#but i was like. remembering age. yaknow

[azzimations]

love forgetting all of my childhood bc what do you mean we used to live in mississippi. what. i thought i had never even been out of state what do u mean i LIVED there

[nachosncheezies]

In defense of late-canon x files (including the revivals)

I was thinking about this poll after I commented on it, and I kinda want to be brave and say more.

Short answer to the poll's question before I go any further: If you're a new fan and a sensitive sort who thinks you'll struggle with your blorbos Really Going Through It and you really need a happy ending, I suggest you stop at the end of season 8. Do not pass go, do not look at spoilers. Disregard this post entirely, close the internet, and go look at something that makes you happy. (Also fuck every part of society that characterizes sensitivity as inherently weak and bad and some kind of personal failing, you are valid.)

That said, "quality" as a concept is entirely subjective, and the question of whether or not there's a decline in quality for any story is wholly subjective, too. In the case of x files? I'm not convinced there is a decline. I am going to be upfront that I haven't yet watched past season 8, though I am almost completely spoiled on events after that - and the reason I haven't watched yet is not because of how I know events are going to unfold, but simply because I don't want it to end!!! Ohh, the tension between "I CAN'T WAIT!!!" and "Nooo don't be over D:"

When I first came to txf fandom on tumblr and gradually became spoiled about what happens in late canon though, I was often left uncomfortable and tbh kinda queasy about it. As I said in my comment on the poll, the hate for especially the revival and IWTB, or to a lesser extent even seasons 8 & 9, is very well documented. But! There are other takes to be found here on tumblr if you figure out where to look, and my feelings have changed!

The thing is, I have yet to find myself in any fandom where there isn't a vocal subset of fans who dislike the story after a certain point. I am not joking when I say that no one hates the things they love as passionately as sci-fi and fantasy fans. In my experience, it often hinges on the extent to which a viewer has strong notions on where they would like the characters to end up. In particular with series where shipping is a dominant component for the bulk of a fandom, I have almost universally found that there comes some turning point in the story where "let them be happy you cowards" is the dominant view, and things that compromise the attainment of a degree of romantic stability and/or domesticity are, to many fans, annoying at best and despicable at worst. But! As one tagset on the linked poll said:

and I think for any fandom, that last tag especially is so so so important. (I think that's harder for people watching a weekly series live, bc you have so much time to analyze and speculate and dream before the next breadcrumb drops, but I digress.)

So why am I saying this and how do I apply it to x files? Well, I eventually found that there are also a subset of fans who find redeeming things right up to the very end and actually quite like the whole thing! The things that I had seen people rage and ventpost so much about honestly never quite sounded to me as "out of character" or "untrue to the story" etc as those same ventposts made them sound. And I've discovered I'm not the only one who felt that way. Do I love that the spooky squad had to go through all of those things? No, those poor guys D: Life is hard and they have been through so much trauma. But do those events and their choices make sense to me in light of everything that came before? Yes! And I honestly can't wait to see them fight to overcome those things, breaking, healing, always learning, always growing, always getting better.

So if you're wondering "where does it go wrong"... well, I'm a completionist, as many people who've answered that post are, but also my personal opinion is that I don't think it does go wrong. If you're new and interested in exploring why I've gone from "vaguely queasy" to "excited" about the whole thing, or want to maybe balance out the impressions you're getting about the later seasons before deciding whether or not you want to see the whole thing, I'll put a few blog names in the comments.

Final admission: even once I started feeling a little more confident in the possibility that "actually ok maybe I'm not crazy, maybe this all kind of is in character and does make sense", there was one big plot point that I was NOT looking forward to and I thought I would never be comfortable about. In hindsight, I think my discomfort came from the negative responses being SO seemingly universal that I hadn't stopped to let myself truly consider other possible interpretations on that point. (I mean my initial instinct when I first read about it was, why are we mad about this?? CSM is literally the most unreliable narrator in history???? it's obviously fake news?????? this must be either a fever dream someone's having or it's a misdirection ploy against whatever shadowy forces might still be lurking?????????????? but for whatever reason I guess I had halfway written that off.) Happily, just last month there's a new post-s11 novel out, and although reviews for the book as a whole are mixed, it seems to have laid the groundwork for resolving that plot issue in a way I think most fans would be broadly happy with. If you're interested in being spoiled about that and seeing how, I recommend searching #perihelion on @agent-troi who liveblogged reading it with receipts, scroll back chronological-style to the first post on the subject and see how it unfolded. (And never forget that Dana Katherine Scully is the queen of denial as a coping mechanism lol)

Everyone's mileage will vary. Each person can feel however they want! But for anyone new, I wanted you to know that the very many ventposts you might be seeing are not all there is to this show or its fandom. Some of us love it despite - or even because of - all the things that went "wrong". I think we just don't talk about it as much.

[yourknightinshiningplastic]

what if I am soso scared. about my concert tomorrow.

[gikairan]

Like, i really like this storys focus on Hunger demons as not just preying on hunger for food. Its also the hunger for more, for better, for different. Its not quite "I want" or "i could be tempted" as "i need".

And specifically it preys on the warden in the story with "yearning for a different life". It picks up on the fact Antoine didnt really have a choice to be a warden (it was that or slow death of the Blight), that Antoine puts on a happy face but is clearly not ok about the whole thing (He doesnt want to pay attention to the Darkspawn-sense, he has nightmares of the attack that led to his case of Blight!)

It recognises that the Wardens would probably defeat it, and so bites Antoine. It cant act straight away, because theres no hunger. But it knows, deep down, there will be a day. It wont be tomorrow, but it might be next year. Or next decade.

Aaannnd Antoine is likely not unique among the wardens. Someone who resents their fate, because they had no choice. In fact, pretty much the entire Warden order is made of Conscripts, Criminals offered this life to "make something of it", or others who would otherwise die of the Blight and whose death was only delayed.

A fortress full of people who feel like that is probably the worst place for there to be a demon that can feed on feelings of "I want to be something else."

Now, we dont really know the timeline for everything in Tevinter Nights, but i'm pretty sure its all Post-Inquisition? So a werewolf problem probably isnt why the Wardens went quiet in the first place (I also think theres a line in Trespasser that says "yeah its not serious?" Someone brought that up when i said Wardens might have gone silent because they had baby griffons. Havent got to it yet myself so we'll see)

.... But we do know theres a mission IN Weissaupt in Veilguard :)c

I'm slowly re-reading Tevinter Nights before Veilguard and so far I've noted these as Things Of Interest:

Possibly a human mage living with a band of Dalish in Arlathan Forest

Ghilan'nains Horrible Pools Of Creature Fusion (x 11)

Whatever the hell the Cekorax is. A weird bulb and tentacle creature, of unknown origin, that collected heads. Where did it come from? Why? Who knows!

& There is someone slightly possessed with a hunger demon that's waiting for an opportune moment to do Real Possession (turn someone into a werewolf) and that person is either:

A) a kid in a Nowhere Village

Or more likely B) a grey warden, that the demon was actively targeting, who was on their way to Weissaupt :)c

[noisilyeclecticmilkshake]

[Redacted] A.K.A Caretaker

Caretaker wasn’t the one that found Whumpee, but they were the one that cleaned the wounds, stitched them closed, and put cooling ointment on the burns. They were the only one privy to just how bad it had been. 

And it was all for Villain’s entertainment. There was no reason to it. No goal to achieve, no information to be gained. Villain had just wanted to lord his power over the group. But there was only so much Caretaker could see, only so many wounds they could fix and mend before it was too much. 

Whumpee was their breaking point. 

They waited until Whumpee was healed, enough that they could go back to something resembling their old daily routine at least.

“Hey guys!” Caretaker was a little somber, but still with a smile, this was for the best.

