#but it’s so lonely
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You know it’s hard to explain to people my pain with art. Cause it’s not really that my art is bad. But also they can’t really say it’s ever finished. And that’s my problem. I can sketch. I can do little doodles now but before I could actually finish art. I could do so much more and instead I have had this fog since covid and ever since I dropped out of college I cannot bring myself to even force myself to finish anything anymore. Even with the pains I would force myself to finish something and now I can barely draw. I can barely actually do art and it makes me so angry. But I don’t really know anyone in my inner circles that have this? Pain? This betrayal with art? And the fact I can’t do any of the things I use to do makes the anger I have for myself feel overwhelming. It’s just tidal wave have self hatred and frustration of why I can’t do anything and when I try to explain that frustration it doesn’t make any sense to anyone and it makes me even more angry. Why? Why can’t you just do things anymore? Even with the overwhelming stress of school and you pulling out your own hair you did art? Actually beautiful paintings? Water colors and colors. But instead I am just a useless blob who’s terrified to draw on paper. I wish I could have this fear gone. This block this ever growing fog that makes it harder and harder every day. Why keep trying? I want to be in love with art again. I just. I want. I want what I don’t have anymore and there’s only so much I can blame on pressure from family and my body. Agh.
#the thing vents#idk. I’m just.#it’s hurts me so much. and I hate talking about with anyone because people think it’s about my art being good#It’s not about that!! it’s a much deeper problem of me being terrified.#but then everyone says that my problem is self esteem#and maybe that’s a small part of it#but it’s so lonely#sometimes there’s poems or comics and I feel it so deeply#that share some parts of it but those are strangers#and I might be just being selfish and seeing my own meaning and a work not meant for me#it’s not my story from my heart#so where can I find someone to connect to.#because there are disabled artists and artists that have similar pains to me and they do so much more#and it’s less that they are ‘better’ than me it’s that they hold a love to their art that I feel I have permanently lost#and it hurts#I want it back#anyways I’m normal now no more crying#I guess that problem is. in my heart deep inside I know I can do more#I can do BETTER#but it’s a part of me that. I’d don’t know why but I can’t reach anymore#it’s cut off from me#and I’m scrabbling and trying to retire knots to somehow reconnect but it can truely never be apart of me again#at least not right now
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I had this vivid mental image of a moldy Miku and I could've sworn you drew it! Imagine my surprise when all I found was Miku mitosis. I thought for sure you drew her with mold spores all over :(
I haven't but now I think I have to... Miku must be hit with the Mold beam™
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Thinking of becoming a guy that thinks wolves are the most badass and aspirational animal, but about ants. Like wearing t-shirts about being loyal to my Queen and training to bench 5x my bodyweight. Studying ant warfare. Posting shit like this
#Ant photo by Alex Wild. Inspirational ant image by me.#In a sense‚ the Ant mindset is antithetical to those who follow the Wolf. The lone‚ individualist “alpha” inclinations simply do not apply.#The Ant values her work and her sisters. She is a humble worker and brave soldier. So small‚ yet so strong... Because she's never alone.#This post was a lie. I'm actually already this theoretical person.
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Let the poor man rest.
#also no he doesn't want to experience life as a normal person. no he wouldn't sacrifice his powers to live again.#he LOVED being powerful. he was very proud of his powers. he was at the top of the world. what he disliked was being so lonely at the top.#which having reunited with Geto now he is not.#and he wanted to keep the next generation safe due to his past regrets and teach a generation of kids to be at the top together.#and he wanted to get rid of the corrupt higher-ups and reform the Jujutsu society.#and he did all of that. Yuta and Yuuji are both alive and safe and the kids are all reunited with each other stronger than ever#and the higher-ups are d**d.#Gojo obviously wouldn't hate to keep living. he clearly didn't expect to lose and die. but as he himself confirmed#he died doing what he loved. he went out the way he wanted. he went out with a bang. he had the best fight of his life and gave it his all.#as he said 'he had fun'. he said it would have been embarrassing if he died of old age or sickness.#and now that he's gone he's happy with his friends and especially Geto. he found peace.#He said it himself 'Now i'm wishing that it's not just a dream'.#also for those of you who say that Geto & Gojo wouldn't be together because one would go to hell and one to heaven... no. just no.#first of all. Gojo did a mass m*r*** before his death#second of all. they're Buddhists. they don't have heaven and hell. don't bring Abrahamic religions into everything.#and you'd be surprised by the excuses the Abrahamic religions find to not let people in heaven.#probably Gojo wouldn't go to heaven even if he didn't kill the higher-ups due to...idk... occasionaly doing pranks or sth.#but Gege apparently created a whole other afterlife of his own. and Toji Geto Gojo Nanami and everyone were all gathered there together.#you SAW that. so stop.#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#gojo satoru#satoru gojo#jjk gojo#gege akutami#my two cents#satosugu
