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A Reconsecration in Blood and Twilight
Happy Pride to everyone, but especially to my beloved prince in horns Askalaphos and his blackguard, Solar, an NPC from our Ravenloft campaign.
Once a devout paladin of the Morning Lord, then of Mother Night after his death, corrupt rebirth, and subsequent fall from grace as he pursued power no matter the cost in the pursuit of vengeance against Strahd... the aasimar blackguard Solar now learns what it is to be true to his own heart as the newest disciple of Askalaphos, a fallen demigod son of Ares and former slave to the Abyss slowly regaining his own spark of divinity and sense of purpose as he seeks an escape from the mists of Ravenloft. None of this would have been possible, however, had their mutual annoyance friend Rixa not been dead-set on saving the both of them from themselves, despite their belief that this was a hopeless cause... or if they had not joined forces to save her in return when she was captured by her nemesis. A long and dangerous road still lies between them and victory over Strahd, the Dark Powers, and the corruption that stains their very souls, but walk it they shall... after all, nothing worth fighting for is ever easy.
#askalaphos areios#rixa's arts#it was really SUCH a journey like. irl years in the making. like almost ten years when u think abt it. and i am damn proud of this.#they still have a long way to go and two paladins to un-doom from the narrative but yknow#something something gay love can pierce the veil of death and save the day#i don't know how we're going to pull that off but i am definitely going to cry when we do#anyway i finally got around to making a censored edit of this painting so the weenie police don't get me. pls tumblr its covered i promise.#not that there was very much of one showing there in the first place since it was askalaphos' but still.#so anyway happy pride to my demigod and his blackguard#who he literally seduced into leaving his old homophobic god and joining his cult instead#they are absolutely terrible disasters your honour but they're trying to get better and that's what matters#some fun details abt this piece: the constellation in the background is Gemini. both his birth sign and representative of his twin brother#sadly his twin ialmenos is deceased however#and the statue in the background is based on my fave statue of Ares.#alright i'll hush now. i just really am proud of this little painting and all the story behind it. i hope you guys like it too.
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While on the cross during filming The Passion of the Christ, Jim Caviezel was struck by lighting twice.
Ryan Reynold called Deadpool Marvel Jesus, and they put Wolverine on a St. Andrews Cross/Crux Decussata. Neither of them were struck by lightning, AND they beat passion of the christ at the box office.
#deadpool#deadpool 3#deadpool and wolverine#poolverine#the power of gay love can pierce through the veil of death and save the day#Or something
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Something about misha and jensen being aware of destiel quite early. Something about them joking about it and having discussions later on. Something about the sexual tension in early seasons. Something about jacting joices. Something about the writers putting as much subtext as they could in this story. Something about destiel being in the background since the begining and being the climax in 15x18. Something about gay love can pierce through the veil of death and save the day
#idk where i'm going with this#BUT EVERBODY KNEW#THESE AREN'T COINCIDENCES#even jensen.#destiel#i just watched the 911 7x06 and i'm having a lot of thoughts#wine helps
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Eventually Iâll write my magnum opus, a 15x18 fix it crack fic where Dean gets ground hog day stuck in the S3 ghostfacers episode immediately after Casâs death. he has to go through this stupid ghost hunt over and over while he comes to terms with Casâs confession and tries to ignore his own feelings until he realizes that some cosmic force is trying to show him something. Gay love can pierce through the veil of death and save the day. Finally, hundreds of ghostfacers! Episodes later he finally, teary eyed and distraught, admits that maybe Ed and Harry, insane and stupid though they are, may be right and that he has to admit his feelings for his poor dead angel to get him back.
This naturally turns out to be an act of Gabriel who is still somehow not dead, and we find out at the end that the real kicker is that time hasnât actually really been on loop and that Dean has been stuck living that day over and over while Sam thinks that heâs dead as per 15x20 because as much as Gabriel wants to finally see Dean and Cas get together after being around since the beginning of the worldâs greatest love story, he also just really fucking HATES Sam for some reason and wants to make him suffer by spending months thinking Dean is dead for real no take backs on a stupid hunt after they defeated god. Ultimately, much like his revival in S13, Deanâs love wakes Cas up in the empty, allowing Jack to free him, which was the plan all along, Gabriel just got to have too much fun with the plan after convincing Jack it wouldnât work if they just told him
#fic ideas#destiel ficlet#destiel fic prompt#spn#supernatural#dean winchester#destiel#castiel#deancas#casdean#spn fix it fic#Gabriel fucking HATES Sam#I stand by this#this is the only thing that makes sense#meg mumbles#sam winchester#Jack Kline#destiel fic
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just. peaceful property rambles. completely unconstructive, trying to make my brain quiet so I can sleep.
I canât stop thinking about Peach turning around and expecting Home at his elbow, or inhaling to call his name, only to stop once he remembers.
Iâm assuming. What? A week went by between last ep and this ep?
Also just thinking about Pangpang sooo much like. She saw how Home got her brother out of his shell and sheâs very much encouraging Peach to reach out because sheâs trying to be constructive and positive about the whole situation. But at the same time I really just want to write the post-canon fic where she starts pulling away from Home a bit and eventually she blurts out that sheâs mad at him. Cause itâs a simmering thing, and sheâs always set her anger aside to make space for being âthe positive supportive one!â since Peach takes on so much responsibility and burden as the older brother. But at the end of the day, Home did hit her only brother with a fucking car, and when she thinks about how scared she was that night and how much their life spiraledâeven though it was all okay in the endâshe does still get incredibly upset.
Also Kan!!! Kan got barely any screen time this episode, and I really need the focus to swing back to her. I donât know if it will next episode, given the preview, but I need to learn more about whatâs going on there. Clearly the fact that she asked to leave right after Home is supposed to make us a bit sus of her but Homeâs aunt and uncle and that lawyer are truly pinging so much higher for me lmao.
Also I swear to god, I will bet on itâUncle Somkid is partly responsible for Homeâs parents dying (and it feels like that might be tied up w Kanâs story?). If Iâm wrong, fine, but if Iâm right, I will eat my shoe.
