#body dysmorphia mention

[h0t-p1nk-ch33tah-pr1nt]

A lil gush bc the doctors always give me body dysmorphia

Tanigaki even if he's embarrassed of bodies sees Mika as those french paintings, soft and pink, every curve and fold every scar, freckle is her own little thing that makes her unique, he's never seen a women like her,,,

[angstyaches]

Hi!! I'm the anon who asked about what Shayne and Charlie's tummies/bodies look like and I am so giddy at your answer!! Thank you thank you... it's so sweet how much you've thought about this and the level of detail in your reply was so wonderful.

Here are a few more headcanons I have about these boys... that you can ignore/refute/whatever you'd like haha

- When Charlie's stomach growls, it's pretty loud! The kind that people around him would notice. And he gets embarrassed or flustered about it, but in sort of a good-natured way; it doesn't absolutely humiliate him or anything. Because it's a k!nk thing for him, it's definitely not his favorite thing to have happen in public.

- Shayne's stomach is usually on the quieter side but!! sometimes will be vocal enough that people (read: Charlie) will notice. Shayne would be totally horrified if anyone he's not close to heard it but finds it pretty embarrassing no matter who hears. He doesn't fully understand why Charlie seems to like hearing it, but knowing that he does helps Shayne feel less embarrassed when Charlie does happen to hear.

- cw for body image on this one (mild!). I imagine that Charlie has pretty good body image- maybe has some good days and bad days as everyone does but generally doesn't mind his body/appearance. And I know that Shayne's food hang-ups mostly come from his past and the notion that he shouldn't take up space or need food, and less from a place of bad body image, but I imagine that relationship with food/his body and his proclivity for stomachaches has led to some tough body image days. Especially if his belly is kind of soft at the bottom! Seems like that would be hard for him sometimes!! But Charlie thinking it's super cute helps him a little 🖤

Those are some headcanons for now!! Going to start signing off as 🐊 croc anon:)

Thank you for all of your writing Flick, your stories bring so much joy!

Hey, friend!! Thanks for sticking with me 🖤

You're so right, Charlie's stomach growls really loudly when he's hungry, and he gets flustered about it but in kind of a tongue-in- cheek way.

And it depends on the crowd, but yes, it being a kink thing for Charlie can definitely make it feel a little awkward sometimes!

Your Shayne one is so right too, particularly if we're talking about hunger growls. Not crazy loud, but with the vampires around, it may as well be lol

Although, if he's a combination of starving and stressed/anxious, that's when Shayne's belly will start to really make itself known!

In terms of appearance, I actually always imagine Charlie as being fairly confident! He likes being tall, and he's gotten just enough external reassurance (i.e. girls trying to chat him up before realising he's only into guys) to know that he's got a nice face lol but yeah, occasionally his depression will break through all of that and make him think otherwise.

In my head, since Shayne's body dysmorphia centres on the fact that he has a body with needs, I imagine he doesn't have the space to worry/care much about how it looks, at least in the current part of the story. But yeah, I'm sure he would definitely get insecure about it if he gave it too much thought!! It's something that would come up at some point in the story, for sure.

But honestly, as he starts to come to terms with himself, Shayne always feels better when he sees how much Charlie lights up when he touches his stomach, or how peacefully he sleeps when he uses it as a pillow 🖤 (it's also because of Charlie that Shayne reaches the point where he's comfy wearing crop tops)

[donutboxers]

tw: body dysmorphia mention

*suddenly has intense body dysmorphia episode, sobbing, can't look at body, can't look at reflections, can't "make eye contact" with myself, can't eat more than a small salad*

why am I feeling this way??

*opens up hood*

*my period has started*

[69constellationsinatrenchcoat]

body dysmorphia + weight gain due to illness - finally starting to recover from five years of eating disorder = hell

(plus we've been in a dress tonight and goddddd I cannot deal with this...)

