#but im just so tired i want to sleep forever

[goldenlol]

go be happier choco

[napping-sapphic]

i’m so tired….i want someone to lay next to me so i can cling onto them like a koala

[safety-pin-punk]

yall Im so fucking tired. This month has been exhausting. I promise Im alive, just barely functional atm.

[tamagotchikgs]

my mom wants to go all sorts of places tomorrow but i am still so weak n i have no idea how im going to wash my hair w my arm like this i can barely move it

[thebirdandhersong]

It is some consolation that one day this will not make me bristle

[pink-lemonadefairy]

🌻 ₊˚⊹ ࿔ 🌳

[sorrowsaint]

im going to bed

heres a song i like goodnight

[illogicalghost]

i always feel sick, but not enough to feel like ill be taken seriously. i feel like i have to wait until im at death's door, on my knees in pain to seek help, because living everyday in moderate pain "isnt enough". i cant even describe everything i go through day by day because its just normal to me. i have no idea what a normal person's life is supposed to be like, so i dont know whats not "normal" and should be brought up to a doctor. how do you compare the way you live to someone else's without living as them? its impossible. i feel crazy. i feel like a faker. i feel like im just "lazy" and looking for an excuse not to work. its hard for me to do things like a "normal" person, but not enough for other people to notice, so does it even count? i keep going to the doctor and they keep doing tests and they keep coming back normal, normal, normal, and yet im still living like this. i dont FEEL normal. i never have. i dont know whats wrong with me. i want to scream and shout and beg them to please, do anything, try anything, do you even believe me? are you even listening? im running out of money working my stupid part time job and i can barely even handle that anymore. please tell me whats wrong with me. please tell me it's not just in my head. please believe me . i don't want drugs, i don't want attention, i just want ANSWERS. i want to believe myself, too. im so tired. please just tell me.

[medusa-was-innocent]

Wow this sucks

[1roentgen]

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[the-kipsabian]

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[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

Second day of running off of coffee and spite only

[arc-archernar]

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[jazzyblusnowflake]

and under that night sky in the mountains,

with the stars circling around me with the occasional shooting stars passing by,

while i flew back and forth on our badly made swing on the edge of the cliff,

and staring into the third quarter of the moon that was edging towards completion,

i swore off the religion, the way of life, that was assigned to me, that i never consented to, that constrained me, that gave me nothing but fear and worry and dread, and never let me grow...

it might not be a fancy occasion for anyone, and most might say i damned myself, but nobody needs to know,

its an important milestone for ME.

i can breathe now, and at least the God i know says that if you dont accept any way of life at least live the current one you have to the fullest. because what creator would hate their own child for anything...

i can breathe now, i can HEAL now.

im still scared, ill still cry, ill still question my decisions...

but with the right people helping me, like the moon, i too am striving to become whole again,

and for the first time, im no longer scared if im going to hell, if it means im going to enjoy living again

and for that

for the first time in forever, i smiled for no reason that night

as the wind blew accross my face and combed through my hair as i was swinging back and forth...

i was happy again... ♡

[magicstormfrostfire]

Nothing to me is more miserable than waking up from a dream and the only things I remember from it is the sensation of being deeply loved, and getting ripped away from the sensation by waking up and coming back to reality.

[fiendishartist2]

the world is so strange