“Oh. Yes, of course. Take care of yourself, I’m sure we can manage not to fall into a lava pit while you’re gone.” 

“I’ve been thinking about this for a while, and I… just need a little break. I won’t be gone long I promise. This work can just take a lot of you yaknow?” 

Leader spoke for the whole group, all of them nodding in agreement. Caretaker had helped all of them for years. And, unless they were concentrating, always had a smile on their face. The group really couldn’t help but look at Caretaker like a younger sibling. Despite working with the team for years, they still looked quite young. When asked, they muttered something about their ability aging them slower, they said someone had explained it to them once, but it was too complicated to bother to remember.

In addition to looking so young, somewhere in their mid 20’s, they were absent of any scars. Physical or otherwise. In contrast, the team was riddled with them and the stories they contained. Escaped from a corrupt medical institution, ran away from home at a young age, kidnapped. But Caretaker had lived a simple life, a good home, a good school, so unmarred by life, Leader thought a prank was being played on them when Caretaker was suggested by the guild. ‘Exceptionally good at their job.” Had been the only explanation when they asked why some starry eyed kid showed up at the team’s door.

So, if Caretaker wanted a break, no one was going to stop them. There was no doubt they would all be dead ten times over without Caretaker and their youthful energy. 

And just like that Caretaker was driving to their ‘out of the way’ vacation house. They had rented it a week ago, when Whumpee’s recovery had really started panning out. And it wasn’t completely a lie, they did stop there to rest, they needed it after 10 hours on the road. But it was  just that, a resting place on the way to their true destination. The next morning they headed to Villain’s headquarters.

There were plenty of people there, even some they recognized, and they made it to Villain’s office with little resistance.

Villain opened the door to see Caretaker. Under other circumstances, he would have greeted Caretaker as a friend, they had healed quite a few of Villain’s people, his family really, each handpicked and trained by him personally. This was back when he would get in way over his head, but that was years ago, back when Caretaker was only a year into the guild, before he learned just how powerful he could be. 

Villain had looked into the rest of the team too, before he took Whumpee. Out of curiosity, they checked out Caretaker’s file again, a little disappointed, aside from Caretaker’s power, they were weak. They could heal exceptionally well, but not much else, blood didn’t bother them, but they never saw combat and would likely die on the battlefield.

Any. Other. Circumstance. As it was, they did not greet Caretaker at all, instead, his eyes were fixed on the hall behind Caretaker. It was littered with the bodies of his people, most of them weren’t moving, the few that were, could barely find it in themself to write in their pain. And there wasn’t a single drop of blood. He was gripped with a fear he hadn’t felt in years. 

“Who did this? Why are you just standing there? HELP THEM!” But as he looked at Caretaker, there was no fear, no confusion. It took a second for Villain to realize what emotion was there. It warped Caretaker's face into something akin to a monster and Villain was forced to take a step back in surprise. 

It was malice.

“You?”

“Villain… ” Caretaker’s voice was calm and cold and dangerous, like a warning. 

No, not a warning. Villain thought. Warnings gave you a chance to fix your mistake. A prophecy. The inescapable fate of danger. 

There was a slow advance as Caretaker entered the room. Villain could feel his heart pound harder, as he mirrored Caretaker’s steps, forced farther back into his office by unabashed terror. 

“What did you think was going to happen after you did that Whumpee?”

“I-I’ve” He couldn’t believe he was stuttering, cowering in front of Caretaker. “Enemies have suffered far worse at my hand than Whumpee. You know that better than anyone.”

“What did you do?”

“You hurt those people for a reason. You hurt Whumpee for a sadistic high.” Caretaker had entered the room completely now, taking care to close and lock the doors behind them. Not another word passed between them as Caretaker surveilled their surroundings, walking around the room while Villain remained dead center, the same place he had held Whumpee for over a week. 

[Redacted] has a power reported as ‘healing’. This is intentionally misleading, as their true power is really quite dangerous.

There was an understanding the next time Caretaker spoke. This room, and everything in it, belonged to them.

“They gave me a name at the guild. Did you find it when you were ‘researching’?” The calm was still there, but their voice had lowered.

Their ability category is really best described as time manipulation.

“Y-you knew?”

Caretaker had wandered their way around the room, finally settling behind their new desk. A desk with an abundance of tools Villain was far too familiar with.

“I earned it on account of the people I let live. You see, I was quite young. Angry. Vengeful. I wanted them so suffer.”

“Young! You’re barely 20…” Villain voice trailed off as something clicked in his mind.

“So, did you find my other name?” Caretaker had taken their chair and placed it in front of the desk.

Villain could only shake his head as an answer. Present tense, like they still use whatever name the Guild bestowed them. He had worked with Caretaker when they first joined the guild, this was a fact, but that was almost 10 years ago.

Specifically, [Redacted] can control the rate at which the human body moves through time.

“Kronos.” Villain had no time to process the title, his screams were too loud.

This includes, but is not limited to: 1. Hurling the body forward.

Villain stopped screaming. He couldn’t tell if it was because the pain stopped or because he had reached a pitch the human ear couldn’t register. It must have been some version of the former because he heard Kronos talking again.

2. Forcing it backwards.

“The human body can only handle so many electric impulses at once. The brain sends those out in moderation through time. So naturally, when your brain is sped forward, those years of impulses are sent through your body in rapid fire succession. Interestly, the same cannot be said in reverse.” 

3. Stopping it in time entirely

They were right. Instead of agony running through every vein, there was a relentless nothing. Pure, distilled, numbness coated everything. It should have been a relief after what he had just endured. Instead he felt madness start to infect his mind as the juxtapositioned intensities of years of torture passed in mere minutes.

Over [redacted] years, they have honed this ability. Sharpened it. Able to target even the smallest of bones in the human body.

As Kronos finally let go. Villain was flooded with the curse of nerve endings, and heightened senses. Feeling. Hearing. Tasting. Seeing. All returned in a devastating whiplash. He hadn’t learned his lesson, still expecting relief once the torture ended. They must have thrashed around in their numbness, they could feel bruises forming invisibly under their skin.

Kronos’s voice was unchanged. Calm. Cold. Dangerous.

“What’s really incredible is how the body responds when the heart is forced to pump in reverse.”

[Redacted] earned two names when they joined the Guild.

Villain felt his heart slow, and felt an instant, artificial lightheadedness from the quickly induced oxygen enriched blood. His lungs taking in too much for the heart to distribute properly. It was slow, torturous  but eventually, his lungs calmed, matching his heart. He was on the edge of consciousness, everything was agony.

“Please.” Villain voice had been reduced to a whisper.

“No.” 

And he felt his heart pull blood from the wrong places. 

1. Kronos

Wrong.

Another beat, and as his heart pushes blood to something already full

WRoNg.

And it was slow. 

Kronos finally moved from their chair, sitting criss-cross in front of Villain. 

Somehow, he was still breathing, still living. He didn’t think it should have been possible. He should already be dead. 

Their second name is lesser known. But has been reported by victims as ‘accurate’.

“Do you want to live?”

Villain had worked so hard to gain everything. It was this, he thought. Just this. Get through this and he would have everything back. 

He answered and realized why Kronos had taken perch so near to his body. The word he pushed out wouldn’t have been audible from anywhere else. “Yes.”

2. Terror-Incarnate.

“Let’s fix that.”

