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the crash out from wreck is so justified miss juan i respect and fear you the homosexual anguish you have caused is wild
but also. the fact that even villains are manufactured to drive ratings and views shifts my entire thought process. of course tbhx's perspective on heroes is incredibly reminiscent of idol culture and drama but the fact nice and wreck came from the same company is horrific. we don't even know how the structural damage done by them is paid for (though i guess they have enough money to fix it?? they did god knows how many advertisements and promos, surely its enough to pay for property damage), but they are quite literally destroying homes and damaging the lives of everyday citizens because of marketing and publicity.
#tbf its the hero industrial complex as a whole that caused this#not just miss juan#but i respect her intensity#locking nice and xiao yueqing in the same floor for an entire month is wild. miss juan the woman that you are#tbhx#tu bian yingxiong x#to be hero x#tbhx spoilers
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a coworker who I very much admire and respect, and who I am very much a little bit very afraid of, watched me do a tour today
I did not do well.
I did my best! But there was so much room for improvement.
At the end of it, my coworker said she had some feedback for me, "but only if you want it, I know that some people feel a certain kind of way about getting feedback from people who aren't their managers, and you and I are equals here", and when I told her I would love to hear it, she led me off to a private part of the museum and spent a solid half-hour talking with me about how I could have improved
She had written notes. Like, her copy of the day's schedule was covered, front and back, in notes. Which she happily gave me when I asked if I could have it.
I forgot about this part of working in education. The part where we all want each other to succeed, because we have a mission together, and the more we build each other up, the more able we are to put that mission forward.
#the bear roars#I wound up admitting to her that I am kind of afraid of her#and she laughed and put a hand on my shoulder#and said very seriously "oh Jonah... EVERYONE is afraid of me here!'#I love her so much and respect her so much and admire her so much#I desperately want her to think I'm Cool and a Good Educator#it's not even like she's mean or grumpy#she's just Intense#and she does not suffer fools or misbehavior#if I can be even half as good at my job as she is I will be a legend
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2025.
Please be good.
#studyblr#lifeblr#work life balance#adulting#rest#mental health#stoicism#philosophy#stoic philosophy#i want to live life on my own terms 😣#bookblr#sustainability#cozycore#grandmacore#(i have been told my fashion sense is like an old lady's)#(sometimes people think my sense of style is ugly...but i think it's cute and/or quirky)#i want to stay true to who i am and who i want to be#speaking of which maisie dobbs is in the board bc i lowkey aspire to be like her lol#marcus aurelius#chaotic academia#i want to prioritize my hobbies#playing piano (the healthiest place for the most intense emotions to go) is key to maintaining my sanity#oxford#healing#i want to respect my body's needs for physical movement (especially strength exercises 😩) and for rest#vision board#dream life#affirmations#manifesting
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AUSTRALIAN OPEN FINAL 2015 | Serena Williams defeats Maria Sharapov 6-3, 7-6
#maria sharapova#serena williams#tennisedit#tennis#season:2015#HOW WAS THIS TEN YEARS AGO....#it is genuinely SOOOO insane to me how serena's face falls at how sad maria sounds and how she's so focused on their record#and then she comes back SO quickly when maria is nice to her again#and obviously the narrative of their rivalry is so complicated#and externalized#but to ME when it's just about them as players and without the outside noise#which is prob impossible to consider but idc#it is SO interesting because i DO think at least before the doping stuff#there was a level of respect there that was SO intense and their matches were SO intimate#and they both look forward to playing each other but in SUCH different ways#and maria felt SO much pressure and serena was more just having fun in a sense?#but this whole speech thing felt like serena cared SO much about what maria thought of herrrr godddddd
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today’s thoughts are of chigiri having a crush on his sister’s friend
