#but it makes sense in my brain 😂
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Honestly, I think the complaints I have with the show would be solved if the episodes were an hour long. Like I get I am not the target audience for the show, but the pacing is all over the place.
#like they keep telling because there is no time for showing#idk if this makes sense#but it makes sense in my brain 😂#key things could also be included that are getting cut out or moved around#pjo show crit#pjo tv show
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Annabeth calling Percy and Grover from some lair she got stuck in because she got curious about something she was told so many times to stop being curious about, so now they gotta go get her, and afterwards Grover sits her down for a lesson on prey animal common sense. Annabeth trying to explain that she is not a goat. Grover pressing his finger to his mouth, gently shushing her before continuing on
Also Percy explaining that this is why he has to follow her on things because she is the cat and curiosity is always ready to kill her. Him gesturing erratically while Grover is setting up his presentation because "Sometimes I wanna follow Grover, Annabeth! But I can't because you keep arguing your way into danger! So I have to follow you down the dark spooky tunnel instead of hanging out with my best friend in the land of rainbows and sunshine"
"what if the land of rainbows and sunshine is a trap"
"I GUESS WE'LL NEVER KNOW BECAUSE YOU KEEP GOING TO THE EFFING TUNNEL"
#grover underwood#annabeth chase#percy jackson#grover is a magical goatman with a magical flute and the common sense of a prey animal. percy is an ocean child who can and will explode yo#annabeth on the other hand... she's got the brains. she's got the strategy. she's got the training.#no external powers tho. and a minimal sense of danger that ducks out the moment she comes across something that interests her#or makes her feel stupid because then she'll yell at it - see the sphinx from BOTL 😂#oh oh! part of grover's presentation is how to headbutt danger if avoidance doesn't work and annabeth points out she doesn't have horns#grover: how's that my fucking problem#happy talks pjo
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When you’re on the cusp of sleep and Eddie says, “Let’s get these panties off.”
You’re mewling a little, nodding sleepily, eyes closed, face pressed into the blue laundered fabric of Steve’s pillow. Steve Harrington, your shared boyfriend & partner, currently to your right, helping Eddie by taking the left side of your panties above defined digits and pulling. Once at your ankles, you help them slide off, immediately allowing your legs to fall open, wetness clicking as your folds separate noisily, messily.
“Jesus H. Christ, what a whore,” Eddie mumbles, already undoing his belt to relieve some friction.
“Explains why she slept topless for us to get home and find her, huh, Munson?” Steve responds, amused, eyes glazed over and sparkling beneath the reflective moonlight of the room, also lit up by streetlights.
You’d kept the window open to let in one of the last cool night’s summer breezes, eagerly approaching fall temperatures. The sweat of all day work lingers on your boyfriend’s, combined with outside, and that little bit remaining of a candle you’d lit for your night time bath. A present they’d gotten you at a vintage thrift shop, cedarwood, apple, and a little blended maple.
As they take their places beside you, eager to indulge in your body, you thank everything in this universe that they’re yours.
#fuck off to my brain if this doesn’t make sense in parts#the line of Eddie’s just came to me#and Steve won’t let me just be without him for a fic lately#so… here y’all go 😂#kristenwrites#my work#my writing#stranger things#stranger things 4#eddie munson#steve harrington#steddie x reader#steddie x you#steddie x y/n#steddie x fem!reader#steddie x female reader#eddie munson x reader#eddie munson x you#eddie munson x female reader#eddie munson x y/n#eddie munson x fem!reader#steve harrington x you#steve harrington x reader#steve harrington harrington x y/n#steve harrington x fem!reader#steve harrington x female reader#eddie munson fanfiction#steve harrington fanfiction#steve harrington fic#eddie munson fic
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Making a full post for my Fuuta Ballet AU because I actually had more thoughts about it hehe (Ballerina Girl)
+ a version of the au that's more general to the whole cast, with Es as the protag here!
As mentioned in the art, he’s exactly the same as canon except his life now revolves around dance. He’s in a very cliquey company (The Dark Pas de Trois?), surrounded by friends who are very similar-minded. Even though they're not in dance competitions specifically, they're constantly striving for better reviews/reputations than the neighboring companies. Fuuta struggles with stage fright, but doesn't let on to the others -- he just pushes through every time.