[boydepartment]

TXT as Creepypasta Stories

a/n: okay so i was a little nervous to post this however i am in a spooky mood and i just wanted to put out something a little silly and fun. i grew up on creepypastas so i wanted to put this out :) i really hope none of you find this post weird LMAO warnings- this is HORROR so subjects of death, bullying, etc is present in this post. i tried to censor it as much as i could and i added my little comments in this as best as i could to make them more lighthearted

MASTERLIST wc- probably like 250-300

soobin- lavender town

lavender town syndrome was derived from the first pokémon game. the bgm of the town in the game had frequencies that led to kids yaknow dying. later on nintendo lowered the frequencies so kids stopped dying‼️

this one was a classic and soobin loves pokémon so i really thought it fit him :)

link to creepypasta

yeonjun- ticci toby

ticci toby’s story is about this kid who’s like extremely bullied and it’s kinda fucked up that the creator named him ticci toby because i’m 90% sure he has tourettes in the story. but that’s besides the point. he ends up like getting rid of his dad and runs in the woods, then gets adopted into the slenderman mansion ⁉️ that’s if i’m remembering correctly LMAO im relistening to the story rn, i forgot how well it was written

I HONESTLY JUST GAVE HIM TICCI TOBY BC I USED TO HAVE A CRUSH ON TOBY WHEN I WAS LIKE 11 now im older than ticci toby and i feel ancient.

link to creepypasta

taehyun- jeff the killer

okay gonna be fr, the only reason why i remember his story so well is because of laurenzsides sims 4 rendition of the creepypasta. jeff was this kid who had a really hot brother(sorry(I AM LIU’S AGE NOW THIS IS A WIN)) and two parents. from what i remember everything was chill w his parents and brother but he was just bullied. and then at a birthday party he got lit on fire??? and bleached??? then he kills everyone. OH MY GOD THE KIDS LIKE BULLIED HIM⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️ I DO NOT REMEMBER THIS AT ALL⁉️⁉️⁉️ oh his parents were nice :( this is so sad

i thought giving taehyun a classic was good for him. jeff the killer is like THE creepypasta just like kang taehyun is THE hot guy 😇

link to the laurenzside sims 4 creepypasta video lol

beomgyu- russian sleep experiment

the russian sleep experiment was, you guessed it, an experiment. from what i remember the experiment was conducted during a war to test endurance. the prisoners from said war were told they would be set free if they followed through with the experiment. the prisoners were locked in a room and the scientists leaked this gas in the room to keep the prisoners from sleeping, without having sleep the prisoners go insane and start to kill eachother

the russian sleep experiment is honestly my favorite creepypasta. i read it a few years ago and then shane and ryan read it on are you scared and i was hooked. i feel like beomgyu would really like it.

link to the watcher video explaining the russian sleep experiment

hueningkai- ben drowned

basically this guy, finds a bootleg majoras mask game and starts getting haunted by this kid named ben who once again you guessed it! drowned! okay apparently there was a cult i don’t remember that at all if i’m being fr.

I LOVE ANYTHING LOZ AND IDK I THINK THAT IT FITS HIM‼️

link to the creepypasta

[rabit333n]

awkward ||

matt sturniolo🫶

CW - none i dont think ??? kissing i guess. its mostly just fluff (i think im using that word right?). it might be corny.

this is my first time publishing any of my writing !!!!! PLEASE be nice to me. :)

summary - matts been your best friend since middle school. when on a drive late one night something accidental turns into the both of you kissing. reader is the pink text, matt is the blue text. :3

based off this song !

you and matt had been best friends for as long as you remembered -- well, as long as things actually started to matter to you. you moved to matts school in the 7th grade, you were thirteen years old at the time.

it was a fresh start, something new, you had gone to the same place your entire life, so to say you were anxious on your first day was an understatement.

in your first period, you got sat next to a quiet boy. at the time, you were grateful he wasnt immature and disrespectful like most of the boys your age you had met.

you tried your hardest to mind your business and focus on the review from what they were taught the previous year, but your nervs and your lack of understanding got in the way.

after about 5 minutes of visible frustration, the boy beside you took notice of your expression and offered to help

-- "hi, i dont mean to bother you, but i noticed you seem a bit confused ? do you mind if i help you?"

your cheeks flush a light pink out of embarassment, not realizing how obvious it was that you had no idea what you were doing.

-- "yeah, actually, if you want to.. they didnt cover this at my old school so i just.."

you shrug awkwardly and lean back a bit as he reassures you and begins explaining.

-- "dont feel bad though, none of this will matter when we get out of school, yaknow?"

his eyes shift from the paper on the table in front of you both onto your eyes

-- "im matt, by the way."

he mentions his name before quickly leaning away from you, he hadnt realized how close he got to you when explaining.

you nod and smile softly, happy to have had a nice interaction with someone -- specifically a boy, not in a romantic way, really just in the sense that its rare to find a boy your age whos atleast a little bit emotionally mature.

-- "im y/n. thanks for the help, by the way, i really needed it. i had no idea what i was doing"

you mutter with a slight nervous giggle. you and matt soon became close friends, talking everyday in and out of class. he introduced you to his triplet brothers, and his friendgroup. while you didnt fit in with his friends as much as you'd like to, you were grateful you had people to talk to. since then, as the dynamic between you both grew, you became inseperable.

☆☆☆☆

its been 7 years since then, and you and matt are the closest youve ever been. matt knows you better than you know yourself. you cant hide from him the way you hide from yourself.

you currently, though, were on a drive with him. your favorite thing to do was to go on long drives and find some random parking lot to sit in with the windows down, listening to music, talking about random shit, learning about the very few things you both dont already know about the other. you sat in the parking lot of a convience store you didnt care to remember the name of, windows all the way down with the wind gently blowing through your hair.

you always got the aux cord when you rode with matt, he knows how important music is to you. even if he doesnt particularly like the music youre playing, he puts up with it because he enjoys seeing you get excited over certain songs.

"Use Once & Destroy" by Hole played softly through the speakers. matt had turned the radio down so it was easier for you both to focus on each other.

you had the visor down while you looked at your makeup in the mirror, wiping away the smudged eyeliner that had condensed beneath your lower lashes throughout the day.

-- "god, i fucking hate when my makeup does this.."

you mumble to yourself once theres a moment of silence between the two of you.

-- "it makes me look disheveled."

you complain quietly as you flip the visor back up, giving up on your goal of getting rid of the black residue underneath your waterline.

-- "i think you look pretty. i dunno, i dont think you look messy.. it makes you look real, it makes you look like you."

matt says sweetly as he studies you fixing your makeup, seemingly mesmerized by your dedication. you smile softly and tuck your hair behind your ears.

-- "thank you, matti."

you say sweetly to him, studying the look on his face. he turns away for a second as you lean over the center console, expecting to give him a peck on the cheek (..which, is something thats been accustomary in your friendship, its supposedly platonic)

until he turns his head back to face you, your lips landing onto his. you pull back quickly, your eyes growing as you cover your mouth.

his reaction similar to yours, his eyes growing before he starts profusely apologizing.

your cheeks heat up as your mind races, sifting through every thought youve had of moments like this before.

you knew you shouldnt think about your best friend in that position, but you couldnt help it. he was obviously very attractive, and you have always had some romantic feelings for him, whether you admitted it to yourself or not.

matt goes quiet, the awkward silence filling the space small space between you. both of your faces flushed red, studying each other subtly.

usually youd both brush off an interaction like this, but it was different this time. something about the situation maybe, or the subconcious emotions that created tension around you both.

-- "can i kiss you?"

he asks softly after a period of uncomfortable silence that slowly shaped itself into comfort, the way it always does with the two of you.

you nod slightly, the question adding to the absurdity of the moment.

as he leans forward, you mirror his motions until he places one hand on your jaw and the other on the back of your neck, gently intertwining fingers with your hair.

your lips lock and you place your hand on his forearm, the other on his shoulder as the two of you hold the kiss for about 3 seconds before pulling away.

you both stayed in the same position as you smiled widely, your cheeks pink while your eyes shifted away from his, flustered and happy that things werent weird like you thought they might be.

matt brushes your hair out of your face as a smile creeps onto his mouth when he sees the expression on your face.

