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kurtcore · 11 days ago

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the idea that i’m probably moving back in with my parents once this lease is up is actually a little upsetting

#like it is necessary for many reasons #most prominently i need to go and do this postgrad and such so i can #move into the career field i want to be in #but i love my independence #i love living with my flatmate #i’ll have to leave my cat behind #i love decorating my room and buying my kitchen stuff #doing it with someone i love #i’ve been with my flatmate for three years now #im not ready to say goodbye #and move to another country effectively!!#when will i get to see her again #like i have to. i have to keep moving forward #but im going to cry when it’s over #genuinely leaving my best friends behind

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s0fter-sin · 4 months ago

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something people just don’t think about is how often chronically ill and disabled people just don’t have access to good food. not healthy food, good food; well made, tasty meals that don’t come from a jar or a freezer. how many of us are housebound or can’t drive? delivery services only offer within certain distances, if you live outside a city they aren’t an option. many people don’t have the energy or ability to cook for themselves if they have the skill to begin with. many certainly don’t have the ability to learn how. it’s something that goes completely unnoticed, just the opportunity to have a good meal and how much that wears you down

#all i want is chinese food #the closest one to me is 40 minutes away and its a /bad/ chinese place #its my worst option and its not even an option #‘fried rice is easy to make heres a recipe!’#i cant use a stove bc the heat will give me a seizure #even if i keep myself cool something that should take 15 minutes will take upwards of an hour bc i need to take breaks #even then ill probably be too nauseous to eat it after being active for so long #all of that for a bad cooks version of fried rice #more expensive and worse than a takeaway place #but i cant get it from a takeaway place #repeat ad nauseum for the rest of my life and is it any wonder im so sick of the same food ive eaten for 10 years #the only time i get takeaway is when my parents decide to go out and bring something home #can you imagine living like that for the rest of your life?#i dont have to #and its so dumb to want to cry over rice #but its not really about the rice is it #coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt #spoonie #chronic illness #disability #pots #postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome #ehlers danlos syndrome #fibromyalgia #chronic fatigue #chronically ill #mental illness #mental health #save post

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failyaoi · 2 months ago

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I don't remember who I am | you are the universe looking back at itself

#I tried to do my own rendition of the machine girl cover ajfkdawfkawfj #this project means the WORLD to me.#splitter and fanieant and taxidermy girl all came out at the exact moments in my life i was going through the same thing-#/realising stuff about myself and remembering trauma #all the girls mean so much to me and there's each a part of them in me AND AND AND!!!!!!!!!!#nurse parallel's lyrics really did it in for me and I was sitting at my desk liek that one speed gif trying not to cry #okay. im just yapping now #weevildoing #machine girl weevildoing #tptm #the post traumatic manifesto #nurse parallel tptm #xiomara huapaya #harvart #my art #SOMETIMES WHEN YOU THINK IT'S OVER YOU JUST KEEP ON LIVING 🔥🔥🔥🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️

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3-aem · 5 months ago

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dont talk to me the cute apartment i wanted but knew i shouldn’t rent went off the market along with my cottage core fantasies im going to need 162818 gojo figurines to get over this one

#what a slap in the face to lose ur fantasy and also be forced to write tests at work tomorrow #im ngl tho i could feel it in my heart when it went off the market #i was like i sense she is gone #earlier today when i went to go buy coffee and was like i wanna go for a walk but not over there bc thats where the Apartment is #telling myself its okay bc we save the hassle #;-; im going to cry #gonna be waxing poetic about the nature of fantasies for the next few days #girl this pms round wild can she just happen already

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unriding · 2 months ago

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a … a gift from the talented @kruinka 🥹 thank you so much!! ദ്ദി ༎ຶ‿༎ຶ)

