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spxllcxstxr · 1 day ago

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Jayce and Viktor Dating Someone with ADHD • Headcanon

(Gif not mine)

Request: Hiiii how are you? I love your stories so I was wondering if you could write more jayvik x reader but who has adhd? TYSMM -- anon and Your Jayvik + reader headcanons have me are giddy and are healing my soul. Is it possible to ask for a some headcanons with a reader who has ADHD and also forgets to eat because of it?? I hope your day is kind to you! -- anon

Warnings: gn!reader, reader has ADHD, mentions of food and eating/not eating, these are lowkey kinda short im so sorry lol

A.N: Disclaimer: I don't have ADHD but I have many friends that do and while ADHD presents itself differently for people, I tried to keep this a bit generalized, I hope that's ok!! If anything needs changing or needs to be deleted for being inaccurate or anything, just let me know! Hope you guys enjoy!!

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Jayce and Viktor are both very understanding people, so when you told them you had ADHD they didn’t have a problem with it. They are, however, problem solvers (they are inventors with the dream of making Piltover and Zaun better for the people), meaning they are very curious about your habits and how they can help. They don’t want to “cure” you, because there’s nothing to cure, but they want to understand how to reassure you and how to make living with ADHD easier on a day-to-day basis

If you’re someone who fidgets with things a lot, Jayce will happily pick up the task of making something that satisfies your need to occupy your hands and your thoughts. He loves being in the forge and he’ll gladly let you sit in there with him and listen to you describe what you would want. He’ll sit next to you, sketching out the design while you ramble about what textures are better than others or how weighty it should feel in your hand. Jayce honestly loves this little side project; not only does it let him work on something other than his research, but it also puts a smile on your face

If you like rambling for hours about your latest hyperfixation, Viktor is the best for that. He has a naturally curious mind and would love to learn something new. He especially likes it when your head is resting on his chest in the middle of the night. Viktor likes watching you move your hands as you talk excitably about the plant life in Ionia or the history of the Yordles. He doesn’t just listen—he’ll ask you questions or give you reading material he thinks you may like as well

Going to Council parties or even just walking through Piltover can really overwhelm you sometimes, either with all the noise or the texture of your clothing feeling off, so your partners are very attentive to your wellbeing. The three of you set up a codeword for anyone to use when someone needs or wants to leave. They try to make it something funny every time to hopefully ease the panic a little bit. Usually Jayce and Viktor are glued to either side of you hip, but in the off chance they have to roam around the room, the two of them will try to keep an eye on you. They will always reassure you that it's ok that they are leaving these sorts of events early (Viktor barely wants to go in the first place), and when you get home the three of you will do something to calm everyone down and get into comfortable clothes

Having ADHD, you tend to get distracted/forget to do certain things. This usually includes eating. Your partners never want to seem overbearing or like they're smothering you, so they will try to subtly remind you to eat/do certain things. Jayce likes writing you little notes and putting them in the apartment. Usually they have little hearts in the corners with some encouraging remark after "remember to eat!" Viktor will usually try to eat with you, so you won't feel alone while eating. He'll be making something and he'll set the table for either two or three and that just reminds you to actually sit down and eat what Viktor makes

Your partners are very patient and are always open to new ideas. if you want them to do something different or if something works really well, they would love to hear it. They absolutely will not be mad at all, they love you so much and all they want to do is help make things easier for you

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ganondoodle · 3 months ago

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i dont think i have the right to ask this, since i so rarely have the energy to reply, but .. i want my drive to draw art back and this awful depression gone (or at least made less bad..) so desperately that i will bear the shame of asking it anyway, just in the hopes of something getting that spark i had held onto for so long to light back up

though .. im not sure what i want to ask for, i guess .. anything? something you'd like to see me draw, a compliment, a question- whether zelda or oc related, a little totk rant of your own, a picture of your cat, a random fun fact-