Thereâs something about how positively Home views his grandfather versus the neglect and pain caused by his familyâs holdings. And on one hand. Rich people bullshit. They love making excuses for negligence! On the other hand, if the show doesnât want to make the grandfather a villain (and it seems like it doesnât want to) then someone else has to be (the lawyer? Somkid doesnât seem that master-mind-y. Though who knows. One of the theories for this week is that he put a hit on his fucking nephew lmao)
I will say. There is something very âPat gets shot and Wai redeems himself by helping himâ about Home getting into a car accident before he apologizes to Peach and Pangpang in person. While I am completely devastated by the trials and tribulations of this very hot, classist man who is actually quite Complicatedâąâthe impact of the apology we get is going to be severely undercut by Peachâs guilt over why Home was driving in the first place. Like the Bad Buddy situation itâs similar vibes of âare you really going to be mad at your friend for outing you when he just helped your boyfriend after your boyfriend got SHOT?â
(The answer to both is: yes, yes you should. these are separate issues. the human emotions of guilt/gratefulness will not let you do that though.)
god. also. just. gay love can pierce through the veil of death and save the day. Hey. Hey PâDome, did you watch The CWâs long-running monster of the week, Supernatural (2005)? Cause I think itâs insane that you had the ForceBook ghosts be gay in an episode where you ALSO establish that suicidal ghosts loop through their final moments. You know. Kind of like a Death Echo. An entity/phenomenon which was first introduced in Supernatural season 3, episode 13, âGhostfacersâ. And they got the death echo who happened to be gay to move on by having his crush confess to him. and they uttered the aforementioned famous line. Yknow. Like.
PâDOME DID YOU WATCH SUPERNATURAL, YOU GOTTA TELL ME RIGHT NOW
if I had a nickel for every time a queercoded horror show did this shebang, Iâd have two nickels, etc. etc.
I canât even think about the whole dancing scene and Home and Peach looking at each other while doing the gestures for love. If I do, I will simply explode. I also cannot think about how hurt Home looked when Peach mentioned him running away to the States (me, always: home looks so pathetic ;-; also me: stop. stop that. he basically killed peach, peach is allowed to be mean.)
Okay Iâm done.
#hey silver if you read this drop me a line on the spn bit tomorrow?#Iâm losing my mind#peaceful property
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âš Fic Writing Review 2023 âš
I was tagged by the legend @hedwig221b, and I said fuck it, might as well try something new.
Words and Fics
331,784 words posted on AO3
6 fandoms represented (and I have many more I want to write for, oh geez)
Most Recent Drop:Â Thirsty and trapped
Longest Fic (Teen Wolf one):Â A spark of hope (is all I need)
Top Fics by Kudos (Teen Wolf ones, well Sterek actually :P)
Gay love can pierce through the veil of death and save the dayÂ
Everybody wants some (Stiles)
Coming out (sorta?)
Fix my car and fix my tubes
Forget me not, Valentine
My personal favourites (I have to mention them, okay? They are my babies):
It wasn't destiny, we chose this (Sterek)
Complicated Feelings (one-sided Sterek)
5 times Derek talked about death, and 1 time he talked about love (Sterek)
A normal weekday in the Argent-Hale household (Petopher)
My fandom fic events in 2023
@syr-monthly and @sterekyrround events:
My Sweet Bloody Valentine (Forget me not, Valentine)
Summer 3 Event (This is what I went to school for)
Spooktober (A spark of hope (is all I need))
other events:
Kira Appreciation Week (Home is a person).Â
Teen Wolf Rarepair Halloween Event 2023 (you can find my fics for this here)
Teen Wolf Anchor Down Event 2023 (Come steady me)
Theo Appreciation Week 2023 (Haunted dreams)
Teen Wolf Rarepair Week July 2023 (you can find my fics for this here)
Petopher Event May 2023 (you can find these fics here)
Wow, was I productive. Go me!
Upcoming Events and Projects for 2024
I'm never sure about events because I don't know when I'll be able to commit, but I had too much fun this year with all the events not to repeat something similar next year.
My projects (oh, boy, I have a lot! But just the ones I'm most excited about):
Pack Secret Santa (I really wanna finish this in 2023)
College smut: "straight" Derek and "straight" Stiles have a threesome but instead of the girl, they focus on each other and then start hooking up
5+1Â where Stiles loves calling Derek his boyfriend, love of his life etc and does it any chance he gets
Sterek Purge!AUÂ with slightly dark!Stiles
Stand-up comedians!AU
Sterek PWPÂ with consensual non-con
Soulmate!AUÂ but Stiles doesn't realize they are soulmates and Derek thinks Stiles is rejecting him because he's in love with Laura
and a bunch of other stuff that I'll never have the time to write
Rules & Tags below the cut!
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If you wanna @0hheytherebigbadwolf since you always bless my page with awesome posts.
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you know how when you create something and kinda like it maybe and then by the time you're finally done with it, you basically hate everything about it? animation is that times a thousand when yeah maybe the end is okay but that beginning is nahhhjgkfhgf
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that's this but I've decided to post it anyway since it's for destiel day yay. I had this idea back in August but didn't really start putting the time into this until September and early October so
yeah. enjoy the empty fix-it that seemed a lot better in my head admittedly. most of that is probably because I've never really tried to make like an animated amv thing before so the words do not all match up with the pictures but idk it was a learning experience or something
(at 173 unique frames (though only at 3 fps hjgjhkkj) it better have been a learning experience geez)
mostly based on the Ghostfacers episode ghost "gay love can pierce through the veil of death and save the day." big thanks to the people that dumped a ton of destiel flavored screenshots on me with little to no context whatsoever đ
(11/05/23)
#my art#supernatural#spn#my thoughts#castiel#dean winchester#destiel#my amv#my animations#my videos#flipaclip#Youtube
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will I find you when the night is over?
@spnprideweek's day 7: free space
basically I just had to write my own fix-it fanfic
Castiel found Dean in the kitchen.
Dean was making what appeared to be a PB&J sandwich, and Castiel was suddenly struck by a wave of longing at the domestic scene. His now human heart seemed to want to explode inside his chest, unable to contain the love he felt for the man who was humming a tune as he meticulously distributed the jelly on the bread.