They visit a company rehearsing Nutcracker, and one of the snowflake dancers does something problematic backstage. Fuuta blasts him on social media for it, gaining popularity for his own account/dance company. Auditions and things go a bit smoother for them now that they’re internet famous.
There’s a scandal with the dancer playing the demon sorcerer Rothbart in Swan Lake, and Fuuta catches it on film. The video goes viral, once again boosting Fuuta’s popularity and ego. He’s praised as both a hero and talented performer. His friends are also soaring with this newfound fame.
Then, he catches a young background dancer in Sleeping Beauty doing something he deems worthy of a callout. He exposes her all over his social media. Rather than the usual social backlash, the girl is harassed in person. A crowd takes things too far, and an accident results in an injury that ends her career just as it was beginning. She will never dance again.
Facing his suspicious friends (and overcome with his own guilt), Fuuta flees the company. He plans on quitting dance for the rest of his life as well. Instead, he gets a mysterious invitation to the Milgram Dance Academy. He's never heard of them before, and the internet doesn't turn up much on them. Left with few other choices, he shows up for the first lesson.
The first thing that strikes him is it's a boarding school. He must live there and follow their rules in order to attend. They take his phone and restrict outside contact, much to his horror. The school solely focused on the arts -- no competitions, no big shows. There are three major shows they are planning, but Fuuta couldn't find any venues/tickets/advertisements, despite mention of a "global audience". The program is rigorous, and the instructor decides at the end of each semester if their final performance passes or fails.
The only thing more concerning than the sudden restriction of his phone is the strange group of residents he'll be spending his next few years with. His instructor is a mere child, no more than fifteen and very cryptic about their past training. His other classmates range in age and personality. He starts off dancing just as confident as usual, trying to show up the other students and make a strong first impression.
However, he fails the first semester. The grade list is made public to the whole academy, and Fuuta finds himself the subject of watching eyes and condescending whispers. Becoming sensitive to prying stares and audiences, he falls back into his usual stage fright. He endures (emotional) attacks from the passed students, although in his distraction he screws up some cues and gets injured.
Regarding the actual choreography -- as much as I love the classic shows (I mean, just look how cute he is as the nutcracker ;-;) my brain has been going brrrrr picturing ballet adaptations of the mvs... 🎹 / 🎹 / 🎹 / 🎹
#milgram#fuuta kajiyama#no au can get me going like a dancer au can...#i wanted to take the stakes down from death/murder but still have some drama#so theres still injury and guilt mixed in with the dancing lmao#i know the whole cast version makes more sense but i wanted it to be about my special little guy 👏👏👏😂#you know how it is#both these aus require a school full of other dancers but im picturing the milgram cast as fuutas specific class he spends all his time wit#and since the other students are the audience i guess that means you all are part of my au 😌 welcome to dance school 😌#i had the bulk of this jotted down for so long - its nice to finish the art and clean up the phrasing to post!#dropping this while i reboot my brain from my trip... i shall return soon ;-;
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idk if im stupid but i just realized baz has a begging kink because he usually never asks for anything
#baz pitch#simon snow#snowbaz#carry on#like my brain just short circuited thinking about this#like oh so it makes a lot of sense actually 😂#everybody already probably picked up on this but not me thi#tho*#aint like the other gals and pals im built differently (i have adhd
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this tree from my new drawing looking goated afffffff 👑👑
#yes this is a nel/vas drawing get off me😂#text#i wanted everyone to see it but also since i draw on paper in total silence i think a lot about everything so i wanted to voice some -#- thoughts too's. tbh i've been veeery self indulgent lately#actually i'm happy that n*lv*s is getting actual hits out of me that i like looking at#especially on-paper stuff that i can recall being fun for me to draw. all traditional art is fun to draw#and digital has turned into an actual task for me (only sometimes tho maybe i;m lying.. mspaint we're still bffs)#i think i just don't see the joy in trying to scrap up a ''' finished ''' piece in an art program .. pencil i love you and i love the -#- feeling of it scratching along the paper....sigh............ Rabu#i don't want my blog or thoughts to turn into traditional art suck-off ventures bc ik not everyone can get into it for many possible -#- reasons but if u feel like it U can ok? do it for Pencil✏️ and for me? for silusvesuius? 𝖎 𝖜𝖎𝖑𝖑 𝖕𝖗𝖔𝖙𝖊𝖈𝖙 𝖞𝖔𝖚#but Lord i hope i don't also come off as one of those people that r like 'to improve in art just draw that one fictional character u -#- rly like 😂😂' bruh gtfo my face with that.#i'm noticing 'improvement' in my stuff mainly...i think... because i'm always striving to impress#not so much other people that are here just for my art but more so myself#i have a very huge ego (Mind Battle)#also it makes me sad to think about how big egos or genuine (not obnoxious) flauntiness are looked down on#and i can tell bc i used to look down on people that would express the things i'm expressing now#especially in art focused spaces. now i'd rather be in a circle of artists that love to J*rk off their own brain for it's ideas -#-and talent than be w/ very self-conscious artists that are never expressing pride about any of their work#worse if it's to the point where they actively start to fish for compliments bc of it#fishing for compliments is always OK i just wish it didn't stem from insecurity in that context if that makes sense#but maybe that's very easy for me to say and admit bc i did develop a very big ego around my art and ... Creativity? like it's a sims skill#not that i still don't seek out 'attention' or compliments from others to soothe myself but hmmmmmm i hope u feel me.#it just turns me into a very competitive person#who am i competing with? Myself#i'm always in 'you can do better Because you're YOU' mode#which is much better i believe than comparing yourself 2 other artists#i don't think a lot of people read my tag ramblings but if u do i wonder how one feels about a very pompous artist#like me .......(?)