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i hope that sometimes fifteen's psychic paper shorts out and shows what fourteen's thinking back on earth. he tries to sneak in somewhere and the guard's like this just says 'need to pick up cat food'? and fifteen's like 🥺 they got a cat
#doctor who#the doctor#fifteen#he shows up at the noble house next day with a bunch of cat toys and 14 explains that he was just picking up food for next door#and 15's like ah. well. the thing is. i thought if you only had one cat they'd be lonely so. and pulls out a kitten#rose after 15 leaves: is this an alien cat#14: 100% yeah. don't tell donna that bit
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i miss philly already
#it feels so lonely around here#like. i love it#i love my hometown#but it’s so lonely#and it’s very easy for me to feel unsafe around here
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Can we talk about this? I feel like not enough people talk about this happening in the movie
#he just gets so well behaved and domesticated so quickly#they set up his lone wolf edgelord personality and then after he realises he's been mean to these incredible people helping him#he becomes like... the goodest boy there ever was but in a silent cat type of way#donutdrawsthings#fanart#logan howlett#james logan howlett#xmen#x men#x-men#x men 2000#xmen 2000#charles xavier#xmen storm#xmen rogue#wolverine#the wolverine#bro the tags tumblr keeps recommending me when i type logan and wolverine oh my GODDDD everyone here is down bad#but ykw so am i
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Guys i’ve found a way to make it through the loneliness!!! substance abuse
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I'll give them shelter like you've done for me
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen fanart#megumi fushiguro#yuji itadori#itafushi#jjk spoilers#jjk manga spoilers#jjk leaks#jjk art#fushiguro tsumiki#took all afternoon but we wrangled the colours in2 submission#it was looking very green and kind of muddy#so i toned down the saturation in a bunch of places pulled in a lot more grey#kept a lot of the shadows Hard#i think it works#not sure it's the absolute best it cld be but i am Satisfied with it#overall i ws just kind of worried that it was looking rly similar to past pieces colour-wise#i think it kind of still Is but not as much as it would have been had i not made those edits#anyway. emo hours#ive been listening to jubyphonic's piano arr of shelter and thinking abt megumi#thinking abt him growing up n looking back on himself n seeing himself in tht lonely little boy#'it's a long way forward so trust in me' smth smth finding the strength to guide that kid forward even though both of u are scared#bc at the end of the day u Are still that kid#inner child stuff usually doesnt resonate much with me bc i don't like who i was/am/whatever this aint abt me#but in regards to megumi????? OW#in lighter news i remembered at the absolute last minute to lob off the top of yuuji's ear#bc that injury at least i think he keeps ghfssdfhfgsj
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FNAF Vanny and Michael if they met as teens
#myart#chloesimagination#comic#fnaf#five nights at freddy's#fnaf fanart#fnaf vanny#fnaf vanessa#michael afton#security breach#fnaf 4#A good portion of folks wanted teen Michael and Vanny to meet#SO finally I delivered on that request 🩵#TBH it was really fun to draw them too#they kinda just match each other#Michael would definitely try and bully Vanny#but I wanna believe Vanny as a teen could talk back BAHA#So stunlocks him HFHFHH#they’d bump heads at first but I think they could be friends#they’d still pick on each other still though#they are both lonely kids with awful dads so they’d get each other#maybe I’ll draw more of them we’ll see
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the strong scent of vanilla hit his nostrils as he gripped the sides of your waist. his face was nuzzled into your neck, while his hands focused on caging you down onto him. sleep was never easy for gojo, he always had something on his mind. and even when he didn’t it still wasn’t possible for him to get any rest. how could he sleep when he had such a beautiful wife to gaze at?
he was fascinated with every little thing about you. the way your bottom lip curled into a pout when you slept, or how your eyebrows would furrow up as if you were mad.
gojo could go on and on about the smallest of details when it came to you. you were his everything. and also the reason he could never get any sleep, he was too busy being allured by your beauty.
“my beautiful..” he trailed off, leaving soft kisses on your neck, so soft because he didn’t want to wake his gorgeous goddess. “beautiful wife..” now his hands were in your hair, gently soothing your scalp.
the biting didn’t start until he got bored of playing in your hair. gojo’s teeth grazed your neck ever so lightly before slowly sinking in, not enough to hurt you but enough for you to feel it, causing you to stir in your sleep.
his lips sucked at the bite mark offering the irritated skin a sense of relief. the hand that was on your waist, binding you to him was now inside of your shirt, soothing the skin of your back as if you were a baby. his baby.
“i love you s’much my princess, you’re never leaving me okay? our souls are tied for life,” he spoke so softly as he left one last bite, but this time it was to your cheek. and even though you were asleep.. your body seemed to somehow answer for you.
your hand lightly slapped against his cheek, fingers hitting the lids of his eyes. gojo couldn’t stop the low chuckle bubbling from his throat as he gave your sleeping form one last smile before replying.
“im glad ya’ understand mama.”
©rissouu 2024 (im not crying u are).
