idk it’s a nice from motivation. I’m an attention whore, sue me.

What i’m asking i guess is how do u stay motivated??? I have a lot of ideas for things but no drive to make them a reality.

(You probably can tell who i am from this lol but its kinda embarrassing so i wanted to keep it anon)

Oh dude I absolutely get it, for real. While we ultimately write for ourselves, a lack of engagement is REALLY discouraging! I’ve said before that I went through a REAL mental struggle writing The Webs In The Rafters specifically, and that still stands. I had a lot of super nice commenters, and that helped a lot, but it was so, so, sucky to see no engagement other than the same six people. As grateful as I was for them, I really wanted more interaction. I’d see the comment count go up, but no new kudos, and I’d feel like I was failing.

I almost dropped that fic. The only reason I didn’t was my dearest boxwinebaddie regularly doing cartwheels in the comments and messaging me about the story. Encouragement from an author you admire helps SO MUCH and I want to be that person to someone someday!!! The community of ao3 can be toxic, for sure, but it’s so kickass to see the same handful of people in someone’s comms every time you read something from a certain writer!

And man, I am absolutely an attention whore. I thrive on attention. I may be an agoraphobic asshole with no friends other than my partner irl and I may literally panic so bad that I faint when I get spoken to, but we are HUMAN!!! Validation is fucking NICE!!! Being a person sucks absolute ass and confirmation that we’re doing something right helps a lot!

The only advice I have on staying motivated: I’m just fuckin insane. And I’ve said before that the ONLY reason I started writing was bc I had an extremely specific set of tags I wanted to see. I wanted to see more style injury recovery and at the time, a lot of the style fics out there were literally just boring high school aus or Stan being suicidal and I was like helll no let’s switch it up! So I assumed my mission of renovating that ship tag. I wanted sot style h/c with an ungodly amount of comfort? I was gonna have to write it. And that expanded to all aus. I developed the OrangeJuiceVerse specifically with the message of healing as the central theme. And it means so much to me. What I’m getting at is that your work really does have to have something there that’s important to you. If it’s just all random drama with no reconciliation, it’ll be really draining on you and fall flat in your mentality surrounding it.

Another thing is: if you don’t feel like updating, DONT! It’s fanfiction. It’s something you’re putting on the Internet for free. If you aren’t 100% happy with a chapter, there is no obligation to post it! Also, if you aren’t feeling up to working on a wip, mentally or physically, you don’t have to! Come back to it when you are!

On obligation, something I struggle with is my own self imposed habit of daily updates on multichapters. I usually go really wild when I start a new au, and I’ll write for it every day. But for instance, right now, it’s been a couple since I’ve posted a new chap on In The Truly Gruesome. And I have felt some guilt about that, bc I’ve sort of garnered this reputation as someone who updates frequently on multichaps, but I haven’t been feeling so great, so writing isn’t my top priority. A couple lines here and there are what I can manage, and that’s okay! Again, it’s fanfiction. Ultimately, it matters to us as the author, the story can mean the world to us, but we shouldn’t feel obligated to update, because above all we are PEOPLE with LIVES!!!

It’s also important to remember not to treat ao3 as social media. Yes it’s kickass to form a community of like minded authors who all support each others stuff, but it isn’t something that should be expected. And I CANNOT stress enough how important it is not to feel obligated to work on something just bc someone wants you too. I’m a hypocrite, yeah, considering I had no intention of continuing my TFBW oneshot “We Did It We Are A Good Team” until I had someone commenting on my unrelated works asking for a second chapter. I don’t regret writing ch 2, btw, like im really happy with it, but I did cave under pressure to some degree. And that’s not something we should do when writing. Write for YOURSELF and (unless you’re doing an ask book or something) NO ONE ELSE!!!

That’s what I got my dude. If you feel strongly about what you’re writing, by all means write it. If you don’t, don’t feel obligated. I hope this helped!

[cresent971]

A man with a really bright future ahead of him I still don't get why people still treat this man like absolute crap is it really worth ruining someone's life over stupid sh!t if people are this dumb and ignorant they need to be looking in the mirror before trying to be a dumbass on the internet michael jackson did not deserve this nightmare at all if people are gonna continue this crap I'm not dealing with this anymore if people are going to be assholes towards this man they deserved to ripped into this is not going to continue to keep happening anymore if people are this vile I'm not dealing with their twisted ways anymore I am fed up already this entire borage is not amusing anymore this is getting played out real fast don't nobody want to deal with this anymore people are always finding ways to ruin someone's life and watch them suffer severely I'm not about to deal with this anymore if people wanna continue this whole entire process i will not be taking any part in this predicyiment at all this is immature and childish this is disrespectful as well I don't know what this man has done to be the center of being bullied and other Digusting things this is pathetic and uncalled for i do not want to be dragged into this madness anymore I am sick and tired of this mess already it's not funny anymore I am absolutely fed up with this bs already this has gotten out of hand for the dumbest reasons possible I don't need some knucklehead dragging me into this disaster do not bring me in that situation at all i do not have the patience nor desire to be dealing with this all over again this absolutely ridiculous and I thought that this whole entire barrade was over why am I not surprised that this is happening again I'm not dealing with this nightmare at all I'm getting tired of people dragging me into these things and making me do all of the speaking and typing in general I'm not anyone's personal assistant or their personal type writer do that crap on your own time I do not have the patience to be anyone's personal type writing assistant i am done with this entire snoozefest this is pointless and truly embarrassing I am no one's personal translator that wants to translate in English and be their personal type writer and other stuff go find some dumbass who will do that crap I'm not the one anymore I'm not anyone's personal assistant at all don't do that nonsense and except me to do everything to speak the truth about Michael Jackson I'm nobody's personal assistant this isn't funny anymore I'm getting tired of this madness already

