#but i rly hope i CAN get it done. if i do then i have 1-2 routes to do in a month. which is pretty easy minus the fact i think im gonna have
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TW//Pedophilia mentions, doxxing, slurs, general disgusting behavior
Here's a call-out post that I didn't think anyone would see from me.
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It's about this user who goes by OhSoStupid, LorenzoLHI, and LHI2010 (as far as I know). He is a user known in the Mii Community and the MySims community.
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I want to spread awareness about this user because I've heard from a mutual they got spammed and raided by accounts on DeviantArt, in which they harassed them, accused them of being a pedophile and liking porn, and just spamming disgusting comments. I will get into why Lorenzo has something to do with these accounts.
Screenshots below (Victim's real name censored for their privacy) (ALL SCREENSHOTS BELOW DO NOT BELONG TO ME)
Ofc one of the accounts had used one of Mario's pfp and their real name in their username, which is likely to trigger them. And just accusing them of pedophilia for whatever reason? Like no, he did not hurt your younger brother numerous times. And the other account just being a fucking weirdo towards said user. I will get back to Lorenzo again, because the mutual who got raided by these accounts had a feeling that these accounts were made by Lorenzo.
Another screenshot below with Lorenzo's main DA account:
This is due to the spam and weird comments (could arguably be for humor reasons, but still weird), and accusing Mario for loving porn like the other account.
It doesn't seem to be clear on why Lorenzo is targeting Mario on this, though he speculates that it could be because of having Lorenzo banned from the MyServer discord and "spreading rumors about him" due to evidence of Lorenzo making disgusting and problematic posts on his old DA account (which was still from 2024 btw) (Also, this is the ONLY interaction Mario had with Lorenzo btw)
Yep, there's more evidence of Lorenzo being a weird, and because of this, they likely raided Mario's DA to get back at him and making tasteless and out of pocket accusations of him.
Full screenshots of evidence here below.
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This is a major reason why Lorenzo was banned from the MyServer.
Apparently Lorenzo says he created a new one because of the iffy content he posted.
You understand and admit what you posted was weird, and then get called out and banned from the MyServer, and try to get back at Mario because he apparently said you are banned from the MyServer due to members getting disgusted by his behavior, and that he "spread rumors about you", and all this just to get revenge on him? How fucking petty can you be?
And also, by the time of typing this, a friend of mine got confirmation that Lorenzo DID raid Mario's DA. HOWEVER, he wasn't the only person to do this, apparently someone named Max got involved and also helped troll Mario.
Max's involvement also extends on Youtube, commenting "fart", accusing Mario on loving porn again, and being a weirdo and harassing him.
Mario also posted evidence on Lorenzo and Max's behavior incase they get deleted
https://youtu.be/sCu-UvXux1w?feature=shared
This just pasts beyond the point of "trolling", because, again, why just attack someone over getting rightfully banned for disgusting behavior on DeviantArt?
Hope this is enough to spread awareness on this user. Please know that I tried to put as much as I know into this post because this is fucked and a call-out post had to be made. If you see this post, please share it. And do not interact with this user. Report him, block him, and spread this post around as much as you can. Please do the same with Max, I do not know his socials so I can't rly put them here, but still.
Please give me more updates on Lorenzo if you know any more shit that he has done so I can understand more what he has done.
