#but maybe thats why im qualified because if anyone gets it

[sebs-studies]

Unsolicited advice from a second year uni student

Since it's now September and most people I know will be heading either back to school or gearing up for university. And if anyone did what I did they might look at Tumblr to get some studying/life ideas (I did this during my A-levels and ended up making my own blog!). So I wanted to give some general advice from my perspective to anyone who might want it - also this will be specific to the UK but some of it is just general too. Also I want to be able to look back on this since I went back through my blog recently and realised I may have needed this advice even just a year ago.

For those who are about to go to university do not panic (cliché I know) but seriously. You will survive the first year I promise! It obviously varies from person to person and between unis and degrees but the first year will generally be a massive adjustment period in your life. And that will likely impact your mental health. This is totally normal. I got major impostor syndrome the first few months of uni. It wasn't until semester 2 that I started to feel comfortable. And largely because if was an entirely new way of learning and teaching, I had to completely relearn how to study, whilst also learning how to live on my own, and living in a new city and making friends.

You will make friends, it might not be immediately but you will find someone before the end of your first year. I got blessed by chance in making friends, but I know lots of people who it took the entire year to find their people. The unfortunate part of this advice is to make friends you do have to go outside and meet them (and I don't always mean going out drinking although this is definitely an option). Look for societies and clubs at your uni this will be 100% an easy way to meet people. And especially especially in the first few weeks of uni go to the welcome/fresher/first year events. I avoided them because I was anxious but turns out they're an amazing way to meet people because guess what? Everyone else is just as anxious as you are!

Expect your grades to go down at first and don't be discouraged, you can and will get those grades back up. And even if you don't (given that you are passing) it doesn't matter. Grades, especially at grad level are kind of inconsequential for most people. Two things to be mindful of are if you are going for a work placement or study abroad year (if you live in the UK) as first year grades do matter for those. Something no one will probably tell you till it's too late. But even then for most study programs you only need a 60% in your first year. And to just progress you only need a 40% (at most unis double check yours). Point being if there's ever a time for your grades to go down it's now, don't panic, your degree isn't over, you're not an impostor, you deserve to be here.

Everyone is struggling just as much as you are. Don't be fooled by Instagram or whatever. Even though I am guilty of it, we only show the nice parts of our lives online. When I get most stressed I step back from this blog, and you guys don't see the tears, sleepless nights, frustrating, and also kind of gross parts of being a student. So don't be fooled if Amanda from your seminar seems to have a perfect life on her Instagram, chances are she hasn't got it as together as you think, and you are no less better than anyone else in the room.

Save money anyway you can!!! I cannot stress this enough but one of the students biggest issues is spending. I'm guilty too but do your best especially in the first year to not overspend too much. Still enjoy yourself 100%, but do you really need to take out five times a week? Or the new shoes? Trust me by the time you get to your second year and your savings or your loan is gone you'll be wishing you held back a little.

If you are struggling. Talk to someone. For uni students, go to your mentor, academic lead, or look up the mental health service at your uni. Every uni (in the UK) has a mental health team. I know many of us are disillusioned with student support networks but I mean this when I say uni support systems are better funded, more rigorous and it serves them to support you. You are not just a student at the university, you are a customer paying a lot of money to be there. It's important that you are happy and you are progressing, otherwise both you and the uni lose! Don't be afraid to speak up when you need it, there will be someone there.

For UK students look up student groups for your university of Facebook. I'm being 100% serious when I say there is a gold mine of info on Facebook for unis. I never ever post on Facebook but it is so useful for staying in the know on events, stuff currently happening, and lots of student groups are pretty funny/gossipy. Some unis even have pages giving away free stuff from previous students, i.e. crockery, kitchen stuff, speakers etc. I managed to save some decent money on these groups. Also if you're into clubbing this is a pretty good way to learn where the good spots are in your city ;)

Romanticism will only go so far. Don't exhaust yourself on how you look. At the end of the day if you are getting the job done who cares if you did it hunched over a bag of cold McDonalds at 3 am? It's no better than someone with a green smoothie at a coffee shop.

I say a lot of this because my first semester was an emotional rollercoaster. During my GCSEs to A-Levels I thrived academically and then coming to Uni I felt like I was so out of my depth. And it wasn't until the second year I realised that this is, a) normal, and b) not that deep! So you scored a little low on an essay? Take the advice and work on the next one. You had some awkward conversation at a uni event? Everyone has forgotten about it already, give a different event a go. One of my favourite things about university is that it is surprisingly low consequence (in the grand scheme of things). Making mistakes won't end you it's okay. I know everyone on studyblr is a perfectionist but give yourself some leniency please. Anyway that's enough of my ranting. To be honest I expect no one to read this. But I am curious how I'll update it in a year's time once I'm going into third year.

If anyone has any questions about university my DMs are open. (I actually am now a paid guide for welcoming first years so it is literally my job lol).

[drvscarlett]

BUT DADDY I LOVE HIM

Alex Albon x Horner!Reader

Summary: Max Verstappen and Sebastian Vettel may be Christian's favorites. But Y/N Horner has her own favorites.

The Tortured Drivers' Department series

A/N: one of my favorite tracks and i hope i could give it justice. let me know what you folks think

Taglist. @tea-bobba @boiohboii @c-losur3 @haikyuen @stelena-klayley @stinkyjax @0710khj @jinimon-tr

I'll tell you something right now you ain't gotta pray for me Me and my wild boy and all of this wild joy

LittleMissY/N what a fun winter break bonding before the 2019 season starts. aren't we cute #GiveYouButterflyWings

PierreGasly the disrespect, my face is cut off after taking so many photos of you!!!

LittleMissY/N sorry not sorry PierreGasly Seb is also upset that you didn't even include him in that photo. LittleMissY/N tell the man to make an ig first.

MaxVerstappen33 why did the rookie get a solo shot before I did???

LittleMissY/N don't be jealous maxie, atleast you're still in the family mantle MaxVerstappen33 you are not slick Y/N tsk, im telling your dad LittleMissY/N respectfully, fuck off!

Alex_Albon it was nice meeting you Y/N!

LittleMissY/N its so good to meet you too alex :))) PierreGasly suspicious behavior!

User3 enjoy your time out there with the boys!

User5 anyone notices how Y/N is literally teasing everyone and then when it comes to alex she seems shy

User7 I smell a crushhhh User9 be for real, maybe its because alex is a rookie and Y/N didn't bond well with him yet.

LittleMissY/N dad took me to work and not bad for a rookie!

ChristianHorner I'm not taking you to work again

LittleMissY/N don't you miss me?? i thought you missed me ChristianHorner not anymore LittleMissY/N too bad, im applying for a job in f1

PierreGasly are you even watching the race??

LittleMissY/N yeah, you missed the points lmao! PierreGasly i hate you

Alex_Albon not a really good start for me but I'll try better next time!

LittleMissY/N dont stress, you have plenty more opportunities to do well! I'll see you next GP? Alex_Albon of course, I mean I'm being paid to drive that car hahaha LittleMissY/N you're funny PierreGasly are you seeing this MaxVerstappen33 MaxVerstappen33 im dying out of laughter LittleMissY/N I'm gonna pay your mechanics to miss out a few screws

User5 she is so pretty!!! how come she is christian's daughter?

User7 I met her during FP1 and girlie is so in love with a driver

User8 i think we know why Y/N is coming around the races.

Alex_Albon happy to get some points for today! My first in my rookie year!

User2 Amazing job today Alex

User3 Alex Albon, you make us all proud!!!

LittleMissY/N GET IN THERE ALEX!!!!! BLOODY AMAZING!!! SUPERB DRIVE!!!

Alex_Albon thanks Y/N, i can hear you shouting from Red Bull to Toro Rosso LittleMissY/N this is amazing news and everyone has to hear it!!!!!

User5 alex and Y/N are so cuteeee!!! Y/N is so excited for Alex's first points

User7 anyone else ships Y/N and Alex??

F1Fans OOF! Albon suffers a big crash during the practice session in Shanghai. Do we think choosing Albon is the right choice for this season?

User1 nasty crash, too bad that he will be missing qualifying.

User2 c'mon be a little more lenient to the guy, shanghai is a difficult track

User3 should be sacked tbh

User4 why are they allowing albon to drive? he isn't that good.

LittleMissY/N oh get over yourself. i bet you can't even drive an f1 car even if you tried. Drivers crash every now and then, Alex Albon is a fantastic driver that's why Toro Rosso got him. This is just a bad weekend for him but I'm sure he will bounce back for the actual race. User7 my surprise when I realize that its actually Y/N Horner defending Alex Albon's honor User8 we love Y/N in this household.

User9 praying for a better race results for Alex

PierreGasly posted a story...

LittleMissY/N replied: HOW DARE YOUUU???? WHO IS THAT RAT???

LittleMissY/N but tbh thats a genuine reaction. imagine starting from p20 and ending up into p10??? LittleMissY/N OH PIERRE QUIT IGNORING ME! LittleMissY/N i hate you so much

Alex_Albon replied: oh no, what happened to her??

PierreGasly your biggest fan has a bit of a teary moments. She is currently filling up my DMs with how much of an amazing driver you are Alex_Albon that's really nice of Y/N

MaxVerstappen33 replied: man Y/N is down bad

PierreGasly i knowwww MaxVerstappen33 christian just walked in to ask if Y/N has a crush on Alex PierreGasly its so obvioussss MaxVerstappen33 well except for alex lol

GeorgeRussell63 with my best mate Alex_Albon !!

LittleMissY/N Well hello there georgie

GeorgeRussell63 hello miss Y/N Horner, what are you doing around here?? LittleMissY/N just saw you tag alex and figured i should say hi to his bestie GeorgeRussell63 im watching you LittleMissY/N ditto :))

Alex_Albon we look good there!