[justalilskrunklycat]

in source nobody bothered me unless I needed it and it was nice until I was practically yanked out of that world and my body isn't the same and it's weird and why am I so sensitive now I don't want to be

[therapythoughtstogether]

Update on Binging Recovery Struggles and Dating Life

TW ED recovery struggles

I'm finally starting to be more open and honest with my therapist regarding my binge part of the cycle and all it entitles. I trust him deeply, and I had no problems talking about restriction. But I associate restriction with being in control and binging with being out of control.

I can open myself more to him and even joke about it, which always helps with letting off steam and reducing the anxiety around a very hard topic. This will be one of my main topics in my tomorrow's session.

As for my dating life, it's actually going great when it comes to having sex again after the divorce. I'm pushing through my body dysmorphia and very serious body image issues and accepting that there are people who find me beautiful and desirable, no matter what the perception of my own body is.

It is still quite unfulfilling in a deeper level. I haven't been able to form the kind of meaningful connection I'm craving, and I still struggle to allow myself to fall in love again - not only because I'm afraid to be hurt again, but also because I'm still in love with my ex despite everything they've done to me.

And I'm using sex not only to get physical satisfaction, but more than anything as a form to get affection and validation, even if I'm not particularly into the person. Another topic for my tomorrow's session.

[pjthedaft]

body dysmorphia be hitting wayyy too hard rn, like logically i know i’m at least kinda pretty, but i just feel like i am uglier than literally everyone i’ve ever seen

like, my face is so asymmetrical it looks like it’s melting and my body is built like goddamn humpty dumpty. i wish i could fix the way i looked without dropping money i’ll never have on surgery.

it is so hard not to relapse into my ED right now. i just have to keep reminding myself that it almost killed me last summer. also i literally don’t like how i look UW, it makes the body dysmorphia worse.

[princeandreis]

okay i just had the weirdest thing just happen to me and im extremely confused (discussions of anxiety, body dysmorphia, and bodily sensations under the cut if you don't want to read that)

setting: end of abnormal psychology class; we'd just finished watching an upsetting scene from csi about a girl with body dysmorphic disorder who literally gouged holes into her face

i'm sitting there feeling a little upset, partially because of the video and partially because the day's lecture material hit a little too close to home (anxiety disorders and whatnot)

and then out of the blue, my ears "zone out" and a high-pitched buzzing starts, i feel unrooted and dizzy like the world just spun 180 degrees, my vision briefly goes dark and fuzzy on the edges, and i get this heavy but floating feeling in my chest -- like it's hard to breathe but my chest is barely there.

then i start to feel nauseous -- seriously nauseous, like i might have to leave the room to vomit, which genuinely never ever happens to me -- and my stomach feels like it does when my lactose intolerance is out to get me. meanwhile, my body gets so hot that my face physically starts sweating and i have to take off my jacket.

i was so freaked out by all of this and my hearing was so fuzzy i had to concentrate to understand what the professor was saying, and it felt like i was barely in the room because i was so inside my own head and body trying to figure out what was wrong. i was so scared i'd throw up or do something weird that i just sat motionless and stared straight ahead, wide-eyed, hoping it would all pass. all of this happened within a minute or two and then it was over.

girl wadda hell just happened to my body

[madameinfinitehearts]

So I have an additional thought/headcanon regarding Amazon Lily.

This was just a dumb joke initially but what if...

There's a force on Amazon Lily (whether it's caused by something on the island or the island itself) that automatically/forcefully changes the sex of an unborn child to be female.

Even if the child was initially going to be a male, the force changes them to a female.

I wanted to share this odd theory because of the implications it has, especially when it comes to a certain sandy ex-warlord.

If we are to believe that he is actually FtM, then we can assume he experienced some kind of body dysmorphia. That, combined with my earlier headcanon of him being born on Amazon Lily, could imply that he felt like he was born in the wrong body... because he literally was.

Please don't take any of this seriously, I just wanted to get this all out of my head. None of this could be true and I'd be fine with that.

The fact that ONLY girls are born on Amazon Lily has my gears turning with thoughts about Crocodile's past.

So, obviously, Crocodile is heavily believed to be AFAB. Now, I know about Empress Toritoma and how Croc couldn't have been the missing empress but that doesn't mean he has NOTHING to do with Amazon Lily.