#ganondoodles talks #i feel guilty just writing this #i feel like i do so little and ask for so much #too much #and the good ol 'you dont have the right to feel this miserable- theres people literally dying' is back ever so strong #i have barely been looking at anything online #idk why its gotten this bad now of all times #of course this is nothing you are requuired to do #i am not trying to put pressure on anyone #or make anyone feel bad #or responsible for me bad feeling #i just ... want out of this .... and dont seem to be able to do it myself #i am hoping all i need is just a little push to get me over the edge of fighting back again #i know therapy and/or meds would probably be better #but the former is basically impossible to get here- and i got bad experiences with it #and the latter would be a long process of things that cause me so much stress and im afraid it wont make anythign better #.............if our doctor would even be willing to get anything going #maybe this is all just headache sleep depreived wahteever thought sludge #.. im going to bed :U

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greyedian · 1 month ago

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MAN I'm seriously so sad about season 2. Bc I wish act 2 had the same emotional impact on me as it appears to have on so many others. But rn I'm just somewhere between unable to care and actively annoyed by some of those writing decisions. Seriously the more I think about it the less I like it.

#act 3 come through please 🙏#I don't think it can salvage some of the things I have contentions with but still... please...#don't ask me about the silco vander flashback with jinxs + vis mom #or the bizzare choice to do so much of the storytelling through this weird music video format they've got going on #completely stripping it of the weight these plot beats could've had if they were... normal scenes #and also missing the point of how the music was used in season 1 and what made it so effective #bc it was complementary to instead of replacing the storytelling #seriously don't ask me about these things I will spontaneously implode on the spot #whyyyyy would they recontextualize season 1 like this with that flashback #to me it kind of ruins the character dynamics and themes in s1. it just makes me so sad you have no idea #also what even are they doing with Jinx rn for real #aaarghhhh just... so many things that are making me scratch my head #also I'm so terribly sorry but I could not care less about Isha sorry lol #like i get that its sad conceptually but she was such a non-character that i struggle to feel impacted at all #same with sky tbh. i thought her role in s1 was alright but there is so much emotional weight put on her now #in terms of her relationship to Viktor but that was barely established so it's weird to have her around #and clearly you're supposed to care but they haven't given me much reason to #isha and sky were non-characters just there to die to further the development of other characters #they didn't really have anything going on on their own and that's just a type of character and plot device that does nothing for me #also i thought the war between zaun and piltover + internal struggles in zaun bc silcos gone would be the main focus #but that stuff seems so sidetracked rn #also sorry i dont like what they did with vander and warwick either. that man should've stayed dead lol #it honestly just makes his death feel less impactful and i dont know what this is supposed to do for the story or the themes???#that just feels like a pointless plotline that is taking up time that could've been spent on other things #i just... i could go on like this for a while like there are so many things that just puzzle me #it's so weird considering how tight and thematically consistent season 1 was #let's see where act 3 goes but... i kinda have a bad feeling about it ngl #obv im glad others are enjoying it and this is just my opinion! also a lot of this are probs just my personal tastes anyway #arcane spoilers

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seasicksilver · 3 months ago

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pretending

#johan (oc)#ambrus (oc)#original character #original characters #artists on tumblr #digital art #sketch #doodle #my art #oc art #ambran is just:#someone who is so good at completely changing herself to blend in (johan)#vs #someone who had an inescapable part of who he is that he can never be anything but that (ambrus)#this is why they dont work together fundamentally theyre way too different #ambran rant 2 #things no one cares about ooogh #a god (johan) who has to appeal to the masses to even be a god in the first place #a necromancer (ambrus) a being that is defined by death and nothing else matters #woahhhh boy #tumblr really gets the juicy details about these guys #i only will ramble like this here i feel like im allowed to be pretentious abt my own characters here lmfao #basically; johan’s outfit is heavily modified to a traditional wedding outfit #while ambrus’s outfit is barely modified #woaghhh symbolism in my oc art ?!??!!?! jk i always put symbolism in my oc art

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guinevereslancelot · 9 months ago

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most fucked up thing about the body's response to not eating is when you're so hungry you feel like you're gonna throw up. this does not make it easier to eat food actually

