#but nothing for my brother or aunt
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just remembered I put a bunch of text replacement shortcuts on my grandma’s phone but she uses speech to text so it probably doesn’t work
#i made my deadname my chosen name#ffs#also put in a shortcut that changed my mom's name to turkey#but nothing for my brother or aunt#or my cousin#i probably shouldve#should i try to do this to my mom's phone?
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the utter lack of affection or care amongst my extended family is so bleak and miserable
#like I don't get on or chat with fucking any of my english cousins. the few I did#get on well with disappeared from my life out of nowhere because of family drama#the ones left are older than me and they never cared about me lol#and they're all boys which I don't think helped things when we were younger#but that shouldn't matter. I get on with my spanish male cousin fine ! he's lovely!#but the people I'm with every winter and birthday etc are just completely cold and detached#I have no real relationship with any of my uncles or aunts or cousins#it's not like there's even one I can go and talk to while everyone else is ignoring me lol#I've got my brother and that's it and of course he's just a little kid#he's either trying to get attention from the adults or trying to get me to play with him#which is fine. but. ugh.#it's just like I should've had this big network of people who cared about me statistically I should've had at least one family#member who I had some kind of unique or close bond with and I never did I never got it#I grew up with two sisters and I never got it. I think about what it could be like with sisters who gave a shit about me all the time#If I had someone to talk to besides my parents or about my parents it would be such a weight off my back#and all I've got it my brother and he's just too young for me to put any of my life on his shoulders#my biggest fear is that when he hits puberty he'll begin to think I'm embarrassing and stupid and not like me anymore#and then I'll really have nothing
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ah, we’ve once again arrived at the ol’ lesbian wake outfit dilemma it’s always pinstripe pants tank top blazer combo vs dress and cute shoes combo who are we going to be
#going up north a bit to be there for my dad#at least it’s a familiar town loll#I’ll probably not pick the dress because I have a really fucking creepy cousin#also why does that seem to be a universal experience#mines really bad though I already feel a small sense of dread seeing him loool gotta love men#I saw him once in southie while picking up food and felt pure fear and drove around the block to find parking to avoid him#gross#I’ve never been close to my dads side of the family but#one of his brother was married to my moms sister so he feels like both and I’ll be happy to see him#he’s not doing well either since my aunt passed#he was always around because of her and my moms side so I see him differently#so I’m going to be there for them two#and to be a good person I guess#already feeling very ! in a bad way about it#it’s only 4-8 though so maybe I can catch the sunset after to feel better#blasting chappell roan while getting ready it’s fine nothing traumatic is happening
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Yk the funniest thing. We were in this traveller 12 seater bus and 4 of us had hard dark coffee while the adults had tea and then we went insane during the whole trip like none of us was silent for even a second and ive never been this close to mom’s side of cousins who we literally meet up every month and still i felt more comfortable with those 3 idiots
#my brother has bad social anxiety ok he speaks a lot but only at home he’s silent everywhere#and here the 15 days he was Soo comfortable and opened up and speaking so much even my mom was so happy seeinh this#he spoke so much that i had to shut him up at a point#but it was fun and now all of us have nothing to do and even my aunt called saying she misses the raging house
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I thought this whole thing of attacking schools today was only for schools with small children but apparently it is not bc there are gonna be cops at the university today
#I'm not keeping tabs on the news#My mom told me about blumenau#And then I heard other attacks happened through my aunt#She was also the one that told me about this general threat to schools#I remember seeing a headline saying that the generalized attacks were fake news but I didn't read it or saw the source#So who knows#But I wished my little brother didn't go to school today#Hope nothing happens anywhere
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when i say “my parents” i’m usually talking about my mom and stepdad. this does not mean i like my stepdad or respect him as a parent. on the contrary i would say he sucks as much as my father but in the complete opposite way. i simply respect my stepfather’s right to be a bad dad. if my actual father can be shit from a butt and still call himself a father, the idiot who actually raised me deserves to claim me too.