#彡 moevie!#彡 cherishing.#kruin …. !! you sent this a few days ago but i am still . reeling in . /pos because i cannot believe i am seeing moze ( and myself ?! ) in #your !!!! style !!! your !! adorable !!! and beautiful !! style !!! and there is a lot i have to say — i am in the chattiest mood despite my #sleepiness !! FIRST omg ): thank you ?! thank you !! THANK YOU !!! for being so kind to me and drawing out a sketch that i will treasure for #eternity really 😭 !! i will gaze at this whenever i wake up … gaze at it before i sleep …. gaze at it when im sad … when im happy ( to #amplify the happiness of course !! ) OOOOH KRUIN. kruin . words can absolutely NOT describe how much i love your style … i just cannot ?!#figure out how to put it in words ?? i can’t just say ‘i like how you do this’ ‘and this’ because it’s the literal entire thing that i love #aiwnendjdkke and ): before i get too deep into that — i must thank you another time kruin !! because i know you’ve been busy — and of #course you must be ?! im sure life becomes much more hectic during the holidays and new years like this — so i’m just so soft over the fact #that you spent time to do this for me and i :’) i really appreciate it from the bottom of my heart — i would like to say ‘you really didn’t #have to!!’ BECAUSE YOU DIDNT !!! YIU DIDNT NEED TO DO ANYTHING FOR ME — YOU DIDNT ): IM JUST SO SAPPY AND MUSHY THAT YOU CHOSE TO AND ):#and the background being pink . i love pink !!! i know exactly where this specific shade of pink will prosper ( give me a second .. when i #awake ) .. BUT OH )): thank you so much kruin … it means so much to me .. more than i could ever try to explain !!! BUT IS IT OKAY IF I TALK #ABOUT HOW YOU DREW MOZE BECAUSE . i’m dead on the floor -> x0x this is me because you made his cheeks SO squishy HIS SIGNATURE SQUISHABLE #LOOK . I WONDER HOW ARTISTS MAKE HIM LOOK SO SQUISHY ?? the squish technique ?? BECAUSE HE LOOKS SO CUTE SHJEJD ): KRUIN YOURE SUCH AN AWESO #ME ARTIST . SO TO BE ABLE TO SEE HIM IN YOUR STYLE ….. *thanks everyone for allowing me to have eyes* a wonderful day !! to have eyes !!! i #will actually risk disintegrating into evieparticles if i even so much as mention the blush on his cheeks so — instead . YOU GAVE HIM SUCH A #oh no . the look on his face T T kruin i don’t want to talk about it !!!!! but you — the look on his face !!!! must you draw him in such a #cute manner /pos i am starting to feel speechless trying to talk about how pretty he is in your style because . perhaps toopretty for me #to even make any type of comment ( instead — i sneak a glance and then turn away because if i stare too long …. IF I STARE TOO LONG .. *expl #explodes* ) kruin i think i will just cry seeing the level of detail you put into this ): like my hair ): i think i will just kneel in front #of you and cry and apologize over and over as i wipe my tears on my sleeve because my tears make it difficult to properly thank you /lh #the fact that there are sparkles T T the world is full of sparkles when mr shadow exists !!! a lovely . YOU KNOW WHAT . the sparkles are #there because KRUIN EXISTS . I LOVE YOU KRUIN. I LOVE YOU SOO MUCH ))): I DONT RVEN KNOW HOW TO DTART EXPRESSING MY GRATUTUDE #tldr - i am gobsmacked & staring at this for the next ( infinite amount of time ) thank you kruin !!! ): wishing you only the best .#aggressively wishing you only the best * aggressively turning to go O_O at anything that dares threaten a lovely day for you!!!!

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lemongogo · 1 month ago

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viktor prev 🤖

#i forgot 2 flip the canvas back but his mole is on the correct side i prommy .. first time ive ever kept it accurate lol #im chipping away at ths sooo slowly …#unimaginable number of drafts and im just opting 4 the most simplistic one instead #umm fav viktor moments . his im from the undercity remark & slapping jayces hand away. lets gooooooooo #or that scene of him mel and jayce at the table where hes fiddling w jinxs bomb i like tht whole exchange #when he transforms into the machine herald #when he transforms in2 the machine herald (2)#ans when he transforms into the machine herald😁 THE FACE SPLIT IS JUST SOOO FRWAKING COOL #wht else . guys can i be honest can i be brave and honest w u all. hated the sky plot . hated #the scene of him crying over her i was like scratching my neck n pulling at my collar like u guys seein this … 🧍#the story never developed sky enough to make her death impactful #she only exists in the context of viktor and how she can further his story or personify his emotions ykwim . boringg #i think the timeline is such a big issue 4 arcane writing in general bc #they try to pass off their quasifriendship as something genuine bc theyre partners or have known each other for years #supposedly but they dont show it let alone say it . like i cant tell u the amt of times i saw something after watching that was like #oh this timeskip was a year or seven years or idk and aside from the obvious timeskip we see w charas aging up in s1 #or the montage once cait takes power its just not . discussed . rmbr after the arcane anomaly ambessa was like theyve been missing for 6 #months or something and if you didnt hear that one throwaway comment u would just be like wht is going on #all that to say they want you to believe they have a strong foundation 2 make her death and later reunion meaningful but they dont give you #anything to actually Feel it #so . MY TWO CENTS !!!!!!!!!!!ok #sorry im blowing up the tags in ths random post that never asked for this 💔#lg doodles #arcane #viktor #well ok bc im going on and on i will say . i thought singed was pretty interesting in the show but never rly cared for him #until i played him in aram n im like oh so ths guy is awesome actually #HAHHAAH #dude and b4 they got rid of the hectech chests i pulled his arcane skin . bsooo much fun #i also played jinx for the first time and now i understand why ppl like her gameplay so much . soo smooth w it like she feels soo polished