#pie.talk#maybe crush is too light a word lol he is obsessed#i also like to think it makes him sweat a little#like you only know him from the cutified little brother lense Koyuki has presented him in#like yes he is a professional football player and has a very confident personality and admirable drive#but he also believed in santa until he was like 11 and you probably hear a bunch of other stories from Koyuki#that paint him as a spoiled little brother with a questionable personality#i think u usually only tend to see each other when in the presence of Koyuki and i feel like he's a bit more squishy around his family#i do think he is still pretty bold and blatant about his affection for u since that's just who he is#but u also know a lot about him from a source he has no control over so i think that makes him maybe nervous? a little pissed off? lol#his worst enemy is the 'little brother hyoma' image that exists in your head thanks to Koyuki#like you smile at him or say something nice to him and it sorta makes him crash out. he needs you to like him for HIM not because of Koyuki#he is working overtime and okay maybe he is leaning into the younger brother image a tiny bit to worm his way into your heart more#lulling you into a false sense of peacefulness until he lays it on really thick (bam sudden corny kabedon idk) he WILL have you#if ur still here...#this is now the sengoku period au portion#you are the wetnurse for koyuki's son and you live at the chigiri estate tragic past etc the cw list is longggg#he's effected by an old knee injury and is coddled by his family because he's the heir so he's extra antsy and huffy#rules? him being the clan heir? ur respect and gratitude for his sister and wishing to repay her?#he does not care and he will have you#comes off way too strong it feels like you're being hunted even though he is respectful of ur boundaries to an extent#eyes too intense#words too bold and direct and when he finally touches you it's so passionate and reverent it feels like ur burning#all consuming#you love it despite feeling that you do not deserve it
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I think all trans people ought to voice train in general like...
I keep getting wonderful trans women who share tips about voice training and now it's like... How cool would it be to have a secret Girl Voice locked and loaded. The sheer power these women possess will be my own Icarus situation istg
#trans#transgender#lgbt#lgbtq#ftm#mtf#nonbinary#voice training is a wide and beautiful spectrum but it's something i have never done#i didn't try vocal masculinizing but one of the videos i watched on that was done by a trans woman#the RESPECT i felt for her 😭😭#especially because voices (and voice dysphoria) is so intense for many people (not all ofc)#thank you trans women :3
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using my credentials as a top .1% mitski listener for two years in a row i have brought you mitski KL classifications
recommendations/strong matches are bolded
Laurel Hell // Be The Cowboy // Puberty 2 // Bury Me At Makeout Creek // Retired from a Sad, New, Career in Business // Lush
Keith
Everyone
Valentine, Texas
Stay Soft
Love Me More
A Pearl
A Horse Named Cold Air
Blue Light
Washing Machine Heart
I Bet on Losing Dogs
Thursday Girl
I Will
I Don't Smoke
First Love/Late Spring
Humpty
I Want You
Strawberry Blond
Wife
Door
Lance
The Only Heartbreaker
There's Nothing Left For You
Working For The Knife
Nobody
Me and My Husband
Lonesome Love
Remember My Name
Fireworks
A Burning Hill
Texas Reznikoff
Townie
Francis Forever
Carry Me Out
Goodbye, My Danish Sweetheart
Brand New City
Abbey
Both/either/interchangeable
Heat Lightning
Geyser
Come Into The Water
Pink in the Night
Two Slow Dancers
Once More to See You
anything not listed has been given careful consideration but would be too much of a reach to apply to them and/or is too personally about experiences of the human condition mitski herself has lived
Im open to healthy debate on any of these but just know i come armed with explanations for all
#i never realized how many references to knives she makes. because whenever i hear abt a knife i think of keith LOL#and apparently i disrespect mitski enough to make this listing but i DO respect her enough to omit some of her most intense ones#(i am a white woman i am NOT about to file Your Best American Girl LOL)#and a few of hers are about old flames/lost love which is obviously not the vibe we need here#still may draw a piece for each album but not sure. puberty 2 lacks any real close matchups (as u can see i omitted almost all of it)#obviously not a lot of Lush made it on here either because that ones for the girls#mitski when she writes about the horrors of being a woman#there was more lance than i thought! keith is very mitski coded#but i expected the ratio to skew way more in his favor#just shows mitskis talent and range i guess#klance#mitski
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just read this part of the adventurer's bible and

do you think toshiro was originally attracted to falin (whilst still being irritated by many of her same traits in laios) because he thought his father would find her interesting???