LittleMissY/N you look extremely handsome there Alex MaxVerstappen33 simppppp LittleMissY/N im gonna crash your car

User5 another bestfriends making it to formula 1 together

User7 its so funny how Y/N shows up in any tagged photos of alex, miss maam you are whippedt!!!

LittleMissY/N I'm off to crash anyone who crashes him in the next race. Mark my words!!!!!!!! Still a great drive from AA, my favorite driver <3

Alex_Albon thanks so much for the support Y/N. No need to crash to anyone

LittleMissY/N okay but my offer will always stand

PierreGasly you are sooooo down bad

LittleMissY/N I'm going to put you down

User6 is Y/N, Alex's girlfriend.

User7 i think she likes him and alex is so oblivious User9 yeah, Y/N likes alex so much LittleMissY/N shut it.

User11 i just love how supportive she is with alex being a rookie and all

ROOKIE ALBON DEFENDS Y/N HORNER.

In a recent interview, someone made a mistake of putting Y/N Horner in a bad light. Not to worry because Toro Rosso driver, Alex Albon is there to rescue. The whole thing starts with a simple question of what does Y/N contributes to the team to which Albon answers that Y/N is the social media manager. The interviewer made the mistake of commenting how anyone could do that job. This statement seems to anger the rookie as he defends her by listing down her educational achievements and how her role is important to the team. Albon refused to answer any question with that reporter and Christian Horner has placed an indefinite ban for his drivers to speak with the reporter.

LittleMissY/N when he defends you:

PierreGasly i would have hit that reporter's face if i was there

LittleMissY/N awww pierre, i knew you always had a soft spot for me. PierreGasly only we (max, seb, danny, and me) can make fun of you MaxVerstappen33 facts! LittleMissY/N good to know

User4 red bull boys lining up to protect their princess

User5 i swear, aren't they together yet???

GeorgeRussell63 when did i consent being posted as a meme???

LittleMissY/N since you became my new bestieeeee GeorgeRussell63 i also don't recall consenting to that LittleMissY/N its only a matter of time before you accept it.

LittleMissY/N gonna miss you so much pierreeeeeee anw time to transfer to red bull

User4 not the black and white photo

User5 its so weird to swap teammates in the middle of the season

PierreGasly dumbass.

LittleMissY/N I'll continue cheering you on always PierreGasly aren't you the sweetest? LittleMissY/N this is available for a limited time only

Alex_Albon thanks for the welcome again to RB maxverstappen33 LittleMissY/N

PierreGasly hey i gave you my seat, a little thank u would be great Alex_Albon thank you Pierre LittleMissY/N stop fighting alex, he is so kind PierreGasly oh c'mon!!!! MaxVerstappen33 mate, Y/N will always drop us for Alex. Dont forget that LittleMissY/N smartest person as ever Max

Alex_Albon the car is feeling really good for my first race in Red Bull. Good race from p14 to p5!

LittleMissY/N PROUD OF YOU ALEX!!! THAT WAS AN AMAZING DRIVE

User1 i swear Y/N you have notifs on for alex Alex_Albon thank you Y/N!!!

User3 Alex really deserves to be moved up with that RB seat

User4 RB proving themselves to be a big challenge to Mercedes this year

User5 sucks that max dnf this race, just imagine the next race where they can be stronger!!!!

LittleMissY/N i hate corona so much but im facetiming my bestfriend Alex and life seems a little bit better. Stay safe everyone

PierreGasly my beSTfrIend Alex

LittleMissY/N go to hell Pierre PierreGasly lolololollllll whippedt culture

User5 im pretty sure you miss the races as much as we do

LittleMissY/N for real but we have to make sure that its safe to race again

User5 queen Y/N!

User8 i love their little livestream on twitch every now and then. Its the best thing to pass time

User10 love you queen Y/N

LittleMissY/N BACK TO RACING AGAIN!!!!!!!!!

Alex_Albon quite excited to support us again?

LittleMissY/N of course, im red bull's biggest fan! MaxVerstappen33 red bull fan or alex albon fan? LittleMissY/N its good for you to know your place luv

User7 ITS RACE WEEKEND!!!

User8 look at them wearing masks, you should all do that too

User9 i cant tell you how much i missed races

F1Fans ICYMI, Checo Perez is getting that second Red Bull seat in 2021.

User1 wow checo??? congrats man!

User2 what about alex???

User3 im pretty sure a certain Horner is not happy with the decision User4 Im actually waiting for her reaction

LittleMissY/N AND THIS IS HOW I WILL FIND OUT????

LittleMissY/N you broke this family apart ChristianHorner LittleMissY/N BUT WHY???? User7 Y/N is just like us for real

User8 good riddance for albon, max needs a better teammate

User10 the only reason why albon has this seat is because Y/N Horner likes him a lot. LittleMissY/N everything that alex does is based on his pure talent. My dad won't even let me into meetings that's why im just as surprised as everyone regarding this decision. and fyi im gonna send this to my lawyers. User9 don't play with Y/N when it comes to alex.

LittleMissY/N Grill the grid episode, the one where I made them cook for my birthday

ChristianHorner happy birthday dear

User1 happy birthday to our queen, i hope lando made something edible for you!

User3 look at Y/N's birthday full of red bull current, former, and reserve drivers

PierreGasly sorry I couldn't make it but happy birthday to my soul sister

MaxVerstappen1 hoping for more birthdays for you Y/N

Schecoperez happy birthday hermana!

CarlosSainz55 Happy birthday little miss Y/N

Alex_Albon Happy birthday Y/N, hope you like your birthday!

LittleMissY/N thanks alex <3 User4 everyone been commenting on her post but she only responded to alex User9 girlie u r so whipped!!!

GeorgeRussell63 I wish you can get a seat next year mate

User5 i know, i think alex is wasting his potential being red bull's reserve driver

User7 right?? checo's chemistry with max is really good and i dont think christian will sacrifice that User8 i just want a decent team for alex

LittleMissY/N Are you cooking something georgie?

GeorgeRussell63 that depends, are you helping? LittleMissY/N for our common friend, absolutely User9 now what does this mean???? User10 anyone wanna tell me what's george and y/n conspiring together???

F1Fans No news about Albon's contract in 2022 and today we have seen Albon talking with Christian. It doesn't seem like its about contract renewal.

User2 anyone wanna bet that Christian is talking to Alex about Y/N

User3 what is going on, where will Alex be in 2022

User4 if alex switches teams then would Y/N switch too?

User5 i mean she already did it with toro rosso and red bull User6 but this is like the same group. What if Albon goes to Mercedes or McLaren, would Y/N join there too?? User7 blood is thicker than water everyone User5 i dont think yall understand how much of a simp Y/N is that she can go anywhere Alex goes.

User9 i just want alex to be in an f1 seat in 2022.

LittleMissY/N new hair, new color!

MaxVerstappen1 booooooooo!!! navy blue supremacy

LittleMissY/N i won't be taking any fashion advice from the man who literally wears only Red Bull merch. MaxVerstappen1 hey once upon a time you were always wearing our team merch especially when its no. 23 LittleMissY/N have fun crashing in the next race.

WilliamsRacing we like the color! Suits you!

User1 what is going onnnnn User2 i think alex is transferring to williams RedBullRacing im watching you

RedBullRacing we miss you queen!

LittleMissY/N aww, miss you!

WilliamsRacing Albon joins Williams for 2022! He will be partnering up with Nicholas Latifi, who retains his seat.

LittleMissY/N LETS GO!!!!!! FINALLY, ALBON BACK IN AN F1 SEAT

User1 Trying to beat Y/N in commenting and liking first, failed.

User3 so this is what george and Y/N is cooking.

User8 goodluck to alex!!!

User7 hoping that this time around, he can stick around for the long run.

Alex_Albon seas the day

User1 OMG BOYFRIEND ALEX????

User3 i think my bestie Y/N is crying somewhere rn

User4 i didn't expect alex has a girlfriend

User5 alex?? what are you doing?? this isn't Y/N

User7 have fun at your vacation alex!!!1

MaxVerstappen1 mate, who is she??

PierreGasly you should have warned us you were softlaunching someone

CarlosSainz55 congrats with the relationship bro!

Alex_Albon exploring the city with her.

User5 she takes so good photos of alex!

User7 queen Y/N its been 36 days since you last commented

User8 i fear girlie is heartbroken User9 i hope Y/N is okay

User10 alex and his girl are so perfect together

MaxVerstappen1 who is she alex??? cmon answer your phone

PierreGasly I swear were not sent by Christian to ask about this new girl of yours

WilliamsRacing pretty girl for a pretty boy!

Alex_Albon indeed <3

LittleMissY/N unbothered queen, so sorry for stabbing you GirlInRed

GirlInRed it hurts kind of little but anything for your therapy

User4 not Y/N fake stabbing someone because of Alex's girl

User6 this is so funny, Y/N

User8 so beautiful! you deserve better

MaxVerstappen1 well you know violence isn't always the answer.

LittleMissY/N oh really coming from you? MaxVerstappen1 cmon, I'll pick you up. Tell me where you are and lets talk LittleMissY/N i don't need to talk, im happy where i am

PierreGasly are you sure you're okay?

LittleMissY/N I have answered you a hundred times, im fine!!!!! PierreGasly Im still getting you ice cream LittleMissY/N awww pierre, you didn't have to

Alex_Albon merry christmas everybody!

MaxVerstappen1 hold up, did i miss a chapter or something???

PierreGasly is this a joke or something???

User4 I thought you have a girlfriend???

User7 all along its Y/N??? IT WAS Y/N ALL ALONG?

User9 lucky lucky lucky

GeorgeRussell63 FINALLY! I have been laughing so much with all the conspiracy online

MaxVerstappen1 you knew and you never even told us??? LandoNorris mate why didn't you even tell me? I thought we are 2019 rookies trio Alex_Albon sorry mates, i just have to keep this a secret a little longer

WilliamsRacing what a happy couple, so can we post your photos now?