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anyways . silly thing
#gravity falls#stanford pines#stanley pines#lg doodles#animatic#i want it done.get out of here u stupid dog#ITS CHEESY.IM SORRY ! IMSORRY <embarrassed .truly#but i think. a gf revival would not be complete w/o me trying my hand at a shitty animatic. this 1 is for me dwg#as annoying as the whole process was it was kind of fun ngl. . like ive never been good at keeping a consistent style or chara model#and this was rly good practice for that .. i think looking at it now its like. no its crazxy its insane bc i dont ever want to do it again#at least in the immediate future but watching it back im like ok well.icouldve at least done that better. or tried to loosen up my vp and#made it feel less flat . <thats the devil talking & trying to get u back in on it.thats what i mean liike its fun but its evil and tiring#also im so creatively burnt out ik i couldve done so many fun ciphord gore things but i ug a 'shrug' pff 'shrug' i ?. yk#if only i didnt have the disposition to want to finish everything in one sitting. i think thats why i like static illustration#more bc u get more like. topical variety in a shorter amt of time u feel. anyways i remember hearing this song 4 the first time and in#my need to apply everything ever to my hyperfix i was like omg crop circles soo stanford lol. omg a deal he made when he was young.. & no#it doesnt feel so great does it .. (ciphordd)..then the eyes & fate i was alr convinced but when it got 2 the stanley part ab the taking hi#fathers brothers name i was like ok well fuck filbrick 1 . but rewritten for canon events anyways HELLO???????? AND U WILL DIE THE SAMEE?#much cooler version is still stuck in my head but i hope that u can get the same rudimentary vision i have
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"And soda; runs off into the street..." "...and soda... is totally okay!"
#jrwi fanart#jrwi show#jrwi suckening#cw blood#something something cracking open a boy w the cold ones#IF THERE ARE ANY MISTAKES I MISSED I SWWWEAR TO JEBEDIAH. IF I STARE AT THIS ANYMORE IM GONNA DIE IT NEEDS TO BE DONE#ALSO RRRAAAHAHHHGHGH CAN I JUST TAKEA SECOND TO SCREEAAMM ABT HOW MUCH I LOVE SODA AND EMIZEL.. LIKE THERYE SO CUTE....#THEY ARE HOMIES THAT KISS EACHOTHR GOODNIGHT. THEY CARE SO MUCH FOR EACHOTHER. SODA LOVES SODA AND SODA LOVES YOU#do u guys remember how willing he was to share blood w his vampire bestie. like cmon. remember when emizel memorized sodas Soda Schedule.#LIKE CMON.... they just have eachothers backs so much. ouhhh my god... ANYWAY SO THE ART HUH. I FEEL LIKE I SCRAMBLED W IT FOR A WHILE#DRAWIN IS HARD..... i think i did well in the end tho.. i like the lil heart beat effects. and i hope i made soda look Suffieciently Scared#i ALSO had fun w the teeth. i however did not have fun w the walls. if i had more drugs i mightve done every brick in more detail#but i didnt WANNA!!!! this will suffice.I HOPE IT FLOWS WELL&THAT ITS CLEAR... IVE STARED AT IT SO LONG IT IS NOW VISUAL SOUP. HELP!!!#i want my comics to have more Pauses and Space and Thought and Momence. i feel like normally they go so fast. but THIS time#i think i did good.... huuoouhhhh.... comics are HARD art is HARD but i am HARDER. or something. OH YEAH I HAVE MORE ART THINGS#soda was RLY HARD FOR ME TO DRAW FOR A MINUTE..but i like where his design is now. i wanted his hair to be curly swirly.like soda fizz#i THINK thats all my thoughts for now. if u have thoughts u should spill them in the tags i looooove reading tttaaggsss#have a goodnight i gotta go to work soon. maybe. unless the casinos power goes out AGAIN. OR SEOMTHING... UUGHHH MY SCHEDULE IS IN SHAMBLES#I THOUGHT I WAS WORKIN 3 DAYS INA ROW SO I RENTED A WHOLE DAMN HOTEL BC THE JOB PLACE IS FAR AWAY.. I HAD TO CANCEL THE WHOLE RESERVATOn#annd im MMMMAD ABOUT IT!!! like ill get over it ofc BUT IM PEEVED!!!! IM INCONVIENIENCED AND GENTLY AGGRIVATED. BUT OVERALL FINE.#hope yalls weekend goes well. sleep well. if u get the chance to.
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it's just not going to work it feels bad but it has to happen but breakups that happen when nothing in particular has gone wrong and it's just an issue of like...paths in life/compatibility etc etc, where otherwise you actually rly do love the person, are so hard !! like i care for u i still want to be ur friend it just wont work in a romantic way !!