#literally thanks it did not help #my body sucks so bad at eating #i literally am not hungry until im so hungry i feel sick??#also #even when i remember to eat on a schedule all food makes me queasy i literally cannot win #maybe the so hungry im about to puke thing is just a me problem idk but it is NOT helpful #im also starting a medication that i cant eat anything for two hours before or after that's going to mess up my digestion today 😊#and make me feel awful #but its an alternative to eye surgery so hopefully it will be worth it #but i havent even started it yet and im so queasy just bc i didnt really eat breakfast #its not like i had Nothing i had three bites of cheerios and a coffee....#i would have eaten the cheerios but i was late for an appointment lol #anyway #my digestion sucks and i already cut out gluten and almost all dairy 😤#wtf else is thereee #also somehow magically even tho all food makes me sick and i barely eat regular meals i am putting on weight???#lowkey wondering if im diabetic or something bc this is not normallll

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thanatika · 8 days ago

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low-coherency rambling in the tags

#the thing about IPL is that‚ at least as far as i see it‚ they've essentially been propagating and encouraging an auteur myth regarding him #which is nothing new or unique to them; i think that people (audiences) naturally want to ascribe some Great Man Theory to everything #it's hard to conceptualize the fact that almost anything that comes from a ''studio'' will be the product of collaboration #people naturally want to personify things and attach a human face to what they like #and studios (whether game or whatever else) will indulge this by generally seeming to pick one or maybe two people (often men)#to essentially be the main ''face'' or ''spokesperson'' for the product. it's branding.#and it has an effect even if people obviously are aware that someone isnt the ONLY person who's hands touch a work #i see it in the way people take this very personal parasocial tone in how they talk about the creators they like #which is just a subset of the problem of parasociality in general but in this case i mean how they basically put these people on a pedestal #because they seem them as singularly responsible for creating Thing They Liked because of the aforementioned spokesmanship #i've seen it in how people talk about (and talk to) j sawyer and chris avellone as if they're singularly responsible for fallout #anthony burch and borderlands 2. christian linke and arcane #robert kurvitz and disco elysium (but to be very clear im not saying that makes cutting him out of his own intellectual property acceptable #fucking i don't know.... jeff kaplan and overwatch lmao #and very much with dybowski and pathologic. like the kind of memes i saw people make about him and the personal way they'd refer to him #BUT that pretty much all stopped after 2021 or so at least in the fandom spaces i saw #because i suppose people realized that whether those rumors and allegations were true or not that they did not really know this person #no matter how much they liked ''his'' game. and that he might not be a good person at all.#which is good. i think people should take that kind of ambivalence by default instead of getting parasocially attached to anyone #especially to one lead figure out of an entire studio #and then winding up distraught and disappointed when it turns out their fave did something bad #like be distraught for victims sure. but don't tell yourself you understand this person because their fiction spoke to you #and you won't wind up feeling personally betrayed.#i'm rambling big time but basically i hope people start taking this view more #because among other things. putting these people on pedestals and singling them out as auteurs gives them social power #which allows some of them to engage in the awful behavior that leaves fans feeling betrayed in the first place #and i hope that studios and creators stop leaning into it too #if it really is true that dybowski is barely involved with the IP anymore then IPL should say that.#don't prop him up as the face just because he's the one everyone knows #maybe they think it'll get backlash if anyone but him is said to be writing the game because of how much they leaned into him as the auteur

