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kosegruppaa · 1 year ago

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paul simms saying that nandermo would be problematic because "that's his boss" is the funniest and weirdest thing i have ever heard

WHAT DO YOU MEEEAAAAAN ???

also "nandor + guillermo + kiss" on an index card "burning a hole" on the wall in the writers room??!??!?!??!?!?!??!?!

#what we do in the shadows #paul simms might become my enemy actually #also like. what do they think people want nandermo to be #me personally im not sure i even want them to be 'canon' in a traditional sense #but like maybe more explicitly romantic #and maybe canon in the end but mostly i just want more of their insane dynamic #but to write this show the way it is and then be like 'well nandor is his boos so nandermo would be Problematique actually' is insane to me #wwdits

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coquelicoq · 5 months ago

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"i already knew that you liked me, but do you know i like you?" she's not actually dead. she's got eyes. and ears. and a brain. i think maybe she figured it out.

#YOU'RE the one who has been super obvious about it AND she has ACKNOWLEDGED your feelings MULTIPLE times #whereas i think she has actually been careful not to explicitly reciprocate because she needed time to figure out #if she even wanted to be in a romantic relationship ever again #she's got issues ok!! the last time she allowed herself to like somebody she ended up six feet in the ground!!!#(or you know. four feet in the ground. shen yurong had to dig that hole all by himself in the pouring rain okay he got tired)#but yeah uh i think she knows. i don't think there's anyone who's spent more than five minutes in your company who doesn't know #the double #my posts #that scene didn't work for me and it's not even because they didn't show the kiss. the way they were shooting it it was clear if they had #shown it it would have been a dead fish kiss anyway. so i'd rather use my imagination #the scene didn't work because that line was so jarring. shouldn't she be the one saying that??#also would have been a nice callback to 'do you know you're good-looking?'#(maybe; i didn't check the exact words used)#i didn't need him to declare his feelings in that scene. i feel like he already has. i needed to see her tell him what she wants #so the whole scene just seemed off to me

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br1ghtestlight · 10 months ago

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i always thought of doing like a platonic/familial bob's burgers ship week focused on specific relationships like bob and tina, louise and linda etc but the bob's burgers fandom in particular seems to be more interested in romantic relationship dynamics so im not sure how many people would actually take part in it lmao

#i say platonic ships but i cant actually think of any friendships the kids have that aren't shipped together by someone fdhdmdjdjs #maybe louise andy and ollie??#either way i guess the rule for non-belcher relationships (aka incest is obviously not allowed) would be #it has to be focused on their platonic relationship. like zeke and tina fic would be fine it just couldnt be very explicitly romantic.....?#not something im actually gonna do or working on just think about it sometimes. Doing it for the aroace girls #who arent really that into romantic relationship dynamics <3 #also more fics focused on the belcher family's relationship to each other is always a good thing imo #txt #bob's burgers

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the-acid-pear · 7 months ago

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It's actually really funny how it is bc despite being an insane person with weird kinks whenever I see someone with kinks I DON'T share I'm instantly thrown off by it. Which is comedic to me bc you'd expect the freak to inherently Understand other freaks but no unfortunately that's not how it works necessarily.

#luly talks #i am way more open to shit when explained to me tho #like usually I'm outright Neutral about this like ok sure.#but there's things that outright are so confusing to me they turn me off #like i saw some mommy rp blog and she was just... acting like a mother #and it's like. super sweet of course! but... not turning me on? at all??#like i don't get why you'd want a 2 in 1 deal for a mother and a gf can't you just get the two things per separate?#and this is coming from a man with severe mommy issues too! I'm a man who lost 3 mother figures (maybe 4 even. prob more)#yet i just don't get it? like. i don't know.#like i dont get it when it's so Genuine ykwim? like sexy mommy daddy age gap shit i do get. i love older people carnally.#but when it is a real intention to have this person fulfill the gap your parents left (I'd have said hole goddamn it that'd have been funnie #r) it's like. do. do you know how hard this can backfire? like i feel it's only more harmful. like idk #like i am no one to say it i am as explicitly stated a certified freak but i really think some people should stop fucking and take an hour #off to go to therapy. just a thought.#like i have my psychological issues mirror into my kinks too I've thought of this deeply (not the cannibalism that's simply me being hungry #although i did make a huge post about hunger but i DIGRESS) but i feel it's different #maybe it's bc im autistic and aro Who Knows maybe this is about intricate social and romantic rituals i just dont get in general

