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why is it impossible to do any work despite the certainty that everything will go to shit if i don't
#i don't even have to write a report today i just need to have a bullet-point draft to show my supervisor tomorrow#but it's 4pm and i've done so little#there's nothing that will make this easier i just have to do it#it's not even that hard#and i'm showing it to him to get tips & help anyway#doesn't have to be perfect#but oughhh#this is impossible#once again considering taking a gap year because i don't think i'll be able to get through this#but i also need to leave as soon as i can#(this uni and city)#then what do i do?#who knows#can't be dealing with a phd#and you need a phd in this field to be anything#(according to the most stressful careers event of my life)#can't do a phd since i simply do not care#and i'm realising that i did this degree to make up for everything that was missing from my life#i.e. the only thing going for me was academic success#and now i've glimpsed a world where that doesn't matter#i suddenly lose all enthusiasm and discipline that was left#done this for the wrong reasons#but still have to survive it#anyway !! report time#can't believe i've got to write about signal processing and machine learning when i've done everything in my power to avoid#signal processing and machine learning#'control and/or materials project pls' then its actually signal processing and machine learning#end me
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oh what a joy it is to get to grow old
#one piece#trafalgar law#trafalgar d water law#woke up today with the urge to draw Law older (and happier)#it's very self indulgent but knowing that you survived this long and have still yet so much life ahead of you that is yours to shape#is a beautiful feeling#anyways hi everyone it's been a while since I posted new art here#my art
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Bisan is calling for another global strike!
I saw some posts just outlining Jan 21st, and wanted to clarify that Bisan has called for a full seven days of action.
What a global strike would look like is:
calling in sick to work
purchasing bare essentials ahead of the week so you can observe the general boycott of goods / buying as little as you genuinely can
putting in a concerted effort to elevate Palestinian voices and make it clear that this strike is in support of a permanent ceasefire!
For those who will have to purchase necessary goods during this time, please observe the brands that the BDS movement is asking us to boycott!
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Right now is also a good time to mention some better uses for your money during this week.
Available e-sims in Gaza are running low!!
Mirna El Helbawi and her team are working round the clock to continue to connect Palestinians as Israel does its best to cut them off from the rest of the world.
You can learn how to purchase and send e-sims here, and below you’ll find a list of what is currently needed (the areas in brackets indicate what region you should select to buy e-sims in).
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CareforGaza is an organisation that does verifiably good work, distributing supplies directly to Palestinian families.
They have a Gofundme set up at the moment, but because of Gofundme’s poor track record regarding refusing to transfer funds to Palestinians, I’d recommend continuing to donate directly to their PayPal here.
Good luck to all of you. Don't turn away from Palestine!
#i know that for some people their first instinct will be to scoff. how can anyone just not buy things for a full week?#what about groceries? rent?#and personally. i wanna say yes. there are some things that we have to spend money on to survive.#but it is possible still to make a concerted effort in your life#to carve out seven days where you can minimise that amount of money#i know its a lot.#for some people who are living on a tight budget. i know its not possible and i dont fault you for that#but i know for a fact that so many of us would be able to take out a few daily purchases in observance of this strike#do your best#dont turn away from palestine#free palestine#palestine#from the river to the sea#call to action
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I love how mqf's oficial description is something like: a good heart who wants to help others but then you read the novel and his reaction to lqg trapping ten infected men who are crying in panic is "great now I can start to work in my experiments with decomposed people to find a cure" and gets out a lot of needles, which makes the man cry even harder.
Even if we only get bits of the other Cang Qiong sect leader's we can reach the conclusion that no one there is normal, sqq is just biased.
