#but like. theres something kinda freeing about it
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Low-key kinda a shame Susie starts Deltarune as a girl bc the drama that could have happened if she was Transfem would be insane. Like her discovery of herself, the conflict with Ralsei over The Legend and her own free will, theres something substantial here.
I'm more of an egg transmasc butch susie personally but we are holding hands. you're cooking with fire so hard. it's about the self determination.
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something very comical going on with my gender rn
#back when i was like 14 i tried to be butch and it just wasnt me so it didnt like... work. its was costumey#but now 8 years later i just looked in the mirror#and i have crazy short hair and am wearing cut off cargo shorts that go to my knee#with a plain sports bra and some sandals#just with basic studs and hoops in my piercings#and ive never looked more dykey in my life#its actually kinda fucking great#(im dressed like this cause ive been lifting so im in gym clothes... with sandals now though)#but like. theres something kinda freeing about it#and i never planned for this is just happened#tree talks
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i just think if roles were reversed and buck was the one saying those gay ass lines to eddie, eddie wouldve proposed like four seasons ago
#like if buck had a kid and he said to eddie “theres no one in this world i trust with my kid more than you” eddie wouldve given him head#if buck had written him into his will and said “because eddie (cuz im sorry but buck loves eddies name too much to not use it)#you act like youre expendable but youre wrong“ eddie wouldve been like on his knees begging for buck to move in already#or if eddie did something reckless and after told buck he had to do it and buck just looked at him fondly and said “i know you did”#eddie wouldve dragged his ass to the nearest jewelry store to get them matching rings#or if someone off handedly mentioned how long he was dead/underground/uhhh bleeding out from his gunshot wound#and buck corrected them and said “um no actually it was 3 minutes and 17 before we got to the hospital” eddie wouldve done unspeakable#things to him in the bathroom of that underground poker club#or if eddie came out to buck and buck gave him a similar supportive little talk and said “this doesnt change a thing between us”#eddie wouldve been like “uh no actually it does get in the fucking car rn” and driven them to the courthouse so they could get married#basically#eddie says the gayest shit to buck all the time but buck just hears it as Normal Bro Things because hes never had a normal friend before so#he had nothing to really compare it to#but if buck were to say this kinda gay shit to eddie#eddie would immediately be like oh youre in love with me because eddie is a romantic and knows declarations of love when he hears them#however#buck communicates his feelings with flirting but eddie is fucking stupid and has no game and no rizz and doesnt realize hes flirting#eddie communicates his feelings with grand declarations of love but buck is fucking stupid and doesnt realize people actually care about hi#they need to flip communication styles and then theyll realize#buddie#evan buckley#eddie diaz#get him out of there#let eddie free so he can finally have game#omg no or if eddie had done something that kinda pissed buck off and buck just looked at him after eddie apologized and said “ofc i forgive#you“ well there wouldve been something freaky going on in the firehouse closets that halloween
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Oh I sense tragic story potential from the pov of a harpy raised by humans that suddenly has their life turned upside-down due to randomly turning into a king...
Also if they can turn into kings from seeing their falconers as a tiercel then is keeping tiercels an instinct for them?
keeping tiercels is an interpretation of innate instincts - that is, in 'wild' flocks, this is the social structure they use to satisfy that instinct, but tiercels in and of themselves are a social construct.
by 'seeing their falconers as tiercels', what i meant was more like, the would-be king harpy increasingly sees their falconers as subjects to possess, and might bar them from participating in any dangerous activities because after all that's what a king is for. a wild harpy would see this and go ah right, this king thinks the human is their tiercel. but among humans and harpies with no context, they wouldn't have the language or concepts to describe what's going on. if that makes sense at all
there is a lot of tragic potential there yeah... they are imprinted on those humans and could barely imagine life without them. they would be barred from their flock, their family, because they would be seen as a bad influence on them, before eventually simply disappearing from their old life (dead or just sent away - the result is the same to those left behind)
#ice storm over kosa#although as i was answering the other ask about kings in human flocks i did think that it could be kinda fun to have one such almost-king#foisted upon a younger travelling falconer for basically free just to get rid of him. and then somehow it works out??#the kid is just like wow i got a harpy with great bloodlines for so cheap. yeah theres something wrong with the beak but i don't mind <3#just very oblivious. king harpy actually gets as good a life as someone in their position could have (lbr here the relationship btwn#falconer and harpy will never be equal)
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something i just realized about the sages (ignoring how frustrating to use i find the sages abilities overall) when they get their enigma stone they are like wow look at how much stronger i am now!! when its really just a ... clone of them, without the parts that make them interesting- the personality, and they "give" it to you (it doesnt feel like its really yours tho bc, unlike botw, its not intergrated into your moveset- which could have been solved by just adding them to another ability wheel- so it doesnt even feel like they are really yours) but ok i can see why its stronger even if i find it boring to just duplicate the character isntead of actually making their ability be more-
but then at the very end, they join you in the battle and .. dont even make use of it? what where the engima stones even for then? i guess you could bend over backwards and say well its bc their powers cant reach you all the way down there so they have to physical join you- BUT .. when they are right next to you .. shouldnt the connection to them be back anyway? so their clones should return shouldnt they? or is the entire arena just so surpressive of that power that it wouldnt work either way? then again ... what was its use then to get them to have those stones? like how ultra hand is supposedly the focus of the game but doesnt matter to the narrative at all?