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not me blearily waking up at 5:30am almost in tears bc I had a dream that Ian had apparently been making more little OK KO shorts on the side and the utter joy I was feeling as dream!me was scrambling to find & watch them only to wake up before I could........ :((((
#there were 5 of them out already apparently#the most recent one had a Ray focus to it so big shocker that that's the one that caught my attention#and dream!me was like ''oh so THAT'S why ppl have been spam-liking all my Ray posts recently!! makes sense 👌''#I actually got to se like a little ending clip for that one where like. he was wearing this stupid cloak & outfit—#—kinda looked a little Shadowy Figure-esque actually??—but apparently he was like. secretly doing hero work on the side or smth??#and then at the end he had this convo with Darrell back at the factory where he monologued about how dabbling in hero work--#--made the villainy they do feel all the sweeter or smth like that & he was all dreamy-eyed pensive staring up at the sky#and Darrell was??? drinking imaginary tea/coffee from an imaginary cup which you could tell bc he had his pinkie up#and then when Ray finished his monologue Darrell just gave him this most unimpressed smirk & dumped out his imaginary cup over the balcony#like pour-one-out style??? and then that was the end of the short 😂😂#and so dream!me was pissing her pants bc HERO RAYMOND REAL AFTER ALL??¿????#and there were some other like screenshots/gifs I stumbled across on my way to find the actual shorts themselves#(Ian apparently had a whole lil youtube channel he was posting them to lol which I only found right before I woke up)#but the only one I can remember now was Elodie doing a Big YellTM towards KO about something 😂😂#broooo there are genuine tears being wiped from my eyes rn wtf is thissssss 🤣🤣 I have work soon I need my SLEEP#but I had to document this bc it was just. so Visceral & now I am so so so soooo bummed that it wasn't actually real TwT#I think my brain & heart have gotten too inspired by how some of my other Big Fave interests have been getting sequels/remasters lately#so now my soul is Once Again I Am Yearning For Justice For OK KO.meme TTwTT#anyways. god it's taken me an entire half hour to blearily tap this out on my phone. time to squeeze another half hour of snooze before work#OK KO#shut up Wisp
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slurred words //Darkfang
Send “slurred words” for Tarn to badly describe your muse while overcharged on absynthe. | ACCEPTING
Tarn squinted at the bounty hunter--no. Ex-bounty hunter now, surely. There were no bounties on Cybertron. Not anymore. Why was he staring at this mech.
"You are very long and pointy." He stated, surprisingly articulate for how obviously overcharged he was, EM field unabashedly loose and gaze scattered. "You are pillow-shaped." Whatever that meant. Not that it mattered, because Tarn was reaching for Darkfang to pull him closer to use as a pillow.
#//my 3am brain makes about as much sense as drunken tarn LMAOOOOO#//have fun darkfang 😂#//thanks for the ask~#ask#ic#viciousbite#mobile
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Show me your teams!! 🥰
Here's mine:
^ both of these teams make 0 sense, but for just running through easy event modes etc. I enjoy using them! :D my favourite aurorians in BaeSquad regularly get swapped in and out, but Faust is always there (and it's very important that he's the team captain!)