Apparently satisfied with the sandwich, Dean nodded to himself, filling a glass with milk and grabbing the glass and plate, he turned for the exit, only to freeze when he saw Castiel in the doorway.
"Hello, Dean" Castiel said, breaking the tense silence they had fallen into and trying to ignore the way something inside his chest ached at the thought that it was his fault that things were so uncomfortable between them now.
They hadn't discussed the confession, though it's not like they had the time to do it. When Dean rescued him from the empty, Castiel barely had the energy to share a couple of hugs before collapsing from exhaustion. He had spent the rest of the day asleep and by the time he woke up, he had searched for Dean and found him in the kitchen.
And now they were here.
"Hey, Cas," Dean eventually exclaimed, clearing his throat. âI thought you might be hungryâ.
Oh.
Dean had prepared him something to eat and that simple gesture was enough for Castiel to feel his eyes fill with tears. His emotions were difficult to control now that he didn't have his grace, but Castiel tried to regain his composure as soon as he could. Dean's friendship, being able to be by his side and having Dean to love him like a brother was enough. It was.
"Thank you," Castiel said.
"Are you okay, Cas?" Dean asked, stepping back to put the plate and glass on the table.
"I'mâŠ" Castiel stopped for a second, wondering how to explain what he was feeling. The mixture of emotions that the mere presence of Dean elicited in him. âI'm fineâ.
"It's okay if you're not fine, Cas," Dean whispered, moving closer to him and raising one of his hands as if to place it on his shoulder, but ended up dropping it. Castiel tried not to flinch at how much he wanted that contact, however minimal. âNone of us can understand what you went through, not entirely at least, but we are here for youâ.
"I know," Cas replied. âThank you, Deanâ.
Another awkward silence.
Castiel wondered if there would come a time when things could go back to the way they were before.
"Are you hungry?" Dean asked, pointing to the plate of food. âI was going to bring you breakfast in bed, but you woke up before I couldâ.
Castiel simply nodded.
During the entire time it took Castiel to finish the sandwich, Dean seemed to want to say something, sometimes even parting his lips to speak, but he always ended up holding back. Castiel tried to not feel too miserable at the inevitable rejection of his feelings, reminding himself over and over again that he always knew that Dean didn't love him that way.
"Cas," Dean began and Castiel braced himself for the blow to his heart. âCas Iââ
Dean stopped talking.
Castiel knew that Dean didnât want to hurt him, after all, it had been Dean who had spent months looking for a way to rescue him from the empty and Castiel didnât believe that all that effort had been just to reject him in a cruel way. However, that didn't mean that Castiel didn't want this torture to end. The anticipation was almost worse than the rejection itself.
"Will you dance with me?" Dean said unexpectedly, standing abruptly and extending one of his hands towards Castiel, who had to blink several times to understand what Dean had said.
"Dance with you?" Castiel asked, his voice shaking with uncertainty. That sounded like a terrible and at the same time wonderful idea.
"Yeah," Dean said. "Come on, it'll be fun".
Castiel wasn't sure about that, but he had never been able to deny Dean anything, so, with a sigh, he took the hand that Dean was still offering him.
With a smile on his lips, Dean led them to the middle of the kitchen, taking his cell phone and playing a song on low volume, so low that Castiel had to concentrate to even hear the lyrics.
They both stood face to face for a few seconds and Castiel tried to smile, he didn't know what Dean was planning, but he still tried to be encouraging. Dean smiled back at him and closed the distance between them, wrapping his arms around his waist and pulling his bodies together.
Castiel was sure that he had died trying to escape from the empty and this was his personal heaven.
Shyly, not quite sure what were the limits of this, Castiel wrapped his arms around Dean's neck. They both swayed to the rhythm of the melody, looking into each other's eyes and silently saying everything they had never dared to say before. Castiel felt that his heart would stop at any moment from how fast it was beating and that his legs would stop supporting his weight from how much they were shaking.
Dean didn't seem that affected, holding him in his arms like they'd done this a hundred times before. And although Castiel wanted to pull away from him and demand answers, he knew he wouldn't, because this might be the only chance he would have to taste what it was like to be loved by Dean Winchester.
The song ended, but they didn't stop dancing. Castiel took a deep breath before leaning his head against Dean's shoulder, who, in response, only hugged him a little bit tighter.
"I thought I should let my actions speak for me," Dean whispered and Castiel couldn't help but tense. Here it came. âBut you deserve to hear this, Casâ.
"Dean?"
"When we first met, I was scared of you. Like, completely terrified,â Dean began. âYou were something that until that moment I didnât believe that existed and that my mind was unable to understandâ.
Dean laughed softly.
"But then I started getting to know you," Dean continued. "And you went from being a creature that terrified me to the best friend I've ever had in my entire life".
Castiel felt his breath catch and his brain began to spin at the thousands of meanings this could have. Oh, but Castiel knew what he wanted it to mean. An impossible that no longer seemed to be so.
"You said I changed you, but you changed me too, Cas," Dean finally said, his hands coming up to gently caress his back. âYou made me have faith. You made me a better person, because you made me want to be the kind of man you loved. You made me believe that Iâm something more than a killer, than a simple tool or a character in a storyâ.
Tears started running down his cheeks and Castiel did nothing to stop them, but he clung closer to Dean's body, refusing to let him go. This was too much and at the same time not enough. Castiel wanted... oh, how much he wanted...
"You can have me, Cas," Dean confessed and Castiel felt one of Dean's hands tangle in his hair and pull it gently so they could look into each other's eyes again. Dean then gave him the most beautiful smile Castiel had ever seen and said. âI love you too, Casâ.
Nothing, in all his millennia of existence, could compare to this moment.
"Dean," Castiel gasped, a smile making its way to his lips as his hands reached up to cup Dean's face. âOh, Dean. I love you, I loveââ
The rest of his words were interrupted by a pair of soft lips over his.