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aroaceleovaldez · 2 years ago

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yall dont wanna see the rant i just went on trying to math out if Clarisse and Silena = Achilles and Patroclus, then does the Battle for Manhattan in TLO = the Trojan War, and in which case who’s who. is the Titan Army the Trojans? or is Olympus the Trojans because they’re defending Olympus (i.e. Trojans defending Troy)? If Percy is also Achilles, kinda, cause curse of Achilles, what’s everybody’s roles then? What do we do with two Achilles? is Ethan Nakamura Hector? Does Luke = Paris? (in which case Hermes = Priam? which actually works really well cause Hermes did aid Priam in the Trojan war). or is Luke... Helen? Or is Luke just straight up the Trojan Horse?

Also side-tangent, if Clarisse and Silena are Achilles and Patroclus, we can make some guesses for who Chris Rodriguez vaguely is analogous to, but not really Charles Beckendorf? at least purely in terms of love interests. Which is interesting. Again: who’s who. I simply must know.

#pjo #percy jackson #riordanverse #analysis #there's also a whoooole lot of Percy and Nico in the Underworld = Caeneus in the rant #but that's besides the point i've gone on that rant enough times #though i do think its interesting in a manner of if it is an intentional parallel (which is very possibly is!)#then it implies that Rick started leaning more into Nico being canonically romantically interested in Percy back in TLO #which would make sense given you also have Clarisse and Silena as Achilles and Patroclus *very* explicitly in the same book #and whereas Achilles and Patroclus being lovers is a debated topic - Caeneus' romance is as far as im aware undisputed #(probably primarily because Caeneus was a woman for most of it)#and like from book one Rick referenced myths like Ganymede #so like. i dont think the whole ''greek mythology had a lot of gay stuff' was going over his head or anything #and Caeneus is not an obscure figure. he was an Argonaut!#and the Argonauts were. yknow. the entire basis for the second series. and also a good amount of SoM #there was also a lot of ''Does Nico = Orpheus?'' and How Many Times Did Nico Pull An Orpheus (the answer is like. 2. maybe 3.)#(maybe 4 actually)#regardless Nico has fully exhausted Most Orpheus Myths so theoretically they shouldn't come back.#[I AM LOOKING VERY HARD AT THE NICO BOOK. DO NOT DO THE THING I SWEAR I WILL BE MAD.]#not because ''oh no tragedy'' because i KNOW it's gonna turn out fine and Different This Time and ill just be mad #because it got overused cause WE'VE ALREADY DONE THAT SPECIFIC PART LIKE. TWICE. IN THE FIRST SERIES. GET OUTTA HERE.#anyways options for if the Argo 2 members represent Argonauts then Who Orpheus - Piper. Leo. Nico.#i personally prefer Piper best for thematic reasons but Leo could also fit and Nico is really trying on the myth-reenactment-front #and also being the mopey guy on the Argo ruining the vibes for everyone cause he's busy being heartbroken and emo #he hasn't been torn limb from limb and his immortal severed head turned into a speaker for his parents to listen to tunes from though #so really Nico are you even trying? (the ''parents-grant-immortality-after-death'' thing though is also a Nico-pulls-an-Orpheus moment tho)

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longagoitwastuesday · 1 month ago

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Going through the Utahim.e tag had me checking several times if at some point I had clicked on the G.ojo/Utahim.e one instead