(can you unsummon them when they are there?? i havent tried it but i dont think so ..)
like obviously it would be wayy too chaotic if all sages where there twice, especially together with all the ganondorf clones too- but it kinda .. once again... makes it feel meaningless that you even got them the stones? sure they only get to you when you do it but its really just again another check box with no substance, isnt it?
(... actually .. did anyone actually need the stones? aside from ganondorf getting that huge powerup somehow- like even the original sages and sonia and stuff, are you telling me she couldnt rewind ..................................... a tea cup, on her own? or i guess the only time sonia does anythign with her stone is when she gives its power to raurus laserbeam attack he never does again ... and the other sages arent shown to gain anything from it either?? are they?? what even would minerus ability have been bc she wasnt a -utterly useless- mech back then ... the shield she does doesnt seem unique to her either bc rauru literally does it too after sonia gets falcon-punched to death to block ganondorfs .. goo beam .... i mean i guess it doesnt matter anyway bc all we see them actually do is .. stand around and talk, sometimes "hurt" (dirty) sometimes not ... so whatever i guess?)
#ganondoodles talks#zelda#totk#ganondoodles rants#rewatched a video and suddendly realized this#i know its kinda nitpicky#but it still adds to the whole#...checkbox feeling of the game#liek sure ok you do it to help the regions but the thing you get from it isnt really all that cool#i felt like botw did it so much better#not just integrating it into your gameplay much more naturally so it actually feels like its ours now#but you also have a very perosnal connection to the champions#and freeing their spirits feels like rebuiliding their desecrated grave#and then at the end they actually do something to help you with the titans#even if calamtiy ganon is laughably easy and you really dont need it#... anyway#random rambling i guess#man theres so much so think about in this game#in a bad way
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Sometimes I see posts on this site and I'm like oh okay, you guys don't actually believe in redemption and don't understand how it works at all. Cool. Okay.
#kai rambles#i wasnt that frustrated about it earlier#but i think its kinda festered a bit#but like#if you agree that a lot of men - especially young men - have been radicalised by the likes of andrew tate and the wider alt right pipeline#and your reaction to it is ''they have agency and free will. its up to them to become better people.''#either you dont understand radicalisation or you dont care about de-radicalising them#like no ones expecting you to coddle them and treat them like children in need of guidance#but at the end of the day they fell down this pipeline because they were searching for community#and if there is not a supportive community out there outside of the alt right#they're not gonna leave the alt right#no one is expecting you to bend over backwards for them#but you need to be open to the idea of people who are a little confused but have got the spirit#there is a fucking elitism problem in the left and im not gonna pretend there isnt#theres many people on the left who act as if you aren't good enough at leftism if you didnt always have leftist politics#and there are ''feminists'' who are like men are inherently bad and evil and i fucking know there are because im a trans guy#and these people are the loudest on the left#so if we actually want to de-radicalise people we have to be louder than this ugly minority#and no bell hooks was not only talking about being kind to young boys#like im sorry but the idea that ''men can stop being misogynistic anytime they want'' isnt something that will just work#that doesn't mean you need to bend over backwards and backflip to jupiter for them#but if you just call them out when you can and you know nudge them in the right direction#then that idea becomes real#we have to give people a chance to make good choices#god if you can just encourage them to read bell hooks
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hello helloo! i just read through your modern au and I'm in love (shocker), i wanted to ask if you'd give some more info on poppy? apologies if there's already a dedicated post to her, looking is not my specialty
there is not! i will gladly ramble!