Castiel felt that entire galaxies were born and died within him. This was everything he had longed for, everything he had wanted. Dean's lips were warm and Castiel, with just one innocent touch, had already become addicted to them. Castiel had convinced himself that just being was enough, but having Dean's love was simply the best thing that had ever happened to him.
When they parted, Dean leaned his forehead against his and gave him another brief kiss before saying: âI'm a very good dancer, huh?â
Castiel gave a laugh that could well have been a sob, pulling away from Dean so he could cover his face with quick kisses, because now he was allowed to do so.
"Of course Dean," Castiel finally said, leaning his head against Dean's shoulder again, this time with the certainty that he would not be rejected.
They danced until the exhaustion made them separate and go to Dean's room to try and get some sleep, both of them knowing that they would never spend a night alone again.
#spnprideweek#castiel#dean winchester#destiel#deancas#supernatural#destiel fic#deancas fic#supernatural fic#spn fic#spn 15x18#fix it fic#rambleoncas#userstarry#my writing#gay love can pierce through the veil of death and save the day#they're in love your honor#anyway this is what they deserve#happy pride đ#i honestly can believe i manage to write something for the seven days
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Okay just before the finale hits. I'm gonna say this. Castiel is one of the most incredible characters created on TV. An angel who lost faith in God. A soldier who gave up his war for a family. A creature from literal Heaven who fell in love with humanity. Or rather, the one man who's his anchor to humanity. And the man? He's flawed. He's angry, he's damaged, and he's scared. But this celestial being, this millions of years old, vast, cavernous entity took one look at the love he had in his heart and knew that was something to fight for. And in the love he found, he rewrote the script for the cosmos. All because of Dean Winchester, the broken bastard on this god-forsaken earth who just. Won't. Stop. Loving. They can't take this away from you, and they can't take this away from us. Castiel fell in love with a man and it changed the universe.
#destiel#deancas#Spn#Supernatural#Castiel!!#I love you#Bi dean#Boy... I am feeling validated in this house tonight#I feel almost invincible#gay love can pierce through the veil of death and save the day#It's meaningful to me on queer rep level#But also just the implication that we are all worthy of love!!!#No matter how damaged we are#There is something poignant and important about loving or at least understanding the worst parts of humanity as well as the best parts#Because we live and we get hurt and we hurt people but we always try to make it better#And the hard choices we make each day#I am tearing up!!#I love Cas for his unfailing faith and I love Dean for he represents the best of us and the most human of us#I love you!! I love all of you hehe#I am feeling soft in this chilli's tonight
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So, you should vote for Bill/Heather. Why? Oh, i'm glad you asked. That's because
[id: supernatural screenshot that reads "Gay love can pierce through the veil of death and save the day. end id]
Need i say more?
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Fuck yeah of course i do.
You see, i think that a ship is objectively good not because it's cute or beloved, but because the dynamics are interesting. The more fucked up the dynamic is, the better. And Bill and Heather are an incredible duo and it's a little bit insane when you think about it.
On the one hand we have Heather. Don't get me started on Heather i think she is a fascinating character. She is unhappy whenever she is, and any place and situation she's in - she wants to leave. As they say, you can run but anywhere you go you still bring yourself with you. She feels that she is both the labyrinth and the monster trapped in the middle of it. The only happiness she finds is when she stops being what she used to be, when she has the power to become literally whatever whenever, manipulate her own atoms on a whim, when she can spread herself across time and space like butter on warm toast and become one with the universe. Is it trans-coded or am i delusional? (not the time-space butter thing, but the rest - you know what i mean) (also, if something about it is somehow off-colour, forgive me, i try my best but i might miss some nuance).
And then on the other hand we have Bill. Who knows and loves herself so well that even the Doctor can't change her, for better or for worse. Her sense of self and her comfort in her own mind and body are so strong that she can resist extreme brainwashing. And even cyberconversion, which is not even about washing your brain. They literally took her brain, took it apart, assembled it into something else entirely, and she still came out on the other end as herself. And still gay. Good for her.
And somehow those two are into each other. It's the "I don't want to live, if i can't be me anymore" + "i am ready to rewrite my whole entire being and kill everything that i'm supposed to be if it gives me freedom" that does it for me. Bill is Heather's anchor, Heather is Bill's lifeboat. Notice the nautical/water theme.
Can we also talk about their respect for each other's boundaries tho? How Bill is not pushing when she thinks Heather is not interested in her and freaked out after the first puddle incident. Heather doesn't transform Bill without her consent, and later does it only in the very last possible moment before Bill's implied death inside of that cybersuit. (My personal headcanon is that the Pilot can only take those who want to leave - that's why it latched onto Heather - and that was the only moment when Bill actually, genuinely wanted to leave (die), because before that she had hope or purpose, but in that moment she shed the first tear of true desperation).
I like their little flirty interactions as well, those two are adorable
BILL: Can I come too? HEATHER: Maybe.
BILL: Am I dead? HEATHER: Does that feel dead to you?
BILL: How can you fly the Tardis? HEATHER: I'm the Pilot. I can fly anything. Even you.
Heather is so cheeky lmao.
And it's not all
They've spent like a year pining after each other and barely making a move, useless lesbians nation rise
They are the motiff of "Love is not an emotion. Love is a promise" reprising, but now gay
They are sun and moon sapphics, which i always love
And again! They are! Immortal sapphics! Flying through time and space! In canon!!! What else can you want???
Which is the Better Doctor Who Ship?
Canon Lesbians vs Canon Lesbians! Who will emerge victorious for the semifinals?
[Image Description: A blue slide showcasing pictures of the competing ships, Bill/Heather and Jenny/Vastra It has a large VS between them]
#i'm writing this to convince myself lmao#because i still can't choose between those two ships i love them both too much#but i think i did a good job spread this so that someone can be swayed to vote for my girlies#or maybe so that someone gets so pissed on vastra and jenny's behalf that they write more propaganda for victorian wives#also someone please do write more propaganda for literally any of them two#i only have three more days to decide and cast my extremely influential vote (it won't matter but still)
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do u have any fics that i wont have heard of? like ones with fewer hits so there harder to find
ooo this is a good one, anon! you haven't specified which fandom you're interested in, so I'll start with SPN and then do some other fandoms if people are interested :) and for the purposes of this, I'll be counting anything with under 5k hits as lesser known!