#interestingly i think structurally my family is very classic. in that i was raised in a multi gen household#with a lot of communal child rearing. but like half of those people are steps or adopted. ‘adopted’#she’s just my aunt’s best friend and i would say her and my mom were kinda not as close for a while.#but after my grandma died she and my mom just got very close i noticed. and now my mom has gotten really into#getting those cheesy shirts that say who you are. she has like 12 shirts with all our names on it#and she started gett my ‘adopted’ aunt sister shirts 😭 i know my aunt loves it too ajsjd she doesn’t have any sisters only brothers#also ‘adopted’ her mom sucked and she basically lived with my grandma her entire childhood. dead ass didn’t even know we weren’t blood#related until i got upset bc i wanted my hair to be curly like hers & she had to explain why she looks nothing like anyone else 😭#sorry u ever notice how adoption discourse goes around xwitter like once every six week and it gets like insane?#like so mean and personal on a very disturbing way. i know that’s just twitter but it feels particularly mean spirited on this subject.#like how twitter is also historically very anti mixed relationships. i mean even before elon it was like that.#rani makes text posts no one will read
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There is just genuinely nothing left for our generation
#There is no home and no money to inherit#Neither me nor my brother will ever be able to afford a home#My parents have been divorced my whole life#They didn't have any money to help me pay for university so I still owe thousands in student loans#My aunt sold her condo to buy an RV so she can travel in the winter. Meaning when her son is discharged from the military he has nowhere#to go either.#If I ever visit home I will no longer have a room and all my stuff will be gone#We either have to be self-sufficient or homeless I guess because our parents left us nothing but CPTSD and mental illness#If I got sick and lost my job I would just die probably#I am so envious of people with parents and a family home as a safety net#So envious it makes me sick to my stomach
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thinking and thinking and thinking and thinking some more . i think i hate my half-sister
#my brother is my half-brother too but idc about referring to him as such. my hatred towards him is much less personal than that#unlike what i feel for her!#for years and years ive wanted to be close with at least her . my brother has always been a piece of shit & ive known this since i was 4#but she was nice! but then my parents got divorced and she completely switched up on my mother . its just so disgusting#my mother has been nothing but kind to her. including during one of the hardest times in her life#and all our father did was emotionally abuse us why are you taking his side!!! you cunt!!!#oh god and the shit she says about my brothers ex wife. he nearly ruined that woman !!! why would you say any of that about her#because she attempted to show you kindness even after she left his ass? thats her horrible crime?#this is all like. such a sudden realization for me. ive always idolized her because she was a woman who was also raised by my father#but who isnt . like. permanently fucked up after that.#his approach to raising men is completely different so like i dont think i have even one shared experience with my brother#i really really thought we both shared the understanding that we can still love our father and acknowledge the fact that he is#god just like Like That in general!!! i dont fucking know!!!#this is all just this fucking post-divorce partisan warfare i though was above her. guess i was wrong#literally its just me and my real sister (my brothers daughter) (i am her aunt) (we are the same age and were raised together)#against the fucking world i guess . i hate ittt i hate it so bad you people are all stupid and horrible and i hope bydgoszcz explodes#i love this stupid piece of shit dysfunctional family. you are all evil#voidcore.txt
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My little cousin came over to play Minecraft on my computer but he's too little to remember any recipes so I just had to make him a new set of tools everytime he died
#also his even smaller brother attempted to terrorise my cat but luckily nothing bad happened#my aunt bought us corn and apricots they were good
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the depth of abandonment trauma i'm discovering i have is kind of insane
#my dad was absent by choice and my mom by circumstance and i raised myself#god. that's fucked up#i saw a reel earlier about growing up with an absent mother and it just stung me to my core#all the little things i forgot. coming to her about something and i couldn't show her it. she would be napping or praying or something#and want me to leave her alone. or i would want to tell her about things and she wouldn't feel well and i would never get the chance#i asked her so many times when i was a teenager if we could do things and she was always too busy or not feeling well or forgot#or couldnt or wasnt interested. and then she would complain we never spent time together or did anything fun#she didnt go to any of my plays. or my graduation celebrations#or my choir performances. i had to drop clubs to take care of her#she would be on the phone when i needed to talk to her about things or ignore me after my dad gave me verbal beatings to sleep#and i would have to sit in the hall and cry quietly from like ages 7-10 for her to pay any attention when it got late#i had to hide food wrappers in the trash because she restricted the kind of food i could eat and did the crunchy mom food shaming thing#i didnt tell her about my friends or my life or my online world or even when i was being stalked by my ex. because she wouldn't listen#i just felt quiet and small and worthless around her. nothing was ever a big enough problem for her for it to be worth anything more than a#one-off discussion that she would forget about. all she ever talked about was my brother and she gave him so many more chances than me#i love her still. she's done a lot of good things for me and my partner#and she's learning how to be better and she tried her best with a tbi and shitty marriage and other stuff#that being said. she still doesnt feel like my mother#an aunt if anything. but i dont think i can ever really see her as my mother#because she took all my care and kindness and then left me to raise myself when i needed her. both intentionally and not#and i dont know how to forgive her for that#wow! thats therapy topics for latwer. goddamn.#vent
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worst part about being an adult is managing your own relationships. what do you MEAN i have to talk to my relatives by myself now to keep a relationship instead of others doing it for me thats BULLSHIT
#mac speaks#my aunt and cousins are in town and i wanna see them#but they know nothing about how im no contact w my dad#and i really am not in the mood to tell them why#'sorry ur brother/uncle is a shithead also im trans'
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Man, I wish I could have the patience to get my copy of Rayman 3 working…
#I know I just said I was a patient man in my last post#but fighting with an old console I know nothing about is not something I’m patient with lol#then again I only booted up the game once and gave up so who knows if it fixes itself on another boot#I also never checked the quality of the disk#probably the first thing you should do when buying a second hand game lol#I don’t think the PS2 is plugged in rn so I’d have to get my brother to plug it in again if I wanted to try again#but that seems like a hassle rn#but I keep getting Rayman 3 videos on my feed and it’s making me want to play the game#oh well#I’m not gonna feel terribly pressured unless my aunt/uncle ask for the PS2 back
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It’s a fact, my birthday has always been pushed to the back burner for as long as I can remember and then I’ve been conditioned to just treat it as any other day which is really fucked up when you think about it. I’ll do my best to make sure (if I ever have children) to make sure their birthday is celebrated the way it should be.
