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[sleepwalkersqueen]

[firthbetterorfirthworse]

Welcome to the Darcy auditions, please give us your best impression of a disgruntled penguin

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[amirmeavid]

Idk if i read this in a fic or my delusional sick ass made this up, but can you guys imagine like Merlin with canonical curls and Arthur having a serious thing for them. Like his hair is always too short to see, but then one day Merlin just like was soo incredibly busy that he just forgot about his hair for weeks and then Arthur notices and like

short-circuits.

Bonus points if merlin is kind of insecure about his hair, because lets be real most curly kids are at some point, and we get fluff. Like just cotton flufff. Because turns out people like his hair??? Which makes merlin really happy but a little awkward, and then we get to see the nice side of arthur because Arthur can make fun of merlin, but god forbid merlin actually thinks something bad about himself.

Because god merlin is so cute. And arthur will be damned if he lets that cute, gorgeous, handsome- wait what? Nm he'll analyse that later. He'll feel bad if merlin is insecure, because then he can't insult him properly. Yep, thats what he's going with.. Nothing further.

Of course, its not a merlin fic without emotionally-repressed!arthur pretending to not be a simp.

[gigglesandfreckles-hp]

James finds him in the common room, in his usual spot. He drops into the seat across from him, his chest heaving as he struggles to catch his breath, still winded from his sprint back from the Astronomy Tower. “I have a favour. Can—”  James’s words are cut off by Sirius holding up a singular finger, his focus unwavering on the book in his hands. He reclines lazily in one of the armchairs by the fire, his legs stretched out as though he owns the place. His eyes move leisurely down the page, utterly unbothered by James’s interruption, before he turns the page with deliberate care. James leans forward in his own chair, making a loud scoffing sound. “Padfoot.” “Sh.” Sirius’s finger grazes the page as though it’s made of something rare and delicate, his expression one of exaggerated reverence. When he finally reaches the bottom of the page, he delicately folds over the corner before closing the book with a decisive thud. Then, with maddening slowness, he crosses one leg over the other, rests the book on his lap, and clasps his hands atop it. His face is serene, but his eyes glitter with mischief as he regards James. James stares at the folded corner in visible disgust. “All that, and you’re going to defile it by folding the page over? Use a bookmark, you neanderthal.” Sirius tilts his head, his expression mockingly thoughtful. He flips the book open again, looking down at it as if consulting its wisdom. “Huh,” he hums, tapping the spine lightly. “It’s strange because I thought you started this interruption with a request for a favour. But since you’ve insulted me and—” “Okay, okay,” James interrupts, exasperated. He leans forward, swatting the book shut. “I’m sorry. Can we focus?”

continue reading on ao3

[guttersnarls]

Rats! on the Road Tour 5/15/2018 NY (video cr: me)

[basiatlu]

A Fic…? Written by.. moi?

Is this what the people call a Fic Claim?

Ahem

A Breath Before Leaping

Written for the 2023 Wheel of Drarry, a Secret Santa fic exchange

Ron leaned forward in a clumsy swoop to slap him across the shoulder, shaking him once more. "There you go, mate! Easy. Didn't even have to put your foot in your mouth this time. It's all in the hips, yeah? You swept - no, danced him off his feet!" He slid back into Hermione's side, laughing at his own joke. Harry, feeling awfully sorry for himself, let out a chuckle to humor Ron more than anything.

"No, Ron! Communication!"

"Ah, right then. Of course. Harry!" Ron did his best to pull together a serious face. "You better come clean tonight! After you clean up: yourself that is. You know—" He leaned in closely, a hand cupped around his mouth. "—Get all prepped or whatever for getting down with the ferret."

"Ronald!" Hermione cried.

"What? What'd I say?"

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It was a nerve wrecking pleasure to write my very first fic for @cavendishbutterfly but I couldn’t leave it alone and had to wedge in a drawing as well!

If you would like to read a vaguely Christmas-y 3k of pining, fumbling Harry with some spicy art slapped on at the end, please click the link above✨

[mel-loly]

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Thank you, little owl. -Ravagear Mel Creator

Bonus: You got a flower and a platonic kiss from Ravagear Mel Creator! ^^💛

[go0dvib3s]

I wish I could go back to 2021-2022 to live back in the good old days of the dsmp cc's, but with the good friends i have now, and the good ones from then

[maintitle]

Half the reason I have always loved Star Trek is because of this wonderful future it has presented, one where man continually battles it's worst instincts and somehow comes out ahead of it. Where we ran into the wall of greed and destruction and hatred and managed to come out the other side a kinder, better species. A world where, even when the worst of humanity still bleeds into life, it's something being battled, being overcome, rather than a bleak, dark future that is unavoidable.

The other half of the reason why I love Star Trek is that I have been down bad for Beverly Crusher since before I knew what having a crush was, and my soul shall never stray far from the sky that is her eyes.

[apathetic-microwave]

Canon can't hurt me if I ignore it

[zexapher]

The Crew Meets Saphron for the First Time

I was leafing through some character stills yesterday for a whole other meme I was making when I saw this one of Blake with an absolutely maniacal look upon her face seeing Saphron for the first time, and I just knew I had to throw something together. It just looked too funny to pass up.

The show has this sort of off-screen friendship between Jaune and Blake going on. Do they do bookclub together? I don't know, but little bits like this really sneak it in. She is so ready to bang meet Jaune's sister. Blake wants the blonde harem to go through the childhood stories and pics, gather some blackmail material.

That scene in general is too good, so much going on. The sibling energy with Jaune, who totally knows his sister will embarrass him. It comes with Oscar, with that vacant look on his face and his hands tucked into his pockets and everything! Qrow in the background having none of it. Yang and Nora! Ren lookin’ too cool. Weiss with that wholesome smirk.