#the other sects when they have to invite cang qiong: they're our brothers but for fuck's sake they're so weird#sqq is a drama queen married to the demon lord#lqg is an obsessed fighter with no survival instics#sqh is a spy married to ANOTHER demon that somehow is still in the sect doing taxes#qqq could kill you with a look but she also makes fun of tiny lbh in the extras#you know the emperor#so she has probably zero survival instics too#mqf is one step away from becoming a mad doctor#and they're lead by the n°1 apologizer#i love them let me meet the rest#svsss#scum villain self saving system#mu qingfang#liu qingge#shen qingqiu
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thank u canon plant nerd megumi for my life
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#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#megumi fushiguro#itafushi#fushiguro megumi#yuji itadori#fanart#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen fanart#itadori yuuji#megumi#yuuji#middle one FOUGHT oh my god#angle/arm position/watering can/expression NONE of it wld go right#took 2 hours to get the lines only to realize upon laying down flats that it was still Completely off#so i took a break to bake an entire cake came back n finally it started cooperating#tbh idk if im still shaking off ytd's weird funk or what but this took ages longer than it should have#but its ok bc florist/botanist/general plant nerd megu is free serotonin 2 me#i could not decide on one apron 2 give him#but then i remembered he is th type 2 take his hobby Very seriously of course he would own multiple#looks at the hydrangeas listen . listen I Know i ws bemoaning having 2 draw so many cursing their name etc etc#but u dont understand he had to be holding one he just had to. he told me so. he held a gun 2 my head and said U Know What To Do#and i said ok ok ok ok#there r only 2 i survived#and i wld do anything fr him as we well know . cuffs his jeans puts leaves in his hair <3#jjk may have given me trust issues depression anxiety etc but it Also gave me flowerboy megu and i think that balances it out :)#edit added the bonus here bc reblogs dont show up in the main tags enjoy itfs gross flirting mwah <3
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real talk having the 2nd worst new years eve yet 🤢🤢🤢 (throat infection, twisted neck, banged-about-foot, ego AND the rest o' me all bruised like misjuggled peaches 🍑🍑🍑)
im bent outa shape and suspectin the universe owes me 8 buck if anyone wannsa chip in
#yes the 🍑🍑🍑was just an excuse to shove ass emojis in your face i'm only (occasionally. allegedly) human#now ask me about my FIRST worst new year eve. it involves wizards and portals and elaborate lies i make up on the spot#SAD REAL TALK <STARTS>:#also made the mistake of reaching out to my mom post-xmas#like what kind of c-ptsd NOOB does that. what kinda chronic holiday trauma survivor NOVICE??? embarrassing#THE SEDUCTIVE FALSE HOPE OF NOSTALGIA WILL LURE YOU IN EVERY TIME#'oh but maybe they won't disappoint me. but maybe they won't rip my heart out this time'#sweetheart that's your dear sweet inner child's yearning for what never was or will be. BEAT IT BACK WITH A STICK!#SAD REAL TALK <ENDS>#....back to that part where i talked about being bent out of shape#if anyone w/ metalwork skills wants ta take a blowtorch & hammer & tongs & have at... I'm open to experimentation is all im sayin#in lieu of that i would also welcome someone buying me a sandwich. i am. so sore.#(metaphysically sore but also the other more urgent im-at-my-daily-NSAIDs-limit kinda sore)#(hence: sanwimch)#...i got so sleepy writing this i started imagining the astonishing hedonism#of stroking a freshly grilled cheese-dripping sandwhich across my body like a loofah#the soothingness of the gooey warm near liquid cheese. the vaguely spongelike quality of toasted sourdough slice.#look i didn't imagine it on PURPOSE it just came to me like a vision like a threat#like one of those weird mens locker room ads where the sportsball is watermelon??? u know the one#where there's nudity & food & homoerotica & hot steaming showers in the background and STILL the overall effect is more offputting than sex#look i have a throat infection. i can barely swallow. i'm sipping chocolate milk to survive and i'm NOT EVEN ENJOYING IT. each drop is agon#(opposite side of the Tantalus spectrum but i'm suffering more than he has in 3.5 thousand years)#i'm dehydrated. barely conscious. electrolytes are circling down the drain. doctors should be incubating me w/ capri sun straws right now.#I GET A PASS ON THESE TAGS#i don't know what i wrote! and i don't stand by it! and you can't make me read em!!!
