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slowdrawl · 3 days ago
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Whiskey and Want |dbf!Joel x f!reader|
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| 18+ MINORS DNI | {series masterlist}
Chapter 10: Dirty Laundry | wordcount |4k| {TLOU AU, modern-ish, no outbreak, Sarah lives!}
| a/n | our girl is spiraling, joel is spiraling, everything is getting sloppier and riskier. this one's a slow descent ... hope you like messy. sorry this took a while, I've been putting it off idk.
“I think we should talk about what we’re fuckin’ doing.”
reader uses she/her pronouns and has hair. no major physical descriptions of the reader. no use of y/n but has the nickname Bird, Birdie, etc. reader has a backstory chapter warnings under the cut.
Warnings/tags: 18+ only, minors DNI, SMUT, phone call tension, Joel being absolutely unhinged, dry humping/grinding, fingering, oral (f!receiving), possessive Joel, protective Joel, guilt, lying, gaslighting (lightly lol), Tommy being a menace, blackmail threats, risky sex, voyeurism mentions, emotional damage, slow-burn spiraling, power imbalance, reader gets overwhelmed, mild panic attack, heavy foreshadowing.. series warnings after the fic.
Your phone buzzes on the table. You turn your head. 'Dad' flashes on the screen, an incoming call.
Fuck me, not now.
Joel’s lips curl, and something more sinister floods his pupils, something wicked. “Answer it, Bird.”
You hesitate, breath hitching. Two fingers slide down through your seam, barely dipping into the pool of slick settled between your thighs. He plunges them in, rough, and growls—really fucking growls.
“Answer the phone.”
He moves his mouth down to the mark on your collar and bites, sucking hard for only a second before he moves off you entirely, leaving you feeling empty. He reaches down to the table, grabs your phone, and hits accept with the slide of one of his fingers, still wet from you. You swallow hard. “Hey Dad, how’s Dallas?” Joel slips one hand back down, landing heavy on your thigh. “It’s been a nightmare, Bird. Shouldn’t be too much longer, hopefully,” his voice is tired. “You holdin’ up alright? Gary texted me last night, said Joel n’ Tommy were at each other's throats.”
You wipe your palms on the cushion, then put the phone on speaker and place it behind you on the arm of the couch with shaking hands. 
There’s simply no way in hell you’ll be able to keep your breathing steady enough for your dad to stay oblivious to what’s happening in his living room right now. You’re sure he’d be able to hear your heart beating through the phone.
Joel grins and trails his fingers back to the fabric between your thighs. He rests his head in the crook of your neck, mouth right beside your ear, cooing, “You gonna let me touch you while you talk to your daddy?”
You nod, biting your lip. “Fine. Lazy morning.” Joel shifts down the couch, sliding off the cushions and onto his knees in front of you, quiet and deliberate. “Same old shit, you know them. Tom was drunk, and didn’t want to go home, it was stupid.”
Your dad just hums on the other end and continues, “Sounds like it was more than that. Gary said Joel decked him. What really happened, Bird?”
You’re trying to pay attention to the conversation your dad is having with you. You really are. But all of your attention is stuck on Joel. He grabs your hand and coaxes you to sit up, spinning you so you’re seated properly.
Your breath hitches as he drops down closer, placing both of his big hands on the tops of your thighs. Your fingers scramble for something to hold. Fabric, skin, anything—you come up empty.
“Just a dumb fight, Dad. Tommy pissed him off… you know how they get,” you manage, voice a little shaky. Joel pulls your shorts down, forcing a gasp out of you. He reaches his hand to your mouth, silencing you for just a moment.
Your dad sighs, slow and heavy. “You sure that’s all it was?”
Joel pushes your legs open, his palms firm but gentle, grounding. You barely nod, phone just behind you. His breath is hot and damp between your thighs.
“Yeah,” you choke out, voice thin, fluttery. “I’m sure.”
Your dad pauses. “You okay? You sound kinda…off.”
Joel hums against your inner thigh. You bite the inside of your cheek to keep from making a sound. His mouth is warm, stubble rough, lips dragging slow.
“M’fine,” you whisper, barely audible, praying the phone’s mic doesn’t catch the quiver in your voice. “Just woke up from a nap, tired.”
He pulls back, just enough to glance up at you, eyes gleaming. He mouths, ‘liar’, and presses a kiss to your knee like he’s proud of himself.
“Alright,” your dad says, still unconvinced. “Well... I should be home by tomorrow night. You need anything, just call.” he sighs on the other end of the phone, “and stay away from Tommy till I get back. I fuckin’ mean it.”
Joel’s tongue slides between your folds, dragging upwards. Once he reaches your clit he hovers there, looks you dead in the eyes as he starts to flick his tongue. You slap a hand over your mouth, eyes wide. He groans, low and deep, muffled by your thighs clenching around his head. His movements are slow, and purposeful, like he’s savoring you.
“I will,” you whisper. “Love you Dad.”
“Love you most,” your dad replies, and the line clicks dead.
The moment the call ends, you reach behind you to make sure he’s gone. Then drop the phone onto the floor like it’s burned you. Your body is trembling, skin prickling with sweat, dripping down your back, behind your knees.
But Joel doesn’t stop.
His mouth is relentless. Tongue flattening, curling, sucking against your clit like he’s trying to brand you with it. You’re already shaking, thighs locked, moaning his name like it’s a secret slipping out over and over again. “You really just let me do that,” he mutters, voice muffled still, reverent. “While your daddy was on the phone”
You can’t even speak. You just reach down and bury your fingers in his hair, yanking hard, hips rolling without a shred of shame.
“You’re a sick fuck,” you gasp.
He laughs into you, dark and smug. “Maybe I am” he hums, “I think you fuckin’ love it though.”
Your hands are still tangled in his hair, tugging, trembling. He lets rock against his mouth, you’re grinding down onto him like he’s some kind of altar. Something sacred to press your sins into. His eyes are closed, brows furrowed in concentration. He looks content, focused, and determined.
“Joel—fuck, I’m gonna come” He opens his eyes and looks up at you, half-lidded, pupils blown. He lets off of you just long enough to say, “Yeah baby? You wanna come on my tongue?”
He groans against you, the sound rough and wrecked, and it tips you over the edge. “Let me feel you then, I’ve got you.”
It rips through you fast. Sharp and wild. Your whole body twitching, back arching, breath stuttering as you come undone. He holds you there, mouth still locked to you, swallowing every wave of it, dragging it out of you until you’re gasping and trying to squirm away from him.
He doesn’t let you.
“Joel,” you whimper, voice cracked open. “Too much”
He finally pulls back, lips shiny with you, and looks up.
Smirking. Ruined. Eyes dark as night, pupils blown.
“I’ll never get tired of that.” he mutters, wiping his mouth with the back of his hand like he’s tasting victory. “You’re so… so fuckin’ pretty, angel.” Something flutters in your chest when he says it. You’re still sprawled on the edge of the couch, legs slack and vibrating. You’re still panting. But your head is spinning with a cocktail of guilt and relief and something too big to name right now.
He climbs up your body, planting kisses up your stomach, between your breasts, over the hickey he left earlier. You feel him hard against your thigh. Still in his jeans. Still holding back.
“You didn’t—”
He cuts you off with a kiss, lazy and deep.
“Ain’t about that,” he says, nuzzling into your neck. “You needed it. I could fuckin’ feel it radiating off you.” He sits down beside you leaning back into the cusion, head tilted with a lazy grin stretched across his flushed face. He’s looking at you like he didn’t just tongue you through a panic attack, then he just reaches for his coffee again like he’s in a goddamn Folgers commercial.
You swallow hard, blinking up at the ceiling.
“I shouldn’t have let you,” you say.
He stiffens, his face twists into something you havent seen. It’s like he doesn’t know how to react to you being the one to pull away. He looks hurt, maybe even scared.
You look at him. “I wanted to. That’s not what I mean. But. My dad. Sarah. Tommy. That fucking picture.”
Joels’ brows furrow, he looks at you confused now.
“What picture.” “Oh, fuck. I forgot to tel—” “Tell me what.” He says, voice stern, cutting you off. You lean over and grab your phone off the hardwood. You tap the screen awake and put your password in before tossing the phone on Joel’s lap. You watch him clench his teeth, you see the anger radiate right up his neck, flushing the tips of his ears. The air changes. Charges. “I’ll deal with it, don’t worry.” He says, turning your phone off. You don’t believe him, but you want to.
You both just sit there in the silence, the air still thick with everything that just happened, what you saw. The living room still smells like coffee and sweat and Joel.
You tug your shorts back up, thighs still trembling, skin sticky from where he kissed you, not meeting his eyes.
“I think we should talk about what we’re fuckin’ doing” you mumble.
Joel exhales. Loud. He sits up and grabs his mug off the table.
“Yeah, probably” he says. “But not today.” You nod, even though you’re unsure of what you’re agreeing to.
Not today.
You try to sit up, gather your thoughts. Don’t succeed at either.
He nudges your foot with his knee. “So,” he says casually, like he doesn’t still taste you. Like the air didn’t just turn cold. “We gonna talk about Sarah’s party or just keep nearly getting caught in your dad’s living room?”
You blink at him. “Now? That’s your segue?”
“Timing’s everything, kid,” he mutters around a sip, then leans forward, bracing his elbows on his knees. “She’s gonna be back Sunday. We got what? Less than a week? I was thinkin’ we could do something small, nothin’ stupid. Grillin’, music, just her people. You gonna help out or what?”
You nod, still a little dazed. “Yeah, yeah. Of course.”
He watches you, serious now. “You okay?”
You want to say yes. You want to say no. Instead, you curl your legs up onto the couch and mumble, “Tommy has a photo of you. Through the fuckin’ window. And you seem pretty chill about it.”
Joel freezes. The silence slams back into the room.
“I’m not. He’s a fuckin’ creep for it, but I’ll handle it” he mutters eventually, setting the mug down hard enough to clink. “You tell anyone about it?”
“No, who the fuck would I tell, when would I have had time?.”
He scrubs a hand over his face. “I’ve got it under control.”
That’s all he says about it.
He stands, stretching with a grunt, bones cracking like firewood. He grabs his flannel from the back of the couch, shrugs it on over your dads stolen Grizzlies tee.
“I’m gonna go grab groceries and a case of beer or two. Make sure everything’s stocked before your dad rolls in.” He pauses. “If you hear from him, let me know. I don’t want him thinkin’ I’m avoidin’ him.”
You nod again, too many thoughts swimming in your brain. Joel leans over, and kisses your forehead like it’s second nature. Like it’s nothing. Like he didn’t just fingerfuck you through a speakerphone call with his best friend.
“Be back soon, Birdie.”
The door shuts behind him. He’s gone.
And you sit there trying to decide if your hands are shaking from what just happened—or maybe from what’s bound to.
The room’s still warm from him. Smells like him. You can hear the rumble of his truck fade down the street.
You stare at the coffee table. His mug. Your phone. A crumpled napkin. The weight of what just happened is still heavy in your chest, but it’s not the only thing making it hard to breathe.
You scan the room paranoid. That Joel’s still there, that Tommy’s around the corner. That your dad’s home. Your eyes land on something near the base of the stairs.You spot it suddenly near the base of the stairs. Joel’s flask, right where it must’ve rolled last night. How the hell didn’t you see it earlier? Shiny. Innocent-looking. But it’s not. It’s damning. It’s evidence. You forgot about it until now, and your heart kicks.
You leap off the couch and scoop it up fast, fingers fumbling. You hesitate for a second—where the hell should you put it? The coffee table drawer? No, too obvious. You end up tucking it into the drawer in the entryway table. The one with old keys and batteries and ballpoint pens that don’t work. Out of sight, not out of mind. You’ll deal with it later.
You’re still buzzing, brain moving in five directions at once. The picture. Tommy. Joel’s mouth on you, his name on yours. Your dad’s voice in your ear. Joel leaving like nothing happened. Again.
Your fingers twitch around your phone.
You call the only person who won’t judge you—at least not out loud.
Karlie picks up on the second ring. “Babe! Oh thank God, what the hell happened? Liam said there was blood, and Tommy was loaded, and—”
“I’m so fucked,” you blurt out.
She pauses. “Okay. Start from the top.”
You drag your knees up onto the couch and curl around yourself. “Joel and Tommy got into it. At the bar. Over me.”
“Oh my fucking GOD.”
“Yeah. And now I’m…” you groan, covering your face. “I’m fucked. I’m fucking Joel”
“WHAT.”
“I know.”
She’s practically screaming through the phone, “You mean like, you’re fucking-fucking Joel… or like you kissed him and now you’re spiraling?”
“Fucking-fucking. Well… yeah no I am. It’s worse somehow. It’s like... fuck, Karlie, it’s so bad. It’s so good, I don’t know what I’m going to do. I like him”
You explain everything. Him taking you home the other night, how he kissed you. The broken A/C. The barfight. The fallout. The couch. The fucking call with your dad. Joel taking your dads shirt. Tommy’s picture.
Karlie’s quiet for a second. Then, “Okay. First of all? That’s insane. Like, Jersey Shore insane. Second? Are you okay, baby?”
You nod, even though she can’t see it. “I don’t know. I think so. But he. Joel left. Again. Said he had to go get groceries like this is normal. Like it’s fine.”
Karlie exhales. “Okay, well. You need to breathe. He’s still gone?”
“Yeah. For now.”
“Good. Clean yourself and the house up. Burn the place down. I don’t know. Just—don’t let your fucking dad find anything.”
You glance at the table again. The coffee mugs. The air still thick with sweat and adrenaline. The drawer by the stairs hiding a very stupid, very incriminating silver flask. Why didn’t I put it somewhere smarter? Like under my mattress, or buried in the fuckin’ yard? 
Fuck
Too late.
You hear a car engine outside. You freeze.
Karlie’s still talking, but you can’t hear her.
You crawl to the window and peek through the blinds. A familiar shape. Familiar headlights.
Your dad’s home. “Too late.” You hang up.
Everything inside you goes very, very still.
He’s early.
And he wasn’t supposed to be.
He’s onto you.
//// Kev grips the wheel tighter than he probably needs to. He left Dallas just after lunch, didn’t even tell the crew goodbye, didn’t bother finishing the coffee he’d let go cold on the hotel nightstand. Just packed the truck and hit the road like something was chasing him. Or like he was chasing something he couldn’t name.
Maybe it’s nothing. Maybe he’s just been gone too long. Maybe he just misses his house. His bed. His kid. So he drove the three hours home like the place was on fire. There was just something about her voice this morning. That pause. That breath she took before answering. The way she didn’t say Joel’s name when she mentioned the fight.
Tommy and Joel, at each other’s throats at Sam’s. That’s what Gary had said. Over something personal. She was there with him. Joel threw the first punch, which didn’t sit right with him. Joel didn’t start shit. Not unless he was pushed too far.
And Tommy, well—fucking Tommy’s been an asshole since high school.
Still, he’s never liked being out of town when things go sideways. And something is fucking sideways. He just doesn’t know how bad.
He shifts in the seat, thumb tapping the steering wheel as he turns onto his street, every instinct in him pacing like a caged dog. He raised her, he knows when she’s lying. He knows when something’s wrong.
And something feels wrong.
He pulls into the driveway. Joel’s truck isn’t there. That should ease his mind. It should. It desn’t.
He cuts the engine, grabs the pizza box from the passenger seat—extra cheese, her favorite. He climbs the porch steps. The door’s unlocked. Not unusual, but still, it makes his gut tighten.
He tells himself to relax.
But his hand lingers on the doorknob just a second longer than usual.
He steps inside. ////
The front door creaks open and your stomach drops straight through the floor.
You fumble to set your phone down, Karlie’s voice still buzzing on speaker, but you barely hear it over the sudden spike in your pulse. You swipe the screen to hang up and toss the phone face-down on the couch just as your dad steps through the doorway, pizza box in hand.
You freeze. Hold your breath. Like if you don’t move maybe he won’t see it on you.
He glances around the room, eyes sweeping from the couch to the table to the stairs. His expression is calm, but it’s the kind of calm that sits on top of suspicion like a lid on a boiling pot. You force yourself to smile.
“Hey,” you say, trying to sound surprised, not panicked. “Y’all wrap up early?”
He exhales like he’s been holding it in since Fort Worth. “Didn’t like the vibe you gave me this morning. Thought I’d make it back for dinner.”
You nod, arms crossed tight. “What do you mean by that?”
“Didn’t feel like waiting.”
He walks into the kitchen, looking around slowly like he’s investigating. He opens the fridge without looking at you again. The pizza lands on the counter. You sit back down, try to blend into the cushions like you’ve been there all day, just not getting eaten out by his bestie.
“Everything good?” he asks, tone too casual.
“Yeah,” you lie, eyes on your knees. “Just caught up on laundry. Talked to Karlie for a bit.”
He grabs a beer, cracks it open with one hand. “Joel been by today?”
You hesitate. Only for a second—but you know it’s too long. You shake your head. “No. Probably with Tommy or something.”
“After the shit they pulled last night?”
You shrug, twisting your fingers in your lap. “Maybe they made up. I don’t know.”
Before he could probe further, the sound of Joel’s truck rolling up the driveway cut in like a blade.
You jump up, moving fast toward the window. Sure enough, he’s out there, striding up to the porch with his flannel wide open, the fucking Grizzlies logo on your dads shirt bold as hell against his chest.
Your stomach twists. You finally make eye contact through the glass, panic written all over your face. You mouth, ‘do it up.’
Joel blinks, then thankfully, he catches on. He starts buttoning the flannel. Quick, getting it most of the way up before the front door opens.
He steps inside like nothing’s wrong, just another night. Six-pack of Bud in one hand and a grocery bag in the other. “Hey man!” he says, smooth and easy. “Wasn’t sure if you’d be back yet.”
Your dad turns, eyes dropping to Joel’s chest. His brows pinch. “Is that my—” he starts, but stops himself when Joel looks genuinely confused. He doesn’t finish the sentence, just studies the logo peeking above the top button, then lets it go.
Joel holds up the beer like a peace offering. “Figured I’d stock the fridge, make sure everything’s set for Sarah’s party. Birdie and I were talkin’ about ideas earlier.”
Your dad’s jaw tightens slightly. “Earlier today?”
Joel shakes his head, casual as hell. “Nah, when you left.” She mentioned maybe planning to do something lowkey. I stayed a minute after fixin’ the AC, remember?”
You nod quickly, jumping in on the lie. “Yeah. That was it.”
Dad doesn’t say anything, but he doesn’t look convinced either.
Joel steps further inside, heading toward the kitchen with a grocery bag slung over one wrist. “Cool if I wash up?”
Your dad jerks his chin in a half-nod. “You know where the can is.”
Joel disappears upstairs, and you exhale the breath you’ve been holding. Your dad’s still watching the stairs when he opens the fridge again, unloading the groceries one by one. Upstairs, you hear drawers opening, a closet creak. He must be changing. Hiding the evidence.
You sit back down, trying to act like nothing’s wrong. Like everything’s fine. Like Joel didn’t pin you to the goddamn couch earlier.
A few minutes go by, and Joel comes back down still in the flannel, but now it’s hanging over one of your old oversized t-shirts. Plain, clean. Safe. The Grizzlies shirt? Gone.
Your dad doesn’t look at him. He just grabs a slice of pizza and leans back in his chair.
“Think Sarah’s gonna lose her mind over a party,” he asks.
Joel grins, settling beside him. “That’s the idea.”
They fall into talk, half-hearted and easy. You tune it out, eyes flicking to the stairs.
Up there, the laundry pile sits by the bedroom door. At the very top. Black cotton, teal print.
You don’t know if Joel folded it or just tossed it back up there, but it’s right fucking there.
And when your dad finally stands and stretches, heading down the hall to toss his travel clothes into the laundry basket, you already know how this ends.
There’s a pause.
Then. “I don’t remember wearin’ this.”
You go still, ice flooding your veins.
Dad walks back into the living room, holding the Grizzlies shirt in his hand. Joel’s eyes flick to it once, then away.
Your dad narrows his eyes, quiet.
But he doesn’t say a word.
Just drops the shirt on the entryway table. He walks into the kitchen and grabs a new beer from the fridge without looking at either one of you. He strolls back in. Sits back down.
Watching Joel the whole time he chews. Slow.
And Joel? Doesn’t flinch.
Dad leans back in his chair, cracking the beer like the tension in the room isn’t thick enough to choke on.
“Some jackass in Dallas tried to put gutters in backward,” he mutters. “Swear to God. Downspouts pointing up. Whole system was dumping water back into the walls. Had the nerve to tell me it ‘looked cleaner that way.’”
Joel snorts. “You fix it?”
Dad shrugs. “Told him I’d fix it after I fire his contractor. Guy looked like he wanted to cry.”
Joel chuckles, low in his chest. “World’s full of fuckin’ dumbasses.”
“Damn straight,” he mutters, taking a long sip. He glances at Joel, then at you, like he’s chewing on something else—but he lets it sit. For now.
Joel stands finally. He turns to you and says “I’ll swing back tomorrow. We’ll go over the rest of the party stuff then. Okay kiddo?” Your throat goes tight, anger, anxiety. Mostly anger. Kiddo? You have got to be fucking joking.
Your dad looks over at him and nods once. “See you tomorrow, thanks for the beers man.”
Joel meets your eyes. Brief. Gone in a blink.
Then he’s at the door, pulling it open like he hasn’t just danced through landmines all afternoon. His boots hit the porch, the door clicks shut behind him, and his truck rumbles to life a minute later, then shuts off quickly as he parks next door.
Your dad doesn’t ask you questions anymore. Doesn’t bring back up the bar. He doesn’t mention the shirt. But the look in his eyes tells you he’s onto you both.
series warnings!!! fluff, smut, angst,unprotected p-in-v (please wrap it up), f/m masturbation, fingering, large but legal age-gap (joel is in 40's reader is in mid 20's), size kink?, choking, pervy!obsessive!joel, pervy!mean!Tommy, grinding, spit, cumplay, possessive/rough sex, praise, sex on the phone, drinking/smoking, strong language, sneakin around, lowkey obsessive and reckless Joel, blackmail, competency kink, risky sex, infidelity/implied, semi-public sex, breeding kink lowkey, overstimulation, a tiny bit of coercion, dirty talk, oops its a creampie, brief mentions of grief and implied suicide, Tommy is a jerk in this one, guilt and betrayal, bar-fights @yesjazzywazzylove-blog @brittmb115 @mystickittytaco @your-nightmaredoll @leenieweenie12 @orodaeh @jokesonthem
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darkintothedawn · 2 days ago
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ORDER UP? || Stiles Stilinski 'Teen Wolf'
Pairing — Stiles Stilinski x Gender Neutral reader
Summary — Stiles finally gets a chance at a job part time and you have to help through that process.
