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Oh yeah I think I forgot to post here, but I had some shit come up. I was in a pretty bad car accident Monday. I am fine BUT idk how this is gonna impact my time and mental space for the next few weeks/months.
It could be since I currently don't have a car I might go stir crazy at home and do nothing but write fic. It could be I also go stir crazy and decide I need to run 10 miles to feel something. I just don't know yet.
But you best believe the next chapter I update will have a fun author's note <3
#also I am gonna have to walk to the store for shopping now#so idk a lot of things just turned into much longer ventures#i still dont know how I am gonna get to the dr in january#life updates#like what is the point of surviving a hit and run if I can't write about it in my authors note on AO3?#either I have to get a new car#OR it will take a while to repair mine#I really hope it's not totaled bc I love that car#she took me so many places and up so many sketchy roads
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mmmmmMMMMMMM
#sigh#I wanted this break to be nice and relaxing#just allow myself to recharge maybe do some silly personal doodles#but we finally got the quote from the mechanic and it’s#it’s bad but it’s either get this repair or get an all new car we can’t afford#this whole month has been a terrible downward spiral and I’m#trying so hard#I’m not well#things aren’t letting up#I have no motivation to do anything enjoyable#nothing feels enjoyable#I just#I want to sleep forever#I don’t want to deal with this anymore#I still can’t seem to get a job#Q’s job is mentally destroying him because of the things he’s now being exposed to#but he’s been trying to get a new job since mid April#I#no longer feel any hope that things will get better#Christmas?#I feel no Christmas joy#I feel no joy#I picked a shit time to get off my meds but#I don’t know I’m tired of taking pills#there’s nothing wrong with needing them I get that but I just#I didn’t want that anymore#sorry I just needed to yell into the void before I lose my fucking mind#I’m fine things will be fine they’re always fine in the end they have to be
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geralt and per procura no, PERPRO MOUNTAIN
#(or 'perpro top') ?#either way this smacked me in the face. PERPRO GÓRA#aaaand i got no idea how to translate that. what's a two-syllable english word that ends -oora and would be funny#it's okay geralt. you not understanding any latin phrases is me reading the hussite trilogy </3#it's the fucking 'i know' which gets me#[doesn't know and is advised on how he doesn't know] 'YEAH I KNOW OK'#it's giving ciri to yennefer blood of elves chapter 7 'and i bet he saw many an analogy too...'#love that geralt finds nenneke after having not seen her since childhood. IMMEDIATELY starts complaining to her#geralt saying this and that to nenneke AUGH the fact that he's always been a whiner <3#that meme of the poor kid upset near the car captioned 'he thought school was only for one day oh he mad 😭😭'#'he thought witchering was only for one day oh he mad'#book: crossroads of ravens#excerpt#c: geralt#the witcher books#this is so funny to me because angouleme knew what per procura meant because she used it in a rude way#'he can kiss my ass per procura'#and angouleme was about 19 and geralt is about 18 here#so it's like in the good place when michael goes '... JASON GOT IT??? *JASON*???? ohhh this is a new low'#it's only endearing because we know he grows up to be also insufferable with the latin just as his creator is <3#the elbow-high diaries#this is the best prequel because it's like awwww he changed so much and wow. he did not change At All#nenneke: 'dont get in trouble' geralt: 'I DiDn'T dO AnYtHiNg'
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if 2026 rolls around and i've not figured out a set course for dealing with my career woes (taking community college classes, making plans to continue education, switching jobs, literally ANYTHING...) please beat 🔨me 🔨with 🔨hammers........🔨🔨🔨
#i feel so stagnant and unhappy and trapped#by all rights i have a good enviable job#even if it doesn't pay fantastic#and i have a lot of free time that i am completely squandering#either i need to go whole hog into this career and do what i can to learn programming and higher intensity pipelines and time management#or i need to start changing my career like. now. and figure out 1) what to and 2) how to do it#i probably can even juggle it and my current job at the same time#which would be good#i also need to figure out if i want to stay here. move across the country. move to a different country. it kind of is important for that#i gotta travel to some of the places i'm interested in first to see if it's worth my time to lean into the process#bc i have essentially until 35-45 at the latest#it was a bit less overwhelming to approach when it seemed like i could have at least one person to fall back on in case things go wrong#but i don't wanna put pressure on anyone anyway i would rather live in a car if i have to bc i can't find a place for the night or w/e#i think loosely i wanna go on an international trip by end of '27 if like. things don't get crazy??? <:) that would be fun#and it'll be good to see how i fare#i'd like to see and experience more n make new friends. really put myself out there.#obviously i'm not wealthy so it's. tough. but. if i'm still with my same job i can probably take it with me now!!! yay!!#the being transgender and doing weekly shots definitely makes everything so needlessly complicated ugh#personal stuff
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About my tanks
Usually wouldn't post this but since it's gone from every so often to twice a week now in my asks or messages. Ranging from well meaning to pretty rude.