#its 1yr+ relationship too i care abt her so much#we just both deserve to feel fulfilled and i dont currently feel that way its not rly her fault i think we were just meant 2 be friends#and not lovers but somehow that makes it worse ?? like im glad im not on bad terms w her ofc i love her a lot#but it makes it harder to get over yk#....i hope we can still be friends idk idk !!#she has been my best friend for a while#breakup happening in 1 week from now. i keep delaying this decision but it rly rly has to be done#we r just...fundementally missmatched and we both need to be w ppl who we can grow with#i think we could grow together if we were just friends but aughh its sl ahrd ik being friends after a breakup rarely ever works out#my friends say its like a 50/50 chance if u break up on good terms#anyway being the person doint the breaking up is hard !!!#also i have been doing kind of super badly recently and i think i need some time to figure stuff out w my own mental health too
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#i do rly like living alone and recognise that i have the luxury to do so#but on rly bad pain days if i dont do stuff it just. doesnt get done#and like i can cope with the vacuuming getting skipped or whatever#but there are tasks i cant avoid so i have no choice but to keep pushing myself#even when walking from one end of the house to the other#ill be okay im just running through my to do list mentally trying to find stuff to cut#im hoping i will feel better as the day goes on its always the worst first thing in the morning#also. i want a hug. being alone means no hugs
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y'know maybe it's fitting that i never finished the adhd sans comic
a comic about
executive dysfunction in adhd
left unfinished bc of executive dysfunction in adhd
#jus realized this n it's hilarious#idk maybe i will get back to it at some point#but i don't rly have high hopes rn#i did find pride in representing him in a way u don't see often#a part of adhd that's not talked abt enough#'n a lot of ppl don't even know exists#i do wanna explore more representation with him#but i think i'll stick with little comics#ones i can get done in one post#'n tic too#needa draw/finish som lil comics abt his tourette's#(but even th little comics i find hard to finish :'>#idk how i got as far as i did with th adhd sans comic)#didderd talks
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#holidays have not been what i hoped for so far 😔😔#well the first week was good but then i got sick 😭#and it's been so awful#having a cough is literally the worst i couldn't sleep it was so bad#and i couldn't even enjoy doing anything really because you can't properly focus on the thing bc ur coughing non stop#i hate it sm#and today it was gone all day only that now it is back altough not as bad as before but still#it always gets worse in the evening#like help i just want this to end#what made it even worse i had real plans to study and now i barely got anything done 😭😭#and now i'm scared for exams bc i couldn't follow the plan altough i still have more than 2 and 3 weeks left#in my mind i already think i'm gonna do badly bc i need to study more i'm afraid#and i'm also upset at myself even though it's not my fault i got sick but i keep thinking i still could have done more ughh#to make it even worse i coudn't play tennis for a whole week and i was so looking forward to playing everyday (and improving) 😢😢#i couldn't do any sports or see anyone i miss it sm#i hope at least in the new year i can do stuff again 🥺#it was just the worst cold/flu and idk why whenever i get it it's that extreme 😵💫#or idk is it normal that you can't sleep bc of it ... i just don't wanna get sick again ever lmao it's the worst#i guess christmas was still nice it wasn't that bad then and it was a lovely day with my family :)#and our tree was really pretty this year and i'm really happy with my gifts and also those i gifted 🥰#the week before was good i did play lots of tennis and i went on a christmas market with uni friend and to vienna for a trip with my mom ^^#but maybe it was too much sometimes i wonder if i do something wrong or if it is just bad luck like i did train a lot#and i played a tennis match for my club and won against a higher ranked opponent so yay 😁#and i played really well i feel like i once again really improved my level :)) but i did play kinda sick already so maybe that was rly bad😅#maybe i should stop doing that 😅 but i didn't know it's gonna get this bad i just had the worst headache and sore throat#well ig i should have known but i also always feel like i have to play and i love matches and like my team needs me?#who else would have won that? i'm one of the best at my team and the others who are rly good weren't there that day so i felt responsible 😅#honestly my mom possibly she is also quite good but it would have been close and i wasn't sure so i played 😅#but i have done this too often by now... playing sick i really can't help myself 🤦♀️