#malora’s works!#sigh sigh sigh im so lonely#satoru gojo x reader#gojo x reader#satoru gojo#jujutsu kaisen fluff#jjk fluff#jjk drabble#obsessed!gojo#obsessed gojo#satoru gojo fluff#gojo fluff#jujutsu kaisen x reader#jujutsu kaisen x you#jjk x you#gojo x you#gojo satoru smut#gojo smut#jjk smut#jjk fanfic#satoru gojo x y/n#yandere satoru gojo#jujutsu kaisen smut
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Sketching while streaming s5...
Jonathan Sims I will learn to draw you (this is my doing. I could draw him however I want and I choose to stick with an image of him in my brain that is difficult for me to draw. Masochism.)
Not s5 Mahtins below I enjoyed drawing cuz hes neat:
(Edit: I yassified Martin in the do not separate cuz I wanted his hair fluffier)
#yes I realize Jon and Martin are in different fucking art styles let me live#do not accuse me of being AI this difficulty drawing hands is all natural I worked hard drawing for years just to fucking suck at it#update I listened to 170 I heard it was devastating but my ass was LAUGHING#poor martin but omg me and my buddy had everywhere at the end of time in the background and shit was so funny#he forgor 😭💀#it was emotionally devastating at the end tho Jon suggesting he stay there um btich NO?!#Jon the literal Lonely is not worse tham being around you get a fucking grip#helen continues to be the best character her showing up for the juicy gossip is so fucking real#anyagays#tma#tma podcast#the magnus pod#tma fanart#jonathan sims#the magnus archives#my art#martin blackwood#jonmartin#jmart#tma jmart#tma season 5#tma spoilers#i have to make a diagram for my jon and martin designs for s5 SO bad#if only i could draw jon.... >:(#i need u guys to know that my martin loves plaid and jon is wearing a plaid shirt thats too big in s5... inchresting....
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Like the majority of society I’m obsessed with Nimona
And I rewatched it a million times and one thing always sticks out to me
There are moments when Ambrosius is surrounded by light like a little protective bubble
That keeps him away from the man he loves more than anything
#nimona#nimona 2023#ambrosius goldenloin#ballister boldheart#ballister x ambrosius#goldenheart#he always looks so small in these scenes#like the light is going to swallow him whole#it almost looks like a little kid wearing his parents clothes#like he’ll never live up to the expectations society has placed on him#this man is so lonely for the whole movie#poor baby had to figure out everything by himself#he looks so tired in the second picture#the thing that kills me is in the last scene he tries to leave the bubble#but Bal shoved him back in#bubba looks ethereal throughout the whole movie#this movie man#it kills me slowly#I love it so much#I’m gonna go cry myself to sleep now#people from the rise fandom know I only post angst when I’m sleep deprived
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renaissance dogys
characters belong to @canisalbus
#i love i loveeee ludovica sm shes so cute. ive only known her for 5 min but i fell in love with her design and i love her friendship#with vasco ^_^ i think them having each other makes hiding their sexualities a little less lonely so thats sweet#ik in modern au shes considered an old friend of vascos but i originally assumed she and vasco fake dated in college or smth#to get their parents off their backs until they came out properly and continued to stay in touch as friends after LMAO#im not very familiar with period fashion so i had to look at renaissance costumes as reference. but i have to admit i love the#high waistlines used in some of their dresses.. i have a minidress with a similar high waistline pressed against the chest and sleeves#also if u squint machete is holding a little paper bag in the 2nd photo which is supposed to be his lunch courtesy of vasco <3#idk what ludovica would wear in modern au but i thought poet shirts might suit her because theyre like somewhere evenly between#masc and femme. to me anyway.. based on observation lesbians seem to love poet shirts and i think she looks good in one#these are all shitposts.. ill draw serious art of them one of these days i promise#i listened to fools rush in and it reminds me of them.. especially when it goes 'though i see the danger there / if theres a chance#for me then i dont care' like its so poignant and bittersweet.. a little indulgent when u think of those small moments they have togethr#save me gay catholic furries... gay catholic furries... gay catholic furries save me#my art#myart#doodles#fanart#others ocs#canisalbus#fur#furry art#machete#vasco#vaschete#ludovica#sfw fur#furry#anthro
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"I live a lonely life without you. And I may be troubled, but I'm gracious in defeat."(in dreams - ben howard)
fanart inspired by the fic "buried my love in a shallow grave" by iamcringebutiamfree on AO3 / @grahamfolgersdeliciousnotebooks !!Set right after Jon made it out of the buried. I love it so much🍊💙
#jonmartin#the magnus archives#tma#magpod#art#jmart#jonathan sims#martin blackwood#i love alll their works ive read so far some of the best jmart out there#banger after banger#its all so cozy and sad and also hopeful at the same time#have to thank all the talented jmart writers out there actually im so well fed#teaholding#tma spoilers#tma season 4#post buried coffin#more martin in his lonely era
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over a million likes and everyone in the comments talking about how they’d rather talk to an ai because it meets their emotional needs, this is the new epidemic.
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