Right now, I'm thinking Croc was born there, as the child of Gloriosa and Xebec, and was later taken to be raised elsewhere. Where he was raised, I'm not 100% certain but my current timeline headcanon is as follows:

Born on Amazon Lily

Taken to be raised either on Xebec's ship or somewhere else

Taken by Stussy to Du Feld after the God Valley incident

What's everyone else's thoughts on this?

[mai-addictionsposts]

Thinspo isn't enough. I need someone to walk up to me, grab my thighs, and whisper, "lose it, fatty"

[jeweledstone]

VENT MEMES

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[narratorstrash]

Do you think Cole’s body remained in Yang’s temple? Do you think his body— without a soul to keep it together— solely began rotting away & that’s why he now has a scar? Do you think that’s why it took a minute before he came back to the others in the end of DotD? Do you think he spent that minute regaining his sense of aliveness & steeled himself before returning to his friends?

Do you think his mother felt it when he died in the temple? Do you think she tried desperately, fruitlessly to reach out to him, to comfort him & tell him everything would be okay & embrace him in the afterlife? How do you think she felt when she reached out to hug him only to still be unreachable to him?

Do you think she was proud of him when he went after master Yang with the intention to finish him for good? Was she proud when he saved the trapped students & tried to free their captor despite all the pain & injustice? Do you think she still sat with him while he regained his bearings in the mortal world again, knowing it would likely be even longer before she could possibly get a chance to be with her son again? Do you think she prayed to the FSM for him to live as long as possible despite the pain it brings her?

Does she still dance in the afterlife, even with no partner? Does she still fight for those who can’t & protect the weak? Does she still recall the Geckles & Munts fondly?

Is Lilly still proud of her son?

[angstyaches]

hi! i’m very much missing my StW boys :) may i perhaps have some tidbits about them that we haven’t yet heard? ooh okay maybe everyone from StW? i kinda want to ask about ALL your ocs tbh but i think that’s a bit much to ask for all at once. so we’ll stick with StW for now! I would also love to know more about Mitsuko and Bastian!!

how are you doing btw? 🍄

You're so sweet! You might also be happy to know that I am also working on your request for Rin and Charlie to visit Shayne and have a sleepover at the Aldridges' (I even hinted at it in the last sick Charlie fic). It's just that lots of different ideas keep hitting me and my brain wants me to incorporate all of them lol

As requested, some tidbits:

Charlie's niece's full name is Isabelle Waters-Nowak.

Charlie has five aunts/uncles on his father's side (Simon, Greg, Jane, Mary Claire, Frances) and only one uncle (Graham) on his mother's side. He's closest with Graham because his grandfather (Ingrid and Graham's dad, Benjamin) lived with them for a little while and Graham would often come over to visit them all.

Charlie has eleven cousins, all on Trevor's side; Lucy*, Frank, and Gina (Jane's kids), Stephanie and May (Mary Claire's kids), Tara and Gray (Simon's kids), and Katie, Philip, Jessica, and Nathaniel (Greg's kids). Charlie is the oldest out of all them with, with about six years between him and the next-eldest. (*Not the same Lucy as Lucyverse.)

(Is it obvious that I drew out Charlie's family tree? 🙃)

Madelyn never legally changed Shayne's name to Devine, but even after he finds this out from Ryan, he decides to keep the name anyway.

Shayne continues getting motion sick on public transport, which he has to deal with a lot when Felix is travelling abroad and he has to take the bus to get to the nursing home to see Trish.

Rin doesn't get along with Autumn when Claudette first introduces them. They don't actively hate each other or argue a lot, but neither of them can get a good read on the other. Rin also feels a bit envious over how close Claudette and Autumn are, and how long they've known each other. Deep down, she resents the fact that she's had to abandon 90% of the friendships she's put time and effort into over the past ten years, because they all turned out to be toxic.

As well as spending time with the Pride Society, Rin takes up roller skating and hip hop dancing in college.

Elliott starts writing a detective novel in his free time. He's too embarrassed to let anyone read it as a work-in-progress, but he finds the process therapeutic. He bases a lot of his characters off of people he knew in the past.