RedBullRacing she is still our girl WilliamsRacing i think you should ask her about that

LittleMissY/N thankful for almost a year and a half with you

User4 what??? A YEAR AND A HALF???

User7 this is probably going on ever since Alex has moved to Williams

User8 my romeo and juliet!

ChristianHorner why am i not informed that it has been this long?

LittleMissY/N but daddy i love him :< ChristianHorner no. LittleMissY/N but what if im carrying his baby? ChristianHorner jesus christ, tell me you are kidding. LittleMissY/N i am but see it could be worse. i mean we just hid our relationship and not an entire family. ChristianHorner fine. invite him over and lets talk LittleMissY/N yay!!!

MaxVerstappen1 who knew you could keep a secret for that long???

PierreGasly Im more surprised that she was able to bag alex, are you sure you are perfectly sane Alex_Albon? Alex_Albon well I really really love her LittleMissY/N alex :< you used the love word Alex_Albon i mean you should have been used to it when you hear it everyday from when you wake up and before you fall asleep MaxVerstappen1 YOU TWO MAKE ME SICKKKKKK!!!!! NOT IN MY COMMENT SECTION

User10 folks i think we should apply to Y/N's school of being down bad and manifesting their dream partner

User15 what a lovely couple they are, goals!!!

[rin-and-jade]

Job Roulette.. or Not: A Post about Alter Roles

Roles like Hosts? Protectors?.. maybe a Cleaner? an Academic?.. why is there an alter who comes out only for driving?! What about these other alters who don't really do much--they got to have one right??

--Are probably what you might be thinking when this topic comes up. But, there's something more into it,, it's not all about what job or how the role is assigned to an alter only.

Well, for this post, lets talk EVERYTHING about how roles work, what kinds exist, why it's there?? And especially, why are some more task specific, multi-role, or even... none? Bowl straight to the point, let's roll out. Haha punny

Ok J, spill. What are they?

Hold on. Im pulling out this dictionary definition of it--ah!

"defined positions that are associated with given responsibilities and are usually allocated according to the position or ability of each person."

To put it in system terms, it's how different parts can do something that others couldn't, or, feel a sense of responsibility in one particular aspect. That's making sense right? But oh.. you still want to know why they're there at the first place. Fine, follow me!

Yeah, show me why!

As aforementioned, this disorder boxes up our different parts of selves with amnesia and weaker bonds of connection which really sets us back on easing our 'modes' for different situations.. not only that, a part's moods and state/personality can greatly affect what kinds of jobs they get, it's not so random as you'd thought.

So, thing is, because some alters have a distinguished ability capable in doing something, depending what fragment or pre-existing knowledge/experience it holds, that can become it's very own job task.

They can be hereditary (upon split or formed), gained (fuse or passed traits), or even learnt (by its own commitment, without any prior skills). Roles come from many origins, and none of them are so different.

But, some are more complex..

I get it, some can have more than one, have ultra specific ones, or literally just don't have any. Now it makes you think--if it was from predisposed strengths each alters naturally have, then why are some more niche? or like, anything else? I know why:

Our brains are complex alright. We both can think maybe we can do (even if we don't like it) and not do something, and these are all compartmentalized in each alters, so basically its part feelings, part acceptance of such trait, and part commitment as the formula. Even confidence or the call to action affects this outcome!

This can apply to who can handle more than one jobs, or for those who are more specific or lesser known roles. In fact, roles do not have any limits, they are specifically tailored for your functionality so don't fret if you have an alter who's job is only to sleep, or anything else 'silly' !

What about the ones without.. roles?

Do you think it feels wrong to not have roles? While it is true that roles are needed, they're not actually a required standard for everyone to have a job task. Mainly, ANP's are the one who usually have roles, but EP's can too.

If they do not have a role, they might be disinterested or think they don't have any potential, or sometimes they're only there to hold memories / don't have the qualified skill sets, and thats okay! You can take proactive action in anyhow you'd like, just remember, every parts aren't forced to contribute, you know? It doesn't make them useless, maybe more on passive support/back ups.

I've also seen some systems who don't really have roles because the alters are all well-rounded, as in pick up other's tasks and that they're not assigned/compelled to do a particular job at all times, like being flexible. everyone's different!

Make sense, anything else?

Well, that we are not bound to roles, they do not define us, and that we can lose, or change roles according to our growth. Have anyone ever mentioned that?

Im aware that we tend to put too much emphasis on having jobs and being contributive, but the most important thing to keep in mind is that we all in this together, and to help each other, in a way or another.

Never forget that you're more than your job! Maybe try to enjoy other parts of life, yeah?

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Thats the end of the post. What will you do if you find a new alter with no impressions of having a role? How do you see roles in your own pov? What's the first thing you'd do if you were to be free from your job task, if any? Feel free to let me know, i hope this has been informative, im willing to add anything if something's missing!

- j

[greatgoogly-moogly]

Yuujiro is all like

"You make me feel so mad and angry and like I wanna punch something ALL THE TIME"

In tears

"And the worst part is... even like that i cant stop thinking about you when you're away, like, like you've just become a constant in my live I can't life without anymore,, it's horrible and I need you to stop it"

And aizo can't do anything but look at him speechless, heart tight

He knows what yuujiro means, he feels the same asphyxiation way, like breathing near him is hard but breathing away is impossible, like he can't fight the urge to pull him in unless he punches him away, literally sometimes, just to feel bad after. It's a feeling he thought he was getting used to, like maybe this is not unbearable, until of course yuujiro made it, like he always does, sometimes he feels like yuujiro was put in his way specifically to piss him off to no end, to tire him until he has no other option but to fall to his feet, and thats how he feels right now, yuujiro still holding on to his shirt, now stained with tears after screaming,

"I get it" he finally said solemnly, not yet sure how to go about this, because the only thing he wants to do is hug him, make the tears go away even if he was the reason for them in the first place

"Im the same" with a watery smile "even right now you're managing to make me feel things I have never imagined, it makes me want to crawl off my skin you know"

A sniff and yuujiro slowly looks up, eyes filled with desperation and tiredness and wonder,

"Yeah i know"

Aizo against his better judgment reaches both arms and wraps them around his partner, and that is the only qualifying word for his relationship, because he still can't understand how he can spend all his waking hours with or thinking about a person, telling him things he hasn't tell anyone else, and still feel like there's a mile between them, not even sure if he is allowed to cross it, because he would sure like to

"Im sorry" he hates that word, makes him feel dirty and exposed and knows this is the time he's meant it the most. He pulls yuujiro closer, mentally begging to every God he doesn't pull away this time, let him just have this time

"I know im rude and annoying and too much and sometimes it feels like you make me worse, but" he doubts "but I like me when I'm with you"

Yuujiros startled by the words, with a sniff he looks into aizos eyes, still not letting go of the embrace, then an empatuc smile

"If you think youre rude i can't imagine what I am"

"But I like me better when I'm with you too"

"I like you when you're with me too"

Aizo doesnt hold back and without the chance to backtrack his words he feels a nervous yuujiro lean in, eyes lidded but a small glint of fear peaks out, that's the last he sees before he closes the distance and presses his lips against yuujiro's

He gets lost in the sensation, he feels a noose in his chest loosen, this is what he's been searching for all this time, this is what he was running away and punching his way out of, just to realize that really, why would he choose anything but this?, he holds yuujiros head like he's something precious, and feels him tremble under, just to hold his shirt tighter and deepen the kiss, almost with hunger and anger and desperation and urgency, like he might drown if he doesn't, wich ironically makes aizo feel like he's drowning himself, he doesn't mind tho, as long as yuujiro holds him he might be as well as invincible.

Yuujiro is the one to let go, even if he clearly doesn't look happy about it, aizo feels like he just woke up and the only thing he can do is stare into yuujiros everything,- still not taking in enough- they're both panting but yuujiro looks at him like a predator and before he can make his mind about if he should run away or prepare for a punch, his lips are captured again.

I want to say first that I'm really high and I was watching the last stage mv and that scene showed up and my hands just moved by themselves and wrote this so any mistake or straight up nonsense can't be held against me. Okay.

Anyways I might do an actually fanfic about this hehe

[selfundiagnosed]

I cant watch youtuber commentary videos because to me its what i assume straight women feel when having sex it genuinely enrages me. i cant watch people make commentary videos anymore because its not about getting insight on topics being talked about right now its about watching the same influencer giving their noncritical think pieces to random topics they didnt know about until mere hours before hoping in front of the camera and pressing record. everyday. Damn its so bad. watching them try to deepen the conversation with their twitch chat is comical because its obvious they have NO idea what theyre talkimg about it makes you want to start laughing but maybe crying bc how do hundreds of thousands of people depend on this asshole to say the thing that wont get them canceled? bc lets be real thats why 90% of these people watch these types of videos. they cover all these fucking topics how are they qualified to speak on all these things? 😳 the truth is theyre NOT! their audience just sees them as someone trustworthy to get their opinions from because THEY know how to find the people who *are* knowledgeable on the topics they wanna cover and repeat the exact same things they saw these qualified people type in the replies of the story VERBATIM and just repeat them in front of a webcam and a live chat. All while being an influencer people know they agree with everytime they make a video like this. its so fucking pathetic how do you guys rely on these people to tell you what to think i genuinely cannot watch the same youtuber over and over because the more i see them make these types of videos the clearer it becomes to me that people just watch these people not to think critically but bc they like the person repeating the same jargon they could read themselves. oh, and the person is safe and familiar and a comfort character lmfao. i genuinely dont know if its just like… i was raised to be an ENTP or what… but there has only been one social commentary youtuber i ever watched in my entire life who actually says something constructive about the topics she covers bc A.) she is intelligent B.) the topics she covers are all topics specific to her everyday lived experiences and she doesnt talk about topics that arent at least a little related to the main information she teaches C.) she isnt just cranking out videos for views/$ lmfao shes taking her time she puts her entire mind out on the plate and cuts into it with you the viewer slowly guiding you to the next point and makes sure you eat the course in the most digestible / optimal way to ensure you are FULL. if i have to watch another idiot streamer just talk out of his ass to his twitch chat trying to make sure he’s the all knowing Logic and Semantics King while knowing & saying NOTHING of substance im going to scream. talks to fucking talk and do the littlest amount of work while getting ALLLL the credit from democrat liberals who know the bar is underground with cishet dudes on youtube and literally uproar in applause when some average guy says pronouns! racism bad! its a giant circle jerk and anyone who wants to actually hear something worth digesting has to numb their brains anytime someone who cant sit in silence decides to put on their emotional support twitch streamer who was violently racist on the internet up until 2020. Mmmakes me wanna paint the ceiling red with hint of brain-matter popcorn texture technique:3

[stellardeer]

I feel like a lot of people dont know or understand what being a "pick me" means, I feel like they just heard the word on tiktok and decided that it means whatever they want it to mean.