#personal#my aunt’s husband is having his 60s bday party on my bday when his is a few days AFTER#and I usually do a bday dinner nothing ever different and my dad jumped to that idea of that party basically pushing me to the side when#he talks so much shit about his brother in law#it’s not to the summer anyway but it’s the fact you said it in front of me when my aunt mentioned it + said it again behind my back#wake up call to start celebrating by myself atp
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my mother got me a carry on suitcase but little does she know …. i alrdy ordered the one i actually wanted 3 days ago ALSKAKSKALSKLAKSLAKSLAKS
#stream#like thanks queen the thought that counts hope u kept that receipt so u can get ur money back#like she also got me raycons … girl ALSKALKSLAKSLAKSLAKSLAJS i’m having her return them too#i don’t even get the money it’s just. i already know - she always gets the ‘cheaper xyz’ bc ‘it’s a deal’ but like a) it always breaks or b#i never fucking use it & honestly i just always make her return most of the shit she gets me like#it’s like how they always get me scratch offs that don’t win. my brother gets the same ones but his always win EXHIBIT FUCKIN A TODAY - WE#BOTH GET 2 & MY BROTHER WINS 75$ RIGHT OFF THE BAT#like girl#ALSKALKSLAKSLAKSLAKSLA i think i hate christmas not bc i hate giving things i just hate getting things#bc all i’m getting is garbage & i HATE it id RATHER GET NOTHING like girl why are u giving me this 😭😭#like even i’ll get deodorant … ain’t my brand won’t be using it WHY#i just give it to my brother literally everything - i got aftershave today; never have i ever used aftershave. shaving cream ? both to my#brother immediately i just think its funny like im NOT UNGRATEFUL its just#WHY ????? i got 2 packs of socks though & im ELATED#truly the best shit i got 😍😍😍#my aunt got me scarves but they’re acrylic so i won’t be wearing them ALAKALSKLAAKALKSLAKALA#i love it it’s really funny i always just make a pile of shit to give back to my family like yes take it i do not want it love u stop it#my mother gave me a crochet santa earlier like kit like girl. i am not making this but thank u u can return it too#BUT THIS SUITCASEEEEE ALSKALSKLAKSLAKSLA THE HANDLE IS ALREADY WOBBLING AROUND LIKE GIRL I AM NOT USING THIS
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GOT A NICE SURPRISE WITH THE FREE SCOUT TODAY!!!! Leo’s second FS came home!!!!! 😭😭😭😭😭😭
#prince text#prince loves ensemble stars#struggling rn lmao I came out to my family as being Leo and non-binary#and it’s establishing some weird drama that I thought we all would have been past right now#hate having to be delicate to cis straight family feelings#my brother with the kids I adore lmao#hasn’t acknowledged me at all in three days despite us being super close#and apparently has been freaking out to his wife and my parents#about how they can tell their kids all this information#and my mom told them this morning like your kids obviously don’t need to know all the gender details???#just tell them that their aunt goes by this new name now that’s it#it’s not that big of a deal#and mom said they’re fine now I guess#but my brother and his wife have still said absolutely nothing to me#and were apparently also fishing to see who knows#and my mom told them to just ASK me since I made it clear I am open to questions and curiosity and shit#but they insisted on HER asking#so I grudgingly sent texts to my other brothers and came out#and it just feels so annoying and inconvenient#like I myself feel annoying and inconvenient lmao#I was beating myself up for having this weird stress about telling my brother and his wife even tho I’m so close to them#I was like it’s gonna be fine why are you freaking out#this is why apparently lol I have good instinct#anyways all that to say rlly happy Leo’s card came
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I know it in my soul that whenever Damian has to play violin for school and needs an accompanist, he fucking drags Dick out of Blüdhaven and back to Gotham to play piano. Dick has not practiced piano since Aunt Harriet stopped bugging him to attend his lessons when he left the manor, and he doesn’t even like playing piano. But for Damian? Sigh F i n e, he’ll play the accompaniment.
He’ll drag out his dusty practice books to refresh himself on proper hand posture and what the fuck an F looks like on the staff. Yes, yes, he’ll look up whatever squiggly abomination is on his sheet music that music experts claim is “modern notation”.
Bruce, who knows how to play piano, or can otherwise contact professional piano accompanists, is like “son, please. leave your brother alone. he hasn’t even played in years.” And Damian’s like “NO. I will settle for nothing less than Grayson.”
“Son, that’s such a low bar.”
But Damian will have his way. He will perform with his brother, goddamnit.
#batman#dick grayson#batfam#nightwing#bat family#dc robin#richard grayson#dc comics#damian wayne al ghul#damian al ghul#damian wayne#bruce wayne#ev-arrested
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