#undescribed#eliot posts#dunme#dungeon meshi#dm spoilers#idk how i feel about him#my first impression was positive bc he had a cool character design (and i found him quite handsome personally lol)#but also he was mean to laios :(#but also laios was asking him intrusive questions and messing up his name#but also he should have just spoken up instead of expecting others to just read his mind#but also dude was a nobleman in what looks like feudal era japan#which to my (albeit limited) historical knowledge had even more intense politeness rules than like. the victorian era#so if the dunmeshi world is like the irl era then it could be a cultural thing that he felt he couldn't vocalize that stuff directly#and also he was in love with falin and seemed to like her weirdgirl tendencies. which i appreciate and respect. like. me too dude.#but also how much was genuine feelings and how much was seeing her as a novelty?#BUT ALSO did his family own fucking SLAVES??? and was he cool with that???#or did i miss something/am i misunderstanding something?#like is the guy having a sixpenceee moment here#or am i just misunderstanding context/history here?
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So given the Internet Archive is in the process of losing their court case, I figured I should go read the copy of Cyteen they have available before I lose access. I didn't click with Downbelow Station, so I wasn't expecting to click with another Alliance/Union book either. I had plans for today which reading part of a book could fit in. But it turns out Cyteen pt1 is a thesis entitled "Here's A Scientist Called Ariene Emory. She Is Completely In Control And Also The Worst," and anyway, now my entire day and a significant part of tomorrow is going to be reading Cyteen.
#cyteen#cj cherryh#emory I say this with the greatest admiration: bitch what the hell#admiration and disgust*#this is the most gordian book I've ever encountered#this is a murder mystery where everyone is too distracted to notice it's a murder mystery#placing my personal bet on “she suicided to fuck over the warricks and get her plan working”#I'm at like 50% and I also respect this book's intense horsegirl energy
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kidswaps that i'm making. dave plays the sims models them after his friends and mother and psychoanalyzes them and rose would have listened to 100 gecs if 100 gecs existed in 2009. thank you
#they are a rogue of time and prince of light respectively#technically rose's sprite is the equivalent of dave's scratched shirt sprite i just put it here because she looks cooler here#both of them have deep and intense Issues dave is a typical spoiled rich kid but also has attention issues and rose is intensely neurotic#dave's symbol is meant to be the side of a headphone but i couldn't really figure out how to do it and the last thing i tried looked vaguel#phallic which is kind of relevant but not exactly what i want.#i've made june harley but i'm not super happy with her so i'll probably post her with jade egbert. after making edits. if i get around to t#that#dave#rose#dave lalonde#rose strider#art tag#kidswap#rose lalonde#dave strider#rose is transfem by the way. by assignment from my friend. don't worry about it ❤
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caitlyn coming down to the cells, seeing vi and being like "oh yeah i had a feeling that your depressed starved sister who's been sitting here in filth for days would escape and lock you in there. btw on the off chance you wanted hot jail sex in there, i already sent all the guards away 👀" like GIRL YOU PLANNED FOR THIS??? caitlyn NOT beating the freak allegations im afraid
#if it was any other person i would give them the benefit of the doubt and say the guards were sent away to give jinx an easy escape#but it's caitlyn sorry she has the highest body count of the show in every meaning#intentionally got spat on and wiped it towards her mouth while maintaining intense eye contact. certified freak. she knows what she's doing#respect. im here for it#caitlyn kiramman#arcane#arcane spoilers#arcane season 2 spoilers#arcane s2 spoilers
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There's something about say doing a whole bunch of laundry or hand washing all your dishes after cooking a large meal when you're twenty that brings me this strange childlike joy and sense of accomplishment when I do it
It's like sure, I did this stuff prior to adulthood, but that was out of obedience to my mother. Now I am an adult living on my own and now I am doing these things because I have to for me and only me and have to willingly choose to do them
And it's like wow I did it I'm so grown up!