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in this au, Poppy is slightly less fearful than canon. this is for several reasons! 1) years of therapy. 2) anxiety meds. 3) teenage years of her friends dragging her out for Shenanigans & hyping her tf up! but she's still a worrywart! she's very cautious! she can and Will see the bad/dengerous side to every situation. but! now she has the tools to not only cope with but combat her intrusive thoughts & fears <3
i think i mentioned it before but she Did Not Realize she was trans until highschool! specifically, when she met Sally! Poppy had to stop by the theater department after school for some reason or another, and Sally noticed her looking longingly at the costume dresses (Poppy thought she was alone lol)
and while Poppy was mortified at being caught, Sally was delighted. they only knew each other in passing and from reputation but Sally started holding up dresses to Poppy and complimenting how well they suited her. (i could joke about how Sally could sniff out the lesbian in her before Poppy even knew she was a girl!) Poppy, flustered by the sudden attention and apparent acceptance, didn't know how to handle it and fled. then started avoiding Sally in the halls. but! eventually she had to go back for Insert Reason Here, and ofc Sally was there. this time around Sally is a little gentler and less assertive, but manages to coax Poppy into checking out the more ~feminine~ costumes again. thus begins their little meetings where Poppy tries on costumes and Sally is her biggest hypeman
it takes a while for things to Click in Poppy's mind! it isn't until she tries on a dress that Sally custom-made for her, wearing some makeup and a wig, that Poppy has her oh moment. unfortunately, some of their ~mutual friends~ (Wally, Barnaby, Howdy) walk in on them. there's a short, terrifying moment where Wally is all "who's your friend, Sally?" and Barnaby has to lean over to let him know "that's Poppy, bud". before Poppy can fully freak out, Wally immediately goes OH! and starts complimenting how pretty she looks. Barnaby chimes in next to ask if the dress is home-made bc it fits Poppy beautifully, Howdy nabs a necklace from the nearby gathered accessories and put it on her to "tie the outfit together". in short! Poppy finds nothing but support from her buddies & they're more than happy to help her figure out this new internal crisis / revelation
then of course eventually she's found out by her family, which goes very well (im using sarcasm! it goes terribly!). Poppy isn't outright disowned or kicked out or in immediate danger, but her relationship with her family is ruined by their transphobic bigotry. her friends have her back throughout this, and the guest room at the Beagle farm is always open to her! Sally continues to make custom clothes for Poppy (something that becomes a love language for the two of them <3).
honestly, this period in Poppy's life is part of what like... idk... strengthens her, in a way? her continuing to be herself and actively rebelling against her family, i mean. Poppy becomes a pretty stellar liar lol (lying to her parents about where she's going, who she's hanging out with, what she does after school, etc). she's very cautious about all of it, but she does it! she's determined to pursue and discover and Realize the woman inside her! i have this sweet scene in my mind of the Group at the Beagle farm chilling on the floor with notebooks, brainstorming on possible names. (Sally enthusiastically says a variation of 'exquisite' to each one, and then when Poppy says 'im not sure about that one' Sally - still enthusiastically - says a variation of 'horrible terrible how could you suggest such an ill-fitting name'). despite everyone's efforts, i like to think that Poppy finds her name entirely on accident! maybe during the Gap Year Road Trip! maybe they stop by a SoCal poppy reserve in superbloom and the flowers Resonate with her! who's to say!
but Poppy begins her (medical) transition in college! she, of course, gets shit for it, but she also begins to find community and enjoyment in the local queer community. and of course, she has her buddies <3
but anyway! i like to think that Poppy participates in local farmer's markets with her crochet work & baked goods, the latter of which is a complete hit! that, plus her first experience with going to a tearoom inspires her to strive towards owning her own! tearooms are right up her alley, i'd say - calm, quiet, and Poppy can make peoples' days a little brighter with a tranquil atmosphere & delicious treats! i swear i have a reason between 'Poppy british = she goes into tea business'. honestly! tearooms are more about the tiny sammies & tasty cones w/ cream! and feeling Fancy while chatting!
i think it takes a while for her to actually be able to start up a tearoom. I'd imagine she starts by holding a small, single-table reservation-based one in her own place once the Group decides on what town to move to. it's successful, slowly (but steadily) grows, until she can get an actual House and transform the ground floor into a full tearoom. lil shop by the checkout counter, several different rooms, a sizeable kitchen. staff! the tearoom is a humble one, but it's a killer holiday & tourist destination! the high ratings even bring in people from out of town!
and when it comes to Poppy & Sally, bc yall know i'm a sucker for Popstar - i like to think that they start dating after (mostly) all of them move into their new town. & after they both have been in prior relationships! and then they never stop dating. well, they do, but that's so that they can upgrade to Wife Status. and then they never stop being wives so there <3
but Poppy is successful and happy! she had a rough go of it but she Makes It! and she continues to make it!