If you dont know, the term originally was used to describe women/girls specifically, and a "pick me" girl is one who puts down other women in a misogynistic way that makes it clear she wants approval from men. Specifically by agreeing with men if they say things like "women talk too much/care too much about their hair/nag too much" and she would probably agree by saying "Yeah thats stupid girly stuff. Why do they get so mad at their boyfriends over stupid shit I would never do that." And act like they are incapable of ever doing anything that would qualify them as one of the same women that men complain about. They'll call other women stupid or clingy or slutty or whatever misogynistic thing they've heard a man say at some point in their life because they dont want to be grouped in with the women that those men are talking about. Its the "im not like other girls" mentality.

This was always the definition, it was talking about a very specific type of person. There is no such thing as a "pick me" boy because men are not held to the same standards of making themselves as small and nonconfrontational as possible that women are.

But I've seen so many people using the term to just refer to like... anyone who... wants attention?? Or anyone who is willing to agree with what someone else says to get them to like them. Which, okay maybe that's fair. But the term originated in feminist discussions to describe a specific phenomenon, to shed light on the idea that women need to stand up for each other and not tear each other down. Using it outside of that context waters it down and just makes it sound like women who perpetuate the patriarchy are the same as like.. someone who is willing to pretend to be into pokemon cause they want to make friends??

Anyway my former roommate was complaining once about a new a girl at her work and she called her a pick me and I asked how she was being a pick me, and she said she just spent the whole day talking to male customers in a really bubbly way and like hyping them up and stuff and she made it sound like she thought this girl was kind of air headed and I was like?? That just sounds like someone who is flirting? She is just flirty. Is she saying bad things about ther girls or are you just annoyed that she was getting attention from men while she was supposed to be working? And I asked her what she thinks a pick me girl is, cause this was the second time I had heard her use the phrase wrong, and I explained what its supposed to mean. But, knowing this person, who I am no longer friends with, she very clearly saw most other women as competition and she also talked shit constantly about "sorority girls" and how they dressed and talked, and it was so ironic that she was calling this bubbly flirtatious girl a pick me because, dude, literally you complaining about her right now because men like her and you think she's stupid IS PICK ME BEHAVIOUR.

[kindlyre]

AND!!!!

this conversation looks fucking hillarious w/o the readmores 😭😭 i just imagine us like, phatomiming or smth 😭

WE LOVE CYCLICAL ABUSE NARRATIVES!!!!! me when the cycle Gets You Gets You Gets You Gets Y

AROACE!! WE LOVE 2 SEE IT!!! the govt straight up wanta disabled people to just fucking die i swear to god. even if you get benefits theyre a pittance in this economy. i have to steal my groceries bc its either that or i cant afford everything. tho im not 100% out of my wheelchair, but I can walk significantly more and i could downgrade my knee braces from rigid ones to fabric ones! im gonna get a rollator soon to help w mobility so fingers crossed that helps! 🤞🏻 tho i get ur pain, my back pain was the most debilitating part pre-...miracle???

also i do have someone, i am engaged!! mr. i-forgot-he-feels-remorse is my fiancé! hes on tumblr too lmao he just cant think of a url for a dangan blog 😩 hes so sweet my ass did NOT settle not even a little! tho after i move im gonna look into other assistance programs tbh, even if i dont wanna go thru the yearslong hassle of getting disability specifically i can always see if theres other stuff i can qualify for!

i also like to date the soulbonds imma be so fr 😭 one of them just decided i had an ultimate ability and im like. aight 🧍‍♂️

ALSO HMMMM THATS AN INTERESTING TAKE ON JUNKO!!! i def dont think that angle fully *rules out* aspd moreso... her extreme boredom and the trauma she put herself thru caused her to develop it, but then it made the boredom worse and oops now the world is on fire! teehee!

either way the narrative is absolutely that the world completely failed her and had she been nurtured correctly this would not have happened-- tho i do wanna say its possible to care about someone and yet disregard their autonomy and feelings and rights (abusive parents do it all the time!)

tbh i really only trust myself w specifically aspd junko (or aspd kamakura which... idk i havent thought abt other than "maybe?") bc if i saw anyone ELSE do it id think "oh. oh no. theyre saying that bc shes the Evil One" bc i doooont trust ppl atp with all the shit ive seen in fandom

but my personal view on it is that most people with aspd will be normal people with a mental illness, and some of them will be dangerous, abusive people. thats life! i see this tip with writing gay villians, and i thjnk it applies here: its totally fine to write an antagonist with aspd! ...so long as theyre not the *only* person w aspd in the story. if theres just one pwaspd in the story, the "burden of representation" so to say is placed on them, but if there are multiple, that burden is not only shared, but itll be placed on the character thats closest to the protagonist, ESPECIALLY if it just straight up *is* the protagonist

i think both our hcs are valid tho!!! i just sharin my thoughts! and after all, no reason why she cant have both- i do!

THO ON GOD junko getting meds fixing her is so funny 😭😭 get this bitch medicated and hobbified!!! junko being the ultimate analyst as ryoko is so sad tbh bc like, shes extremely smart but because shes pretty, those smarts were disregarded. she ended the world but she was a kid once too and she was failed!!!

@kindlyre

Okay I'm VERY curious as to what mental illness you're writing Rantaro to have because it seems to be one of those stigmatized ones and I'm v curious???

[chaosnightmare]

i just i dont know. i don't think you should be encouraging ANYONE to reality check ANYBODY. maybe i'm projecting my experience too much but when people try to reality check me it makes everything so much worse regardless of how delicately they attempt it. even "what evidence do you have to support this belief" is upsetting, because i know i have none, which threatens the delusion, which causes me to shut down on you.

"does this affect anybody else?" of course not, this isn't either isn't about them or theyre in on it. "what else do you think might explain this?" nothing. my delusions aren't immediately responsive to new information, thats how most delusions tend to work. you can try to reason with me, but if i'm really in the thick of it, it will NOT work. "can we try to pick apart why you believe this?" why? why do you want me to stop believing in this? huh? are you trying to pull one over on me? are you afraid i'm catching on? are you trying to make a fool out of me? how does this benefit you? why are you asking me this? do you see how what you say can and will always increase my negative reactions to my delusions?

again i'm sure i'm probably projecting too much but like. at least in my case my delusions are extremely persucatory and are founded inherently in a paranoid view of the world. that's, like, really common. and i see people always trying to come up with safe ways to reality check, saying things like "oh if someone asks you to its okay", but i honestly still find that harmful. depending on how delusional your friend has gotten, you could be seriously harming them this way. its so much safer to go around a delusion than through it when tackling these issues with loved ones. ask how you can help them deal with the stress. offer to do things you know may help them feel just a bit better. offer a listening ear. i don't think you should immediately jump into trying to dismantle their beliefs even if they ask you to do so. like, keep in mind that in the trenches of psychosis you will rarely ever realize the extent to how severe your symptoms are. someone may very well ask to be checked because they aren't yet aware of how bad its gotten. its just not a safe practice and it should really just be left to professionals if ever. if you're that worried, know that lots of delusions will dissolve in time. they'll become less and less prominent until the person is finally able to approach the situation with a clear mind. this could take weeks or years and you'd need someone really seriously qualified to help accelerate that process. wait it out and help in safe ways.

i understand im sure theres at least one person out there who it really does help or else i doubt this information would be so widespread but awareness posts about how to handle a loved ones psychosis usually get on my nerves for reasons like this.

[darktimesdarkvibes]

Ok i have a scenario:

A friend insists on walking reader home because reader got drunk. How would yandere 2pm react when opening the door and seeing the friend with drunk reader?

The friend can be of any gender lol whichever you prefer, but i am once again asking for a gender neutral reader sjdhhsh im sorry if thats too much to ask

As I said in an earlier post addressed to you, I don't qualify this as something that's very long, and you have a certain thing you need so do NOT apologize please! If anything it will be on me if anything cannot be delivered with a gender-neutral reader. It’s my job to make the reader as blank a slate as possible identity-wise

If they are living together I will assume they are in a relationship

A reminder/disclaimer: These are not the actual 2pm, but are more like characters! This isn't real! This is not good or healthy behaviour and the members would not do this!

Tw: yandere, murder, mentions of hypothetical assault on the reader (by the friend, not our men)

Jun. K/Minjun

This man is not possessive, at least not for a yandere. He’s not the “I don’t want you to even talk to anyone else” kind of yandere. He is, however, protective. And he is pretty possessive over that role in your life. If your friend truly just walked you home and he is sure that nothing happened to you, he’ll be reluctantly grateful. However, next time he wants to be notified so he can head over to pick you up. Also, why were you getting drunk? Is there some issue on your life you need help with? And why were you getting drunk without him there? Were you just with this friend? He doesn’t like that, not one bit, but he can’t curb your freedom by telling you not to do that, right? But it’s so fucking dangerous out there and all of the world’s danger is multiplied several times when you get drunk... Maybe he could just suggest something...