-- "youre so fuckin beautiful, y/n."

[lostonehero]

@voidhaseyes

A alternate path to your commission.

Jonny hopped onto the first ship he could hack open. It wasn't anything amazing, but it was a vessel for long-term space travel, which is what he needed. It kind of reminded him of the ship Marius stole escaping New Asguard. It didn't matter he just needed to find the control room and go from there.

"Who are you?" A voice Jonny didn't recognize started him as he reached the captains chair. "Whoa, hey, I ain't gonna attack."

Jonny studied the person in front of him. They didn't look like any species he was familiar with. They were tall and lanky with blue skin. Their ears were pointed and long, and their long hair was tied back in a braid. Their eyes were like rainbow static. Black nails, and they looked to have hooves... no, that wasn't right. Feet hooves? Whatever they were, it was weird. They had a long tail that was covered in feathery hairs. He opens his mouth to speak, but a soft rasp escapes his lips.

The person steps back, obviously also studying him. "You can't talk."

Jonny nods he taps out in Morse code. "I am Jonny..... I've been curse..... I will leave...."

The person's eyes widen. "No! I mean no, you can stay. I'm kind of cursed, too. I'm guessing the plants aren't normal."

Jonny nods again.

"I'm Lyfrassir Edda, but you can call me Lyf. I was about to leave this planet, just loaded up on supplies and such. Do you want to come with me?" Lyf smiles, watching Jonny nod. "Great I uh, there's a spare room and stuff. I'm glad to know I'm not the only one cursed by a god."

Jonny gave a skeptical brow raise. He didn't know what to make of Lyf or if he was even the same from what Marius told him about. His voice was deep like his.... was. It didn't matter he was on his way away from them to longer be a burden.

........

It's been approximately a month since Jonny joined him. He was quiet, obviously. He couldn't talk because of the plants, and he didn't envy him or that. Lyf looked over to Jonny, who was writing quietly in a notebook. "Hey, uh... are you doing ok?"

Jonny tilts his head clearly, not used to being asked that. He shrugs and taps out a message. "I think I'm fine...." He adjusts his goggles.

"You think?" Lyf frowns. "I uh yeah, that seems to be the case with me. I'm still trying to come to terms with what happened."

Jonny shuts his book and stares at Lyf. He taps out another message. "Go ahead. I'll listen."

"I doubt you'll believe me." Lyf sighs. "My galaxy was eaten by a god. I'm the sole survivor, and apparently, the god likes me enough to curse me with powers and the inability to age or die." He frowns, leaning back in his chair. "There's this guy, Marius. He claims he's a part of a space pirate group that sings about tragedies. He seemingly has an infinite amount of violins he can just pull out of nowhere."

Jonny raised a brow. "Do you hate him or want to fuck him?" He taps out on his notebook.

Lyf lights up with a dark blue blush. "The man is an idiot and a self-proclaimed doctor. He made my life hel back on New Asguard, but... but he wasn't mean." He sighs and rubs his face. "I don't know how I feel. We met up after everything, and he even helped me control these powers. I just ran away like a coward and took my ship with me, leaving him stranded after everything he did for me. The mechanism is what he called the group, and I try to avoid any of that. I can't.... I shouldn't be with someone like him, I'll just hurt him. I even scarred his mechanical arm! He claims it was supposed to fix itself, but it didn't."

Jonny furrowed his brows. He does remember when they picked Marius up, his mechanism had claw marks that seemed to blend into the very metal, and even if it was working fine, they wouldn't ever buff out or vanish. He never talked about it. He was protective over it. They stuck even after DTTM.

"I know it's stupid." Lyf sighs. "I think I fell in love with him. He probably moved on from me, yaknow eternity is a long time, and he's immortal, and I suppose I am too, but why would he want to spend eternity with me. I'll just end up hurting him." He hugged his chest and looked up. Jonny had gotten up to touch his shoulder. "You're right. I shouldn't linger on that. It's been a little over a thousand years that he has obviously forgotten about me."

Jonny wanted to tell him the truth. Marius hasn't. Hell, the man hasn't even tried to go out with anyone else. Raphaella and Ivy have kept prodding him, and he shuts them down. He shakes his head instead.

Lyf smiles sadly. "I suppose I can't assume unless I talk to him. I would rather not."

Jonny pushed his notebook into Lyf's hands. A story always helps him, so why not him. He taps out. "Read a story."

"A story?" Lyf opens the book and stops. "I don't know what language this is."

Jonny paused and forgot he was writing in New Texan. "It's New Texan. That's where I am from."

"Could you... could you teach me?" Lyf smiles softly.

Jonny lights up and nods.

......

"Can you write something with a happy ending?" Lyf was sprawled out on a couch. Jonny nicked off their most recent stop.

Jonny signs. "Life doesn't have happy endings." He rolls his eyes munching on a fruit he grew. It was a new development that the flowers had started to become fruits, and he wasn't complaining. He was slowly learning how to control the plants as well. He still couldn't speak those seemingly will never come undone. "Should I bring up you and Marius? Or just me and Tim."

Lyf rolls his eyes right back. "Ok, first off, Marius was my fault. I realize I love him way too late, and he's moved on. Secondly, Tim is your fault. You never talked to him and told him the truth. Well, not talked, but you get what I mean. Besides, I met you, and I have a brother now, so isn't that a happy end?"

Jonny purposely looks away with a soft blush on his face. He did consider Lyf a brother he never had. He took a breath and started to sign again. "Have I told you about my mother?"

"I suppose not, but you have told me about your father and Jack. Right pricks, the both of them." Lyf sits up. "Alright, fine, tell me. I always like hearing about your planet, and I swear we'll find it one day."

Jonny silently laughs.

......

Lyf barely got a look at the poster before Jonny ripped it down. A low growl erupted from his chest, and his tail was lashing back and forth. He looked over where another poster was hanging.

"Mechanisms! Looking for our Captain. Interim lead Doctor Marius Von Raum."

Jonny lit the crumpled poster on fire. Tears pricked his eyes. He silently gasps as Lyf pulls him into a hug.

"You were one of them?" Lyf can feel Jonny shake, and that was his answer. "I know it's ok you have me and I won't replace you."

Jonny clings tighter, crying.

"Come on, I think we need to find your home planet." Lyf sighs. "Forget these assholes"

.......

Lyf knew something was off with Jonny. It all started with that poster. He wasn't really upset that he was keeping the mech secret he was more worried about Jonny and how he seemed to shut down. He doesn't really recall Marius talking about any of the other members, so he didn't know where Jonny fit in or what the dynamic was. However whatever it was they replaced him and he was taking it hard.

Jonny was curled up in his bed with his back to his door and didn't make any move to show he heard Lyf come in.

Lyf steps over the vines that have spread across Jonny's room like a cancer. He seemed so small in this moment, and it broke his heart. "Jonny?"

Jonny gives a low growl.

"Jonny, I'm sorry." Lyf takes a breath. "I just want to talk."

Jonny curls tighter into himself.

"I know the others are fucking awful. I mean, they replaced you, and that isn't fair. I don't know how long you've known them, but you don't need them. I'll be here whether you want me or not. I'm your brother, and I'll be by your side." Lyf stands in front of Jonny's bed. "Look, I don't know if I'm able to give up on Marius, but I'll chew him out for you. I just want you to feel better."

Jonny rolls over with a silent huff. He stares up at Lyf with tears in his eyes. He holds his hands out, which, when Lyf grabs, he is trapped in a hug.

Lyf smiles softly. "I'm also mad at you about the shower thing."

Jonny buries his face in Lyf's chest, shaking with a silent laugh.