[delicatecherrys]

is there a protocol on here to talk about “last reblog”?

i don’t wanna clog their post with my opposing view in their tags. i see their point, but i kinda disagree? i think it’s great to interpret media without caring about what the author meant, and we will always continue to do that even if the author comes outright and says they meant it the opposite way. (hell, is that not what we do with “canon divergent” fanfiction that explores characters reacting differently in a situation than they did when the author wrote them?)

but i don’t think it’s fair to dismiss authorial intent like that. art DOES become more (or less) meaningful if it was put together with thought & intent, rather than being the product of accident. i DO care if the author meant to portray love that was meant to read as queer, rather than accidentally (badly!) writing brotherly love. i’ll have my own interpretation, but i want to know what they were trying to say, if i can.

it sucks that we have to speculate. it sucks that heterosexuality is the default and we have to seek validation for our queer interpretations. but that IS reality.

and i do agree it takes away from art being subtle & dynamic, which is not a good thing, but i guess…i dunno. i don’t know what the solution is. but when we get continually harassed for our queer reading of a piece of media…

it’s not my business how other people interpret art, but the heteronormativity of the spaces we exist in means that being confident in my own reading of something is not enough. it means someone is gonna hold it over my head and laugh and be bigoted, because there isn’t “proof”. is it really so unbelievable that queer people are seeking that validation? or at the very least hoping not to see heteronormativity shoved into every work that can read as queer, giving ammo to every asshole out there to act like we’re delusional for reading queer subtext in a story?

idk what i’m saying, this has been bothering me given the increased harassment & homophobia i’ve personally experienced on twitter since 431 came out. i think it’s a bit dismissive to say “just be content with what you got and interpret it your way, why do you need proof/validation”.

(which we never did, at least i didn’t. all i was asking for was there to be a space left to interpret things in a queer way without an emphasis on your typical het ship. if there really was censorship involved & author’s hand was forced, i think 431 is the kindest way it could have happened for us queer folks. but it’s undeniable that it still fucking sucks.)

nobody follows me here so i don’t expect anyone to read/respond to this lol, just needed to rant. if you did read it, sorry, it probably didn’t make much sense.

if op of that post happens to see this (i really hope they don’t), this wasn’t an attack on you or your take, you make solid points, i just happen to disagree.

anyways. good job horikoshi on going from writing a flawed but nonetheless interesting trope subversion of your main female “love interest” type character, to burying your one explicitly queer character and having her love be used as a way to push a het ship & reducing your female lead’s arc to be all about love/all about the boy she loved, ALL in one chapter. himiko’s treatment in this manga is truly a slap on the face, and i’m not even a himiko stan. can’t imagine how her fans feel. and ochako doesn’t even make sense. even if this chapter was a product of censorship and forced by editors/publishers, there were many more tasteful ways to accomplish teasing the het romance than…whatever that was.

also apparently this volume is selling a tonne which could be for any number of reasons (bonus cards, promise of bonus content, final volume, vol 1 parallel nostalgia, etc) but given its success, it really does make me feel small in my discontent. at the end of the day, as loud as our corner of the internet may be, it’s not enough. 🥲

[konigsblog]

MY DARLING I VOTE FOR using the word cunny a lil EXTRA now because these entitled imbeciles dont like it :((

like what? gonna whine about it somemore? wah wah wah i dont like it and that means you cant do it!! like do you guys want apple juice or milk in your sippy cups? are you upset because you pooped your pants? does baby need to be changed?? toddlers complain and whine less than some of these anons i stg. we are ADULTS. its a WORD. if youre truly that offended by a five letter word i think maybe you should rethink getting on the internet in the first place. the block button is there for a reason. ORLA IS GIVING US HER WORK FOR FREE. this is not where you get to make demands and ffs dont act like any writers owe you anything. leave my girl alone and go touch grass PLEASE. you are not the most important person in the world, youre not special, despite what your parents told you champ!