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its so embarassing likee. going to talk abt a feeling you have but you already know ppl will be like Oh that sounds like depression lol and its like. well yes . i know . trust me i am so aware i am depressed . but its still like a thing ive been thinking abt and wanting to talk abt but ik itll just be like Ok hun 👍. idk idk what response i would want tho ig FNFNFNF
#not anything serious i was just thinking how like. idk. this is gonna sound rly stupid#but for me personally like. sometimes. How do i phrase this without sounding rly evil#i think obv ppl can spend their money however they want but like. its kind of hard 4 me to grasp sometimes like. there r things that ppl#spend a lot of money on bc it makes them happy like umm. vacations or pets or hobbies or whathaveyou. and obviously thats fine but#i iust feel like its all so. temporary and like. idk. idt im ohrasing this right at all i just likee. the thought of working all year to#afford to take a vacation and then working again to afford another vacation just makes me feel like i want to die. like. idk... i like#vacations we dont need to go on them a lot but ig its just like. everything we do just feels like a waste of time. not in like a Ohh you#should be doing more work Obviously its just like. idk. maybe it is just me. but i feel like im just waiting until i die and can be done#with it i guess. and everything i do is just to fill time until that happens. yk ? which is silly bc of my whole. Thing i cant talk abt#but ppl talk abt like. going out and partying or going on vacation or whatever and i like. I like those things its nice when they happen#but they dont rly make me longterm any happier i guess. everything just feels like another thing im doing. idk. this rly isnt coming out the#way it is in my head. and Again i know this is just depression shit or whatever im just like. its all exhausting. it just makes me feel so#tired. to think abt working and working and working so i can pay to be alive and i can save to do one fun thing every so often to keep me#sane enough to keep working and working and working and i probably wont ever be able to retire itll just be. work. and then ill die. yk.#but i feel like the vacations and stuff dont like. refresh me very much. maybe its just bc ive only been on one 'vacation' as an adult and#it was just like. coming home to see my family. and realizing id have to move back home yk..#+ like. my mom nd my gran taking me out for a weekend when i lived up there#nd those things were nice and all but once its over its like. it doesnt fuel me to keep going it doesnt make me feel any better abt having#to work for the rest of my life#ik im being ridiculous bc im literally unemployed and i cant even get up off my ass to get my stupid fucking ged so i can get a job and be#Useful to my family its just like. idk.... i try so hard to be like Oh nothing mayters and thats why everything matters type thing like. Yes#all things end and the point is to just try to be happy until it does#but i feel like it just doesnt happen for me. i feel like any happiness i feel is so insanely like. it happens and then its gone. and its#back to just. the knowledge that im still fucking stuck here. and i will be until it happens. yk. i play video games tomoass the time until#i go back to sleep then i wake up and i make a spreadsheet to pass the time until i go back to sleep#and everyday just feels like passing the time until i go back to sleep and itll just keep going until it happens. and its nice to have nice#days but whats like. the point. yk. everything just ends#IDK. this is all very whiny im sry. ive just been feeling it a lot lately . i hope this doesnt feel like me being like Ohhh you ppl r so#dumb participating in hobbies and going out and having fun dont you know yr gonna DIE? thats not what im trying to be like#its just like. i feel like it doesnt make me as happy as it does other ppl like. none of it refreshes me or makes me want to keep going