"I mean fuck Jonny you're from the desert don't you have common sense." Lyf scoffs feeling Jonny shake from more laughter. "I'm not taking care of your ass the next time you make yourself sick, use the fucking sand."

The room is quiet for a long time before the sound of tapping is heard. Jonny tapped out a message. "You can still ask Marius out. He's an idiot but good-hearted. This wasn't his idea, and he wouldn't be the lead by choice."

"Don't lie to me, D'ville." Lyf huffs.

"I'm not prick. I ain't gonna let ya back out, coward." Jonny silently huffs as he aggressively taps.

"Fuck you." Lyf pushes Jonny away.

Jonny silently laughs. "Suck my dick."

"You know what I'm done. Go back to being a sad asshole." Lyf hops off Jonny's bed.

Jonny smiles. "Too late bitch."

Lyf laughs.

.......

Jonny was bouncing on his heels. He was excited that he had never had the chance to do puzzles like this before. Sure, they were rusted, and these were tombs, but he could work on them without judgment. He started to whistle softly as he worked.

Lyf watched Jonny scurry off into the tombs. He followed behind, of course, and he watched in awe as Jonny went around, solving the puzzles whistling away like this was a treat. "Why here?"

Jonny froze as Lyf's voice broke through his happy haze. He rapidly begins to sign. "I ain't doing nothing."

Lyf raised a brow, confused. "It looks like you were just having fun. What did the mechs not allow you to do puzzles?"

Jonny shifted. "No... I just....I ain't good being smart. I'm more useful as a weapon." He seems to be ashamed and hesitates finishing the last puzzle.

"You don't have to be useful." Lyf struggles to make it to the same spot Jonny climbed up to. "You can do whatever you want. There isn't much stopping you."

"I miss singing." Jonny signs with a glare.

"Ok well one thing you fucker." Lyf rolled his eyes. "I'm just saying maybe if the others knew your capabilities, they would be impressed. Finish this up, and then I'm signing you up on the puzzle competition on this shit planet, and we're going to destroy them."

"I've never been in a puzzle competition before." Jonny signs before immediately finishing the puzzle. The ground begins to shake, and the loud hiss of pistons and grinding of metal filled the catacombs.

Lyf was grabbed by Jonny, so he didn't fall into gaping opening where a vast treasure lay shining like a becon. "Huh, so this planet's legends do have truth."

Jonny silently scoffs. He signs with annoyance. "I wanted more puzzles."

Jonny nods and grins, already climbing down.

"How about he take some of this treasure and buy some impossible puzzles and theories." Lyf smiles back at Jonny, who just seemed to recall money can be exchanged for goods.

........

Jonny tilted his head, watching Lyf confused. He didn't understand why he looked so upset. He taps out. "Are you ok?"

"Are you going to leave once we land?" Lyf frowns, looking out at the asteroid planet they were about to land on.

"Leave?" Jonny signs. "I'm taking you with me."

Lyf furrows his brows. "What?"

"You're my brother! Where I go you go." Jonny smiles. "I want to show you New Texas."

"You want me to stay with you?" Lyf can feel his eyes water as Jonny nods. "I.... ok! Time to settle in New Texas for however long you want."

Jonny grins.

[gothicafish]

WWDITS S5 SPOILERS

I feel like a lot of post I've seen about guillermo choosing to be human have never been in a situation where theyve wanted something so bad that they not only lose sight of why they wanted it but become so absorbed in not having it that they do something stupid about getting it. And that sounds like a very specific thing to feel but it happens in real life with in the most ordinary circumstances. And then when you finally have The Thing you realize it's not what you want or that you wanted it for the wrong reasons or weren't ready for it or all of the above. And I can't explain how normal it is to make such a sharp turn towards giving it up because it doesn't work for you/feel like you.

Just to put that feeling in a real life, non vampire sense, when I was in high school I really wanted a job. It seemed like all my friends had jobs and the idea of having my own money sounded fantastic, especially coming from a low income home where I hesitated to ask for things because I didn't feel they were immediately necessary or necessary at all in the light of our finances. So I applied several places (literally any place that was hiring) and every time I got a rejection email I felt so deflated and so brushed off and more importantly I felt like I wasn't worth anyone's time. So you can imagine how ecstatic I was when I got a call back from this hot dog place. I never really at there much but a job is a job. That's how viewed it and I wanted it so bad because I felt like I had so many things to prove, as a student, as a worker and as a functional person. So I go to the interview and I get the job. It was in the summer so I didn't have school and I worked in the mornings and evenings part time. And immediately it was not what I thought it was going to be. But I figured that was part of it yaknow getting to know a new place can be rough. But on the second or third day the owner dude of the restaraunt (who literally does nothing but come in and tell the workers shit) he comes in while I was doing dishes and keep in mind this is one of the first times I've done dishes in a restaurant environment (and if you've ever worked in food service you know there's a very specific way to wash dishes) so the dude comes in sees I'm doing it wrong and yells at my manager for not properly teaching me how to do something. The manager then tells me to ask if I don't know how to do something (I thought I was doing it right) and there were several incidences where he would come in and yell at somebody (and I'm talking have a full out burst) for something mediocre.

I remember this one time he came in and yelled at us because we left the back door open a Crack because the air conditioner wasn't working (it didn't work the whole Two months I was there). He said it was a hazard as someone random could come in and cause problems. And I would agree if it was sumer, over 100 degrees EVERYDAY EVEN AFTER THE SUN GOES DOWN AND IF WE DIDNT HAVE TWO STOVES TWO FRIERS AND A BOILING WATER STATION TO KEEP THINGS HOT. I literally went home every day dehydrated from sweating so much and that not an exaggeration AND WE WERENT ALLOWED TO HAVE DRINKS ALL WE HAD WAS A LIL CUP TO GET SOFT DRINKS FROM. So yeah I didn't work there very long. So not only was the boss a total freak wad (the managers were cool tho), I just felt so horrible at everything I was doing there. I would get told how not to do things on the daily and I would beat myself up about it. There were times were I would try not to cry because how badly I felt about myself and the job I was doing because of how many times I had to be told how to do things. I felt stupid, and the fact that my friends and people my age could do this everyday with out problems ONTOP of school made me feel worse. I would literally come home and cry because of how horrible being there made me feel. It bothered me so much that I've hesitated getting another job after that and now that I'm looking for a job to pay for college I feel so much anxiety about it being like that again. And I've sworn off food service cause fuck that. Everyone who works a food service/customer service jobs everyday of their lives deserves a metal of Valor bc goddam idk how you do it. So when it got to much for me I made an impulsive decision to quit and I did and I never went back. But I felt like shit afterwords about being so vocal about getting a job and then not being able to handle it, but it was a lot better than being there.

That was a very long winded way if saying I sympathize with guillermo and I understand him completely and how humiliating it can feel to be in that position. And I'm glad nandor and the crew was nice about it cause I felt it in my soul.

[eggs-can-draw]

hello hello! first off i love your art and ideas, and second, if youre up to it can you give a list of the kids with danganronpa parents? i just daydream alot about canon meeting the past, because they got memory wiped right? and just the thought of shuichi and the rest of the v3 cast meeting their parents from when they were like 6 (or whatever age the v3 class met each other lol) when they dont remember their parents but being told those are their parents and it solidifiys when they see mini shuichi getting chased by mini kokichi (playfully) and it makes my mind go brrrrrrrr yaknow? have a lovely day/week! : D

Hey hey!! thank you for the kind words! here's the list lol 💫 Shuichi: Naegamigiri 💫Kokichi: Hajime and the mystery person lovingly nicknamed "Kokichi Mom" 💫Himiko: Sondam 💫Kaede: Tsumioda(adopted) 💫Kiibo: Collab project thingie by: Souda, Alter Ego, Nanami, and Usami 💫Warriors of Hope: Tokomaru (adopted, more of a sibling dynamic lol) 💫The Mono-kubs: Monokuma/j Parent-less squad: 💫Maki: orphan lmao 💫Rantaro: He just. exists. on Jabberwock. He's an enigma, a mystery Silly little "If They Were Alive" 💫Kaito: Ishimondo 💫She wouldn't be "Kokichi Mom" (Hajime is trans in this lol) but Celestia would be Kokichi's babysitter, you can thank @stabust06 for that lol 💫Maki: Mukuro (Adopted)

[apatheticcrossovers]

✨{Introduction}✨

Hello! You may know me from my other blogs. Well, i made a new one, cause I have no sense of impulse control, and I think he need more writing blogs specifically for crossover ships.