#It's mainly the ship and mainly ship art. Very pretty btw. There's people with gorgeous styles there #There isn't even a lot of x reader fics haha I guess people don't want to bang Utahime?#Anyway... lowkey wished this happened with Ijichi lol #I so wanted Ijichi to mention or even hint at a mention of Gojo one last time like they did with Nanami #If nothing else for the weight of it all. The weight of feeling your youth dying piece by piece alongside the people who made it out #And everything it implies #Art of Shoko dealing with Gojo's death even in a cold way always strikes hard for that motive but I always love it #with pretty much everyone of those years. There was one piece I saw once that was not explicitly or necessarily romantic about Utahime #being hit by Gojo's death and I don't recall exactly how it was (I think I may have queued it?)#but it moved me more than any piece more clearly emotional that I had seen before #I don't know. I thought it held the potential of that. That weird uncomfortable heartbreaking feeling #of hearing bad news about old friends or classmates and how it makes you realise the weight of time #They suffered and accident. They tried to kill themselves. They are very sick. Their sibling or parent died. And you knew these people #You saw them daily for years. Maybe you weren't close but you knew these people. They cut my bangs when I was eight and I punched them #I tripped over them playing hide and seek and we both lost at the same time. We both hated each other's favourite teacher #They borrowed my pen once and then never gave it back. I once drenched them at the fountain after PE and it was winter but they laughed #Their mother got mad though. Now she's dead. We were made to sit together in French class in middle school. They loved to keep their hair l #Now they're sick and have lost their hair #Their little sibling was so annoying always trying to make us play with them during recess too. It was kinda cute. Now they're dead #I don't know. That kind of stuff #Utahime boosts Gojo and then he dies. Shoko opens him up to make a tool of his body #Ijichi accompanies another kid to clean after him in the meanwhile. And then the realisation hits. He is dead #He was annoying. He was my friend. He was so rude #He had such a sweet tooth. He laughed so loudly. He used to lean over people when talking with them #We were kids once. We are here now. He isn't here anymore. Some of us haven't been here anymore for a long while. It's been so long #He was still young. I am still young. We felt so old. At times it feels as if the time back then didn't happen at all.#And now he's dead and oh it's true he was so annoying but he also had such a sweet tooth. I forgot. What do I do with this memory now?#At times it felt as if the time back then didn't happen at all but then at times it shone through. He brought it back #He asked me a favour knowing I wouldn't betray his secret. He still teased the same way. He still leaned on people. But now he's dead #I don't know if I'm explaining myself well xD I think it's a pretty common emotion when it happens.Oh I forgot to censore words again sorry

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clevervonskelli · 9 months ago

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I can take them making the Crosby/Landra thing explicit (even when keeping it vague would have been very doable and truer to his own memoir) but him pushing her about what she actually was doing was annoying. The call we'll see next week is fine, but whining about it in a pub instead of just being like "haha pretty sure my badass former-roomate is a spy, crazy times we live in, ammirite?" rubbed me the wrong way.

#idk it hit me less as concerned friend/fwb and more 'as a man attached to you i need to know what you're doing so tell me'#which isn't the vibe from the real dude or the character so far #Croz a we know & love him would be like 'you'd tell me but you'd have to kill me? of course ma'am. btw thank you for paying attention to me #like im not happy about them making the relationship explicitly romantic or explicitly physical #I think he still considered it cheating in his own mind no matter what the circumstances #BUT that should objectively be the thing that irks me most #& it wasn't bc i was too busy being mad about the way they made him kinda demand her whereabouts #maybe that was just me but it had me riled up the entire episode #honestly woried it'll make nxt wk's phonecall feel less “whoops so shes definitely unable to meet me for lunch ?” and more “WHERES MY WOMAN #masters of the air #spoilers #harry crosby #shit i put the wrong name in the post #fuck it im not changing it now #they can pry 'Landra' out of my cold dead hands i guess #hbo war #MotA: Ep 7 #MotA #sandra westgate #whoever the fuck that is (obligatory snarky tag)

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muchmossymess · 2 months ago

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its a shame that fandom spaces are just as romance centered as the media we consume bc when i think of what would be a possibly insane dynamic that has strong comedic potential but also is not widely discussed, i cant articulate it shortly outside of "crackship" which implies insincerity (like no, i do think this is cool its just nowhere else especially the canon/s) or "rarepair" which implies a romantic/sexual nature thats just not there

#i was going to add who this was about but then i decided id do that in its own post #idk maybe its just me who thinks “ships” and “ship names” tend to refer to explicitly romantic relationships #rather than platonic friendships (or qprs)#but im pretty sure its not #we need to just make them about “these two characters interacting in a way that will make you feel good/bad (depending on angst levels)”#im not articulating myself very good but also im too aro to understand #its like how i didnt understand homophobia bc you have friends of the same gender and isnt that the same feeling as romance #or how i didnt understand the “we need more romantic mlm” and “we need platonic mlm who are still physically/emotionally close”#bc like. its the same thing to me. i see no difference love is love except literally #and that translates into how i inherently view things #so like i do not see romance until like kissing or sex or w/e but even then its not uncommon to not see it. like ppl do that stuff whenever #idk what im saying anymore blehhhhh #aromantic #moss' madness

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rainswept · 10 months ago

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having awful awful realizations

