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ganondoodle · 2 months ago

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i dont think i have the right to ask this, since i so rarely have the energy to reply, but .. i want my drive to draw art back and this awful depression gone (or at least made less bad..) so desperately that i will bear the shame of asking it anyway, just in the hopes of something getting that spark i had held onto for so long to light back up

though .. im not sure what i want to ask for, i guess .. anything? something you'd like to see me draw, a compliment, a question- whether zelda or oc related, a little totk rant of your own, a picture of your cat, a random fun fact-

#ganondoodles talks #i feel guilty just writing this #i feel like i do so little and ask for so much #too much #and the good ol 'you dont have the right to feel this miserable- theres people literally dying' is back ever so strong #i have barely been looking at anything online #idk why its gotten this bad now of all times #of course this is nothing you are requuired to do #i am not trying to put pressure on anyone #or make anyone feel bad #or responsible for me bad feeling #i just ... want out of this .... and dont seem to be able to do it myself #i am hoping all i need is just a little push to get me over the edge of fighting back again #i know therapy and/or meds would probably be better #but the former is basically impossible to get here- and i got bad experiences with it #and the latter would be a long process of things that cause me so much stress and im afraid it wont make anythign better #.............if our doctor would even be willing to get anything going #maybe this is all just headache sleep depreived wahteever thought sludge #.. im going to bed :U

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