About Mod Apathetic

Just call me Mod Apathetic, or Apathetic!

I am an adult

I am a Fudanshi, Himedanshi, Profic, and Anti-hara!

Pangender probably, Any pronouns (no she/her)

My ao3 is ApatheticCrossovers, all requests and stuff will be archived over there!

I also plan on posting original fics here too!

My other blogs are @/Syrups-edit-corner (Edit requests), @/Syrups-fanfic-cafe (General requests), and @/Spookyscaryships (Edit/stim request blog run by both me and my friend)

If you aren't if I write for a certain fandom/topic, just ask please! I have anger issues and I will get extremely aggressive

WHAT I *WILL* DO:

Headcanons

Imagines/Oneshots

Crossover ships (Obviously)

Age gap ships (Including Minor/Minor age gaps, Adult/Adult Age gaps, and Minor/Adult age gaps)

Shipcest (Mainly headcanons cause, yaknow, crossover ships rarely have canon shipcest)

Alternate universes (Including "what if Character A was a canon character in Character B's universe" and Isekai type scenario's)

Yandere content

Ot3's (no more than 3 characters please!)

NSFW

WHAT I *WONT* DO:

Same Source/Series Ships (That included characters from two different games in the same series, and two different shows that take place in the same universe. This rule can be worked around if its an ot3 involving a character from a different source/series)

Satire/Joke ships (I have nothing against these types of ships, they just personally make me feel insecure about my own ships, since I take a lot of comfort in crossover ships /lh /gen.)

Things about active S/H (Things about recovering from S/H or brief mentions of it are fine!)

RPF/Stuff involving real people (Stuff like c!mcyt characters and musicals where the characters are based on real people are on thin ice /srs)

Drug Use/Abuse (Again, recovery is fine) [note: This rule does not and never while apply to weed. Weed is super cool /hj.]

Anything considered Unsanitary/generally gross (if you aren't sure if something would apply to this rule, please ask)

FANDOMS I'M IN:

Ace Attorney

Angels of Death

Animal Crossing

Afterl!fe (yes, even if the fandoms kinda dead)

Baldi’s Basics (+ mod/fangame characters)

Bendy and The Ink Machine

BFDI/BFB

Boyfriend to Death (Both 1 and 2)

Break In 1/2

Bugsnax

Cookie run (Both Ovenbreak and Kingdom)

Creepypasta

Danganronpa (all main games + UDG)

Deltarune

Doki Doki Literature Club

Doors (Roblox)

Eddsworld

Five Nights At Freddy’s series (+ Fangames)

Friday Night Funkin (+ Mods)

Happy Tree friends

Hazbin Hotel

Helluva Boss

Henry Stickmin Series

HLVRAI

Homestuck

Huniepop (both 1 and 2)

Identity V

Inanimate Insanity

Inscryption

Junji Ito

Madness Combat

Minecraft Storymode

Monster Prom

Mortal Combat

My Little Pony

MyStreet

Obey Me! Shall We Date

Object Terror

Okegom

OHSHC

Rainbow Friends (Roblox)

Roblox Myths

Riddle School

Saints Rows series

SCP Foundation

Smile For Me

Sonic Series

South Park

Sr Pelo’s Spooky Month

Steven Universe

Tankmen Series

Telltales TWD Games

The Backrooms

The Nightly Manor

Therapy With Dr. Albert Krueger

Undertale (+ Au’s)

Vincent: Secret of Myers

Welcome Home

Yandere Sim

Your Turn To Die

Zardy’s Field

And more that I currently can’t remember :p

FANDOMS I'M NOT IN BUT I AM FAMILIAR WITH ENOUGH TO WRITE FOR:

DC

Dream SMP (Characters, never the streamers)

Marvel

Genshin Impact

HFJONE

Pizza Tower

Sparklecare Hospital

Spiderverse

Super Danganronpa Another (1 & 2, mainly 2)

Twisted Wonderland

Probably more that I, again, can't remember.

CURRENT REQUESTS:

[Tumblr Inbox]

Hopeless Romantic Part 2 (Millie May x Amy Rose x Moxxie)

Barbatos [Obey Me] x Yuri [DDLC]

Beast Boy [Teen Titans] x Steven Universe [SU] SOulmate AU Headcanons

Vector [Sonic the Hedgehog] x Alphys [Undertale] NSFW

Hellborn Artic Owl!Rarity [MLP] x Stolas [Helluva boss]

Fischl [Genshin Impact] x Gundham Tanaka [Danganronpa] NSFW Headcanons

[Ao3 Inbox]

Yuri [DDLC] x Noelle Holidy [Deltarune]

Donut Joe [MLP] is accusing Soarin's [MLP] new boyfriend, Drago [Animal Crossing], of stealing from his shop, and Soarin doesn't know who to side with.

Glamrock Freddy [FNaF] x Audrey Belrose [Huniepop] NSFW

Golfball [BFDI] x Tennisball [BFDI] x Test Tube [II] Headcanons

Monika [DDLC] x Senpai [FNF]

Collin [Helluva Boss] x Lila [Spooky Month] Short Fic

That's all! Feel free to request stuff from me! I'm always looking for new crossover ships to write about! /gen

[yeahthatswhatimtolkienabout]

I'm in quite a strange mood today (I just don't feel right emotionally) and it has made me very pensive.

I'm in my mid 20s (which some would consider a baby) but I have this overwhelming sense of rush - of - ah shit better start writing that now or doing that now bc you won't have time to otherwise.

Now I've been like this for as long as I can remember, and a lot of it stems from my overwhelming climate anxiety and the fear that I'm gonna die soon (unfounded but hard not to think when you look at the media yaknow) but my brain just did this giant fart for the first time in ages and was like "when I'm 35..."

And I realised yeah. I might actually have time. And yeah. Age does not define you at all.

Whats so strange about this is that I have literally been this way for YEARS and now I don't care anymore?

Brain is wild.

[crowithy]

Fuck It I doubt I'll get to drawing all of them but have mine and partially my friend @jackbmx637 's headcannons on what WOF dragons each epithet erased character would be

We came up with these weeks ago so I don't really remember much but I'll try to explain each one I can (all under the cut)

Apologies for typos, new phone with wider screen plus horrendous autocorrect plus no glasses plus eepy

Molly- Night/Rainwing | Nightwing to give the star scales in place of her hair stars, and rainwin for the frill so they can still be on her head :) also so the scales could be colorfully but the designs I have for them don't follow cannon colors really so that part doesnt matter as much, just the frills mostly.

Giovanni - Rainwing | mostly vibes but also come on tell me Giovanni wouldn't absolutely love being a color changing dragon that can spit acid, you can't because he would. And rainwings are the coolest so nyeh

Sylvie - Silkwing | was originally icewing cause he gave off the vibes but I also kinds headcannon silkwings to be a little bit fluffy. Also the idea of him being all like "I'm not a kid >:(" even tho he literally doesn't have wings yet really funny (I have looked up an age chart for WOF to figure out the atrocious age system and came to realization he would have his wings at his age making it less funny but I still kept him silkwing because I liked it so much)

CarCrash/Fred - Silkwing | litterally only because I remember someone in the Talons Of Peace discord server joke about how silkwings have the right anatomy to drive cars. I don't even know if that's technically true or not .