Memo— IGNORE how long this took and how I literally fell asleep at my computer trying to edit this (I have no time management)(I didn't even know I was tired)(I know I missed things while editing this). This was inspired by a single tiktok edit so if anyone wants to see that just ask. Also, turns out there's a 1k block limit so this is blocked out really weirdly here and there, I apologise. Oh, also, I did write some of this scenes out originally with a gendered reader so if I left anything in please just comment the line or something, I'd appreciate it!!!
Warnings — Smut. Lots of fluff though. Buzz cut Stiles. Idk how to describe this lmao. This does include cannon divergent headcanons. Yes I did also continuously bring up cheap soap/detergent. My boy does not have any life skills and I didn't know what else to put :(
Word Count — 30k~
Masterlist | Stiles' Adventures
The first time Stiles bursts through your bedroom door that week, he’s vibrating with so much nervous energy it feels like he’s about to physically lift off the floor.
He’s still got his Converse on (muddy, of course), hoodie half-zipped, hair an absolute disaster even though it’s buzzed short now—like somehow the universe decided that even if there was less hair, it would still find a way to look chaotic—and his eyes, wide and sparkling, instantly lock on yours like he’s about to drop the most important news of the century. His backpack falls off his shoulder and hits the floor with a thump loud enough to make you jump a little.
"Guess who just nailed a preliminary interview at McDonald’s?" he blurts out without even saying hello, voice high-pitched with excitement.
You blink up at him from where you’re sprawled on the bed, textbook open across your chest, headphones around your neck. You grin. "Uh, President of the United States?"
He snorts, practically bouncing in place, legs jittering like he’s vibrating at a molecular level. "Close! Me! Me, babe! I’m the President! Of—of like, Quarter Pounders and french fries and Happy Meals!"
He’s pacing now, wild hands moving as he talks, his body too full of restless energy to stay still, rambling so fast his words trip over each other like they’re racing to get out first. His hoodie sleeves are pushed halfway up his skinny forearms, and he's tugging them up further with jerky movements every time they slip down, like even his clothes can't keep up with him.
"I went in just to grab a Coke, right? And the manager was there—like, the manager, not just some shift lead who’s like seventeen and already dead inside, but the guy who wears the tie and has a clipboard and everything—and he saw me looking at the Help Wanted sign and we started talking and he was like, 'Hey, you seem like a personable kid,' and I am personable, right, you think I’m personable—?"
"You're the most personable person alive," you say without missing a beat, biting back a laugh as he whirls around to beam at you like you just handed him the Nobel Prize.
"Right?! Right, exactly! Anyway, he said they were short-staffed and he could squeeze me in for an interview next week, and like, I’ve never had a real interview before, not unless you count Scott’s mom asking me if I could babysit Scott, which doesn’t count because she literally knew I’d already snuck beers into the house twice—like, twice, and she still trusted me, can you believe that—?"
He finally pauses to breathe, chest heaving slightly, cheeks pink, buzzed hair sticking up in tiny tufts like static shock got him. You sit up fully, setting your book aside, and open your arms wordlessly. Stiles practically dives onto the bed without hesitation, collapsing into your chest with a dramatic oof like you’re the softest thing he’s ever touched. His hoodie smells faintly like fries, Coca-Cola syrup, and fresh laundry detergent—the cheap kind his dad buys in bulk. You wrap your arms around his back, feeling the way his whole body buzzes under your hands, a livewire of pent-up excitement and nerves.
"Hey," you murmur into his hair, smiling against the soft bristles of his buzzcut, "I’m proud of you."
He makes a small, pleased noise against your chest, burrowing closer like a cat finally settling after climbing the curtains. His fingers fidget restlessly against your side, drumming little random rhythms, and you can feel the way his brain is still moving a thousand miles an hour even if his body’s trying to stay still.
"You really think I’ll get it?" he mumbles after a minute, quieter now, voice a little rougher, like he's admitting something he doesn’t quite know how to say out loud. "I mean… I know it’s not like… a career career. But it'd be cool to have my own money for once. I could help my dad with groceries. Buy you stuff. Not be the guy who always shows up with lint and IOUs in his wallet like some kind of sad Dickensian orphan—"
You squeeze him tighter, running your fingers slowly up and down his spine in long, calming strokes until you feel his muscles finally start to melt under your hands. His breathing evens out a little, less frantic.
"Baby," you say, kissing the crown of his head, "they’re gonna be lucky to have you. Seriously. You’re like… pure human serotonin. Plus you’re cute as hell. You’ll charm the pants off them."
He snickers, tilting his head up just enough to give you one of those lopsided, slightly crooked smiles that make your heart ache in the best way. His buzzcut looks ridiculous and perfect at the same time, little whorls of hair you want to rub your face into like some lovesick idiot. You lean in and kiss the tip of his nose, making him wrinkle it adorably.
"I love you," you admit softly against his skin, heart thudding a little harder because he’s so him, so alive and twitchy and perfect. "Guess you'll have to get the job and find out."
He hums happily, finally still in your arms, his heartbeat slow and steady against your chest now. You card your fingers gently through the short buzzed hair, untangling the imaginary knots, feeling the way he relaxes completely under your touch like you flipped a switch labeled Safe.
"Interview’s Monday after school," he says into your hoodie, voice muffled but somehow clearer than anything else in the whole world. "Will you help me pick out what to wear? I know it’s just McDonald’s, but I don’t wanna look like I just rolled out of bed. Even though, let’s be real, that’s kinda my brand." You chuckle and squeeze his hip lightly, thumb brushing over the waistband of his jeans where his hoodie had ridden up a little.
"Yeah, babe. I'll help you. We’ll make you look devastatingly hireable."
Stiles lets out a deep, long-suffering sigh like the weight of the world has finally been lifted off his scrawny, restless shoulders, and he melts even further into you, his entire body draped over you like a too-warm, buzzing blanket. You hold him there for as long as he wants, your fingers still gently stroking the back of his neck, whispering stupid sweet nothings into the fading golden light leaking through your window, the two of you tangled up in each other in the easiest, softest way imaginable.
You shift a little under him, feeling your legs start to go numb, but there’s no way in hell you’re moving him off you. Not when he’s finally calmed down, weight pressed against you like he’s trying to merge the two of you together at a cellular level. Stiles hums contentedly, nuzzling his face against your chest, the short bristle of his buzzcut scraping lightly through your hoodie. It’s clumsy and awkward and somehow still the sweetest thing you've ever felt.
You press a kiss to the top of his head and whisper, "You're ridiculous, you know that?"
He lets out a muffled noise that sounds suspiciously like, "Takes one to know one," but it’s mostly just him breathing you in like you’re his oxygen tank.
The room is heavy with the golden kind of quiet — the type that feels full, not empty. Your fingers find the hem of his hoodie and start tracing random patterns along the exposed skin of his lower back, drawing lazy shapes like invisible constellations. Every now and then, he shivers slightly but doesn’t move away, just burrows closer, if that’s even physically possible.
Minutes pass like that, warm and tangled and safe. Then, because it’s Stiles and he can't let a single second of peace pass without filling it, he stirs and lifts his head just enough to meet your eyes. His cheeks are flushed, and his lips are kiss-bitten pink from where he’d been pressing them against your hoodie.
"So uh," he starts, and you can already hear the wheels in his head spinning out of control, "think you could, y'know, help me practice answering questions?"
You blink down at him. "Interview questions?"
"No, Jeopardy questions," he deadpans, eyes wide and innocent for about two seconds before he dissolves into a little snorting laugh against your chest. "Yes, interview questions, genius."
You grin and play along, tapping your chin like you're thinking very hard. "I don't know, Mr. Stilinski. What’s in it for me?"
He narrows his eyes dramatically, propping himself up on his elbows now, body hovering over yours awkwardly because he’s not sure how to balance himself without crushing you. His knees dig into the mattress on either side of your hips, and you get a very distracting view of the way his oversized hoodie bunches around his waist, exposing the smallest sliver of pale, freckled skin above his jeans.
"I'll pay you," he says seriously, like he’s negotiating a hostage situation.
"You don't have any money," you remind him, poking his side and making him squirm and laugh.
"Fine," he grumbles, cheeks pink, but there’s a mischievous glint in his eye. "I'll pay you in… unlimited Stiles cuddles. Lifetime subscription. You can cash 'em in whenever you want."
You make a show of pretending to consider it, tapping your chin again, while he wiggles impatiently above you.
"Throw in a forehead kiss," you say finally, "and you’ve got a deal."
Without hesitation, Stiles leans down and plants the sloppiest, most obnoxious kiss right in the middle of your forehead, complete with an exaggerated mwah sound that has you dissolving into helpless laughter beneath him. "Sealed with a kiss," he says smugly.
"Alright, alright," you say once you manage to catch your breath, "you ready?"
He sits up a little straighter, doing his best impression of Serious Adult Stiles, folding his hands primly in his lap like he's about to sit for a Harvard admissions panel.
"So, Mr. Stilinski," you say in your best fake-interviewer voice, trying not to laugh at how seriously he’s taking this, "why do you want to work for McDonald's?"
He opens his mouth immediately, panic flashing across his face because apparently he hadn't thought that far ahead. "Uh—uh, because—because I believe in providing people with delicious food at reasonable prices, and also I need to fund my insatiable addiction to Nerds Rope and energy drinks?"
You burst out laughing, grabbing at his sides to pull him back down on top of you. He lets out a dramatic, wounded noise but collapses willingly, landing half-off center across your body in a tangle of elbows and knees.
"Terrible answer," you tease, carding your fingers through the soft buzz of his hair.
"Hey!" he protests, voice muffled against your shoulder. "It's honest! Don't they want honesty?"
"Maybe leave out the Nerds Rope part," you advise, laughing so hard now that your ribs ache. "Go with something like, 'I want to build valuable work experience and learn about customer service.' Y'know. Boring adult words." He groans loudly, rolling his face into your hoodie like he can somehow disappear into it.
"Boring adult words are hard," he whines dramatically, kicking his feet behind him like a toddler.
You’re still laughing when he lifts his head again, brown eyes huge and stupidly fond, looking at you like you hung the damn moon. He shifts so he’s straddling your waist fully now, legs on either side, leaning down until his forehead bumps yours. And he just… stays there.
Forehead to forehead, nose to nose, your breaths mingling in the tiny space between you. His eyes flutter shut, and he rubs your noses together in a soft, clumsy little eskimo kiss, the tip of his nose brushing yours back and forth like he’s memorizing you through touch alone.
You close your eyes too, heart thudding so loud you’re sure he can feel it through your chest. He smells like cheap soap and detergent and something distinctly Stiles — sharp and sweet and a little bit wild, like he’s never stood still long enough for the world to catch up to him until now.
You stay like that for a long, long time, barely breathing, barely moving, wrapped up in the kind of warm, stupid, dizzy feeling that makes your hands ache to hold him tighter and never, ever let go. And somewhere, deep down, you think: if he asked you to spend the rest of your life doing stupid mock interviews and getting bribed with forehead kisses, you'd say yes without even thinking.
And then, with a soft, shuddering little breath, Stiles leans down and kisses you.
It’s not rushed or desperate, not messy or hungry the way some kisses get when he’s vibrating with too much energy. No, this one is slow and tender, his mouth brushing yours like he’s scared you might disappear if he presses too hard. His lips are a little dry, a little chapped, but he tastes like soda and the faint lingering sugar of something sweet (probably candy), and the way he sighs against your mouth makes your chest ache in the best, most stupidly overwhelming way.
You kiss him back just as softly, hands sliding up the sides of his face, thumbs brushing over his freckled cheeks, holding him there like you could anchor him with just your touch. Stiles hums low in his throat, content, tilting his head to deepen the kiss slightly, nose bumping yours as he shifts again.
Except when he shifts, he rocks forward a little too much, grinding his hips down against yours just by accident, and he immediately lets out this tiny, wounded whine, pulling back just enough that his forehead stays pressed to yours but your mouths part. He’s breathing a little harder now, cheeks flushed red, and he mutters in a rapid, slightly panicked tumble, "Sorry, sorry, sorry, I swear, I'm not trying to — like, I'm not— I mean, I am, I want to—God, I really want to, but I’m not, like, ready-ready yet and I know you’re being super patient and amazing and literally the best person to ever exist on the planet, maybe the galaxy, maybe the universe, but I promise I’ll get there, I swear, it’s just my brain is like, you know, kinda stupid sometimes and—"
You cut him off by squeezing his hips gently, grounding him, giving him the softest, most adoring smile you can manage. "I know, baby," you whisper, brushing your thumb over his flushed cheek. "You’re perfect. No rush. We’re exactly where we’re supposed to be."
But Stiles is still frowning, his whole face scrunching up like he’s deeply offended by his own body’s betrayal. His eyebrows knit together and his mouth twists downward, and he looks about two seconds away from either punching a pillow or launching into another thousand-word apology that would only tangle him up more.
You can't help yourself. You lean up and start peppering kisses all over his face, little quick ones like you're trying to cover every single freckle. One on his forehead, one on his temple, one on each cheekbone, a bunch right across the bridge of his nose. He jerks in surprise, letting out a startled bark of laughter that melts the scowl right off his face.
You kiss both corners of his mouth, feeling the way he starts smiling underneath the touch, soft and helpless, and then kiss his actual lips properly — once, twice, three times — until he’s giggling breathlessly against you, the tension draining out of him like a popped balloon.
"There’s my boyfriend," you murmur against his skin, kissing the dimple that appears when he grins. "There’s my Stiles Stilinski."
You pull back just enough to look at him, eyes sparkling, before adding with a wicked little grin, "My cutie with a buzz." Stiles groans, rolling his eyes like he’s too cool to be called cute, but the way he’s blushing all the way to his ears says otherwise. And because you can never resist when he looks like that — all red-cheeked and soft and pretending to be annoyed — you lean forward, open your mouth slightly, and bite the tip of his nose, gently but firmly.
"Ah—hey!" he yelps, scrunching up his face, but he's laughing now, breathless and loose and so beautifully alive.
You grin, wicked, and without giving him a second to recover, you drag your tongue up the length of his nose in one long, slow, ridiculous lick. Stiles makes a noise that’s somewhere between a shriek and a moan, jerking back a little and then just staring at you, eyes wide and blown and full of disbelief and something else that’s hot and sweet and so much.
"You are," he says, voice low and a little wrecked, "the worst. The absolute worst."
You just shrug, smirking up at him, fingers curling into the waistband of his jeans again to keep him close.
"And you love it," you say simply.
Stiles opens his mouth like he’s going to argue, but then he just slumps forward until he’s lying fully on top of you again, wrapping his arms around you like a starfish, burying his face against your neck.
"Yeah," he mumbles, words muffled but clear enough. "I really, really do."
~~
The afternoon sunlight spills lazy and golden across Stiles' room, painting warm streaks over the mess he’s creating as he rifles through his closet. You’re sat cross-legged on his bed, the mattress squeaking every time you shift, idly plucking at a loose thread on the hem of his comforter, just watching him with a dopey smile you’re not even trying to hide anymore.
Clothes are flying out of the closet at random — a wrinkled plaid shirt, a hoodie that might’ve once been white but now looks vaguely gray, a pair of jeans that hit the floor with a defeated plop. Every few seconds, Stiles lets out an annoyed grunt, muttering to himself under his breath as he digs deeper into the disaster zone that is his side of the closet.
"I have nothing," he whines dramatically, tugging a random sweatshirt off a hanger and holding it up, only to scowl at it before tossing it into a growing pile. "I can't show up looking like some degenerate who just rolled out of a dumpster."
You snort. "You'd still be the hottest dumpster rat in the whole world."
Stiles freezes for a second, like the words hit him straight between the shoulder blades, then whips his head around to glare at you — but he’s blushing already, the tips of his ears turning a deep, furious red. "You are legally obligated to say that," he says weakly, pointing an accusing finger at you.
"Nope," you say casually, leaning back on your hands, grinning at him like you’ve got all the time in the world to admire the way his buzzcut catches the sunlight, the way his cheeks pink up so easily for you. "I just speak the truth, baby. You're stupid hot. Even buried under half your wardrobe." Stiles grumbles something unintelligible, his face so red now you’re actually concerned he might combust. He turns back to the closet in a huff, arms flailing as he yanks a pair of khakis off a hanger and tosses them over his shoulder.
"You are objectively wrong," he declares, voice high and cracking just a little, and you have to bite your lip to keep from laughing because he’s just — he’s so stupidly cute when he’s flustered like this. "I am a mess. A chaotic, anxious, hopeless mess. You’re just — you’re biased! You’ve got the Stiles-tinted glasses on."
You hum thoughtfully, pretending to consider that, tapping a finger against your chin. "Or," you say slowly, dragging the word out, "maybe you're just insanely attractive, and you don't even know it yet. Maybe you're a whole-ass snack and I’m the only one smart enough to have noticed."
Stiles lets out a strangled sound, half laugh, half horrified whimper, as he throws another hoodie into the air like it personally offended him. "Stop! You're literally gonna give me an aneurysm before my interview!"
You laugh softly, heart squeezing painfully tight with how much you love him. "Just saying, if you show up in, like, a potato sack, they'd still hire you. 'Cause you’re charming. And smart. And so damn handsome it’s honestly unfair to the rest of the applicant pool."
He mutters something about "biased lovers" and "rampant slander" under his breath, still facing the closet because he clearly can't deal with you looking at him while he’s this pink and flustered and adorable. You watch him with nothing but awe, feeling like you’re seeing something secret and sacred — the way he fidgets, the way he talks to himself under his breath when he’s overwhelmed, the way he still doesn't seem to realize how magnetic he is. You could watch him like this forever and never get bored.
Another shirt flies out — this one a faded Batman tee that you know he secretly loves but would never wear to a job interview. "No Batman shirt?" you tease gently.
He spins to face you, wide-eyed. "It’s McDonald's, not Comic-Con! I have to look, y'know, professional! Adult! Hireable!"
"You are hireable," you say immediately, voice softening because you can see the way his shoulders are starting to creep up around his ears, the way he's working himself up again. "You’re smart and funny and you work hard. Anyone would be lucky to have you. Seriously, babe."
Stiles looks down at his feet like maybe if he doesn't make eye contact, he won’t spontaneously combust from the praise. His fingers fidget with the hem of the Batman shirt, twisting it up, and you swear you see the tiniest hint of a proud, shy little smile twitching at the corner of his mouth before he quickly hides it.
"You're such a sap," he mumbles, kicking at a hoodie on the floor.
"And you're not?" You fire back instantly. He huffs out a laugh, still not meeting your eyes, rummaging blindly into the back of his closet now like he might find a magic outfit back there if he digs hard enough.
More clothes get flung into the air, a pair of khakis hitting the side of your leg. You don’t even flinch, too busy watching him with your heart practically glowing out of your chest. Watching the way he bites his lip when he’s thinking, the way he pushes up on the balls of his feet and back down again like his body just can’t stay still. Every movement is so Stiles — chaotic and beautiful and real.
He doesn't find anything yet, but honestly? You wouldn't trade this moment — this stupid, messy, hilarious moment of him throwing half his wardrobe around while blushing like mad — for anything else in the world. Then another shirt — something nondescript and beige — flies through the air and hits the lamp on his nightstand with a dull whump. You watch with a lazy, fond grin as Stiles curses under his breath and digs even deeper into the abyss of his closet, muttering nonsense about "business casual" and "life or death situations" like the stakes couldn't be any higher.
You’re about to make another teasing comment when something different flutters out of the closet — a flash of maroon and white — and lands in a soft heap right by your feet. Curious, you reach down and grab it, the familiar weight and smell of it hitting you instantly. It’s Stiles’ old lacrosse jersey — the one from when he was still trying to figure out how to run without tripping over his own feet. His last name, STILINSKI, is bold across the back in thick white lettering paired with a large nupber 24, and the fabric is worn thin in places, soft from so many washes.
You glance over at Stiles, but he’s completely oblivious, still buried halfway in the closet, arms stretched overhead as he tries to wrestle a rogue pair of khakis off a hanger. His back is to you, totally vulnerable, totally unaware. You smirk to yourself, a wicked little idea sparking in your brain. Quickly — quietly — you peel off your own shirt, tossing it into the chaos on the floor without a second thought. The room’s a little chilly, goosebumps pebbling your skin, but you barely notice because you’re too busy pulling Stiles’ jersey over your head.
It’s way too big on you — hangs off one shoulder, the hem brushing the tops of your thighs — but it smells like him, like detergent and grass and something sharp and boyish and Stiles, and it’s the softest thing you’ve ever touched. You pad across the room, silent on your bare feet, and come up right behind him, wrapping your arms loosely around his waist. He stiffens for a second, startled, before relaxing into the touch with a little hum, one of his hands instinctively coming up to rest over yours.
"Find anything yet?" you murmur against the nape of his neck, smiling into his skin.
"Nooope," he says miserably, leaning his weight back against you a little. "I’m a lost cause. Just bury me in a hoodie and call it a day."
You laugh, and he turns around to face you — and freezes. Like, completely freezes. Eyes wide, mouth falling open slightly, his entire body going rigid as he stares at you like he’s seeing a ghost or maybe the hottest thing his teenage brain has ever processed. You blink up at him innocently, trying — and failing — to suppress the smug little tilt of your mouth. "What?" you ask sweetly, tugging lightly on the hem of the jersey. "This old thing?"
Stiles makes a noise that sounds like he’s choking on air, his hands flailing uselessly in front of him like he doesn’t know whether to touch you or not. His eyes are glued to the sight of his name stretched across your chest, the way the loose fabric hangs off your bare skin, the peek of your hip where the hem rides up. He visibly swallows. His hands twitch.
"I — you — holy — what are you doing?" he sputters, voice climbing about three octaves.
You bat your lashes at him, playing it up. "What, you don’t like it?" Stiles looks like he’s about to die on the spot. His cheeks go crimson almost instantly, his ears burning bright pink, and when you shift your weight slightly — the jersey riding a little higher on your thighs — he actually whimpers under his breath.
"I — it's not — I mean, yes, but — fuck," he mutters, squeezing his eyes shut like that’ll somehow make the image of you in his jersey disappear. It doesn't. It only makes it worse. When he opens his eyes again, they drop instinctively to the way the fabric clings to you, the way his name looks against your body, and you see it happen in real-time: the way his breath catches, the way his hips shift forward just a little without meaning to.
And then? The telltale bulge tenting the front of his jeans. Stiles makes a panicked, horrified noise, hands flying down to cover himself instinctively, as if you hadn’t already noticed. His face is a whole new shade of red now, somewhere between embarrassed and ready to fake his own death and start a new life in Alaska.
"Stiles," you say, voice low and fond, stepping even closer. He stumbles back a step, bumping into the edge of the bed, his hands still hovering awkwardly in front of his crotch like that’ll do anything to hide the very obvious way his dick is straining against his jeans now.
"I swear to God, you're evil," he gasps out, eyes wide and panicked and impossibly turned on. "You’re, like, a demon. A hot demon. A sex demon. Sent to destroy me."