#i hope this Suffices!#ofc the ~lore~ in my mind is a lil more complex#but its Too Much to fully write out yk yk#giving her a tearoom was uhhhhh a bit of Personal Indulgence i will admit!#i used to have a tradition with my mother/grandma/sister where we'd all go to a tearoom once a year#but then grammie bit the dust (or rather - got turned into it) and that tradition uh. kinda stopped#i have very fond memories! i'd like to go to one again someday! perhaps with friends!#so when i was thinking 'what modern day profession would suit poppy' i do think owning a high english tearoom would fit#theres also just a level of personal influence to that ahaha#also if i went to a nice tearoom and the owner was a gorgeous 6'8 woman. ough. thats all im gonna say about it. ough <3#rambles from the bog#wh modern human au#sally likes to waltz into the tearoom while poppy is working to buy One (one) little box of tea and also flirt over the counter for an hour#and there's an upstairs room reserved for Poppy & her friends!!#it's free for them to use at any time!#though they still always pay. they have a lil game with poppy where she tries her best to refuse#but they manage to sneak the payment past her anyway#or they so happen to 'leave a tip that just so happens to be the exact payment' on their chair#on top of the tearoom she also supplies some baked goods for Howdy's shop#it was something they started when she was first getting her lil business off the ground#it evolves into just 'poppy bakes a batch of muffins as her morning ritual and sends them to howdys'#she supplies more when she can! or when she stress bakes! or when she and frank stress bake together! the entire group gets fresh tasties!
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Futaba called Ryuji a jock heehee
#chattin#strikers liveblog#got to this a while ago but i forgot to comment on it#its partially why i dont hc him as like. just toned. like the people who tend to do track and marathons#like they tend to be very lean; people will mistakenly give track runners HUGE legs and it KINDA makes sense#but most times those athletes are lean (source: i used to do track in my teen years LOL)#but ryuji likes working out For Reals. it feels like he likes working out and running#and track was the only school sports program that allowed him to expel all that energy he has#NOT to say that he only likes track bc its the only thing he can do in shujin#bc he clearly loves it#just that theres something about a good workout that feels similar to sprints and long jogs#no real equipment required like youd need for most sports#u just. go out and run. and be free.#anyway. Jock Ryuji is real and I approve#hed be so good at football man. throw it into his enclosure…#also#i know he can pick up anyone on the team w no issue i just know it#ryuji walking around w futaba sitting on his shoulders….wails……#w their powers combined…they can see above the crowds to see the nearest food stalls
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Man i do like Downpour but it really is no Rainworld. This isn't "downpour is bad" post just a... passive thought on how Rain world really is a kinda lightning-in-a-bottle type game with the way it feels. I don't think you can intentionally capture that. Like its got something to it that can only exist as a something that emerges naturally rather than through emulation
#downpour is good but a very different flavor of good#like a dessert#its still good but its not the meal at all#its kinda hard to articulate my exact feelings on it (other than the things ive already said about what I feel with downpour) but like#i think theres just this thing you get with art and creation where the spark can only exist once and only results from doing something#a very specific and unbound way#and you can make something feel similar by looking and emulating and doing all sorts of things but youre not gonna get that same#*something* to show up through emulation and trying to match#its just that slightly unchecked and free feeling that comes from experiencing something that was made without rules in mind#downpour feels like rain world but doesnt *feel* like rain world#this doesnt make sense ah well
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Orithyia's Eternal Youth potion quest, at one point, brings her to a place where one of the ingredients goes "blood of a nymph".
