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copykangaroo · 10 months ago

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I saw the tv glow is crazy bc it’s a movie that genuinely makes you watch how your life could fall apart. Makes you watch how heavily repression can affect your life and how dangerous and sad it can be. But at the same time it’s like “hey, if you’re still alive there is still time, so keep going.”

I’ve genuinely never watched a movie that has given me so much sadness, but let’s me find a sense of hope, no matter how bittersweet, within that devastation.

#i saw the tv glow #a24 films #a24 #a24 movies #transfem #movies #this one changed me #i could say a lot abt this movie #but ill let it sit with me for a bit

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fruityindividual · 2 months ago

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hiiii there! i'm curious if u have a fave fancast for remus :)

sure! narrowed it down to two <33

#he's shaking in my hand rn im abt to place him v gently into his shoebox n feed bits of bread cheese n also a tiny vitamin #whilst im at work ill let him roam free n knock things off my table n scare himself w his shadow n then perhaps he will nap in the sun by #my window and curl up inside a v soft sock n he'll yawn v quietly n he'll b soso happy cos wow look at how nice this is n when i come home #he'll be soso glad to see me cos after i make dinner n do the chores n check off my to-do list i'll sit w him n plot his divorce.#he'll shake his head like 'urm u r crazy for that i'm so small n the world is so big n u want me to suffer.' n i'll pat his head n #assure him that it won't be him who's gettin divorced just a version of him. n he'll sigh cos phewww he doesnt acc know wht divorce is #and I havent taught him how to google yet as he has a v busy schedule n i'd hate to bother him.#anyway. yeah sry i don't rly vibe w fancasts lol x #i <3 you prison wife #ask

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bacchuschucklefuck · 8 months ago

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Ooh what's barbarian Figs subclass

m flipfloppin between giant and totem (def reskinned) for her rn! giant would be Really funny for junior year and there's some thematic stuff for the transformation element I think would be interesting, but just purely on a character basis I think fig would love totem esp. as a barbie girl in freshman year. if I land on totem I kinda imagine it like a wuxia animal style thing tbh, mostly just because the idea of someone coming into a fight expecting typical movie shaolin choreography and getting Teenager That Mauls You To Death is entertaining to me

#not art #fh class quangle #the main appeal of the path of giants for fig is that it puts her So Tantalizingly Close to porter's grasp #but fundamentally he will never be able to convince her bc she just does not respect him lmao #barbarian!fig's junior year is about building new. thinking about the after of destruction. rebuilding her own self perception after #letting go of the thing that's motivated her through the last two years #(which is the ownership of things that the world refuses her due to who she is. like a certain kind of femininity or companionship #some of which grow to become limiting and ill-fitting for her but she's gone through a Lot of destruction to keep them so #she's unwilling to let go of them. that's sophomore year babeyy)#barbarian!fig almost zealously upholds self-determination AND she's hyperaware of her friends' business #coupled with cleric!gorgug being a high control group victim and being So sus of the shit porter's on. ohhh fig would Hate him #meanwhile the path of the totem warriors I mostly just hesitate on bc the language is. bad. lol #like barbarian as a class is already fraught with modern fantasy ahistorical bullshit. totem warrior is especially egregious #and idk if I can be bothered to like reskin it for this one thing and every time I mention it add on a tag that explains my reskin #like at a certain point it feels like stepping out of the ''playing with specifically a d20 property like dolls'' box and entering the #''doing labour for wotc for free'' box. and at that point it stops being fun for me #well. I simply must sit on it for a bit. we'll see how it turns out!

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dirtytransmasc · 1 year ago

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I have a question for other fibro, chronic pain/fatigue, disabled people, cause I need some help.

I have issues showering, like most of us do, due to pain and fatigue and weakness etc. that makes standing up for long periods and the physical labor of washing myself difficult, and have spent quite a while just making it work.

I tend to just sit on the floor, but because of the tightness in my legs that makes it so I have to kneel or hunch over to avoid pain/stress on my joints (which causes circulation issues in my legs if I kneel or back pain if I hunch), the difficulty I have getting up and down, and the amount of times I've almost passed out from the effort, sitting on the floor is becoming less of a solution and more of a hindrance.

my real problem is that I can't stand shower stools. I have never found one that lets me feel mobile in the shower, I always feel stuck and boxed in because they limit the range of motion I still have.

I have issues turning around to wash my hair out. I have to pick between being in the water or being just out of it which makes washing my hair and body difficult. I can't easily make any major position changes without more effort than I would need by just sitting on the floor. I have a very hard time holding the shower head so I have to leave it up in the holder which leaves the water and me in very fixed positions.

overall, shower stools do not work for me, and I was wondering if anyone had found other solutions to the showering issue, cause I want to rip my hair out.