“I don’t really like the idea of you drinking like this with just one other person. I’d like to be there next time. I know that may be asking a lot but it’s just dangerous out there, so please?”

If your friends is a lot bigger than you/could physically overpower you, and especially if they are a guy (bc whatever your gender-identity is, it is valid to be cautious around men especially) then all of his protective tendencies are magnified.

“Baby, why didn’t you phone me? I would have been there in an instant!”

“No, it wouldn’t have been inconvenient! You’re my whole world and I want to be the one taking care of you! Please, phone me first next time.”

And it’s a given that he’s also going to tenderly take care of you. You’re his number one priority!

Nickhun

“What on earth have you been doing?”

He’s upset and and rather suspicious. First of all, you are not seeing that friend again. What were they thinking, letting your get this drunk? It doesn’t matter if nothing happened to you, he’s going to bring you inside immediately and probably slam the door in that friend’s face. He won’t be happy with you either, but he’ll place the brunt of the blame on your friend.

“I don’t want you hanging out with them anymore if this is what you two do together.”

If he has any reason to suspect that your friend got you drunk on purpose for nefarious purposes, shit is going to go down.

First, though, he’s going to take care of you. He comes off as rather commanding when he does it, but he knows what’s best, right?

Taecyeon

When he first opens the door and finds you both on the doorstep he’s furious, and for a split second it does show on his face. His eyes widen, his nostrils flair, and his jaw tenses. However, with a twitch of his head a slightly tense smile appears on his face and he invites your friend in as he draws you into his arms.

He softly puts you to bed and briefly strokes your head, intending to come back later to tend to you. Then he comes back through to sit down with your friend and talk with them. His demeanor is calculating now. He studies them, learns about them, and tries to determine their intentions toward you.

As I said in his headcanons post, he’s pretty sure of himself and confident that you will choose him every time, but getting drunk with someone and them walking you home is not okay. You are being vulnerable with that person. That’s intimate. And he feels that that friend put you in a vulnerable state, so for their sake they should realize they are on thin fucking ice and they should choose their words carefully.

If he thinks you just got drunk together and there was nothing intentionally nefarious going on, then maybe nothing happens to them, but he’s still pissed at both of you. He tells you that if you want to drink, he wants you either at home or he has to be there, and anyone else present has to be someone he has vetted.

If he has the slightest inkling that you friend was going to try anything, even if they were just trying to get closer to you or separate you and him because they realize he’s a horrible partner, your friend is going to have something unpleasant happen to them. What happens will depend on what he thinks your friend’s intentions may be toward you, but the worse he finds them to be the more pain and terror your friend will experience.

The next morning he questions you as well.

“Why the fuck were you drinking with them?”

“Did they do anything to you?”

“Fuck, I bet they like you. Ugh! I’m gonna kill them!”

After he calms down he's going to passive-aggressively tell you off in a lilting tone

"You know you shouldn't have done that, right? And you won't do it again?"

He is also going to be quite touchy with you in a firm way. If you stop holding his hand he pouts, whines, and grabs your hand again with a tighter grip this time. And if he’s not trying to hold your hand, he has his arm around you or you’re locked in his embrace.

Wooyoung

I almost feel bad for him. This man is crushed.

He so wants you all to himself. So, so, so much. Questions shaped by anxiety race through his mind

Why was Y/n with them?

Were they alone together?

Who are they?

What’s their relationship?

Why did they get drunk?

Oh shit, did anything happen to them?

Did that asshole do something?

He won’t ask you too much at first, especially if you are very drunk. First he’ll take care of you. Then the next morning he’ll question you about it. If he feels like you’re hiding anything he’s going to keep pushing and get pretty intense. If you play your cards right there’s a chance of you getting out of this and he’ll start feeling secure again, but this is the sort of shenanigans which could lead to him not letting you leave the house until he feels better. But once he’s really got you isolated, is he going to let you go ever again...?

Junho

Oh my word he is pissed. Even if he recognizes this friend he’s going to react like “And who the fuck are you?” As in “Who the fuck are you to be walking Y/n home?” He’ll yank you inside, and just like Nickhun, he’ll slam the door in your friend’s face.

He’s going to be cold to you. When he gets mad he goes for the silent treatment first until he feels ready to talk to you again. Even if you’re drunk you will probably pick up on it.

“What’s wrong? What do you think? I just found you blind drunk with someone else!”

Even though he’s mad at you he’ll begrudgingly take care of you.

If he has any reason to suspect they could be competition for your romantic attention, he’s going to forbid you to see them again. He may even quickly put you to bed to rest and follow your friend. I can easily see him cornering them in an alley and giving them a quick couple of stabs in the abdomen, leaving them to hopefully bleed out as he heads home to tend to you, feeling a bit better.

If he is somehow 100% sure that you two are just friends and it was an innocent outing, he doesn’t want you two drinking together again, and whenever he sees them he’ll treat them coldly.

Chansung

If Wooyoung was crushed, Chansung is devastated. He’s worried about you and your relationship but he’s also absolutely infuriated at your friend. How fucking dare they pump your body full of poison! Even if going out was your idea, and you bought the drinks, it’s their fault. They must have influenced you.

He’s going to prioritize taking care of you. He’s going to get as much water into you as possible and do everything possible so that you aren’t hungover or anything in the morning. He’ll help you get ready for bed and make sure you go to sleep. All the while, he’ll be trying to find comfort in the fact that at least he’s the one doing all this for you, and hopefully the sober you will appreciate it tomorrow.

The next day he’s going to be so insecure. He wants all the reassurance possible. He’s going to be needy and clingy and he’ll want you in his sight and in his arms all day. 

The next order of business is yet another murder. Before he kills them, he’ll interrogate them and find out what their intentions were. It won’t change much, but he’ll make the death a bit slower if he thinks they wished to do you any harm.

[an0nymousghost]

simblr asks v2

here are my answers! find the questions here.

i wrote soo much ahaha. like however much you think i wrote, i wrote more than that. imo everything i write is gold though

1. are you going to buy the new pack (cottage living) when it comes out? no, it looks really nice but i legit never ever buy packs at launch, especially cause this one is a expansion and it will probably go on sale at some point

2. do you p*rate your dlc or buy it legitimately? buy it legitimately 👌

3. what’s your favorite world? brindleton bay, it gives like seaside cottage vibes. willow creek is good but it’s boring. 

4. if you use a queue, how many posts per day do you set it as? 3 or 4. i used to do like 12 lmaoo what even was wrong with me

5. do you watch sims on youtube? yes, i watch mainly malixa, oshinsims, and msgryphi

6. what are your thoughts on the most recent pack? (dream home decorator) those sectional couches look good! but honestly im kinda annoyed because now it’s even harder to have all the items filled in when i place lots from the gallery. like i’m just saying like a lot of builds will use that pack probably and if i don’t get it then i can’t really use builds/save files 

7. how many packs/kits do you own? lemme count

expansion: all - 10/10 game: 5/10 stuff: 9/18 kits: none xo

24/38 - 63%

8. what’s your origin id? is it the same as your url? 🤗 it’s in my title, it’s celeschul. it doesn’t look that nice in my title but i use celeschul in my package files and i’m guessing people search things like, “celeschul penny hair” or something like that in order to find my cc- so i keep it in there so the search results are easier. i do want to change it though..

but no it’s also not the same! well i mean it’s the username i use for cc. my origin id used to be an0nymousghost but i changed it. i wonder if anyone’s taken that one?

9. is your simblr your sideblog or main blog? main blog ✌️ my old blog @stardze​ is a main blog as well.

my old old simblr was a sideblog but it had like 1 follower and it literally a bot so i don’t think that counts. i have a multifandom sideblog though 

10. do you have a cc finds blog? i wish. i was thinking bout it earlier and that would be sooo neat but sometimes i download stuff that doesn’t have a tumblr post attached to it, and also it’s stressful to keep up with so nah

11. are you wcif friendly? yes sir. in fact i bring the trouble of wcifs onto myself but doing them even when nobody asked.

12. what’s your favorite sized household to play with? (ex. 1 sim, 4 sims) gonna have to think on this one, honestly 1 sim is really fun and stuff goes by so fast. doing stuff with astrid when she was on her own, it was much more efficient. 

for families, i haven’t done that in a while actually. 5, 2 parents and 3 kids is cute tho. why did i write this this is honestly such a hard question

13. if you have c&d, do you play with pets? i feel like i haven’t played with cats and dogs in forever. honestly i just have no paitence. noelle fae was supposed to get a cat (there’s a food bowl + cat bed in her house) but when summer vacation started, the amount of time i spent playing ts4 decreased a lot. (this doesn’t really make sense, i have a lot more time. honestly it just has to do with my recent obsession with a certain anime/manga and some other personal thing)

i did random nightmares in may though and i had pets frequently. g5 didn’t because sofia scarlett lived in an apartment, but g2/3/4 had cici, and g1 had all the cats. but that was back in march so it’s been a while.

14. what lifespan do you use? i really want to do aging off but then i feel like it drags on. but aging legit stresses me out, sometimes i just want to sit down and do some cas stuff but i only have 2 hours in real time and there’s like 4 days left till one of my sims’ birthdays. 