Orithyia pales (which is impressive considering what a pale bitch they are already). They stare from the bushes at the playing nymphs giggling and splashing water at each other. The knife trembles in Orithyia's hand. Is this necessary? For...powering up a potion...? Draw the blood of a helpless nymph? Does she have to do this? Can't they just...politely ask a nymph to give them a blood sample? No, that's out of the question. The nymphs would know that she is on the way of brewing something forbidden... They would refuse for sure. Or at the very least, they would tell Artemis about the mortal who dared to ask for something so morbid. And that would be the end of Orithyia's potion-making.
The only way, is by force. Orithyia's stomach twists. They can't use their brains to orchestrate some sort of accident either, or ask someone else to do it and stab a nymph - the ancient text of the recipe clearly states, that the magic will only work if the alchemist themselves draws the blood.
What you sow, you reap yourself.
Later, Orithyia manages to catch a wandering, lonely nymph. Hiding her face behind a cloak so the nymph can't recognize them, Orithyia grabs the nymph's arm from the bushes. Swift slash to the arm before she can turn into a pile of flowers. Not enough to hurt the nymph too much, but enough to draw some of that glimmering blood. And then, immediate retreat. The nymph screams in fear and pain, screams for her sisters. Orithyia is already gone. Running through the bushes frantically while tucking the bloody knife into their pocket. The leaves rustle as they run, and Orithyia is SURE that a god must have seen them.
But somehow, they manage to make it out of the forest. Dusk is falling. Orithyia has succeeded. They look at the bloody knife, and tremble.
Is this the price of immortal life? Hurting an innocent being?
Orithyia thinks of their old life back in Athens - feeling small and helpless, stuck between a stove and an arrogant prick of a husband, having no way to practice alchemy unless it was in secrecy, because "that's not a woman's thing to do"...
They think of the fear in the nymph's eyes. Even if she was not harmed beyond a small wound. Orithyia sees themselves in those eyes. They lean against a tree, feeling nauseous, taking fast breaths.
Is this worth it all? Is she doing a grave mistake? How low are they going to have to drop to achieve their goal...? She shudders, thinking of how this was only one of several ingredients.
It's all for Boreas... so she can be with him for eternity. So he won't lose Orithyia. A noble cause. For Boreas. For her dear Boreas, who saved her from the hellish life in Athens, who loves them despite all her flaws, who accepted being labelled by people of Athens as a "princess-kidnapping monster" JUST to keep Orithyia safe... who is always so gentle, loving and wonderful behind his mask of a cold cruel storm, who doesn't want to be alone again... Who Orithyia loves so, so much...
The least that Orithyia could do to show him their love and gratefulness, is this. And if it means they gets to stay by the side of the god they love, is any price too high?
Orithyia forces their heart to harden, their brows furrow, and they wipe the glimmering blood out of the knife, squeezing it to the little ingredient flask. Two ingredients, done. Eight more to go.
#🌪️🧮borethyia#Writing#Im not a good writer so theres probs tons of silly mistakes in this LOL but...yeah. A plot point i had been thinking about :)#Basically. Orithyia's potion quest is gonna cause them to do gradually more flawed and straight up cruel stuff#Something something about greek tragedy and the protagonist's hamartia :)#Immortality does not come for free!!#Also Orithyia's self esteem is not very high...they kinda see themselves as a burden for Boreas 💔#So they feel like they have to repay his love.#Anyway Hades is gonna roast the hell out of Ori when he is being held captive. Calling them out for their actions in his smug ass Hades way#Like 'oh I AM the villain now? Sure Mx. Nymphstabber'#Also Boreas doesnt know about any of this happening. Ori doesnt tell him the details :''')
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recently ive been getting really sick of my neighbors i wish that i had a bunch of money so that i could buy up their houses and only let people i live live near me
#neighbors 1 used to be friends but theyre trumpies and also neglect and borderline abuse their dog#i like river hes not a bad dog but hes not trained well and is a very large and powerful dog and really really wants to kill my cats#and they just let him loose wander in the road wander into other peoples yards and hes trapped me and my mom outside because#he tries to force his way into our house if we try to go back inside of our house and i kinda dont want my cats guts splattered everywhere#neighbors 2 have a fenced in yard with a lab and a husky that they leave outside all of the time in their yard#as far as i know they dont have a dog house or even food and water out there and absolutely no toys and the dogs bark constntly#probably because theyre so bored outside in the hot weather usually without shade and no entertainment they bark at each other#or anyone in the yards of the neighboring houses or they bark at the door begging to be let back inside or bark at the windows#and theyre patriots too they got one of those huge skeletons last halloween and theyve kept it up ever since changing out the spotlight#for holidays which initially i really liked i thought it was funny but then for memorialday/july 4th they dressed in patriotically#and i hate america so . i hate them and how they neglect their dogs#neighbors 3 they are related to the one good neighbor BUT. theyre married (?) and they scream at each other arguing all of the time and#because of the geography of where we live it echos right to our house very loudly and it gives me anxiety and they have a kid or kids#who sometimes cry loudly because they scream yell at each other loudly i kinda hope they (not the kids) go to hell#neighbors 4 i . im not sure if theyre newer here but they also have dogs but so far theyve kept them on leashes i think?