#but it took a while for it to hit me so idk

[gingerteafairy]

hullo its me again ^0^ is it possible to write smth where reader is insecure about their not flat stomach / pouch? idk i have no preference on which evan character it should be. i like peter, luke, todd, warren, tate.. the choice is urs hehe!! thank youuu queen

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OHMYGOF GURL I WAS WAITING AN OPPORTUNITY TO DO IT BC I HATE MY POUCH SO MUCH. oh, hey bat anon 💞

tags n warnings: slightly nsfw, language.

peter maximoff

Peter has the weirdest compliments in the world—you never know if he’s actually praising you or just roasting you for free. "That extra fat makes high-speed travel safer." It took you a while, but eventually, you realized it was his own awkward, heartfelt way of saying something sweet. He’s clumsy, but he always makes sure you feel beautiful and adored, treating you like an absolute goddess.

"Peter, I think I should lose weight," you murmured, looking at yourself in the mirror, your expression sad as your fingers traced over your stomach.

"If that’s what you want, I’ll help you and hit the gym with you. But I think you’re perfect just the way you are, don't need to change it for me or for anyone." He smiled, cupping your face gently. "Besides, that just means there’s more of you for me to love."

luke cooper

Luke has an insane attraction to your body—like, almost unsettling. The moment he sees you in a pencil skirt or a dress that clings a little to your stomach, he loses it, instantly pulling you aside just to kiss you senseless.

He loves running his hands over your belly, giving it small squeezes, and he has a bad habit of biting you whenever he gets the chance. "Sorry, I had to do it." He’s always encouraging you to wear bikinis and other clothes, hyping you up like a personal cheerleader.

"Your stomach? I think of it as a built-in cushion, like a support for my... for our... y' know..." he grins, pressing a teasing kiss to your skin.

tate langdon

Tate lives for touching you. He loves holding you in every way possible, but hugging you is his absolute favorite. His top-tier cuddles include spooning with you as the little spoon and wrapping you up in his arms whenever you're sitting on his lap. He hates when you talk down about yourself—especially about something he adores so much.

"I wish you could see yourself the way I see you..." he murmurs, frowning as he tucks a strand of hair behind your ear.

But if he ever catches you comparing yourself to other girls, his patience wears thin. He’ll snatch your phone out of your hands, shutting it off with an irritated huff.

"You spend way too much time watching those videos. It’s time to spend more time with me, stop comparing yourself, and actually listen to what I say. Stop focusing on the bad things. Focus on all the times I’ve told you you’re beautiful. I wouldn’t trade you for anyone, and you’re not any less gorgeous just because of your stomach."

warren lipka

Warren is obsessed with your stomach. No exaggeration. His favorite thing in the world is randomly squeezing it—especially when he sneaks up behind you, wrapping his arms around you and giving your belly a solid squeeze.

"Warren, stop. My stomach looks huge," you whined, embarrassed as his hands kneaded at the soft flesh. "I’m starting a diet, gonna do ab workouts every day and get rid of it."

"No fucking way you’re doing that shit," he grumbled, tightening his arms around you in protest. "Right when I was thinking about feeding you more so I could eat more of you.”

He smirks against your neck, pressing a kiss there before whispering, "Now, how do you feel about some snacks? ‘Cause I’m craving one, and I think you should have one too."

todd haynes

At first, Todd genuinely doesn’t understand why you feel insecure—because, to him, your body is just normal, and he loves it exactly the way it is. He tries to be patient, but if you keep bringing it up, he’ll hit you with straight-up facts to boost your self-esteem. He wants you to love yourself the way he loves you.

"I wish I could have a flat stomach. Everyone has it and I feel so ugly with this..." You sigh, resting your head on his shoulders.

"Actually," he starts, his voice taking on a factual tone, "that small curve on your stomach is completely normal for women. It’s where the uterus is located, and the slight fat storage there helps support a healthy pregnancy. That’s why ancient goddesses were often depicted with bodies like yours—it’s a symbol of beauty and strength. So, technically, you're built like a goddess. Which makes sense, ‘cause that’s exactly how I see you." He smirks, watching the way your face heats up.

[cute-little-fly]

I love that you made this analysis and personal rant about this, because I have been wanting for a while to read an opinion about this from a person that lived through a similar experience and how they felt about how Octavia was portrayed with the show.

I never lived something remotely similar to this, so, for me it was harder to know how a person in a situation like this would feel.

Really thank you so much.

Even if I had defended Octavia from critics before I can totally understand your position. I can also see that this arc had some weak points in Sinsmas (not in general because we haven’t seen the complete thing). The weaker points for me are:

Octavia not looking for Stolas when Stella took the phone from her (maybe she expected he to come back? Idk either). This is not explained. I thought there were going to be scenes of Stella saying that Stolas left her and didn’t wanted to come back even if she offered (or lies like that).