Lesser Known Destiel Fics
you're the one that i wanted to find by badritual (373)
The Castiel of old has fallen away like molted feathers, leaving behind a wholly new creation.
gay love pierced through the veil of death and saved the day by honeybee (444)
Cas doesnât die. Thatâs literally it.
this is a good thing, dean. (prayer is a sign of faith) by cascountsdeansfreckles (529)
Deanâs legs still donât want to move. He sits propped up against the wall and stares unseeing at the chair in the middle of the room. Everything that Cas said plays over and over in his head. The image of Cas looking devastatingly relieved, content, as he was taken from Dean wonât leave his mind.
He doesnât know what else to do. So he prays.
1 Missed Call by glenien (597)
The buzzing never stops.
so it goes by K_K_TiBal (665)
Castiel returns one more time to retrieve something he left behind.
absurd in the best way by clasch (669)
Castiel tries to make a pie for Dean.
Bodily Communion by runsinthefamily (905)
Survival in Purgatory has some weird aspects.
may i feel said he by bk119 (1k)
a coda to 15.19. cas comes back, and words are said.
choices. by scoundrelhan (1.1k)
Castiel thinks heâs dying. Humans are always doing that.
you can have it, though by make_your_user_a_name (1.1k)
Jack was walking away and it was too late. It was too late because Dean didnât think he would have to say anything. He thought Jack would bring it up and they would never have to know that he missed Cas so desperately it hurt. It hurt so goddamn bad.
And then Jack stopped and turned back to the Winchesters, his eyes focused on Dean. And thatâs when it hit him. Jack knew. Jack knew what Cas had said. Jack knew Dean needed to say it or the second Cas was back everything would just go back to normal.
So he did.
âBring him back.â His voice was low but it wasnât threatening. It came out more broken than anything. Because he was so broken. And maybe it was okay to let them see it. âBring Cas back, Jack. We,â he glanced at Sam and took a deep breath. âI need him.â
15x18 coda: it's in the being by contemplativepancakes (1.1k)
Blood splatters from a severed neck, the body twitching before it collapses to the floor. It sprays across Deanâs face, dotting red droplets over his cheeks and in his hair. Dean keeps his mouth shut so he doesnât get the taste of copper stuck in it; he already canât get Casâs face out of his mind.
Dean knows this is the last place he should be, that with the world ending, it doesnât really matter if thereâs one less nest of vamps in the world, but if he stops moving, then heâll⊠have to think.
âI wondered what my true happiness could even look like, because the one thing I want, itâs something I know I canât have.â
Fuck, they wasted so much time.
15x19 coda: stripped of everything holy by contemplativepancakes (1.2k)
âAbout time we put you on the family tree, right?â
Jack sinks down in the chair across from him, contemplating. He puts the tip to the table and rests it there.
Jack glances up at him. âWhy isnât Casâs name here?â
Thatâs a damn good question, Dean thinks. Itâs because he was too much of a fucking coward. Deanâs still having trouble reconciling everything Cas said with the past ten years of his life. It seems like, maybe, if he thinks about it hard enough, he can see that Cas returned his feelings, but he still canât believe Cas said all those things. Heâs bullshit all the way through, but Cas⊠Cas hadnât thought so.
Dean clears his throat. âWeâll add his next, huh?â
candles & wishes by harrow (1.2k)
Dean turned to Cas speculatively. âDo you have a birthday?â
Now Everything is Easy 'cause of You by chai_lattes (1.3k)
Cas never understood why humans were so fond of sleeping, but he was starting to. Dean chalked it up to knowing that they were finally safe, or Cas finally had a real bed, but Cas would just smile, quietly knowing the real difference was no longer having to sleep alone.
Cas reflects on being human, being happy, and being a morning person.
Chocolate, Caramel, and Zombies (Of a Metaphorical Sense) by TextReciprocation (1.4k)
Castiel approached the counter and looked at the menu contemplatively. The barista spun around to face him, eyes bright and hair untidy. He was roughly Castiel's height and build, with sandy hair and lightly tanned skin. Castiel's breath caught at the sight of him, but he bit his tongue, chastising himself.
Cute baristas were rarely gay and always taken. Castiel knew this. Fate, as it happened, was a cruel mistress.
Never Enough by make_your_user_a_name (1.5k)
It took him hours to notice it. He hadnât felt it in the moment. Hadnât felt the Casâ hand stick slightly to his shoulder as it pushed him away, leaving him to face the Empty alone.
But now that heâd noticed it, it was all he could look at. That bright red handprint standing out starkly against his jacket. It was perfect, really. Not a drop out of place. Just a handprint and nothing else. That was all he had left.
The handprint where Castiel had âgripped him tight and raised him from perdition.â And now heâd saved him one more time. Same shoulder, same placement, same sting when Dean looked at it.
It was poetic in the cruelest of ways. And if it werenât for everything, he would have thought this was Chuckâs writing. But, no. Castiel was the only part of Chuckâs story that he couldnât control. Because Cas had fallen.
how's hope feeling today by sleepinnude (1.5k)
After Cas is gone, bees start to follow Dean.
Sunrise by mattzerella_sticks (1.7k)
Dean and Sam were free. Finally, unequivocally, free.
But this wasn't the happy ending Dean had expected. Maybe in the past, having Sam in the passenger seat tearing across an open stretch of highway as the sunsets, it'd be what he wanted. But that was years ago. He's not that man anymore. Dean's tired of sunsets, of saying goodbye. He yearns for a different ending. One that's less of an ending, and more of a beginning. A sunrise instead of a sunset.
Sam has his. Dean lost his. Despite this setback, he won't stop. He'll live in memory of his sunrise.
Except, what can he do when he feels those rays on his face again?
Loving Castiel by dinluke (1.9k)
âHow did you find me?â Dean asks. Castiel squints and looks at him like heâs the sun.
âYour, uh, yearning was pretty loud,â he says sheepishly.