#you’re telling me…. it’s a common sapphic/trixic experience to have ‘crushes’ on fictional men but the moment u actually #envision doing anything with them.. get grossed out..?#tell me why i thought it was normal to be disgusted by the idea of kisses and touch.#maybe i don’t have haphephobia maybe i’m not aroace maybe i’m just not attracted to men. fUCK #“i can only ever imagine actually dating women irl. but i must be bi because i like fictional men right??”#(throws up at the sight of a shirtless man)#(cringes at the idea of kissing a guy god forbid anything more i think i’d die on the spot)#(can never ever imagine being with a man ever)#(gets grossed out whenever seeing explicitly romantic gestures from the MEN I’M READING ABOUT in fics)#(only fictional men i’ve ever been ‘attracted’ to get mistaken for women all the time)#holy shit.#what the fuck is wrong with me how am i THIS dense

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alicethebard · 1 year ago

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#vent post #you know how it goes #read or don't #respond or don't #this is mostly for me #though I am very happy for all of my irl friends and mutuals and such that are in stated relationships #I can't help but feel envious of them #because though I've talked to and gotten know and done various things with a bunch of people on here #I've had tons of great fun and my life is better for knowing and interacting with these people #I'm still single I guess #it's not even like I don't have people who maybe if I brought it up they would say yes or if they brought it up I would say yes #it's that if I'm the one who has to initiate it even if I think there is a higher than likely chance of it going well #I'm so scared to #I've been rejected unanimously throughout my life every single time I have tried to either start something up or make something official #and I don't know how many more times I can take that before I just give up on the idea #I am a hopeless romantic who has never had someone be willingly and explicitly romantic with me my entire life and sure 27 isn't the oldest #but still it fucks with a girl's head #i don't know #just venting #the optimist in me says I have plenty of time #the lonely bitch in me just wants someone who I'm interested in to say i love you and wrap their arms around me #and the anxiety gremlin in me needs to shut the fuck up before I get the spray bottle #idk #i should take my meds and eat something but im out of one of my meds #fuckin hell

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cantofworms · 2 years ago

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#ok ik all the hot take asks are pre much done and the sparkly say smth nice asks are better but well I’ve been having thoughts all day at #work and want to get them out now so that’s what I’m doing lol #obvs for the past few months i think ppl are vv heavily leaning into the dnf /r and I firmly believe that they aren’t #like yes I enjoy being a multi shipper but I still primarily read dnf fics bc they’re cute dnf writers and artists MWAHH ilysm #but it’s been increasingly annoying how every move dnf make ppl hyper obsess over it and ignore everything else like blog what u want this #is tumblr dot com but I think ppl how only see dnf thro the lens of romantic do much more ‘harm’ than ppl who dont #like the argument about taking validation out of their very REAL amazing friendship just gets over shadowed by omg Dream posted a pic of #geogre they’re in LOVE and sucking and FUCKING every night. like #and then completely disregard when dnf do and say the exact same shit about all their other friends #like dream has explicitly said they aren’t dating (ignore that tho) amd that’s he’s kissed multiple ppl since coming out (ignore that too)#and their friends naturally say that they’re all single (ignore that too) idk man it’s ok they like to pander amd that dream is a toxic #dnfer but it’s all just For Funsies. another thing is ppl CONSTANTLYYYY putting geohres sexuality under a microscope oh he drinks lemonade #from Starbucks he’s soooo gay like dumb shit like that is so irritating #the fact that geogre has never once talked about his sexuality except that one instance where he got a DONO about it proves how much it #just doesn’t matter or apply to the type of content creator he is/wants to be #to be clear if he is or isn’t or dnf every explicitly announce their romantic relationship im gonna be sooooo happy and supportive like aw #dnfogies🫶🏻 but I think there’s a 99.9% chanve that’ll never happen so maybe we should all just care a Little Less and focus on out lgbt #creators if that’s smth u wanna watch/blog about idk maybe I’m just burnt out from the phandom but whyyyyy does is matter what their #sexualities are they play minecraft who cares who CARESSSS idk maybe just having older brothers around dtqk ages has made me realize that #guys will just act homiesexual no matter What #guys are just Like That and tbc I’m not saying that just bc gnf hasn’t made an official coming out doesn’t mean he’s not queer but for the #sake of his contwnt it doesn’t matter either way ? so why are ppl talking about it on the daily idk man it’s just annoying but Oh Well #at the end of the day they’re all famous white guys and nothing matters hurray !!