^ I've kept this team here to remind me of who I used when I *finally* cleared that one horrible Schummer boss fight - I remember borrowing another player's Sharona too 😊
And now for my element teams!
For Xerneas, I'll throw in my Antony as well if he's needed! Just behind Fire, I think Forest is my 2nd favourite elemental team to use :)
#for FireBaes: Faust always starts as the team captain then ill immediately switch to Victoria#i know it makes 0 sense but my brain refuses to let me do anything different lmao#same with Phantom Parade#my favourite Nanami MUST be at the front of the formation#i'm sure the guys on the PhanPara discord would despair if they could see my setups 😂#sorry that's just how it has to be#jenji plays#alchemy stars#True Order#Faust#jenji rambles
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can we talk about sukuna and rika and why the king and queen of curses having a dispute is also narratively fitting? if sukuna is an heian era sorcerer with an antipathy and disregard of human emotions and the weak's will to live, blind to love and unable to comprehend the value of relationships with others then rika, as his counterpart, works especially well. rika is just a kid, or was just a kid. an innocent young girl who ended up dying tragically and saw herself transform into a vengeful spirit after being cursed by love. not only does she represent the weak (remember when sukuna's slaughter of women and children was implied?), she represents love itself. with her feelings lingering after death, she clinged onto her existence with the sole wish of protecting yuuta. it counteracts so well with sukuna's selfish will to kill time before his final breathe, which he admitted to be his will and motivation.
before i move on to my next idea, which let me preface by saying that it might be a little out there and dives into theory territory, i'm going to contextualise it with some information on the symbolism of "king and queen" that might help understand why this thought may make - at least some - sense.
in alchemy the king usually appears in conjunction with the queen, representing the sun-and-moon duality. in accordance with the theory of sulfur and mercury, which together, after alchemist purification, form the philosopher’s stone (also called the elixir of life, associated with rejuvenation and immortality), usually represented by the crowned hermetic androgyne (the union of the complementary male and female, achieving perfection or completion in the human state). according to jung, the king and queen also signify the spiritual conjunction that takes place when the process of individuation is complete, with the harmonious union of the unconscious and consciousness. jungian psychology has subjected the alchemistic tradition to extensive analysis and views the king less as an image of paternal authority and more as an archetype of higher insight and wisdom.
with that in mind, i think it's easy to understand where i'm headed but i want to add something else. remember jjk 0? geto's plan at the time was to obtain rika so he could use her power and move forward with his plan to annihilate all no-sorcerers. he believed her to be the key to achieve his goal and was willing to risk his own life for it. furthermore, the story is highly based on buddhist concepts and one of the core aspects of jujutsu kaisen is the cycles of suffering the characters are subjected to. in buddhism the goal is to become free of the samsara (continuous cycle of life, death and rebirth), eliminate suffering and achieve nirvana (enlightment). this ties withe the name of the series as kaisen is comprised of the kanji 'kai', meaning cycle, and 'sen', meaning battle, which combined with jujutsu (which means magic/sorcery but contains the word curse) describe the story as an endless battle of curses. and in a sense, the story also repeats itself, between generations and storyline-wise with the events circling back to how it all began. yuuta managed to land a fatal strike on geto once again, but now rika is pointed to be in a direct confrontation with sukuna as the queen of curses. now that i went through all the context needed to understand this, is it possible rika is once again in danger of being taken away? the idea of achieving a state of perfection with the unity between king and queen is quite intriguing. sukuna finally addressing yuuji as a worthy rival because of his unshakable resolve and unbreakable soul, is almost directly implying yuuji to be the one with whom sukuna has his last battle. an ultimate power-up (or the equivalent to), would be veyy cathartic before a final fight where yuuji would have the opportunity to finally go all out and have his well awaited and deserved protagonism (in my eyes, at least).