You can't help the laugh that bubbles out of you, wild and bright and so full of affection it makes your chest ache. You close the distance again, hands sliding up the sides of his waist, feeling the way he shivers under your touch, his whole body buzzing with nervous, giddy energy.
"You’re so cute when you’re flustered," you murmur, leaning in to nuzzle your nose against his.
Stiles lets out another helpless little whimper, frozen in place, heart pounding so hard you can practically feel it against your own chest.
"You're evil," he repeats weakly, but he's already leaning into you, already chasing your warmth without even thinking about it.
You just smile, brushing your lips lightly over his jaw, feeling the way he shudders under you, his hands finally coming up to grab at your hips like he can't not touch you anymore.
And God, if this is what happens just from you wearing his jersey, you can't wait to see what happens when you show up to one of his lacrosse practices in it.
You chuckle low in your throat, feeling the way Stiles grips your hips a little tighter, like he’s grounding himself — or maybe like he’s trying to stop himself from completely losing control. His forehead drops onto your shoulder, and he lets out this soft, desperate whine when you run your hands up under the jersey, dragging your fingers lightly across the bare skin of his sides.
You tilt your head so you can press a kiss to the crown of his buzzed head, breathing him in. He smells like cheap detergent and boy and sweat and Stiles, and it’s perfect, and you’re so head over heels stupid for him it actually aches a little.
"You still need clothes for your interview, baby," you remind him sweetly, dragging your nails lightly down his spine. "Can't have you showing up in just your boner."
He lets out a strangled noise — half-laugh, half-moan — and rocks his hips against you without thinking. The hard press of his cock against your hip is so obvious now, and he doesn’t even try to hide it, just lets himself rut into you slow and helpless, like he can’t even help himself.
It’s so Stiles. It’s so stupidly adorable you might actually combust.
"M' working on it," he mumbles, voice muffled against your shoulder. His hips rock again, a slow, desperate little grind, like maybe if he moves slow enough it won’t count.
You smirk, sliding one hand up to tangle in the soft baby fuzz at the back of his head, gently scratching at his scalp the way you know he loves.
"You won't fuck me," you tease, voice low and fond, "but you'll hump me like you’re in heat?"
Stiles lets out the most wounded, scandalized little noise and lifts his head just enough to glare at you — his cheeks red, his mouth a little open, his whole body practically vibrating with how overwhelmed he is.
"It’s different," he huffs indignantly, grinding against you again like he can’t help himself even while he’s trying to argue. "This is — this is safe! This is, like, non-penetrative! No fluids crossing borders! It’s basically the sexual equivalent of a handshake."
You bark out a startled laugh, leaning back enough to catch his flushed, wrecked face in your hands. You kiss his nose, his cheeks, his forehead, anywhere you can reach, worshipping him with soft, silly affection until he’s whining and squirming and smiling despite himself.
"You're insane," you tell him, grinning so hard your cheeks hurt. "My beautiful, genius, absolutely insane boyfriend."
He pouts, grinding into you harder now, a little desperate, a little frantic. His cock is leaking precome already, dampening the front of his jeans, and the friction must be just this side of painful, but he’s chasing it anyway, burying his face against your neck and whimpering softly under his breath.
"You feel so good," he mumbles, like he can’t help himself. "You're so warm — smells so good — fuck."
You keep running your hands all over him, up and down his back, squeezing his waist, praising him in low, soft murmurs that have him shivering against you.
"So good for me, Stiles," you whisper, letting your lips brush his ear. "So handsome. So smart. Gonna kill your interview. Gonna blow them all away."
He whines again, grinding harder, his breath hot and panting against your throat. His hands flex against your hips, holding you in place like you might disappear if he lets go.
"Gotta — m'gonna —" he stammers helplessly, rutting faster, his whole body trembling.
"You gonna come for me, baby?" you murmur, sweet and coaxing. "Just from humping me like a needy little thing?"
He nods frantically, too far gone for words now, his face flushed and sweaty, his body straining against yours as he chases his orgasm.
You keep whispering to him, nothing but praise and love, telling him how proud you are, how beautiful he is, how good he feels against you.
And when he finally stiffens and gasps and grinds one last desperate time against your hip, coming in his jeans with a soft, wrecked little sob, you hold him through it, kissing his forehead and stroking his back, loving him so much it feels like your heart might actually break from it.
Stiles clings to you, panting, his body trembling with the aftershocks. He doesn't move for a long minute, just lets himself be held, lets himself be loved.
Eventually, he lifts his head, eyes glazed and dopey, a crooked, embarrassed little smile tugging at his mouth.
"You are," he pants, "the worst."
You laugh, kissing his temple. "And you’re the best thing that’s ever happened to me."
He groans, hiding his face against your neck again, but you can feel the way he’s smiling, the way he’s still trembling with leftover pleasure, and you know he’s soaking up every word, every touch, every bit of love you pour into him.
You’re never gonna get tired of this — of him — of the way he gives himself to you so completely, even when he’s overwhelmed and messy and a little bit ridiculous.
Especially then.
You press one last kiss into his sweaty hair, breathing him in, before pulling back just enough to catch his eyes. They're big and brown and still a little hazy, all soft edges and vulnerable in a way he only ever lets himself be with you.
"You gotta strip, baby," you say, voice warm and teasing but still soft, coaxing. "Can’t pick out a clean outfit if you're still covered in…" — you smirk, flicking your eyes down pointedly — "…evidence."
Stiles groans like he wants the earth to swallow him whole, his hands clamping protectively over his crotch, his whole body curling inward. His ears are so red they could probably catch fire.
"I — you — you can't just —" he stammers helplessly, voice cracking halfway through.
You smile, all fondness, and nudge him gently toward the bed. "C’mon, babe. Clothes off. Nothing I haven’t seen before."
He grumbles under his breath — something about "emotional terrorism" — but he shuffles a few steps back, still moving like his joints have been replaced with overcooked spaghetti. His fingers twitch nervously at the waistband of his jeans, and you watch him fight an internal battle for a second before he finally, finally undoes the button.
The denim clings stubbornly to his hips, and it takes a ridiculous amount of wiggling and cursing to get them down his thighs and off his legs. You bite your lip to keep from laughing, not wanting to make him more self-conscious than he already is.
Then he's left standing there in nothing but his damp, sticky boxers, looking utterly wrecked and so stupidly beautiful it actually steals your breath for a second.
"Boxers too, Stiles," you say gently, crouching down by the pile of rejected clothes to start sifting through them. "They're dirty. Can't put clean clothes over that."
He lets out this pitiful whine, face scrunching up in embarrassment, but he knows you're right. He hesitates for one agonizing moment longer before yanking them down in one quick, desperate motion, stepping out of them and kicking them behind him without looking.
Immediately, both of his hands fly to cover his dick again, arms crossed awkwardly in front of himself, chest heaving a little from nerves.
You glance up at him from where you're sitting and feel your heart absolutely shatter at the sight.
Bright red chest, trembling thighs, ears so pink they’re practically glowing — and that twitchy, twitchy need to bolt, even though he’s staying right where you asked him to. For you.
You set the clothes down gently and get to your feet, moving slow and careful, like you’re approaching a skittish baby deer.
"Hey, hey," you murmur, stepping close enough that your chest almost brushes his crossed arms. "You’re perfect, Stiles. So good. So handsome."
He ducks his head, a strangled little noise clawing its way out of his throat, but he doesn’t pull away.
"You're — you’re just saying that," he mutters, voice cracking at the edges.
"Nope," you say simply, reaching up to trace your fingers lightly along his jaw. "I mean it. Every inch of you. From your ridiculous brain to your stupidly perfect legs."
He twitches visibly at the praise, his hips jerking slightly like he wants to squirm but won't let himself. His hands tighten over himself, but you can still see the way he’s shaking — this trembling, earnest need to believe you, even though he doesn't know how yet.
You lean in and press a kiss to the center of his forehead, lingering there.
"My gorgeous, brilliant, sweet boy," you whisper against his skin. "My Stiles."
A tiny, broken little sound escapes him, and when you pull back just enough to look at his face, you catch it — the tiny smile twitching at the corners of his mouth, like he’s trying to hold it back and failing miserably.
"There’s my cutie," you tease gently, tapping the tip of his nose with your finger. "Still bashful even after grinding all over me like you're in heat."
He lets out this spluttering, indignant noise — but it’s weak, and you can tell he’s fighting a grin now, his chest still burning red but his whole body vibrating with this silly, overwhelmed happiness.
"You’re—" he starts, but he can’t even get the words out. He just shakes his head, helpless and fond and so stupidly beautiful you could die.
You turn back to the bed, forcing yourself to focus — because otherwise you will just end up kissing him senseless again — and start sorting through the chaos of clothes he threw everywhere.
"Okay," you say, half to yourself, "we’re thinking something casual but clean. Like you didn’t try too hard but you’re still employable."
"That’s… an impossible standard," Stiles mutters from behind you, his voice muffled by his hands and embarrassment.
You laugh, glancing over your shoulder at him.
"Good thing you have me, then, huh?"
And God, the way he looks at you right then — naked, flushed, trembling, but looking at you like you hung the damn moon — it nearly knocks the air right out of your lungs.
Yeah.
You’re so gone for this boy.
You hear him shuffling around behind you while you’re elbow-deep in the explosion of his closet. When you glance back, Stiles is hastily tugging on a pair of clean boxers, nearly falling over in the process because his coordination goes straight out the window when he’s nervous — or naked — or, well, both.
You snort quietly and turn back to your mission, rifling through the mess until you pull out a pair of khaki shorts. They’re a little wrinkled but otherwise clean, and more importantly, they look like something that could pass for trying without looking like he’s been dressed by his dad.
"Found shorts!" you announce triumphantly, waving them over your shoulder. "Now, we need a shirt that doesn’t scream 'help, my dad still dresses me.'"
"That’s a very specific ask," Stiles grumbles from where he’s now sitting on the edge of the bed, tugging his boxers into place with an awkward little hop. He crosses his legs at the ankles and starts fidgeting immediately, picking at a thread on the comforter like it’s personally offended him.
You shoot him a grin over your shoulder. "Good thing I’m a miracle worker."
It takes a minute — and several sarcastic comments from Stiles about the black hole that is his closet — but eventually, you strike gold: a simple navy blue polo that’s still somehow unmistakably Stiles but definitely says "I’m hireable and won’t burn the restaurant down on day one."
You toss it at him and he catches it against his chest with a soft oof, peeking at it like it might explode.
"You’re seriously a genius," he says, awe and relief mixing in his voice like he can’t quite believe you actually found something.
You wipe fake sweat off your brow and shoot him a wink. "All in a day's work, babe."
You’re about to declare the outfit mission complete when you spot something poking out from under his bed — something distinctly familiar. You crouch down and snag it, and sure enough, it’s one of your jackets. One you’d been wondering about for weeks. The one Stiles had definitely "borrowed" and then conveniently "forgotten" to return.
You stand up and hold it out with a smirk. "And look what we have here. You thief."
Stiles flushes immediately, tugging the polo over his head like maybe if he moves fast enough you won’t see how red his ears are turning again.
"I was gonna give it back," he mutters, voice all high-pitched and defensive. "I just — it smells like you, okay? And — and it’s comfy. And —" he waves his hands like he’s trying to physically bat the embarrassment away "— you're not using it! Sharing is caring! You love me!"
You laugh, heart feeling ridiculously full, and step closer, draping the jacket over his shoulders and smoothing it down. It swallows him a little, hangs long on his arms, but he just tucks himself into it like it’s armor, beaming at you from under the too-big collar.
"You’re right," you say, nudging his chin up with a gentle finger. "I do love you."
And it’s so true — so blindingly, obviously true — that it makes him freeze for a second, all wide brown eyes and parted lips like he can’t quite process the enormity of it.
You don’t make him sit in it too long. You just lean in and press a kiss to his forehead, then one to his nose, then another to the corner of his mouth until he’s giggling helplessly, wriggling in his stolen jacket and khaki shorts and looking like the best thing that’s ever happened to you.
"Okay, okay!" he squeaks, batting at you half-heartedly. "Save the mushy stuff for after I nail my interview later!"
"You’re gonna kill it," you promise, pressing one last kiss to his temple. "You’re gonna be the best McDonald's employee they’ve ever seen."
He beams at you, buzzing with that uncontainable energy he always gets when he’s excited, practically vibrating out of his skin.
"You really think so?" he asks, voice cracking just a little with how badly he wants to believe it.
"I know so," you say, tugging him into a hug and squeezing him tight enough that he squeaks again.
He hugs you back immediately, fiercely, burying his face against your chest and swaying you both back and forth like he can’t quite stay still. And you let him, because there’s nowhere else in the world you’d rather be than right here — holding your boy, wrapped up in the mess and warmth and ridiculousness that is Stiles Stilinski.
Eventually, he pulls back just enough to look up at you, grinning that big, ridiculous grin that shows all his teeth and crinkles the corners of his eyes.
"I’m gonna get the job," he says, full of conviction now, bouncing on the balls of his feet like he’s ready to charge out the door and start work tonight.
You laugh and kiss him again, quick and breathless.
"You’re gonna get the job," you echo, heart so full it feels like you might actually float away.
And in that moment, watching him buzz and shine and look at you like you’re the whole damn universe — you know that no matter what, you’ll always be right here, cheering for him, loving him, catching him whenever he needs it.
Because he’s yours. And you’re his. And it’s everything.
~~
You sat in the passenger seat of the Jeep, the afternoon sun beating lazily against the windshield. The outfit you picked out yesterday — khaki shorts, navy polo, your borrowed jacket — was folded neatly in a bag on your lap. You were early, of course. You’d gotten out of school a few hours ago for a check-up and figured you’d surprise him, beat the crowd, and maybe calm him down before his big moment. Plus, sitting here in his beloved Jeep, keys jangling against your thigh, it almost felt like you were soaking in a piece of him even while he was still inside.
The keys had been a quiet, shy Christmas gift two years ago, just after you'd confessed to him— and you hadn’t taken the responsibility lightly. Especially not now, watching the doors of the school burst open and a gaggle of students pour out, loud and chaotic and alive.
~~
It was Christmas Eve, and Beacon Hills was cold enough to bite.
The little pop-up ice rink downtown was buzzing with sound — Christmas music blaring tinny through cheap speakers, kids screaming with laughter and occasional terror as they slid on the slick surface, parents huddled at the edges with hot cocoa clutched in gloved hands. String lights arched over the rink, glowing soft yellow against the deepening blue of the sky, casting the whole place in a warm sort of magic that tried to make up for the freezing wind that bit through every layer of your clothes.
You were sitting on a cold bench just outside the rink, bent forward and yanking tight the laces on the rental skates that pinched slightly at your ankles. Your fingers were numb, but the sting didn’t really register — not when you looked up and caught sight of him. Stiles.
Already on the rink with Scott, sliding gracelessly across the ice, arms flailing just a little too wide to be confident. Scott, bless him, was skating backwards like he was born on ice, goading Stiles with bright eyes and loud laughter as he gestured wildly for his best friend to pick up the pace. Stiles was trying, you could see that — teeth bared in concentration, tongue peeking out the corner of his mouth, fists clenched in his sleeves like if he just focused hard enough, he could become someone who didn’t look like a baby deer learning to walk for the first time.
He wasn’t bad, though. Not really. He’d been worse the last time you all went skating. He was keeping up now. Wobbling, sure, but moving. There was still that tightness around his shoulders, the faint flicker of worry in his eyes whenever someone passed too close or when he caught you looking and flushed like you’d seen something embarrassing. But then Scott would laugh, shout something dumb over his shoulder, and Stiles would grin wide and too sharp, skating harder like he had something to prove.
And you were just… watching. Watching like you always did when it came to Stiles. Heart full to the brim with him. You’d shown up late, dragging your body through the cold and into a cab you could barely afford because your mom had bailed at the last second. It wasn’t her thing, the holidays — not since the divorce. But Stiles? Stiles was your thing. Had been for a while now.
You’d barely hesitated when you saw the time. The cab ate the last of what you had saved in your wallet. Christmas presents be damned. All you could think about was how he’d light up when he saw you — how his ears would go pink and he’d do that fidgety thing with his hands like he couldn’t decide whether to hug you or punch you in the shoulder. You would’ve walked across the whole damn county barefoot if it meant seeing him smile like that.
And now, sitting there on the bench, lacing up your skates, you were already grinning without meaning to — not just at him on the ice, not just at how Scott caught him by the wrist to steady him when he wobbled — but at everything that shimmered just under your ribs when you looked at Stiles Stilinski and thought this. Him. Always.
You flexed your fingers once to bring some feeling back into them, tugged the laces one last time, and stood. The cold hit you all at once, and the wind cut deep, but you didn’t care. You were already stepping toward the ice. You weren’t late anymore.
Your blades hit the ice with a sharp little scrape, and for a second, you wobbled—just enough to make you stumble forward a step and throw your arms out. The cold shot straight up through the soles of the rentals, settling in your knees, your spine. But then balance returned, muscle memory catching up, and you pushed forward with one foot, gliding out toward the center.
Stiles saw you before you could call out. His head whipped up so fast it was a wonder his neck didn’t snap, and he immediately started flailing his way toward you, half-skating, half-praying to the friction gods that he didn’t go down in front of everyone. His cheeks were already pink from the cold, but they deepened into something bright and blooming the second you met his eyes.
“You made it!” he called, way too loud, like the music and noise and chaos had vanished and he just needed to fill the space between you with his voice.
You grinned. “You sound surprised.”
“I was surprised!” he said as he skidded up next to you, arms wheeling a little before he caught his balance. “I—I thought you weren’t coming. You weren’t answering your phone, and I thought maybe—maybe your mom bailed or like, you got kidnapped on the way here or something or I don’t know, fell into a Christmas tree lot and froze to death because that happens, and—”
“Dude,” Scott’s voice came from somewhere behind him, amused and exasperated in equal measure. “You’ve been doing this for the last twenty minutes. Let 'em' say hi.”
You caught Scott looping around with a smooth turn, skating backwards effortlessly like he was auditioning for the Olympics. He winked at you and then made a face at Stiles, mimicking the nonstop motion of his mouth with one hand. Stiles looked back at him, scowled, then whipped around to face you again.
“I’m just saying, okay?” he huffed, arms crossed now, chin tucked down defensively. “You didn’t answer your phone and I know you said you’d try, but like, you never just not text, and I thought maybe—well. Never mind.” His voice dropped at the end, losing steam.
You softened immediately, reaching out to gently tug on the hem of his sleeve. “Hey. I had to catch a cab last minute. Spent the last of my allowance on it, too.”
Stiles’ eyes went wide. “You did not.”
You shrugged. “You guys are worth it.”
That shut him up. At least, for a beat. His mouth opened, then closed, then opened again—but nothing came out.
Scott skated by in a tight circle, doing a ridiculous spin that earned him a loud “Show-off!” from a random teen nearby.
“Let me guess,” you said, watching him skate off with mock suspicion. “He’s been doing that since you got here.”
“Ugh, yes,” Stiles groaned. “The second he realized he was good at skating, he’s been all ‘look at me, I’m a majestic deer’ or whatever.”
You barked a laugh and leaned in slightly, bumping your shoulder into Stiles. “You’re not doing so bad yourself, Stilinski.”
He flushed deeper, and for a second he looked like he was going to say something cocky—but then he caught the slight curve of your smirk, and all the wind left his sails.
“I missed you,” he blurted instead. “Like. A lot.”
You smiled, and it must’ve shown in your eyes, because his ears went red. “I missed you too,” you said, your voice a little quieter now.
He blinked rapidly and then made a weird noise that was probably meant to be a casual laugh but sounded more like he was choking on his own tongue. You giggled, skating around him once in a loose circle, and then held out your hand.
“Come on,” you teased. “Before Scott starts spinning so fast he creates a vortex and takes out a bunch of third graders.”
“You’re assuming that wouldn’t be hilarious,” Stiles muttered, but he took your hand anyway, fingers clumsy in his gloves, grip tight like he was worried he’d fall right through the ice if he didn’t hold on.
You tugged him forward, and he followed without resistance, grinning and unsteady and full of energy like he didn’t know how to hold it all in. He slipped once or twice, cursed loudly, clutched your arm, then laughed so hard he nearly dragged you down with him. And through it all, you just kept your hand in his and skated a little slower, steady and solid, just enough to keep him upright.
Scott whooped somewhere across the rink, executing a wobbly jump that made a kid scream and his mom glare.
“See?” you said, laughing. “Vortex. I warned you.”
Stiles rolled his eyes, cheeks pink and glowing. “Whatever. If we get pulled into a black hole of Christmas-themed ice death, I’m glad it’s with you.”
You tightened your grip on his hand and squeezed. “Same, Stilinski.”
Stiles squeezed back without even realizing it, fingers twitching like he wanted to say more with his hands than he could get out of his mouth. Which tracked — you knew by now that when his brain got too loud, sometimes his body took over, jittery and awkward and honest in all the ways he didn’t know how to be out loud.
You kept skating, slow and easy, letting him find his rhythm beside you. It wasn’t really about the skating, though. Not anymore. Not with the way he kept leaning just a little too hard into your side every time he wobbled, like it was less about losing his balance and more about making sure you didn’t float too far away.
At one point, a particularly sharp turn had him yelping and practically throwing himself into you with both arms, his chest thumping against your side as you laughed and caught him with both hands at his waist. “You good?” you asked, biting back a grin.
“Define ‘good,’” he muttered, eyes wide, clinging to you like a particularly cold and clumsy koala. “Because if ‘good’ means ‘one sneeze away from death,’ then sure, I’m awesome.”
You laughed, heart tripping a little over itself because now you had your hands on him, and he didn’t seem to mind. If anything, he leaned in more.
“I’ve got you,” you said quietly, mostly because it felt true.
And he froze for just a second. Not in the panicked, ‘oh no, I’m about to fall and break every bone in my body’ way, but in a way that felt… smaller. Like something soft had just unfolded inside him, and he didn’t know what to do with it yet. He looked at you then — really looked. Not the usual wild-eyed panic or the half-distracted ADHD tunnel vision that came with everything Stiles did. Just him, here, eyes bright and unguarded under the glow of the string lights, cheeks pink from the cold, and lips slightly parted like you’d surprised him.
“I know,” he said finally.
Your breath hitched, and you weren’t sure if it was from the cold or from the way he said it — so quiet, like a secret. Then, of course, Scott ruined it. He came rocketing past at warp speed, hoodie flapping behind him like a cape, arms outstretched in what could only be described as an attempt at “figure skating Superman,” yelling, “WATCH ME, LOSERS!”
A second later he slipped spectacularly, flailed for balance, and somehow managed to grab a traffic cone from the rink’s edge on his way down — dragging it with him as he skidded twenty feet across the ice like an orange-and-gray torpedo.