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fragmentedblade · 1 year ago

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It's sort of ironic how fans often link the leaf 🍁 to Dan Heng, considering "Feng" means "maple", but it's also so fitting

#The leaf following Dan Heng on his idle animation like the past identity he can't entirely leave behind because it always catches up to him #How the imagery appears on his splash art and his ultimate because it's irrevocably linked to who he is #even if in his trying to reclaim his right to be himself #The way he catches the leaf‚ looks at it thoughtfully and then lets it go...#I always loved his idle but after finding out the meaning I thought like I was being hit with a club #The fact that apparently according to some magazine he named himself after the 'Dan' engraved on Cloud Piercer is also very juicy #Because he chose himself to be linked to that past he is trying to break free from. It really enhances how the past is not something he is #negating entirely but something he wants to move on from. Likewise we see him try to get responsibility from his past and make things better #while he keeps reminding people he is himself and no one else #I've seen people read under romantic lens the fact that 'Dan' in engraved on the spear and that it marks how it's Dan Fen.g's #tied to the fact that Dan Feng too struggled with that reclamation of the self vs. giving up on himself entirely for a role #And it surprised me tbh. Romantic or platonic I didn't read it under that view at all maybe because I had read like in July #that the High Elders are named using the first character of their past ('Bai'‚ 'Dan'). I don't remember that appearing in canon explicitly #but it's a repeated pattern and back in the early Bail.u/Bai.heng theories it was something very often brought up #So my reading was that Yingxin.g was acting like a Furnace Master there #He had made a spear for the High Elder‚ and that role would transcend Dan Feng as a person and fall onto someone else eventually #As it does in some way onto Dan Heng now‚ to whom the spear responds #Yingxin.g the Furnace Master more than the friend had made a spear for the High Elder‚ and that role would transcend Dan Fen.g #I don't know... I've often read very sweet interpretations of this but the way I saw it I can't help but find it heartbreaking haha #Anyway I'm saying this because read this way his other idle animation‚ the one with the spear‚#also enhances the continuity of his self with Dan Fen.g's not just in personhood but in role #And considering Dan Heng's voiceline about Cloud Piercer is also a choice he makes even if the spear preceded him #So again a choice that is perhaps somewhat conditioned by the preexisting context but a choice he makes nonetheless #Like how he takes responsibility from his past but also decides to move on and reclaims his identity as something separate #Anyway... the Cloud Piercer thing is all theories for now. I don't think we know for sure if the continuity of the same first character #is something established in canon. Maybe it just happened these two times with Dan Heng and Bailu #because of the particularity of their cases #But I think it is coherent and that it would enhance this narrative motif or subject in Dan Hen.g's characterisation and arc #I find that concept of his very intriguing I hope it will be well developed in the future #As of now I find what they've done with it thus far a bit dull most of the time considering the potential it has

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netscapenavigaytor · 2 years ago

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if i had a nickel for every time while headcanoning character dynamics that don't exist much in canon, i ended up making the fan-favorite yaoi pairing instead a worryingly toxic friendship that's only hanging on by a thread, i would have two nickels but it's weird that it happened twice

#error 0 #i have a migraine right now. i am not sure why having migraines makes me more likely to muse on tumblr abt random shit #anyway for the curious this post is about magolor x marx kirby #but also abt beat x yoyo jet set radio #and while i say ''its weird that it happened twice'' its. probably happened more tjan that and i just forget lmao #i imagine to some extent its just me being petty and contrarian cuz im not particularly shippy #and also tend to be a Hater at certain ships for very particular and nonsensical reasons #but... this specific result of that feels. very Bizarre and i dont know why its happened twice #in this similar a form (even if uhh one of these friendships is SIGNIFICANTLY more toxic than the other)#(finiteverse marx and magolor should stop interacting. for everyone's sake but esp their own.)#i dont have a conclusion here though.#maybe this is just because im obsessed with making emotionally inept deranged weirdguys #and so like 70% of character dynamics that creates are at least a little bit unhealthy JDJAKDJSJDJ #(maybe it is for the better that i don't care much for shipping.)#(alternate timeline ----- shipfic author: only writes fics that make you think ''oh god please break up IMMEDIATELY'')#HELP ACTUALLY WHILE TYPING THIS I JUST REMEMBERED #THE ONR TIME I CAN THINK OF THAT I WROTE A ROMANTIC RELATIONSHIP (WAS A CHARACTER STUDY NOT SHIPPING)#WAS LIKE HYPER TOXIC AND AWFUL AND WAS EXPLICITLY THE CAUSE OF EVERY BAD THING IN THE STORYLINE #(this isnt counting stuff thats like ''there was a relationship in the past but its over now'' or ''there COULD have been one but wasnt'')#(i am only talking specifically me writing the point in time that the relationship was HAPPENING)#welcome to netscapenavigaytor where love loses forever #i shpuld stop rambling in these tags. this is silly #can you tell im bored and suffering from brain pain soup.#and also perpetually want to talk about characters SO badly but never know how to start a convo or who to start it with #oh well