Sleep Deprivation by Honey_Honey (2.3k)
Dean licked his lips. They tasted like honey. Which was funny, seeing as it was the one part of his breakfast he hadnât eaten. In fact, Cas had tried the honey instead.
Oh. Oh fuck.
âDid I just kiss Cas?â
And Samâs descent into uncontrollable laughter was an answer enough.
Walk Through Fire For You by purple_charlie (2.3k)
Boyfriend.
The word still feels foreign in Deanâs mouth, still brings back echoes of John Winchesterâs thinly-veiled (if even that) homophobia. "Man up, donât be a sissy, I didnât raise a fairy". Itâs a swollen blister in the back of Deanâs mind, throbbing with pain whenever a strangerâs eyes linger too long on Casâ hand in his, whenever a waitress double-takes at how close they sit in diner booths.
But here, dirty dancing with Cas in a warehouse full of other queer folks, Dean wants to shout from the rooftops- Iâm Dean Winchester, I drive the baddest car in town, I lift heavy things for a living, and this is my boyfriend.
Could Not Return You by tigersinlondon (2.8k)
Dean might have gotten over himself when it comes to sleeping with Cas (in the sex way, not the cuddles-and-snoring way), and even telling him that he loves him, but heâs not ready to do anything crazy like hold his hand in public, or admit aloud that theyâre in a relationship in front of Sam, or God forbid, actually share a room, a bed, a living space with Cas.
Funny Bone by PallasPerilous (4.9k)
It wasnât even a particularly creepy skeleton; it was in kind of a âjust chillinââ pose on the floor. One ankle was still locked up in a heavy iron cuff, at the end of a short chain leading back to the wall. Snoresville, as dead stuff goes; Deanâs seen worse at Disneyland.
It was the skeletonâs comment about Deanâs ass that really livened things up.
Compromise by tiamatv (7.5k)
It wasn't uncommon for Dean to find himself tracking down an ex-angel in their underground home in the middle of the night, because Cas got nightmares. Ten years ago, though, if anyone had told Dean this would become a semi-regular occurrence in his life, heâd probably have laughed so hard, his beer would have come out of his nose.
Crazy Hex Girlfriend by whichstiel (10k)
Dean and Castiel infiltrate an extravagant couples-only Halloween party at the invitation of the partyâs host who has been receiving mysterious threats. They patrol the party for hex bags and dark altars, interview suspects, and Dean happily scores a lot of free food. He just wishes he could score with Cas.
How Many Slams In An Old Screen Door? [podfic] by Tenoko1 (15k/2hr podfic)
In which Castiel is a theatre major terrible at first impressions; Dean is a set designer who likes Cas anyway; and the most chaotic production of Les Miserables in history somehow manages to go off without a hitch. Or, just as you should never give a moose a muffin (because he'll want some jam to go with it), you should never give a blank check to a university theatre department. [podfic version]
The Cabin on the Lake by DeanRH (22k)
The Winchester brothers are long lost to history. The angel keeps the vigil, haunted by the shadows of his regrets.
Among other things.
this post is getting way too long so I'm gonna start a second one now!! hopefully you can enjoy these lesser known fics in the meantime :)
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i swear something universally changed when ed zeddmore said "gay love can pierce through the veil of death and save the day" like it quite literally became one of the most memorable things of the show how did-
#the gays have immense power#supernatural#deanwinchester#castiel#destiel#jackles#misha collins#sam winchester#spn#ghostfacers
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Do you have any thoughts/recommended texts for Cas analysis? I genuinely love the dean gender studies and I just wanna know what people might apply to Cas.
yes absolutely!! while dean studies is my first love i also deeply love cas analysis (casnalysis?) and wanna strive to do more of it. hereâs some stuff off the top of my head:
1. gender, sexuality, heavenly embodiment
this is much more theological and less psychological than deanâs whole Deal because thereâs so much fascinating stuff around how the angels in general experience express and conceptualise gender (@autisticandroids has a good post about angel gender & lily sunder has some regrets) but for cas in particular thereâs this fascinating kind of collective fandom agreement (which i DO also agree with) that casâ own gender kind of is gay man, that he actively chose gay manhood, but also that heâs kind of..... lacking the Insane Genderishness that dean exhibits at all times, even though he actively chose to engage in male gendering and became so comfortable housed Within Jimmy that he, as some post i saw the other day that i canât find anymore said, âbecame his own bodyâ when jimmy died.Â
like on the one hand thereâs an almost-canonical transness to the whole process but it also never feels fully written-into because 1) the supernatural writers for all their insanity are sometimes very boring and *most* of the time only feel interested in narratively expressing angels As Their Vessels anyways and just like leaving convenient spaces around these questions (boldest thing they ever did was hot girl cas which i WISH i had the range to unpack) 2) thereâs a vague inevitabilist shrug to the whole thing since they obviously werenât gonna recast misha collins (though they HAVE tried to get rid of him) and 3) something amorphous about casâ entire..... personhood? makes him Empty Of Gender as a contrast to deanâs Full Of Gender (i believe it was @deanwinchestergender who said this) and like is it just the juxtaposition to dean/jensenâs whole insane Deal? or something else?Â
like he actively chooses the terms of his own embodiment and yet narratively it feels like a shrug. and weâre all like âwell obviously even though heâs a celestial being he was always a gay manâ and like WHY. i love it idk idk much to think about! and yeah just in general the theological questions of possession and cas genuinely Becoming a man as he iterates himself consciously towards humanity it almost feels like. by doing the most boring things possible with his gender they made it interesting? idk if that makes sense.