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Due to issues with Jack’s fertility, the Fenton kids were both conceived using donor sperm. The donor they ended up receiving wasn’t anyone special; just a random chemical engineer from Gotham City by the name of Jack Napier
And perhaps things could have ended there. Perhaps in another reality, they did, and Danny never had to pay more than a passing thought to his genetic father.
But in this world, Jack Napier faced one extraordinarily bad day, and it broke him. All he could do in response was laugh at the utter meaningless of it all. And by the time his cackles subsided, the man he had once been was dead. In his place, only the Joker remained.
Yet despite how suddenly everything changed, neither of them knew the truth of things right away. The Joker had never even known he had a son, since the service didn’t inform people if their donations were used. And though Danny had known Napier’s name, he had no reason to pay enough attention to the man to notice his disappearance.
That ignorance couldn’t last forever, though.
All it took was a few medical tests from Danny before the automated database systems made the connection.
And that certainly didn’t go unnoticed by those in Gotham.
It looks like it’s time for Uncle J to pay his kid a surprise visit! Ooh, maybe he could break out the ol’ electroshock kit and bring back Joker Jr too, make it a proper family reunion!
#dp x dc#dpxdc#dc x dp#dcxdp#danny phantom x dc#danny phantom x dc crossover#dp x dc prompt#dpxdc prompt#dc x dp prompt#dcxdp prompt#dpxdc the joker#danny is the joker’s biological son#IMO danny definitely shouldn’t be overpowered in this#like i feel like this’d have way more potential for drama than comedy#having danny genuinely be on the back foot and have to work with his still-inimical rogues and/or the Bats to make it through#the joker has survived as long as he has for a *reason*#(well and plot armor because he’s popular but putting aside that)#he’s smart and sets up plans to push things in his favor#he may be at a disadvantage by not being on his home turf but he can still set up schemes
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mourning black and the death of ideals
#i haven't moved on from this yet. btw. i'm still here#finally decided to draw the thought i've been ruminating over for days on end bc it's like a parasite eating away my brain#stated this on the initial post i made days ago but there's just smt so gut wrenching and sickening#about how dazai will have worn black exactly twice in his life: once as a member of the mafia and now at kunikida's funeral#a color that initially signified devotion to the mafia and his demon prodigy alias now signifies his grief#him having to wear black again at the funeral of another doomed fatalist who chose his heart over his survival. his own partner.#kunikida's death being so reminiscent of the tragedy that initially caused him to defect and flee#and everything tying together full circle and effectively breaking him#asagiri rly said fuck knkdz it's doppover we lost gang 😭😭😭#why did bro leave that fucking notebook behind#fool. do you know that angst potential you have left me to work with?#love never won in bsd. it lay dead and festering#i don't know how much longer i can keep saying i miss them. i'm going to kill myself if he doesn't come back#i've never wanted something to be death bait so desperately#bungou stray dogs#bungo stray dogs#bsd#dazai osamu#osamu dazai#kunikidazai#knkdz#kunizai#(??? technically. its implied anyway)#lotus draws
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help me move out of my tiny car and into a vehicle like this!
i'm disabled and homeless, and while i'm in the process of getting approved for disability, i need more safety and stability.
with a larger vehicle like these, i could have enough space to install a kitchen, bed, electricity, shower, etc, and essentially make a home out of it. if you've ever wanted to help house a homeless person, please consider donating to my fundraiser!
the goal is 10k, but vehicles like this sell for much cheaper! as soon as i can, i'll purchase a suitable vehicle and start the project immediately. i'll use whatever i don't spend buying the vehicle for maintenence it might need, the tools and materials i'll need to convert it, plus the legal stuff surrounding registration, first year of insurance, etc. anything still left after that will be used to just allow me to live longer and have a safety net while i get income.
this is something i've been dreaming of for a long time, and as the housing market gets crazier i've realized it's probably the only way i'll have a stable home. i've been researching this project for years and i'll have some helping hands, so your money will be used well to create a home for me.
we're on pace to get me into a van by the end of summer or early autumn, and i could finish the conversion before it starts snowing! this is way sooner than i ever expected. please consider donating, and/or boost this post to keep up the momentum!