#its like yay i did it! then i can here my mother saying good now go do the four other things you need to do#because she is the type of person who is can't stop won't stop so like she doesn't often understand that for me doing even like one big#thing in the day its like it's the only thing on my mind because i have to like prepare myself to do it#i also am baffled when i see people in college who its their first time doing chores and shit#like it was expected for me to do this stuff as a kid and if my mom said to do something you do it right away#which makes my mom sound intense but like she wasn't super authoritarian in her parenting and she allowed for kvetching whining and trying#to negotiate given that you still did as told#also my mother's jewish and her job is contract negotiation so she is impossible to win an argument against#also from what i hear about gen alpha like damn they do not respect their parents like what the fuck#like its insane#also people getting money for doing household chores. my mom doesn't believe in rewarding someone for doing what is expected of them#but she periodically of course would give me money for stuff or buy me stuff so it works out#and like i know people complain about gen z's work ethic but my sisters and i have always been praised for ours#since doing your 110% and what you're expected to do and more was something taught to us early on. it's your duty to do so so you do it#nothing is for incentive#my mom has very high standards#idk why i felt like putting all of this in the tags#i guess since i was raised to give my 110% it makes tasks feel daunting and when theres no one to ensure i do them it takes a lot#of self motivation and since it feels so hard i guess its why it feels like when you're a kid and you're doing something for the first time#and you're not sure you can do it but you did and it's like yay!
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watched John Wick for the first time and words truly cannot express the whiplash I got seeing my teenage bdsm awakening Mother Confessor Kahlan Amnell on the screen with my own two eyeballs in the year of our lord 2025
^you know. this one
#the way i shipped her with Cara back in the day... intense actually#and i love how in retrospect LotS is clearly the author having a kink and not being afraid to show it. and by god i respect it#everyone say thank you Bridget Regan for bloodrage!Kahlan#in this house we love nothing more than beautiful women killing and maiming#Bridget Regan girl what are you up to. come back to me. i need someone to give you the touch of death again
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Why don’t we ever address how Hinata has scary dog privilege in like 5 different directions? Her team is made up of a feral dogboy and an extremely intimidating autistic bug enthusiast, she literally has a cousin who was born to be her bodyguard, and the Guy who contains the aura of a nigh omnipotent ancient fox spirit is allegedly her love interest. And if that weren’t enough, she’s the wielder and heir of one of the most powerful jutsus in the entire land???
Her dynamic with them is so fun, how it grows from either resentment to a genuine care and respect in Neji’s case, from a misplaced sort of ‘damsel in distress’ thing with Kiba and Shino to them just growing to love her and want to protect her, for Naruto a goofy childhood shyness and possibly a crush to both of them mutually willing to do anything to protect the other. That’s so fun and cool???? Why do we never explore that??? (I know the answer it’s because the writers hate women and are too busy making Naruto and Sasuke kiss on the mouth)
Why is it never ‘oh, Don’t Mess with Hinata. The four guard dogs that have essentially tied themselves to leashes at her feet will kick your ass. And if they don’t, she will’
#HINATA MY BELOVED!!!#thinking about she and kiba and Shinto’s dynamic today#like kiba is a feral little dogboy id imagine he’d think she was snobbish or snooty at first#then realize oh wait she’s really sweet actually I should try to protect her#and then realize oh wait she could kick anyone’s ass she doesn’t need my protection. but I want to give it anyway because she’s my friend :)#same with shino I think she’d be intimidated by him intially because he’s so intense and so quiet#and he’d not really care about her until she showed him her sweetness and respect#and then he wakes up one day and realizes he’d die for her#AUNGHGHg#TEAM EIGHT I LOVE YOUUUUUUUU#Naruto
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Thoughts on toxic yuri?
One of my very favorite storytelling concepts, I love it when women make each other worse. <3
I do think it's important, for me anyway, to note the difference between a dynamic that's toxic in one direction versus something that is mutually toxic. The first one doesn't really interest me a whole lot, usually because it means one character suffers constantly without being allowed to do anything else--at the very least, it will come across as the more ""normal"" character not really being that into the relationship in question. I need BOTH parties to be unhinged.
The important thing for any fictional relationship (though we're specifying toxic yuri here, obviously) is that it's interesting. If there is no limit to what the women can do within a dynamic, then there are an infinite number of ways for that dynamic to go. And while you can learn a lot about a character through examining their values and positive qualities, you can learn just as much (if not more) by considering their flaws. And those flaws really come out in the case of toxic yuri; characters get to show the uglier parts of themselves in this context, which I am always a fan of. A fraught, complex relationship, when written well, can be a really great way to psychologically explore the characters: what inspires them to act this way? why do they think this behavior is acceptable? if they don't think it's acceptable, why do they keep doing it? what do they think about the concept of love as a whole? how far would they go for intimacy or to be understood? how do they view other people in general? and probably most importantly, what led to them developing the beliefs underlying their actions in the first place?