Stiles snorted so hard he choked on his own breath, doubling over against you in laughter, the earlier tension melting away instantly. “Oh my god—did he just—was that intentional?!”
“Does anything Scott does ever look intentional?” you said through a wheeze.
“I—” Stiles shook his head, beaming now. “No. No, but like, respect.”
Scott popped up from the ice, grinning like a maniac with wet knees and no dignity left. “That was so cool!”
“Lies!” Stiles called back.
“You’re just jealous,” Scott hollered, spinning in a way that almost worked before his right foot betrayed him and sent him crashing down again. “I’m evolving!” Stiles laughed so hard he had to clutch at your arms for support again, and this time, you let him lean. Fully. His weight was solid against you, warm even through your coats, and he stayed there longer than necessary, his head tilted just enough that you could smell the faint traces of whatever shampoo he used — something clean and sharp, like pine and laundry detergent.
Your heart was doing acrobatics in your chest now. You should’ve said it right then. Hey, Stiles. I like you. Simple. Honest. The words had been sitting on your tongue for weeks now, waiting for a moment like this. But you're young, and your heart was a shaky thing. So instead, you stayed quiet, letting the warmth of him at your side fill in the words you couldn’t say yet.
He pulled back after a second, still grinning. “Okay, okay, one more lap and then I need hot chocolate or I will actually die.”
You nodded, but didn’t let go of his hand. “Deal. But if you fall again, I’m not catching you this time.”
“Rude,” he said, mock-offended, but his fingers tightened on yours all the same. “What happened to ‘I’ve got you’?”
“That was before you tried to use me as a human anchor.”
“You love it.” You didn’t say I love you, because even for you, that felt a little too real, too raw for now. But your smile said enough, and his did too — wide and a little shy and full of something that made your stomach flip.
“Come on,” you said, tugging him gently toward the edge of the rink. “Let’s get you that hot chocolate before Scott starts trying to do triple axels.”
“Too late,” Stiles muttered, glancing over his shoulder at the absolute chaos Scott was currently spinning himself into. “God, I’m gonna have to explain a head injury to his mom again, aren’t I?”
“Probably,” you said.
“But at least I’ll have backup,” he added, voice a little quieter again, eyes on yours.
And you nodded. “Always.”
You squeezed his hand once more, then gently tugged him forward, back into motion. The final lap around the rink wasn’t exactly graceful — Stiles was still more chaos than control, and he kept muttering curses under his breath whenever his skates hit a rough patch — but it was yours. Yours and his, side by side, hand in hand, cheeks red from cold and smiles, and Scott yelling about physics behind you somewhere like the world’s loudest Christmas ghost.
You didn’t rush it. The loop around the rink was slow, unhurried. You both knew the cocoa stand would still be there. That eventually your feet would start to ache and the cold would creep back into your fingers. But for now, the wind bit a little less. The lights twinkled just a little softer. And Stiles didn’t let go. Halfway around the last curve, where the crowd thinned out and the lights arched low enough that everything felt a little more private, Stiles suddenly spoke again.
“I really did miss you,” he said, unprompted, voice gentler this time. “Not just, like… you know, ‘my friend didn’t come to a thing’ kind of missing. I mean, like… it felt weird. You not being here right away.”
You glanced at him out of the corner of your eye. He wasn’t looking at you this time — just staring straight ahead, brows drawn like he was trying to get the words right before they ran off without him.
“I was gonna wait out front,” he said. “Like, just sit there and see if maybe you showed up. But Scott dragged me onto the ice, said if I didn’t move, I’d freeze my ass to the bench and he’d leave me there till spring.”
You laughed softly.
“But I kept checking,” he went on, kicking at the ice. “Every couple minutes. Looking around like an idiot. Pretending I wasn’t. But I was.”
You didn’t know what to say. Not yet. Your chest felt tight in that warm way — the way it always did when Stiles got a little too real without meaning to, when the things he said hit closer than you expected.
“I just…” He shrugged, still not looking at you. “I dunno. Things feel better when you’re around.”
And there it was. That thump in your chest again. You turned your head slowly, eyes tracing the shape of him — the slope of his shoulders in his oversized coat, the pink curve of his ear poking out from under his beanie, the way his mouth tugged down at the corners like he hated every word he was admitting but couldn’t stop himself anyway.
You let the silence stretch a little longer than you probably should have, then smiled and bumped his arm with yours again.
“I’ll buy your hot chocolate,” you said, light and teasing, like that could somehow contain everything you felt. “Y’know. To make up for missing the start.”
That finally got him to look over, eyebrows lifted in surprise. “Dude, you literally said you spent the last of your money getting here. The cab, remember?”
You shrugged, lips twitching with something just a little too close to guilt. “Yeah. Well. I… made sure I had enough for this, too.”
He narrowed his eyes at you like he didn’t quite believe it. “How?”
You leaned in, close enough that your breath fogged warm between you. Close enough that your noses almost bumped. You could count the freckles on his cheek from here.
“I got some from my mom,” you whispered.
He blinked. “Your mom who doesn’t even like Christmas?”
You didn’t answer. Not really. Just held his gaze and let the question hang there, unanswered. The truth was complicated — a short, sharp fight in the kitchen before you left, voices raised and then dropped into cold, brittle quiet. A slammed door. You asking, Just twenty bucks, please, and her sighing like it was more than she could afford to give, even if it wasn’t.
Stiles stared at you for a beat, like he wanted to press — wanted to ask. But he didn’t. He just gave a small nod, almost imperceptible, and something in his expression softened. “…Okay,” he said quietly. “Thanks. For… y’know. Coming. And this.”
You gave him a tiny smile. “What, the skating? The chaos? The part where Scott nearly wiped out a toddler?”
“The part where I didn’t freeze my ass to a bench alone,” he said, mouth twitching like he was trying to be funny but couldn’t quite pull it off. “The part where you held my hand.”
Your stomach flipped again.
You reached out, adjusted his glove where it had slipped slightly at the wrist, and said, “I’d do it again.”
“I hope so,” he said, way too fast, then froze like he regretted it immediately.
You just smiled wider, heartbeat pounding, eyes locked on his like you were braver than you felt. The edge of the rink loomed ahead now — the little opening in the rail where people stepped off the ice, where the real world started up again. You guided him toward it, careful and slow.
He turned his head, a little breathless, a little pink. “Okay,” he said. “Let’s get that cocoa. But I’m getting extra marshmallows. Like. A dumb amount. Enough to make it a choking hazard.”
You grinned. “Wouldn’t have it any other way.”
And you meant it. Every dumb marshmallow. Every weird joke. Every clumsy fall and wide-eyed smile and tangled word that Stiles threw your way. You wanted all of it. And later — maybe after the cocoa, when the wind wasn’t so sharp and your nerves had settled — maybe then, you’d tell him.
Stiles, I like you. Like, really like you.
But for now, you just walked side by side toward the little stand with the peeling paint and the smell of cinnamon sugar in the air, his hand bumping yours like he didn’t want to let go just yet.
Your fingers brushed again as you and Stiles edged your way closer toward the rink’s exit, skates clicking awkwardly on the ice beneath you. You were both flushed — from the cold, from the skating, from the hand-holding and the something that neither of you had said out loud yet. It sat thick and electric in the space between you, quiet but impossible to ignore.
You glanced over at him. He was chewing on the inside of his cheek, trying not to look like he was watching you out of the corner of his eye, but he totally was. His gloves were still slightly damp at the fingertips, and his scarf was crooked in a way you wanted to fix — gently, like in the movies, with fingers grazing skin and—
“LOOK OUT!” The voice tore through the night air like a cannon blast. You barely had a second to react — a flash of movement in the corner of your eye, the sound of blades carving across ice like a freight train, and then suddenly—
WHAM.
Scott McCall, future Lacrosse captain and current menace, came hurtling toward you like a human snowplow, arms flailing, knees buckling, half-screaming half-laughing as a blur of pink puff — a tiny girl in a sparkly coat — darted past him after tripped him up without even noticing. There was no time to step out of the way.
Scott slammed into the both of you like a meteorite, and all three of you staggered backwards — you, Stiles, Scott, in a tangled knot of limbs, ice, and chaos. Stiles yelped something halfway between “OH MY GOD” and “MY SPLEEN,” while Scott’s foot kicked back and hooked around your shin, nearly taking you down for good. You were sure you were going down. Except — somehow — you didn’t.
You, Stiles, and Scott staggered and shuffled like an uncoordinated circus act, spinning in a desperate half-circle, arms wrapped around each other’s shoulders and jackets and whatever else you could grab. Scott had one hand fisted in the collar of your coat, and the other braced against Stiles’ chest. Stiles had his elbow hooked around your neck in a way that felt like a one-armed headlock, and you were clinging to both of them with a death grip around their waists like some kind of three-headed, cold, confused creature.
For a horrifying moment, the world tilted sideways. But then — balance. Somehow, miraculously, you all managed to stay up. Silence fell. Breaths heaved. Arms untangled slowly, cautiously. You all blinked at each other — a foot here, a scarf twisted around a wrist there, Scott’s beanie now sitting askew on top of Stiles’ head, as if it had been transferred in the chaos like a crown of idiocy.
No one said anything for a full five seconds. Then, without a word, you each took a cautious step back. Straightened your coats. Adjusted scarves. Cleared throats. Stiles carefully handed Scott back his beanie like it was a delicate diplomatic exchange.
No one made eye contact. No one mentioned a thing. You all stood there — weirdly still, ridiculously composed now — like three people who had absolutely not just been part of the most awkward three-person crash in the history of winter sports.
Finally, Scott nodded, completely serious. “So. Uh. Cocoa?”
“Yes,” you and Stiles said at the exact same time.
And just like that, you all turned and walked off toward the cocoa stand like nothing had happened.
Except for the fact that Scott’s hair was sticking up at the back, and Stiles had somehow acquired glitter on his jacket (from the sparkly pink puff girl, you were guessing), and your left skate was untied and flapping slightly as you walked — none of which anyone addressed. Because of course you weren’t going to talk about it. You were teenagers. You had dignity. Sort of.
As the three of you approached the little wooden stand tucked near the far corner of the rink, the smell of cinnamon, sugar, and warm chocolate grew stronger, comforting in a way that settled under your ribs. Scott peeled off first, already waving a five-dollar bill and declaring he was buying “the biggest one they had,” like this was some sort of hot beverage competition.
Stiles lingered beside you. “You okay?” he asked, his voice soft and close, still a little breathless from the collision.
“Yeah,” you said, half-smiling. “I think we survived.”
He glanced over his shoulder at Scott, who was currently trying to convince the cocoa vendor to put a fourth scoop of whipped cream on his drink. “I’m not sure he did,” he muttered.
You snorted. Then reached out, brushing some of the glitter off his jacket. Stiles blinked down at you. “I—uh,” he started, but then you just smiled and stepped up to the counter beside him.
“Two hot chocolates,” you told the vendor. Leaning in to whisper, “Extra marshmallows on one.”
Stiles’ ears went red again. But he didn’t argue. He just stood beside you, hands stuffed in his pockets, mouth twitching like he didn’t know whether to grin or hide behind the cocoa stand. He chose the grin. You handed over a crumpled bill from your pocket, the mystery of where it came from still lingering between you both like fog on a winter window. But Stiles didn’t ask. Not yet. And maybe that was the nicest thing about him.
The cocoa stand vendor handed over the two steaming paper cups, both topped with a generous heap of mini marshmallows that had already started to melt at the edges, sticky and soft. One cup had a crooked candy cane poking out of it like a flag of victory. You took both drinks carefully, balancing them like precious artifacts, and turned back toward the matting where Scott had already taken off.
Well—collapsed was probably the more accurate word. He was sprawled across one of the rubber-matted benches just outside the rink, legs still stretched out in his skates, cocoa cup crumpled and empty beside him like the aftermath of a sugar-induced war. “I think he inhaled it,” you muttered to Stiles as the two of you approached.
“Did not,” Scott said from his position, though it sounded garbled—his head was tilted back like he might actually fall asleep right there in the open cold.
“You absolutely did,” Stiles said, plopping down on the bench beside him. “I saw it. There were like, three sips, maximum.”
“That’s a subjective opinion,” Scott mumbled.
“I don’t think that’s how opinions work,” you said, lowering yourself carefully onto the bench beside Stiles, handing him the cocoa without even looking.
“Thank you,” he said automatically, then added, “Wait—extra marshmallows?”
“Of course extra marshmallows,” you replied. “You need to replace all the sugar you burned trying not to die on the ice.”
He huffed out a laugh and nudged your knee with his. “I’m a natural talent, actually. Scott said so.”
“Scott lies all the time,” you said. “Especially when he’s full of sugar and ego.”
“I heard that,” Scott said without moving.
The three of you burst out laughing.
It wasn’t a huge thing—just a quick crack of sound, breath in the cold night air—but it felt good. The kind of laugh that cracked open your ribs a little and let something warm in. The kind you could only have with people who knew you inside and out, who didn’t need to be told when to laugh or when you were joking. The kind that filled all the empty spaces that the holidays left sometimes.
Stiles took a sip of his cocoa and made a face like he’d just touched hot lava.
“Too hot,” he hissed, fanning his tongue like it was on fire.
You grinned into your cup. “You’re supposed to wait.”
“I never wait,” he said dramatically, eyes a little wide and watery from the burn. “I live on the edge.”
“You nearly fell off the edge earlier,” Scott muttered.
“I was pushed,” Stiles said, glaring down at him.
“By a child.”
“A very fast child!” You were giggling so hard your drink almost sloshed over the rim.
“Anyway,” Stiles said, turning back to you, trying to look dignified and not like he’d just been tackled by a kindergartener and then lost a fight to cocoa, “you made it.”
You looked at him, really looked—his eyes a little brighter now, cheeks red from the cold, scarf still not sitting right. And you thought: he has no idea. No idea how many times you’d imagined this. Sitting here. Right here. With him. Just like this.
“I did,” you said softly, sipping your drink. “Worth it.”
He stared at you for a second, like he wanted to say something else—but then Scott groaned loudly and sat up like a zombie rising from the grave.
“My spine is frozen,” he announced. “I think I need surgery.”
“Or a blanket,” you offered.
“Or a less dramatic personality,” Stiles added.
Scott waved a hand, unconcerned. “Nope. Definitely surgery.” You all laughed again. The cold didn’t seem so sharp anymore.
Around you, the rink sparkled with lights strung between poles, kids still shrieking with joy as they slipped across the ice, parents chatting and sipping drinks of their own. It was warm and golden here, in your little circle on the bench, even if your toes were going numb. Stiles shifted slightly closer to you, shoulders brushing. He didn’t say anything. He didn’t have to.
Scott stood up dramatically, swaying like he’d just returned from war. “I’m going back in,” he declared. “For glory. For honor.”
“For more glitter to attach itself to you,” Stiles mumbled under his breath.
“I heard that,” Scott said again, but he was already wobbling back toward the rink.
You and Stiles watched him go, sipping cocoa side by side.
“You think he’s gonna fall again?” you asked.
“Oh, definitely,” Stiles said. “Like, within minutes.”
You clinked your paper cups together gently. “To gravity.”
Stiles grinned. “To gravity.”
The cocoa steamed steadily between your gloved hands, warming the space between your palms like a tiny furnace, and beside you, Stiles was still blowing cautiously at his cup, squinting down into it like he was trying to solve a physics problem with marshmallows. Scott, meanwhile, had become an entire event on the ice.
At first, he was doing those smooth backward glides again, one hand behind his back like he was posing for a skating magazine cover, hair bouncing, eyes focused, just so full of himself. It was honestly a little majestic—like, if deer could have egos and wear sneakers and be fifteen-year-old boys.
But then—like the universe remembered Scott had the attention span of a fruit fly and a tragic lack of spacial awareness—he clipped the corner of the rink on a turn and went tumbling sideways into a teen girl trying to take a selfie. The two of them spun in a chaotic, flailing blur before separating, Scott landing flat on his back while the girl stood above him blinking with her phone somehow still upright, still filming.
You snorted into your drink. “Oh my God,” you said through a giggle, “he’s both. He’s like… the Swan Princess and Wile E. Coyote had a baby.”
Stiles burst out laughing beside you, nearly sloshing cocoa all over his jeans. “Why is that so accurate?” he wheezed, clutching his cup like it was the only thing keeping him from full collapse.
Out on the rink, Scott picked himself up with all the dignity of someone who definitely knew he’d just been recorded falling. He brushed off his jacket, gave a thumbs-up to the girl (who was still laughing), and then promptly slid straight into the wall, arms spread like a starfish.
You wheezed. “We should help him.”
“No,” Stiles said immediately, sipping again. “We should absolutely not help him.”
Another burst of laughter passed between you like static—crackling and easy. The cold had settled into your cheeks now, numbing them into a constant tingle, but the sound of Stiles next to you, warm and close and here, melted straight through it. You turned your head slightly to look at him just as he tilted his drink back for another sip—and immediately ended up with a stripe of foam across the corner of his mouth.
He didn’t seem to notice. Still talking. Still going on about how if Scott fell one more time he was going to nominate him for some kind of honorary physics award for redefining “trajectory.” But you didn’t really hear all of it. Not past the way your eyes got stuck on that little line of marshmallow foam just sitting there. Without thinking, you leaned over.
“Hold still,” you said softly.
“What—”
But you were already reaching out, one gloved hand steadying his cheek as the fingers of the other found that smudge of foam and swiped it gently away. It came off easy, but you didn’t move right away. His skin was cold where you touched it, a little pink from the wind. His mouth had gone still. Stiles blinked. Looked at you. His breath was caught halfway in his chest, like he hadn’t decided if he was supposed to inhale or just freeze entirely.
Your thumb hovered for a second longer before you pulled back. “You had… something.”
“Oh,” he said, like he’d forgotten how words worked. “Thanks.”
You gave a tiny nod and returned to your cocoa like nothing had happened, like your heart hadn’t just leapt out of your chest and sprinted halfway to the parking lot. Out on the ice, Scott tripped over his own foot again, let out a strangled yelp, and crashed shoulder-first into a stack of foam barriers. A small child clapped in appreciation.
You and Stiles sat there in silence, watching him. After a beat, Stiles coughed into his drink. “Okay but seriously. If he breaks his nose again, you have to explain it to Melissa.”
You smiled down at your cup. “Deal.”
Your leg brushed his again, and this time neither of you moved away. The silence between you wasn’t awkward. Not really. It was the kind that came with knowing someone so long that you didn’t always need to talk. The kind that filled up with tiny sounds—the scrape of a skate blade nearby, Scott shrieking faintly in the distance as he probably collided with yet another civilian, the crunch of marshmallows melting into cocoa. It was soft. Comfortable.
Which was horrifying. Because you were about to ruin it.
You were about to take this stupid warm thing—this perfectly untouchable, safe friendship—and set it on fire with the words that had been stuck behind your teeth for months. Maybe longer. Words that might make him laugh, or freak out, or go quiet and never look at you the same again. You sipped your cocoa like it might delay your entire future by a few seconds.
He was still beside you, still watching the rink like Scott might spontaneously grow wings and ascend. His knee bumped yours again. He didn’t move it away. Your hands tightened a little on your cup.
“Hey,” you said suddenly, before you could stop yourself.
He turned to look at you, brows raised. “Yeah?” Too late. Too late, abort, abort— You swallowed. Tried to play it casual, like your heart wasn’t rattling in your chest like a pair of dice in a Yahtzee cup.
“Just…” You shrugged. “Thanks. For, y’know. Being here.”
Stiles blinked. “You don’t have to thank me for that.”
“No, I do,” you insisted, forcing a smile you hoped didn’t look like a grimace. “I kinda showed up last-minute, basically hijacked your Christmas Eve.”
He snorted. “Hijacked? You made my Christmas Eve.” Your heart stuttered.
He looked away then, like he hadn’t realized what he just said, like it slipped out before he could shove it back in. A breeze blew past and fluttered the edge of his scarf into your arm. Neither of you fixed it. He cleared his throat. “I mean, not that Scott’s not fun. But if I had to spend another two hours watching him reenact Swan Lake on ice I might’ve walked into traffic.”
You laughed—really laughed this time, because the image was too strong. Stiles grinned, proud of himself, basking in the glow of making you laugh like he’d just won a prize. And for a second, you almost chickened out again. But then he looked at you, all bright-eyed and ridiculous, cheeks pink from cold and cocoa and something else—and you thought, I can’t keep this a secret anymore.
So you took a breath. Then another. And then, in a voice that felt way too small to carry something this heavy:
“Hey. Stiles?”
“Yeah?”
You looked down at your cup. The marshmallows had mostly melted now, turning the top of the drink into a frothy mess. “I gotta tell you something,” you said. “And if I don’t say it now, I’m never gonna.” He stilled. Just a little. But you felt it. Like he braced for something. Like he knew. You didn’t look at him. You couldn’t. “I, um. I like you.” There. You’d said it. Your heart didn’t stop. The world didn’t end. Nobody screamed. The rink didn’t split open and swallow you whole.
But the silence was deafening.
You forced yourself to keep going, to fill the gap before it could echo too loud.
“Not like… just friend-like. I mean—I do like you like that, obviously, because you’re my best friend and you’re the funniest person I know and you always do this weird twitchy thing when you’re trying to lie, and your brain is like, terrifyingly fast but also completely chaotic, and you make me laugh even when I don’t want to, and—and I think I’ve liked you for a while now, like, a while, and—”
“Hey.”
You stopped. His voice was soft. Not shaky. Just… quiet.
You finally looked up.
Stiles was staring at you like you’d just told him the moon belonged to him. Like he couldn’t believe it was real. Like someone had switched the language on his entire life and he was just now learning how to read again.
“Seriously?” he asked.
Your heart dropped. “I—yeah. I mean, unless that’s, like, terrible news to you. In which case—"
“No! No. It’s not. It’s not terrible,” he said quickly, cup forgotten in his lap. “It’s just… wow. Okay. I need a second.”
You winced. “That bad, huh?”
He barked out a laugh—not the reaction you expected.
“No, it’s just—” He ran a hand through his buzzed hair. “You’ve been living rent-free in my brain for months and I thought I was the one being a total disaster about it.”
Your eyes widened. “Wait—what?”
Stiles looked straight at you then, cheeks flaming, mouth twitching with a smile that didn’t quite know where to go. “Yeah. I like you too. A lot. Always kinda have. I just thought… I dunno. That I’d ruin everything if I said something.”
Your laugh came out more like a breath of relief. “Oh my God.”
He grinned, leaning a little closer. “So, uh… you wanna ruin everything together?”
You looked at him, cheeks aching from smiling, heart still hammering, but lighter now. Way lighter.
“Yeah,” you said, bumping your knee against his. “Let’s be disasters. Together.”
Just then, a distant “I’M OKAY!” rang out from the rink as Scott collided, once again, with the barrier wall.
