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im currently revamping parts of my oc website to better reflect my current novel + novella goals, (so far TSON, the court arc, and swallow lament will be novels- hopefully can wrangle five acts into a trilogy, and fistfils of bedlam will be ergodic and somewhat dependent on my ability to rattle shit off in claude's POV plus fun fake wikipedia pages, yay)
ans here's the weird kids page for fans of joseph kavinsky (...yeah, i mean, if you REALLY LOVE kavinsky...), night time bush walks, codependent teenage friendships that curdle in adulthood and are never repaired, hauntology, The Gender Experience (horror movie sting), and all of those who feel like they go backwards with every step forward.
ill add pages for the court arc, fistfuls of bedlam, and TSON once im closer to pumping out fuller drafts (likely years and years and years into the future as i still have to do a lot of research and collate about ten years of unorganised notes) but even if im never able to write any of them at least i have my silly website and my dream
#dellete#my writing#ocs#weird kids#in the old world the stars spoke to each other#i know weird kids sounds like a golly gosh fun YA style novel about finding yourself in unconventional places#and it was once#but now its worse
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#text#ocd tag#ITS SO MUCH WORSE WHEN I HAVW AN ACTUAL REASON TO CHECK SOMETHING#LIKE I AM GENUINELY REALLY BAD WITH MAPS#HOWEVER I HAVE ASKED THE FOURTH TIME IN LIKE TWO HOURS I THINK WE’RE GOOD NOW#ocd#peer reviewed banger
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simon doodle in honor of fionna and cake dropping, sad old men gotta b my favorite species tbh
#adventure time#fionna and cake#simon petrikov#hes gonna lose his goddamn marbles again#his mental issues did NOT get fixed at the end of the series- simply swapped out for a different flavor#and its somewhat worse- cause now he can think clearly which comes with some good and bad followups#hashtag get this man therapy#fionna and cake spoilers
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I saw this on FB today and I wanna try and express something about it. Like, you know the curbcutter effect? Where when curbcuts are put in it benefits everyone (bicyclists, people with baby strollers etc) and not just disabled people?
There is also whatever the opposite of the curbcutter effect is. And this is that.
This isn't just anti-adhd/autism propaganda... this is anti-child propaganda.
Kids have developmentally appropriate ways that they need to move their bodies and express themselves and sitting perfectly still staring straight ahead is not natural or good for ANY CHILD.
Don't get me wrong, I was punished unduly as a kid for being neurodivergent (and other types of kid will ALSO be punished unduly for it... Black kids come to mind) and thus UNABLE to perform this -- but even the kids who ARE able to perform this type of behavior are not SERVED WELL by it. They don't benefit from it.
This is bad for everyone.
The idea that bc some kids may be capable of complying with unfair expectations, those expectations don't hurt them... is a dangerous idea. Compliance isn't thriving. Expectation of compliance isn't fair treatment.
#theres a lot of things lately that make me think of this where#people will act like theres this class of people not harmed by something#(laws undermining bodily autonomy come to mind!!!!!)#and its like -- no. the consequences will be worse for some people#but no one is ultimately served by the erosion of bodily autonomy like there is not a class of people who benefit from that#same with lack of right to privacy#there isnt a DEMOGRAPHIC of people who benefit from certain things#there are systems that do. and there may be a handful of individuals who benefit partially or FOR NOW#until those systems are turned against them#i think its important to remind people in certain privileged demographics that like#certain things do benefit them#and others DON'T#you may suffer less statistically but it doesnt benefit you!#its BAD SOCIETALLY.
