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I remade my fpe oc!
Btw this oc is based on me irl!
Comparison!
(THE HAIR IS INSPIRED BY ENI'S ONES(another fpe oc not mine))
#do i have black hair or eyes?#no#but its still based on me irl#lol#random#:3#art#drawing#my draws#fpe#Fpe oc#Fpe art#Arts#Draw#fpe art#Fpe
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Hi guysssssss its been a minute
I havent posted in a hot while due toooo many things one of which being im not that much into mha anymore... i still really really love all my girls, tgchk mmjr midjoke miryumi etc still hold a dear place in my heart, and I'm gonna keep drawing them, just less. I might start posting more art from different media, but regardless im not gonna be able to post much in the coming months cause I am about to have a very very busy time academically, so Im gonna have less time for drawing :( anyways, thanks to everyone whos been liking my my hero art, it means a lot to me and i appreciate everyone who takes the time to look at my silly self endulging wlw!! This isnt a goodbye btw, im just taking the opportunity to be sappy :) see yall in the next post!!
#I MISSED THEMMMMMM😭😭#ive been wanting to draw them again for ages i love them very much#there are some ramblings under the cut i wont bother to repeat here#its just a lil psa about the coming months#but back to tgchk <333#im obsessed with the idea that ochako grabs toga by the hands floats her and spins her around#if i could animate yall would eat it up#its so sappy#ochakos outfit btw is an old redraw of her hero costume that I still really like#its based on older NASA astronaut suits#i have a sort of ingrained conviction that ochako would be an astronaut irl#regardless of her more EMT style line of work#you cant take this from me#the kind of context for this drawing is that toga wanted alone time and got ochako to come meet her by sending a lil note#ochakos holding it if u look at her hand :)#this is in my fairly common au that theyre secret gfs and toga is still a criminal#in this world ochako is in fact not opposed to togas blood thing#it is my conviction of their characters that they understand each other wholly and completely#toga understands ochako needs to save people and ochako understands toga needs to kill#theyre each others moral exceptions <3#togachako#ochako uraraka#toga himiko#toga x uraraka#mha#bnha#my hero academia#boku no hero academia#wlw#chiquilines draws
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really funny when people talk about rotom devices like rotomphones and rotomdexes and rotomfridges and stuff and like they so obviously have no clue how they qctually work
if you put a rotom in a regular phone the rotom will brick it. it will overcharge the phone and just fuck it right up because theres nothing stopping it from doing that. same with any non rotom appliance or non rotomdex or the regular pc boxes not the ones they got in galar. like a rotom will fuck a normal fridge up
rotomdevices are SPECIFICALLY BUILT so that the rotom doesnt break it or do shit it shouldnt. hell by default a rotom is banned from all your apps except a text to speech app, calendar, notes app, stopwatch, photos, and a few other very limited apps on a rotomphone. you have to go into setings to allow other apps to be accessed by means other than the screen being touched and the screen being touched alone.
like i deliberately gave .zip tumblr privileges. your rotom cannot fuck with anything you have not given it permission to fuck with and theres certain shit you straight up cannot let it fuck with (they cannot access your settings app unless youre fucking with shit the manufacturers did not intend for you to fuck with so if your rotom gets into your settings its entirely ur fault because you cannot just fat finger the option for that)
most rotom appliances also come with remotes you can keep far away from the rotom so if it starts fucking around you can just. press a button and it boots the rotom out. some even allow you to LOCK your rotom out of it so it cant go in. rotomphones have similar functionality where you can just lock em out of your phone and provided it has leftover charge ur phone will work just fine
that brings me to the next point. depends on the device but rotomdexes have their more important features (like the actual dex) available to use without a rotom and rotomphones work entirely except for shit that would require a rotom like the floating stuff. as long as theyre properly charged up theyre fine.