orla everything you do is wonderful and perfect please never let these assholes take that from you. hope you have a lovely meal today and get some good rest :) drink water and buy yourself something pretty, you deserve it gf.

i'm so sorry for not being able to answer this, requests have been flooded and everything (around 180.. 😮‍💨)

but, i was going through request, and saw this and thought it would be a good thing to answer !!! thank you for your sweet words and understanding, that makes me so happy to see that people actually listen :'( you're such a sweet, kind soul and it makes me happy to know you're on my blog, thank you for being so helpful!!! 🌷🌟 i write because it's a hobby, cod is an interest i just love!! i love you grr :( 💐💐💐

if anyone's still confused, its not origin. it doesn't originate from lolicon, and i feel like people wouldn't know that it was used by lolicon writers unless they look at that stuff. i've heard it through tumblr and i've never heard of it ONLY being used by lolicon writers. if a lolicon creator turned around and starting using ‘pussy' do you think the entire world would stop using it just because a certain fandom uses it? they wouldn't, because the word doesn't associate with lolicon, its a popular word used and nothing more than a word.

[captainsophiestark]

Hey guys! So I haven't been on Tumblr like, at all for the past few weeks because of this ask I got:

I'm not gonna lie, I've been pretty much furious since I first read it, and so I decided to take a break from the internet while I worked through my feelings and decided how I wanted to respond to this. If you're reading this at all, please do me a favor and read all the way through this post. It's a little long, but it's also very very very important.

First of all, let's get one thing straight: I will NEVER consider using AI to write my stories or otherwise for about a thousand reasons, two of the big ones being respect for myself and my fellow creators, AND the fact that it "learns" to write stories and spits out responses based off of plagiarized work. Like mine, which was taken and fed into chatgpt without my consent. Using programs like this is not even remotely harmless, and I will never be one of the people putting shit into programs like chatgpt.

Additionally, this is illegal. Beyond the fact that it's ridiculously disrespectful of creators, under US copyright law, the elements of my writing that I created, including characters and scenarios, are my intellectual property. Taking my work and feeding it to the AI without my permission (and no one will EVER have my permission) is a violation of the law and also goes against Tumblr's terms of service.

If you are continuing to use, support, or otherwise feed the AI, seriously educate yourself and stop, or never fucking come near me again.

Right here is a link to a post that includes a legal disclaimer that I'll be putting with all my fics now making people aware that putting my work and my writing into AI programs is not only not okay, it is also illegal. I'm sharing it like this for anyone else who wants to use it too, to educate themselves on the law or otherwise. It's written by a legit lawyer and the sources are cited, so it's not just me screaming into the void.

I've been going back and forth for a while now on what the hell to do about this ask I got, because I absolutely love writing fic and sharing it with all of you. And it doesn't feel right to me that so many of my wonderful readers who have supported me for so long have to deal with the consequences of a few assholes. But I want to write professionally some day, and I am not okay with my voice, style, and words being fed into some machine to be plagiarized by both the people stealing my work and the people running and making money off of programs like chatgpt.

I debated for a while about taking down all my writing and just calling it a day, because as long as it's up I know that it's possible, despite my best efforts to protect my work, that people will still rip it off. However, I truly love writing fic and writing in general, and a big part of that has come from the incredible interactions that I've been able to have with people on here. There's something special about the feeling of sharing a story, and I will not let a minority of assholes ruin that for me or the people who choose to read my work and be good humans about it.

That said, I am going to take a little break from writing. I have no idea how short or long it might be, but right now I'm a little over it all, so I'm going to take a step back from requests and oneshots and everything else for right now. This is hitting in the middle of the Year of Themed Creation and it also came right before an event called Daniel Sousa Appreciation Week, so if you had requests or expectations for those events, I'm sorry. I hope you guys can understand where I'm coming from, and thank you for supporting me as much as you have.

I still plan to be online (I love Tumblr and fully believe it's the only useable social media), I just won't be posting my writing. Hopefully, it'll free up some time for me to do some reading and commenting instead, so I can support my fellow creators!

Tl;dr and a final ask for anyone who read all this: please, please, PLEASE don't feed the AI. Respect your content creators and recognize just how much of what the AI spits out is ripped off of the thoughts, ideas, and words of someone else, often without their permission. Fight for art and the people who make it.

[v1smokewife]

Who is this person - chapter five

On a quest to find love on a dating website, Sanji falls head over heels for a woman with an interest in...alternative relationships that sends him down a rabbit hole of completing tasks for a seemingly sadistic mistress. But what happens when she turns out to be more than what she seems?

Or

Zoro pretends to be a female on the internet to talk to Sanji and bad things happen.

Read on ao3

fanfic contains themes of bad bdsm practices, homophobia, manipulation and coercion. not a fluffy zosan fic. Proceed with caution.

A week had passed since things had started and Zoro was well and truly fucked.