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i’m hoping my neutering in a couple weeks doesn’t get cancelled bcuz of the IV bag hospital shortage but if they do push it to next year i’m going to go celebrate christmas with averi lol
#by god i am going to make something good happen at the end of this year#i rly do hope i can have surgery tho cuz my life plans have been hinging on this getting done
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sometimes I wish I was a more interesting + charismatic person just so I could keep conversations going bc I like sharing space with other ppl but they routinely lose all interest and leave once I run out of things to say/start talking abt things that don't concern them :-(
#and boy do I run out of things to say so fast when I'm talking to friends who ik dont give a fuck abt any of my interests...#theres only so much i can make small talk or ask them questions abt their own interests/lives yknow. man#it just makes me feel like im constantly competing with smth else for other ppls attention all the time + constantly losing#eg. when i say smth + my flatmate reaches for her headphones a little dark souls banner appears across my vision like INTERACTION FAILED#and i can feel my rsd + insecurities praying on it like the more i feel this way the more it prophetically fulfils itself#by making me less willing to try and take up space so i become a smaller and smaller person around others#it frustrates me a lot sometimes and i dont rly have the will rn to undo that and force myself to take up more space regardless#ik this sounds like a water is wet complaint like oh nooo woe is me people get bored of me when i talk abt boring things (!!)#but when im spending time w ppl i like i enjoy listening to them talk even if im not interested in the subject bc its Them talking#and if they care abt smth then its worth hearing abt!! to me anyway. but it rly feels like no one reciprocates that idk#oh well not that it matters. at least i like the shit im into so i can talk to myself abt it in my head or on this site lmao#and i like myself as a person even if other people dont so theres always that. ur no 1 should always be urself <3#voicing this makes me feel so stupid + embarrassed urgh. i hate being anxious abt dumb shit i hate being the sort of person who worries#that their friends privately dislike/just tolerate them or whatever bc id never want a friend to worry abt whether i thought that abt them#and im not naturally a very insecure person!! i think im just feeling particularly vulnerable atm bc of the season + jobhunting so long#+ the fact im dissatisfied with my current social life + still feel very wobbly from not having other ppl i can trust or rely on etcetcetc#and thats just bleeding into other areas. and it sucks a lot. but theres nothing to be done abt it rn bc im not going to communicate it#to other ppl bc im not pathetic enough to make my anxieties someone elses problem + beg for pity attention im too proud for that 👍#anyway. gonna play some noita + then i rly need to work out today bc thats probs part of why im feeling so shite#if ur reading this ignore me im just venting itll pass. i hope youre having a nice day :^)#.vent#.diaries
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Hoping sooo bad I can finish this route today
#twist rambles#just depends on if my body can handle the like. 3-4k words of story summary typing#but i rly hope i CAN get it done. if i do then i have 1-2 routes to do in a month. which is pretty easy minus the fact i think im gonna have#to manipulate the randomized quests you get a TON by save stating and hoping itll load good ones for me#either way kind of surreal that ive been able to get 200 pages of a guide typed in like nearly 2 months? this all started early October#but after im done w this i may continue making guides for obscure jp ps1 games as i slowly start yo l#*to learn Japanese. i think it would genuinely be fun and theres a lot of stuff im rly interested in that has no guide and barely any info#this means i WILL get worse about obscure games ok im so sorry#♟️
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Love that I had the thought “hmm well some of this stuff in my fic might not be completely accurate :/“
But then I reminded myself it’s like a totally self indulgent written for *me* thing,,, like yeah! It doesn’t have to be perfect, I am writing what makes my heart happy! That is all that should matter really!! And so now I feel okay, honestly. Good job, me.
