looking up guides of the best weapons for certain characters:❌
doing a poll on tumblr.com to decide:✅
incase it matters, she's going on a team with kazuha, bennett, and kaeya, as a main dps.
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i cannot be judged to give an accurate review of wisdom teeth extraction surgery because i was going to be panicked anyway, right? i'm not as sensitive to anesthesia as i wish i were, and oral pain has been some of the most intense pain i've ever experienced in my life (these experiences are common in natural redheads), and i was super anxious and unwilling to do this anyway. but. BUT. one thing i can say about that particular office that did mine this morning is. i have a particular allergy to a specific medication i was prescribed once via intravenous injection when i was 9. it gave me hives. i discontinued usage of it after a couple weeks. whenever i have to fill out any medical paper work since 2008 i have known the name of this medication and been prompt with informing correctly about it. and it is not a painkiller. but. they didn't tell me this after my paperwork, or during my consultation appointment, only AFTER i started crying half-consciously during the surgery when i was aware of my teeth being pulled and instruments being moved around in my mouth. only after the surgery did they tell my mom "yeah we didn't give her the painkiller because of her allergy to (specific medication)" and like. that's not really fun
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everyone always has such pleasant memories about elementary school but i think its just because i'm too fucked that i couldn't relate. which is sad because i wish i could have stories about teachers encouraging me to express myself and making friends and having wholesome adventures outside at recess but literally most of the memories i had were either 1: getting yelled at for yawning while the teachers talked (they saw it as me being deliberately rude when i was just fucking tired??) 2: other kids calling me r*tarded and/or fat, or 3: feeling like an alien for not understanding social cues and jokes
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Forever annoyed that "don't speak over marginalized people", the notion that marginalized people are already spoken over, and their oppressors need to actually listen and learn before speaking about complicated topics and need to do so in support of not OVER them, so quickly turned into "I'm not x so I can't speak on x issues". Like the "don't speak on this if you're not this" started out so well meaning because it was about people needing to actually take the time to learn before talking about issues they didn't previously understand! Now it's just an excuse for people to never learn about the issues minorities face or to actually stand up for them in any meaningful way
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like I'm actually sick of being at my grandma's house when one cousin leaves another comes in it's so crowded here and it's not anybody's fault I'm not even supposed to be here and I want to go back to my house so badly I'm constantly having to travel back and forth between homes because everytime I go back to my house my neighbours are doing something to drive me away again. last time I went back 2 neighbours were talking shit about me when I haven't even been at home for a month so all I can take from that is I'm staying on their minds constantly cause they haven't seen me for over a month and they're still talking about me
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i think, for me, the worst part about being a bg stan is the fact that i am and never was a horny bg stan and i cannot stand how some stans talk about these idols like idk the way some of y'all talk about these members is so gross to me and dehumanizing which is frustrating on its own when these idols are already dehumanized by their companies and industries like nothing can ever just be a fun little sexy song to y'all... y'all have to say some shit that always makes me feel so nauseous and like blah blah objectifying men is fun or whatever and im not saying you cant be horny posting or whatever but some of the wording is just....... fucked up
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every time I read or hear anything about politics and the bullshit happening in this country, and also around the world, it makes me so nauseous and sends me into a panic attack. I know i'm ~supposed to know everything that's happening and do something about it~ but how can I when it makes me physically and mentally ill and I can't even change my bed sheets and shower or feed myself enough daily, so how am i supposed to stop horrible people from being horrible?! 😭
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my problem with the original zul'gurub mounts is that anyone who buys it off the BMAH (which is, sadly, the only way you can get those mounts now) also get the Feat of Strength achievement.
Kind of bothers me tbh. Achieve says 'obtained the mount from *boss name* when in reality they just paid gold for it. That's not really fair tbh. But I guess the year they got the achievement proves how they got it (unless they bring it back as a rare drop again, which is unlikely, but I want it to happen, lol)
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okay i just had the weirdest thing just happen to me and im extremely confused (discussions of anxiety, body dysmorphia, and bodily sensations under the cut if you don't want to read that)
setting: end of abnormal psychology class; we'd just finished watching an upsetting scene from csi about a girl with body dysmorphic disorder who literally gouged holes into her face
i'm sitting there feeling a little upset, partially because of the video and partially because the day's lecture material hit a little too close to home (anxiety disorders and whatnot)
and then out of the blue, my ears "zone out" and a high-pitched buzzing starts, i feel unrooted and dizzy like the world just spun 180 degrees, my vision briefly goes dark and fuzzy on the edges, and i get this heavy but floating feeling in my chest -- like it's hard to breathe but my chest is barely there.
then i start to feel nauseous -- seriously nauseous, like i might have to leave the room to vomit, which genuinely never ever happens to me -- and my stomach feels like it does when my lactose intolerance is out to get me. meanwhile, my body gets so hot that my face physically starts sweating and i have to take off my jacket.
i was so freaked out by all of this and my hearing was so fuzzy i had to concentrate to understand what the professor was saying, and it felt like i was barely in the room because i was so inside my own head and body trying to figure out what was wrong. i was so scared i'd throw up or do something weird that i just sat motionless and stared straight ahead, wide-eyed, hoping it would all pass. all of this happened within a minute or two and then it was over.
girl wadda hell just happened to my body
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