Crusher - Leafwing | I felt the leafwing fin would he a nice way to give him his bangs, Crusher with eyes just felt wrong. Also idk if it's cannon or a headcannon from a fic I read that he liked gardening and plants so like leafwing. (It was prolly a headcannon)

Flamethrower - Silk/Skywing or Rain/Skywing | Kinda debated by me and my friend, because he does cheerleaders we wanted to choose the most fitting for him. I argued rainwing because from what I know they seem to have better movement (I'm not good at words but like yaknow how they have to climb around a lot idk I can't words its like 1 am) he argued wsilkwing because the four wings could give better maneuverability. Idk neither of us know anything about what we're talking about here I don't think.

Ben - Skywing | maybe if you get a cooler name Ben maybe you'd be assigned a dragon that's not just your sterotypical dragon. Jokes aside I can just easily imagine his voice fitting a skywing for some reason???

Spike - Hive/Icewing | the two spikiest dragons I could think of.

DarkStar - Nightwing | Darkstar is 100% a nightwing name.

I'll do more later today when I'm not about to pass out. Uh let me know if yall want anyone specific I guess.

[hungryriverbeast]

Predathos is Tharizdun

this is pulled from my discord ramblings to my friend and the cr wiki lol

like holy shit [2:35 AM] It is feared that the nature of Tharizdun, being unlike the other divinities, could shatter the Divine Gate alone if unleashed. No one knows how few shackles must remain to keep it at bay.[19]  [2:35 AM] Tharizdun is an ancient entity, possibly older than even the other gods. During the age of the Founding, the Primordials' slaughter of the mortal races the creator gods had formed drew the attention of the demons of the Abyss, who poured into the world to feast on the carrion. In the battles that followed, the Prime Deities locked Tharizdun away securely, or so they thought.[3]  [2:35 AM] LOCKED AWAY WHRE [2:36 AM] LOCKED WITH  A DIVINE GATE? WITH A LATTICE WORK NET?  [2:36 AM] Tharizdun was released once more onto the Material Plane during the Calamity, causing untold destruction and chaos [2:36 AM] remember [2:36 AM] REMEMBER [2:37 AM] in c2, when ruidis was missing form hallas's mural? and they were all like huh whats that mean [2:37 AM] IT MEANS RUIDIS WAS OPENED [2:37 AM] AND THARIZIDUN LET OUT which is why he/it was on a rampage during the cslamity with the other betrayer gods [2:40 AM] wait no ruidis was there but when they touched ruidis, the mural shattered and thats what led them to the dragon room [2:40 AM] could be a metaphor for opening ruidis led to just, chaos, the breaking of everything [2:43 AM] Offer light and life into its all-consuming maw so that it may surpass all divinities and be freed.

Uncover, restore, and exalt forgotten shrines and relics in its honor.

Ruin and raze the realms to hasten the arrival of the Epoch of Ends.  [2:43 AM] tharizduns commandments [2:43 AM] its predathos [2:43 AM] like no doubt (edited) [2:44 AM] of course even the bretrayers were scared of it [2:44 AM] it can eat them too [2:45 AM] Tharizdun, the Chained Oblivion is the mad deity of death and trickery. It dreams the infinite Abyss and its demon hordes into being, and dreams aberrations into being beneath Exandria.[3] (edited) [2:46 AM] literally predathos also 'left twisted life forms in its wake" [2:46 AM] yaknow, like demons of the abyss I love this tho because tharizdun is something matt’s been setting up in the background in both c1 and c2. Travis even catches the edges of it at the end of the episode when he recalls the “Angel of Irons” in c2 was a cover for tharizdun, in order to gain more followers. Marisha also pokes at this when she asked Ebonold Kai if Predathos had any other nicknames or titles, like “The all consuming hunger” or “chained one”. Kai said he didn't know because the text only mentions Predathos, so I assume “Tharizdun” is a name used later. 

I could be totally wrong about all this of course, but I really hope its this because its been hinted at for so long! Please tell me your meta thoughts, they sustain me 

[commanderjuni]

[ OUTDATED ]🦋CHARACTER TALK | MESMER SRABBA

ok to anyone who knew laff for like. upwards of just a few days. IGNORE HER. HER NAME IS BENCHED FOR NOW. in her place i'd love to introduce.... drum roll please.....

MESMER SRABBA! (or well. personal story through living world season 2 srabba anyways)

as i mentioned in a previous few posts, srabba actually was an older character that has the prestige of being my FIRST toon i levelled, pain stakingly, bowls of apple sauce and crafting balls of bread dough and all, from level 1 to level 80. i remember trying to spec virtuoso on her, but for whatever reason not even i know i must've gotten fed up and deleted her

over time i was a little upset about that choice so i tried. MANY MANY MANY TIMES to remake srabba. she's been through

being made an inquest lab rat (failed)

being made a thief (not really a fail but she sure aint one now)

being made a thief. again. (i wanted a pink spectre. didn't work out.)

positive i made her a necromancer at least ONCE.

being made a ranger? i think?

and many few other attempts. but by some declaration of fate, srabba is back and here to stay as my mesmer and fated commander.

however, since i'm going through story in chronological order and haven't gotten past living world season 4, she very much so has some growing to do! (literally, kinda)

i've also picked and tossed a few things about laff out as to give myself some more creative freedom with srabba: i've realized recently i have this weird habit of constricting myself and forcing myself to go with the same idea, but for now i think it'd be better for me to just. do whatever! improv! toss things in and fish things out!

I'm mostly pulling elements from Laff's story, since she's kinda being repurposed into Srabba! Thus don't mind any parallels yaknow /lh

aaannnyway....

MAJOR RAMBLE BELOW THE CUT!! no spoilers whatsoever, but it's gonna be a long post x)

Srabba, during Personal Story, is about 13 years old. Like most asura her age, she is smart, crafty, and markedly intelligent. Before applying to the College of Dynamics in LWS1, Srabba is a ward of the Progeny Protective Service.

Her parents perished in the infamous Thaumanova Reactor meltdown when she was only four years old; Srabba only escaped after they had to yell and urge her to run away to safety with the masses fleeing to escape, which she did, and it is still something plaguing her to this very day.

Srabba not only faces the challenge of lacking a direct guardian to care for her, but also has to navigate the difficulties of being hard of hearing in a society that revolves around discussing and debating scientific theorems and gizmos… Which isn't exactly easy to do when you can't hear much below normal talking- and all the background noise: the buzzing and humming and clinking of asuran society- it makes it even harder to understand what someone is saying to her.

Srabba relies mostly on lip-reading and making educated guesses to understand what others are saying to her. Although she had experimented with hearing aids in her younger years, as she approached her teenage years, she grew less interested in the idea of being "dependent" on the creations of others.

Instead, she aspires to create her own hearing aid device to assist her. This challenging project is a main motivation for joining the College of Dynamics. She is eager to improve her creative thinking skills and enjoys the freedom of starting from nothing to bring her own ideas to life, which is quite different from the, in her humble opinion, dull livelihoods of Statics students who merely tweak existing designs.

In regards to her personality, Srabba is best described as the following:

Witty

Smug

Crafty

and Stubborn

Very, very, very stubborn. Srabba is a very independent person, who finds that despite not having a primary caregiver, she has strong footing when it comes to operating solo, and takes great pride in it.

... Perhaps too much pride.

Because of this, Srabba never has been the most inclined to working with others or, Eternal Alchemy forbid, collaboration. The idea of having to depend upon others is... a frankly scary thought, and one she doesn't like submitting herself to. If she can do it herself, she'll do it herself- no matter how long it'd take.