She was happily going to answer Stolas, then Stella takes the phone and then you see she hasn’t her phone anymore but her iPad in the next scene. (This also leads me to believe that the show implies that Stolas not coming back after the trial is what made Via mad and not Stolas saving Blitzø, and when she says: you chose him is because Stolas stayed living with him later. But I know is ambiguous and is also unfair with Stolas bc doing that doesn’t mean he doesn’t care, and then he goes to the palace to look for her and she still gets mad, so ofc give you the point).

She assumes Stolas is not calling anymore because Stella obviously never told her he called, and she doesn’t receive the calls herself because Stella has the phone. It feels very innocent on her part to think that Stella would notify her if Stolas called. It’s not impossible, but I know it can be kinda far fetched because Stella prohibited her to talk to him. This could have been easily fixed by implying that Stella or Andrealphus blocked the number, and let octavia have the phone, but I get that maybe this was simpler to understand.

I really hope for the future of this arc to know more details about all of these situations, to make us understand better Octavia’s positioning, including:

How Via feels about Stella? Why she never thinks what role she might have? I think this is probably intended and part of her future arc but is interesteing that she acts as if Stella doesn’t exist and like she can’t affect anything…

Has Stella always been as openly abusive and shouting? (Not saying she wasn’t abusive in the beginning, but how evident she made her the abuse to be for Via in her childhood). Has the abuse scalated with time? When did that happened?

Have Octavia and Stolas talked about things before? Has Stolas been able to say anything before? Besides the Loo Loo land episode.

I feel that all of this information would help us understand the situation better too ❤️!! So don’t feel bad for not being able to completely empathize with her, perhaps this arc has some elements that needed more attention that the one they were able to give and also, maybe this things are hard to think for someone that didn’t went through them. Also, a lot of the situations of this show can hit very close home for a lot of people and I think is normal to feel conflicted about some of the arcs and characters if you endured a similar situation.

The Octavia Dilemma (Vent/Rant Post)

TW: Divorce

I want to make it abundantly clear that this post is about myself and my feelings on Via. This does not reflect the greater fandom or all Stolas Stans.

This is a reflection of my feelings and my feelings alone. Do not utilize this post to generalize all Stolas Stans since many of them are going to agree with about 60% of my post and I'm fine with that.

Moving on,

Hello everyone! It is I, Amalthea, the Ultimate Stolas Kinnie and Stan, reporting to you live on a topic I was initially going to not talk about, but became more compelled to talk about since well- I didn't want to talk about Stella. (I'd rather not lol)

When it comes to Octavia and her rejecting Stolas I have very, very mixed feelings on the topic. While many of you may think she was right or wrong, I'm going to give you the perspective from a person who lived this stuff during my preteens.

I won't go into details, but my parental unit picked another person over my family. Parent A decided to pick Person C over Parent B and that will never not mess me up till this day.

When Parent A left, I was alone without the only thing I wanted, closure. I didn't understand why I was abandoned. I didn't understand how Parent A just thought I didn't matter anymore.

Parent B had to struggle and I just had to- watch morbidly as my world fell apart.

One of the things I absolutely can't agree with Octavia doing is walking away from Stolas when he came back to her.

She has this entire speech, victimizing herself solely(not faulting her for it, just stating it), and not asking the question why and that is where I will say the Hellaverse team failed. Kids of divorce always ask the question why. We seek a reason and yet Octavia just makes baseless accusations at Stolas that hold no water.

I mean your father, the man who has stood by your side, and loved on you for ages suddenly has an affair with a strange imp from his past and you don't even- think to ask why? Or let him explain?

Octavia willingly parentified herself to cope, which again as someone who is parentified, that makes no sense to me. Parentification happens when no one is around to help you or support you, but Octavia had her dad right fucking there. She rejected him, and seemingly can't understand he's depressed???

Again, I am speaking for myself, but this entire rant of hers makes no sense to me. She's seen him light up around Blitz, be more open (maybe to open), and be happier, but doesn't acknowledge it???

My issue, a reminder I am talking about myself , with Octavia is she makes everything solely about herself and asks no important questions about her father. I know she is a rich girl, but she is shown to be empathetic and kind overall, so it feels out of character she doesn't even- try to understand. Even if it's hard.

When Parent A came back into my life I begged for a reason why. Why the hell did you leave!? What did Person C have that I didn't!? Why did you raise their child you didn't birth but not me!? What did I do wrong!? What was so bad you left!?

None of these questions were asked, Octavia goes straight to making accusations which makes no sense. The fact she expected Blitz to die??? Like Loona wasn't going to be fatherless??? Like she's 17. Via is a bright and smart girl. Did she really look down on Blitz that much??? (genuine question, not tryna be a smart ass)

Octavia: You lied to me.