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ra-vio · 2 months ago

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this blog is 11 years old now 🎉

I drew the siblings ever to celebrate as usual

#loz #wind waker #legend of zelda #toon link #aryll #I wasn't gonna draw anything but then I sketched link real quick and I was like okay wait i can do this #and then my brother dragged me outside ☠ but i still got it done today!#the anniversary is today. tumblr sent me a notification like ravio is 11 years old now! ravio the character is actually 11 years old.#albw released in2013. i received two reminders this morning. ravio drawing soon maybe. coming this year definitely. maybe #arylls like big brother use a damn fork #<- that was the tag when I first started drawing them in 2018 #also i noticed when I draw aryll i always draw her in her blue dress so i decided to change it up. i only play 2nd playthroughs of wind wak #r because fun fact: i hate link's green tunic and hat. i finished a first playthrough years ago with a finished nintendo gallery #and then when i want to start a new playthrough i fight ganondorf again go through the credits cry and then BAM new game no-plus #i miss link's green tunic now though. its been so long. im so sick of champions garb...............idk the green is iconic idk #im not a huge fan of it but i think his base form should be green again. with the hat. let him look doofy as a default again #he was green in echoes of wisdom but i need them to follow through after again.#i didnt finish echoes of wisdom yet (SOON IM TRYING IM STUCK I NTHE SONIC ADVENTURE 1 WEB HELP) but what I saw of Link there?#he was kinda terrifying lmao its always funny to see that link is so extremely competent because i am not. that boy efficient #im stuck in the sa1 web because everyone is always talking about how good it is. so i played the pc port and. its apparently awful idk it i #thats just what sa1 outside of emerald coast plays to me tbh. but the dreamcast is supposed to be better. and i own a dreamcast. free me #i played on gamecube too. 12 years ago. it made me sick. maybe one day i'll install some mods that make it play better #why does it feel like the month is over when its only january 6 #i played sa1 as a kid btw. just emerald coast tho. ALSO I DIDNT BUY A DREAMCAST FOR THIS I ALREADY OWNED ONE

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angelpuns · 4 months ago

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Just another day wishing I didn't live with my parents but having to because I can barely take care of myself

#haha i had a meltdown #over smthn silly to them #which did result in me crying a lot #embarrassing when its something silly but more embarrassing when its about something serious to me #anyway #long story short masking is not going well for me and i was inevitably gonna blow up #i cant even really cry it out in my room cause i dont have a lock on my door #so #haha #sorry for random vent #ig its not reallt a vent when its this vague #i feel silly esp cause my coworker was like ' you should just be grateful you hava roof over your head and food and a bed'#and i do get it #but bestie this is not living #i think living would at least mean having a somewhat decent time #but im just kinda surviving #its basically just like hs except now that im an adult theyre 'allowing' me to live here and i owe them for it #idk thats too much to get into when i said it wasnt a vent post

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fishandshesmygills · 2 months ago

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i fucking hate winter i want to [remembers threatening suicide just harms my loved ones] take down a deer with my bare hands and rip its throat out with my teeth

#when the cycle goes angry-depressed-angry-depressed and theyre two sides of the same coin #the deer is me and i would cry over its dead body the second the anger left me #i wanted to go to bed EARLY tonight #god it's so fucking over #i wish there was therapy where you could say you wanted to kill yourself without being admitted/prevented from going to study abroad #im just so ANGRY for no reason and then im so fucking sad.#and i cant actually talk to friends about it because idk i just cant #boohoo it;s cold out so now im considering killing myself after we graduate but i realize i could never do that to my family #so now im just kinda sitting here miserable with no way out

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ratatatastic · 7 months ago

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SASHA LUNDY CLUTCHING ONTO EACH OTHER FOR DEAR LIFE HELLO

THE INHERENT ROMANTICISM THAT IS IN BURYING YOUR FACE INTO EACH OTHER AND CRADLING ONE ANOTHER'S HEADS

CAN YOU HEAR MY WAILS?????? CAN YOU HEAR THEM AT HOW LUNDY IS SQUEEZING SASHAS WAIST??? HELLO?????

#anton lundell #aleksander barkov #florida panthers #2324 #playoffs 24 #im never getting over benny holding sasha face in his hands while lundy waits his turn #and lundy gets a good craddle and squeeze in too before ekky comes barreling in for his personal love sasha session #a team that loves each other a lot #also peep mikksy and luosty in the back #anyways whatever sasha and lundy have got going on is sooooooooooooo #its sooooooooooooo #“yeah i attended a cats game in finland and i saw kuli playing and later got drafted by the same team and we became teammates (sasha)”#and “yeah i attended a cats game in finland and i saw sasha play and later got drafted by the same team and we became teammates (lundy)”#but also add “when i first came over he housed me as well and acted like my tour guide”#and also “and now our 2 way playstyles get compared so much because we are countrymen despite how difference our focuses are in said style”#“and despite how much it should annoy me how conflated we are together im actually honoured by the comparison”#and also “i like being mean (in a loving way) to this kid because his head is too big but i will praise him when he deserves it”#“but also because of that his ego will never not be inflated”#these two are so special #idk i think theres something romantic in watching your future teammate from the stands and winning a cup with them #(the cats are filled with that narrative)#MOM HELP IM CRYING ABOUT THESE TWO AGAINNNNM