He’d not stopped at fingering. No, that was just the beginning of how far things would go. Every single command that he had given. It was like having his own porn star on hand for all of his dirty fantasies.

The trouble with porn though is that once you start it goes downhill from there. What I mean by that is that you tend to start looking for worse and worse until you’ve reached the bottom of the barrel. The more and more this went on, the more Zoro began to see Sanji less and less as someone he knew personally and more like porn for his eyes. Oh yes, they would converse, and Sanji was a lot nicer to him this way, but Zoro looked forward to the little requests he would make and then what he would do next.

It was just the facts. There was no point in hiding it. He didn’t see Sanji as a person as much as he saw him as a source of entertainment now. A fact in which he was deeply ashamed of. A fact that kept him up at night and made him hate himself even more. Never in his life has he ever felt this vile towards a person. Yet, when he goes into the photos section of his phone, the little regard he had for him his shown by the gallery of filth.

He was obsessed with Sanji. This much was clear, and it was only ever going to get worse and worse as the days dragged on.

Zoro’s eyes were currently drawn to his phone despite the fact that Luffy was standing at the kitchen counter. They were both in Zoro’s apartment currently. Luffy was no where near him, but Zoro was still apprehensive. Sanji had sent ‘Zoey’ more videos. One’s that were in a public changing room. He had managed to get him onboard with sending more videos despite giving very little in return. Zoro was too busy looking at the thumbnail which had Sanji perfectly framed like a goddamn perfect cinematographer would.

“Hey, do you want to go to the Baratie tonight?”

Through his thoughts, Luffy’s carefree and happy voice sounded through the depth of his despair. Like sunshine through a storm. Luffy was none the wiser to anything that had been going on. How could he be? Even though they spent every day together, Luffy never pried into anything. That was why Zoro enjoyed his company. Much more so over Nami…who has been weird with him ever since. Although, he could understand her reasoning but, in her mind, it should be over. Or maybe she knows something more than what she is letting on.

But even then, he’s barely seen her. How could she know?

“Not particularly,” Zoro didn’t mean that. There was an excitement bubbling up in his stomach. A feeling he got whenever he thought about the fact, he would see Sanji as himself. It was a strange feeling. It was like being hidden in plain sight. All it would take was a gesture to his phone and then Sanji would know what’s been going on. Would he believe him? Or would he be in that much denial that he’s possibly being played for a fool by someone he hates.

“Awh come on. Shanks ain’t gonna be here tonight. I’m going to be so bored on my own and I know that Sanji is working,”

“That’s exactly why,” Zoro crossed his arms in feigned indifference. An indifference that wasn’t correct or true in the slightest.

“I don’t understand why you hate him anyway,” Luffy said with the sincerest innocence that rivalled his own dark brewing thoughts, “He’s a good cook. What more could you want in a friend?”

“He’s an asshole. There’s more to being a good friend than being a good cook,” Zoro responded rather dismissively.

“Oh, I know that. It’s not like you or Nami can cook,” If that came from anyone else, Zoro might have taken it as shade, but it was far from shade. It was just a fact in Luffy’s eyes, “He’s never been an asshole to me,”

“I’m happy for you,” Why did that sound a lot meaner than it meant to be. Zoro shook it off and continued, “Fine. We’ll go to the Baratie tonight,”

“I knew you’d come around,” Luffy threw his fist into the air, nearly knocking himself into the counter in front of them, “I already have Nami onboard too,”

Oh goodie. Nami. Wonderful.

“That’s fine with me,” Zoro responded with more indifference, even if it wasn’t particularly true. He could be indifferent all he wanted but his mind was on other things. Like his current plan. His mind has been turning about what he wanted to do next with Sanji. Luffy continued to talk about something. Normally the conversations tended to be about what him and Shanks had been up to recently (Shanks was something of an adoptive father…kinda) or what Luffy had been doing with any a number of his friends.

See, he knew this had to come to an end. He knew just as well as anyone that he couldn’t keep his up for too long. He knew this moment of joy had an expiration date and well, he had to bring this into real life. He knew this because every day, Sanji asked Zoey if they could meet up and Zoey gave him excuse after excuse on why they couldn’t. It wasn’t the right time or Zoey couldn’t make the commitment. He didn’t know if Sanji was stupid or desperate to make things work with her but he accepted her excuses…well, until they next day when he’d ask again.

Although Zoro through him dumb and pathetic for being so accepting of every lame excuse no matter how silly they probably all seemed, he admired the determination to ask every single day of the week the burning question. When would they meet?

Never. Because Zoro had a plan to put Sanji in his lap before Sanji even figures it out.

And it starts with a simple question. One that Zoro had typed out on the phone. No hello, no greetings or small talk. Right into the meat and potatoes. While Luffy was busy regaling some cook and awesome tale that he had been doing with Shanks, Zoro half listened and then typed out onto his phone.