Stolas: What?

Octavia: *pushes Stolas away* You lied to me! You said you would never leave me! You promised!

Stolas: Via. I-I didn't leave you I-I- I would never, it wasn't my choice.

Octavia: It was your choice. You chose HIM!

I also think this whole scene is why Stolas made the choice he made. While he had an inclination he could die- he knew his privilege could possibly save him. It's why he was a bit confused and not sure of what was going to happen.

He was hanging onto the hope he'd not die. Afterwards the reality sets in as to what he had just done and what he truly lost. Stolas took a risk on a hunch.

The man had no choice. As a father, as a person, as a soulmate, he was in an impossible situation where he had to use his privilege. He had no other option or Loona would be fatherless.

Stolas: Via, no! I didn't I just- I had to. You don't understand.

Octavia: *clenches fist as magic forms* I do understand! I understand that we were never enough for you! You never loved mother, and you don't love me, you love him. *holds up happy pills* And you needed THESE! Was this my fault that you needed these?

Stolas: No! No, never Via! *grabs Octavia's hands* Sweetie, please. You have always been the only good thing in my life!

Octavia: So does that mean you just stayed miserable because of me? *tearing up* Was I some fucking obligation? Is that why you didn't even hesitate when you got a chance to leave?

This next part always pisses me off because Via's expectation of her father are so high. That he cannot have autonomy outside of their family. She is so attached at the hip to him that anytime he deviates from loving her entirely it is a slight against her.

Also the obligation part of that statement boils my blood, because girl- you don't even know what it is like to have your parent look at you and tell you to your face "you're just a responsibility to me". Because I lived that shit. I lived knowing Parent A didn't want me because I was just to much.

Stolas stayed and loved on this girl. He gave her the whole universe and more and somehow that isn't enough.

Of course I sympathize with the sentiment, but nothing in Stolas's behavior nor him being with Blitz suggests she was ever solely an obligation to him.

If Stolas truly viewed her as a responsibility he wouldn't show any concern for her. Parent A in my life acted distant and emotionally withdrawn. They didn't take care of me anymore, acting like a ghost of their former self. They took care of my most basiepc and fundamental needs while Octavia is borderline spoiled and-

FUCK why couldn't I have that!? She sits there and complains but her parent came back for her?! She had a chance at closure and denied it! What kid of divorce does that!? What person does that?!

I know I shouldn't have this much turmoil over this. I really shouldn't. If anything I should be sympathizing with her entirely. Theoretically I should hate Stolas, but I can't because I know what it's like to be guilted for choosing yourself! I know what it's like to be forced to feel bad for being depressed! It's why I love Stolas so much and understand him completely.

But when it comes to Via, the character who borderline mimics my trauma I just- can't fully empathize. I can rationalize her thinking and- understand where it may stem from, but it still leaves me aggravated and unsatisfied.

While I may be ranting and rambling at this point- I may just be projecting and it's why I said to not take this post as something to generalize the collective- but I am thoroughly dissatisfied with Octavia's writing.

So much of it tries to mimic divorce related trauma, but none of what she has been through would initiate such a response.

She hasn't been abandoned, her father is right there.

She isn't an obligation, all of her needs are met and she gets all she wants along with a nurturing environement.

She was enough for her father, he came back for her. If she wasn't enough he'd never come back.

All of the claims she makes are easily debunked with rational thinking and do not make sense when you have lived through divorce yourself. Again, I can be projecting, but FUCK I needed to vent about this.

It just feels like such a fickle iteration of what real divorce looks like for us.

Ask Box is Open ofc.

[thursdayg1rl]

ok omg im back from the concert

[karmaajr]

in the car rn right after my sister had another fucking breakdown (shes a bit mad lol) n tried to beat the shit outta me LOLLLL 😭😭✨️✨️

[every-sanji]

[andromeda3116]

like i really think people outside small towns - especially in the south - wildly underestimate what it takes to leave them

like, here's what it took for me to move 450 miles from home:

familial support on both sides of the move, i.e.:

--people to help pack the u-haul for free

--someone to drive the u-haul for free

--a place to stay overnight after arriving in the new city for free

--people to help me unpack the apartment for free

--people to chip in on gas

--people to buy lunch/dinner on the way over

--people to give advice on where to look for apartments

--people to give me a place to stay while apartment-hunting so that i didn't have to go in sight-unseen to a new home

--a big one: a brother with whom i lived for a year at very cheap rent and expenses to save up what i could

a decent job in a niche in-demand field back home, which allowed me get a well-paying job here in the same in-demand field with enough experience to start off in a good place

a reliable, reasonably fuel-efficient car that could travel 450 miles without concern (which was paid off beforehand)

a $4500 personal loan from the bank (which i used every single penny of) - which also required:

--good enough credit to qualify for a personal loan

--enough income from the previous year to get enough from the loan to move

enough income pre-move to cover expenses for my final month at home and my first three weeks of work here before getting a paycheck

(aside: people were like "why would you start your new job less than a week after moving?? that's so stressful!!!" like my doll my dear my darling i needed the fucking paycheck as quickly as possible after moving)

enough food to bring along so i could eat between moving and getting that check

related, and also in the "familial support" column: people to help me pay for gas and/or feed me if i ran out of money/food

of course the baseline of a home to stay in at all back home, internet to do the zoom interview and find apartments to rent, as well as the structure in the hometown like a u-haul facility and a good bank with which i have a long-standing account

also, only having to move myself and my pets rather than having children who would need to have either daycare or schooling lined up on the other side of the move

now, like, obviously you can move without these things - and of course any kind of support system can take the place of my family, either friends or community groups or government programs - but they are not easy things to necessarily contact or interact with from hundreds of miles away, and not having them leaves you potentially very vulnerable in the new place, sometimes to the point of life-threatening

and i wasn't even that poor! i mean i was below the median income, but only by a few grand - and it still required a solid baseline at home, support on both sides of the move, and a personal loan, and i still barely managed to do it

"why don't you just move???" is such a severely, blindly, mind-bogglingly classist statement that it makes me just immediately disengage with whoever is saying it

like, even if you don't have roots in the place you're at, moving away is fucking hard and fucking expensive

--signed, someone who has been rankling deeply at the casual way people talk about "just mov[ing]" like that's a normal, easy, obvious thing to do and not something that is absolutely price-gated to hell and back

[dzozef]

im in a good mood cause my work enemy is getting her life ruined while all i had to do was keep quiet and do my best 🥱

[galebecky97]

my wretched daughter

[lucithornz]

Oh yeah I think I forgot to post here, but I had some shit come up. I was in a pretty bad car accident Monday. I am fine BUT idk how this is gonna impact my time and mental space for the next few weeks/months.

It could be since I currently don't have a car I might go stir crazy at home and do nothing but write fic. It could be I also go stir crazy and decide I need to run 10 miles to feel something. I just don't know yet.

But you best believe the next chapter I update will have a fun author's note <3

[mspeevee]

I usually say hi to customers and then immediately ask if they need bags, but I'll do the small talk if they ask me how I'm doing, but typically I won't initiate that cuz... Small talk us already so bad, and then doing that for every person I see for 5 hours?? No ty

Anyways I have this one customer who always does this passive aggressive "I'm good how are you" everytime I ask ABT bags smh like it isn't that big a deal bro trust me

[sharingresourcesforpalestine]

you know, I feel like, as little money as I have, I still haven’t put into perspective how much I have that could still be of use. I’m not so poor that I can’t make a difference. I can still buy a meal if I go out. I can buy a trinket. I’m not so poor or struggling with life that I don’t have food in my stomach and a place to sleep. Donating like I have this week has me wanting to do something that I hope many others are already doing. For every cent I would have spent for myself, on groceries, deliveries, gifts, etcetera (beyond the strikes where I am not spending money on anything but Palestinian causes) I will donate equal or greater that amount to Palestine. Because if I have money for me, I should have money for others. This is not me setting myself on fire to keep others warm, I know I would be of no use long term if I destroyed myself by going entirely broke with no way to survive myself. This is considering things beyond medical bills and life expenses that I need to keep going. When I count groceries, it’s things like when I use Instacart bc I can’t go out, because even though I don’t have a means of transportation, delivery is a luxury and if I can afford to pay for that, I can afford to donate. If I buy something non-essential like some snacks or the like, I have to match it with a donation. Because if I can afford to buy that, I can afford to donate. And just due to the nature of being a reminder, every time I get my period I’m going to donate to sanitary products for Palestine, because while pads are an essential product, donating even a little bit towards helping others get even the opportunity to get the same access as I do is an important reminder. There’s $5 donations available for those, and that’s about the cost of an average subscription I would be able to afford— it won’t buy a whole kit, but it will still put money towards that goal. I may not be able to do all the good the world needs, but the world needs all the good that I can do. As much as I can spare, I will donate. I only wish I could do more.

[arolesbianism]

Almost got too comfortable with liking a whole 3 25ji originals and tried listening to a 25ji cover playlist before I remembered that I do indeed still very much not like a good 99% of their covers

[man-made-misery]

Tw for illness/death

[theskeletoninthegarden]

There's got to be a word for something that's not exactly deja vu, but isn't exactly nostalgia, or fernweh, either. This exact combination of senses is familiar to me, but has never actually happened before.

[neverendingford]

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[possum-tooth]

hm. what to do.