I am aware the tank I keep my giants in is too small, I've said so before in posts. The person I got them from said my tank was fine at the time so that's why I went ahead and got them.
I do plan to upgrade the tank but I have a number of limiting factors - Money, I don't have £200-300+ to drop on this tank, new substrate and stronger shelves to hold the extra weight. - No car, anything I'd buy has to be delivered to me which greatly limits my options to local stores or very expensive shipping - Where I live limiting my options. All I can get delivered to me(at a reasonable price) currently is either exoterra tanks or fishtanks with lids that wouldn't work/no lids.
So yes I'm aware of the issues and I'm doing what I can with what I've got until I am able to get a new tank. I've plans in place to hopefully have it sorted by late spring.
#bug babbles#I'm not mad or anything but it is getting a little annoying#getting weekly messages trying to be helpful or saying I'm going to kill my millipedes#if they keep up I will simply stop posting about the giants on the blog#or look into rehoming them#though there's no way to be sure whoever I'd give them too would treat them any better#either way I know I promise you all I KNOW the tank is too small I have plans to sort it out next year#it's just not as simple as driving to a store and picking one up I don't have a car and I'd need all new shelves to handle the weight#and even just getting the shelves is hard because I again I need them delivered#I'm not from America there's only a handful of specialist stores in my country and one of them is on the complete other side of it from me#even just getting substrate is a pain in the ass for me I have to order it from the mainland in bulk whenever it's actually in stock#and before anyone says just order off amazon I've had awful luck ordering tanks off there they nearly always have arrived shattered
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You ever wake up from a dream so fucked that you have to sit there for 10 minutes after waking to rewrite the ending so that you can move on with your day or are you normal
#messages from knave#i keep having these ongoing dreams about an alternate reality version of my life#mainly about my parents#like right after i lost my job i had a dream that they'd moved to another state on a whim#and just told me to either upend my entire life to move to florida with them or figure it out#and i ended up moving into a much shittier apartment before realizing 'wait i have a whole house' and moving back into my own house in NJ#and then last night i dreamed I'd visited them and spent a day with my nephews then we all went to a wrestling match#and then after almost being run over by my dad cause he started driving while i was getting into the car#we go back to their house and i take a fat nap only to wake up in the dream and discover that I've disturbed this thumbelina sized toddler#that my mom jad apparentky adopted and then completely forgot about. and we wtruggled to getbit comfortable again on its little ved#then it escaped as toddlers do and i went through a comedy of errors trying to find it only to find it seemingly plastic and lifeless#only for it to start going through rapid metamorphosis into an adult and running around my parents house#my dad and i tried to stop it from growing up becuase every transformation opened up a new pocket dimension or something#then the dream changed into something else as my brain slowly booted back up from a migraine back into reality and i woke up#but the visage of a polly pocket sized toddler being left behind in my adult sized bed really shook me for some reason#it was so small and it was on a teeny pink pillow and it had a little purple teddy it kept dropping#but now I'm thinking of the logitstics of actually raising a child you could step on and squash by accident#that must be nerve wracking like how did thumbelina make it to adulthood without being confibed to a single room or even a single table#cause my first instinct is to build a diarama on a table for them and never let them leave until they're old enough to dodge
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im sorry digital world analog devices no matter how finicky or straight up entirely more liable to be defective or time/money consuming will always have the top shelf in my heart