#so i guess my point is i'm not expecting sukuna to lose but i'm also not expecting yuuta to die (as of now at least)#i feel like it's not impossible that something happens to rika though#i kind of like that idea 😅 since that's not the original rika and yuuta is able to fight even without her#it's also quite funny that in the animal kingdom some females eat their counterparts and sukuna is said to be a cannibal#rika isn't human and i'm not theorising he will eat her but wouldn't it be ironic#and if jjk isn't a story full of irony idk what is#sorry for the random post#please don't trust what i say it was a random thought and i just thought it was fun to expand on it a little 😂#i didn't even go through the chess symbolism we could also go through that route#the queen is the most powerful piece but the king is the most important. we could talk about checkmate. we could talk about the move where#the queen sacrifices itself for a more favorable tactical position which would also be interesting in the grand scheme of things#so yeah expecting interesting things from this fight not gonna lie#maybe this didn't make a lot of sense but you know what whatever i'm just having fun using my single brain cell rn bye 😂#jujutsu kaisen#jjk leaks#sukuna#rika orimoto#okkotsu yuuta#jjk 💭
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I already knew that that was gonna be the case just overall due to the plans and drafting and the first proper writings
but oh bOi as I flesh it all out and slowly give it proper coherency I'm realising more and more that Part 8 is gonna be like, THE next proper 'SIkuna gives everyone
(and especially Satoru, but still kinda-sorta aside from Yuji which is incredibly ironic considering the episode(s) this continues to rewrite lol)
The Worst not-first impression ever' Part lmfao, a true spiritual successor to 'accidentally scares'/Part 3
Bro was trying for bronze in the spookiness olimpics to fuck stuff up a bit less yet still keep up the role properly, but he severely miscalculated the long jump and ended up crashing into the front-view camera at the end of the sandpit (poor guy may be getting a just-now-established platinum medal instead, much to his internal 'ahfuck') 😂💀
(Tbf the circumstances kinda forced him into some parts of it but like- lmFAO-)
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#I'm out here essentially playing 5D Chess With Time Travel trying to make it all make sense on everyone's part and the brain is fRYING fr 😂#But yeahh SIkuna is not gonna have a cash money time huh#(Obviously he's not gonna be doing anything Clearly 1000% Evil and Unforgivable because duh Yuji wouldn't tolerate THAT#but it's definitely gonna be easy to /assume/ that that's basically his intentions - if unclear on What /Exactly/ - without context 😂)#(/With/ context it's a bit more 'aw' and 'yeah the poor guy's going Through It but he's dealing with it as well as he can 👍' lmfao)#Anyway yeah it's definitely gonna be a bit of a rollercoaster; maybe even moreso than Part 7 in some ways 😂#Can't wait until it's finished but I actually gotta finish it smh my head fr who invented that I just wanna talk 🤨#(I both hate and love this Part for being both difficult to write but also very fun to think up 😂😂😂 Poor SIkuna fr 😂)#Thinkings™#SIkuna#(deliberate misspell)#jjk Sukuna#Syuuya#jjk fic#jjk fix it#jjk fix it fic#jjk#jujutsu kaisen
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crying at 7am bc your best friends are Science Brains and try to explain the Cool Concept of Dimensionality to you but you are Too Dumb To Understand
#DONT CALL ME SMART!!!!!!!#I AM NOT AND THATS OKAY#IM A DUMB BITCH AND THATS FINE#okay moving on#i'm so confused#literally how does the y axis change based on what you're doing#how is it measuring different things in different contexts#and how the fuck is TIME a dimension!!!!!!!!#HOW DOES THAT MAKE SENSE#'well bc you can be in the same location at two different times and it's technically a different location' i'm gonna cry what does that MEAN#HUH#mushroom i love you and i love that your interested in so many amazing things#but i'm SO CONFUSED#science side of tumblr do NOT explain#my poor brain#my partner tried explaining it to me too and that made me more confused#what a great way to start the day 😂😂#literally so lost#science brains yall scare me just a little bit#im only mostly sure that you aren't all just doing witchcraft#insanity#anyways#personal rambles#mushroom and stick against the world#not stargate
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I'm seriously starting to consider to not take the general story crafting 101 too seriously... and just do whatever. In the end the only criterium that's important is if I personally like my story by itself. Or even just that I was able to completely write it.