#except for that one time where their dog just. walked up to me. idk if they let the dog loose on purpose or if it was accidental#but recently me and my mom were outside messing with the garden and They are also a couple and were screaming at each other#also ! i love straight people 😍 please breakup or get a divorce or move away or go to hell youre fucking crazy people go to therapy#and then theres the people on super loud motorcycles or in super loud cars and then theres the other neighbors with the isra hell flag#and the other neighbors that i SUPER SUPER SUPER HATE and have hated for YEARS ecause i went to school with one and hes#racist as fuck i hope he dies or something. and because of them we dont even go down the road that way#they have free roaming animals that would go into the road and they run some ? atv repair or something out of their house and sometimes#completely occupy the whole road loading shit or something. like if you want stereotypical redneck assholes its them#and i hate all of these people so much. mutuals you should live here instead of them. its the blue ridge mountains its higher altitude#its pretty but sometimes it rains and causes something of a 'creek' to flow but were on a mountain so it flows down and away#and well sometimes the sewer smells really bad for some reason idk but like . its fine dont worry about it#and bears might drag your trashcans up the mountain but just dont leave food outside and they wont do that#we have a . shockingly beautiful ?? dumpster on the road too so its okay 👍#dear lird i just scrolled up and thats a lot of words . o well
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I brewed...
#so i was thinking about things to draw#but then i started brewing lore...#Ryoma turns trash into film and eats it as a snack#kinda tastes like a communion cracker#anyway the gang sees her do this one day#and she tries to defend it by saying that#“its free and its good for environment!”#“if i dont eat it- who will?”#anyway so. obviously theyre like 😦 dude what#methinks Josuke tells his mom and tomoko starts inviting Ryoma over for dinner#essentially Ryoma becomes her second kid sksbsn#also Koichi's mom#obv they get asked why they cant use the money they get from their two jobs for food#ryoma explains that most of their money goes to their uncle bc hes disabled (basically Gadzooks chopped off his arm) and unemployed#But the moms know that Ryoma's uncle gambles.. so theres an inkling of Ryuncles shittyness#gonna call him Ryuncle now its shorter lol#initially the moms thought Ryoma was weird but then they gave them the time of day and now they adore her#gahaha Tomoko chastising Josuke asking him why he cant be like Ryoma#ryoma brings the moms candy from the shop#wah it breaks Ryoma's heart when tomoko and Koichis mom treat her so well because she wished her mom loved her like that#i was thinking of something else but i forgor#ill rb this and add more if i remember
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okay listen, yes I have seen all you people getting upset about Paeden and Hermie on here. Yes, I get what you're saying, I don't like it all that much either, and was very hesitant about putting them in. I shouldn't have, but what am I supposed to do about that now? do you expect me to just start it over again without them? do you expect me to just erase their names and pretend two characters just randomly skipped the first round? Someone suggested them, and so I added them. Understand that literally none of the characters on the list were chosen by me. Yes I could have added different characters, and had there been more submitted, Paeden and Hermie would have been the first to go. But there weren't more characters to replace them.
Or even if I had gotten an ask/comment asking me to take them off before the polls started that wasn't unnecessarily accusatory or judgemental, I would have certainly taken them off and held submissions open a bit longer to get enough characters.
The number of contestants also matters a bit more than people think? it's not just as simple as just doing it with 30 instead of 32. if the number isn't like. a power of 2, then all the numbers get fucked up and I would have ended up with a poll of three in just about every round, which is kinda difficult to work with.
Could I have done it? yes I could have. Maybe I should have. But it's a bit late for that. So can you all just recognize that it's literally not going to matter after this first round? because Im pretty sure we all know they're both going to lose this round, and then wowie neither of them are in the polls anymore, look at that!