15. if you own a lot of packs, how many of them have you actually played through? just so everyone is aware this question was made for me

i feel like eps require a specific save made for testing them out, but the only save i’ve ever made for an ep is noelle fae’s get famous save. 

that is literally a lie - i made a save for island living with one of my 100bc kids, maisie acapella. i did actually post it on tumblr BUT then i deleted all the posts BUT i reblogged them on my alt account BUT i privated my alt account so i honestly forgot about it

i have never played through discover university or watched anyone do it on youtube, i’ve read gerbits’ story about it so i think i’m pretty qualified. i’ve always wanted to do one with periwinkle acapella but i never got around to it

another ep i know nothing about is get to work

i tried doing a eco life playthrough but i hadn’t watched any videos and i was like..what is going on. so i quit lolx d ;;;;; i mentioned it but the whimsy stories legacy was the first time i had played with the eco lifestyle features so technically i think i know what im doing

i got outdoor retreat literally on monday of this week so i haven’t played through it yet. 

jungle adventure i still don’t know what’s going on. i remember last year before i bought the pack i was brainstorming, and wanted to do a ja playthrough with luna and cedar, who are a couple who i did a random legacy with and it was all queued to post when i deleted everything (if you’re wondering why, it’s because my queue was literally 200+ posts). except this time i didn’t save them to my sideblog so i lost them. 

i still havent had a restaurant in dine out 

also never did the vet thing from cats and dogs

i have no idea what that rock climbing thing is from snowy escape but i did most of the other stuff because rn g5

city living i did through psc stage 5 and also it was the first pack i bought anyways

the rest of them are either stuff packs or i ended up playing them through casual gameplay (seasons, parenthood)

16. what do you do as you play sims? (ex. listen to music) i listen to music most of the time, or listen to commentary youtube videos because i am an alpha chad. i also used to talk with my friends on voice call but i don’t do that anymore 🥲

17. which sims challenges have you tried? random legacy, whimsy stories, perfect sim challenge, 100 baby, legacy (just the plain get-to-10-gens one), random nightmares, berry zodiac, astrology legacy, apocalypse

i feel like im forgetting some.. honestly most of the stuff i did before simblr was either 100 baby (i love that challenge) or random saves that lasted for 2 seconds. 

18. do you like the new(ish) hair swatches? nah. 

i do appreciate that most cc hairs have a true (ish) black, thank god! and the fact that the hair update is what inspired me to update and fix a bunch of hairs with different issues is pretty nice. but will i use them? no. 

plus it takes up like 5 gb? depending on how many packs you have.

19. post the latest screenshot you took 📸

i live in cas

20. what is the cc/ingame hair that looks the most like your own? i think that dream home decorator side part hair looks a lot like my hair. honestly i havent see much like my hair but that one is kinda-? close

21. who is your favorite sim of yours and what is their story? noelle and alari fae i think! 

link to post

noelle is blonde and has blue-grey eyes. she wears purple contacts pretty often though (because she wants to 😌)

alari has light brown hair that is kinda curly, and she’s got pretty vibrant blue eyes. 

they’re sisters, alari is 3 years older than noelle. noelle was 19 and alari was 22 when they got spotted

they worked as models when they were young adults. their jobs involved dyeing their hair blue/pink, and they would model like clothes and stuff. anyways, they were pretty successful. like not ultra famous but they had enough money to not work for the rest of their lives. 

their modeling group was made of 4 girls, the others were named paisley autumn and they were green and red, respectively. some things are: 

paisley and alari started dating during this 

autumn was a single mother to a little girl named destiny

noelle dated many people during this but never ended up finding the one <3

when their contract ended after like 6 years, paisley and alari went to go live together and noelle decided to get into acting. so thats when get famous playthrough started!

there’s more but basically they’re like oc’s with sims on the side. xoxo

22. if you use cc, are there any cc creators that you have like ALL of their items? this is such a good question! i hoard hair very heavily (my folder is 11gb) i so i have like 97% from most of the popular hair creators. 

i think i had legitimately EVERYTHING from simstrouble though, i went through multiple times to check and i also have all of her retired stuff. 

i have everything from ridgeport i think-? because of the fact that she uploaded all her stuff in one big zip. 

i think that’s it.. for a long time i also had everything by clumsyalienn, but then i ended up deleting it and only keeping my faves. 

and looking at my collection, maybe ah00b? i might be missing a couple but i at least have like 99%.

23. what’s one pack you think is underrated? dine out, it’s laggy af yes but it’s such a nice thing for my sims to do. 

24. what are your favorite sims stories/legacies? melons by gerbits always and forever

this question was inspired by this ask anyways so 

25. if you could change one small thing about ts4, what would it be? most of my suggestions are pretty complex but literally just - when you add tray files, they appear at the top. my life would be so much easier

this took me literal hours to answer

[weebsinstash]

Coming from someone who's genderfluid, I'm thriving off the recent posts you're making

It's honestly sort of weird and undefined for me, cause like

I noticed quite a few years ago that I started having a lot of sort of, I guess you could say questioning thoughts about gender over the years. I've been thinking about it a lot recently in particular because a friend of mine came out as nonbinary, and also I was having a lot of those sort of prompt ideas I was joking about earlier with like, a Reader character who feels their identity on a sliding scale based on how they're feeling, and at one point where I was daydreaming some sort of scenario, to myself I'm like "hey remember that time in middle school when you had a legitimate gender crisis crying as you hid in the basement at the thought of being rejected by your mother for not identifying as 100% female and your mental solution to that was 'my gender is just being me and existing as myself' and you actually still think that from time to time. Maybe thats like, indicative of something"

On the other hand due to traumas and anxieties and things like that, I always want to have "evidence" or "proof" when there's something about myself, like I need to be validated to actually "exist", and for gender that gets complicated because that's all social constructs? Gender roles change from culture to culture and most cultures have some sort of form of being another gender anyways so.... i guess.... every single time I start having the whole Gender Crisis, I always come to "gender isn't an inherently set in stone thing and I'm not actually hurting anyone by seeing how it feels to identify as something else" but I guess I never actually... put a name on whatever that something else was, or even went "im gonna do this for a while and see how it feels". I just feel like genderfluid best describes what I feel, but to be honest I have so much trauma from various sources that i worry I just have a lot of internalized misogyny and I'm experiencing some sort of shame over being a woman which is honestly why I've never even. Discussed any of this with another person. Like at all.

There was a thing that happened to me in second grade in elementary school that I still remember... the teacher was doing a game where she was giving all of the kids names for if they were the opposite gender (oh god would that not fly in today's social climate) and for me, Miranda, she picked out the name Michael, which I think was a name I already liked anyways, and I just. Have never forgotten... the weird affectionate sort of way I've carried that with me. Sometimes sitting and remembering when that happened or just thinking "Michael, huh..." and honestly i kind of looked in the mirror in the other day and felt a little voice go "hi Michael" and it felt. I dunno. Not bad. Not exactly wrong. And it definitely isn't true to call myself a transman because I know for certain that I don't feel, I guess, that definitive feeling of being the exact opposite of what I should be, I guess is how I would describe it? Sometimes I feel like I need small tweaks, not the whole renovation, you know? So I kind of identified... I guess in early childhood that there was sort of the "other" option.... i'm rambling i dunno...

So yeah gender is weird and I don't exactly know if I "qualify" but..... yeah. It's all weird and confusing for me to think about because it's all ultimately subjective but... I kinda just felt like opening the discussion I guess 👉👈

[fan-clan-fun]

Canon Clans Suffixes (with name changes)

Because I find it fun to scrutinize “The Sacred Texts” with a scalpel and a magnifying glass, I like to revamp little things like naming. So here’s my attempt at giving some iota of consistency to this messy world we love. My goals here are to stick to traditionalism, but also throw in some suffixes I personally love and give them meanings. I’ll also include some canon cats whose names I’ve changed to fit this system.

Lovely! Its always helpful to see personal interpretations and preferences for suffixes, everybody has a few they really like!

-claw: a skilled fighter. Classic pick. Cats who get this include Tigerclaw, Hornetclaw (Bramble-), Lionclaw (-blaze), Shrikeclaw (Ivypool), and Juniperclaw.

I see you are changing a lot of the prefixes as well! I do admit I like Shrike and Hornet as prefixes, and Shrikeclaw does seem to fit her quite well.

-cloud: a calm, easygoing cat. Also a classic. Whitestorm has been renamed Whitecloud to fit this and Tree’s clan name is Ashcloud.

-face: a particularly handsome or beautiful cat. I gave this name to Amberface (Berrynose), Tipface (Stemleaf), and Mothface (-wing)

Honestly giving Berrynose a name with the -face suffix would help to explain a lot of the stuff involving him lol. 

-fang: good fighter and good hunter. From what I heard, Sparkpelt seemed to need this suffix, so she’s renamed Sparkfang. I don’t know who else would earn this though.

-feather: a medicine cat skilled at reading omens. This is my standard pick. It also lets me keep names like Goosefeather and lets Jayfeather keep his suffix (but he’s renamed to Juniperfeather). Shadowsight also gets this suffix, becoming Shadefeather.

An interesting choice, though I am curious as to why this one was chosen (besides name consistency), what is the reasoning behind it? Do omens often come in the shape of birds? What connects -feather to spirituality?

-flower: a nurturing cat. Many cats get this name. Cloudflower (Moon-), Snowflower (-fur), Willowflower (-breeze) Goldenflower, Aspenflower (Ferncloud), Whiteflower (-wing), Daisyflower, and the one notable tom case, Rockflower (Fernsong).

Pretty standard, although I do like that you give Fernsong a -flower name. I may not have read the arcs past Omen of the Stars but he does have that reputation of being a nurturer.

-foot: a fast cat, also a classic. Spiderleg becomes Spiderfoot and Harespring becomes Harefoot.

-fur/pelt: a cat with nothing really notable about them. Alderheart, Tigerheart, and Kestrelflight become Alderpelt, Adderpelt, and Kestrelfur respectively. Bluestar’s warrior name is still Bluefur.

-heart: a cat with strong morals. Rookheart (Hollyleaf), Rimeheart (Bristlefrost), Mudheart (Hawkfrost), and Smokeheart (Cinder-) all get this suffix, as does Fireboy over here.