because they dont?? sell rotom with the phone??? that would be fucked up and cruel while the rotomphone is a modified pokeball you arent just buying a rotom. there are breeders associated with most companies that sell rotom devices like the rotomphone company and will sell rotoms for the phones for cheaper provided they do an adequate background check, you can also just catch a rotom or just use the phone without ever getting a rotom. .zip has zero brand loyalty because my mom personally nabbed him from the wild
idk its wild how many of you think rotom devices are like. shit powered by unwilling rotom slaves and outclassed by all other devices when in actuality a better term for them is rotomproof devices like dont get me wrong android is 100% better if you dont work with electric types regularly or dont have a mischievous creature that wants to play candycrush but like they have their usage and are popular for a reason
#//based on my hcs and a convo me and my brother had on the bus about how rotomphones would realistically work forbthem to be as successful#//as we see them in canon#//cause if they REQUIRED a rotom to work or didnt have ways to keep a mischievous ghost in check they would not be anywhere near as common#//than they are in all the medias and stuff theyre in#//alsp pokemon is a semi utopia and i like to think theres actually a reason to use the fancy new pokemon tech they show us#//other than letting my character jump off cliffs and for flexing on poor people#//penny is a tech nerd she would not have a rotomphone if they were shitty#// if rotomphones were ass shed have a decked out phone she built from scratch. hell she probably customized her rotomphone but like its#//still a rotomphone#maple moment#pkmn irl#pokeblogging#rotomblr
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Literal boy king Seb :] (pre-emperor)
Their baby selves 😭😭 little guys...
#lmfao i was just trying to draw this so i could try out colors#boom: finished chibis#its so funny to imagine seb in this au having an emo phase#bcs if we're basing these off his race suits#then he goes from all white fits to navy blue/red/gold#mayhaps thats when he gets engaged and thats his version of peacocking for gloomy Fernando#but aaaghhhhh the white/blue is so 🥺🥺 its just very endearinf and angelic to me#^ 'angelic' hes anything but that hahaha#also crazy to realize he became a king at 9 and then heir at 11 i think?#imagine irl seb winning a race/knowing he'd be a wdc so early on 😭 imagine the ego and bravado#*he is not 9 or 11 in this lmfao he is of legal age okay.....#god to think tho if it was a couple years earlier he would probably still be wearing a dress during his coronation....#<- lol back then it was a pretty big deal when boy were old enough to start wearing pants btw#seb would continue it if he could 🤧🤧#sebastian vettel#boy king au#catie.art.
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New sona ref finally grraahhhh ‼
#digital art#fursona#fursona: boo#sona: mc#ref sheet#fun fact literally 5 seconds after drawing the gay little round frame glasses i went to river and lost the irl ones#i have other glasses and can see ok without em but ouhhhh u_u#anyway. rlly rlly proud how the anatomy came out. ive wanted it to have this body type for years. also had a lotta fun playing dress up#the last ref was sooo doodoo dog shit its embarrassing the symmetry tool didnt even save that much time and the proportions r WACK#i still might do a more in depth ref for the brain parasite but its gonna be mostly text based me thinks
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A Reconsecration in Blood and Twilight
Happy Pride to everyone, but especially to my beloved prince in horns Askalaphos and his blackguard, Solar, an NPC from our Ravenloft campaign.
Once a devout paladin of the Morning Lord, then of Mother Night after his death, corrupt rebirth, and subsequent fall from grace as he pursued power no matter the cost in the pursuit of vengeance against Strahd... the aasimar blackguard Solar now learns what it is to be true to his own heart as the newest disciple of Askalaphos, a fallen demigod son of Ares and former slave to the Abyss slowly regaining his own spark of divinity and sense of purpose as he seeks an escape from the mists of Ravenloft. None of this would have been possible, however, had their mutual annoyance friend Rixa not been dead-set on saving the both of them from themselves, despite their belief that this was a hopeless cause... or if they had not joined forces to save her in return when she was captured by her nemesis. A long and dangerous road still lies between them and victory over Strahd, the Dark Powers, and the corruption that stains their very souls, but walk it they shall... after all, nothing worth fighting for is ever easy.
#askalaphos areios#rixa's arts#it was really SUCH a journey like. irl years in the making. like almost ten years when u think abt it. and i am damn proud of this.#they still have a long way to go and two paladins to un-doom from the narrative but yknow#something something gay love can pierce the veil of death and save the day#i don't know how we're going to pull that off but i am definitely going to cry when we do#anyway i finally got around to making a censored edit of this painting so the weenie police don't get me. pls tumblr its covered i promise.#not that there was very much of one showing there in the first place since it was askalaphos' but still.#so anyway happy pride to my demigod and his blackguard#who he literally seduced into leaving his old homophobic god and joining his cult instead#they are absolutely terrible disasters your honour but they're trying to get better and that's what matters#some fun details abt this piece: the constellation in the background is Gemini. both his birth sign and representative of his twin brother#sadly his twin ialmenos is deceased however#and the statue in the background is based on my fave statue of Ares.#alright i'll hush now. i just really am proud of this little painting and all the story behind it. i hope you guys like it too.