#the slickness of the bathtub floor has always been my bestie (when I'm sitting down of course)#it made switching from wetting my body and keeping my hair dry to wetting my hair and keeping my body dry so easy cause all I had to do was #spin a bit and all would be well.#the stool doesn't let me do that which means I have to twist my back (which hurts) or stand up. step over the stool. and sit back down-#(fainting/slip risk) back and forth till I'm done washing which is exhausting as all hell #I hate being planted in one place. it drives me nuts #and most stools have a lot of traction so the stool doesn't slip. which in most situations is nice. but then I can't even slide back and-#forth to avoid turning around.#some stools I've tried that on have landed me flat on my ass cause I just tipped it or fell off of #at the end of the day I end up ditching it to either stand (torture myself) or sit on the floor (torture myself in a slightly different way #someone help before I accidentally find a way to die in my own bath tub #fibromyalgia #fibro problems #chronic pain #chronic fatigue #chronic illness #disability #spoonie

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s0lar-ch3ri · 6 months ago

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are we ready for this one chat. taken from the secret sideblog for ur pleasure

#jerwee supreme #hm. no character tagging for this one ill let it sit with me for a bit /silly

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indecisive-dizzy · 6 months ago

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I think platforms should have a "this made me viscerally uncomfortable in ways I can't describe" option for why you no longer want to see an ad.

I also think tumbr dot come should let me say "Hey! I Really don't want to see the weed ad! Thank you!" and then remove it. gimme the long ass LGBT one again I beg of you

#i have nothing against the green!#go do your thing! have your whimsy!#but by God the image used in that ad makes me ill #its just normal green. like im pretty sure that's what it looks like #but EW #what in the deformed chewed and spit up broccoli #sorry for being a hater 😔#but im Uncomfy✨#the first bit applies to yt ads mostly #and a Very Specific sonic (fast food) one. its long and i wanted to throw myself #out of bed. onto the floor and let my cat sit on me #typing out loud #Dizzy Being A Hater Edition #ik calling it green is very lame of me #tbf i dont know what exactly what the terms are?#And i fear saying it too many times will keep the ad around longer..#btw i have other Reasons for being uncomfy other than the look of it #but im not telling

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seiwas · 1 year ago

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when all the ideas come to you faster than you can type but you have to get it down so the doc now looks like chunks of red paragraphs barely cohesive and without punctuation but the Thoughts are there and that’s what matters 🥲

#finished 3/6 !!!! officially !!! unedited hehe #the first 2 scenes are super polished alr #i think ill just continue writing tho then do chunks of editing when im done #bc i feel like going back and forth writing new scenes and editing previous ones kinda slows my progress #started on the 4th scene too and got an influx of ideas ksndkd like the flow of everything but it all happened so fast #and i am now squeezed and too tired to finish it #i feel like …….. col 4 will come out next week and thats final JALXMKANZNS #i can finish it this week but i kind of want it to sit with me for a bit so i can let it simmer and take my time editing #because im really enjoying writing it actually 🥺#i get so deep into it every time im writing 🥹#my only fear now is that it’s boring 😭😭😭😭 or that … i had all these themes in mind but they dont come across 😭#it is the longest piece of fiction i have written thats for sure #jakxnwkcnks #i talked so much again #shotorus.process

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batfossil-fr · 2 years ago

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man I love writing lore I wish I had the energy to do more than one lore every 6 months

#writing something kinda cute this time. (shocker)#only a little bit of horror. just a little bit #but it’s been half finished in my notes for 100 years maybe ill do it sometime #i wanna write!!! i wanna draw!!! WAKE UP SHITBRAIN!!!#i wish i was able to be sooooo much more productive than I am. but alas. Mentally Illness #rambles #sitting here on my balcony sighing wistfully at all the artists frolicking in the fields out in front of me #one day I’ll join u… one day #the bad news about getting treated for Mentally Illness that already makes you very tired #is that treatments often make you very tired #and that in my case my latest treatment is literally a horse tranquilizer #(ok some more nuance but it’s funnier this way)#so I am VERY tired all the time #i would like to wake up now please. done being sleepy forever I’ve had enough of it #let me have fun agaaaaiiiinnnnnn