I am so glad that you have given both Holly and Hawk the -heart suffix, I think it really does fit them quite well. I will probably fiddle with names a bit when the times come as well for my own writing and giving these two the -heart suffix is one of my plans.

-leaf: a medicine cat skilled in the healing aspect of their job. Spottedleaf got this one, as did Speckledleaf (Brambleberry), Fireleaf (Flametail), and Willowleaf (-shine). I think they may shake things up a little with -root and/or -berry and/or -bark.

Out of curiosity, why would only medicine cats shake it up a little with suffixes? It seems like none of the other suffixes have any of the same meaning.

-nose: an intuitive cat skilled in tracking. Only two notable characters get this, Dovenose and Maplenose (Leafpool).

I actually think these name changes work quite well, and do fit Dove’s power and her abilities.

-path: a cat with an affinity for mentoring. I noticed Rosepetal had five apprentices, so I gave her the name Rosepath.

I’ve heard whispers that -path was used by some people as a mentoring suffix, which is really cool!

-storm: a cat with a turbulent disposition, also classic. Crowstorm (-feather) and Beetlestorm (Breezepelt) get this, as does Dapplestorm (Blossomfall).

I mean the suffix sure does fit those cats.

-stream: a strong swimmer. Silverstream gets this obviously. Not sure who else would get it though because I’m only including it for traditionalism’s sake. It’s not one I’m particularly fond of.

Thats interesting, Im curious as to why? Maybe another suffix like -creek or -leg would be preferable if you dont like the sound?

-stripe: a tabby with distinct stripes. Graystripe gets this and so does Honeystripe (-fern). There’s also -speck and -spots for the other tabby types

-tail: an agile cat, very classic. A lot of cats get this. Cherrytail (Squirrelflight), Birchtail (-fall), Wisteriatail (Twigbranch), Honeytail (Heather-), and a bunch of bg characters with -spring, -leap, or -flight in their names.

-throat: a skilled orator, linguist, bard, storyteller, or just a well-spoken cat. This is a very rare suffix and no notable characters get this.

So I am actually very curious about this, because if a suffix is so rare, that you cant name a cat in the series at all to have it, why is it on the list? Would any cat even remember it if isnt in use? What kind of requirements would you have to have for this suffix, since I cant imagine that there would be many (if any) teenagers/young adults who could be considered masters of speech or storytelling at the 12 moons most cats get their warrior names at. I would suggest if you want to keep a suffix on the list, it should have at least one usage in the clans, else they would forget about it. 

-whisker: a prudent hunter. I can’t think of anyone I changed to -whisker on the spot.

And here are some other suffixes I’m indecisive on.

-pad or -shade could be a stealthy cat. Even if I accepted one or the other, it’d be hard to pin down who would get this.

Personally I do think that having a stealth suffix is a pretty good way to expand a more traditional system, because its also a very useful skill. While it can be used in hunting (and some might say a whisker cat is by nature stealthy), a stealthy cat has a separate but partially overlapping set of skills. It does seem like you havent gone through all the names in the many many books so far, so I am sure there are a few cats somewhere who could have qualified for this suffix if you choose to keep it. 

Considering -ear or -eye to mean a skilled scout, but that’s overlapping a lot with -nose’s territory, so I’m hesitant in including it.

I agree with you when it comes to -nose, and since -nose already seems to be uncommon, I would think sticking with nose is sufficient. 

I considered -stone for the meaning of “a very loyal and dedicated cat”. Not sure about it.

I do like -stone as well, but unless you have a specific cat in mind I probably wouldnt include it. 

I’m thinking -pool could be for a wise cat, but I’m not sure about that.

-shine is a cute suffix, but it’s rather hard to work with because it doesn’t mesh well with a lot of prefixes. I could use it to mean “upbeat and cheerful” and give it to Briarlight, but it’s not exactly easy to work with.

-frost is an amazing suffix, but it’s sort of the opposite of -shine. It sounds good with a lot of prefixes, but it’s hard to pin down a meaning for it.

I really like -light as a suffix but dang if it isn’t a monster to work with. It has -shine and -frost’s problems, but I really like it and don’t want to give up on it.

-breeze is a pretty solid suffix, but I’m afraid it’ll be redundant. -foot is pretty solid and I can’t really change that because traditionalism. Maybe it’s like -fang? I’m not sure.

Similarly, I like -thorn and -blaze as suffixes, but they’re pretty hard to work with when you already have names that fill their niches and have the “one suffix per meaning” rule that stricter traditionalism has.

Yeah I see your concern for most these last suffixes. As lovely as they are, unless they have a good solid place in you writing, and cats you can immediately think of using for their names, I wouldnt be too worried about incorporating them into your clans.

Anyway, there’s my suffix list! I hope you enjoyed! And if you have any suggestions, please let me know because I am not bright. Thank you!

[bitchfitch]

concept im probably never going to do anything with: american cis het white man who idolizes and strives for that post 9/11 idea of true masculinity (guns, violence, cold stoicism, nationalism disguised as patriotism, sad and brooding tough guy survivor who doesn't need anyone else besides 1 (one) pretty lady to tame him, you know what im talking about) but can never come close because that sort of behavior is just not in his nature. he takes this to mean that he is not a True Man tm and goes to self destructive extremes to try and force himself into this mold.

then he meets a man who is, on the surface, everything true man wannabe, wannabe for short, wants to be. hes silent unless he needs to bark an order or be quietly and roguishly charming, hes cool and collected in any circumstance, closed off and mysterious, hes a force to be rekoned with in a fight, hes james bond levels of suave and has no problems charming the women at the bar but turns them down when they ask if he wants to spend the night with them because he has a Fiance tm that hes fiercely loyal to.

Hes everything Wannabe wants to be and more. and Wannabe envies him endlessly. Wannabe tries to mirror him, to pick up on his endless luck, to be him. only to find it an impossible task.

and then they get home, or enough time goes by that Wannabe starts to see through the seems of the perfect mans facade. Perfect man isnt trying to put on this facade, its just a mixture of trauma and practicality. And Wannabe doesn't know how to handle that. He sees perfect man be so much Happier when he lets the facade drop, when hes imperfect, when he indulges his femininity alongside his masculinity.

and Wannabe learns to accept the femininity that makes him happy, through watching the perfect man do so.

notes: i decided wannabe should cishet and white, but i could see him in almost any demographic depending on what sort of story you wanted to tell.

ftm- for a character that maybe strives for this peak masculinity because he believes its what will finally get everyone to accept him as a true man

mtf- for a character whos scared of her femininity and what it means.

gay/bi- tbh, i kinda think this story only works if wannabe isnt interested in men. i dont want to risk either him or the audience assuming his obsession with perfect man is romantic or sexual. because while that can be interesting, it adds a facet of confusion to what would already be a fairly complex and delicate narrative.

aro-ace or aro but not ace- i could also see wannabe needing to come to terms with just not Wanting a relationship and seeing that as a failure on his part, because what True Man Wouldn't want to be in love with a nice lady?

ace but not aro- this would also be about him needing to come to terms with just not being sexually interested in anybody. what True Man doesn't want to go to bed with Every pretty lady?

poc- tbh im not in a position to speculate on how every single racial identity would intersect with this kind of character, bc like... theyd all be radically different? the reasoning behind an east asian man seeking out this level of toxic masculinity is going to be radically different to why a black man would do the same thing. and thats assuming hes still american, because changing his nationality would also change the base culture that made him like this and bla bla bla im not qualified to talk on this.

[tomsandal]

The one where Tom went "can I just make stuff up?" and didn't wait for an answer

a/n: incredibly terrible title brought to you by you yes you who couldn't give me better one heart

characters: červená kapota, tom sandál

warnings: teensy weensy cosmic horror/death depiction at the start (because i am a moron and a fool and forgot what genre im writing), alcohol mention

words: 1,8k

To truly start at the story’s beginning, we’ll need to go many pages back in history books.

It was millennia ago, when something very strange took place and changed the world from how it was known.

It so happened that, for some mysterious reason, a meteorite crashed down on earth and landed in a crater in some frankly unnoteworthy forest.

This incident did not go without notice of course, and not too long after it had fallen were there already parties of plenty that were eager to find out what strangeness took place the night before. Many ventured into the forest, allured by the mystery or driven by their responsibility to protect their village, but not a single one of those brave souls has ever made the journey back. And so the number of volunteers and explorers thinned over time, for the prospect of being lost to those woods without a seeming trace was enough to ward off even the bravest of the brave.

However all those who did go, did not disappear in an equal way.

Some of those who ventured started to feel effects of a mysterious force soon after the start of their journey. Those ones met their end lying down on the forest floor, feverish and plagued by visions indescribable. No man’s willpower to follow common sense and go back home could win over the pull of the compelling presence.

But some of them pulled through. The strongest and greatest of them all did get to see what their end goal was this whole time.

There in the clearing lay the mystery. Patches of brilliant blue were shining among the dark stone, twinkling not unlike the stars that hung above them.

And standing there, in this crushing magical presence, humans did what humans tend to do and moved to touch the shiny stone.

It was no easy feat, bracing against the sheer force of the meteorite this close to the source of all this madness, but some of them managed to do so.

Finally, with their goal at their literal fingertips, they laid their hands at the glittering surface. And their hands melted right off.

The lucky ones died from the immediate shock from the pain. The rest bled out among the grass, suffocating in the stone’s heavy aura.

And some of them leaned even closer... for the call had won over.

For some time has the stone been left undisturbed, lying unmoved while its surroundings changed as the years went by. No wise enough soul dared to enter the haunted forest. And so the years passed in hundreds and the celestial body had started to merge with the surrounding environment. Many years has it been since then, when it was finally fully covered and sunken deep into the ground and its power dimmed to a hum.

If you were to walk by that place at that moment, you wouldn't think there to be anything out of the ordinary. And so didn't the people that had settled there.

Who might know why they chose this secluded woodland place for their settlement but they did and surprisingly prospered without any casualties.