Z: I’ve been meaning to ask.

Z: Have you ever thought about…exploring sexuality a little?

He pressed send on the message then looked up at Luffy who was currently helping himself to whatever food was in the cupboards. Zoro could only look up and speak.

“I’m going to the bathroom,”

Luffy didn’t look at him and just raised his hand with a thumbs up in his direction, “Have fun!”

Oh, he will.

Zoro got up and left Luffy to his own devices in the kitchen before going into the bathroom where he leaned up against the sink. Immediately, his fingers were reaching for that video in the messages before Zoro played it. He was delightful over the sight. A partially naked Sanji sitting on the floor of a changing room. His fingers slick with lube as they press and prod against that tight rim.

He wanted desperately to feel that rim stretched around his cock so badly. Wanted it…craved it. All Zoro wanted was to feel Sanji come apart underneath him. He didn’t even like Sanji in a romantic sense but seeing him like this was driving him absolutely insane. It was like an obsession he couldn’t break away from or a spell because he was totally hypnotised by the way that he moved.

The way his long fingers slipped inside that tight hole and the way that Sanji’s head always learned back in pleasure as he did it. The way he moved his fingers in and out of himself. It was the kind of way someone who is so unsure but gets lost in it either way.

The moans though…the moans were music to his ears and the more he heard them, the more he became addicted to them.

Fuck it, he couldn’t last much longer. He used a hand to get himself out of his pants so he could wrap his fingers around his cock. It felt like the release he really truly needed. If he could get his plan to work, maybe…just maybe he could get to feel that tight hole around his cock. Even if it’s just once…even if it’s once and then that’s it. He could live with it being a once off thing but he needed it desperately.

“Ah- Master-!”

Sanji’s voice in the video brought him out of his thoughts. In Zoro’s mind, he was trying desperately to imagine that his hand is some part of Sanji’s body…his hole or his mouth…he doesn’t know what he would prefer at this point.

“That’s it…” Zoro grunted, as if he was really there, “Take it…take it you slut,”

He couldn’t help it. The way the blonde pissed him off whenever he seen him, he would die on the spot for the privilege to call Sanji a degrading nickname like that.

He didn’t last much longer. Shortly after he watched Sanji come over his waist and it made Zoro want to do the same. In a hypothetical situation where he’s fucking Sanji, he would love nothing more than to cum on his beautiful face or on his waist…but then again, he couldn’t imagine not cumming inside that perfect ass.

Zoro finished with a groan, pressing his hips and rutting into his own hand as he came into them. He continued to stroke until he was over it and he finished the video. Every video Sanji sent was wonderful. For being inexperienced, the blonde really knows how to send a video. Now, time to try and go outside. Maybe tonight, he’d see Sanji.

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“Sanji!” Luffy banged on the door of the Baratie that night. The three of them were standing in the rain. Nami had joined them, and it did nothing to settle Zoro at all. What was worse was Sanji had yet to reply. It was rather unusual as even during his busiest days he normally would reply.

Then again, knowing Sanji, he’s probably taken offence to this question. It was going to take a hard sell for Zoey to convince Sanji to try men. Sanji is very reluctant to do anything with men in the best of days so this would be something that would take a hard sell, but Zoro thought it was perhaps possible.

If he could promise meeting Zoey at the same time…then perhaps…

“Hey hey I’m coming,”

Out emerged Sanji, looking rather disgruntled. Either paperwork got him down or annoyance from Luffy banging on the door one or more times. Using a key, he opened the door and he nearly had to hold his hand out to stop Luffy from coming inside, “What have I told you? If Zeff finds out…”

“Oh, he’s not gonna find out. Come on, let me in!” Luffy basically pushed his way past Sanji and headed straight to the kitchen. The strength of that boy. Nami was next, batting her eyes at Sanji and ducking under his arm which Sanji folded easily under. Of course, he would let Nami through. However, when Zoro popped his head through, Sanji nearly slammed the door straight at him, but it was lucky that Zoro caught the door with his hands.

“Nice try,” Zoro said rather smugly. One would assume that Zoro was being smug because he caught the door but seeing Sanji here right now, he could practically hear the moaning and begging in his ears. The flushed expression on his face…he could see if like a shadow. Oh, how Zoro wished he could reveal his little secret at Sanji sometimes…how he could turn that face of disgust into horror at all the acts of pleasure he’s unseeingly done for Zoro’s eyes. How he wished that he could reveal it now?

Christ. Now he really wanted to jack himself off thinking about him. More importantly, thoughts of jacking off on his face flooded his brain so Zoro turned around and headed to the bar.

He would ruin his own plans and he didn’t want to do that. Not here anyway. Instead, he just pushed past the blonde who mumbled something under his breath.