2. discipline, free will, metanarratives
cas is like a tool (âi am not a hammer, as you sayâ) held in constant discipline and surveillance by the system that enmeshes him and itâs really, really fascinating to watch the way the angels hold each other to conformity. especially pre-god they kind of produce each other as foucauldian disciplinary subjects (which i posted about here) in perpetual visibility through angel radio, generating their own and each otherâs conformity rather than being directly ruled through like a single centralised source of power. only the spectre of a god. and obviously casâ whole thing is that he has ALWAYS disobeyed and the narrative affords him this psychological interiority never given to the foucauldian subject, an internal will and desire for freedom in a way that fits more with the liberal subject (super roughly and not with the same pro-capitalist implications but he has this internal drive for self-liberation.Â
and thatâs also where the metanarrative comes in ofc! i think it was @dykecas who said that cas is a real person written by people who hate him, and thereâs this crack in the narrative (mirroring the crack in his chassis) where cas gets in, over and over, despite all the order imposed by the showâs authorfathergod. like weâve all seen the analysis about how it was Never supposed to be this way they DID try to fire misha collins in 2012 and yet this gay man literally cannot be stopped! i think actually his appearance in scoobynatural is a neat little distillation of this â he drops into this animated world originally with a singular purpose (Save Sam And Dean) the same way he dropped into lazarus rising with a single 3-episode arc (Save Dean). huge hammer behaviour. his âutilityâ diminishes within the narrative (he finds that he canât fly in the scooby doo universe) and so he is no longer a tool/means to an end that salvation moves Through. and in the process (and huge creds to @lesbianyuugi for this) he does something ENTIRELY unrelated to his original cas-as-tool aim, and learns, like, the meaning of laughter from shaggy and scooby. WHICH brings me onto the third point
3. love, queer kinship, family-making
HEâS GAY AND HEâS A DAD! i feel like a lot of tumblr throws around the term âfound familyâ in a very flat and tropey way (which is fine itâs cute and fun no matter what!) but like . GOD thereâs so much specific stuff going on here. like the way that cas (unintentionally) obliterates the midwestern white christian nuclear family (made incarnate in the novaks) which like could be uniformly portrayed as an act of deep malice and villainy but instead grows to serve as a surrogate (if imperfect/complex, but DEEPLY loving) father figure for the gay daughter who has now escaped that nuclear family/seen it destroyed depending on how you read it? like he remasters the entire concept of fatherhood and itâs a very interesting (if DEEPLY) unintentional subversion of the homewrecking non-nuclear gay trope. cas is so good because his character arc doesnât say âlook, gay people can be normal and have perfect settled families just like youâ it says âgay people DONâT have normal settled families actually and they are full of love anyways! or Because of the abnormalcy itself!)Â
to cite ziz lesbianyuugi again he DOES queer fatherhood in his parenting of jack particularly because it really is one of the ONLY parent-child relationships in the show that breaks the incessant cycle of abuse and control and cold indifference perpetuated by the authorfathergod (a cycle reified in 15x20 lol). like godâs treatment of cas and his siblings mirrors johnâs treatment of sam and dean (particularly dean) mirrors victorâs treatment of krissy and her crew mirrors deanâs later treatment of jack. there is a CONSTANT reiteration of the story of authorfathergod (often a father tightly entwined in biological kinship) treating a child as a mechanism or a tool or a means to an end. and cas looks at ALL that he has suffered and all that he is ever known and chooses constantly to reject it with every piece of love he expresses for his child. and not to sound like the kind of academic people make fun of on twitter but there is an INHERENT queerness to that. gay love will pierce through [the veil of death/the thick silence of abuse/the mechanism of godly control/hegemonic american masculinity] and save the day
anyways here are some very haphazard recs on everything above for further reading:
angels in america (tony kushner)
histrionics of the pulpit: trans tonalities of religious enthusiasm
the public universal friend: religious enthusiasm in revolutionary america
discipline and punish (michel foucault)
friendship as a way of life (michel foucault)
the genesis of blame (recommended by @pietacastiel who has GREAT theology content in general
all about love (bell hooks)
the chapter âwhen hated characters talk backâ in anti-fandom: dislike and hate in the digital age (is actually explicitly about cas)
also cannot recommend enough following the ppl i tagged above!! most of the unlinked stuff is available through http://libgen.li/ and bookshop is a good alternative to amazon if ur american and want physical copies
#thank you so much for this ask it was a delight to answer#spn#casnalysis#making a tag officially#gendernatural#long post
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--I have in my head on a loop:
"...Gay love can pierce through the veil of death and save the day."
Ghostfacers - 3x13
On a loop. On a loop. In that haunted house, the victims repeat their deaths on a loop, again and again. Always a circle. And if Corbett was freed by the power of love, that means they not only repeat their deaths, but their feelings are still untouched, they're still there pulling something to keep those ghosts stuck, unable to move on... Like angels and demons in the empty, they repeat their deaths and their biggest mistakes, their unfinished bussiness.Â
Ruby: "Why do you call it Empty? This place is full, full of sorrow and despair playing over and over again, of angels and demons dreaming about their regrets. Forever"Â (15x13)
Now, in this Ghostfacers episode from Season 3, they used Corbettâs feelings for Ed as a comedic resource at some level. Because in Supernatural s3, Gay=Joke. We know itâs not that way anymore. We know it for a fact.Â
Now, I wanna bring some attention to this small piece of dialogue of the Ghostfacers episode.
SAM: Think we were off on this? I mean, that was just a death echo.Â
 DEAN: Yeah, but what's it doing here? Did anybody get shot here?Â
 SAM: No, not that I could find.Â
 SPRUCE: What's a death echo?Â
 SAM: Look, we got a problem here. That ghost ain't it.Â
 HARRY: Yeah, that's real. Like, that happened.Â
 SPRUCE: What's a death echo?Â
 DEAN: Echoes are trapped in a loop, okay? They keep replaying how they died over and over and over again, usually in the place where they were ganked. It's about as dangerous as a scary movie.Â
 SAM: So maybe the echo's not dangerous, but maybe something else is.
Okay, I know maybe it wasnât the original intention of the writers for this episode to be a perfect guide to explain Destielâs last episodes and the ending of Supernatural, but as show as well designed as this, and with so many callbacks, parallels and mirrors, I am doubting if this is not intentional, âcause the small piece of dialogue I wrote up there is not the end.Â
Finally, the intern Corbett dies. And Harry suddenly has a moment of clarity.Â
HARRY:- I...I know how we can get through to him.Â
ED: How?Â
HARRY: Ed... He had feelings for you.Â
ED: Huh?Â
HARRY: He wanted you.Â
ED: Wa-- wanted me to what?Â
HARRY: You know. Â And you know what you've got to do. You can do it, Ed. You've always been the brave one. Yes, you can. You make us brave -- Maggie, right?Â
MAGGIE: Yeah. Yeah you do. You totally do.Â
HARRY: Ed...You got to go be gay for that poor, dead intern. You got to send him into the light."