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I slept rly deeply last night even tho it took me a while to get to sleep but I think that was bc I had acid reflux and I'd been playing videogames too late not anything else.... still only got 6 hrs but doing pretty okay all things considered 😚
#and not feeling sick this morning so im sticking w the higher dose for one more day. my heart rate does feel a little uncomfortably fast#but its tolerable. just gonna make notes of how it goes through the day and ill submit my review form to my dr this evening#and hopefully she'll give me the green light to drop back down instead of continuing to titrate up#this is making me think of those heartrate fetishists... do u think i could make money selling tachycardic heart recordings online#i do wanna try to exercise this morning while i have energy. might take the bike out it looks like a gorgeously sunny day#maybe ill try to map my cycle route to work so i can consider cycling there instead of taking the bus in a couple weeks..#i cant atm thp cuz they have scaffolding up and its blocked off the bike racks sadly 😔#i think making myself eat + drink as much as i can has helped control the nausea too. just need a lot of fuel to process meds properly ig#and a lot of sleep.. its a bit stressful to think abt how rigid im going to have to be abt my daily routines if i want to stay medicated#but to be honest i have a pretty rock solid sleep/meal routine already bc its the only way i can function with the hours i work#so like. i dont rly need to worry too much. i think i reacted badly the first couple days bc my base anxiety was high#and then bc that feeling was heightened by meds -> made me not eat/sleep properly -> knock on sickness the next day#but yeah still the side effects arent very nice and i dont wanna take the risk of it exacerbating every difficult emotion i deal with#but fingers crossed bc 30 worked rly nice for me and i had barely any side effects so hopefully i can settle w that long term 🤞#we will see....#ANYWAY. sorry for making the same post over and over the last couple days. talking abt it on here has helped me feel a lot calmer#i dont wanna bother ppl irl w every thought and physical symptom i experience hourly. but this is my blog i can do what i want#hope everyone else has a nice sunday <3#.diaries
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why is everything so embarassing idk but im EMBARASSEDDDDD
#.mei’s chatter ˚༘⋆ ๋࣭ ࣪ ˖#its actually stupid like why cant i like stuff without shame#NO ONE IS JUDGING ME ive even made irl friends based on my loesr nerd interests YET I STILL FEEL THE SHAMEEEE#<- was bullied for like half my life so ik thats why but THINGS HAVE CHANGEDDDD IM CONFIDENT NOW IDK WHY IM STILL HESITANT .#AUHGH
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watched the first three ah boys 2 men
#daisypost#1: um. well its not every day u see sg getting bombed i’ll give them that. really shitty how they made it two parts when they could have cut#out a lot of unnecessary stuff#2: more fun than 1. also fish chaar ur sooo gorgeous i wanna hold ur face also how much hair gel did u use#3: most enjoyable one i think. this is like if 1 slayed. better characters better plot better development better performances#(esp lobangs family. the mother was saur good)#i May b biased bc i watched this one when it actually came out. at this neighbourhood movie screening#the intro gave me nightmares five year old me was Not expecting blood#anyways. bisexual win! there r pretty girls (just one) and pretty boys (two) and a really beautiful man#grahhdhsjjs. 1 got 2/5 2 got 2.5/5 3 got 2.5/5#it really is a bunch of propaganda but its still interesting bc all of this is based on something theyve experienced irl#(fish chaar just one chance please PLEASE WAUH- [gunshot])#might watch four during the weekend. plus the spinoffs#meg watches local stuff
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COWBOY JIMMY COWBOY JIMMY COWBOY JIMMY COWBOY JIMMY
"I'm not...the greatest fan'o horses. Cannae stand em, really. Feckin great beasties, tramplin' everywhere... naaaaee thank ye. I'll stick with jus' bein' Finance Jimmy fer now."
#finance jimmy#i dont know if yall have equivalents but i want you to know this is based off a real poundstore cowboy hat ive witnessed irl#cheap as hell bright hot pink and shed glitter everywhere#just like me#also theres this one drawing i did of jimmy right before any of this watching me from the corner of the canvas#and its so fuckin funny to me bc thats like. how his design is supposed to be#but hes gradually getting more and more dishevelled as the asks go on lmaoooo#probably the price he pays for taking all these hats on and off#still its good to know that if the situation ever calls for it i probably COULD draw mike walters#goddamn lookalikes out here#its the hair ycant tame hair like that for long#anyway yeah (pointing) haha horse fear#he says he might be okay with being the...sherrif? or whatever?#youve got cowboys and outlaws#why not a sherrif?#hed be a CRAP sherrif to be fair.