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moonmoonthecrabking · 1 year ago

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i wonder how many people have "i know what you are"'d me without me knowing.

#like there was one instance where a girl went 'i know what you are i thought it when i first met you'#slay queen honestly #and i think one of my cousins has figured it out. like i'm not going to tell her but if she's noticed the bi colours and the use of partner #then what am i going to do #actually i think she knows we very explicitly watched a show with lesbians. and i said i wanted one of them to be bi.#look we're really close so i wouldn't be surprised if she mathed it #have my parents figured it out? maybe??? i do tend to use the word partner. ('it sounds more romantic').#and i do sometimes mention queer issues but i say it's bc I Listen.#i don't know but honestly if they've figured it out and they're not mad fine by me #while i may disagree with my church's views on sex and marriage (the gay stuff in particular) i will abide by it #just. yeah. i'm not going to tell my parents but if they've figured it out then props to them #i'm not a good liar and honestly i don't want to be #that said if they ask i will deny it tooth and nail #on my sugar queue

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blurryface-bitch · 2 years ago

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social anxiety is so dumb. I come home from a great night out and when I wake up I immediately think of all the things I did wrong and become CONVINCED that everyone hates me now despite all evidence pointing to quite the opposite

#i got SO many kisses and they bought food for me there is literally nothing for me to worry about #ugh last night was pretty weird though too like in the sense that i was having a great time #and then all of a sudden i thought 'i am so used to having my feelings hurt i automatically assume that I'm unwanted and #i dont know how to overcome that fear'#which like. THANKS BRAIN that was a real great time to have a moment of introspection about how the interactions with my peers i had in my #youth continues to affect my interactions now in my adulthood #like i was explicitly invited!! i am wanted!! jesus fucking CHRIST i want to punch a wall. a really thin one so i can have the satisfaction #of destroying something #in other newssssss #holy SHIT holy shit holy shit she was gorgeous #i dont think im going to get over that smile like. ever #im also considering that. i may be aplatonic?? like. okay the reason i id'ed as aro is because when i like someone #i cant tell the difference between romantic and platonic feelings. because theyre both the same right? right??#but uh. maybe. well maybe wanting to make out with all my friends and cuddle and other such things at the start of every relationship #(until things level out and we find our rhythm)#are really more romantic and maybe i just dont experience platonic emotions much at all? not until a bit later anyway if at all #anyway just thoughts #personal

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lavenderyoonji · 2 months ago

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pretend this isn’t me you’ve never seen me i don’t exist

#i’m not even about to start my period and yet i��m just as sad as i usually get around that time #i think a lot of this comes down to what happened with my ex lmao #it was so good until she spent the night for the second time #she came over after a date with someone else where she explicitly told me she planned to have sex #i’ve never felt so fucking brushed to the side #i felt like an object. like i was somehow used just so she didn’t have to drive up to sf #she truly has no regard for anyone in her life except for herself #i kept telling her i was uncomfortable with her offering me money and yet she offered it to me time and time again #all i asked of her was to tell me if she wasn’t masking #and she didn’t. she put her comfort over a virus that has already caused life-altering issues for me #i’ve never had someone so blatantly disregard me all while claiming to love me #also! fucked up to tell your partner you love them after fucking someone else! cannot believe that has to be said #i thought she was gonna be good for me. i thought finally; finally someone wanted me in person #sometimes it feels like the only people to want me for more than my body and my ability to be walked on are online #which like. i love attention i’ll take it all but also it would feel nice to have someone see the all of me and want all of it #also friendship is so wonderful and fills me with so much joy #but feeling so undesired romantically is something i’ve lived with for years and it never gets less painful #if i had better taste maybe things would be different #but every single real life partner i’ve had has exclusively wanted me for either sex or emotional support #i just want to feel loved #not just told i am #but i want to feel it.#okay sad post over

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