#🫶#the new handheld cassette recorder/player i ordered came in the mail so my huge dusty cassette collection is so back#my last car had a cassette player which was so epic but at the same time as getting a new car my cassette players went out -_-#they were cheapy tbh this one is waaay nicer quality and has epic uncommon features (record double speed + variable fast/reg/slow playback#speed dial) but its been like a year... i was starting to feel bad about owning so many cassettes...#i love this thing it records so well and plays back so well and i can mess with the playback its so fun !#i dont feel like i have to be esp careful using it either which is a new sensation and a beautiful relief#its just funny cuz it came in the mail on my lovers bday >~< which seems so silly to me like its not my bday!! but i got a great gift ^.^#i have 108 (rym catalogable) cassettes (plus more) and some were more than i pay for cds... or blurays for that matter..#this is so exciting ! if only my new cars cd player didnt start acting up tonite too.. thats okie tho... i just need a good record player !
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Rewarding myself with an orgasm after I record is such a good incentive on days where I don't feel like recording 😤
#Between wrestling (and losing to!) my new mic and my NEIGHBOR'S CAR ALARM GOING OFF FOR ALMOST TEN MINUTES#RIGHT AS I WAS JUST ABOUT TO FINISH RECORDING!#I fucking deserved it 😫!#I'll pick up wrestling with my mic either tomorrow or Friday. I might have troubleshot some of the issues!#But for now I get to take a brain break for a little bit.#Mommy needs to Relax 😭
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fighting the urge to sadgirl i will simply dress up pretty and go to an art gallery tomorrow and this will cure my mental illness guaranteed
#i should pick closer places but one still has ex energy all over and i cant cope#and i dont want to risk the big one smelling like it did in third grade because im not sure i could do that either#so we drive. all the way to the there#and as a bonus the website links to cafes and restaurants within walking distance#so i won't get too hungry and scared to go somewhere new even though i already drove there through a confusing city in the rain#and refuse to leave the car and just drive 40 minutes home chainsmoking#this is why i keep an arsenal of snacks on and around my person at all times#but yeah. walk. so i have to go in.
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Woah this little project has been going on for 3 years now! A little crazy that I've managed to keep this thing running but I am nothing if not committed to the bit. Thank you to everyone who has been here since day one and everyone who has followed along more recently in this journey to post every single Sanji! Here's to three more years 🥂
#not sanji#this isnt housekeeping either but ill tag it with that#im scheduling this out on the 11th ive just finished queuing ch333#but ueueue i started this blog as a freshman in college and i graduate in may#ive changed hyperfixations half a dozen times and i stopped keeping up with#the weekly releases for one piece in like august 2020#wano was just getting too convoluted for me#but one piece was what i hyperfixated on at the start of the first lockdown#so it will always have a special place in my heart#also hopefully by the time this posts ill have my new car#and this blog will have been with me through 4 phones (technically) and 2 cars#and 3 different dorms/apartments#i dont know what im doing post graduation tbh i just applied for a job as a#patient representative at a clinic in my home town which will get me on my feet in the#professional world but i could do just about anything#everyone wants an anthropologist but nobody wants to admit it#im also bilingual which is also a useful skill. but if anyone says they know what theyre doing#especially when theyre my age (22) they are lying#we're all kinda groping around blindly hoping to find something that sticks#anyway ive rambled enough! dkshsjkssj if you read all this.... thank you?#idk this blog means a lot to me ive been keeping it up through a lot of rough patches#its like. one of the constants in my life idk.#anyway. i need to do dishes and make lunch byeeeeeee#i never tagged this with housekeeping.#housekeeping
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I LOVE COLLEGE. I want to go home though 😭