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not active in the wc fandom here but sometimes they say cool shit
#warrior cats#warrior cats fanart#moonpaw#moonpaw wc#i drew this in the wrong colorspace and now it looks so much worse on my monitor than my tablet im so upset!!!!#i just wanted to get this image out of my head and onto a screen tho so its fine i guess
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iknow my comics are ugly please just hear me out
#So me and my friend were talking about ‘whos the most likely to’ with ratiorine#and she asked ‘whos the most likely to confess first?’#and i said Nobody. Theyre both doomed forever. Unless it happens on accident.#and this is what i imagined#★ my art#art#honkai star rail#should i tag ratio even if hes not here#hsr aventurine#ill tag ratio because his husband is here#hsr dr ratio#hsr topaz#ratiorine#aventio#Someone reblogged my post with the tag golden ratio.#golden ratio hsr????#excuse me???#why are yall making new ship names without me. How DARE you be so creative without me in the room.#GET BACK HERE#i can literally talk about these two for hours im so serious its getting bad like it already was bad but now its worse
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#they said i couldnt have a worse speech bubbles to image ratio and i said 'bet?'#isat spoilers#in stars and time#in stars and time fanart#isat fanart#isat siffrin#isat loop#two hats spoilers#isat#lucabyteart#sifloop#not rlly but it gets the tag in case ppl r backscrolling my tags on my blog for some reason#anyway this dialogue has been kicking around in my files for about 2 months as it is known to do & i wanted to play with typesetting#'write a fic if you like words so much' absolutely not . what if it was pictures instead. and also i wanted an excuse 2 loop gradient#but yeah uhhhh this is very . very loosely the result of me thinking about the 'island is trapped in the fucking future' theory.#like if so. would it just like. reappear. when the rest of the world catches up w where it was stuck in time. like . 20 more years on.#and thus the q: god wait at what point would sif be older than the age they last knew their parents to be. theyre nearly 30 now so like.#you can see my logical path thru these thoughts yes? anyway i think its fun when these two put their braincells together to realise#the horrors. and kind of exclusively the horrors. wahoo!!!#anyway food for thought re: island reappears and to the islanders it's not been any time at all. but its been like 30 years for the rest#fuck do you do: your boy returns 30 years older plus a family (maybe even a child) and minus . a fucking eye.#also theres a fucking angel with them? update. thats also your boy what the fuck. wait fym theyre married. hold on. wait--
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#he just does whatever. in my mind.#i draw him doimg whatever#hes like my barbie doll#no#worse hes like the beanie boos i used to play with to tell my stupid stories about mermaids. or whatever.#i dont remember what i was doing in like 2016 but it was beanie boo related#whatever that was is what im doing wirh him now#its 1 am#nothing im thinking is coherent#please ignore my ramblings#gravity falls#gravity falls fanart#stanford pines#ford pines
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Sometimes at work it's not my place to tell people the things I want to say, and I find I often go home at the end of the rougher days to stand blankly in my shower and tell myself over and over what I wish I could pass on.
This accomplishes very little, and mostly just gives me a tension headache, but through it all I think I've narrowed myself down to a few solid things I'd like to tell people the most.
You can't change people. Not permanently, not for anythig. You can support them, encourage them, love them, give them tools and opportunities and resources, but you can't make them change. They can change themselves if they want to, but they have to want to, and they have to want it for themselves, because they're the only one that's certain to be with them forever.
For better or worse, you make your own choices, and blaming bad choices on others doesn't only work to absolve you of responsibility- it also robs you of control. Because if you say you only did something because I did something, then you arent only shifting blame- you're admitting that you cannot control yourself, that you cannot truly make choices for yourself, that other people can control you- and as long as you truly beleive that, you'll keep facing the same problems over and over. You'll keep letting others dictate your choices, because you'll beleive that they can, and you'll never be free.
White knights on horseback are from fairytales. Nobody can help you if ou're not willing to help yourself. To try, to put the dirty work in, to belive you're worth that effort- Act as though nobody is coming to save you. From a struggle, from pain, from bad relationships, from yourself. And when you do save yourself, because you will, because failure here isn't an option if you want to survive, you'll never find another dragon that can keep you prisoner.
Don't say anything to anyone that you wouldn't want them remembering forever.
Doing the right thing in bad circumstances is hard. It's the hardest thing. But if you make the choice to do that hard thing anyways, despite your fear, you'll go on the rest of your like knowing that you're the sort of person who did something.
The present only seems the hardest because the past I over and the future hasn't happened.
There's so much joy ahead of you, the kind you can't possibly understand until you see it yourself.
The responsibility of consequences is often disguised as the power of permission. "I won't do this if you help me", "I'll work on my anger if you do this for me", "I promised you I'd quit, but can I have just one?". The unspoken question is, "Can it be your fault if this goes badly?"
You cant make someone love you the way you need to be loved. Someone can love you very much and still be bad for you, even if you love them very much in return. Two people can love each other very, very much, and try their very best, and still be wrong for each other.
Sometimes being near to someone changes you, even in good ways, and the people you become don't fit together as well as the people you were.