From a more "psychologically, why do people enjoy this" standpoint, mutual toxicity often goes hand in hand with extreme obsession, extreme jealousy, and a willingness to forgive a whole lot of horrible shit. Which, yeah, in real life you don't want to be in a relationship like that. But I think there's a lot of emotional resonance in exploring those feelings. The idea that someone will never leave you. That they think so intensely about you specifically that they'll break anything and anyone to stay with you. That even if you're the worst version of yourself, someone will still want you because that's still you. Someone knows exactly how to fuck you up because they genuinely understand you. Things in fiction that we would never want in real life can be incredibly interesting or even cathartic to witness from a distance. I think we all feel things that scare us sometimes (or even simply feel an innocuous emotion so intensely that it scares us), and looking at unpleasant feelings within fiction can help identify, parse out, process, and successfully cope with those feelings. And I think, at the end of it all, a lot of people want to matter to someone, in some way. It makes sense that some creators would take that concept-of meaning a great deal to another person, of affecting them deeply-to its absolute extreme through writing.
(And also, consider. That I am very gay. And that horrible women are very attractive.)
#good morning I am here to make my Thoughts™ everybody's problem :)#THANK YOU I LIKED THIS ONE A LOT#multi t(ASK)ing#also thank you for making 'yuri' pink that delighted me#me + messy wlw media <-this too is yuri#behold! a creation!#also re: mutual toxicity. I understand that this is quite a thing to claim to want when probably The™ wlw ship of all time for me is#mireille x silvana#but a) mireille is rather unhinged on her own outside of her relationship with silvana courtesy of being a highly cynical assassin#(and is herself not immune to doing some pretty intense shit for the sake of people she loves)#b) mireille is committed to KILLING silvana for said toxic behavior.#& also c) their rivalry is so DEEPLY personal that mireille is still obsessed with silvana even if it's for...not the same reason silvana#is obsessed with mireille. like the TYPE of obsession is different but the LEVEL of obsession is the same. if that makes any sense.#(also. some of the ways mireille acts suggest that hate might not be the ONLY thing she feels toward silvana. there's obvious homoerotic#tension on silvana's end but I think there's some on mireille's too. at the very least she seems to regret that silvana wasn't#the kind of person mireille originally thought she was. along with probably a sick sense of pseudo-respect)#mel screams about fictional ladies again#writing#fiction#toxic romance#(<-not really sure how else to tag this)
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Should I force myself to talk to women on hinge
#I do not want to#but I am also actively trying to overwrite unrequited attraction that is actually making me ill#so like. idk.#would that count as exposure therapy in this context?#I was introduced to the concept of limerence and I feel a lot more normal about it#not in the sense of ‘I am okay now’#but in the sense of ‘this is a shared and recognized phenomenon that acknowledges the compulsive nature of it#and suggests that it may come from a similar neurological place/process/imbalance as OCD#so instead of well meaning people who don’t grasp how overwhelming these feelings are telling me to just try to date other people#I at least have the validation of ‘you are not crazy because other people have experienced this kind of debilitating intensity too’#and the suggestions for coping with and overcoming limerence include CBT/DBT#which is a lot more structured and helpful than my friends giving me well intentioned advice for something they don’t really understand#like I cannot tell you how much relief this has brought me#I don’t just have a crush on a straight woman and can’t get over it i literally have these non stop intrusive thoughts about her#coupled with the constant mental noise of i know she isn’t interested and i need to be respectful and maintain boundaries#it has literally made me feel like I’m losing my mind or some kind of stalker#but a mental stalker#anyway it has been incredibly unpleasant and upsetting and now I’m focusing on consciously stopping and countering those thoughts#and approaching it the same way as my other intrusive thoughts#also note: I tried to make an appointment with my therapist but she is overbooked and if this does not yield change I might spiral again
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