#I want to be with my friends!!! at home!!!!#I want my car I want to drive around my streets at night#I want my own room and my bathroom I feel comfy in (thank god for a suite bathroom I wouldn’t be able to deal with a hall bath)#I want to be like max 20 minutes away from my friends. this boils down to I miss my friends#we should all just go live in an apartment complex together#I was really onto something with making my friends and I in Tomodachi Life like that’s the ideal right there#maybe not economically feasible but it would be so good#I do love college a lot though and I’m really liking LI so far#I wish I were better at getting close with my new friends#but the ones I get along with the most don’t do much going out (either studying or sleeping)#and there’s one who I Don’t like very much they’re so annoying but they’re always around everyone else#I think I’m just gonna have to suck it up about that tbh#because I want to be hanging out with everyone else more#tbh my orientation group was the best I miss that just not as much as I miss my other friends from home#it’s also been weird because like. bunch of hurricanes flooding etc happening at home. and it feels weird to not be there and help out#I feel like I’m letting people down in not being there#another thing I miss is being so close to the water tbh#I didn’t think I would I am terrified of flooding#and I’m on an island like. this is Long Island. but I can’t see the water from where I am#and I can’t drive around to get to it#I’ve never lived somewhere where I wasn’t walking distance from a bay and it’s uncomfy#thankfully when I go visit my boyfriend! the train takes me over wate#r sorry time limit went off anyways when I took a train there it took me over some water in NJ I think it was nice to see#comforting and shit#anyways#cheese speaks#college moment#ugh being homesick is so weirddddd
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I've had a stupid merlin au idea stuck in my head for days now and I know I'll never get around to writing it the way I want it written but I kinda wanna try anyway even though I am 100% of the target audience
#it's an f1 au btw#so I feel like a merlin x f1 crossovee is very niche#but I just have this idea in my head pf arthur as a driver and merlin as an aerodynamics engineer#and arthur starts off as an ass (as per usual) and thinks that he's god's gift to motorsports and all his good results are because of his#skill and bad results are because the engineers fucked up bad#and lowkey people don't like working with him BUT uther is giving red bull absolute mega bucks to keep him and he is actually a fantastic#driver in his own right. deep down he's not super satisfied though because people keep saying he's only winning because of his car#and his dad's money which is why he's a grumpy ass to most people and tries to claim good races as his and blame engineers for bad ones#also because uther probably taught him that attitude#in this au I think either Newey didn't exist but rb dominance still did or this is far enough after Newey that I haven't got arthur blaming#him for a bad car because y'all I can't do that it's too unrealistic no one would believe it#(yes I am aware that max and checo are currently complaining about a car newey made but shh)#anyway he secretly goes to sign for like. williams or something who currently suck so he can prove to himself and everyone else that he IS#a good driver and can drive a shit car well. he's admittedly doing fairly well in a tractor when merlin joins the team as the new head#of aerodynamics and arthur is giving him shit because he's so young and how could he possibly fix this shitbox#then Merlin's first big upgrade packages comes and makes a pretty big difference and arthur has to rethink a bit#the next season is the first car that merlin was actually mostly in charge of and it's a massive difference and suddenly it's competitive#meanwhile merlin's pov is that arthur sucks ass and he hates him but he keeps being told that arthur is his destiny#he refuses to believe this though and even though he has magic he point blank refuses to use it on anything that would help arthur even#somewhat indirectly like using it to help design the car. his official reasoning to people who know about his magic is that the fia wouldn't#allow it but personally he also just wants to say a fuck you to fate because he doesn't like arthur. but then they get to know each other#more and he realises that maybe arthur isn't that bad and they become friends like in the show#arthur is leading the championship (pendragon dominance could bore fans) but then he has a big crash and is out for a couple of races#by all accounts it's a miracle he's even alive (it's the only time merlin has used his magic for arthur). when he comes back he still has a#chance at wdc but it's way tighter than it was. maybe there's only a few races to go. he gets some podiums and his competition has some bad#luck (genuine not merlin) or something but then at like the second last race he can guarantee wdc if he wins regardless of where anyone else#places. he does it and merlin is the one to go on the podium with him on behalf of the team (maybe not for winning wdc but just his first#win after the crash idk) and it's this big emptional moment#also morgana was as good as arthur as kids but uther only supported arthur so now she works for sky or someone in a role like nico rosberg