Elliott thinks a lot about cutting off and donating his hair, especially when summer arrives.

Elliott used to ride a motorbike before he and Felix started dating. He once brought his bike and "kidnapped" Shayne from school once, while Ryan was visiting Madelyn. They went to a forest (not Mulberry), Elliott did some hunting, and they just kind of hung out. It was one of the last times they saw each other before losing contact for a few years.

(I've been trying to think of something for Felix but the guy wears his heart on his sleeve and I can't think of anything hidden or secret about him right now lol)

CW: mention of disordered eating and body dysmorphia past this point.

Mitsuko has dealt with disordered eating her whole life, in so small part due to her older sister's attitude towards food and appearance. She's been doing well for a while before she meets Bastian.

Mitsuko very often experiences body dysmorphia though, which Bastian thinks is just her messing around when they first start hanging out, but he eventually realises she believes the things she says about herself and it just breaks his heart.

Bastian is covered in tattoos. Some of them have religious symbolism, because he chose them at a time in his life where religion was a big deal, and while he isn't sure he believes in them anymore, he still accepts them as part of who he is. Physically, at least.

Mitsuko loves roller coasters. Bastian hates them because they make him feel so sick. But he's a sucker for her, so he goes on them anyway.

Bastian finds it hard to be civilised around Yumi, knowing how bad she makes Mitsuko feels about food and her body, and it's been the cause of arguments (between him and Mitsuko) on several occasions.

After he eventually finds out that Mitsuko can shift into wolf form, he gives her the pet name "Puppy", which she hates* (i.e. *gets very flustered by and feels very cute afterwards).

I think that's all I've got in me for now!! Thank you so much for the ask 🖤

[donutboxers]

my body is slightly changing back to the squareish shape I had before I was off my HRT for like 5 months, I need to like lose weight and then regain it so it can fully go back but it's atleast a little bit enough to help with my dysphoria and boy dysmorphia :>

[yearningsaphic]

Does anyone else look in the mirror long enough and examine your features to the point where you start to get physically nauseous? Just me? Ok

[torchflies]

Okay guys, I'm still drowning at work but here’s something good that's been keeping my head above water 🤣: retired rockstar Tom “Iceman” Kazansky. 

Ice is born to a pair of early hippies in VW Kombi bus painted with all the colors of the rainbow. He gets his first modeling gig after he's scouted at a Janis Joplin show on his Daddy’s shoulders, before or after Big Brother and the Holding Company. 

Anyway, fact is that baby Ice ends up with his face plastered all over everything from Camels ads to diapers. He eventually ends up doing commercials and then bit parts on TV shows and movies. He does Disney for a good long while, with Bobby Driscoll levels of success. But by the time the mid-70s roll around — teenage Ice is the frontman of a heavier crossed with glam rock sorta band: think Def Leppard, Kiss or even Mötley Crüe (way before their time on the Sunset Strip). 

Ice can sing just about anything the band needs him to — think Adam Lambert's levels of range, just straight-up incredible. He's tatted up from dick to tits and has tried just about every drug known to man by the time he's nineteen, starved himself for years, and spends every hour of his life pandering to people who don't give a shit about him.

At twenty-two he realizes that he doesn't even like himself anymore. He doesn't know who he is without being Kairo Jett (his stage name). 

Then, his friends start dying. 

It’s 1981, and sure they were occasionally dying before — booze, drugs or taking their own lives — but now they're all dying of something that doesn't have a name and he's terrified. 

So, he quits and runs away to a life of structure that he's never had. He runs to the USNA, dyes his hair bleach blond, stops wearing heavy makeup, starts eating again and just becomes Thomas Kazansky — then the Iceman, a new kind of stage name.

The Iceman, who has shared the stage with all the greats of rock music, watches Maverick serenade their instructor in the O Club with one of his old songs and has never been more enamored with anyone in his whole life. 

He falls ass over tea kettle the minute Maverick asks him if he's ever heard of the band Tommy Eats the Drum Kit.

Ice doesn't stop laughing for hours.