That rly is an important thing to remember when creating things, is that foremost it should be making you happy, no matter inaccuracies or popularity or anything else
Also an essay of my thoughts about writing a pmd fic below in the tags hahah oops:
#lol yes I have been working on a pmd fic that I may or may not post when it’s done#it’s like such a conglomeration of different points in my life when I played the game and thoughts and feelings from throughout those times#something that can be. so personal#I wanna make a mark of having some pmd content shared I think so!#but yk so maybe there is some wavy logic in the human (before they became a Pokémon) being able to talk to Pokémon#but that is always how I imagined it must’ve been as a kid without question#and that I know Grovyle and the mc aren’t the main relationship the game wants focus on#but for me over the years I more and more find it fascinating to think about#especially just with the context of a friendship that now only has memories remaining with one person#and stuff like that#but I don’t super delve into angst bc I also rly just want this to be cozy at the end of the day#happy warm soft fuzzy cozy vibes#which I probably get from nostalgia alone here but writing it I feel those energies in it#but while the partner character doesn’t get as much of a focus she is still so dear to me methinks#idk this rambling has been going on so long rn lol#I hope all that I have been putting into this fic shows through in the end#I’m not even done writing it yet it has been a challenge at times but I sure do want to complete it#okay thanks and thanks like sm if you read the tags hahah <3#now we are going to do proper tags so maybe people will see this…#pmd#pmd explorers#pokemon mystery dungeon#pokemon#fanfic#writing#content creating#? idk what to tag bc the advice/whatever u would call it can apply to more than just writers I think…#pmd2#pmd eos#pmd sky
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#i am not doing well girlies#disclaimers that i am fine i'm always fine i will always be fine but hooo boy i do not feel fine lol#everything is always overwhelming i am always sad everything feels itchy#every single morning for weeks ive woken up with an anxiety bellyache and no matter how tired i am still i just have to get up#everyone i look up that i used to know is like. married and having babies or working their dream jobs and i just. im happy for them. i am#but where do i belong in all of this?#i know everything feels worse lately bc we're moving house and the routine changes and empty rooms feel Bad#plus my mom has not been doing well mentally which i feed off so it's just. you know#but will i ever Not feel like im so far behind? will i ever Not be deeply unsettled by even the mildest changes?#everything is so slow and so fast at the same time and it makes my head spin and we have a new friend who has a son my age and i was hoping#idk. that he'd be somewhat similar to me? falling behind a little bit too? maybe i could make a friend irl that understood a little?#but then i casually ask about him and oh no ofc he has a partner and family of his own etc etc#right. that's what i'm supposed to be doing at this age.ha#so many ppl i went to school with are married now. im turning the age this year that my mother was when she HAD me#meanwhile ive never even kissed anyone never even held a boy's hand never had any attention like that ever and#i wonder so often what it's like to be wanted by someone but ive never felt more undesirable#i cant imagine anyone looking at me and Wanting me. and at this point as romance obsessed as i am idk if i could even handle it#and the other night i was having anxiety dreams over the fact that i rly want kids but even waiting until im 30 thats only 5 years??#and 30 is already fucking five years away from being considered a GERIATRIC pregnancy?? but im not even done being a kid myself!!!!#and also who the fuck is gonna have a kid with me?? and who knows if i can even get pregnant when i rarely have a period ??#and i cant imagine not liiving with my mom and sister but does that mean i'll live with them forever??#will i be 30 35 40 45 still feeling like a kid? or worse.. will i not feel like myself at all?#will i be married to someone i dont love madly simply bc im so terrified to be alone?#or will i hold so tightly to my stories and fantasies that i will be alone bc nothing could ever live up to them?#will it even matter what i want? will anyone ever want me to even give me the option? or will this all stay hypothetical forever#im just. stressed. and i thought i'd be more by now.