Out of the darkness, into the light.Â
"ED: Corbett, look. Hey, it's just Ed, buddy. It's just me. Hey, hey, Corbett, listen to me. Listen to me. I -- we... Okay. You meant... Corbett, you meant a lot to the team. You meant... You meant a lot to  me. You know, never back down...Never say a bad word, okay? I remember that, Corbett. I-I remember that. I remember because I love you, Corbett. I really, truly love you. Do you remember that? do you?"
Ed says the magic words to wake Corbett up from that loop of suffering, death and regret. Words that remind me to other words.
Buddy. We needed you back. I don't get words wrong. We need you. I need you.Â
Goodbye Stranger. When Dean was honest about his own feelings, Cas was free.
Also notice how Harry used âHe wanted youâ instead of, I donât know, âhe liked youâ or something. This is a theme thatâs been repeating for seasons with Dean specifically, the Want vs Need, the Plural vs Singular in regards to Cas. The whole purgatory arc, the Michael!Dean arc with his famous, seemingly random question âWhat do you want?â in the beginning of season 14. Surprise surprise, itâs not random, and we know it.Â
(Tiny detail that maybe is not that interesting but I got it on my head and I gotta write it: In this season, episode 4, we see Chuck being a writer again, writing the last Winchester book. Chuckâs pseudonym in season 5 was Carver Edlund. This season we already had that callback to Carver, engraved on stone on the crypt where Rowena chooses to die. Where is our callback to Edlund? .... Well. Edlund wrote Ghostfacers in s3).Â
Also, this small thing answer my own question from 15x02Â when I noticed a visual parallel between Cas and the ghosts from hell.
Okay, so my speculation is that this specific dialogue will repeat some time in the future when SOME human we know rescue SOME dead angel we know and love. It. Fits.Â
To Conclude, and in the Ghostfacerâs words:
ED: We know this much: that every day, including today, is a new beginning. We learned more than we can say in the brutal feat of the Morton House.
HARRY: The Ghostfacers were forced to face something far more scary than ghosts. They were forced to face themselves.
ED: War changes Man.
HARRY: And Maggie.
ED: War changes man. And one woman... You know Corbett, we just... ah gosh, we just like to think that you're out there, watching over us.
HARRY: As far as we're concerned, you're not an intern anymore. You have more than earned full Ghostfacer status. Plus, it would be cool to have a ghost on the team.
ED: Yeah. Heh heh. And here we were thinking that, you know, we were teaching you and all this time you were teaching us, about heart, about dedication, and about how gay love can pierce through the veil of death and save the day. Thank you, Alan J. Corbett.
(I know this is a mix of stuff, Iâm not sorry though.)
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OKAY, so Iâm not gonna detail phrase by phrase why it feels relevant, because itâs pretty evident, so I trust you guys to read it and share with me what you feel about the end, and how do you think this relates. But this is... ugh ñksndfñ.Its an amazing example on how FAR this show has gotten, how it keep circling back to the start over and over and over, and past canon but evidently evolved as an inspiration for future episodes. Certainly the âGayâ resource stopped being a joke a LONG time ago.Â
Side note: thank you crippling depression, anxiety and self loathing for finally allow me to post this meta.Â
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When I tell you there was never a moment in my mind that I didn't associate that Empty deal with Angel & BTVS...
Supernatural trying to fill the niche of Buffy, then try to avoid being associated with it by making vampires 'endangered or extinct' then a decade and a half later going 'fuck it' and going full hog with the whole 'if you experience even one moment of true happiness' thing.
#buffynatural#spn is a show#gay love can pierce through the veil of death and save the day#castiel the gay angel#the one thing I want is something I know I can't have#why? but why can't he have it? but why though?#OH THAT'S RIGHT. because the network is homophobic#cool. cool cool cool.#go chuck yourself
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so iâve been rewatching spn episodes all day and i just finished watching 11x14 when they find out lucifer is possessing cas and uh,,, dean is like yearning yearning at the end. jeez dude we get it youâre repressed and in love with your best friend. but back to my point â i was watching the end scene where dean is basically like âokay our priority now is trapping lucifer and saving casâ âhe didnât choose it willinglyâ blah blah blah gay gay gay ANYWAY it made me think of the part in doctor who when the doctor says to rose âi could save the world but lose youâ because at this point dean is basically saying âokay we can figure out amara later, but we NEED to get cas backâ while sam is just like uhhh maybe we could wait until we save the world??
thereâs just,, something to be said about the importance of their relationship which trumps so many other things. like, the same goes for sam and dean, but...never sam and cas? we know theyâre friends, but they never really show us any angsty âI canât lose youâ moments or anything like that. on this point, donât you think itâs weird that sam never gets like...a âbest friendâ character? like dean gets benny and charlie and cas, and sam gets...love interests? at every turn?
and to build on that, all of deanâs friends or people heâs been close to have some queer allegory or another. charlieâs a lesbian, benny has that whole metaphor about being a good monster that you could argue about on some meta level, and even claire (who is confirmed queer) is set up as a direct parallel to dean on multiple occasions.
and yet the relationship dean has with cas is comparable to so many other (usually straight) canon relationships across film and tv. specifically what first comes to mind is stiles and lydia from teen wolf (btw this has just been festering in my mind for a few days but: thereâs literally a scene that looks just like the one where dean is sitting against the wall with his head in his hands, but its stiles and lydia leaning against opposite sides of the same wall, where lydia canât remember stiles and heâs stuck in another world...if they do this with destiel iâll combust)
anyway, theyâre gay and theyâre canon and gay love will pierce through the veil of death and save the day, damn it.
#answered#i wrote this with my eyes half closed bc im sleepy#sorry if it doesnt make sense#also i havent watched teen wolf in like 7 years so#destiel#deancas#supernatural#spn s15#spn meta#spn
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