Stiles tilted his head. “You think we should tell him?”
You both watched as Scott dramatically rolled over and then gave a double thumbs-up to a nearby toddler.
“Nah,” you said, sipping your cocoa again. “Let’s let him figure it out the hard way.”
It took a few more minutes, and a lot more laughing, before the cold finally crept in enough that sitting still wasn’t really an option. Your fingers were starting to go numb around your cocoa cup, and Stiles had started doing this little bounce in his seat like he was trying to stay warm without actually moving from the comfort of the bench. Scott was back on the rink by now, doing an exaggerated slow-motion routine for the benefit of a group of giggling kids at the other end. One of them threw a snowball at him. It missed, but he dramatically clutched his chest like he’d been shot and went down like a tree.
Stiles elbowed you. “Okay, we can’t leave him out there unsupervised.”
You smirked. “He’s a danger to himself and others.”
“Exactly,” Stiles said, standing up and offering you his hand with mock gallantry. “Come on, partner in crime.”
You took it, grinning as he hauled you up and nearly overbalanced in the process.
“Whoa—easy!” you laughed as you both stumbled forward a step, ice skates catching awkwardly on the mat.
“I have the grace of a gazelle,” he insisted. “A very confused, gangly gazelle.”
“Noted,” you said, still holding his hand as you both made your way back to the rink entrance. “Lead the way, Bambi.”
“Rude.”
But he was smiling. You were both smiling. There was a lot of that happening now.
The cold slapped your cheeks again the second you stepped onto the ice, but it didn’t feel so sharp anymore. Maybe it was the cocoa. Maybe it was the laughter still stuck in your chest. Or maybe it was the way Stiles squeezed your hand once before letting go—only to nearly eat it on his next step and immediately grab for you again.
“Okay, nope, no letting go,” he muttered, clutching your sleeve like his life depended on it.
“You’ve skated before,” you reminded him, already adjusting your stance so you could steady the both of you.
“Yeah, and it went badly. Remember the bruised tailbone of ‘07? I do. It haunts me.”
You were too busy laughing to answer.
Scott spotted you both right away and made a beeline over, which would’ve been fine if he hadn’t decided to zoom toward you like he was reenacting the final scene of an ice-dancing drama. His scarf flapped behind him like a cape. His arms were outstretched.
You saw it coming too late.
“GUYS—CATCH ME—”
“Scott, no—!”
It was like watching a car crash in slow motion.
He hit you both at once, crashing into your side while also managing to trip over Stiles’ skate and somehow launch himself into a half-spin that would’ve been kind of impressive if he hadn’t slammed into you like a human wrecking ball.
But somehow—somehow—nobody fell.
You were tangled. Arms everywhere. Stiles clutching your waist, your hand wrapped around Scott’s elbow, Scott gripping both of your shoulders like he was on a lifeboat and you were the last bit of floating debris in the ocean.
Silence.
Then Scott, very solemnly, said: “I think I saw the face of God.”
Stiles groaned. “Get off me, dude.”
“Hey! I saved us from falling!”
“You caused the near-fall!”
“I added dramatic tension!”
You snorted, finally managing to extract your arm from between their shoulders and stand upright. “Okay, okay, reset. Everyone alive? No broken ribs?”
Scott patted himself down. “Only my pride.”
“I think you left that behind five minutes ago when you tried to do a twirl and crashed into that trash can,” you said.
“I was trying to dodge a kid!”
“She was five feet away.”
“She had a look in her eye! She was coming for me!”
You and Stiles both cracked up at that, and then the three of you started skating again—slower this time, more huddled together, like a three-person train of barely-functioning limbs and wheezing laughter. You held onto each other shamelessly, drifting around the rink in ungraceful loops, feet sliding out at odd angles, scarves flapping, cheeks pink and sore from smiling too hard.
Scott kept breaking off to attempt weird spins or finger-gun the other skaters, and each time he slipped, he’d flail wildly until one of you caught him. At one point, he accidentally pulled Stiles into a clumsy spin and then tripped over his own feet, dragging Stiles with him into what could only be described as a tangle of limbs and swear words.
You skated over, breathless from laughing. “You guys good?”
“Define good,” Stiles groaned from where he was half-sprawled on Scott’s back.
“We’re excellent,” Scott mumbled into the ice.
Eventually, you all got moving again, more careful this time, more about sticking close and bumping shoulders and being together than actually skating. The lights above glowed golden against the navy sky, and every now and then a puff of snow would catch the breeze and swirl past like glitter. Someone’s Bluetooth speaker crackled, switching to some poppy remix of a Christmas song none of you liked, and yet Stiles started singing under his breath anyway—off-key and dramatic—and Scott joined in with harmonies that almost worked.
And you?
You just skated beside them, cheeks aching, chest full, one hand occasionally brushing against Stiles’ as you looped around the rink again and again, like maybe if you just stayed in motion long enough, you could hold onto this night forever.
You didn’t realize how many laps you'd done until your legs started to ache in that warm, satisfying kind of way that meant you'd used muscles that hadn't been awake in weeks. Your cheeks hurt from grinning, and your throat was a little raw from laughing. Stiles had been at your side almost the whole time—sometimes clinging, sometimes gliding, always making some comment that bordered on brilliant or deeply dumb with no in-between.
Scott had finally gone off to test his “aerodynamic technique” one last time (which meant he was probably going to fall flat on his back again), so it was just the two of you coasting in a slow, lazy circle, close enough to bump shoulders every so often, not quite speaking.
You liked the silence. It wasn’t awkward. It was easy. It was warm.
And then—like a well-timed holiday movie cliché—someone cleared their throat nearby.
You turned just as one of the employees—a teenage girl in a puffer vest and a beanie that had seen better days—skated slowly past, holding a dangling piece of mistletoe above her head. She was grinning like she knew exactly what she was doing.
“Merry Christmas,” she sang, and then, with all the enthusiasm of someone getting paid minimum wage but absolutely living for teen drama, she added, “Rink’s closing, lovebirds. Last lap.”
You opened your mouth to correct her—lovebirds? Please—only to realize the mistletoe was hanging right over your heads.
Stiles noticed it at the same time you did.
He froze.
Actually, you froze too.
The music had dipped into something softer now, bells chiming under strings, that slow orchestral swell that felt like a quiet end rather than a loud finish. Around you, the other skaters were slowly making their way toward the exits, a murmur of chatter and tired laughter following them. But for just a second, it was like the rink had stilled around the two of you.
You looked at Stiles.
He looked at you.
The employee, watching from a safe distance now, covered her mouth and giggled.
“I mean—” Stiles started.
You beat him to it. “It’s tradition,” you said, breath coming a little faster now. “Right?”
His voice cracked just slightly when he said, “Yeah. It—it totally is.”
You didn’t know who leaned in first.
It might’ve been both of you.
The kiss wasn’t perfect. Your noses bumped a little. His breath was cold against your cheek. One of your skates slipped just slightly and he had to steady you with a hand at your waist. But when your lips met, everything else—the cold, the awkwardness, the crowd—went quiet.
It was soft. Careful.
Warm in a way that had nothing to do with the cocoa or the bundled-up coats or the string lights still twinkling overhead.
It only lasted a second. Maybe two.
But it was enough.
You both pulled back slowly, eyes still locked. Stiles' cheeks were flaming, and your heart was pounding, but neither of you moved away. Not really. Not even when you heard the unmistakable sound of someone gliding toward you at full, uncoordinated speed.
Scott.
“Merry Christmas, suckers!” he announced at full volume, slamming to a stop and throwing one arm around each of your shoulders in a dramatic half-hug.
Before either of you could react, he leaned in and kissed both your cheeks—yours first, then Stiles’—and then grinned like he’d just delivered a diplomatic victory.
“What just happened?” he asked brightly. “Do I need to pretend I didn’t see anything, or are we already naming your future kids?”
“Scott,” Stiles said, voice strangled.
You groaned, covering your face.
“Wait, wait, let me guess,” Scott added, pulling back with a mock-thoughtful expression. “Merry Crisp-mas, right? Because the tension was crispy as hell.”
Stiles made a sound that might’ve been a laugh or a slow collapse of all his social defenses.
You bumped Scott with your shoulder. “You’re the worst.”
He beamed. “And yet you love me.”
But Stiles turned back to you then, still a little pink, eyes soft in the glow of the lights. He wasn’t smiling now—not the way he usually did when he was trying to cover how big his emotions could get.
He just looked at you like you’d knocked the wind out of him in the best way.
“Merry Christmas,” he said quietly.
You smiled back, heart full and breathless. “Merry Christmas, Stilinski.”
And even as Scott started singing off-key next to you and the rink lights began to dim, that warm, fluttery feeling stayed tucked behind your ribs, steady and real.
Because this? This was yours.
~~
You spotted Scott first, predictably a mess of flailing limbs and big energy, backpack sliding off one shoulder. Stiles wasn’t far behind, chasing after him with wild, exaggerated steps, his voice carrying across the parking lot even though you couldn’t make out the words.
They were laughing, tripping over each other like puppies, Scott tossing something (a crumpled piece of paper?) at Stiles and Stiles catching it against his chest with a dramatic stumble. He fired back with a wad of notebook paper so hard Scott yelped and ducked behind a very confused girl. You could hear Stiles' cackling even from the car.
You leaned your head against the back of the seat, a dopey grin pulling at your mouth. God, he was so him — ridiculous, chaotic, pure Stiles Stilinski energy. It filled the whole parking lot, the way he lit up any room without even trying.
Like he felt you watching — because he always did — his head snapped toward the Jeep mid-giggle. The second his eyes found you through the windshield, he froze like a deer in headlights.
You could see it happen: the realization creeping in, the way his face went from bright and open to pink and startled in less than a second. His laughter stuttered to a halt, his fingers twitching at his sides like he wanted to run but couldn’t decide whether it should be toward you or the other way.
You just smiled wider, soft and patient and warm in a way reserved only for him.
His ears turned a violent shade of red.
Scott, oblivious as always, threw an arm around Stiles’ shoulders and tried to tug him along toward the parking lot, still babbling about something you couldn’t hear. Stiles stumbled after him, but his gaze kept flickering back to you, the corners of his mouth twitching like he wanted to smile and hide at the same time.
He nudged Scott with his elbow a little harder than necessary, muttering something that made Scott peel away with a loud groan and an exaggerated gagging sound, waving his arms like he was being attacked by secondhand embarrassment.
Stiles jogged awkwardly toward the Jeep after that, still pink in the face, still fiddling with the hem of his shirt like it might save him from combusting.
You didn’t move, didn’t say a word, just watched him with that same stupid, smitten grin.
By the time he yanked the door open and slid into the driver's seat beside you, his blush had reached critical levels. He couldn't meet your eyes, staring determinedly at the steering wheel instead.
"Hey, babe," you said softly, still smiling so much it hurt.
He made a noise — something between a huff and a whimper — and finally risked a glance at you, biting his lower lip hard enough to turn it white.
"Hi," he said, voice cracking, wrecked and breathless like just looking at you had fried all his brain cells at once.
And you swear to God, you’d never been more in love with anything in your life.
Stiles sits there for a second, all awkward limbs and red ears, gripping the steering wheel like it might help him hold onto the moment. His mouth is twitching at the corners, like he’s trying really hard not to smile too much, but failing miserably.
“Hi,” he repeats, quieter this time, glancing at you out of the corner of his eye.
You lean a little closer across the console, resting your chin in your palm. “Hi.”
He huffs out a laugh, finally letting himself look at you full-on. His whole face softens, like the tension in his shoulders just gives up the fight the second your eyes meet his.
“You’ve been waiting long?” he asks, fiddling with a loose thread on his sleeve.
You shake your head. “Nah. Figured I’d get comfy while I had the Jeep all to myself. Smells like you in here. Kinda miss it sometimes.”
Stiles snorts. “It’s probably just a mix of Axe, fast food fries, and my dad’s coffee spill from last week.”
“Still smells like you,” you say with a soft shrug, your voice going all gooey, and his face practically combusts again.
He laughs, flustered, and rubs the back of his buzzed head with one hand, cheeks glowing. “You are literally the worst. And by worst, I mean the best, which is so unfair.”
You lean in and steal a quick kiss, just a soft press of lips, lingering for half a second longer than necessary. When you pull back, he’s blinking at you like his brain has short-circuited.
“Hi again,” you whisper, and he giggles helplessly.
“You are such a menace,” he mutters, but there’s no heat behind it. He looks like he could float right out of his seat.
You reach down into your lap and lift the bag up. “Here, Stiles. Your lucky outfit. You’re gonna crush it.”
He takes it reverently, holding the handles like it might disintegrate if he’s not gentle enough. “You brought it,” he says, like he still can’t believe you’re real.
You nod, smiling. “Told you I’d help. You’re gonna look sharp. Hirable. Like the charming, competent, adorably chaotic employee of the month you’re destined to be.”
He barks out a laugh. “Adorably chaotic, huh?”
“Like a golden retriever in khaki shorts.”
“You’re so lucky I’m into you,” he mumbles, shaking his head as he unzips the bag and peeks inside. “God, this is perfect.”
You lean over and kiss his cheek, lingering just a moment too long before nudging his shoulder. “Go get changed, Stilinski. Interviewer awaits.”
He clutches the bag tighter, nodding with a deep breath. “Okay. Okay, yeah. I’ve got this. I have got this.”
“Damn right you do.”
He opens the door, then pauses, turning back with that look — the one that’s half soft panic, half warm affection. “Wait here?”
You smile like it’s the easiest answer in the world. “Always.”
He beams at you, full teeth, eyes crinkling at the corners, and then he’s off — all long legs and awkward enthusiasm, jogging back toward the school doors with the bag bouncing against his hip, calling something at Scott as he vanishes inside.
And all you can do is watch him go, heart full to bursting.
You watch the doors like you’ve got tunnel vision, elbows resting on the open window, fingers curled just under your chin as the sun starts to shift. It casts long, soft shadows across the dashboard, and you catch yourself tracing little patterns in the dust on the glove compartment—absently, aimlessly, in that warm, fizzy sort of headspace that only ever seems to hit when you’re thinking about him.
It’s not even five minutes before Stiles bursts back out of the building, practically skipping steps down the front stairs with the outfit you picked clinging to him in the best way possible. The khaki shorts are a little wrinkled from the bag, but he’s tugged the polo shirt into place like it matters, and he’s even wearing your jacket — a little big on him in the shoulders, the sleeves tugged over his hands, the hem swishing as he jogs.
He looks nervous and shiny with effort, his backpack bouncing on one shoulder like he didn’t take the time to shove it into a locker, which tracks. His face is pink again — probably from rushing, but maybe also from the fact that you’re still sitting there, exactly where he left you, smiling at him like he’s the whole damn sun.
He doesn’t even stop to greet you. Just throws the driver’s side door open, tosses his backpack into the backseat, and slides in with a breathless, “Okay, okay, let’s go, let’s go.”
You blink, brows raising. “Wow. That was fast. You break land-speed records getting changed?”
“I didn’t even fully button the fly until I was halfway down the hallway,” he mutters, fumbling with the keys. “I can’t be late. They’ll think I’m irresponsible. What if I’m late and they’re like ‘Wow, classic, look at this clown, total liability, can’t even show up on time, hope he doesn’t burn the fries’—”
“Stiles,” you say, laughing as the Jeep jerks into motion and he throws it into reverse with more aggression than necessary. “Deep breaths. You’re fine. We’re early. Like, extra early.”
“Which means we won’t get stuck behind a tractor or a school bus or a pack of angry geese or whatever Beacon Hills decides to throw at us today, thankfully,” he says, eyes darting between mirrors.
You reach over without thinking, smoothing down the edge of his collar. “You look good,” you murmur, fingers brushing under the collarbone seam and fixing where it folded awkwardly at the dip of his neck. “Really good.”
He makes a strangled sound. “No, I don’t. I look like I’m cosplaying ‘acceptable teenage employee number four.’”
You shift a little closer in your seat, hand drifting down to press flat against his chest for a second. “Stiles, you’re literally the cutest thing on the road right now. If you got pulled over, it’d be for excessive handsomeness.”
He snorts, cheeks flushing red again. “You’re ridiculous.”
“You’re adorable.”
“That’s not gonna help me grill nuggets.”
“Grill nuggets?”
“I’m stressed, don’t correct me.”
You laugh again and gently tug his sleeve, straightening the edge of your jacket where it’s bunched at his elbow. “You’re gonna do great. You’re gonna be charming and fidgety and enthusiastic and they’ll see how much you wanna do a good job and they’ll love you for it.”
He goes quiet for a second, hands tightening on the wheel. The streets are calm, the sun low enough now that it’s turning everything gold. You glance at his profile — the way his buzzed hair still manages to stick up in the wrong places, how the tip of his tongue pokes out when he’s trying not to smile.
“I’m really glad you’re here,” he mumbles after a beat, so quiet it’s nearly lost under the hum of the engine.
You reach over and lace your fingers through his, guiding one hand off the wheel just for a second. “I wouldn’t be anywhere else.” He squeezes your hand and, for a second, he stops fidgeting.
As the Jeep rumbles down the quiet street, the tires humming over the asphalt, Stiles finally settles into a more consistent rhythm. His shoulders are still high with tension, though, and you can practically feel the little storms of anxious energy swirling in his head. He drums his thumbs on the steering wheel, bouncing his knee and glancing between the rearview and side mirrors like they're going to start whispering judgments at him.
"Okay, okay, okay,” he mutters under his breath, barely audible. “What if they ask me why I want to work there and I freeze? What if I forget the name of the manager? What if I—"
“Stiles,” you say gently, your voice soft as you lean against the passenger-side door, watching him with warm amusement, “you’ve rehearsed this interview in the mirror, like, seventeen times. I watched you rehearse it. Twice. In accents.”
“I blacked out for both of those,” he replies, half-serious, glancing at you with wide eyes. “You ever watch your own reflection and feel like it’s judging you in real time?”
“Only when I'm not with you.”
He snorts, finally cracking a smile, and his fingers twitch against the steering wheel like maybe he wants to reach for your hand again.
“You don’t have to be perfect, babe,” you say, tone light but sincere. “They just wanna see you. And you’re—y’know—you. You’re energetic, and smart, and you care. You’re gonna do great. And if you trip over your words a little? You’ll still be the most lovable thing in that whole building.”
Stiles makes a noise somewhere between a laugh and a wheeze. “You’re gonna make me crash.”
“You won’t. Your panic reflexes are too strong.”
“Okay, yeah, fair,” he admits, breathing out hard through his nose. “I once dodged a deer with my dad’s cruiser going forty.”
“Exactly. A job interview’s nothing compared to a rogue woodland creature.”
The golden arches come into view up ahead, glowing faintly against the late afternoon sky. You watch as Stiles swallows hard, his throat bobbing as he pulls into the parking lot. He parks with a little too much force—braking too fast—and then stares out through the windshield like he’s contemplating the meaning of life. You lean over, reaching for his jaw, thumb brushing against the stubble-dotted edge of it before guiding him to face you. His eyes flick to yours, and they’re wide and nervous, but still sparkling with that light only he seems to carry.
“Hey,” you whisper. “Come here.”
He leans across the console and you meet him halfway, pressing a kiss to his lips. It’s slow and warm and grounding. Not rushed, not too deep. Just the kind that says: I see you. I’m proud of you. I’ve got you. When you pull back, his eyes are half-lidded and glassy, like you just knocked every anxious thought out of him in one go.
“You’ve got this,” you murmur. “No matter what happens in there, whether they offer you the job or not, I’m proud of you. So proud.”
He nods, lips twitching. “Yeah?”
“Always.”
He huffs a breath, pushing the car door open with one hand and holding the bag with the other. “Okay. Okay, cool. I’m gonna go. I’m going. Right now.”
“I believe in you, cutie with a buzz.”
He groans under his breath and throws one last look over his shoulder as he closes the door. “You suck.”
You grin. “Love you too.”
He disappears inside, and you’re left alone in the Jeep with the echo of your kiss and the smell of his cologne clinging to the seatbelt, heart full and already counting down the seconds until he comes back out.
The hum of passing cars fades into the background as you sit there, still angled in your seat like he might walk right back out any second. The golden arches above the restaurant cast that familiar neon haze over the lot, and inside the Jeep it’s warm with late sun and the lingering scent of him—fabric softener and cheap shampoo and something sharper, something that's just Stiles. It feels a little like summer, even though it’s barely spring. The kind of day that makes your skin buzz a little, even if nothing’s happening.
You rest your cheek against the seat, watching the front doors where he vanished, and your mind drifts. You think about how far you’ve both come. How, a couple years ago, Stiles couldn’t even make eye contact with a cashier without stammering through six filler words and a small breakdown, and now he’s in there trying to land a job, trying to grow up—choosing to take a step forward. Even if it’s just flipping burgers and wearing a visor, it’s still something he chose.
And that’s kind of the beautiful thing about Stiles. For all the noise, the chaos, the impulsive tangents and nervous energy that feels like it could spark something on fire, underneath all that is someone who cares. So much. Maybe too much. He tries so hard, sometimes he runs himself ragged doing it. He overthinks because he wants to get things right. He spirals because he’s afraid of messing up what matters.
You know, deep down, that he’s probably in there right now talking at warp speed, tripping over his own enthusiasm, voice pitching up with every third sentence, hands moving like he’s explaining a math equation in midair. And yet, despite all that, he’s probably winning them over without even realizing it. Because there’s something impossible not to love about someone who just feels everything that much.
Your fingers toy absentmindedly with the strap of your bag, and you smile softly to yourself. He’ll come out flushed and wired, buzzing from adrenaline and second-guessing every single answer he gave. You’ll talk him down, like always. Tell him he did great. Kiss his forehead or ruffle his hair until he cracks a grin and groans, “You’re so annoying,” like it’s the highest compliment he can give.
It’s strange, how something as small as waiting for him in his car can make you feel so full—like your chest isn’t big enough to hold it all. You love him. You love this. The simplicity of being trusted enough to have a spare key, to sit here and wait, to see him run off into the unknown and know that he’ll come back looking for you.
Your gaze drifts up to the McDonald’s window, wondering if he’s sitting in a hard plastic chair, legs bouncing, fingers knotting together in his lap, doing that thing where he bites his lip until it’s redder than it should be. And maybe he’s thinking about you too. Maybe knowing you’re out here makes it easier.
You rest your head against the window with a small sigh and close your eyes for a second. The world hums on. The sun keeps dipping. And still, there’s nowhere else you’d rather be than right here—waiting for Stiles Stilinski to come back out, heart full of hope and hands ready to hold his.
Time drips by slowly, like honey from the edge of a spoon. The kind of waiting that feels stretched thin, but not in a bad way—just soft around the edges, tinted golden by the sinking sun and heavy with expectation. A breeze rattles the few wrappers in the parking lot, and you adjust your position in the seat, stretching your legs a little as you glance at the dashboard clock again.