Then Ruby absolutely pops off, living her best life! It’s inspirational.

[autisticslp]

Absolutely wild that people will just put things on the internet for free purely so I can have emotions about them

[gontroublevt]

So everyone knows luigi's mansion. How you need to save poor brother Mario. Every time you come across him he just looks so not okay. But this, this beautiful image from the booklet just shows him SO perplexed. Like he's contemplating so hard, guess this is how it feels on the other side. Dudes not freaked or nothin just mildly disappointed and confused. Guy deals with evil mansions full of bad guys all the time and he just doesn't question the glowing green mansion that growls at passersby. He literally walked right into it. Lugi is never gonna let him live it down.

[thecircularsystem]

Recovery and Syscourse Thoughts

I thought I would toss my hat into the ring briefly in the latest discussions about recovery from CDDs, since everyone and their uneducated brother have been spamming screenshots and sources left and right, and almost all of them have ignored the fact that the DSM and scientific (or otherwise) sources are not the people going through this disorder.

So let’s drop this take into the mix: there is no one set way to heal or recover, and everyone should work to find their best method of recovery and what works best for them.

I am a person working on recovery with DID. I phrase it that way specifically because I don’t want to stop having DID. I… actually really like having my system, and being multiple parts. My partner loves it too. They actually are overjoyed when I split — sad that I’m that stressed, of course, and so, so caring and gentle with me when I reach that point — but thrilled that they get to meet another part of me, a part so vivid and developed.

Isn’t it beautiful that I can see that love so brightly?

Anyways. Back on topic, I am recovering with DID. I am utilizing EMDR (though it’s been some time since we did a session) and I attend therapy weekly. I have grown far more integrated, and this past week, we’ve been so soupy that it’s hard to tell who’s fronting, and it hasn’t caused distress. It’s been nice to just be a collection of parts all at the same time, instead of split apart.

But wait. Isn’t that functional multiplicity? I mean, I just said I’m not distressed, and we’re all working together.

But wait. Isn’t that final fusion? All of us together, instead of split apart?

But wait.

How the fuck am I defining it?

Cause doesn’t that matter so much more??? There isn’t a set definition of what FM/FF are, guys. There isn’t this Ideal Recovery that so many people seem to post about. I’ll reach functional multiplicity when I say I do, and my FM will look different than others, and could look like FF too, because FF isn’t “okay now you’re a singlet.” If anything, the FF systems I’ve met have discussed how they feel MORE plural now.

FF/FM isn’t a dichotomy that can only exist separately, and they aren’t even the only ways to heal. For instance, am I not in recovery right now? Am I not actively healing? I might still be disordered, but isn’t it possible to be disordered and functional? Isn’t it possible to heal WITH DID? (The answer is yes; even FM/FF do not erase the fact that I have a rewired brain with new mental pathways. I could become nondisordered, that IS a thing, thought it took years to convince me it was. The fact is, it’s up to the individual.)

And my recovery is going to look entirely different than the recovery of my friends. For instance, I know many of my friends have reached final fusion, and one of them said they split frequently still. But for me, I split maybe once a year at the current moment, max three times a year. It's been a little messy, and confusing, but that seems to be the case. But if you're final fused, shouldn't you not be splitting???

NO YOU CAN DO WHATEVER YOU WANT, FUCK THE RULES!

If that person says they are doing better and feeling fine, then that's what matters. And the fact is, regardless of what a DSM or source you provide says, that's what any therapist worth their salt is going to say as well. If you aren't distressed, then you're good.

The same thing does for anything system related.

Preference of how to refer to your alters/parts/headmates/people in your head/fuckers in your head/those assholes up there who bother you constantly? More power to you! You can call them whatever you want!

Littlecourse and how your littles engage in healing? Woohoo, do whatever makes you the most happy and does the least amount of harm -- or, yknow, harm yourself! That's part of learning too, and people trying to take away the dignity of risk from systems because "but-but think of the children" can go suck a dick. So long as the person is doing what they think they should be doing, why is it my problem?

The only time these things become my problem is when they impact me. And, remarkably, what someone else does with their system does not impact me.

I think so much of syscourse needs to learn to mind their own business when it comes to other people's recovery. What someone calls their parts or origins or recovery does not matter and does not impact me in the slightest. What someone else does on their own time is of no consequence to me. The only thing I see in syscourse that does actually impact me is misinformation about my disorder, which impacts me because it makes our parts who struggle with denial latch onto that...

WHICH IS A ME PROBLEM.

Sure, I correct the misinfo, because that helps me, but that's still a me problem, something I need to work on for me.

I used to be gung-ho about fighting against endogenic systems, and one of the reasons for that was because I had parts who clung to the idea that we might be endogenic. The existence of endogenic systems helping my parts deny that we had trauma does not suddenly mean endos shouldn't exist. It means I need to work on my trauma denial.

This post has been a HUGE ramble, and I'm sorry about that -- there's so many thoughts I Have about recent syscourse, and I usually can squeeze in about 30 minutes of free time to write.

I want to post more about this soon, but to summarize some ideas:

Let people recover however they please.

If someone is recovering in a way you don't like, then look away.

If someone is spreading misinformation, correct them, but like... buddy, do it gently, no need to get all butthurt, relaaaaax

If someone continues to spread misinformation after you've corrected them, more power to you, my guy, do what you gotta do to correct that shit for others if you want to do that

It is exactly Nobody's Job to do steps 3 or 4

And lastly; stop sucking [insert source you just googled]'s cock and talk to a system in real life for like. A half hour, at least. Just get to know how they view their system and what works/doesn't work for them. It might actually make you learn something.

[myfriendscallmeraba]

Very important Hofas question

Does anyone remember Randall going back to CC with his rifle? Or is the rifle somewhere around The House/Velaris?😂