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I am so cursed
#there’s so many mice in this godforsaken place 😭#and I can’t even really leave either#it’s a long story I don’t care to explain and I have found workarounds but GOD#CAN I PLEASE GET A BREAK#my mouse body count is now 15 and rising I wanna die#you always go some place and it’s fine for the first few nights and then somehow they FIND YOU and u get#some kind of fucking scarlet letter and then there is no rest#they chew my headphones they chew my fucking FLASKS which are EXPENSIVE#there’s no more food for them to get in my car so they’ve resorted to plastic and SOMEHOW THATS SATISFYING TO THEM????#the only good news is that victor redesigned their mousetraps and they’re way more effective now#caught 2 before the sun went down#but I think another one found its way in so I’m just gonna die instead#car life#some places have mice and some don’t and there are v few ways to tell
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in the airport to go home and i don't even feel sad just empty
#the depression resurfaced as soon as i got in the car actually#there were no tears but i made this tiny little whimpering sound when i got out of the car to unload my bag#and im so glad my parents didn't hear it bc im pretty sure i would have actually started crying if they had#and i don't want to cry#i don't really want to do anything#i bought a new book that i was so invested in while i was there and now i have no desire to read it#i played bg3 and ffxvi so much while i was there and i don't want to do that either#i had so many thoughts and wrote so many things for beau and kanver and i don't want to do that either#i just feel like lead#maybe when i get home and see my cat i'll cheer up#but i have 8ish hours of feeling empty until then
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staying up as late as possible tipsy playing bg3 because thats just the sort of week I've had i cannot even lie rn
#i have work at 10am tmrw and start school on Monday#and this week so far have gotten into a bad crash and totalled a car my family has had for 10 years (didn't severely get injured#but its fucked me up a bit mentally) then had work every single day (i work part time and generally do not have a shift more than two days#in a row at the most) and then today i did not have work but did get broken up with (not for any fault of either of us and we still very#much are in love with each other and want to be together which almost makes it hurt worse bc it's entirely due to circumstance)#(oh btw the crash was actually on the way to help with her moving in to college last weekend)#i have had No Fucking Break the entire week. and have work tomorrow. and then im jumping right into a new school year.#gonna be so honest? not very fun way to end off the summer and it's definitely not reassuring that im already burned out#before school even starts#just me rambling again#vent post#i know i will make it through and that things will be good again it's just been such a shit week :((#doesn't help that I haven't really interacted much with people or gone outside either#too busy for that
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"I don't get car people. Like they can be cool an all but being obsessed with it is a little much."
-person who refers to their hand-me-down van with the name and pronouns assigned by their grandmother and has a deep emotional and nostalgic attachment to said van.
#calling myself out#im not into fancy cars. Reggie (my van) is like an old family dog to me#he may struggle to run in the cold. his entire right side is paralyzed (the doors and locks have no power so everything is manual)#and the driver's seat is permanently stuck in its position. the trunk needs to be slammed and bumped to close.#the driver's sun shield is partially broken and can't stay folded up.#but he still has a tape deck. and the cd player still works. im using this car till the very end#my grandma keeps accidentally naming cars after ppl i associate with video games. like reggie.#and her current car is vinny. lol. if i ever have to get a new car i might jokingly name it jerma.#either that or soundwave (depending on the car)
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