It’s been… longer than you expected. Maybe twenty minutes? Twenty-five? You lose count somewhere between checking your phone and daydreaming about the way Stiles' face lights up when he gets excited about things like space documentaries or really obscure facts about wild mushrooms. You’re not worried—just curious. Curious about how he’s doing, what he’s saying, whether he remembered to breathe between sentences.
A kid walks out with a milkshake and slams the door behind him. An older guy in uniform shouts something back at someone inside. You watch it all pass like a quiet movie, until—
There he is.
Stiles bursts out of the doors like a spring wound too tight, full of nervous energy and flushed cheeks and the kind of restless momentum that screams adrenaline. He’s halfway jogging, his arms a little too animated, his mouth already moving even though no one’s with him to hear what he’s saying. His backpack bounces against his side and his shirt is rumpled like he’s been fidgeting with it the whole time.
You’re out of the car before he even makes it to the Jeep, heart tugging you forward because he just looks so Stiles. So alive. So him.
He sees you and immediately lifts his hands like he’s about to start explaining the chemical makeup of nerves themselves.
“I don’t even remember what I said in there, oh my god, I think I blacked out for a minute, again—like, legit blackout, like the kind where you come back and your mouth is still moving but your brain’s playing elevator music—and I definitely used the word ‘synergy’ unironically, and then I tried to make a joke and I don’t even know if it landed, and—”
“Stiles.”
You step in, close the distance, and kiss him. Just once, quick and grounding, your hands coming up to cup his face as you do. He melts instantly, shutting up with a soft “mmf” sound and blinking rapidly as he looks at you like you just stopped time with your mouth.
“Breathe,” you say gently, grinning as you slide your hands to the sides of his neck. “Start with that.”
He does, dragging in a huge inhale like he hasn’t taken one since walking in.
You ruffle his buzzed hair with affection, thumb sweeping across the curve of his warm cheek. “You did it, baby. I’m proud of you.”
He bites his lip, hands fluttering at his sides for a second before he finally lets them land on your waist, gripping tight like he needs to anchor himself. You wrap your arms around him and squeeze, tucking your chin over his shoulder. He’s trembling just a little.
“I—okay, so, like, not to be dramatic or anything,” he starts, muffled into your neck, “but I think I almost puked on the floor in there.”
You laugh softly, rubbing his back. “Sounds about right.”
“But I didn’t! I kept it together. Kinda. I think. And—okay, this is the part I don’t believe myself yet—I got it.”
You pull back.
“What?”
His ears are red. His grin is crooked and sheepish and so insanely proud, like he’s not sure if he should be proud yet but is doing it anyway.
“They offered me the job,” he says, voice half-wheeze, half-laugh. “Like, actual hired me. I start next week. They’re gonna send me the training schedule tonight.”
You blink at him for a beat, stunned—then your face splits into the kind of smile that hurts your cheeks.
“Stiles Stilinski, you beautiful, brilliant, disastrously handsome disaster, you did it!”
He squeaks out something between a laugh and a breathless noise of disbelief as you throw your arms around him again, this time lifting him a little as you hug him tightly. He clutches you back like a lifeline, his grin pressed against your shoulder, and when you let him go just enough to look at him again, he’s glowing.
“I got a job,” he says, like he needs to hear it out loud to believe it. “I actually got a freaking job.”
You kiss his nose. “You deserve that job.”
“And they said they liked how enthusiastic I was, which—what? What? I was literally vibrating. I think I saluted at one point. Oh god, I did, didn’t I—”
“You did great. You’re perfect,” you say, punctuating each word with a peck to his cheek, his forehead, the corner of his mouth.
He’s laughing now, eyes crinkling with joy, and you hold him close again, grounding him with warmth and kisses and soft affirmations. And for a moment, it’s just the two of you in a parking lot under a fading sun—future coworkers and schedules and burgers be damned.
You’re proud of him. You’re in love with him. And right now, the whole world feels like it’s turning in the exact direction it’s supposed to.
~~
He’s got that look again—like he’s going to vibrate straight out of his own skin.
You’re leaning in the doorway of his bedroom, arms crossed, watching the chaos unfold like it’s a personal performance just for you. Stiles is moving like a man possessed, frantic energy spilling from every clumsy motion. His black McDonald’s polo is half-tucked, half-wrinkled, like it fought him this morning and almost won. He’s hopping in uneven circles while trying to get one sock over his ankle, breath coming fast, mumbling nonsense to himself.
You’re trying really hard not to smile, but it’s impossible. He’s too much. In the best way.
“Okay, okay,” he mutters, not even looking at you, “I have my ID, I have my schedule, I have deodorant, I think. Did I put on deodorant? Shit—smell me real quick—wait, no, that’s weird. Don’t smell me. I’ll reapply. I can reapply. It’s fine. I’ll just—oh my God, I’m going to die in a vat of fryer oil and be buried in a McNugget box.”
“You’re gonna be great, babe.”
He stops mid-rant, finally looking at you. “You have to say that. You’re contractually obligated as my lover to say stuff like that.”
“I’m not under contract. I’m under the influence.” You grin, stepping into the room and catching his face between your hands. “Of how cute you look in that ridiculous uniform.”
Stiles flushes immediately, the buzzcut doing nothing to hide the red creeping all the way to the tips of his ears. “Don’t do that. Don’t do that. I already feel like an overcooked mozzarella stick, you can’t just flirt at me like that.”
“I can and I will,” you murmur, brushing your thumb over his jaw. It’s smooth—baby soft, freshly shaven, still carrying the faint scent of the generic foam he insists on using. You lean in a little, close enough to feel his breath stutter against your lips.
“Oh God, do you think they’ll make me do drive-thru on my first day? I don’t even know how to work a headset. What if I mess up someone’s order and they throw hot coffee at me through the window? What if I drop a McFlurry and slip on it and fall directly into the fryer like some tragic fast-food final destination moment? What if I get arrested for involuntary food manslaughter?!”
You blink. “That’s not a real thing.”
“It could be!”
“Stiles.”
His name in your voice quiets him a little. Just a little. He stops and meets your eyes, hairline damp with nerves and his chest rising too fast. His lips part like he’s going to start again, another tumble of fear and overthinking about fryer grease and minimum wage and what the hell a Filet-O-Fish even is, but you just gently frame his face in your hands.
His skin’s warm. You can feel his heartbeat jumping under your fingers, fast and uncertain.
“Hey,” you say, quiet. “You’re okay.”
He tries to scoff, but it comes out more like a breathy wheeze. “I’m a wreck.”
“You’re adorable.”
“You’re biased.”
“Of course I am. I have taste.”
He groans and tilts his head back like he’s praying for patience. “You are impossibly unhelpful.”
“I’m helping you chill out. With my charm. And my devastating good looks.”
“You are a menace.” But his lips twitch—fighting a smile, always fighting the smile when you do this to him. It’s like he wants to stay panicked, like it gives him structure. But then you’re this—soft and steady and smirking at him like he’s already won—and the panic slips sideways into something warmer, something gentler.
You slide your thumbs across his cheekbones, grounding him. “You’re gonna go in there, clock in, and prove everyone wrong. You’re smart, you’re quick, and you care way too much about doing everything perfectly.”
“I’m also clumsy, awkward, and prone to catastrophic thought spirals about dipping sauces.”
You kiss him. Not hard. Just soft, slow, lips pressing into his until he stops talking. Until he exhales against you. He always melts like this when you kiss him first—like his brain short-circuits and everything in his head hushes for one goddamn second. You feel his hands curl into the hem of your shirt, not gripping, just holding, like he needs something to keep him grounded.
You pull back just far enough to whisper against his lips, “You’re gonna do amazing.”
He breathes you in like oxygen, and when he opens his eyes again, they’re a little glassy.
“Yeah?”
“Yeah,” you say. “And if anyone gives you shit, just remember you’ve got a personal cutie who’s more than willing to show up at 10 p.m. and commit a light felony on your behalf.”
That gets a real laugh out of him. Quick and embarrassed and full of fondness. He steps back with a shake of his head and drags a hand over his buzzed hair. “God, you’re ridiculous.”
You shrug. “You love me.”
“I do. Unfortunately.”
You watch him double-check his bag for the fifth time, patting pockets, muttering about gum and his schedule and wondering if it’s weird to bring his own pen. And then he stands there in the doorway, still and awkward, like he’s not sure what comes next.
So you step forward, wrap your arms around his middle, and hold him close.
He exhales into your shoulder, all the tension in his body pulling tight and then slowly unraveling, piece by piece.
“I’m proud of you,” you murmur into his ear. “For real.”
He squeezes you back. Quietly. No more rambling, no more jokes. Just him, holding on a second longer than necessary, until he finally pulls back.
“Okay,” he says softly, voice steadier now. “Okay. I’m gonna go.”
“You’ve got this.”
“I do.” A breath. “I do, right?”
You give him a smile he can hang on to. “You do.”
And then he’s gone, jogging down the stairs, fumbling with his keys, and yelling something to his dad that you can’t quite make out. And you stand there in the empty doorway, listening to the door shut, heart full and warm and already counting down the hours until he calls you again—nervous and breathless and needing you all over again.
Just the way you like him.
Honestly, The house felt hollow without him.
You hadn't realized how much noise Stiles carried until it was gone—like a trail of clutter and muttering and half-baked theories that usually followed him around. Now the silence was oppressive. You’d tried to distract yourself. Laundry. Scrolling. A game on mute. Even watched half an episode of some random show you'd already seen before just to fill the space. But the whole time, your mind kept drifting back to him—wondering if he was okay, if the headset finally stayed on, if his manager was being cool or if that new-kid awkwardness was clinging to him like fryer grease.
You checked your phone too many times. You typed out a couple “how’s it going?” texts and deleted them. You figured he’d let you know if something was wrong.
It turned out you didn’t have to wait long.
Your phone buzzed hard against the arm of the couch around 5:47pm—just late enough into his shift that something had clearly snapped. His name lit up your screen, and you answered before the second ring even hit.
“Hey—”
“Oh my God, I spilled two milkshakes, I slipped—like, full-on slipped—on a wet floor sign next to the wet floor sign, and I think I accidentally rang in fifteen McChickens instead of one and then had to void the whole order but the system froze so I had to get Terri to come over and un-jam it and she gave me this look, like I’d just pissed on the register. I think the new guy saw me trip, and also the headset keeps, like, echoing my own voice into my ear so I sound like a stammering idiot every time I try to say ‘Welcome to McDonald’s,’ and the ice cream machine started beeping and I don’t even know why because I swear I didn’t touch it, and I—I’m so bad at this. I’m—this is the worst idea I’ve ever had, and I once tried to wax my own chest with duct tape—”
“Stiles.”
“—and I burned my wrist because the fry basket thing slipped when I was—”
“Stiles.”
“—and I forgot to punch out for break and then tried to retroactively do it, but apparently you’re not supposed to do that? I didn’t know. I didn’t know. I—”
“Baby.”
He fell silent.
You exhaled softly and sat up straighter on the couch. “First of all, you’re not dying. Second, you didn’t accidentally launch a nuke, you just had a normal shift at a shitty fast-food job. Everyone spills stuff. Everyone trips. Everyone screws up the POS system, and if your manager's not giving you clear training, that’s on them, not you.���
A shaky breath filtered through the line. You could hear the dull, muted chaos behind him—orders being called, grease crackling, the beep-beep-beep of some back timer going off.
“I feel like I’m… I don’t know. Drowning?” he said, his voice smaller now. Not the frantic rant from before, but raw. Close. “Like I’m just—flailing in this ocean of soda syrup and mustard packets and everyone else is just swimming laps around me.”
You closed your eyes, letting his words settle in your chest. “You’re not flailing. You’re learning. That’s what this is. And I promise you, no one there has it all together. They’re just better at faking it.”
There was a pause.
“…I got ketchup on my shoe,” he whispered miserably.
“Tragic.”
“And the floor’s sticky in the breakroom.”
“Call the police.”
He let out a choked laugh that turned into a soft, pathetic sound—somewhere between a whimper and a sigh. “I’m not cut out for this, babe.”
“You’re cut out for everything. You just weren’t born knowing how to operate a headset and scoop fries and decode corporate fast food nonsense all at once. Nobody is. You just need to get through tonight.”
Another pause.
“I kind of want you to come here.”
“I kind of already have my keys in my hand.”
“You—wait, really?”
“Yeah, babe. I’m kinda on my way.”
“You don’t have to—”
“Kinda already locking the door.”
He was quiet for a second. You could picture him there in the tiny backroom, curled in on himself, hoodie bunched up under his stupid uniform, hair flattened under that dumb visor, mouth red from chewing his lip.
“Thanks,” he said quietly. “You’re… I mean. You’re kind of everything.”
“I know,” you teased, shouldering your hoodie and stepping out into the night.
And when you climbed into the car and started the engine, there was already a plan forming in the back of your mind—a slow burn of want curling through your gut. He’d sounded so fragile, so wound up, so wreckable. And if he thought you were just coming there to talk him down…
Well, he was in for a hell of a comfort shift.
The drive felt longer than it actually was.
Beacon Hills wasn’t big, but when someone you loved sounded like they were hanging on by a thread—frantic, flushed, tangled up in his own nerves—every red light was a personal insult. You drummed your fingers against the wheel, headlights bouncing over familiar signs and sleepy storefronts, your chest buzzing with a mix of protectiveness and low-simmering heat.
Stiles always wore his anxiety on the surface. He didn't hide it; he couldn't. It lived in his fingers, the way they twitched or drummed or curled into sleeves. It lived in his breath—fast, shallow, rushed like it might forget how to come back in. You’d seen it a hundred times: when he was late to class, when his dad got called out on a tough case, when his shoelace snapped and he thought it meant the whole day was cursed.
But this was different.
This wasn’t school nerves. This wasn’t test-taking panic or awkward social tension. This was him trying to step into something new, trying to be an adult, trying to not mess it all up—and every little bump was hitting harder because he cared. Because he wanted to do well. Because he wanted someone—anyone—to look at him and say, you’re doing okay, kid. You’ve got this.
And tonight, that someone was going to be you.
You reached over and turned the heat up a notch, like it might hold you over until you got your hands on him.You were going to wrap your arms around him, hold him against your chest until he remembered how to breathe, kiss his stupid little visor right off his head if that’s what it took.
The McDonald’s lights were visible before you even turned into the parking lot—neon yellows and reds casting long, tired shadows across the asphalt. It wasn’t busy anymore. Just a few cars in the drive-thru. Most of the windows were dark except for the glow behind the counter and the dull blue light leaking out from the back hallway where staff came and went.
You pulled in slow, parking just off to the side where employees usually stood during breaks. The air smelled like fryer oil and half-burnt coffee, and it clung to everything. Even from here, you could see someone mopping through the front—a blur of motion and yellow “CAUTION” signs—and your stomach tugged.
Because you knew he was in there.
You knew he was somewhere in that building, buzzing out of his skin, twisting his fingers into his hoodie sleeves, probably pacing a line into the tile, telling himself he was messing everything up.
And you were about to walk in and make him feel like the most wanted, seen, safe person on Earth.
Your phone buzzed in the cupholder. One new message from Stiles:
Backroom. Please don’t laugh when you see me. I look like a gremlin.
You stared at the screen for a second, smiling gently.
Then you sent back:
You’re my favorite gremlin. On my way in. Don’t melt.
You grabbed your hoodie from the passenger seat, tugged it on over your tee, and stepped into the night.
You were about to give him the only kind of relief that actually mattered—more than touching, more than teasing.
Love that wraps around you and doesn’t let go. Love that whispers: You’re safe. I’ve got you. You’re enough.
And you were going to remind him of that until he believed it. Until every last crack in him had been kissed quiet.
The moment you stepped through the double doors, the greasy hum of fluorescent lights and the low hiss of fryer oil hit you like a wave. It smelled like salt and stress and plastic-wrapped baked apple pies, and the tile squeaked under your shoes like it didn’t want you there.
You didn’t care.
You made a beeline for the counter, eyes scanning the inside with practiced calm, like you belonged there. And technically? You did. Your boyfriend was in the back losing his mind, and you were here to fix it.
There was a girl wiping down the milkshake station, blonde braid hanging over one shoulder, her visor crooked at a charming angle of not-giving-a-damn. She glanced up when she saw you, blinking at first—then pausing, looking you up and down like she was trying to place something. Her eyes widened slightly, and she let out this soft little, ohhh, under her breath.
“I’m here to see Stiles,” you said, not even bothering to lower your voice, your hands planted casually in your hoodie pocket. “He called me.”
Her whole face lit up like a rom-com meet-cute just exploded in her brain. “Oh, you’re his?”
You blinked. “Yeah?”
She grinned, eyes sparkling now, tossing her cleaning rag on the counter like it no longer mattered. “Dude’s been pacing in the backroom like it’s a damn telenovela. Full-on muttering, pulling at his sleeves, acting like he just set fire to the kitchen or something. I figured he was talking to someone important, but this is cute.”
She didn’t wait for you to respond—just jerked her thumb toward the back like she was already halfway invested in your love story. “Come on. He’s all freaked out and pink in the face. It’s either endearing or tragic, I haven’t decided.”
You followed her past the registers, the overhead menu screens still glowing like hollow billboards in the dark. The kitchen smelled stronger back here—more oil, more cleaner, more burnt starch—and the sound of timers ticking down and headset chatter fuzzing in the background wrapped around everything.
“Just back here,” she said, pushing open the swinging door labeled “STAFF ONLY.” “Try not to break him.”
You huffed a laugh. “I’ll do my best.”
As soon as you stepped through the backroom door, the difference was immediate. It was quieter—still buzzing faintly with the building’s hum, the occasional ding from a timer—but otherwise dim, cramped, and a little too warm. Boxes stacked along the walls. Wire shelves full of paper cups and ketchup packets. A narrow bench pressed up under a mounted coat rack, someone’s half-finished soda sweating onto the floor.
And there—curled into himself like a stormcloud in human form—was Stiles.
He was standing in the far corner, hoodie sleeves shoved halfway up his forearms and his McDonald’s polo bunching awkwardly around his waist like it didn’t quite know how to sit on his frame. His head was down, visor casting a shadow across his buzzed hair, one hand raking through the stubble like he was trying to find an escape hatch in his own scalp. His mouth was moving—talking to himself, still going—and you could catch the faint edges of it:
“Okay. Okay, it’s fine. It’s just a job, it’s just a job, nobody died—unless I gave someone the wrong order and now they’re allergic to pickles and—fuck, no, no, Stiles, stop—just breathe, just—okay but the fries were overcooked and now they think I don’t care—God, I probably look like I’m high or something—”
You stepped into the room, quiet but deliberate.
“Hey.”
He spun so fast he nearly knocked over a crate of straws. His eyes were wide, frantic, and when they landed on you—real, present, warm and solid—his whole expression cracked.
“You came.”
You stepped forward slowly, hands still in your hoodie pocket, voice gentle like you were trying not to spook a wild animal. “Of course I came. You sounded like you were about to collapse in on yourself like a dying star.”
“I—okay, yes, that’s probably accurate,” he said in a half-laugh, half-wheeze. “I just—I didn’t expect you to actually—like, you had your night. You were doing your stuff. And now you’re in here, and I look like the end of a stress PSA.”
You tilted your head and smiled, soft and full of something warmer than just affection. You stepped closer, close enough that he had to tilt his head back a little to keep eye contact.
“You’re the best part of my night, Stiles,” you said, voice low. “Of course I came.”
He looked like he didn’t know what to do with that. Like his brain short-circuited on kindness alone. His hands twitched like he wanted to reach for you but didn’t think he was allowed.
So you closed the space yourself.
One hand reached up, curled around the back of his neck, thumb brushing gently under the edge of his dumb drive-thru headset. The other slid to his waist, fingers hooking into the hem of his polo like it was a lifeline. His breath caught. His shoulders dropped, just a little.
And then, finally, he exhaled. Like your presence was permission to let go.
“Hey,” you murmured, brushing your thumb along his jaw. “I got you. You’re okay. I’m here.”
He nodded once, just barely.
Then he leaned into your chest and whispered, voice breaking, “I missed you so bad.”
You held him tighter.
“Yeah, baby. I missed you too.”
He sank into you like he’d been waiting to fall.
Every muscle in his body let go the second your arms wrapped around him—like all the tension that had been knotting up in his chest since his shift started suddenly had somewhere to go. His breath hitched again, not like panic this time, but like relief—like he was holding back a sound he didn’t know if he was allowed to make.
You pressed your face into his hair, the faintest whiff of fryer grease clinging to the buzzed strands, and held him closer.
“Deep breath, baby,” you whispered against his temple. “Come on. Just one. In through your nose.”
He followed you, a shaky inhale filling his chest where it was pressed against yours.
“Good. Now out.”
Another breath, this one steadier. His hands finally unclenched from the bottom hem of his hoodie and crept around your back, squeezing tightly like he was scared you’d vanish if he let go.
“You’ve been doing so good,” you murmured, peppering soft, featherlight kisses along the top of his head, his temple, the curve of his cheekbone. “You’ve only been working here a few hours and you already care this much. That’s not failure, Stiles. That’s you giving a shit. And it’s beautiful.”
He let out a choked little laugh. “It’s a literal minimum wage job. I shouldn’t be this stressed about deep-frying potato product.”
“That doesn’t make your feelings less real,” you said, pressing a kiss under his ear. “You can be overwhelmed and still be doing amazing.”
You felt him shiver.
Maybe it was the kisses. Maybe it was your voice low and soft and warm in his ear. Maybe it was the pressure of your hands sliding slow and firm up his back, grounding him.
Or maybe—just maybe—it was the way he’d been shaking apart in private for hours, alone in this shitty, overlit fast-food hellscape, and now here you were: solid, warm, steady. A break in the noise. A safe place to land.
Your fingers trailed down his arms, thumbs sweeping softly along his wrists. He’d rolled his hoodie sleeves halfway up, and there was a red mark blooming near the inside of one. You kissed it gently.
“This the burn?” you murmured against his skin.
He nodded sheepishly. “Yeah. Fryer tray. It hissed like a demon.”
You kissed the mark again, even softer. “Well, you survived. My brave little grease warrior.”
He let out another breath, this one a little more laugh than sigh. He tilted his head up, and you finally got a good look at his face.
Cheeks still flushed. Mouth bitten pink. Eyes wide and glassy, lashes clumped slightly from the heat in the backroom. The black visor was tilted too far forward again, casting a shadow over his buzzed head, and for a brief second—just a flicker—you had the thought again:
He looks so goddamn good like this.
Tense. Overworked. Pink in the face from stress and stubbornness. That ugly polo stretched tight over his chest. The fabric of his khaki pants tugged in all the wrong places. And that visor, crooked and dumb and so Stiles, sitting low over those big, frantic eyes.
God, he wore chaos like no one else.
