#but i wish to walk forward

[nefskullcritique]

gonna clean up some posts from this blog and then close the ask box in like,,, a week. i don't see a point to keeping it open anymore and while i think i should delete or like... private this blog, there's a lot of archived information on here.

either way, with time i've decided that blogs/documentation/accounts dedicated to people shouldn't really... be a thing, and i'm frustrated with my past self for putting a foot in the door of being added to this blog.

i hope the victims of this person can move on and heal from their abuse. i hope volt learns to improve as a person and stop hurting others. i hope nobody tries to follow in my footsteps.

thank you to the people who've stuck with this blog for so long but officially i'm killing it here and moving on.

[kangals]

day 3! we’ve had a lot of fun up here but I’m kind of relieved to be heading back home tomorrow, we’re both pretty tired after all of the hiking. hopefully we can come back one day!

[thoughtspresso]

But what if Kana will save Kamiki? (I’m only half joking)

Wouldn’t it just be extremely funny if after the wrap party for The 15-Year Lie, Miki-san just encounters Kana-chan “drinking” (juice) with the intention of killing her at first.

And then Miki-san offers her liquor, and she says, “sorry I may be an adult but I’m still not legal to drink. This is actually just juice.”

And then he tries to seduce her, and she goes, “You look exactly like the boy I like but you’re not him, and I can’t.”

And then she starts to mock-drunkenly uglycry about being abused as a child actress, having to exit the scene when pedophiles started counting down her birthday to 18 and she couldn’t handle images of her body being peddled on social media like that, and how because of her sense of responsibility towards her career, her team, and her fans, she couldn’t realistically be with the only boy she’s ever truly loved. And she keeps talking about how she doesn’t feel she deserves the love of her fans because she’s not as innocent as they think she is and she just wants to do her best in her work.

And then Miki-san just starts crying, like he’s never seen that kind of honesty before, and nobody’s ever understood the way he was also abused as a child actor, or the way his body was used by adults in the industry, or the way his honest and simple love was never reciprocated by the woman he had feelings for and sired children with.

And then Kindaichi just comes into the scene drunk and barking and pulling him by the collar and calling for the guards, and Kana’s like, “Wait, what’s going on!” And Miki-san just goes like, “No, just let it happen, I think I deserve it.”

And then Aqua just rushes in and hugs Kana and is sobbing thinking she could have died. And Kana-chan just going like wtf are you people talking about WE WERE JUST TRAUMABONDING.

LIKE WHAT IF. WHAT IF THE GUY JUST NEEDED ARKHAM ASYLUM.

[peaches2217]

While I was gone, I finally found a gym I feel comfortable in! My dysphoria was at its lowest when I was working out, which I did from home, but I had to stop while waiting for my tattoo to heal and just couldn’t get back into the habit. I thrive in an actual gym setting, whereas being home tempts me to take it easy. But when you’re a trans enby in a small town in rural Oklahoma, your options are… kinda limited.

Last month I signed up for the local family-owned gym that everyone swears by. Lesson learned: an establishment being “family-owned” in the Bible Belt means you will not be welcomed as a person with tits and facial hair. That discouraged me for a while, but yesterday I decided to try the small franchise gym a short distance from my house (it’s an Anytime Fitness). And… my expectations were blown out of the water.

Since most people in town go to the other gym, it’s usually not too full. Everything is clean and bright and the atmosphere is very welcoming. And the best part: during my consult with the trainer, I told him outright why being in gyms makes me nervous. This buff redneck proceeds to ask for my pronouns, assure me that all are welcome, and tells me that he’s former Army and the owner is former Marine and they’ll take care of anyone who gives me trouble. He shook my hand as I left and said “We look forward to havin’ ya, man!”

I’m going in for my first workout today after work. I still don’t know how I’m gonna manage changing rooms and stuff like that, but I can at least get started and not have to worry about being kicked out, and for now that’s good enough for me!

(The family gym I signed up for decided to go ahead and charge me for next month on top of the cancellation fee, which I’m half-tempted to say is transphobia but is really most likely a clever and scummy addition to the contract I signed that I managed to overlook. So I’m down $75 thanks to them, which makes me extra glad I’m never going back. 😭)

[kuromi-hoemie]

hhhh talking about my writing was fun but 30 tags is not enough.. yes i have 3 major influences but i have minor ones too.. it is a lovechild of my favorite things.. writing is so fun and i have no self control or a concept of pacing myself i will sit there for 16 hours and get hit with every status effect but by god does it all just flow out of me. I've always been a music person yes but i also used to write a lot into early adulthood until The Incident™

but i am ready 2 jump back into it. i think comics are a great middle ground between the two mediums so i don't get As into writing bc i kind of started going crazy last time 🫡 i can take a more structured approach to it that forces me to pace myself and think about it differently. i love art.... i love making things i love knowing how to do things i love knowing how to play things i love having so many creative outlets, even if i don't do a lot of them regularly lol. it is enriching 😳 and nice to know that it's always there to come back to when u want.

[horsemage]

I think we should bring back basic etiquette lessons such as shutting the fuck up when you’re watching a movie in a group that is not exclusively your friend group 🙂

[funsizedcrow]

funniest thing that ever happened when we were playing botw was my sister was playing and she had made it up to the top of the tower in hyrule field (the one surrounded by guardians) and was looking down at the guardians through a slot in the like railing and i was like "you should shoot the guardian" because i thought they were out of range and so she shot the guardian in the eye with an arrow and it came alive and immediately hit link with a laser and link instantly died ragdolled and fell through the slot and miphas grace activated and my sister immediately teleported away while mipha was still doing her thing. and i was just laughing so hard.

[lanternlightss]

missing venti hours

[kenjakusbraincum]

rant unrelated to fics in the tags ✨✨

[lokh]

im gonna be real i dont know how people are finding baikens tits in strive hot

[cahootings]

Really fucking hard to not feel completely defeated by a double ankle injury lads

[desperatepleasures]

y'all i only have 5 episodes left of s2.....

[slightlytoastedbagel]

I could write a whole analysis on fes Kohane just watch me.

[pepprs]

hi mutuals not to doxx myself but im in boston literally rn :D 🤯🤯🤯

[aenhanse]

people weren't lying those crossroads of twilight can really slog

[batslime]

me trying to not go insane again like i did immediately after my ritual trying to navigate out of chicago at 1 am retching and moaning and tears running down my face while semis are driving 30 miles over the speed limit on each side of me