There are so many things out there that don't follow the general structures, or that aren't even a single coherent storyline at all. The only reason I want to make it structurally waterproof is because I think that's the only way to make other people maybe approve of it. MAYBE. It's because I think if I don't follow the rules I'm going to get criticized or made fun of for it. But honestly, there's no guarantee that even a single person other than myself would even read it. So why the heck am I trying to bend over backwards so much for something that probably won't even matter?! 😂 It doesn't make sense. I should treat this as an effing fanfic and do whatever feels right, have fun with it, COMPLETE IT, even if it's not coherent or this or that fundamental rule is not followed. It DOESN'T need to make sense. Really WHO.CARES?? The answer is NOBODY. A story's purpose is not to make others like the fkn author lol. I really should stop trying to treat it like that. Amirite or
#writing#mura's voice#again I'm looking through the 15-20 beginnings of this project and I'm like#it's SHIT but I still kinda like it??#it had all these cringe tropes and shitty as heck writing#but it's kind of giving me some feelings#even if it's just nostalgia#and some vague curiosity where all of that could lead#and it's kind of like some bad '90s anime story or something XD#and that's maybe not what I'm going for nowadays but even if I did#WHO CARES#😂#it doesn't need to try so hard that I'm crippling my own creativity with it#actually I was recently starting to think that I should focus more on what it's making me feel#instead of if it makes 100% sense logically#or if it follows this or that structure#because I really do think in the grand scheme of things it doesn't matter#I should do what's fun for me not what I think others would approve#idk at least I will TRY to tackle it from this point of view more 😅#and if I want to just focus on the fkn aesthetics because I'm too dumb to write a brilliant story SO BE IT#who's gonna stop me other than myself lol#*15-20 year old beginnings#brain fog is making me forget to type words again haha
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sometimes i think about how it took me, a deeply dedicated anna torv stan, two whole years to first watch The Newsreader
#it made sense at the time ok#i was obsessed with other things like properly hyperfocused#and my brain literally went 'let's just put her new show in our back pocket for when she goes back on hiatus for 3 years'#like 2013-2016 was so rough#i just wish i'd experienced the first season live with everyone#but ah well what's done done#i have seen the light and im making up for lost time 😂#i adore this show so much in case that wasn't clear#the role anna was always meant to play
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I just got the idea for a young royals fanfic based kind of on Citizen Kane…
I might have to write it but I think I’ll also have to do math to figure out their ages😭 (and possibly watch the movie a shit ton of times)
#I’m trying to make it make sense my brain right now… the hardest part might be changing parts of that work as a movie into writing🤔#You know the first time I saw Citizen Kane I was pissed because it actually is such a great movie and I was hoping it would be at least a#little bad since so many people talk about what an amazing movie it is😂 But no it’s really good#Wille would be Charles Foster Kane but instead of having an empire of newspapers he’d be king lol#young royals#saturns young royals thoughts#Sort of
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It frustrates me to no end that everyone I talk to someone new my brain catastrophises to the point where even though I know logically it’s fine, and normal, and fun, I end up making it a bigger deal in my head that I know it is…I think myself into spirals that the logical part of my brain knows are ridiculous and dramatic and improbable, which stress me out more than is entirely necessary…it’s so tiring to exist and participate in the social world sometimes
#personal#night time ramblings#the potentially autistic side of my brain really comes to party when I begin a new social relationship in any capacity#my analytical brain is not compatible with the lawless wasteland of socialising with someone new#gonna just ramble a bit about this situation here where I don’t have to make a lotta sense#I’ve been talking to a guy I’ve known for many year but never been properly friends with#we were in the same friendship circle when we were teenagers#but in different groups#we’ve literally been talking again for maybe 5 days#it’s taken me a few days to be more or less certain that our conversations are more than 2 sort of old friends catching up#like I think we’ve been flirting a little we’re going to go for a drink maybe he jokingly called me babygirl earlier#it’s been nice to be in that talking stage with a guy but without the awkward first few conversations where you’re getting to know the basic#I’ve always thought he was a nice guy our political and moral leaning have always been pretty similar he’s alright looking#that’s the extent of it#but of course my brains going haywire#scripting conversations I need to have if this become serious#wondering how hell react to less fun things about me physically or personality wise#wondering if and when we’ll ever have sex and if hell be any good 😂#trying to work out if hell get on with my family#like the whole 9 fucking yards#and it’s so fucking silly#like it isn’t that deep in the fucking slightest#it has the potential to be#and if it’s not it won’t be that upsetting to me#I’ll be a bit bummed out for a day or 2 and that’s it#I know myself well enough#but in the moment my brain always speed runs times everything could go wrong reasons it could fail reasons things will never succeed for me#and it doesn’t help that almost every romantic partner or potential I’ve ever had has proved this dumb shit right#but at what point does it become a self-fulfilling prophecy?#I sometimes think deep deep down I’m just a hopeless romantic hidden under layers of cynicism and emotional repression😂
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