You pressed your forehead to his, nose brushing his, breath warm between you.
“You’ve done nothing wrong tonight, okay?” you said softly. “Spilling milkshakes? That’s human. Frying things too long? Literally everyone does that. You didn’t burn the place down. You didn’t punch the headset. You’re still standing. You’re doing great.”
His lips trembled like he was trying not to cry—not really out of sadness, but just relief.
“I kept thinking I was gonna get fired,” he whispered, voice raw. “Like they were gonna realize I don’t know what I’m doing.”
You leaned in and kissed the corner of his mouth. “You don’t know what you’re doing. No one does in their first week. That’s why training exists. You’re not failing, baby. You’re learning.”
Another kiss, this time to the center of his forehead.
“And even if you were failing—newsflash, you’re not—but if you were? I’d still be right here. I'd still show up the second you call. I’d still wrap you up like this and tell you how proud I am of you.”
His breath hitched again, and his grip on you tightened like he was worried he might float away otherwise.
You let the silence sit between you for a beat, thick and full of held emotion. You brushed your knuckles over his cheek, catching the tiniest sheen of sweat. He must’ve been running around for hours.
“You need a drink?” you asked gently. “Water? Or like… four gallons of Sprite?”
He sniffed a little and laughed, small but real. “I think I just need you.”
“Good,” you said, kissing the tip of his nose. “Because you’ve got me.”
You hugged him tighter, slow and full-bodied, and he melted again—like your chest was the only place he could breathe right.
You didn’t mind staying there a while.
You were going to hold him until every shaky inhale evened out. Until he remembered what it felt like to be steady. Until that dumb little visor wasn’t a symbol of failure, but something you could tease him about later, probably while pulling it off his head and kissing him breathless on a couch.
But not yet.
Now was for softness. For presence. For steady love in the middle of a fluorescent storm.
You stood there in the backroom, arms looped tight around each other, the low buzz of a distant fryer and the occasional squawk of the drive-thru headset fading into nothing. The moment had narrowed down to just you and him, caught in a quiet little pocket of warmth tucked behind crates of ketchup packets and stacks of napkin sleeves. The world didn’t reach here. Not right now.
Stiles was still pressed against you like gravity wasn’t enough. His breath had evened out a little, but you could still feel it—the lingering tension in his shoulders, the way his fingers twitched against the fabric of your hoodie like he wasn’t sure he was allowed to fully relax yet.
You weren’t about to rush him.
You kept your movements slow, soft. One hand rubbed lazy circles at the base of his spine, the other brushing up and down his arm. His skin was warm under your touch, slightly sticky from the heat of the kitchen, and still tinged pink across the cheeks and ears. That dumb visor hadn’t moved—it still sat just a little too low on his forehead, shadowing his buzzed hair and making him look like the overworked, underpaid, stupidly beautiful mess he swore he wasn’t.
“Y’know,” you murmured, brushing your nose just beneath his jawline, “I think the visor’s growing on me.”
He snorted against your chest, the sound muffled. “You are such a liar.”
“No, I’m serious.” You tipped your head just slightly, enough to rest your chin on his shoulder as you nuzzled closer. “I think it really brings out your exhausted, end-of-the-world aesthetic. Like a sexy drive-thru apocalypse survivor.”
He huffed a breath, shoulders jerking with barely-contained laughter. “That’s not a thing.”
“It is now.” You kissed the curve where his neck met his collar. “I should’ve worn a matching one. We’d be unstoppable. Like, emotionally unavailable but aesthetically devastating.”
He finally looked up at you, blinking through lashes still clumped from sweat, eyes clearer now. Still soft around the edges, still vulnerable, but no longer braced for the world to shatter. Just Stiles—your Stiles—tired and wrung-out and still looking like the best thing you’d ever held.
“I must look like hell,” he murmured, almost shy.
You reached up and gently ran your knuckles along his cheekbone. “You look real. Honest. Hot, actually.”
He flushed immediately, jerking back a little with a disbelieving laugh. “Okay, now you’re just being mean.”
You stepped in again, closing that tiny bit of space, your hands finding his waist, your mouth tugged into a crooked grin. “I don’t lie about what turns me on, babe.”
His breath caught again—but this time, it was with a smile. A real one. Small. Lopsided. But his.
You leaned forward, slowly, deliberately, your forehead brushing against his until you felt the soft press of skin meeting skin. He let out a little sound, barely a noise, like all the air in his lungs had just gone sweet instead of sharp.
You rubbed the tip of your nose against his.
Stiles blinked, confused for half a second—then his face broke into this ridiculous, perfect smile.
“Are you trying to Eskimo kiss me right now?” he whispered, incredulous.
You nodded, noses still pressed, and whispered back, “Maybe.”
His shoulders shook as he laughed, warm and breathy, and he bumped his nose against yours in return.
It was clumsy. Uncoordinated. You both accidentally headbutted each other a little, and Stiles let out a tiny, high-pitched ow, even though it clearly didn’t hurt. And then you both just stood there—foreheads pressed, noses brushing, giggling like idiots in a supply room surrounded by cardboard boxes and the ghost of burned fries.
Your chest shook with laughter, and you watched him through blurry eyes as he tried to get his breath back, still grinning, still flushed.
“God,” he said, leaning into you again, the visor almost bumping you in the face this time, “you’re, like, obscenely good at this.”
“At what?” you teased, rubbing your nose against his again, gently this time.
“This,” he said, voice a little softer now. “Making me feel… safe. Like I’m not screwing everything up just by existing.”
You pulled him in tighter, one hand sliding up to cradle the back of his head. Your lips brushed the corner of his mouth again—tender, quiet, grounding.
“You’re not screwing anything up,” you said. “You’re figuring it out. And I’m right here with you.”
He looked at you, and for a second it was all there in his eyes—everything he couldn’t say without crying again. You saw it. You held it.
And then, still smiling, you bumped his nose with yours again, quick and mischievous.
He squeaked.
You grinned.
And then you were giggling again, together, wrapped in this quiet little hurricane of affection and cheap polyester and the kind of love that makes all the fluorescent hum and grease-slicked chaos feel small.
You could’ve stayed like that forever.
The hum of the freezer, the faint buzz of fluorescent lights, and Stiles’s breathing—still a little shaky, but steadying—are all that fill the space. He’s in your arms, pressed soft and warm against your chest, his stupid little McDonald’s visor tilted askew, cheeks still red from crying and adrenaline and embarrassment, but his smile—God, that smile—is back. Small. Real.
He giggles, just barely, and his nose crinkles in that way that should be illegal.
You should keep things sweet. Just hold him. Tell him again that he’s okay, that he’s good. But something shifts in your chest when he looks up at you through those lashes, smiling like you hung the moon, and you feel it—low, deep, needy. Like gravity pulling you forward, body reacting before your brain has the words for it.
You tilt your head. Your lips brush the corner of his mouth. His breath catches again.
“Can I…?” you whisper, your voice quieter than it’s been all night.
He nods, the barest movement, and that’s all the permission you need.
You lean in, slow, kissing him softly—once, twice—before deepening it just a little. Enough to let him feel the edge under your sweetness. Your hands smooth down his back, fingertips catching on the hem of that ridiculous polo, and he lets out a sound so soft it barely registers.
He melts into it.
When you kiss him harder, you feel him gasp into your mouth, his hands fisting your hoodie again like he needs something to anchor him. You keep it slow, deliberate—your lips sliding over his, teasing, coaxing. You suck his bottom lip gently between yours, letting your teeth graze it before pulling back just enough to see his eyes, heavy-lidded and glassy with something that’s not quite stress anymore.
You’re not letting go.
You guide him gently, one step at a time, until his back bumps the wall. The steel of the shelf rattles faintly behind him. His breath hitches.
“God,” you whisper, brushing your thumb along his cheek, “you’re so fucking cute.”
He flushes instantly, shaking his head like he doesn’t believe you, like the words don’t fit in his ears right. “Shut up,” he mumbles, biting back a smile, “I look like the damn Hamburglar had a mental breakdown.”
You kiss him again, firmer this time, your hand sliding up into his buzzed hair, tugging just enough to make him shiver.
“No. You look like someone who's mine.”
That stuns him for a second. He just stares at you, lips parted, chest rising and falling fast, and then he grabs your face and kisses you like he means it. Messy, eager, all tongue and heat and teeth bumping because neither of you cares about finesse anymore. You’re holding him against the wall now, one hand gripping his hip, the other cradling the back of his head, and he’s clinging to you like he’s scared the moment will end too soon.
When you finally slow, mouths parting just barely, noses still brushing, he exhales shakily against your lips.
“I’m gonna die if you keep kissing me like that,” he breathes.
You grin. “Then I guess I better keep going. Just to make sure.”
He snorts and buries his face in your neck. “You’re a menace.”
“You love it.”
He nods. “Yeah. I really do.”
Your heart stutters when he says it—Yeah. I really do.
So soft. So honest. It hits you right in the fucking chest.
You pull back just enough to see his face again, still partially hidden in the crook of your neck, and tilt his chin up with two fingers. He looks up at you, all wide eyes and flushed cheeks, and you swear to God he doesn’t even know what he does to you. He’s breathing through parted lips, that messy little visor still cocked sideways, and the way his buzzed hair feels under your hand—it’s dangerous. He’s dangerous. Or maybe you are.
You lean in, kiss him again, slow and purposeful. He melts like warm butter against the wall, fingers still gripping the front of your hoodie, hips just barely twitching toward yours like he doesn’t even realize he’s doing it.
“You’re so fucking cute,” you whisper again, lips brushing his as you speak. “You don’t even know, do you?”
He lets out this strangled little noise, half-laugh, half-groan. “I—I don’t. You say stuff like that and my brain just… crashes. Like a Windows 98 shutdown sound.”
You chuckle softly, kissing the corner of his mouth, then his cheek, then that little spot right below his ear that makes him shiver. “Yeah? Poor baby. Can’t handle compliments?”
He whimpers, actually whimpers, and it goes straight through you.
Your hands slide down slowly, over the cheap polyester polo that’s clinging to his torso with the faintest sheen of sweat, down to where his khaki shorts sit too snug on his hips. You toy with the waistband, just brushing your knuckles beneath his shirt, and he squirms a little—nervous, but not stopping you.
“You okay?” you murmur, kissing down his jaw, your breath hot against his skin.
He nods quickly, voice barely a breath. “Y-Yeah. Just… no one’s ever…” He swallows. “I don’t know what I’m doing.”
You smile against his neck, nuzzling there, soft and sweet even as your fingers work the top button of his shorts. “You don’t have to do anything. Just let me take care of you.”
He exhales hard, his head thunking softly back against the wall. “Holy shit.”
You pop the button and unzip him slowly, deliberately, your knuckles brushing the soft cotton of his boxers. He’s hard. Not fully—yet—but getting there, thick and warm under your touch, twitching when your fingers graze him through the fabric.
“See?” you murmur against his lips as you kiss him again. “You are turned on. Told you you were hot.”
He groans and tries to hide his face again, but you’re quicker, cupping his jaw and forcing him to look at you.
“Don’t hide from me,” you whisper. “You look so good like this. You’ve been working so hard all night, being so sweet, and now you’re letting me touch you? Letting me make you feel good?” You slip your hand into his boxers, and he gasps, hips jerking.
“You’re so perfect, Stiles. So fucking good.”
He looks wrecked already, just from a hand on his cock. His lashes flutter, mouth hanging open, cheeks impossibly red. “I—I think I’m gonna short circuit,” he breathes, voice cracking. “Like I can hear the dial-up tone in my brain.”
You kiss him again, deep and slow, while your hand strokes him lazily—fingers wrapped around the base, thumb teasing the slit. He twitches in your palm, moaning softly against your mouth. His cock is hot and leaking now, and his boxers are damp with it.
“You’re doing so good for me, baby,” you murmur. “Look how hard you are. Just from some kissing and a little praise. God, you��re so responsive.”
“Th-that’s a word,” he whimpers, voice going high and sweet. “Jesus. You’re like… you’re like a fucking sex wizard or something.”
You laugh against his mouth, so fond it makes your chest ache. “Just for you, baby.”
And then you kiss him again, because if you don’t, you’re going to say something like I think I might love you—and neither of you is ready for that while your hand’s still down his pants.
You stay like that for a breath—a heartbeat—lips barely apart, your hand wrapped around him warm and slow inside his boxers, his cock twitching with every soft stroke. Stiles is flushed all the way to his ears, breathing like he just ran a mile, his eyes half-lidded and overwhelmed, but still looking at you like you hung the damn stars.
You shift your mouth down, slowly, kissing along his jaw. He tips his head back instinctively, giving you space, trust spilling from him like it’s the easiest thing in the world. You mouth at his skin just under his jaw, just above his collar—soft, wet kisses that make him sigh—and when your teeth scrape lightly across the bend of his throat, he makes a sound. A sharp little gasp that melts into a moan as his hands grab at your hoodie again, grounding himself.
“Fuck,” he breathes, voice wrecked and wobbly, “I don’t—I don’t think I’m gonna survive this. This might be, like, the best and worst way to die.”
You smile against his neck, lips dragging slowly down. “Not dying, baby. Just feeling good. Just letting me take care of you.”
You nose the collar of his polo aside, biting softly at the edge of his shoulder, your tongue flicking over the spot before you kiss it better. His hips rock against your hand, needy now, his cock growing fully hard beneath your touch. It’s beautiful—the way he responds. Like he doesn’t know how to not give you everything.
“You’re doing so well,” you murmur against his skin. “So perfect. Letting me touch you like this. Letting me see you like this.”
He lets out a breathy little “fuck” and whines when you squeeze him gently, thumb brushing over the tip through his boxers, slick with pre-cum. The fabric's damp now, sticking to him, and you can't help it—you need more. Need him.
You sink slowly to your knees, eyes never leaving his flushed face as you ease his shorts and boxers down in one fluid motion. His cock bobs free, thick and hard and so achingly pretty, flushed deep at the head and leaking steadily. You stare for a second—just breathe him in—then press the softest kiss to the tip.
Stiles gasps, hands flying to your shoulders like he’s not sure whether to pull you closer or push you away.
“Oh my god,” he whispers, voice cracking. “That’s—you’re—fuck.”
You press another kiss to the side of his shaft. Then another. And another. Slow and reverent, like you’re memorizing him with your mouth.
“You’re perfect,” you whisper between kisses. “Look at you. All flushed and sweet and hard for me. You’re so fucking good, baby.”
He makes a wounded little noise like he doesn’t know what to do with the praise, thighs tensing under your hands.
“You don’t even get it, do you?” you murmur, kissing along the vein on the underside of his cock. “How good you are. How much I want you.”
You mouth at the base, nuzzle against his skin, press your lips to the crease of his thigh. He’s trembling now, breath coming in little gasps, hips twitching forward, like he can’t decide if he wants more or if it’s already too much.
His voice is barely a whisper: “I’m gonna—gonna break into, like, pixels if you keep saying stuff like that.”
You laugh softly and kiss the tip again, eyes flicking up to meet his. He’s staring down at you, lips parted, completely wrecked—and you haven’t even really started yet.
“Good,” you breathe. “Fall apart for me, Stiles. I’ll catch you.”
You let the words settle between you—I'll catch you—and for a second, Stiles looks like he might cry again, not from panic this time, but from something soft and terrifyingly big. His fingers tighten on your shoulders, and his thighs tremble beneath your palms, and you don’t rush him. You just stay there, on your knees on the cold backroom tile, mouth near his cock, hands splayed gently on the sides of his hips like you’re holding something delicate.
Like he might shatter if you hold him too hard.
He swallows hard. Looks down at you, dazed and flushed and blinking like he doesn’t understand how he got here. “I, uh…” he starts, voice low, trembling, “I don''t…”
“I know,” you murmur, brushing your lips against his hip, “and you don’t have to. You say the word, I stop. But if you want me to… if you want to feel good, I want to take care of you.”
His breath stutters out of him, shaky and tight, and he nods. Slowly. “Yeah. I—I want. Please.”
You smile and press one more kiss to his inner thigh before you lean in again, kissing the base of his cock with the kind of care people usually reserve for sacred things. You drag your lips along the length, slow and soft, feeling every twitch, every slight tremble. He’s so sensitive already, his hips shifting forward and back, but you don’t take him in yet. You just savor it. Savor him.
When you finally part your lips and wrap them around the head, he shudders like a live wire, a low, strangled sound caught in the back of his throat. His hand flies up—then hesitates—hovering over your head like he doesn’t know if he’s allowed to touch.
You pull off slowly, just enough to whisper, “It’s okay. You can guide me. Go slow. Tell me what feels good.”
He nods, shakily, then gently rests his hand on your head—light, careful, like you’re made of glass. You lick the head softly, swirling your tongue around it, and his fingers twitch, not pushing, just holding on.
His other hand slaps over his mouth the second a choked moan slips out.
“F-fuck,” he mumbles against his palm. “We’re in—Jesus—we’re in the backroom. Oh my God. There are—there are, like, fries ten feet from here.”
You hum around him, slow and low, which makes his knees buckle a little. You reach up and grip his hips to keep him steady, then take him in again—deeper this time, just a little. You go slow, wet and warm and gentle, sucking him down a few inches at a time and pulling back just as slowly, letting him feel every inch of it.
Stiles is gasping now, trying desperately to stay silent, his hand gripping your hair like he’ll float away if he doesn’t hold on. He’s so responsive, his cock twitching with every pass of your tongue, every soft moan you let out around him. Every time he almost makes a noise, he clamps his other hand harder over his mouth, eyes wide and wild, like he’s afraid he might scream if he lets go.
You glance up and he’s looking down at you, wrecked and shaking, sweat on his brow and his mouth open just enough that you can see the shape of the vowels he’s biting back.
“You’re doing so good, baby,” you whisper when you pull off again, stroking him slowly with one hand. “So sweet. Letting me take care of you like this. You feel so good in my mouth.”
He whimpers, actually whimpers, and you watch the shame and heat war on his face like he doesn’t know whether to melt into it or run.
You smile gently, licking a stripe up the underside of his cock. “You don’t have to be quiet for me. Just do your best. I know it’s hard.”
“Everything is hard,” he whines under his breath, voice cracking, and you both laugh quietly—because even now, he’s still Stiles—and then he moans again when you take him back into your mouth.
This time, you let him guide the rhythm. Let him roll his hips just a little, slow and hesitant, like he’s scared he’ll hurt you. You keep your hands on his thighs, squeezing gently, encouraging. You hollow your cheeks and moan around him, and he shudders, grip tightening just enough to make your scalp tingle.
He’s shaking now, full-body trembling, holding his breath like that’ll keep the noise in, and you can tell he’s close—but he’s fighting it. Trying to hold back. Trying not to let go too fast, even though it’s his first time, even though he’s barely holding on.
You pull off slowly, kiss the tip one more time, and look up at him with a soft smile, thumb brushing his hip.
“Still with me?”
He nods quickly, chest rising and falling like he’s run a marathon. “Y-yeah. I just. I need a second. Or, like, twenty. You’re gonna kill me.”
You press a kiss to his lower stomach and grin. “Nah, baby. I’m gonna make you feel alive.”
You let that last promise hang in the air for a breath, then you lower your head again—no teasing this time. No slow build. He’s already teetering, already right there, and you want to give it to him. Want to take it from him.
Your lips part and you take him back into your mouth, deeper this time, letting him slide past your tongue inch by inch until he’s pressing against the back of your throat. You breathe slow and steady through your nose, adjusting, eyes fluttering shut for just a second as you savor the feel of him—hot, heavy, pulsing, twitching.
The sound he makes is helpless. Desperate. A strangled, half-choked moan like he doesn’t know whether to sob or scream. His fingers curl hard into your hair now, not to force you down, but to hang on, like he’s barely holding himself together.
You bob your head slowly, rhythm steady, sucking him down and pulling back, letting your tongue work around the head on every upstroke. The taste of him is everywhere—salty, hot, Stiles—and you groan low in your throat just to feel him jump against your tongue. Your hands grip his thighs tight as you feel his muscles strain and shake, and when he gasps again, it’s almost a warning.
“I—fuck, fuck, I’m—” he pants, wild and broken. “I’m gonna—shit—I’m coming—”
And you don’t pull off. You don’t slow down. You suck him deeper, lips sealing tight around him, hand sliding from his thigh to cradle his hip as he jerks, as his whole body locks up and his cock twitches hard once, twice—
Then he’s spilling into your mouth.
He shouts through gritted teeth, trying to muffle it with the back of his hand, but the sound still bursts out of him, rough and wrecked and real. His legs nearly give out, knees buckling under the intensity of it, and you hold him steady as hot spurts of come hit the back of your throat. You swallow immediately—reflexively—your throat working around him as you keep him deep, making sure nothing spills. His cock twitches again and again as he empties himself into you, and you take all of it, not letting up until you feel the pulses start to slow.
Even then, you don’t move right away. You stay there, mouth full of him, holding him safe and snug while he shakes through the aftershocks. His hand is a death grip in your hair now, not rough, just desperate—anchored. You can feel him trembling under your palms, chest heaving, every inch of him overstimulated and twitchy.
Finally, slowly, you ease off him, inch by inch, keeping your lips soft and sealed around him so nothing smears, nothing escapes. He makes a pitiful sound as you pull off, this soft, broken whine like he doesn’t know what to do with himself without your mouth around him.
His cock twitches again when you release him with a soft pop, slick and sensitive and still hard enough that it bobs slightly in the cool air. He hisses through his teeth, hips jerking once, too raw to hide how overwhelmed he is.
You press a gentle kiss to the tip—just a soft touch of your lips—and then another to his thigh, and then lower your head to rest it lightly against his hip.
You can feel the way he’s still trembling. See it, too—his fingers shaking where they hover awkwardly in your hair, his knees visibly wobbling, his chest rising and falling in quick, shallow gasps like he’s still coming down from the high.
And his face—god, his face.
He’s flushed to the ears, eyes half-lidded and glassy, mouth parted and lips swollen from biting back every noise he could. There’s a look there that’s hard to name—part awe, part disbelief, and something else. Something deeper. Like he’s not just undone by the orgasm but by what it meant. By the way you took care of him. Like he doesn’t know how to hold that kind of softness.
You rub slow, soothing circles into his hips with your thumbs, grounding him.
“You okay, baby?” you murmur, voice low and warm.
He nods, fast at first, then slower, like it takes effort. “Yeah. I just—Jesus. I—I died. That was—you killed me.”
You smile, and lean up to press a soft kiss just above his navel. “Nah. Told you, remember? I made you feel alive.”
He laughs—actually laughs—a rough, wrecked little sound that cracks halfway through, and then he sinks down toward you, collapsing half into your lap. You catch him easily, arms sliding around his waist, pulling him close as he curls in.
His breath hitches once. And then he lets it out, long and shaky, as he presses his forehead against your shoulder.
“…I think you broke my knees.”