GFM
$733/10k
#boost#donation request#mutual aid#homeless#homelessness#fundraiser#gofundme#i'm still trying to decide between a box van and a camper or smth like a sprinter#theyre all about the same price but the insurance might be different#i might need to register a box van as a mobile home rather than a camper which might make the insurance more expensive#the conversion on a box van will be more expensive too#but! ill have so much space itll be luxury for not that much more money#it depends how much money i can get selling my car#technically i know i can survive winter in my car but itd be really nice to have insulated walls
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QUICK NO ONE'S LOOKING
(See readmore for thoughts, cope, bonus, etc.)
Anyone else up thinking about Ratio's big, strong, secure arms and how warm and all-consuming they could be in a hug or embrace. :/ Anyway
I just wanted to draw them being cute and seizing a sliver of a moment where they could have some PDA silly time without actually having any eyes on them. They're public figures and working adults with very clear boundaries between public persona and private life (to varying degrees of "in a sad way"), so while it may be in Aventurine's nature to constantly blur lines for various agendas and self-preservation (read: play "the flirt" without an aligned goal), I believe that in an actual relationship they'd be fairly private.
It's kind of fun to break your own rules, though! Ratio would be more upset about the consequences, though. He's a little bit of a hypocrite, which is devastating for someone of such discipline, but nobody's perfect.
I'm of the mentality of, "If you're tired of working on it, then just post it!", so here are some fun peripherals that I didn't feel like adding:
Some staff in the background sweeping up to evoke a blended sense of fragile privacy and liminal time.
A laptop on the aquarium/bar/counter because there's something fascinating about seeing people on their work laptops in public.
The rest of their clothes (casual friday)
#hsr#dr. ratio#aventurine#aventio#ratiorine#my art#hsr fanart#there's nothing profound about this I just like drawing cute fluff. I'm having fun with my Gay Working Adults Romance#epic universe! still have to get on a conference call with ten people kind of thing#i'm always thinking about how both of them control the personality they convey very meticulously#how it's a survival mechanism for aventurine but some... other thing for ratio....#it's practicality and discipline and ideals.#it's also ''midnight on a sunday'' so i am going to schedule this to post at a ''normal hour''#and then ''go to bed''#what wip do i work on next. the answer is probably nothing i've already started#my art: hsr#aventurine doing his evil flirting thing to rile people up 🤝 ratio trying to ''be in character'' on the IPC broadcast and making his and#aventurine's work partnership ''seem blurry and messy''#= manufactured youtuber drama#they're going home and ratio's going to bake some fish dude!!!! aventurine is LLLLLLITERALLLYYYYY turning on the radio#and helping him peel carrots.#and most importantly#they are NOT googling themselves ‼
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balinor giving merlin the ambrosius sigil and merlin carrying it around with him for years. merlin and arthur sitting around a campfire, both believing fullheartedly that they’ll be dead by morning bc like hell are they going to allow the other to sacrifice themself to close the veil. arthur giving merlin the du bois sigil as a parting gift and ensuring that merlin will be taken care of after his death. merlin biting the bullet and handing over the ambrosius family sigil in exchange. luckily, arthur doesn’t recognize the ambrosius sigil for what it is - a dragonlord lineage. BUT now he thinks merlin has noble blood and is wondering when tf he figured that out, if he ever met his father, and why he never told arthur.
#ofc arthur still believes that merlin is a bastard peasant#but apparently his father was nobility#otherwise why does he have a family sigil??#they both end up surviving the ordeal but neither of them bring up the sigil thing again#bc if they do then merlin/arthur will have to give arthur/merlin his sigil back#and like hell are they giving something so personal of the other up#bbc merlin#merlin emrys#arthur pendragon#merthur#fanfiction#fanfic#fic ideas#prompts#sigil#balinor#ygraine#dragonlords were nobility btw#its in the name
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Regular Abyssal Hunter downtime activities
#Sorry I haven't posted in ages!#I didn't die my spirit was just wrung out completely leaving me an empty ruined husk#What is the heterosexual explanation for the whole Abyssal Hunter situation#I survived grad school but I came back Wrong#I still know very little about AK but I have read some short stories and now my hollow soul has been filled with AK content#More to come#I want to draw more debauched stuff actually#pixel#digital art#pixel art#artists on tumblr#arknights#art#Skadi#Specter#Andreanna#Alt version later perhaps?