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lunar-fey · 1 year ago

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oh yeah so uh we went to the city today bc i got some clothing vouchers for work clothes from the dept of rehabilitation services and. one of the stores i needed to go to (she couldnt find any stores on the list that sold all the items i need so it had to be broken up) was closed (we were originally gonna go on saturday but dad was sick) and the other store like. got really confused the lady at the desk called over her manager and then he called his manager and she was like "ive never seen this before but it doesnt have the code we need so we cant take it" except idk but i think she didnt understand how it works bc she was saying they need like a government credit card number essentially to charge the clothes onto but my case worker told me (i thought) that the store had to fill out the paper and send it to the office to then recieve payment rather than them getting the payment immediately? anyway im confused and pissed bc i wanted to go on saturday so i could have sunday to recover from the pain of spending several hours in the car but since dad was sick we didnt. and i didnt even get to get the clothes anyway. mom and dad ended up buying me like that one pair of jeans and two shirts from a resell store or whatever its called and the pants barely fit but they didnt have any in my size. what even ever tomorrow is not going to be good but at least once its over with i will know if like . im gonna be ABLE to even do this job. i think i should have enough ability to sit while doing tasks or even maybe take breaks for it to not flare up my pain too much but i literally cannot know until i do it. which is severely fucked up. and the fact that im already going to be in pain from what ended up being a virtually useless car trip and really didnt need to put myself through that, AND on top of that im gonna have to go BACK out to the city this weekend. meaning i will have no full days of leisure for two weeks which means unceasing pain :(

#i really really shouldnt have let the manager fast talk me into taking that one hour shift on sundays #its for one of the two clients i see mon-fri and apparently shes a bit of a problem client lmao.#so my thinking is like ill go in and see what happens and if we have Problems ill pull the starry eyed newbie card #and be like “please im only new and i cant handle this 🥺”#and then Make Sure she gives me the number of hours i requested and not more (i asked for 20-25 #w no more than 5 hour days #and she put me in for 5.5 hour days + 1 hour on sun for a total of 28 hours #she asked if it was fine but my brain wasnt doing the math right i didnt understand what she was saying 😔#but its like 3 hours to make one or two meals do dishes and help her bathe? so i THINK there should be time to sit and recover

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this-is-a-dystopian-parable · 2 years ago

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"somehow, in spite of all of my feelings of isolation and detachment form the world, my sarcastic spearation and absurdist observing, i am a part of it, im there, and its letting me. the world is letting me pass. im doing just fine. i can stop into the gas staion and fill up the tank and pay with a card and not get arrested, not get flooded with lights and snipers, not be jumped by men of tired jokes and boring clothes and poor musical taste, throwing a sack over myhead and asking mke who i think i am. i cant talk to most people, i cant agree, but somehow ive slipped through the netting and am here, alone, unaccompianed, unstopped. how can i be in lisbon? what the fuck am i doing in lisbon? how can the world of men have let me here? im not that kind of man...i look up at planes overhead and start laughing out loud, start laughing like a maniac as loud as i can and still am left alone. there are old buildings and cars, yes, but there is still ocean and grass and sky, im still there and conneceted through those pieces of nature. and i can laugh at the things i see and wonder at the words people tell me and feel so alone, but im free to do so, i am free to act and think this way. i am getting away with it."

#i feel like i've posted bits of this one before but i don't feel like checking #this is one of those dave malloy pieces that has altered my brain chemistry #ill be on the bus on my way to work #or sitting in the theater on my lunch break #or walking down the street in a new part of town #and just think #how can the world of men have let me here...#im not that kind of man...#alone unaccompanied unstopped #i'm getting away with it #dave malloy #pointless dave malloy

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bugflies00 · 1 year ago

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you know i understand people have different coping mechanisms but i really wish some of those were not public

#^this is about. fuckin . mcyt edtwt #<- warning for talk of that in tags take care of yourself<3 #i have this really bad habit of going down rabbitholes of edtwt accounts #cause someone will qrt one and then i cant help but click and click etc #and the thing with mcyt ones is like . i cant have my main interest ruined like that #like one of the best things in my life #cause its already happening a bit ill see a recent picture of wilbur and think 'i want to look like that'#but not in the way ive meant it for years (just regular gender envy) more like .Yknow . Yeah #anyway sorry i try not to talk too much about body image shit on here but . Todays bad #it feels so stupid too seeing all these accs talk about the drastic stuff they do & im just sitting here having had a regular dinner like #it feels stupid to even talk about it as an issue idk #like yeah last year sure i was trying my best to not eat lunch on most school days but thats not even the case now so like . Idk #<- Definitely out of choice and not cause my friend won't let me skip Yep yep yep #alex.rambles.txt

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orcelito · 5 months ago

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Anyways,