“You talk a lot of shit for someone who I could easily beat the shit out of right now,”

Sanji’s eyebrows knitted together, “Yeah yeah. Just shut the fuck up and get inside. I’m only tolerating you because Luffy keeps you around,”

There was only a laugh that came out of Zoro as he took up his usual space, near the bar where he would accept his one free beer minimum that Sanji graciously allowed to him. At first, it was only Nami that was allowed one drink and then Zoro complained loud enough that he got the drink too…so he graciously accepted his one beer.

Now, all he had to wonder was if Sanji was annoyed at Zoey for asking such a question.

“So! Sanji,” Nami’s voice rang through before Sanji could make his way back to the office, “How was your date yesterday?”

Wait, how did Nami know?

“Ah!” There was a little bit of a flush on the blonde’s face. Zoro leaned back and recalled the events. If by ‘date’ Nami meant he was given a task to take some very compromising pictures in a changing room then sure, that was a date, “I…Yes, it went well. Thank you Nami. I think it’s getting serious,”

Zoro could only lean back. Really? Getting serious? Is that the impression Sanji got?

He really had to wonder what planet the blonde was on to think that this was a serious relationship. Zoro only had to wonder what made him think that in his head right now.

“See, I told you. Plenty of fish in the sea,” Nami seemed smug. Almost too smug for Zoro’s liking. It felt like she knew something that he didn’t…or more likely to be the case…what Sanji didn’t know, “You didn’t need Zoey anyway,”

“Ah! Yeah…”

Zoro could see that Sanji was uncomfortable and to be honest, Zoro was feeling pissed off at Nami for bringing it up. Did he have a reason to be pissed off? No, because he hadn’t learned his leason but Nami didn’t know that. Nami was just doing it to be petty. That much was clear to him right now.

“I’m surprised a girl has even tolerated you…” Zoro couldn’t help himself in the middle of all this awkwardness that he was currently feeling right now with Nami’s piss poor attitude, “Must have really fucking shitty standards,”

“You’re just jealous because no one would probably go near you in a million years,” Sanji was quick to shoot back with almost a Jekyll and Hyde transformation when it came from going from being all cute and blushing to Nami to being… well a dickhead to Zoro. Typical. Nothing every really changes here.

“I’m not fucking jealous of you scourging the internet for a girlfriend. It’s fucking pathetic, curly,” Zoro tilted his head back and gestured vaguely before taking a sip of his lukewarm beer, “I could get someone, but it wouldn’t be on the fucking internet, that’s for sure,”

“Zoro,” Nami’s voice spoke before Sanji could even retaliate, “Can you both just get along for a change?”

“When he stops being a fucking asshole,” Zoro slinked back with his beer. Sanji said something along the lines of “says you” before storming off into the back. Zoro doesn’t say anything for a moment before he looks over at Nami.

“Okay…what was all that about?”

And as usual, Nami feigns innocence, “What is what about?”

“You know…that,” Zoro said, before leaning back up instead, “If you honestly think I’m getting all jealous about Sanji having a girlfriend then you need to think again,”

“I don’t think you’re jealous…” Nami muttered but Zoro knew there was still something behind it and he was going to say something.

“What is your fucking problem?” Zoro placed the beer down. It was serious time. Time for a serious chat, “Ever since you found out, you’ve been on my back. Can’t you just move on,”

Oh. That was it. Nami turned and glared at him, “I just can’t believe you won’t admit that you’re wrong. That’s my problem, Zoro. You did something so messed up to one of my friends and you honestly expect me to be cool with you,”

Oh Nami. If you only knew the contents of his phone’s memory or the things, he things about at night after finishing a conversation with Sanji. If only you knew… if you only knew how bad things had gotten since then. You would be absolutely mortified. You’d probably kill him. That’s what he wanted to avoid happening. He didn’t want Nami getting involved again.

“Yeah well, I did as you asked. Short of apologising, I don’t know what else you want me to actually do about it,” Zoro played it casual even if he was starting to get annoyed at the direction of the conversation. He kept thinking and hoping that Nami would just leave him to enjoy his beer, but this little thing had become a festering sore spot between them, and Zoro didn’t really know how to swat it away. Maybe Nami would keep at it until he found something out…which was not great…not great at all.

“You won’t admit you were in the wrong…that’s my issue,” She sighed. Zoro didn’t really know what to say to that seeing as he knew well and truly that he was in the wrong, but he really didn’t know what she wanted him to do about it while they were here. It seemed to be the end of the conversation and Zoro seemed to refuse to acknowledge it for a minute as he slinked back in his chair with his beer in hand…

LOGGING ON; S

Z: I’ve been meaning to ask.

Z: Have you ever thought about…exploring sexuality a little

How did one singular message send you into a whirlwind of emotions.

He had been staring at it for hours and he’s simply not really sure how he’s supposed to respond to it. He’s never really thought too deeply about this. He’s been comfortable for years being a straight man. In fact, he’s never even thought deeply about what it would be like to date a man. He’s never considered it.