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uploading all my unposted sketches ft. My first EVER drawings of some characters on the bottom row from when I stumbled upon the vods playlist all on my own in summer of 2021, not knowing anyone who was a fan and not knowing what I was getting into or the sheer amount of content/fandom that existed. Still a full time instagram user as evidenced by the Story text. This blog was literally made for the unexpected brainrot this series gave me that I was too self-conscious to use instagram for. lol we’re still here
#dream smp fanart#ur telling me 3 years ago I watched the first Tommy dsmp vid and I had like 300 hours of his and technos vods combined to catch up on#and then they were still doing the damn server#and when I went to introduce the series to people I found out apparently ppl hated its fans in 2020 - 2021 and no one wanted to touch it#with a ten foot pole#and then I caught up and finally breached the fandom and found out as I entered 2022 that the fandom also didn’t want to touch the series w#with a 10 foot pole but we were all trapped miserably in this narrative#to this day I only met one person irl who has ever watched the dsmp#gotta be tha strangest most memory worthy fan base I’ve ever been a part of#don’t mind my rambling I’m really stretched out lately by adulthood and work and mental health I just wanted to come back to this mindset#I was so inspired all the time watching this series#and tumblr was always like going to lay down on a blanket in the grass and draw#so here are my picnic drawings#aidey’s art
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I love when I'm just trying to hang my laundry outside and I get locked out of my house :D
currently attempting to bribe Hench with shiny things to fly down the chimney and get my keys
#still getting used to the new house whoops#funfact: this was my uncles house and he left it to me ages ago but i only found out a few weeks ago#its a nice house! it just has a few...quirks#like how the second floor is actually just a single loft that's more office than bedroom#and how the back door just closes automatically if you try and leave it open#pkmn irl#pokeblogging#rotomblr#//ooc: based on real events where i got locked out doing laundry this morning lmao#pokemon#housewarming arc
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War AU x Second Love
Lmao Sam this is literally the plot to the Nandopoleon AU this exists in my head 😭😭
So Fernando is Napoleon, right? And Napoleon had two wives, right? Mark is his first love(i.e. Josephine), older than him, and who he is deeply in love with but has to divorce because Mark can't really provide anything(i.e. no political advantages, infertile, etc.) So Fernando needs to make a political marriage. And who does he marry! The young son of one of the most prominent monarchies in Europe: Lance, Archduke of Austria.
Lance is very resistant to this at first of course. All grumpy like, "Dad, why do you want me to marry the guy who just defeated us in four separate wars. He's literally beaten us since practically my birth, and now I have to marry him? Yuck." Both him and Fernando come into the marriage with bad expectations, Lance despising Fernando for all he represents and Fernando viewing Lance as just a means to an end. But Lance fits in to the kingdom very well and Fernando comes to adore him and pamper him all the time. And suddenly Lance to his father is all like, "the Emperor is great actually 🥰 I was so wrong 🥰"
Meanwhile Mark is just forced to the side, and has to watch while Fernando's love for him diminishes, and his love for Lance grows. They still talk a lot and spend time together, but Mark is constantly sniping at Fernando about his new "wife."