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waywardsalt · 2 years ago

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mmmgh

#salty talks #this one is personal but not in a scary just in a i need to say this shit somewhere way #botw/totk… i do not fucking like th. like gameplay is fun puzzles are cool world is cool but like.#the lackluster story and characters honest to god drag it the fuck down for me #none of the characters are actuslly interesting and ganondorf is the only one i want to see in totk #like i got the master sword. i got it and its like whatever. i know whats up with the light dragon and i dont care #totk is making me start to dislike this version of zelda and idk how to feel abt that #no one feels like. interesting. everyone is either good or evil or a fucking side character with a paper thin life #and totk with its fucking no-nuance go kill ganondorf plot is just. stop making half of the plot take place in the fucking past #i havent really done much story stuff but like. GOD. no one in totk is meant to be morally gray its all so fucking black and white #what happened to having major characters who were morally dubious and were actually fascinating to watch #i dont like that most of the major characters in totk/botw are Good Guys and Nice To Link nobody actually interests me #i was SO excited that the lurelin pirates would be a new group of characters to contend with but no. monsters. fuck #they had a chance to maybe get into the kingdoms more dubious past concerning the sheikah and then made the sheikah barely important #and then made the yiga more of a joke instead of like. doing anything with their interesting past #no fuck you heres some all new shit that has nothing to do with what came before and the same shallow conflict and characters #theyve dipped their toes into morally dubious characters and genuinely fascinating characters and the idea that the kingdom of hyrule isnt #all that and gave more room for drawing your own conclusions and totk just hands over the most black and white experience #im playing to finish the story and finish the game i actively do not care or expect much from these characters #and it just seems like the narrative is going to bend over backwards to put hyrule as the ultimate moral good and any opposition as bad #and all but force you to accept that because it just proves that sentiment correct over and over again and its fucking bland #idk. aomething about the writing of this game fucking frustrates me esp when i think abt how past games were written #imperialist shit aside this game’s story and characters are so fucking. par for the course bland. i dont care beyond ‘oh thata charming’#i dont think about this game’s story. it doesnt make me think it just shoves events and character actions at me and moves on #fuck.#it feels like its just. telling me shit. not giving me much room to really decide for myself. zelda is good ganondorf is bad fuck nuance ig #it seems so fucking scared of being a little bit complex. this is why i say 'i miss linebeck' i miss complicated ideas and characters #just. totk seems like it REALLY wants you to have specific thoughts about these events and characters. doing everything it can to prove #the good guys right and the bad guys wrong and having pretty much no one be in between or like. anything. its all standard

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milkweedman · 1 year ago

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ah, the ever-more-frequent Urge To Explode My Brain from unending migraines. a migraine that just lasts the day already sucks so bad. whole day is gone in a blur of pain and misery, right ? a migraine that lasts multiple days is sort of like if hell was real and you were in it. time has no meaning, only pain, etc.

months of migraines... with no break or end or effective treatment and also you still have to work and behave like a normal person because you cannot lie in bed for months not paying rent. well id describe it you but ive fucking lost the plot. its gone on so long and its so bad that when the migraine ISN'T at its peaking on the pain scale and making me feel like if i was hit by a truck that would be an improvement, i start to feel like my head is a vestigial organ that has been removed. cant access sensation in my head and it feels literally disconnected from my body. meanwhile the pain is still there (along with the brain fog, vertigo, nausea, etc) but it feels like its happening to somebody else.

#im kind of impressed that i can at this point carry a normal conversation (as good as i ever can. which is bad but irrelevant)#while being in agony and having been in agony for as long as i can remember #usually also with something dislocated just for some extra fun #because what i actually feel like doing 100% of the time is lighting myself on fire and/or screaming forever until i die #however thats the kind of shit that puts you in the psych ward again #so i am. smiling and making small talk while migraine auras wash out my vision and i try not to visibly dry heave #its really really really fucking bad. all the time so fucking bad.#i need to message my neurologist but likelihood of me doing that is low #because 1) the stuff she's put me on has so far done nothing but add intolerable side effects to the hell that i am already existing in #and 2) its fucking hard to do anything. even the bare minimum im not doing. so extra shit is just. not happening #i want to scream.#i am gonna. go for a walk and smoke a cigarette instead and then get really high because at least then i dont really care #the auras are making it really hard to see though. theyre like bleach all over my vision. just this wash of white #hhh.#chronic illness #chronic migraine #and its like. when my knee also gives out and it feels like theres metal in there slicing everything up with each tiny movement #or any of the other one million goddamn things broken in my body #i end up so overwhelmed by pain that i just want to lay on the floor and cry #at which point everyone around me gets mad that im not being productive and im costing them money and im not good enough #like ok kill me then. cheaper for you happier for me. just get a heavy object and go to town i would thank you for it #but i cant even say that because openly expressing suicidality just makes people angrier #im rapidly running out of fucks to give but also i will do anything to avoid returning to the psych ward #literally anything. morals out the window. i dont give a shit.#so its a catch-22.#vent

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arc-archernar · 9 months ago