Caring takes work. Even if it's real. Especially if it's real. And the most important gestures aren't the grand, poetic, songs-and-flowers-and-tears moments; they're getting out of bed even though you don't want to. Paying attention to things you don't enjoy. Scrubbing pans, or opening a window, saying "thank-you", or helping carry groceries into the house. The small things fill the big things- without the small, boring, mediocre things, big things feel hollow.
Thrre is honour and dignity in humble work.
If you are a cruel and spiteful person, then you will find every place you visit to be full of the same cruel, spiteful people. This is not because the world is as cruel as you, but because everywhere you are, you will be disliked. This is the curse that comes with being persistently cruel and spiteful.
If you are a kind and ppsitive person, you will repeatedly encounter kind and positive people, because as they grow familiar with you, they will be happier to have you near. This is the reward of being a kind and positive person.
When splitting paths with loved ones, briefly or forever, aim for your last words to always be "I love you".
#I'm still so young and ignorant#but I wish someone had told ME these things before I had to learn them#And now when shit goes south and everything is over and calm again the same things just roll though my head#Over and over and over#It's like everyone I meet has the same 3 problems and its ruining their lives#I just want to take everyone I meet by the shoulders and shake them#I KNOW why this is happening to you#Do you realize you can be better?#Do you realize you can do it?#Aren't you terrified of wasting your life like this?#*I* want to be happier#*I* used to be so much worse than I am#And I don't have it all figured out#But if we all decide to help ourselves then it'll be that much easier to help each other#Right?#It's so hard to lift dead weight#You need to kick against the waves with me#You need to WANT to float#Do you understand#Ugh it's 6am#This has been your overdramatic midnight ramble#Imma grill me a cheese and go back to bed#Blaurfhgh
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i'm ready to try
#This drawing is kind of personal to me#I recently graduated (CUM LAUDE WOOOO!!!!) and its like. not to get depressing#but when i was younger i was never sure whether i would make it to this point#When i was going through what i consider to still be like. the worst time of my entire life#This fictional character was there for me and she was something for me to latch onto and cope with#eGem helped me a lot with being able to process my emotions at the time but also helped me to reflect on myself#which i think is a big reason as to why I'm really happy with where i am with myself right now#I'm going off to uni next school year to study astronomy!!! which!!!#Im also doing because of eGem!!! She ignited this kind of childlike wonder for space for me#I love doing math and physics and whilst Im still a bit scared because. honestly i don't know whether this is what i want to do with my lif#I think i'll be okay either way#either way i wanted to draw egem again even if i haven't done so in a while because its like#i think i wouldnt be who i am without her. i think i'd be a lot worse off#so like. thank you empires smp thank you geminitay thank you egem This drawing is me expressing my gratitude#AND THANK YOU AUTISM!#empires smp#empires smp s1#empiresblr#esmp#geminitay#art#fanart#alice.art#mcyt#mcytblr#song is andromeda by weyes blood... obv.. you guys know me by now :oP
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personal happiness or what the fuck ever
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#xmen#xmen comics#cherik#charles xavier#erik lehnsherr#professor x#magneto#jeans here too but ssh#snap sketches#i havent posted anything in what feels like forever and i GUESS i have to remind people i do draw sometimes. whatever.#aka in my brain i have at LEAST a five-page doujin where this gets incredibly nsft but i dont have TIME for that these days do i#so for now we get just. these scribbles. ill be able to make something exemplary again someday i swear <- optimistic#i think im going to close my comms off for the rest of december once i get through the batch i have now#which ... doesnt sound hard since the amount i have will probably take me to the end of december anyway 💀#i just need everyone to believe me i have better visions for yaoifying issue 309 .... the opportunity is right there...#like wdym the dream sequence is gon end on a panel of erik's eyes as he reinforces the idea charles needs happiness like scott and jean's..#call up your ex. right now charles.#what got me peeved about this issue is i have no idea what color eriks outfit could be vjaeLVKEJARK its like.#is he wearing a lab coat over a suit .... i think thats the intention ... or maybe it is a trench coat....#idk shit for me to figure out if i ever get the time to explore this thing again#LIKE UGH IM SCREAMING i have Such Visions that i dont have time to execute and theyre killing me#maybe ill just write them down idfk <- trying to write fanfiction ends even worse for me than trying to draw#anyways. im gonna drive myself mad good night everyone#i have to go to a christmas party tomorrow night. later tonight. whatever.#BYE