I think Lance would stick by Fernando's side during his exile and subsequent return. He grows to be more loyal to Fernando than to his own family and original kingdom. And even though Fernando originally just views him as a means to an end, he eventually lets Lance fight alongside when they are eventually drawn back into war. Maybe in this AU, he actually wins 😔
#imagine lance on the battlefield 😭😭#hes been a pampered spoiled rich boy his whole life#but he really admires fernando and how different their upbringings were#i think he def recieved military training when he was younger just bcs thats what guys did back then no?#but obviously was never expected to ever fight in a war or be in battle#just his dad being like yeah ee have the best of the best military leaders so you should learn from them#and then eventually is drawn into battle himself bcs he doesnt want to leave fernando's side#<- irl the woman that Lance is based on cheated on Napoleon and they never interacted again post-Elba so 😬#lance would be like IM GOING TO ELBA WITH HIM#and lawrence is like huh what no??? you have land to inherit still!!!#and lance just sulks in vienna for those eleven months of nando's exile#and then gets alerted abt his return and they have a very dramatic romantic reunion#where Lance commissions his own uniform and such and goes to greet Fernando lkke 'I knew you wouldnt leave me 🥹'#also the age gaps of mark-fernando-lance is remarkably close to the historical age gaps i am stealing from#<- literally only 1 and 5 years off. so im glad it fits so well 🤭🤭#also yeah dw how pregnancy works ( ._.) it just does. mpreg :) we sweep it under the rug#also the thought of lawrence as francis i is funny to me just bcs i feel he should be cast as a driver or smth but its okay#also the 'third love' of this is just Seb as Alexander I whom Nando is weirdly obsessed with#catie.asks.#strollonso#webbonso#nandopoleon alonsoparte
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Y'all I think I'm mostly smart but sometimes I am SO DUMB
I never knew why Astrology and Astronomy sounded similar
I was like why is the word for looking at the sky the same as the word for the thing based on your birthday
It wasn't until Regulus Black -> Regulus the star, in the constellation Leo -> oh hey Leo's also an astrology name how bout that -> pan out on the StarTracker app -> oh hey there's Gemini, Taurus, Capricorn, Aquarius... -> hey wait a minute
That I even realized it at all
And now I get how the whole thing relates to the sky and all of a sudden Mercury affecting things makes sense because that's not a random disconnected idea like I thought it was, it's all in the sky
That's pretty cool, y'all
#astronomy#astrology#leo#leo the lion#StarTracker#im only just learning most of my constellations now pls dont judge me too harshly#there werent any peactical or helpful classes at my school#i didnt get astronomy or geography or home ec or taxes#i got like trig and pre calc which are decidedly less useful irl#i would like to trade one of the like 7 US hostory classes i took over the years for one (1) astronomy class#its why i focus on it so much in my fanfic#its so fucking interesting ans i am eternally jealous that they could study that#this is marauders based but not really marauders related#but i still think it goes here because it all started with regulus and leo the lion
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so close to being done with one step in the larger step in the larger step of the spreadsheet.
i ran out of space in the tags so im continuing them under the cut bc i wasnt finished... and if you let me finish i would of finshed my santance
anyways i have some countries like. the borders r pretty close to irl countries and i have them in my notes as x country but other ones i split them into like. just smaller subregions of the continent based on irl like. regions. like i split africa into . Madagascar + East Africa + Central Africa + Southern Africa + Western Africa + Northern Africa and its referenced off of maps where those r like. the recognized regions (well. madagascar is usually just counted as either east or southern africa but yk). but idk... im worried its a shitty thing 2 do i just dont know what else 2 do with it. maybe i should just use an actual world map instead since im going more realistic with like. the time periods and stuff. IDK i just rly wanna avoid the shit the sims does so much where it lumps a bunch of cultures together like. the chinese world in ts3 world adventures having a torii gate for the icon. -_- yk. the map was kinda superfluous anyway and more judt a way to visualize where the worlds we have were distributed + also was mostly influenced by that one ts4 mod which takes that more simplistic approach but maybe i can just step away from that and just go more realism based Its just hard bc i dont wanna like. lose the more like. silly isnt quite the word (itis kind of but not fully) ig i mean i dont wanna lose the abstraction kind of thing the sims has. but like. I am auite literally making a spreadsheet to get rid of some of the abstraction the sims has so what am i on about. IDK i just have been thinking abt it a lot basically... like sims im already making shit up and locking the sims to like real world history stuff it only makes sense to like. do the same thing with The world and not have it be abstracted. so yes that was a lot of words to say i think im just gonna move to thinking of the sims as living on Basically earth. In my personal the sims palace that ive made up. this is not to say i personally think of the sims as tkaing place on earth or anything ive just decided to do like. Bc this whole thing is basically an au im making anyway like. taking ts3 sims and making them be from the 1950s thats already Not what the game is like. so ill just make it a Realworld sims au. ok yay 👍 thats all sorry for talking sm abt something so pointless and also for not using a SINGLE paragraph break im basically just writing in this like i write in the tags (stream of consciousness) but the tags have the benefit of being naturally split up so yes i dont think anybody is reading this far. when i was little and playing skyward sword for the first time roughly 7-8 years old i got to the like trial on skyloft and i got so scared i smashed the cd so that i wouldnt have to do it . and then i blamed my dog for it. and i did this even tho lamp had JUST started a skyward sword playthru which idk if i knew at the time but i do feel rly guilty abt it. but i was rly scared. ok thats all