The stone's powers have dulled over the centuries but they were still there nonetheless, even if only in a shadow of its former self, and the construction and disturbance of the ground was bound to wake it up.

And so the energy started seeping out, warping the unaware residence in the process. With each generation grew the changes more profound, until the place was almost unrecognizable. Plants grew wild and high, displaying colours very uncommon to vegetation anywhere, the roaming animals wouldn't be recognized even by the highest of scholars, trees grew twisted with leaves of gold and humans were born with features never seen before. Their hair was bright and shining in arrays of blues, purples and greens, just like the lights in the sky that could be seen from time to time. But since no negative effect seemed to take place, this magical village of star-touched people lived in-

“Star-touched...really.”

“Yes and no interruptions please.”

-lived in peace. But time was not kind to them.

The year was 1610, the witchcraft craze was at its peak and it didn’t take long until the hunt was brought to them as well. Their clearly otherworldly appearance couldn't be excused and many fell on the trials, under the hands of men driven by fear and hatred. The rest left their homeland, which ended promptly burned to the ground. From then on, they lived as hermits far, far from the human eye.

They lay in hiding for long, until their time has finally come, when people started walking among themselves with wild bright coloured hair and-

“wait, wait what about the magical wolves”

“That is tied to my own personal upbringing and no, was not in fact universal for everyone, stop messing up the timeline”

“oh I am messing up the timeline and not you making something different every ti-”

“As i was saying-” “and when do the glow squids come in” “My glow squid ancestry is clearly the reason for my eyes not the hair ”

“yes, of course, the eyes that are obviously not coloured contacts”

“Keep that tone to yourself and shush.”

///

It was a pleasant summer night, the air was crisp and the streets were quiet. And there, in a certain bar, sat two peculiar people.

Kapota sighed and let her friend-but not friend-associate from work-but not wanting to kill each other right now-buddy ramble on as she took a sip from her glass. She had ordered something called the Hanky Panky Cocktail Supreme and deemed it as decent enough, if a bit overpriced for a glorified gin and fernet.

Still, she would rather be holding a pint of good old fashioned beer, but finding a place around these parts with a half decent beer is near impossible. She will not be drinking that dishwater no thank you.

Good thing that she’s a skilled fancy drinker. A life skill which she picked up from her business bar outings, such as now, which maybe wasn't actually the most objective of examples since most of those were with Tom.

Not that the aforementioned was any help in the drink picking department, that maniac of a man just sashays to the bar and orders a literal colour and when no further explanation is given the bemused barkeep has to pick themselves from their array of colourful drinks.

Seems that they picked well today, because the current “pink” already sat empty before Tom.

She continued to mull over this and that, all the while enjoying the bar’s comfortable atmosphere, when something caught her attention.

“wait wait roll that back”

“Why, could it be that you weren’t paying attention?”

“Yes I was, but what were you saying about pointed ears?”

“Oh, just that the star-touched had pointy ears alongside the wild hair.”

“well, please do pray tell me Sandál dearest how could it be that your ears are rounded”

“As I said, a long time ago in the times most desperate, riddled with fear, pain and terror, food was scarce and from the terrible hunger they gnawed on their ears until they were completely rounded and from then on this feature was lost to them.”

“ok see now i know you're just making fun of me because thats just from that dumb movie you like”

“should have been listening.

Honestly why do i even bother, I am so generously sharing the long lost history of my kind and yet this audience is so ungrateful”

“noo i like your lore, don’t worry it's much more entertaining than ‘I went to the aisle 12 in Kaufland and picked the gaudiest shade of purple they had’”

Tom just grumbled to that and moved to take a demonstrative swig of his drink, but then he realized he didn't have any left anymore so he instead picked up the little paper umbrella and pointed it accusatively at Kapota.

“Never, have I been more disrespected, as I am right now.” He complained, while accentuating every word with a swish of the tiny umbrella.

“It's nothing personal pal, but you can’t exactly expect people to believe you with a name like yours.”

“Oh that's rich coming from you!”

“I'll let you know that the Kapota name is very ancient and regal, thank you very much. Passed down only by the generations of the clan McKap”

“Absolutely not.”

“It’s true look it up”

“Not happening, if i did that you would just laugh at me that i fell for it.”

“Well in that case I guess you’ll never know”

“oh shut up!”

“you shut up!”

…

It was a pleasant summer night, the air was crisp and the streets were quiet. And there, in a certain bar, bickered two peculiar people.

///

All in all Tom would consider this a successful night. He left the bar on his own two feet, had all his belongings still with him, including both of his important trademark sandals still on, and head somewhat clear.

About ten minutes back, they had been politely ushered out of the bar, because it was apparently closing. The shiny sign with the numbers 24 and 7 would beg to differ but sure.

Yeah, ‘always open’ my arse, people can't even trust bars these days.

He wasn’t really upset though, couldn’t blame the poor bloke either, because anyone who had to listen to their nonsense for the past -who knows how long- had all the right to kick them out. It didn’t matter anyway, tonight really was quite nice.

So now they were just lounging together on the sidewalk, enjoying the chilly air.

A lone car sped by somewhere in the distance.

Tom gently thunked his head on the wall behind him and let out a content sigh, next to him Kapota finally broke the silence.

“So...who’s the designated driver, hahh”

A good question indeed, since neither of them even closely qualify to anything akin to sober. Not that it would have changed much, given the fact that Tom does not in fact have a driving licence anyway. His most beloved, bless their heart, is incredibly awesome and does have one of those and drives him around in times of need. This would seem like a time of need and it wouldn't even be the first time Kap would hitch a ride with them, but this hour, other than time of need, is also time commonly known as ‘very late’.

“I guess I can try to give Tobi a call, but I dunno it's pretty late...”

“Nah, let ‘em sleep”

“So whats the battle plan Kaptn’? ”

“Where's the uhhh friggin closest bus stop.”

“Few damn blocks away at least that's for sure”

“Awesome... lets go its field trip time”

And so they went onto the grand adventure of getting safely home.

Some would deem it highly unwise to blunder around dark alleyways in the middle of the night, but honestly, unfortunate are those street rats who shall foolheartedly decide to pick those two fools as their next victims.

[rhiannon-writes]

hey, im so sorry if this is a dumb question, but how does one make a writeblr? like, what to do? where to start? where to publish the works? could you please help with the basics? thank you

Hi! It’s totally not a dumb question. It was scary for me to start this blog up at first, so it’s totally understandable that you’d be curious. 

I guess the absolute basic is figure out whether you want a sideblog or a main blog for writing. I love this blog and I’ve put a lot of work into it, but it’s a sideblog, so I can’t leave asks for my friends or comments on posts from this blog, it’s always from my main, which can get a bit confusing if someone doesn’t know what my main blog is. That’s why I always sign my asks to other people with - Rhiannon. So if you want to figure out real basics, use a sideblog if you want everything connected and easily accessible, but use a main blog if you want separation, which I would have preferred, but everyone is different!

After that, what I started doing is following a bunch of other writeblrs. I looked at what they did. I commented on their projects and tried to get involved in tag games. I reblogged any resources that I thought would be helpful for me later, and I cataloged them really specifically so that I could find stuff later. I started posting information about my projects and my process and my characters, which don’t get as much traction as the other stuff, but I still try to do it anyway. So where to start your blog? Follow people. Try to make friends. Get involved in tag games or Storyteller Saturday. Save resources that could help you, because maybe they could help other people. And once you feel comfortable post your own writings! Rant about a plot point you’re stuck on and ask for help from other writers! Start a trend where you create moodboards or a specific poetry style for a project or a character. The sky is the limit, but if your scared, it’s okay to start off quietly. (Another tip for finding writeblrs and resources and stuff is to follow tags. Writing resources, writing help, writeblr, writers of tumblr, sci-fi [if thats your genre], etc.)

I don’t totally understand what you mean by where to publish your works? I know a lot of writeblrs are writing novels to work towards traditional publishing, and that’s a big rabbithole I’m really not qualified to speak on right now. Others are working on self publishing, either through programs like ingram sparks or kindle direct publishing. I haven’t actually put any books out that way either. Others are writing for wattpad or ao3 or a number of other free online sites. Even more still are simply writing for tumblr, especially poetry blogs and the like. If you want to post a full novel, chapter by chapter, right here? There are people who will read it. But in my little corner of the community, most people are publishing excerpts and things like that, with the eventual plan to publish a full book for purchase.

I hope this answered some of your basic questions? The question is pretty broad, so I have trouble answering specifics, but if you or anyone else has any further questions then I’ll be happy to answer as soon as I can!

- Rhiannon <3

[angiethewitch]

Why is "I dont want to date bi women" not anti bi? Genuinely wondering, confused.

it depends on the qualifiers tbh. simply put, nobody has to date anyone. if a lesbian didn't want to date me, of course I'd be hurt, but at the end of the day, they're welcome to reject me. I've seen lesbians say that while they love and respect bi people, sometimes they just want to date other lesbians because lesbians face a unique experience as being women who only love women, and other lesbians can truly understand them.

I get you, it makes me side eye it sometimes. but at the end of the day, if a lesbian doesn't wanna date me, then thats their choice. maybe I wouldn't be able to understand their experience, I don't know. im a woman who is attracted to every gender, so im sure i have a different experience in this world that lesbians dont understand. I know bi women who will only date other bi people. people are allowed to reject you for any reason.

the issue is when biphobia comes into play, like a lesbian rejecting a bi women and saying its because theyre dirty because they've been touched by a man. again, they can still reject them, but their reasoning is shit and biphobic and im gonna get annoyed if I see it.

it depends on the reasoning tbh. obviously this is just my opinion and I don't speak for every bi person, but I believe people can reject others, and that's not inherently anti anything. but when the reasons for it are inherently biphobic, thats when it's a problem. does that make sense?