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divine-draws · 5 months ago

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WIP animatic :3c character: Stanford Pines (Gravity Falls) song: icarus - Bastille

#stanford pines #ford pines #gravity falls #the book of bill #stan twins #pines twins #stanley pines #stan pines #animatic #divine draws #when i get you ford; ford when i get you #spent last night writing shit down for this and crying about ford #video #fanart #icarus bastille #amy im going CRAZY over your ford playlist

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black-and-yellow · 9 months ago

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bandsandwristbands · 17 days ago

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Vent

#im crying I feel like a fucking idiot about having a crippling panic attack while I wait for a goddamn phone call #Idk idk idk I hate that I can't even wait for a phone call like an adult because idk when to expect it #and I can't drive #so depending on when they want me to come in I'm going to have to bike and I'll be disgusting and sweaty #and I have to just agree to whatever schedule they give me because if I don't just comply easily I won't get the fucking job I hate it #this is the shit that makes me want to die I'm not built for the simplest fucking things #what kind of 25yo has a meltdown over an easy job ap I want to scream

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monkee-mobile · 2 months ago

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ough god, I cried over this

#the monkees #mike nesmith #michael nesmith #davy jones #micky dolenz #keep stickin around kid we all love you #micky will be such a hard one for me guys. paul mccartney will break my mom im sure but ill be in such hardcore denial over micky i know it #and like micky and mike make me emotional but micky and davy do too… and he had to include pictures of them in the 70s… before their #‘breakup’ when i tell you i thought about it a bit too long and then started to cry…#the monkees make me way too emotional but good god #cause it’s that one picture that’s like i think in the late 70s !! and they’re buddies !! and then… ough poor micky #and he has all these memories #(or maybe not cause they did tell him he had a good time lol)#and i cannot look at anything related to mike and micky in 2021. i will get very distraught. michael is too much for my brain to handle #i need to go to bed now lest i get to sleep too late again but i’ve been thinking about this post literally all day #like thinking of both mike and davy on the same day… if micky isn’t involved in the relationship i don’t care it seems so this post broke me #okay okay goodnight i’ll shut up ill shut up i cant even think too hard about it im just blabbing in the tags so so sorry #also that first picture is gorgeous #like they’re all so pretty but davy is serving hard and i don’t say that lightly cause im not usually someone who usually favors davy #over micky and mike #but that’s such a beautiful picture of the three of them and i will shut up now goodnight

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alienfailboy · 3 months ago

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season 8 makes me SICK

#fym i need you?!? GREGORY I AM CRYING #tears in my hilson eyes #fuck im so done with james wilson and gregory house being my evil gay dads #i have five months to live and your making me go thru it ALONE. help.#i need you to tell me that you love me #no. im not gonna tell you that unlesss you fight #greg you sick fuck #you guys went on a date and you need him and your not married i am on the floor crying over them #what the fuck do you mean house flooded a bathroom cause he couldn't properly deal with his grief #i just will not be okay becuase what are you talking about YOU FAKED YOIR DEATH FOR HIM I CANT #when wilson said that he always lets things go and he never minds and he's tired of it i FELT THAT spiritually #james wilson #gregory house #house md #hilson #this bitch literally goes crazy and tries to kill a patient becuase he's grieving his husband #I AM SICK #they are so married i hate them #i cannot stand them #I NEED TO EAT JAMES WILSON #THES AUTISM CREATURES WILL MOT GIVE ME PEACE #i cannot be responsible for the happiness of gregory house #you are responsible #I HATE IT

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pinkmoondoll9shihtzu · 4 months ago

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bros do NOT watch the latest episod e of dandadan if you saw your dead parent in a dream last night and felt kinda somber about it all day and are also moments away from getting your period you will HAVE to do somatic exercises to recover from it

#And i never cry at shows either cus im too coldhearted and obsessed w my composure but i fucking cryedddd #i crew #Also got pretty choked up at work earlier when Bridge Over Troubled Water came on the radio cus my dad loved simon and garfield and that was #always one of my go-to songs to feel close to him #it was strange timing too cus every day ive worked so far they jhst play xmas music but today it just came on while i was alone in an aisle #and i was like Oh.... if i was at the cash register right now i wouldnt of been able to even hear it but im right here..#Now im kinda craving to listen to it again and cry more LOL

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