#phoebe asked 2 play mc tho so im done for the day..#i just have to do umm. i only have one world left in the 1950 portion of the ts3 worlds#and ive decided to go back and add all the homeless sims and MAYYYYBE npcs and shit but thatll be later. and ill probably do something more#fun first...#but. im excited to be done w this. and once im done with that last 1950 world (starlight shores) i only have 6-8 left Depending on if i#decide to do lunar lakes and oasis landing which i might not whos to say. its looking like i will tho -_-#im also umm debating bc i have bridgeport as set in 2000 but idr why so i mighttt change that#Also disclaimer all my times for the worlds r made up just 4 me and its all on a whim. ive changed where roaring heights is like 8000 times#and i fucked up actually bc i forgot abt the umm. was it the capps. i forgot they were there when i had it set in the 50s#but i was looking at the townies and i liked it better being 1925 basically. even tho that contradicts the capps#so currently i just have the capps going off ot it being set in 1950 and every body else is based on it being 1925. My spreadsheet and i#make the rules and 1925 would conflict with all the capps shit and i dontt wanna deal with it again . so yes#but ya. idr why i put bridgeport was 2000 it mightve just been a vibes thing... and also bc none of the other ts3 worlds r set around 2000#iny my mind and i was like well maybe there could be one.. but i might change that bc appaloosa plains has like. soo many bridgeport#references. and also i might have to change where i arbitrarily decided bridgeport is bc i likee. i did those ages ago and i put it#australia Mostly bc there r no other australian worlds . aside from like pleasantview/strangeview/melbourne from the console games but . 1.#im not counting console games 2. melbourne is a real life place in real life#so ya. i out it there bc on the wiki it was like Wellll it kinda looks like ok i just looked on the wiki to back up my claim and thats#literally gone ok . i have to move it out of australia#THERE R JUST SO MANY USA INSPIRED WORLDS ive tried to scatter them around.. ohwell. my dream is one day ill get so good with the ts3 world#editor and ill simply make it all. but you know how it is... i dont think thatll happen. (#but maybe one day. if i can ever get ts3 to work for me again FNFNFJFBFJFN#but ya. bc its the same thing i did with appaloosa plains where the entire thing was like Its based on the midwest and also arizona and i#ignoredall that and focused on the part where they said 'with a splash of ky green' and went Ohhh its based in kentucky its a kentucky world#based on kentucky GOT IT 👍👍#also bc i have the usa divided into subdistricts and such Speaking of i rly kinda just wanna redo my entire sims map ive been struggling#with it recently#bc im trying to have it Abstracted from irl while still being like. Sims. but i also worry that im being evil by grouping countries together#into bigger ones... esp w like how ppl just lump in asian and african countries altogether anyways i worry im doing the same thing eveb if#its not my intention . + it just makes it weirder when a country Is more by itself like. currently i have china and japan like. similar to
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prev post will be my defense if i ever do get cancelled for incest shipping. buddy i think i'm allowed to write all sorts of fucked up sibling shit after the childhood i've had ‼️
#theres more re:incest shipping that i experienced irl that i dont want to go into but rest assured i know what all of it is like lol#i need to stop talking#i dont even ship any siblings from any media with each other mostly bc its not compelling but i have some like ocs i guess#i just love writing painful and complex stuff or at least ruminating on it#bc life is not simple and sure you can whitewash your media but u cant whitewash real life#like buddy real life people are experiencing this stuff stop saying its gross and irredeemable. was i gross and irredeemable? at 7?#and that is still me and i dont want to like pathologize it all away and do like whatever memory reframing healing blabla#idk i wanna embrace all facets of my life no matter good or bad i want a complex life#i dont want a life that is like base level good and everything bad that happens to me i see as a disturbance like some people live like tha#does that make sense#i dont wnna see life as something harmless and peaceful#metaphor i guess would be other people go to the sea to relax on the beach i wanna be on a ship in a storm feeling the true strength#of the ocean yk? the beach makes me depressed with how calm and manufactured it is#i want to know that this life will hurt me and this life WILL kill me i want to feel that danger constantly so i dont forget to#enjoy the good moments i have . agh im sappy sorry
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