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What is the primary force that guides us along our paths? Is it our minds, or our hearts?
#bridgertonedit#coloredit#polinedit#tvedit#perioddramaedit#dailypolin#dailybridgerton#bridgertonblr#cinemapix#filmtvtoday#dailyflicks#bridgerton#polin#penelope featherington#colin bridgerton#bridgerton spoilers#edit#my gifs#years surviving off of fics and rereading rmb#and now we get a million stills dropped in one day and new promo almost daily#i'd kill to have a 4k dl for the trailer though but alas
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If you’re gonna care about prison abolition and justice you are necessarily going to have to care about the people who DID do those crimes and just want to reintegrate and live a normal life without hurting anyone. You're gonna have to be cool with the fact that the guy scanning your groceries might’ve raped someone. You're gonna have to relax about the possibility that your bank teller used to be a career criminal. The person sitting next to you on the bus might’ve committed three different murders, and as long as he's not about to commit a fourth right now, that's not your fuckin' problem. People don't disappear from society after they commit crimes, and most of them really just want to live a normal, stable life instead of going back to that. And the best way to make sure they don't relapse is to ensure they're able to live that peaceful life instead of freaking out because the guy next door used to run a dogfighting ring. You don’t have to be friends with them, you don't even have to like them, but you're gonna need to be okay with them existing in society. Sorry.
#spitblaze says things#SPITBLAZE SMASH#ive been playing y8 and lemme tell you. NOBODY else with this kind of reach and budget is tackling this topic#'aaaah that guy used to be a yakuza and hes helping OTHER yakuza find gray area jobs aaaaaaaah'#as opposed to what exactly. unless you want every single person whos ever committed a crime to die they cant just disappear#and anyone who has EVER been a yakuza has a mandatory 5 year period where they have ZERO social safety net. no apartment. no phone plan.#nothing. nada. zip. zilch#this person couldve been expelled because they gave away every last dollar the clan had to charity.#you still gotta go five years at rock bottom and good fucking luck if you survive that#society has undesirables and just shoving them to the side where you dont have to think about them#only makes it more likely they'll relapse#so either be normal about thr fact that someone might have been a felon or a bad person at some point#or shut the fuck up lmao
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that moment in tfone. but shattered glass. whoever sold the idea of canonising alternate universes??? actual genius.
#transformers#maccadam#my art#transformers fanart#megatron#optimus prime#megop#tf one#transformers one#shattered glass#so my personal shattered glass headcanon for tfone is#alpha trion (and the other primes) are the actual evil and he manipulates the four into thinking sentinel's bad#but the quintessons are actually this peaceful people that want to have fair trade with cybertron#and 13 primes are power hungry and only want to conquer#something something like the idw expansion led by nova prime#megatron is actually GIVEN megatronus' cog by sentinel in his dying breaths#optimus still gets the matrix of leadership#but he uses it as a show of power and dominance over his fellow cybertronians to heed him#just the. implications that optimus#in surviving the primes and bringing a new “age”#simply... enforces their legacy again#while megatron seeks (haha like. the seekers.) to build a new future with what's left of the old legacy (the high guard)#im also not smart. please. share your shattered glass headcanons.
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To whomever it may concern: Karlach without make up (and with scars). Bless the modders.
#bg3#listen I can easily see Shadowheart spending an hour every morning to do her make up and Lae'zel's is arguably warpaint#but with Karlach? a soldier in survival mode who also can't sit still for five minutes?#yeah nah#also abscence of eyeshadow kinda makes her asian features even more obvious#let it be known I restricted myself to ten screenshots but actually I have a whole folder by now.#also I can't quite figure out if she still has eyeliner on or if her lashes are just that nice abdbtbtbtb#EDIT: MODS ARE NAMED IN THE REPLIES SECTION
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