I am hoping that by making this post I will have addressed most people's concerns and people wont feel the need to make more comments/judgements about it, because at this point it's just getting stressful. I'm sorry I added them, I'm sorry if it made people uncomfortable, but I can't really do anything about it now.
#im sorry if this sounds kinda passive aggressive but honestly#i know i should have just said no to adding minors but i didn't#so just drop it please#just let them get disqualified and then that can just be the end of it#feel free to dm me if you feel like theres something i can currently and reasonably do thats better than just... yknow leaving it be#but you dont need to dm or comment just to tell me about how much you dont like it
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Me last year: wow! I can relate a lot to this guy in ways I haven't with other characters! :) this is nice! :)
Me now: ...oh.
#please dont laugh at me but yes this is about the good doctor#i hope this makes sense xhizkbxigzkg#its. been an interesting few weeks.#but things are. kinda starting to make sense the more i think about. everything#im sorry if me constantly talking about possibly having autism is annoying#its been the biggest thing on my mind lately#its also kinda... i dont know.... freeing??#like. now i know theres probably a REASON behind my issues#and maybe not everything is just anxiety like ive been thinking#which gives me a bit of hope that. maybe i can beat the anxiety and ptsd if not everything is caused by them#and maybe then i can#idk#be happy?? or something? idk lmao
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i love using pens to draft my stories because it almost always turns into a flow chart when i inevitably decide there should be sentences in between what i already wrote and i have to draw arrows all across the page. and cause i cant erase things im constantly crossing shit out and squeezing tiny words into margins where they really dont fit which along with my hand writing makes it the most illegible piece of paper on planet earth. like no joke both my notes and my journal read like a house of leaves chapter
#i probably shouldve just typed it out directly into google docs but theres something nice about doing hand written drafts sometimes#its also the last scene in the story so i kinda just wanted the words flow without the ability to easily undo what i wrote#its pretty epic when i barely have to think while im writing the words just appear on the page somehow#the scene has literally been living rent free in the back of my head for like 2 years now im glad its finally free from its prison
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god hes really making this difficult with the tweets, but, I hope we all recognize that the reasons hes a bad person, and the reasons he would make a bad president, are because of his shitty beliefs, and not, because of an infection that could and does happen to anyone?
There is absolutely nothing you could make up about American politics. Imagination is dead. It's useless.
#rfkjr#rfk jr#parasites tw#parasites#i might be wrong about all this im not like a parasitologist or anything theres just something wrong with me: but. 1)#my understanding is that its tapeworm cysts? the larval form of a tapeworm that you get via ingesting tapeworm eggs. they then migrate#through the body and sort of. take up residence in the tissues of the host. this is often asymptomatic but sometimes they can end up places#and cause issues. sometimes they can end up in eyes. and sometimes they can end up in brains. my understanding is that they dont really#like. eat any part of the host in this stage theyre just vibing? but idk maybe thats how they get through the tissues. but also they dont#have mouths??? then im pretty sure they take up residence there and chill for awhile in cyst form kinda trying to lay low so the immune#system doesnt get them. at this point they are generally waiting for the host to be eaten by a predator so they can hatch from the cyst#in the gut of the predator and take up the form most ppl know of w tapeworms of. big long worm living in your gut. they still dont have#mouths but they actually eat by just sort of passively absorbing nutrients over their entire body through the skin and they just keep#getting longer w body segments until the one at the end reaches your ass and then they release that one and thats where all the eggs are#and you shit that out and they begin the lifecycle anew.#also neurocysticercosis (worm cyst in brain) is possibly the most common cause of infection caused epilepsy?#oh is that specific to the pork tapeworm? hmm interesting#anyway. POINT BEING. 1) this is probably not as uncommon as you think it is. and its shitty to stigmatize infections#2) god hes REALLY MAKING THIS HARD BY TWEETING ABOUT IT LIKE THIS but the worm is incidental. the worm has nothing to do with why he sucks#he could be worm free and like the picture of complete and total health physically and mentally but if his politics stayed the same he'd#still be bad!!!!! actually tbh he'd be worse imo. picture of health motherfuckers with politics like his are fucking insufferable.#THE POINT. THE POINT IS. can we go back to making fun of him for being an antivax fuckwad please god#do it or i will tell you all more things about worms. unless you want to hear more about worms in which case#do it or i WONT tell you more about worms. i will only tell the ppl who will recoil from the info
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