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I know Odysseus would've been a great dad because if I'd gone to sleep and woke up to the sound of my crew opening the wind bag, I would've snapped and killed someone. But he just laid down in defeat and thought of killing himself
#telemachus: i accidentally left the door to the weapons room open im sorry#and now all our enemies are armed#odysseus: its ok ive had worse
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cringe is dead because rouxls is carrying the weight of it all madoka style
#deltarune#rouxls kaard#swatch#queen#kris#ralsei#art#doodles#comic#i had to scribble something silly or i would lose my mind#''have u ever drawn pirate rouxls'' there u go now i have ur welcome#was going to draw him on the duck but it did not fit in frame#i can fit a lot of serious headcanons and angst into a character that has LITERALLY done nothing but make a complete ASS of himself-#-every time he's on screen. idk how he can possibly get worse but i can't wait to find out#i wanna throw him into walls like a sticky hand repeatedly#anyway did u guys know its hedy lamarr's birthday today??? happy birthday girlboss xoxo#EDIT HAHA SORRY THIS WAS SUPPOSED TO POST AT 11AM BUT I SCHEDULED IT FOR 11PM#WHOOPS
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SHIDOU RYUUSEI & ITOSHI SAE | Japan U-20 National Team #13 & #10
NOW WE'LL BE ABLE TO LEARN THE REASON HE WAS SELECTED WHEN NOBODY IN BLUE LOCK KNEW HOW TO HANDLE HIM. WHAT KIND OF EGOTIST IS ITOSHI SAE AFTER?
#blue lock#bllk#shidou ryuusei#itoshi sae#sdse#eyestrain#bluelocksource#animangahive#animangaboys#userdabiluna#usertorichi#userlysandra#userartless#userinahochi#userokkottsus#useradrienne#usermica#tracker tags bc i put in more effort than usual for this one ahah.......#anyways sdse hour SOON 👆👉☝️⚠️#i got a little emotional rereading their interactions its insane... sae guiding shidou's play is soUUURGHGHRGHGRH#theres so much kindness in that okay. i have no coherent thoughts to put here now but aurgh sdse 🔛🔝#:m#e:gfx#shidou#sae#making this reminded me of how looking for manga panels is the worst part of making graphics#but also that worse than that is cleaning the panels.#although even worse than that is putting the post together...#i love making graphics!!!!!!!!!! i swear lol
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“ ℝ𝕚𝕘𝕙𝕥 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕒𝕣𝕖, 𝕃𝕦𝕧! 𝕀 𝕙𝕒𝕧𝕖𝕟’𝕥 𝕔𝕙𝕒𝕟𝕘𝕖𝕕. ℕ𝕠𝕥 𝕒 𝕝𝕚𝕔𝕜! “ Spike • BTVS S7E2
#spike#spike btvs#btvs#buffy the vampire slayer#btvs spike#spuffy#spike fanart#btvs fanart#william pratt#willian the bloody#spike buffy#james marsters#spike game face#game face spike#vampire#vampire spike#my art#fuck man this scene has been burnt into my brain for weeks now#its been singing its siren song and i finally caved and drew it#his shirt and his posture and his fANGS#AAAHHHHHHHHHHH#the spuffy brainrot has only gotten worse loves
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Heard about the food poisoning. That really sucks. I hope you feel better soon 💙💙💙
thank you! It wasn't great but I lived ✌
But this ask gives me context for my doodle woes
(when you've been throwing up so hard you sprain your abs)
(that's one thing the lab can't prep you for)
#an art#fuyuhiko kuzuryu#hajime hinata#super danganronpa 2#This trip has been something! A mix of paradise nice and kind of a disaster#I was knocked OUT by food poisoning for the full 24 hours but thank god it didn't happen on a day we had to drive#My travel mates were nice about it which made it worse. Who else can't stand it when ppl are gentle and helpful when you need it#Please just make fun of me or something if it was up to me I would be locked away in a cabin not depending on someone to go buy me a coke#And now I'm stuck alone in Prague for a day because my flight changed my layover from a couple hours to 24 hours#BUT YOU KNOW WHAT. MAKING THE MOST OF IT. YAY PRAGUE I HEAR ITS BEAUTIFUL#Thank god I'm surrounded by the kindness of strangers
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