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#vent #tw vent #i feel like im going to explode #i cant bring myself to do anything so all this energy is just gathering and building up and i feel like im seconds away from exploding #i want human connection so fucking bad but im so fucked up no one would want to compromise a relationship with me #immersed myself in fiction so much i keep dreaming of having relationships that ill never have because most other people just Dont Work That #Way #all my relationships feel so shallow now #ig thats my fault #for never presenting the real version of myself. showing others caricatures and exaggerations of my character so i can be more likeable #ill never feel safe enough around anyone to drop the act. and even if i do ill feel too guilty to stop #ive doomed myself theres no fixing me #theres no motivation to do anything anymore i can barely get myself to lift a finger #hey why didnt anyone tell me just sitting up would be so hard. why didnt anyone tell me just drawing a few strokes would take most of my #energy #if anyone ripped my heart out right now id thank them for putting me out of my misery #theres nothing here. might as well also become nothing #this feeling is awful id prefer being hurt instead #i cant make it go away #someone please just kill me #arc 3am logs

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nomaishuttle · 1 year ago

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ohhh fml i was like maybe i cn stya up a bit late after all its weekend tomorrow. no it fucking isnt today was thursday i have work tmrw everything is evil always

#gonna get ready 4 bed ig.. i wanna try n wake up at ermm 545 bc ive been sleeping in far too much and ive barely been brushing my teeth in #the mornings ive mostly just been doing mouthwash #aughhh idk why my body is being so dire today my thighs r doing the incredibly weak and fatigued thing again. i feel like that tweet thats #like im probably nonbinary but i have a job so idc abt that rn but its i probably have some undiagnosed physical disorders but i live in a #garage so idc abt that rn #idk. its been going on for a couple years but its been getting worse to the point i can barely move my legs when it happens #that and then my limbs have been falling asleep very quickly even when theres nothing thyat would like. im not laying on them or anything #ill just be walking or something arms at my sides and one or both will get rly bad pins and needles #and it rly sucks and is weird. but again i live in a fucking garage so it is fr the least of my worries #like rn at my computer typing my arm isnt resting on anything or having any pressure put on it and my hand is falling asleep. UGH #it has been happening a ton with my hands i get this weirxd sensation in my wrist/palm zone that like. idk #its weird and i should prolly get it checked out but i dont have a dr rn and like. worst case scenario i chop my arms off and either surviv #and have a good story or i die and dont have to go to work anymore. so

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graff-aganda · 2 years ago

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That time of the year is approaching once again 🥳

#Compared to last year im probably going to be participating minimally!!! ive got stuff to work on but i might do some attacks as warmups #so ill probs be messy or quick or experimental this time around. :3 #probably going to be team vampire for Bitey!!! >:] plus i love the colour red #i still need to touch up my profile and characters a bit but ive got a good few up anyway #also does anyone else ever feel like. idk. its impossible to write a little description for their ocs????#like. i want to give some info and an insight into their personality but i dont want to make people read an essay worth of info #but then it feels like im putting barely anything there and they feel like nothing. but no matter what it always feels embarrassing. LMAOO #😭😭😭#anyway!!!! excited #grafftalk #delete later

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voidimp · 1 year ago

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thinking i may have seasonal depression (summer flavor)

#i am. miserable #i cant do anything its too fucking hot!!!#i feel like my apartment is just gonna be a mess until the weather cools down i cant function like this #i know i need to clean. badly. but i cant fucking walk around without sweating. how am i supposed to do more than that??#how am i supposed to do ANYTHING???#im just like. barely doing anything more than sleeping & sitting around all day bc its all i can tolerate #i am so fucking stressed #winter is fine i can put on a hoodie & comfy pants & those fuzzy socks & moving around will warm me up #(also the apartment actually has heating. & i dont even have to pay for it. it does not have ac at all)#summer is like. my fans on high my dehumidifier is running im in nothing but underwear & i feel like im melting into the fucking bed #dont tell me to get an ac i dont have money or room for one #in theory i could probably do a window one. but id have to find a way to also be able to keep the curtains closed #and i cant use it in the living room bc theres no windows only a sliding door #also im waiting for my landlord to replace my window bc it has mold on it but ig its like a weird size so it has to be custom ordered #and also. again. money #also i know the dehumidifier makes the room warmer but i have to run it or it gets to like fucking 70% rh in here

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