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a colleague of mine used to be a professional athlete in the 80s and today she showed me and another colleague photographs from back then and she casually mentioned that two of her team mates outed themselves as trans men and two as lesbians later in life and i was like !!!!!! im
#not fandom related#personal log stardate#i want to write more but im not sure what im feeling and how to express it#she used the phrase 'man in a woman's body' to mean they are trans man which i found v good actually#bc she seemed to fully except and support them. these guys and dykes should be in their late 50s now i think? idk any older queer ppl#so having an older colleague casually mention that felt v good#also they all were from a small town i think#just like me!!! i know several of my high school friends are also queer. like. me and at least 2 others#but we all outed ourselves way later. years after high school#oh fuck i just realized i completely misspelled 'accept'. i've had a long week ugh#anyway tomorrow i gotta make a horrible phone call w my broken phone and i already hate it and i'm dreading it#abt my phone. it doesn't charge anymore so i have it turned off at all times so i can make phone calls when the urgent need arises#and tomorrow i have to call electrician. not bc i want to but bc i was ordered to and i absolutely fucking hate it#*an electrician. or a janitor. idk yet#the other person who could call instead of me is just straight up rejecting to do it but it rly urgently needs to be Done#so im gonna have to step up as the mature person now and i tell myself 'it needs to be done end of discussion'#but i hate that i am always always always the person who has to take care of uncomfortable things like making phone calls and shit#like. i get it. it's necessary. there will always be phone calls i have to make. it's just. why me??? i fucking hate this shit!!! AAAAAAAHHH#anyway i should go to bed. i haven't checked my notifs yet it's been a rly exhausting week. hope you guys are ok thi#*tho
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Returning to the nugget brainstorming grind. My bald girlie I've had since forever is finally getting her well deserved lore 🎉🎉🎉
#rat rambles#oc posting#her name is gabriella and she was one of my very first nuggets and has always been legendary to me#although kind of for the worse in terms of her character since as a bit I kept her in storage for most of the first chunk of my playthrough#it was a whole thing of oh she's too good for this place she shouldn't have to work until after I defeated whitenight and suddenly had an#extra paradise lost suit that I didnt know who to give it to#so she got boosted to level five and placed in the disciplinary department#I think previously the only time she had done anything was when I was researching your bald#anyways those days are over I am no longer letting her rest easy she gets horrific trauma now <3#Im still fleshing things out but basically she was among the earliest employees still but ended up on yuri's radar#which lead to her being. unavailable for a while lets say.#and once yuri got bored of her she had to spend another good while recovering which she was only rly allowed to do for the sake of the#investigation into yuri's activities at the time that would eventually be dropped as it was decided that it wasnt worth the hassle#grabriella ofc was. upset abt the lack of meaningful action. to put it lightly.#when she was placed back on the work force she requested transerral to the disciplinary team in hopes she could do smth abt it#but ultimately it became clear to her that at this point yuri had become basically untouchable#she doesnt want to just fall into complacency like everyone else in this damn facility but she also wants to keep living so for the time#being she's gritting her teeth and tanking it in hopes that if nothing else she can outlive yuri#shes having a bad time basically#shes also basically the unofficial team captain since mason is an absolute deadbeat who barely does his job#and gabriella is Far more invested in the discipline side of the departments duties than anything else#she's trying to be reasonable about it but shes also become extremely desensitized to violence and suffering so shes. not great at it.#she herself doesnt lash out violently often but her coworkers definitely do and she kind of lets them do it since shed rather have a dead#employee than another yuri situation#anyways girlies with sunglasses hiding their big sad wet eyes <3333
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woahhh. did abt 1.2k words this session ??? excuse me ?? (i say, incredulous, but thrilled)
WE ARE AT 10K WORDS PEOPLE THIS IS NOT A DRILL !!!! i haven't written anything this winding in forever, so this is a bloody shock to me. i'm genuinely so excited !
finally saved cream, the reunion has happened. now up to composing themselves, devising a plan to keep cream where she is for Safety Reasons, then moving on to the final stretch of this piece (for now heheheh): the black hawk ride
DUDE, if i can crack on tmrw in the time that i have, AND power on on friday, i'll be ready to go, no problem ! if i can sort my shit out and get this done in time for deadline- i'll consider myself blessed by the universe bc that would be sooo good rn
anyway, it's almost 2am and i kinda wanna wake up at a decent time so i can return to writing asap. gn !!! x
#bee blabs#this fic is my everything#while i am dying in order to get it done#i'm thriving off the progress i'm making here#gotta remind myself just to manage my time wisely and i shld be good to go !!#i can't wait for all this#this fic may or may not become my magnum opus#after all this i rly do hope that the person who is receiving this fic as a gift likes it ;-;#bc my blood sweat tears and my nonexistent hypothetical firstborn have been sacrificed#all for this silly little fic#i have no shame but i will if it turns out they hate shadow 05#bc i can and will cry in that case
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