And the 'Mesmer' part of her name isn't just for show. Srabba is a certified, bonafide mesmer.

Her abilities sprung to life very recently, when she was about 11 years old. She's had only two whole years to really acclimate herself to the intricacies of mesmer magic, but she has a surprisingly great grasp at it. It may or may not have something to do with, oh, y'know... Being born on top of an Inquest lab experimenting with chaotic energy and all. It happens!

Srabba primarily follows the Chaos specialization. As the quote goes: "Where some see chaos, I see opportunity". Srabba views the tragedy of the Thaumanova Reactor as a unique proposition. Although the reactor exploded, it showed the potential using chaos energy actually had. It could transport people place to place, it could disorient and befuddle one's mind, and most important to Srabba: it could bend time and space.

Because of her close connection with chaos magic and energy, Srabba finds that among other factors, she'd fit in well in Dynamics. Her project aside, Srabba has a bright passion for studying chaos magic and energy, and seeks to be the "big leader" on the subject. She not only wants to know how to use it, but how to conserve it, and contain it, and master her own control of it so well, she could figure out how to either revert or lessen the damage in the Thaumanova wreckage.

As for Srabba's actual manipulation of mesmer magic, she's adept in confusing people: with or without actual conditions. She can be here, or she could suddenly be there. She could be right in front of you, or you could just be talking to a clone of herself and you wouldn't be too much the wiser unless you paid close attention. Her illusions are fueled by her innate psychic ability like most mesmer's, and her innate psychic ability is... frighteningly powerful for her age.

Let's be thankful she doesn't know too much about her potential at the moment.

Between the three signature mesmer masks, Srabba follows the Phantasm of Sorrow: she doesn't actually brandish this mask, but rather wears it on her face. Her sad, droopy eyes and thin-lipped frown and big, down-turned ears makes it easy to think she has something troubling her... But for all we know, she actually could be laughing in her head about how moronic some of her peers look. Nobody is the wiser to what goes on in her head, and she very much so likes it that way. It fuels her ego a little. (Light-hearted)

While she rarely finds herself in need of physical altercations, she always keeps two swords at the ready. She finds manipulating her magic through them surprisingly easy, and she is currently studying the art of mantras and phantasms. She especially hopes to start learning all the cool space and timey wimey magic, too.

She's a girl with a lot of plans, aspirations, and irons she wants to start putting in the furnace.

[floorpancakes]

can you post what all the results to the quiz are & what charas they have? im just curious to see the answers to what i didn't get!

ok so ill probably add to this slowly but time for some stats and answers and stuff! obviously dont check this out if you dont wanna be spoiled (thread)

first, here's the actual amounts of each results people have been getting:

when i say i had NO IDEA we'd get so many chuunis....watching the numbers go up the first few days felt like a fever dream haha

but its comforting to know that everyone is cringe and free! i for one welcome our new gothy overlords!

i was also really surprised that gimmick idols got some of the lowest scores 😭 the space that spans is so wide so i was expecting way more people to get that result since i figured it'd catch a lot of people, but i guess you guys are rare!

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now its time to look at the archetype list:

this was pretty tricky, especially cause i was working on the quiz for funsies at silly o clock in the morning for two nights while i was dealing with some sickness induced exhaustion lol. i wanted to include more (a few like the princely type nearly made the cut), but I found there was

1. a lot of crossover between archetypes (this even happened with some of the idols i chose for the results image!!! hanayo being average idoltwt user AND a harapeko type or minori being average idoltwt user AND fake it til you make it for example)

2. some archetypes that were only based on visuals or not on personality at all

3. kind of lowkey paradoxical (eg. someone might really fit the princely type, but often in idol shows they make it so that trait is pushed on them, but they secretly wanted to be feminine all along, which like, ok but then if someone actually fits the princely vibe I'd be slightly struggling for examples and we'd get all tied in knots unfortunately)

4. the amount of answers was already getting so long that if i added any more it'd start getting difficult to come up with more answers for some of the more concrete questions (like what you'd do post graduation etc)

...so I had to kind of draw the line somewhere. especially cause i thought like 3 of my idoltwt mutuals would take it and that's it 😭 maybe I'll make a part 2 or a more extensive quiz later who knows (guess who just remembered the 'rock is life' type idols and screamed into a pillow for only just remembering...)

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so the idol archetype categories themselves are DEFINITELY things I've picked up on in multiple series, altho they may require a lil bit of explaining so I'll quickly summarise each one when we go thru the characters. i should probably mention that some of these (like the chuunibyou) are word for word archetypes that people use all the time, while some were just me trying to put words to the character types so the wording was just a descriptor (fake it til you make it queen), altho i hope they were useful! ive seen a few people online using these terms after taking the quiz which is super cute...🙇 let's take a look at these categories shall we?

(note: i have varying levels of familiarity w these characters, i wanted to make it reasonably varied and recognisable but some of them i kind of just knew what category they fit and that's it)

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THE CHUUNIBYOU

to those who don't know, the chuunibyou is a pretty popular archetype beyond just idols, and tends to refer to people who are stuck in or going through their 'edgy phase'; chuu-ni being short for second year of middle school syndrome (think like, 13 or 14 year olds), but the general vibe tends to be associated with emo or goth phases, claiming to have an evil eye, being or being a servant of Satan, hiding a secret shy or self conscious side with edge, yaknow. average tween behaviour. it's not limited by age tho especially in anime media! one of the examples i used is a 26 year old grown man with a job. never too late!

Like with a lot of the other categories it was really hard to narrow down the results page characters, but from left to right:

1. Todo Yurika from Aikatsu!

Yurika takes being a lifestyle lolita to the next level, being a gothic lolita and punk idol with the chuuni character of a vicious vampire, which she desperately tries to keep up as part of her career, only letting people see her quiet nerdy self once in a blue moon. She has a secret soft spot for garlic ramen and sings some of the best songs in the entire series (which is an achievement cause aikatsus songs are god tier).

music rec (won't do this for everyone, only ones i know well, but pls feel free to fill in the blanks in the comments/reblogs!): check out Glass Doll, Onegai Venus and Eternally Flickering Flame! She has two singing voices over the series, both of which are incredible.

2. Asselin BB II (Asselin Beelzebub the Second) from The Idolm@ster SideM!

Asselin is a genius chef in his mid-twenties that ended up on the streets being kicked from countless jobs because of his ....quirks. He's a chuuni through and through, and its something a lot of the people around him didn't know how to handle, but when he gets taken in by Cafe Parade (both an idol group AND a real life dining establishment) to be their chef, he finally finds a place where he belongs. He's goofy and crazy while simultaneously being an introverted and nervous personality, and claims to be a servant of Satan, which just happens to be an adorable plushie that he carries around for comfort and finds difficult to be without, who gets painstakingly dressed up in matching outfits whenever he's included in a card! Don't be fooled by his softness though, this servant of satan has PIPES. You may recognise his voice, as he's played by well-known seiyuu Furukawa Makoto.

music rec: check out Waga Konton no Sabbath Marriage to immediately ascend, or Reversed Masquerade for a taste of the full CafePa experience.

3. Tsushima Yohane from Love Live Sunshine!!

Probably the most famous on the list so I'll keep it brief! She's been at this chuuni business since she was a little girl, so she encountered a lot of loneliness before joining Aqours, but she's got a cute and clumsy personality and has a tendency to yell about being a fallen angel. She's an absolute sweetheart, despite claiming that she's angered God himself, and is always there at the scene to deliver an edgy pose or stunning vocals.

music rec: check out Kowareyasuki and Strawberry Trapper for peak Yohane vocals, honestly Guilty Kiss in general should be mandatory listening homework