You laugh quietly and kiss the side of his head. “You loved it.”
“I did,” he groans, voice still hoarse and shaky. “Which is terrifying. Because if your mouth feels that good on me, I don’t even know what the hell’s gonna happen when, uh… when I—y’know… fuck you.”
He winces a little at the last part, cheeks blooming red like he can’t believe he just said that out loud. His eyes widen slightly, flicking away for half a second like he's about to apologize, but when he glances back down at you—on your knees, lips slick, eyes shining—he seems to find something steadier inside himself. Still unsure, still amazed, but holding onto it anyway.
You blink up at him from the floor, hands warm on his thighs, and Stiles swallows thickly like he’s trying to reboot his whole brain just to process you. The look on his face is a jumble of things: shock, awe, deep, unfiltered want—but under it all, this aching kind of gentleness. Like he can’t believe this is happening, and he’s terrified he might mess it up.
His hand’s still hovering near your face, twitching a little like he wants to touch you but doesn’t know if it’s okay. You lean into it, your cheek brushing his knuckles, and the soft exhale he lets out is wrecked.
“You okay?” he asks, his voice rough but quiet, like he’s almost afraid of the answer. “That wasn’t… too much, right? You’re not, like, sore or—God, I didn’t mean to, like, shove myself down your—”
“Hey,” you say softly, and his mouth clamps shut. “I’m fine. More than fine.”
The way relief floods his face—it’s like you flipped a switch. His shoulders sag just a little, like he’d been holding himself tense without realizing, and now he’s trying to come back to earth.
“I just,” he mumbles, scratching the back of his neck with his free hand. “I’ve never… had anyone do that for me. Ever. And especially not like that. It wasn’t—like, it didn’t feel dirty or fast or… y'know, like one of those locker room fantasy things. It felt…” He swallows again. “It felt like you actually wanted to.”
“I did,” you say.
And oh, God, the look that earns you—his whole face goes soft, like he doesn’t know what to do with that kind of honesty. Like maybe he’s not used to being the one someone else wants first. You shift slightly and press a last, warm kiss to the soft skin just below his belly button before gently helping him tuck himself back into his boxers. He hisses a little when the fabric brushes over his still-sensitive cock, and you immediately kiss the crease of his hip, murmuring a quiet “Sorry.”
Stiles just shakes his head quickly, his hand finding your shoulder this time, steadying himself—not because he needs to, but because he wants the contact.
“You’re ridiculous,” he says, a little breathless, a little stunned. “Like, in a good way. A really, really good way.”
You smile as you guide his khaki shorts back up, fingers brushing lightly over his thighs as you do the button. There’s something weirdly intimate in the quiet domesticity of it—like you’re not just helping him get dressed, but grounding him. Letting him stay in this moment. When you glance back up, Stiles is already watching you. Eyes wide, soft, like he doesn’t want to blink in case this all disappears. “You okay to stand?”
“I mean, in theory,” he says with a dazed little laugh. “I can’t feel my knees, so there’s a strong chance I just collapse and die.”
You rise slowly, and the moment you’re up, he pulls you into him—not rough, not demanding, just… close. Like you’re an anchor he’s afraid to lose. His hands settle carefully at your hips, and when your noses bump, you realize he’s leaning in again. The kiss he gives you this time is softer than any of the others. Not rushed. Not frantic. Just real. He lingers there, lips barely moving, like he’s trying to pour every unsaid word into the space between you.
You melt into it, sighing quietly, and slip your hand into the back of his buzzed hair. It’s soft and warm under your fingers, and when you scratch gently at the base of his neck, he exhales against your mouth. He pulls back slowly, his eyes a little clearer now—still wide, still reeling, but more focused. More there. And his expression shifts—like he’s trying to say something important but doesn’t want to scare you with it.
“I—um. I really, really meant what I said,” he mumbles, a bit shy now. “About, like, doing that next time. Being the one who… who gets to—y’know.” He gestures vaguely. “With you. I mean, if you want that. And if it’s not weird. And if I don’t completely mess it up and fall over or hit my head on something.”
You blink, heart stuttering. “You want to top?”
“Y-yeah,” he says quickly. “Not in a, like, ‘alpha male’ way or anything. I just… I wanna take care of you. Like you just took care of me. And I… I want to see you like that. See how you look when I’m—” He stops, turning even redder, then mumbles, “Inside you.”
You stare for a beat. Then: “Stiles…”
“I mean, if you don’t want to—”
“No,” you cut in, smiling. “I do. God, I really do.”
He visibly relaxes, smiling a little—awkward and crooked and impossibly sweet. But there’s a flicker of heat behind it now. A little more grounded. A little more sure.
“I, uh… maybe not here, though,” he says, glancing around sheepishly. “I don’t wanna break your spine over a bag of crinkle fries.”
You laugh, and he beams.
“But like…” He glances down at his hands on your hips, then back up at you. “Later. Somewhere, like, safe. Where I can go slow. Where I can see your face. Take my time.”
Your breath catches, chest suddenly aching in the best way. He leans in again, brushing your nose with his. “Okay?”
You nod. “More than okay.”
“Cool.” He kisses you once more—sweet and lingering—and then rests his forehead against yours, breath warming your skin.
“We should go before someone walks in and I get fired for literally dying happy.” You laugh, heart fluttering. And you both know: this was only the beginning. And next time—when it’s just the two of you, no fry smell, no ticking clock—he’s going to give you everything. Even if he’s still figuring out how.
He’s still holding you close, warm hands settled on your hips like he’s afraid if he lets go, you might disappear. His breath is a little steadier now, brushing soft over your cheek, and the adrenaline’s finally bleeding off, leaving just the afterglow and a fragile sort of awe. You stay quiet for a moment, just breathing together in the back room of a McDonald’s like it’s the most sacred place on earth.
Then, with your lips close to his ear, you murmur, “So. You’re gonna fuck me, huh?”
The sound he makes—it’s somewhere between a gasp and a strangled choke. His face goes from flushed to full-body red, and his eyes shoot wide as he pulls back to look at you, stammering. “I—wh—You—that’s not—I mean, yes, but not like—God.” He scrubs a hand over his face, groaning into his palm. “You’re gonna kill me.”
You grin, leaning in to nip at his jaw. “I think I like you flustered.”
“I’m always flustered,” he mutters helplessly, voice muffled behind his hands.
“Exactly,” you murmur, nuzzling against his cheek. “It’s cute.”
He drops his hands with a sigh and gives you a look—half exasperated, half so stupidly fond it makes your chest ache. “I’m trying to be, like, confident and sexy and a ‘I’m-gonna-fuck-you’ guy. And you’re over here making fun of me.”
“I’m not making fun of you,” you say, smiling. “I’m appreciating you. There’s a difference.”
Stiles huffs, but he’s fighting back a smile. His hands squeeze your waist a little tighter like he doesn’t want to leave this bubble you’ve built. “You know this is the weirdest, best day of my life, right?”
You lean your forehead against his, humming. “Yeah. Same.”
For a while, you just stand there. Tucked into each other, surrounded by the low hum of the freezer unit, the faint smell of fries and fryer oil lingering in the air. It's cold on the tile, harsh fluorescent lights overhead—but none of it matters. Not with his arms around you. Not with his heart thudding steady and slow against your chest, like it’s syncing to yours. Stiles sighs, that same quiet, dazed kind of sound he made when you first kissed his neck. “I don’t wanna move,” he admits, voice low. “Like, at all.”
“Me neither.”
“But if we stay here too long, someone’s gonna come in looking for ketchup packets or something, and I’ll die. Just, like, spontaneously combust. You’ll have to explain to the coroner why my body’s in a pile of ashes next to the mop sink.”
You laugh softly and press a kiss to the corner of his mouth. “Guess we should get back out there before you turn to dust, then.”
He makes a dramatic groan and buries his face in your shoulder. “Fine. But I’m not letting go.”
“Didn’t ask you to.”
Eventually—reluctantly—he straightens, brushing your hair gently back from your face. His eyes are so warm now. Still wide with disbelief, still a little unsure, but there’s a steady thread of something new behind it: hope.
“You’re really okay?” he asks again, one last time. “With all of this? With me?”
You take his face in your hands, brush your thumbs over his cheeks, and nod. “I want you, Stiles. Nervous, rambling, sweet, brilliant you. Whether we’re making out in a supply closet or you’re trying to figure out how to top without imploding—I’m in.”
He stares at you for a second like he’s memorizing the words. Like he’s filing them away for every bad day, every night he doubts himself. Then he kisses you again. Slow. Sweet. With a kind of reverence that makes your knees go weak.
When he pulls back, he rests his forehead to yours and whispers, “Okay. Then I’m in, too. All in.”
The two of you straighten your clothes and make your way out of the back room, fingers still brushing, hearts still pounding. And later—when it’s dark and quiet and he’s got you alone in a real bed—he’ll finally get to show you what that means. But for now, in the echoing hum of the McDonald’s kitchen, you’ve got each other.
And it’s more than enough.
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thursdayg1rl · 9 months ago
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ok omg im back from the concert
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karmaajr · 2 months ago
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in the car rn right after my sister had another fucking breakdown (shes a bit mad lol) n tried to beat the shit outta me LOLLLL 😭😭✨️✨️
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bewitchedmold · 18 days ago
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I’m not gonna lie I’ve been tricked so many times that there is absolutely NOTHING ppl can say to make me believe sbr is getting animated😭You could sit me down and force me to watch all 10 hours of the season and I’d be like “must be fanmade” the jjba fandom gave me insane trust issues😭🙏
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galebecky97 · 2 months ago
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my wretched daughter
#she's more of an aunt to me really. but that doesn't roll off the tongue quite as nicely#bg3#bg3 tav#tav#baldur's gate 3#my art#oc sheet#becky#more facts: she's an only child. she grew up in a castle. she smells bad. she has piercings i can't be assed to draw. she's neurotypical.#🫶#i wish i could do that emoji but with green skin#olive green 5 to be exact#i've been told half orcs age faster than humans but im ignoring that i need the viewer to know she's 40#peak comedy meme tav hit out the park on MY FIRST TRY 🔥🔥💪#who plays as a fucking half orc first and foremost MEEEEE#it's ONLY because goblin wasn't an option. i am saying this very severely in a gravelly voice. perhaps beneath a large brimmed hat#i wish i knew the like specific dialect i give her. i've tried researching it but im never 100% sure so.#the guy in rivington with the long black hair/bangs who's yelling abt refugees at the camp? that's the accent. he has it less exaggerated.#LOL is it obvious how important her voice is to me? 🤪#u can even call him out for it being rivingtonian so we've speculated that's where she's from#but also she's royalty? so idk ajsjhdjej#the campaign took so long bc it took me a while to get the hang of the game and solve all the puzzles bc i refused assistance#she did go half illithid but i'll never draw the face thing. peace and love#she took her men to defeat the elder brain: halsin gale and minsc#annnnnnnnd then she took control of the world bc she thought it'd be sick. she did not think through the ramifications. oh well !#i wish i was faster at this whole making art thing because i have so much to show and make and do#so hey yayyyy for getting something out today#i hope others find her amusing as i do#💚
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andromeda3116 · 5 months ago
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like i really think people outside small towns - especially in the south - wildly underestimate what it takes to leave them
like, here's what it took for me to move 450 miles from home:
familial support on both sides of the move, i.e.:
--people to help pack the u-haul for free
--someone to drive the u-haul for free
--a place to stay overnight after arriving in the new city for free
--people to help me unpack the apartment for free
--people to chip in on gas
--people to buy lunch/dinner on the way over
--people to give advice on where to look for apartments
--people to give me a place to stay while apartment-hunting so that i didn't have to go in sight-unseen to a new home
--a big one: a brother with whom i lived for a year at very cheap rent and expenses to save up what i could
a decent job in a niche in-demand field back home, which allowed me get a well-paying job here in the same in-demand field with enough experience to start off in a good place
a reliable, reasonably fuel-efficient car that could travel 450 miles without concern (which was paid off beforehand)
a $4500 personal loan from the bank (which i used every single penny of) - which also required:
--good enough credit to qualify for a personal loan
--enough income from the previous year to get enough from the loan to move
enough income pre-move to cover expenses for my final month at home and my first three weeks of work here before getting a paycheck
(aside: people were like "why would you start your new job less than a week after moving?? that's so stressful!!!" like my doll my dear my darling i needed the fucking paycheck as quickly as possible after moving)
enough food to bring along so i could eat between moving and getting that check
related, and also in the "familial support" column: people to help me pay for gas and/or feed me if i ran out of money/food
of course the baseline of a home to stay in at all back home, internet to do the zoom interview and find apartments to rent, as well as the structure in the hometown like a u-haul facility and a good bank with which i have a long-standing account
also, only having to move myself and my pets rather than having children who would need to have either daycare or schooling lined up on the other side of the move
now, like, obviously you can move without these things - and of course any kind of support system can take the place of my family, either friends or community groups or government programs - but they are not easy things to necessarily contact or interact with from hundreds of miles away, and not having them leaves you potentially very vulnerable in the new place, sometimes to the point of life-threatening
and i wasn't even that poor! i mean i was below the median income, but only by a few grand - and it still required a solid baseline at home, support on both sides of the move, and a personal loan, and i still barely managed to do it
"why don't you just move???" is such a severely, blindly, mind-bogglingly classist statement that it makes me just immediately disengage with whoever is saying it
like, even if you don't have roots in the place you're at, moving away is fucking hard and fucking expensive
--signed, someone who has been rankling deeply at the casual way people talk about "just mov[ing]" like that's a normal, easy, obvious thing to do and not something that is absolutely price-gated to hell and back
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dzozef · 2 months ago
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im in a good mood cause my work enemy is getting her life ruined while all i had to do was keep quiet and do my best 🥱
#basically shes been making management think for years that shes the only capable person there and they pay her sooooo much more than#everyone else#but now because me and two girls from my team have been quietly working hard and having amazing results#management decided to look into that and even trust us in more serious positions#and now management realized were all doing great and are on her level.. all while realizing shed been taking credit for our work all along#and to prove them wrong she decided to take a 2 week vacation thinking everything will fall apart when shes gone#(note: she genuinely thinks shes the best and smartest and master manipulator etc... shes not)#but everything was okay while she was gone ahahahaha#and the realization hit management like a truck#and i just do happen to have insider information on all of this teehee so im not speaking out of my ass#and the worst part is we keep working hard and getting praised#while shes going down with “idk how we ever let ourselves raise one person up that high”#WHILE#the three of us have fullfilling lives outside of work. while she literally has no life and her whole personality and activities in life#are this job#maybe im a little mean but this woman took credit for our work to get ahead. she constanly tries to frame us for her mistakes#she literally sets up situations against protocol so that a fuckup will happen in our shifts and she can point to iy#and has manipulated management into firing people just because they were a lil mean to her privately#my fav thing to do is not pay attention when she tells the whole group how amazingly she did smth (she boasts A LOT) and when she asks me#“omg adora are you even here?” and im like “sorry just focusing on this email rn”. anyway this drives her crazy cause she cant do anything#about it without looking insane#teehee#yapping#i wrote a whole essay but sry im just in a good mood cause i found out she wrote me a fake email about how management is unhappy w my work#only to find out that exact same manager is in fact extremely happy w my work and is unhappy with hers instead AHHAAHHA#i cant shes so pathetic 😭😭😭😭
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nervigg · 10 months ago
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Being creative is so incredibly hard once you fall out of the habit of drawing every day. Once you stop your habit of drawing for even one day, you realize how much fun other things are as you consider making art less and less every day. I'm not gonna pretend I love making art atm and I'm not gonna come on here to apologize for that either, but this burnout has followed me for a couple of years now and art is just no fun for me currently.
I don't draw because I want to draw, I draw because it's become a habit so all my art ends up lackluster and unfinished because i have no passion to create anymore and I'm afraid until I find that passion again you won't see much of me on this account.
Sorry to anyone I still owe art to, be it commissions or trades I promise I haven't forgotten and i will not abandon these projects! I just always second guess myself and I'm more stressed about art than I ever have in my entire life.
I think it's time to give it a rest.
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disappearedsock · 29 days ago
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,,,man
#is it weird to feel like. second hand bitterness abt the fans of a game franchise i dont even watch/play#like ive seen so many comments abt silksong (not all of which were jokes) never coming out and it always felt so mean spirited to me??#like no shit it took a while its 1) an indie game 2) an indie game with very pretty animation 3) following up a Huge Indie Darling#not even getting into the fucking scare that was that bullshit unity tried to pull which undoubtedly shook production#LIKE. SORRY YALL BUT GOOD GAMES TAKE TIME TO MAKE ESP IF ANIMATION IS SUCH AN IMPORTANT FACTOR#ppl acting like silksong is the modern version of hl3 or whatever when 6 years is. honestly pretty good dev time these days???#like even mainstream games with big teams take just as long so a big indie game coming out in that time frame is wild imo#and if you want it faster its going to either be bc of 1) Crunch 2) a bigger team with less creative control or 3) much smaller scope#i wont pretend the devs shouldnt have maybe waited until later in development to announce it#but thats something everyone in the game industry does; kh3 comes to my mind as a more mainstream example#idk man it just bugs me that ppl love to be all 'we want worse media that takes longer to make' until its an indie hit#and now that it has a proper release window ppl are acting like they knew itd be fine all along#listen man im a fan of valve games and kindom hearts ok you wanna talk abt waiting for sequels then get on my fucking level
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lucithornz · 4 months ago
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Oh yeah I think I forgot to post here, but I had some shit come up. I was in a pretty bad car accident Monday. I am fine BUT idk how this is gonna impact my time and mental space for the next few weeks/months.
It could be since I currently don't have a car I might go stir crazy at home and do nothing but write fic. It could be I also go stir crazy and decide I need to run 10 miles to feel something. I just don't know yet.
But you best believe the next chapter I update will have a fun author's note <3
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mspeevee · 10 months ago
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I usually say hi to customers and then immediately ask if they need bags, but I'll do the small talk if they ask me how I'm doing, but typically I won't initiate that cuz... Small talk us already so bad, and then doing that for every person I see for 5 hours?? No ty
Anyways I have this one customer who always does this passive aggressive "I'm good how are you" everytime I ask ABT bags smh like it isn't that big a deal bro trust me
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you know, I feel like, as little money as I have, I still haven’t put into perspective how much I have that could still be of use. I’m not so poor that I can’t make a difference. I can still buy a meal if I go out. I can buy a trinket. I’m not so poor or struggling with life that I don’t have food in my stomach and a place to sleep. Donating like I have this week has me wanting to do something that I hope many others are already doing. For every cent I would have spent for myself, on groceries, deliveries, gifts, etcetera (beyond the strikes where I am not spending money on anything but Palestinian causes) I will donate equal or greater that amount to Palestine. Because if I have money for me, I should have money for others. This is not me setting myself on fire to keep others warm, I know I would be of no use long term if I destroyed myself by going entirely broke with no way to survive myself. This is considering things beyond medical bills and life expenses that I need to keep going. When I count groceries, it’s things like when I use Instacart bc I can’t go out, because even though I don’t have a means of transportation, delivery is a luxury and if I can afford to pay for that, I can afford to donate. If I buy something non-essential like some snacks or the like, I have to match it with a donation. Because if I can afford to buy that, I can afford to donate. And just due to the nature of being a reminder, every time I get my period I’m going to donate to sanitary products for Palestine, because while pads are an essential product, donating even a little bit towards helping others get even the opportunity to get the same access as I do is an important reminder. There’s $5 donations available for those, and that’s about the cost of an average subscription I would be able to afford— it won’t buy a whole kit, but it will still put money towards that goal. I may not be able to do all the good the world needs, but the world needs all the good that I can do. As much as I can spare, I will donate. I only wish I could do more.
#idk it kind of hit me this week when I had to spend some money what I would do to make an impact with my money since I had to spend some#that the policy of matching whatever I spent here with donations to Palestine would be a great way to keep up action#and a reminder with every cent I spend of Palestine#I only pray that someday soon I will gain the freedom to actually do some more physical irl work as well#rn I’m not in a safe place to do so without the risk of losing my freedom to do anything and health#i can’t even call out loud when my parents are in the house because any word I would say would be grounds to take away more of my freedom#like they did when I donated to Black Lives Matter and they physically took me to a public place to scold me#and have monitored my bank account ever since.#I’ve been using PayPal mostly for donations ever since due to that not showing up immediately but#I DID use my direct card to send. sanitary kits. they won’t win that one if they take me out to scold me though lol#anyway these tags aren’t important I’m just equal parts emboldened and frustrated#emboldened by the idea of a way I can make a more direct impact beyond sharing and archiving#and frustrated that even then my options are slim and I have to be cautious#I wish I could risk it all but I would be of no help if I put myself in a position where I was either homeless or unable to act at all#I hope this doesn’t come across self important#it’s just me making a statement that I want to follow#idk this is just me working out the complexities of my situation and what I can do long term#while still actually making an impact directly on the world both right now and sustainably
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arolesbianism · 2 years ago
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Almost got too comfortable with liking a whole 3 25ji originals and tried listening to a 25ji cover playlist before I remembered that I do indeed still very much not like a good 99% of their covers
#rat rambles#sekai posting#samsa has become one of my favorite sekai songs period and bug and inanndesu are both alas absolute bangers#but one of those is hard carried by the story its tied to and the other is bug so it just kinda plain goes hard#but fr they sound sooooo fucking good in zamuza and the lyricssssss god#songs that hit harder if I close my eyes and pretend its more abt kanade than it actually is#Id be lying tho if I said that they dont sound good in inandesu#like bro it doesnt deserve to be in my top ten sekai songs but it still is so#like it goes hard they sound good miku sounds good the event is one of my favorite sekai events its so unfair#y'know truly these three songs are representative of my relationship with 25ji as a whole if you think abt it fndjfbdh#I went into bug not expecting it to go so hard zamuza hit me hard but took a lil while to appreciate the other members in it and inandesu#stuck in my brain against my will#and mizuki fits into this cause theyre the only 25ji member that isnt tied for my favorite sekai character lol#like look they have good originals. just none that I like the group cover or even the misuki solo of#like lower is pretty good. I hate the 25ji version tho#idk maybe Ill like kitty more in the future if I end up giving it more of a chance but it doesnt rly call to me rn#also on a almost related note god I wish I could like the vbs version of hitsuji ga ippiki more but idk why it just does not click with me#idk if its just me liking the vocaloid version too much or if the boys bring it down that much for me but smth abt it man idk#speaking of the guys rip to akito for not getting the yy solo he desperately needed#bro is doomed to only have one good solo til the end of time </3#like Im happy for an but man I wish all of them got yy solos they all sound soooo good in that cover#also give me shanti solos because I wanna like vbs shanti soooo bad but smth abt it doesnt click in the way I want it to#also delete vbs egoist from the game thanks <3
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man-made-misery · 2 years ago
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Tw for illness/death
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