However, Zoey is asking him and it’s likely to get him to do so. He’s not stupid. Rose tinted glasses yes, but Sanji can read between the lines of a conversation and know why she’s asking. He just doesn’t know how he feels.

Would he be…open to doing things with a man?

At first, he is thinking absolutely not but then the more and more he thinks about it, the more and more possibilities begin to open.

Okay well maybe not a long-term thing but what about a once off? Would be be so against it if Zoey was there? What if they had a threesome with another man? Would he really be against that?

One message had him questioning himself a little too much. In the office, he’s so behind on the work he’s supposed to be doing. He should have been almost done with cashing up but he’s barely started and all because he doesn’t know how he feels about Zoey is asking him.

Is she going to ask him to have sex with another man? Because he doesn’t know if he’s ready for that at all.

S: Sorry I didn’t respond earlier.

S: I don’t really know how I feel about that. I’ve never thought about men that way.

She was almost immediately back to him. It was like she must have been waiting at her phone for him to reply to her pressing question.

Z: Hmmm…

Z: What if I was there?

Z: If we had a threesome with another man, would you be open to that?

A threesome with another man doesn’t necessarily mean he has to interact with said man. He could always focus entirely on Zoey. Although, with the basis of the conversation, she’s looking for something entirely different.

S: Hmm... still not sure.

Z: Have you ever had thoughts about men?

Z: You don’t have to be afraid of telling me. I want to help you feel more comfortable with yourself.

S: I’m not sure.

S: Truthfully, I’ve never thought too deeply about it.

Z: I understand where you are coming from.

Z: I’d never make you do something that you don’t want.

Z: But I think it would be good for you to try and open your mind to other avenues of pleasure.

Z: I would like to help you with that.

The thing was that the way that Zoey spoke about it as if it was a big life changing experience. Well, for Sanji, it probably would be somewhat life changing as he’s never ever even considered this in the past.

He doesn’t even like men in a friendly way. He tried to think of he had male friends. Okay, Luffy but Luffy was different. Luffy was in general a good person. Most men are not good people. If his own family…

No, he’d rather not think about that. His biological father and brothers can rot wherever they are now. He’s lucky now. He has a much better father figure. Zeff was not like most men he’s met either. Sure, Zeff was an asshole when he wanted to be but he really owed it to Zeff for him still being alive.

There was Zoro…but Sanji didn’t want to think about him. Zoro was a pain in the ass. He didn’t dislike Zoro by any means. No, there was a great deal of respect for Zoro but at the same time…goddamn Zoro was a fucking asshole too. The way he was probably sitting through in the bar, lapping up his one free drink like the bordering alcoholic he is whilst being smug about it…goddamn, not he was the LAST person Sanji would have sex with. Hell, if, for example, Sanji was feeling that way and wanted to try men out… then it wouldn’t be Zoro. Zoro was perhaps the last person he would have sex with. He wouldn’t even have sex with Zoro if they were the last two people on the planet…not that it would have any biological benefits because neither of them could have children but that wasn’t the point of this rant.

The point was that Sanji really needed to give this some thought.

S: Can I think about it?

Z: Of course.

Z: No stress.

Why did it feel like she was being awfully short with him now? He flat up had now forgotten with what he was doing now

S: … is everything okay?

He didn’t want to upset her. He really didn’t want to ruin what they had even if she was currently asking something totally out there.

Z: I’m fine.

Z: Just take your time thinking about it.

Z: I’m off.

Zoey is offline.

Sanji could feel the sting of these words as she made her internet exit out. A feeling not too different from a tight stabbing anxiety festered in his chest as he watched the screen as if she would jump back and by like ‘sike just kidding lmao’ but she was truly offline now and truly annoyed with him. He couldn’t see her…but he knew she was.

“Fuck sake...”

Should he have just gone with what she was asking him?

Sanji decided he had to high tail it out of here. He quickly did a shoddy job of cashing up and getting all the paperwork done with. His head was just filled with it now. Filled with regret and a smidge of anxiety that maybe he should have just went along with it. She had been so good to him all week…why would he do something to upset her? Yeah, it was because of him being uncomfortable but he was supposed to be a man about the whole thing.

He shoved his phone in his pocket before going out to see Nami, Luffy and Zoro in the bar. For some reason, the joy that Sanji would feel seeing his friends was not there. The annoyance at himself for ruining his thing with Zoey was there.

“Hey!” Luffy said, almost bounding over with excitement, “The food that you left? Incredible. Truly wonderful. Pity there wasn’t more…I almost went into the big fridge and- “

“You better not have!” Sanji’s voice came sharper than it normally would which was visible in Luffy’s face. Sanji quickly realised that he wasn’t acting right and coughed, “I…uh, have a headache. I won’t be hanging around,” He tried to manage a smile although it clearly wasn’t real, “Sorry,”

Luffy’s face relaxed and a smile came onto his face, “Hey, don’t sweat it. I’ll find somewhere else to get good food don’t worry,”

“Is everything okay?” Nami’s voice was a lot more concerned filled. She had noticed he didn’t seem as happy as he had earlier.

“I’m fine. Just a headache,” Sanji tried to brush it off. He didn’t want them to worry mainly because he didn’t want Nami to know he didn’t listen.

“Did your girlfriend dump you because you’re the headache?” It seemed completely uncalled for an unnecessary when Zoro piped in but confusingly enough, Zoro’s attitude completely changed too. To the unknowing eye, it was as if Sanji infected Zoro with his shitty mood because Zoro’s demeanour changed entirely. He was once relaxed looking but his words had a sharpness to them. He wasn’t relaxed at all.

Nami gave him a confused look. Where had this came from? She seemed to be the only one in the room that picked up that both Zoro and Sanji suddenly changed attitudes that almost mimicked each-others. Even Luffy looked at them both with confusion.

That was incredibly suspicious…especially on Zoro’s part.

“You got a fucking problem, shithead,” And of course… Sanji was already in a bad mood so both of them being in a bad mood. As Zoro was about to get up, Nami stood in the space between them both.

“Seriously guys, one night? One night where you both don’t fight, please,” Now she was becoming as equally pissed off at the pair of them. Zoro didn’t approach any further and didn’t say anything more, “Sanji, if you have a headache, that’s fine. Go home,” but she didn’t believe that. She’s now suspicious all over again.

“Right…sorry,” Sanji mumbled. Zoro didn’t say anything. No explanation as to why he suddenly jumped down Sanji’s throat. Nothing.

Once they were all through with, Sanji decided to lock up the shop and head to his apartment. It was there he finally collapsed into bed but the feeling he had wouldn’t go away. He felt guilty. Guilty about hesitating. Maybe he should have just gone with her idea when she brought it up… maybe if he truly cared…he would have done as she asked.

He decided to sleep on it. Maybe she would come back to him tomorrow.

Maybe.

[void-botanist]

i’d love to hear your answers for these for demon slayer actually too!

15. What's your favorite ship for this character? (Doesn't matter if it's canon or not.)

16. What's your least favorite ship for this character?

17. What's a ship for this character you don't hate but it's not your favorite that you're fine with?

From this ask game.

Aw man this is gonna be a little hard because while I love DS to death I haven't actually been involved much with the fandom (and my memory of anything before entertainment district & swordsmith village is hit and miss). So I'm using your post + various explorations on the internet to answer these and remind myself of stuff. This is truly what "[character name] all moments" videos are for lol

Also high key did not realize Sanemi is Genya's brother??? Kinda forgot about him tbh but I guess it checks out that he's sir stabs-a-lot

What is your favorite ship for this character? (Doesn’t matter if it’s canon or not)

Uzui x his wives - it's probably the most obvious choice but they're extremely sweet and I like them a lot???

Tanjiro & Zenitsu & Inosuke - you're right about this one: platonic do not separate!

Nezuko x Muichiro - my entire impression is "it's cute, I'm in".

I tried to shake out my shipless brain and come up with something for Senjuro because he is my boy but no luck. But I do love his friendship with Tanjiro so much.

Likewise Genya has such Energy but I don't know where to apply that in terms of shipping.

What's your least favorite ship for this character?

Rengoku x Akaza - you are also right about this one like. they've got nothing imo. this is not a chemistry situation no matter what Akaza does or says. not interested.

Shinobu x Mitsuri - the thing that gets me about these two is that Shinobu has a completely different variety of cheerfulness than Mitsuri, and Mitsuri has a different kind of anger. Not that it makes it impossible that they would make a decent couple but I don't see the point of connection there.

Zenitsu x Nezuko - I love Zenitsu but he gets on my nerves so quickly when he's making a big deal about Nezuko. The more I think about it the more this one annoys me even though I don't Hate it, because Nezuko is also part of the Squad - in a different way than Tanjiro, Inosuke, and Zenitsu, but still. In this case I don't like the idea of intrasquad shippery.

What's a ship for this character you don't hate but it's not your favorite that you're fine with?

Mitsuri x Obanai - I'm willing to give Obanai a chance based on the socks thing being cute. Otherwise he's kind of an asshole and if he continues being that way he can shove off.

Muichiro x Genya - I don't really See it but they at least have some measure of shared experience.

Tanjiro x Kanao - I agree with you that it is kind of boring. I think it could be more interesting, but I don't know. My vibe with Tanjiro is that either he's very aro or there just hasn't been anyone that's really brought that spark yet. They'd have to be pretty exceptional though considering how he treats everyone.

re: your list, I feel pretty neutral about Rengoku x Uzui and Giyu x Shinobu. If I see something good of them I would enjoy it but I don't care that much either way.